#no but like I’m nearly 20
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God hates me so I love to write and I can’t fucking do math thank you for making me completely unemployable I hate school so fucking much but imagine if I could just be a data analyst and make like 80k after a 4 year degree! Unfortunately that’s IMPOSSIBLE
#ramblings#according to astrocartography I should move to Chicago#I fear I’ll never be able to afford a nice apartment in a city#ill probably live with my parents forever#and maybe one day afford a shitty basement apartment in my hometown with gross carpeting and stupid linoleum in the kitchen#I am so scared of my own life!#hahahahaha#I’m so bad at everything meaningful#guys what if I never fall in love#hahahaha#wouldn’t that be crazy#no but like I’m nearly 20#i know that’s young but the walls are closing in#ahahahahahaha#no big d#no biggie#I’m chilling
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if we only get like one episode of ayda being back i’ll actually be so upset u don’t understand
#i know it will probably be a while before we see ayda in any way but i just wanted to say that ahead of time#how can u make a autistic lesbian phoenix librarian and then put her in plot jail nearly the entire season?#it’s not fair to me specifically#also like i know they’re busy but c’mon fig where’s the //yearning// where’s the SPICE#(and i do not mean spice in the booktok way i mean spice as in fig missing ayda)#and i’m not saying she doesn’t miss ayda i just want them to talk about her i miss her#ayda aguefort#fig faeth#figayda#fhjy#fantasy high junior year#dimension 20#d20 fhjy#original overanalyzing
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The thing about riz gukgak canon aroace being real to me is that it’s such a Brian Murphy thing to do. He’s so good with casual queer rep in naddpod and never directly saying it, and it just being a part of the world. He never says “Elzor and Syb are Non-binary and use they/them/theirs pronouns” or “Jaina is a butch lesbian and I directly portrayed that with her being a dwarf with no beard” or “erlin is a young boy being pushed into a traditionally masculine role in a religion and the same time he breaks out of that is the same day he kissed a boy” he doesn’t directly say these things bc he simply doesn’t need to. All of this is so glaringly obvious and in the same vein so is aroace riz. Additionally, it’s entirely in character for riz “I’m allergic to self reflection” gukgak to not know those words and have that vocabulary and adventuring party wasn’t around yet so there wasn’t really and out of character space to talk about it. N E ways, the gist is that riz gukgak is aroace, not just to me bc he should be to you as well, and I think it’s important we all know that
#I know not disclosing queer characters identity is a hotly debated issue#And some people do think that not saying it directly is bad rep#But I don’t think it is here necessarily#It’s just not the style I’ve ever seen Murph describe characters in#But like his intentions are so clear guys common#Also Riz’s character is not nearly as interesting if he’s alloromantic#Thinking about him again I’m so autism about it#dimension 20#Fantasy high#riz gukgak
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It’s hot how effortlessly I gain now. Years of slowing my metabolism and conditioning myself with the right habits has paid off.
I couldn’t stop getting fatter if I tried…
#and this has been through my 20’s#I’m nearly 30 now and the weight’s just going to pile on easier as I age#and I started at 135lbs that feels like a lifetime ago#chubote yaps
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Now whose going to tell 11 year old me who was a massive Narnia fanatic that I’d eventually end up years later spending like half an hour just now watching edits of the guy who once played Mr. Tumnus and who knows how many hours in total I have in the last week
#raineyrambles#times when I wish time travel was possible#to be fair tho I’ve only seen the first movie like 3 or 4 times in nearly 20 years#I was more of a prince Caspian movie Stan#also I’m talking about Charles Xavier here for context lol#narnia#charles xavier#james mcavoy
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am I the only one who gets so emotional every time fig calls gilear “dad.” when she started calling him “dad” again after not doing it for so long I nearly full on wept
#I feel like I made this up because I literally can’t find it now#but doesn’t at some point Emily is like nearly crying and calls him ‘dad’ or ‘daddy’ because he just died and came back??#like did I full make that up???#it would be a shame if I did because I remember it nearly took me the fuck out at the time#regardless…dads and daughters man it gets me SO bad#fantasy high#dimension 20#dropout#my musings#figueroth faeth#gilear faeth#if anyone knows what the fuck I’m talking about I beg of you pls tell me the time stamp
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Thinking back to when I was first diagnosed with scoliosis and how the pediatric orthopedist, when I mentioned that I was having near-constant back pain, looked at me and said something about how according to the textbooks the condition isn’t painful
#fuck that guy#in my lived experience it IS painful#my muscles are fighting a losing battle against my skeletal system#also like how fucked up is it for a grown man to tell a 14 year old girl what she is and isn’t feeling in her own body#nearly 20 years later and I’m still angry about that#scoliosis#chronic pain
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misc thoughts on the retcons
I can’t tell if the pacing is bad or if that’s just me getting disoriented by the past several months telling and retelling the same story.
While the fight between Flash and Sonic ended up more like the webcomic story wise, I didn’t enjoy it the same. The webcomic had a tension to it. It felt distinctly lonely and melancholy. But reading the manga redraws now, I feel kind of similar to how I did with the psychic sisters arc where it seemed like a “fixed” version of the webcomic?
Like, the story is still the same but the character dynamics are altered in a way that doesn’t make sense. They all get along a bit too well. Which would be fine if the story or enough dialogue was adjusted that it made sense, but that’s a step they skipped over.
For the retconned chapters, the emotion ONE and Murata were trying to communicate was different from the webcomic, but ultimately more successful for its place in the context of the manga. Between Flash and Sonic there was still pain and words left unspoken, just in a way that felt fitting. VS now it’s like they’re trying to communicate the webcomic tension but without any of the hard hitting moments where it felt like time slowed down that made the webcomic successful.
Anyways i know the arc isn’t done yet. There’s still time for it to pick up. I’m just feeing irritated and really don’t want to end up feeling more disappointed than I would otherwise because I have to compare whats now canon now vs what was retconned. (considering I liked the retconned version and felt it was successful to begin with 😭)
#opm#rambles#does this count as meta#fuck it we ball#opm meta#sorry for disgracing the meta tag with my poorly proofridden rambles as per usual but here r my thoughts#i’m not gonna complain about the art style i know muratas working on like 20 morbillion projects rn#but damn sonic is getting the tatsu treatment (though not nearly as bad)#*shudders*#kind of random but i kind of wonder if murata used to have more assistants for backgrounds before. it’s been feeling vacant lately.#reading my printed books and starting at the beginning hurts because i have to tell myself#don’t be spoiled don’t be spoiled don’t be spoiled don’t be spoiled don’t be#even more random but i like joking that murata needs to start reading yaoi again. you can tell when he does based on his art it’s funny
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Your “my god how out of touch am I” moment of the day is: I keep getting comments on this fic I’m writing that are like “worth waiting for the update”, “this was worth the wait” and I’m so confused because I have been posting chapters… every ten days at most? what wait, that’s a fast schedule, I thought! And the chapters are between 5k and 7k words each! Each! The fifth chapter is currently sitting pretty at 10 fucking k so I’ll probably have to split it in half…
But I’m dying over this I think it is wild lol. Do people not remember what it was like to have fics that updated every six months, if that, for nearly a decade? Is this something no one else remembers? Have we gotten so into instant gratification culture that waiting a week for 5 thousand words of fanfic is a long time?
This is all so wild to me so I guess I’ll go write another 5k about it lmfao
#am I that old like?? goddamn lmfao#meanwhile Ellis#I did this to myself obv the first chapter is 7k. I should have split it up because now I have locked myself into longer formats for each#chalter which means I am busting my balls writing everyday which is w I l d this was NOT on my 2024 bingo card at all#oh well I’m just along for the ride at this point and I refuse to slow my roll#this fic will top 35k by chapter 6 and it looks like my estimated 14 chapters is gonna end up being closer#to 17 - 20 if I’m gauging my outline correctly#who am I you guys what is happening this fucking cartoon has straight up bodied me#me: I never complete nanowrimo writing 30k in a month is hard#also me: I will write nearly 40k in fanfic in a month though out of nowhere for no reason
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I would bet actual money that not a single teacher at Aguefort has an education degree. Hopclap probably has a psychology degree and that’s as close as he’s gotten
#like they have good traits but they’re all just such shit educators#I am literally getting a bachelors in education right now!#in fact I’m nearly done with it!#I’ve been teaching and interacting with children since I was one!#they’re all so bad at this!#dimension 20#fantasy high junior year
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#alia talks#turning 25 this month and I was having some semi existential crises this month#but I was thinking#when I was 18 I dropped out of [prestigious uni] half way thru first sem bc I couldn’t hack it#stayed T home and did community college for 3 years before transferring to [comparatively mid tier ranked] uni#I used to feel so much shame over it#And fear over whether or not I’d get a job move out etc#But now that I’m halfway thru my 20s I’ve been looking back#and as of right now I’m the only person in my family with health insurance#One of the things my parents used to warn me about was that by age 26 you cannot be in your parents insurance in the USA#So by that point I needed to have a full time job#And I used to be scared ghat I’d never make it#And now I’m a year away from 26#And I’m employed full time w health insurance coverage#Meanwhile both my parents are currently unemployed/self-employed#And most likely cannot ever get a full time job for [reasons]#And my younger sibs don’t have health insurance due to being uni students#(I mean they do through their college maybe)#Just that currently in my family I’m the only one with health insurance through my job#Something I was afraid I wouldn’t have at this age or something that I’d lose#And after nearly 7 years of having ShameTM over it
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My ADHD riddled ass who hasn’t finished a real book since 5th grade somehow managed to sit down and read The Autobiography of Special Agent Dale Cooper: My Life In Tapes in its entirety yesterday and in my completion of it I’d like to share excerpts of the Sleep Experiment Cooper did on himself in College:
#twin peaks#Dale Cooper#The Autobiography of Special Agent Dale Cooper: My Life In Tapes#I somehow read an ENTIRE book yesterday#I spent the whole day sat down just READING#it was fucking insane#I read from ~2:20 to 10:14#I paused twice for short food breaks#but for the majority of that nearly 8 hour period I was READING A BOOK#y’all don’t realize how little I’ve actually read full books#I figured out I can finish a book if I just listen to it but even that doesn’t always work#actually the last time I finished a book was when I read upside down magic in 4th grade#this was like a 195 page book and I FINISHED IT#I’m so bad at finishing things I’m proud of myself
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Watching A Crown of Candy has been heartbreaking and incredible but possibly my favorite moments are those where Brennan is explaining something very serious and then throws out that the Vegetanian’s have a legend of the Jolly Giant and then just moves on like it’s nothing. This campaign contains multitudes.
#I’m nearly done and will say this campaign has shown me why it’s good I’ve never watched game of thrones and why I should continue to not#I can’t handle it all#my spouse is going to watch it and asked if it was good and I was like it’s amazing so good and it’s also so upsetting#a crown of candy#dimension 20#dimension 20 acoc#acoc#acoc spoilers
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being an adult is so weird bc like wdym i need to go to work tomorrow i’m still processing jey uso pinning roman ????
#fun fact wrestling is my most consistent hyperfixation like it’s been nearly constant obsession my entire life#and that’s so wild like i’m 20 and i got the same hyperfixation i did when i was 7#idk if that’s a hyperfixation or something else at that point but 😭#having to restrain myself from telling the customers and my coworkers the new wrestling lore#wwe#jey uso#jimmy uso#the usos#roman reigns#the bloodline#mitb
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I’m not saying I manifested this into existence BUT-
#this is actually insane#how are we feeling#mother 3#I shit on Nintendo a lot yes but they did good this time#like yes it sucks it’s a Japanese exclusive but for not agknowledging this game for nearly seventeen years this is amazing#AND OFFICIAL PLUSHIES??? HELLO???#I wanna buy them so bad but alas I’m a lower middle class poverty stricken college student living with my mommy at 20#but trust. I will be buying.#claus mother 3#mother 3 lucas#earthbound#nintendo e3#nintendo#wondererdiscuss
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public speaking as an industry is so wild like people are out there collecting over 2000€ paychecks from doing 20 minute key note speeches like that’s more than a lot of people make in a month
#like literally that’s hundreds of euros more than what i make in a month like please be so for fucking real#i need to find a speaker and i’m getting kind of angry lol like 👍#good for them i guess but like over 2000€ for a 20 minute speech is OUTRAGEOUS and like there are more expensive ones out there and the more#run of the mill speakers don’t make nearly as much but like lol dear god#and like of course it’s much more than just talking like you have to write speech etc but even then. lol.#da.post
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