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Ocean Chant

This is Ocean Chant! Released in October 2024, it costs 3470 diamonds with free tries. It is paired with Nocturne Melody in the Nebula Desert event, and is the second suit you get. In the original Chinese, it was called 瀚海行吟 "Chant of Desert Travels", which is clearly a much better name. They entirely lost the point with "Ocean Chant".





The camel gets more promo pics than Nikki does. Rip Nikki.
This suit comes with a posed dress, posed hair, makeup, 2 face veils, 2 veil items, and 3 movable accessories. I will not be getting this suit, so I won't be able to do a full breakdown.
However, Vivi Gaming has one, so here's her video. The Ocean Chant breakdown starts at 4:49.
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#love nikki#suit breakdown#love nikki suit breakdown#ocean chant#event suit#no breakdown available#october 2024#2024#requires diamonds#Wasteland category#posed#posed dress#posed accessories#includes moveables#makeup included#white#brown#green#plants#cacti#Youtube
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In which Ford struggles so badly to relate to other people that he wonders if he’s really human at all. The more isolated he becomes, the harder it is to reconcile with his own humanity.
#my art#gravity falls#Stanford pines#ford pines#bill cipher#comic#eye strain#TIME TO DUMP EVERY ONE OF THE 27483949 THOUGHTS IVE HAD INTO THE TAGS BABY#OK!! SO!!!!#I feel like Ford would wonder why he and Stan (being identical twins) aren’t. yk. identical. shouldn’t Stan have polydactyly too?#as a kid he would dream about secretly being nonhuman and being whisked away to a fantastical world full of people like him#finally free of new jersey‚ finally somewhere he belongs#a lot of this disconnect from humanity came from utterly failing at social interactions while others (including stan) navigated them easily#the feeling waned after Stan was kicked out and he didn't have that direct comparison but it never left#then out in the wilderness of gravity falls‚ his isolation and immersion in Weirdness dragged it back up to the forefront#he deserves to have a breakdown over questioning his own nature. as a treat <3#color symbolism time bc I have a problem and use it at every available moment!!! blue and yellow get more vivid#the further from humanity the subject is#bill is entirely made w pure rgb blue and yellow (+ approximately 2674835 textures/layers/blending modes. I reached 150+ layers. help)#I like the idea that he would appear to ford like pure math considering hes a geometrical motherfucker and how the rest of the mindscape wa#I tried to mostly use trigonometry and related stuff for the Math Greebling. as well as fractals i love you forever fractals#MORE SYMBOLISM:#the grid-ish diamond pattern in all of the mindscape bgs (and elsewhere) is a penrose diagram of spacetime#which shows other universes on the other sides of black holes#SOMEONE ASK ME ABOUT MY EUCLYDIA HEADCANON LATER. IVE DUMPED ENOUGH DUMB HCS IN THESE TAGS ALREADY#BUT I THINK ITS VERY FUN#anyways. fuckt up guys n their egos influencing how they view humanity. bill tells ford hes as human as they come bc he was so easily foole#ford cant reconcile with his humanity bc of a failure to perform in one area#and then the immense guilt and shame over what hes done <3#I have So many ford characterization thoughts. no man nor god can stop me
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I wrote a radioapple fic. It's rated G and technically for Valentine's Day. Charlie has everyone do a Valentine's Day activity together.
Beta @somevariationofgay
The human holiday of Valentine’s Day had been around for over a century in the Pride ring, and of course with the Vee’s controlling many pockets of sinner and hellborn alike throughout all of hell, the holiday had only become more of an overexuberant affair.
Alastor was not a fan.
The concept itself wasn’t enticing to begin with to him, but he didn’t hate the sentiment. Growing up, he and his ma had exchanged cards. As soon as he was able to read, she would include a riddle in every card she gave him, no matter the holiday. The Valentine’s day cards riddle would always have an answer related to the concept of love. Which he had felt, for his Ma and a handful of precious others.
Though he had never felt it like, that. The way most of the hell liked to celebrate it. Which brought Alastor back from his thoughts and to the unfortunate reality unfolding in front of him.
Angel Dust had walked into the room after getting off a shift, letting out a string of profanity as he did. It was actually surprising to see him have the evening off work, given what day it was. He vaguely remembers Charlie’s monologue earlier referencing that the spider demon had been there since the 13th. There had been a midnight countdown show on the noise box, celebrating what the Vee’s had also dubbed as that moth’s birthday.
Husk hands Angel a drink on his way to Alastor, handing him one as well as he sitting on Alastor’s. Alastor didn’t drink often but felt like he was going to need it for this bonding experiment. Charlie walked in then, arm looped with her father, the pathetic excuse of a king. It looked as if she was practically dragging him along. Which did cause Alastor’s normal, serene smile to twitch a bit more towards entertained. A flutter of excitement courses through him.
“I am so, so, so glad to see you all here!” The princess of hell beamed, clapping her hands together. Lucifer reluctantly and awkwardly sitting on the couch next to Alastor, the only seat not taken in the circle they’d been instructed to sit in. As that had been the one instruction written on the chalkboard board when they convened here. Vaggie appeared from somewhere, placing paper, glitter, scissors, and other various crafting supplies in the middle of the circle.
Ah.
The realization of what they were doing hit Alastor before Charlie started talking.
“We.” She began, pausing for dramatic effect, “Are.” Another pause, “Making-Valentine’s-Day-cards!” The last burst of words coming out in a collective flurry. Alastor appreciated the pauses, but if on a broadcast, the delivery of the last bit would be unacceptable.
“For each other?” Angel asks, glancing around the table.
“Yes!” Charlie says. “Just to the person on your right, though. Oh! Unless you want to make more!” She tacks onto the end.
Glances are shared around the table. Given their circular arrangement, it looks like Niffty is writing for Angel Dust, Angel Dust to Husk, Husk to Alastor, Alastor to Lucifer, Lucifer to Vaggie, Vaggie to Charlie, Charlie to Niffty.
Alastor doesn’t say anything, but his ears bend backwards as Charlie continues, “I thought we could maybe share them after? Or keep them private. As long as there isn’t anything mean.”
She shoots both Alastor and Lucifer with a pointed look. A short reel playing in Alastor’s head of a flour-covered kitchen, a piano shaped hole in the lobby ceiling, and other events that happened when the two crossed paths.
With a resigned “hmmm,” Alastor reaches for a piece of paper. The others follow suit, normally returning as casual conversation and banter begin alongside the crafting. Alastor doesn’t want to make a card for the small being next to him. So he doesn’t, he makes one like he would have made to give to his Ma. Though the riddle he adds is most certainly a punch of the emotional variety.
What feels like an eternity after he’d finished, but had probably only been a few minutes, it seems like everyone was done. “Alright,” Vaggie begins, voice filled her normal authority. “Pass your cards to the right.”
Without looking, Alastor holds the card he made out to the king. He can feel the annoyed stare directed at him, and even if he couldn’t, the way their fingers gracelessly bump against each other as the blond took the card would be proof enough.
Instead, Alastor looks to Husk. Husker gives him a quick glance before looking away. Turning to meet Angel Dust’s seductive eyebrow wiggle.
Once their each hold the card made for them, they all look to Charlie. Seeming startled by everyone’s attention, she ushers with her hands for them to read their card. “Go on, let’s see what we were given and then, um, share if you feel comfortable.”
Alastor glances down as his card, the outside had a decently shitty cat paw doodled on it, giving a thumbs up. Lazily, he opened it and read, “You’re paws-itively my boss.”
A small, albeit amused, sound escaped Alastor’s lips.
“What is this?” Lucifer asked, looking once again at him. This time, Alastor does look back.
“Does your eyesight suffer along with your height?” Alastor asks. “It’s a Valentine’s Day card.”
Alastor watches, unable to look away now that the king has his attention. A deeply irritating trait of his. Alastor has found that once his eyes land on Lucifer, they have a hard time leaving. The monarch’s face scrunches up some, eyes blinking away the normal cloudiness they hold, replaced with fury, and his cheeks flush a bit golden.
“This.” He states, voice laced with frustration, as he holds up the card and points to the words written inside.”
“They’re words.” Alastor drawls, taking in each little twitch on Lucifer’s face. His eyebrows furrowing.
“Is this some sort of cannibalism kink?” He asks, and that got everyone else’s attention.
A small blast of static comes from Alastor. Taken out of the trance he had been in purely due to the audacity of that question. It shouldn’t surprise him that it went over Lucifer’s head. Not a hard thing to do.
“You can swallow me, but I can consume you too.” Alastor recites the riddle; voice laced with annoyance. “It’s pride. I figured since I was making a valentine for the embodiment of pride, it’s the only thing he’d want.”
Disappointedly, the fiery response he was expecting from the king didn’t come. Instead, Lucifer seems to deflate. Charlie begins to say something, but it turns to back round noise as his thoughts louden instead.
Soon enough, the activity comes to an end. Charlie gives Vaggie a big hug, it seems she’s thrilled with how well it went. Vaggie’s cheeks flush slightly, the two sharing a quick kiss. Husker and Angel Dust are heading to the bar, but Alastor notices Husk’s arm draped on Angel’s hip.
Lucifer had begun walking toward the stairs, and Alastor found himself following, musing, “Could it be having pride is not the same as loving oneself?”
“Look, I’m not in the mood. If Charlie hadn’t prohibited us using our teleporting abilities in the hotel, unless, like, for emergencies, I would be in my room already.”
“Too bad for you then, since we are headed the same direction.” Alastor also wished to retire, their rooms both conveniently and inconveniently on the same floor. “I thought you would be pleased I even bothered to make you a card.”
“The outside of the card had a biological accurate human heart being stabbed through with an arrow.” Lucifer deadpans back.
“Is that not accurate? That is my understanding of what cupid does.” He responds. Eyes not leaving Lucifer’s face as he watches the king’s lips turn upward. For some reason, the sight stirs something in Alastor and he continues to speak. “The card wasn’t entirely meant for you, so no need to get so worked up. Such a short fuse.”
They’re in the elevator now. Silence between them for a moment. “Who else was it for then?”
The doors open and Alastor steps out, not looking to Lucifer as he admits, “my mother and I used to exchange cards, with a riddle written inside.”
“That’s… surprisingly sweet.” Lucifer says, stepping out as well standing to face Alastor, their backs toward their respective rooms. They stand now alone in the middle of the hallway. “I didn’t think you were capable of something so sentimental.”
“There is much going on within me that you will never understand.” Alastor says, because it’s simply the truth.
“Maybe you’re just a riddle to be solved.” Lucifer replies, a challenge in his voice. Alastor’s gaze snaps to meet Lucifer’s. The cloudiness wasn’t there, but neither was the fury he’d seen earlier. This, well, this looks more akin to passion. Not a bright, lively flame but a fire burning steadily.
Caught off guard, Alastor turns to hide his surprise, but he fears a bit too late and begins to walk towards his room. “A task I fear is far too big for the brain of someone your stature.”
“Challenge accepted.” Lucifer replies followed by the sound of him opening a portal and stepping through. Alastor turns around just in time to see the gold ring disappearing. Breaking the rules just to have the last word and one up him. Maybe Lucifer could figure him out. He shuddered at the thought but wasn’t sure if it was from disgust or something else. No matter, this was something that didn’t need an answer.
End!
#please at least one person read this#radioapple#appleradio#duckiedeer#there's some#huskerdust#and#chaggie#in this but in the background#hazbin hotel fanfiction#hazbin hotel#fanfic#fanfiction#it'll be on ao3 as soon as i get an invite#it's my first fic in ages#i once had an ao3 account#but then i had a mental breakdown and deleted it#i haven't bothered to get a new one since then#like a decade ago#but there are fics i wanna read only available to users anyway#and now i can like not just leave fics open in tabs#but i probably still anyway#alastor#hazbin alastor#hazbin lucifer#lucifer morningstar#valentine's day#valentines day#my post
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Every time I get this ad I feel.... So many things

I get this specific Temu ad SO OFTEN. First I thought it was just in December because I was looking up constantly Hanukkah related things, but I think I saw it even before that, but I still get this ad and I have not seen it talked about by anybody else.
What a fucking concept it is to buy an Ark of the Covenant from TEMU
#there are so many joke potentials here#but I also want to have a breakdown over consumerism killing tradition and culture#Gianmarco please check tumblr I am not available on other platforms#jewblr#what does jumblr think about this 😭#jumblr#I am not a jew I'm currently looking for a rabbi for conversion#ark of the covenant
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Deuteronomy 8:6
Other version under read more because I couldn't decide ashdfj cw: blood!!
#trigun#trigun stampede#millions knives#fanart#trigun fanart#I hate that this took me a week because I was playing hsr and had mental breakdown over his wings and blades LMAOO#No i didnt use available knives blade brush because csp was lagging so baddd#trigunTag
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listening to michael make pained noises when he resets his own shoulder like
#i'll be so real right now. when actors make desperate sounds or have a shockingly realistic breakdown on screen?#my brain is no longer available for 3-5 business days#burn notice
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BNHA 428: This chapter made me annoyed and yet it was still somewhat better than I expected?
Himichako. I like it, it's a good ship- not one I'm crazy about, but the vision is compelling. I mean, the loved girl on hard times who admires honesty but represses her feelings + hunger motifs, and the formerly wealthy and rejected girl who's honest to herself but masks her sadness from others + drinking motifs? Being so similar at their core from selfishness, bleeding love, admiration and imitation? Yeah, why not, sign me up, it looks fun.
(plus Ochako needed a subplot that would shy away from Izuku because oh boi her writing is messy-)
Then the ending annoucement happened and I immediately went "oh no" when I remembered that tidbit. But. Yesterday, I remembered this page from 424, which in hindsight makes sense:
Shoto moving forward and choosing to not dwell on his past anymore, because he wants to know the man he wants to become alongside his family of choice.
Spinner feeling so much grief for Tomura inside his room, his extra Quirks add up to it. Further gut points as it was all because of AFO, but the wrong person is getting the blame.
Ochako looking lost and dissatisfied, not really saying anything about Himiko's status; then her hidden injury which left a scar that'll never go away, nothing can change that.
And then, well, a sky with a chance to fight for a "bright future". Which is the most ambiguous you can get for anything, really, sequel or not.

(sidenote: is it me or the panel where she's touching her stab wound looks like a tangent line?)
Okay so, I went into the chapter, with Pikahlua's translations. It was A Chapter alright-
If it wasn't the antepenultimate chapter, the "filler" would've been welcomed. But I guess it means we should focus on the smaller details, I guess? Like that 1st year saying Izuku filled him with courage and Izuku immediately thinking of Spinner's pain? Yeah he hates himself and that people call him a hero, when he considers himself a murderer, and will never forgive himself for failing Tenko, therapy for him and everyone in Class 2-A please- yeah it was a fun detail. Also the throb of hiding your pain of "defeating" someone you wanted to save but in the end everything is miserable but everyone else is happy and you don't wanna be a bother. Fun.
Also I wasn't the one to point the out, but looking at the uniform (U.A. uniform blazer for boys + the tie with a dot for girls), the student who's a Izuku fan is probably trans/gnc, which I appreciate a lot :D (Damn Izuku attracts so many queer people I wonder if that's a sign- /hj)
Also, I guess Class A stating "[Bakugou], Midoriya and Todoroki were at the heart of it all" then focusing on Ochako is good foreshadowing on how her own battle wasn't fully recorded? It's like saying in the end her fight didn't matter, but the other ones went "well", so she's trying (and slowly failing) to keep her sadness at bay because, well, everyone's happy, so who cares? Another "throb".
I thought since the Todoroki family issues are out in the open, didn't they record the whole thing? Then I re-read it, they only saw the family stopping Touya from exploding. So they didn't see Shoto trying to talk to Touya, which means none of the LoV were humanized. Fuck's sake.
After that, I get focusing on the first years and civilians wanting to help and all, but it feels like a repeat of everything seconds before Jakku, so I assume it's a way for them to pretend things are normal? But not-quite-quoting Katsuki (<- which I will point out for my sake is very much alive and well and- oh boi LFtR will kill me) and Edgeshot here because it made me smile:
"Will you...go back to the way you were?" "I plan to attain something greater than what I was originally!"
So, yeah I suppose he'll be fine eventually. (Best J. really loving Edgeshot even as a worm, honestly, goals)
Again with Izuku remembering saying "[He'll] bring it all back" and apologizing for "not keeping his promise" and others telling him to not blame himself and they can reconstruct as many times as it takes. Again, gave me a little smile, but not for long-
Finally, Ochako pretending things are fine. Hello there, Sports Festival/Provisional License!Ochako I missed you- /hj (I miss the dorms era in general, actually.)
So... *sigh* Full disclosure: I wasn't looking forward to Himichako as we were getting 5/10 pages for the "conclusions" in the previous two, I thought Ochako would be off about Himiko being depressed about the League. But since she's MIA, red flags are now red herrings, and it's better than the dead outcome. If Ochako got another person dying in her arms that'd just break her character.
A blood transfusion takes hours, she couldn't been doing that for more than 20min, if it was gonna kill anyone it'd be Ochako. Either Himiko ran away or got arrested, and Ochako feels guilty because she doesn't know if she's dead or not. Not great, but until I see a corpse she ain't dead. Besides: Touya, Shoto, Edgeshot, Katsuki, Toshinori, Ochako herself, all physically hurt unlike her, and yet they live.
And then we have Izuku showing up. I'm upset he used OFA embers for this, but eh, it's Izuku, do I expect anything else?
Rolling with the assumption Himiko died (like our POV characters), Izuku would need to face his own failure in Ochako- Failed to save two people like she failed Himiko, but it'd be so. Empty. Ochako was true to herself, while Izuku gave nothing but "I want to save that crying kid" while fighting Tenko. The most they can do is bond with "failing" and "this isn't what we fought for". This is not really a moment where he can be a shoulder to cry on, it'd come across as hypocritical /neg.
The only way it could make sense it without being shallow on Mr. Control = Repress Your Heart's part (as he didn't open up to the two people who died in "his watch") is Ochako telling how Himiko loved yet seeing him repressing this part of his is idiotic? She likes people who are true to themselves, which Izuku hasn't been for ages, leading to him realizing something. I thought it'd be through a DvsK3 but. I'll take it, two chapters left, I just want his thoughts (and for them to talk but that can happen in the last one).
They only recorded Shoto stopping Touya from being a suicidal bomb, Ochako floating a bunch of Twice!Himiko clones and Izuku entering a coccon, popping out armless, getting them back, punching Tenko to death. The "I want to save [them]" wasn't registered, it makes sense they're (well, Izuku and Ochako mostly) weirded out about this, dissatisfied like most readers are (sidenote: why when it comes to the trio either Ochako or Shoto get sidelined? So much could tie their stories together and yet-)
It's still a tough pill. I'm not a villain stan, just wondering if those fights were for nothing- the humanity of Tenko and Himiko? Can't be proved for anyone else, since they weren't recorded.
And I don't know if anyone saw the same thing, but those "city lights" look like the bubbles from Ochako's awakening, maybe we'll get a Blackwhip or Entrance Exam callback? Maybe it's what the tagline meant by "hidden feelings", since she unlocked it to reach Himiko and doesn't think anyone would understand why. I hope it's just a nice visual though.
If Himiko is truly dead though... You know, I headcannoned the characters were telling the story through confessionals/recordings to register it to the world so they'd learn from that, but I guess the interviews Aizawa was talking about seemed more likely, which. Well it's something, but I thought it'd be everyone instead of just Class A. Idk. The idea the LoV didn't change anything, or that they did change things but don't get to see it, is bitter.
So uh. Yeah, those are my thoughts. I'm not sure how to feel about it, on one hand I want Izuku to finally open up but on the other, it feels like it'll be at Himiko and Ochako's expense by involving him in something that's theirs now. And there's a chance we'll get the "nothing is fine" from Ochako- god I'm fearing the discourse next week already :DDDD
... Man, and this is a bad timing to be in the fandom, considering the LFtR episode airs this Saturday (which will be yesterday by the time this post goes up and I'll be crying about that instead-), so uh. Yeah, this fandom will be emotionally devastated for two reasons XD
Okay, so I'll try ending this on a more optimistic note: I think Himiko is alive, and Ochako just doesn't know it, which is why we're getting 0 confirmation and a breakdown. Izuku's confrontation with her can make or break this plot, but as long as 1) we acknowledge the emotional, different stakes between the Himichako fight and Tenko vs. Izuku one and 2) it doesn't end in a confession (and let's be real, it won't), then we're probably good (sadly, if you disregard the LoV status). I still think it's an ass pull for the camera battery to go out though.
But no matter how this goes: C'mon, two chapters left now, this one was wasted on the first years, smh, let this sequel hopium be a reality I wanna know who's the 425 guy, not the poor first year who's gonna replace Shindo Yo in fanfics- /hj
#Boku no Hero Academia#spider.posts#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#BNHA 428#Uraraka Ochako#Toga Himiko#Himichako#Midoriya Izuku#if she's dead i'm gonna say: should've been Gran Torino#this is somewhat poorly edited but screw it we bail-#anyways why are we making it about ships this week? Guys Izu is a repressed boi and Katsu is probably just giving him space calm down#Izu didn't choose to be the bus driver today yet he's tied by a seatbelt by the fandom when he wanted to be a passenger today poor dude lol#I don't think it's gonna end in a confession we're just too paranoid about the ship wars c'mon it'd be OOC for Izuku to do that to her#I will be upset if we don't get a CYH payoff after Ochako's breakdown tho I've been waiting for Izuku to blow up#anyways into the queue it goes because after LFtR airs I won't be available until the next week I'll be devastated XD#I'm mostly upset at this chapter for being the embodiment of the criticism I have about Ochako:#i won't call her a LI but her plot inevitably goes back to Izuku when her whole shtick was to find out the hero she wants /herself/ to be#every big moment Ochako has is somehow /directly/ tied to Izuku even the HMCK plot and as much as I like their friendship#it doesn't feel great when even the first time she and Himiko met had something to do with him. At least it's how I see it Ig
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has anyone drawn them being friends yet. i don't feel like anyone has
#fragaria memories#myunna#rimicha#NOT my first drawing of the year. that was a different drawing of rimi#i was blaring rare at a loud party so i wouldn't have a breakdown over the noise i couldn't control#it didn't work but he did his best + it was what i was listening to when midnight hit so i think he earned it#anyways i love the rimi+bado knight link available rn but what if bado were myun instead.#they should all be friends
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Someone will bring up Crazy Ex-Girlfriend and then it will literally take a miracle to stop me from uncontrollably vibrating at a speed that could break the sound barrier.
#YOU MEAN YOU CAN MENTION THIS /CASUALLY/ IN /CONVERSATION/?????#YOU /DON'T/ HAVE THE URGE TO SCALE THE NEAREST AVAILABLE WALL AND BARK LIKE A POMERANIAN#yes this is based on real events I followed someone for an unrelated thing and then they explicitly made a reference to this show and#I was like 'mc13 oh my god please be normal about this PLEASE' I am STILL telling myself that#my god there is no way to describe what this show did to me#AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH#mc13's routine cxgf media breakdown#crazy ex girlfriend#the greatest show ever made
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Nocturne Melody

This is Nocturne Melody! Released October 2024, this suit costs 1795 diamonds with free tries. It is paired with Ocean Chant in the Nebula Desert event, and is the first suit of the two. In the original Chinese it was called 夜韻星歌 "Song of Night Stars", which is clearly a much better name. Unfortunately I am stuck using whatever name it has in the wardrobe.




It comes with two posed dresses (one white, one dst), two makeups (one white, one dst), and three movable accessories.
I am too broke to get it (even though I LOVE) it so I will not be able to post a full breakdown. Please enjoy the extensive and possibly ridiculous tagging system instead.
#love nikki#suit breakdown#love nikki suit breakdown#Nocturne Melody#event suit#no breakdown available#October 2024#2024#requires diamonds#Wasteland category#posed#posed dress#dst pose#includes moveables#makeup included#dst makeup#blue#purple#gold#sky
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Having contamination OCD and emetophobia while norovirus is surging is not good for my mental health. I'm going to be freaking out 24/7 until this surge goes down or until March/April when outbreaks usually stop. Whichever comes first.
And I know it's not ending anytime soon now that nearly everyone's winter breaks have ended and they're bringing the virus with them. So there's at least 2 more weeks until we see the full impact of how many people are about to get sick.
I'm actually thankful that I'm unemployed right now. Sure, I have no income. But that also means a lot less contact with people. This does not help with my tendency to become a hermit and hide away from the world.
#can you see why the covid pandemic was a major reason i even started therapy#why i had a billion mental breakdowns and was super fragile emotionally throughout quarantine and the first year.#as for working my swing gig hasn't called me in a few weeks to come in and cover a track#they asked last week if i was available but then ultimately i wasn't needed the days they though i would be#which tells me either people are getting sick OR they had some travel delays. and they wanted me on standby.#and also any little bit of 'tummy troubles' i feel means i that i start to SPIRAL.#and the theatre i volunteer with will probably reach out to me in the next week-ish about helping#since i told the director i was available. but now i'm like... dreading it since i know if one person in the cast gets it#then it'll sweep through the cast and crew. and i mask 95% of the time i'm there and always wash my hands#but god why is this happening why do we live in a world with viruses#and why is there still not a vaccine for it. i know it's in phase 3 of trials but i don't know how far off it is to be approved.
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words misspelled in the original bill proposal... utah is a fucking joke
#narrates#hi gang busy evening. im back on the bill report. im teaching myself legalese in lieu of any available scholarly breakdowns#so if i make a mistake PLEASE someone let me know
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it's always when I feel I need ppl the most that they're not available, it's weird atp
#like the universe going 'nah youre too much for anyone rn deal with it yourself first'#and by the time the breakdown is over and ppl are available again i dont feel like talking
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I'm not an analyst but i am a theater kid so these are just my thoughts. I might bring up various theater classmates of mine so to keep anonymity I'll just call them by their first initial. To me Macaque is a theater kid that is a mix between my classmates M & E. He's a serious theater kid who's been in more than his fair share of plays/musicals but he's also a dramatic little shit who i don't think would settle for backstage. He's experienced, and he's a good actor, but he's also kind of quiet and reserved, they are maybe one or two other theater people he's close to but he's really just there to act. However he isn't lead material he's side character material all because Wukong showed up, tripped over his own two feet, fell flat on his face onto the stage and the director went "YOU! You're perfect!" and cast Wukong as the lead. However Wukong, just like classmate D, doesn't want to be there he'd rather not be there AT ALL or be cast as Napkin #2 rather than the lead but the director knows he's a good singer and dancer because Wukong's been alive for how long? He's had to have picked up something as common as singing and dancing. So he's cast as the lead cause he has the looks, the skills. Sure he's not as good at remembering lines as Macaque, though this can easily be excused to the director as "he's a lead, he just has a lot of lines to remember" so they're hardly gonna bat an eye. But the stage fright, what about that ? I hear you asking. Well also like classmate D he's loud, a contrast to Macaque's quiet reservedness, he's not gonna let a bunch of "random" people know he has stage fright especially when he's the great sage equal to heaven. So in response he's loud, and annoying, and generally not showing people how close he is to pissing his pants. Also I'd just like to mention that by having Macaque be a side character instead of backstage and Wukong as a lead the warrior is once more cast in the hero's shadow (lol I hate myself) Lastly tho I'd just like to say that once upon a time they were both totally DBK's hypemen and would've played a pair of (equals) Lefou's to DBK's Gaston (and you can pry this from my cold dead hands). --Mythicalmagicalmonkeyman
listening and taking notes. i’m not a theater kid (was in drama club and was in a couple non-school plays but never fully joined the group/polycule), and mostly assigned mac as backstage bc
moving in the shadows
emphasis on not being heard, since in the brotherhood and shadowpeach flashbacks there was a recurring pattern of him not being listened to
mental image of him wearing all black or smth (idk what the techs wear :[) looking at wukong and just SEETHING
the new minifigure of him where he’s holding a boom mic and looks like a tech guy
but also it’s like. i picture him losing the role in auditions to wukong (mostly bc god hates both of them) and then him getting assigned a more minor role but then he’s like “fuck this” and does tech instead for petty bitch reasons (note: again i don’t know how this behind the scenes drama works i was in the ensemble if i participated at all)(and that was mostly just school plays too)
#ask!!#mythical!!#anon ask!!#i do love the idea of them hyping up dbk#also btw. saying you’re not an analyst is like saying you’re not an artist#in that it’s a skill you build but it’s a skill available to everyone#for instance: you read my take looked at it and had your own breakdown and response of it#critiquing some parts and ‘yes-and’ ing others#what is that if not analysis?
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Do you have like a regular job in real life
ig like a traditional sense of a job idk
sadly no 🙃
my disabilities prevent me from holding a normal job and I've yet to find any less typical types of work that I'm capable of.
#i used to self publish books#i didn't make a lot of money doing it#and i ended up having a mental breakdown over my books so they're no longer available
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My Tav (Ellie) and I are down bad for Shadowheart.
She saw Legalt (other player) kiss Wyll after dancing once
Ellie had the same exact date with Shadowheart twice but nothing's official
#i waited an eternity for this game#bg3#baldurs gate 3#baldurs gate#shadowheart#ellie is bard/paladin multiclass#the human kissing wyll is legalt#im playing with 1 other person in a multiplayer run#idk if this was intended but i got that tiefling party cutscene with shadowheart a second time..#i felt scammed#but im also constantly trying to converse with shadowheart to see if she has anything new to say#and it took me until late act 2 to realize we werent even dating#she wasnt emotionally available and ellie had a breakdown. legalt talked some sense into her#mostly calling ellie stupid. cuz she is
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