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youremyonlyhope · 1 month ago

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Having contamination OCD and emetophobia while norovirus is surging is not good for my mental health. I'm going to be freaking out 24/7 until this surge goes down or until March/April when outbreaks usually stop. Whichever comes first.

And I know it's not ending anytime soon now that nearly everyone's winter breaks have ended and they're bringing the virus with them. So there's at least 2 more weeks until we see the full impact of how many people are about to get sick.

I'm actually thankful that I'm unemployed right now. Sure, I have no income. But that also means a lot less contact with people. This does not help with my tendency to become a hermit and hide away from the world.

#can you see why the covid pandemic was a major reason i even started therapy #why i had a billion mental breakdowns and was super fragile emotionally throughout quarantine and the first year.#as for working my swing gig hasn't called me in a few weeks to come in and cover a track #they asked last week if i was available but then ultimately i wasn't needed the days they though i would be #which tells me either people are getting sick OR they had some travel delays. and they wanted me on standby.#and also any little bit of 'tummy troubles' i feel means i that i start to SPIRAL.#and the theatre i volunteer with will probably reach out to me in the next week-ish about helping #since i told the director i was available. but now i'm like... dreading it since i know if one person in the cast gets it #then it'll sweep through the cast and crew. and i mask 95% of the time i'm there and always wash my hands #but god why is this happening why do we live in a world with viruses #and why is there still not a vaccine for it. i know it's in phase 3 of trials but i don't know how far off it is to be approved.

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