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“I should have let him kill you,” Jean said
“Probably,” Nathaniel agreed.
same energy as
“Are you stupid?” “Yeah”
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happy forever partners friday 👻👻 the boys go ghost hunting
#i honestly dont think neither of them would believe in ghosts#but neil would be more paranoid seeing as he is Neil Josten#and jean wouldn't gaf#i love them your honor#aftg#art#fanart#artists on tumblr#my art#all for the game#aftg fanart#jean moreau#neil josten#the sunshine court#the lighting in this makes no sense#i rushed rhis#oh well#next week!!! ravens!!#my favorite#aftg triology#aftg neil#jeaneil#forever partner friday#forever partners
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the fact that nora made Jean gentle at heart is so special to me. despite everything that’s happened to him and although he’s a bit abrasive, he still cleans the damn dishes and puts away leftovers without being asked i love him so much
#i just finished the whole book and i’m gonna have to reread that shit again#i’ve loved Jean for many years now (catch the username) and i just feel so special about him#and i can’t get over the fact that he’s 19#which means he was 18 during the events of the foxhole court series#and the parallels between him and neil#WHEN HE SWITCHES OVER FROM CALLING NEIL NATHANIEL#that part made me lose my mind#tsc#tsc spoilers#the sunshine court spoilers#jean moreau#my love and light
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So @fortheloveofexy posted a snippet of their fic for wip Wednesday (here) that I just. It got my heart, and I’ve been wanting to draw more mers and Andrew’s design is so cool in this au i couldn’t help myself
I’ll reblog and link when the corresponding chapter comes out but for now, here’s the general fic link in case you haven’t been following it already 👀
Bonus lil merDrew
#I’m sooooo in loveeeeeeee aughhh#merDrew light of my life#spiky dangerous twinyards too#love it love them#thank you for letting me draw them crow 🙏#fan art#my art#aftg#all for the game#mer au#into the deep au#merDrew#fan fic#others writing#neil josten#andrew minyard#comic#chibi
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#my godddd 😮💨❤️🩹#life is so beautiful you guysss#bless Sufjan's fucking precious mind😮💨🩷!!#everything written‚ produced and recorded by him + all the artwork and essays also by him!! he's everything!! ❤️🩹#the entire album sounds both familiar and new (like Goodbye Evergreen is literally how The Age of Adz goes from Futile Devices to Too Much!#sounds very atmospheric and melancholic and bittersweet but also dreamy and euphoric. and very gentle#and there's a sense of urgency and helplessness but the album ends in a very hopeful note which is so beautiful!!#lyrically is so impressive and breathtaking. man the way he feels everything so deeply 🫨❤️🩹#stunning compositions + so much heartbreak and existential despair and unsettling imagery and self-sacrifice#and distress and personal atonement and resignation and so much HOPE and LIFE and LIGHT#and also religious devotion (shocker i know lol)#and the Neil Young cover (shoot me!) is better than the original lol it's just so sweet and hopeful 💐#i really loved it so much!!#sufjan stevens#javelin#📓
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I NEEEED people—especially those with unfathomably large platforms???—to start doing just a tiny bit of internal evaluation before they log onto a blue website and say “I don’t want these queer characters to fuck in canon” or “I’d be fine if these characters never kissed again” or whatever.
This is a post about Good Omens and the prospect of Aziraphale and Crowley potentially having sex in season 3. It's a response to a tweet that I'm crossposting, but let it be known the above statement and this topic applies broadly across multiple fandoms too.
But anyway, in regards to Good Omens specifically:
I am seeing this take that essentially boils down to "Canon has now made it clear that these characters want to have sex with each other through subtext (i.e. Aziraphale and the ox), but I don’t want that to reach narrative completion because the idea of them having sex makes me uncomfortable or isn’t my personal preference” and it is, to put it mildly and delicately, A Very Bad Take.
This is rhetorical (and I do not expect or particularly want an answer), but: explain to me how and why queer characters who are unavoidably visibly queer (aka 2 "man-shaped beings") fucking on screen wouldn’t be a net positive, especially when you can indicate how canon has set it up.
Presumably, some people say things like this because ~they want to see them as visibly ace.~ Okay. But by some of these people’s own admission, there IS more evidence in canon now to indicate these characters crave sex with each other (vs arguing otherwise)... yet people would rather that be ignored/erased all for the sake of them feeling comfortable or feeling better about what canon shows or doesn’t show explicitly??
I’m sorry, but—speaking as an ace person, to be clear—your personal preferences for the story shouldn’t / don’t affect anything here. There’s too much in this.
Yeah, I understand on a personal level not having “representation.” I almost never see myself or my unique experiences and identity reflected in stories. And yet, I also understand that that doesn’t change any story or the world in which we live. Things like this are not said in a vacuum.
Any queer characters having sex on screen IS a net positive. It is rare and impactful, and openly calling for or hoping for otherwise when canon points to its potential is a detrimental alliance with purity culture, whether intentionally or accidentally. Because we live in a Goddamn society!
Who knows (other than Neil Gaiman) whether Aziraphale and Crowley ARE going to fuck on international TV. None of us do! But the subtext right now blatantly says they’re starving for it. And you don’t have to like the prospect of that, but honestly? We SHOULD get to see it play out. There’s no truly legitimate reason we shouldn’t ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Whether you "prefer" it or not.
And my ultimate hot take is… if someone balks at the idea of that or doesn’t understand the importance of it, despite even seeing the subtext… then they should perhaps unpack that? Just a thought.
Truly the way fandoms are managing to hit either “subtext doesn’t count :/ ” or “let’s keep it to subtext so it’s ‘open to interpretation’ :) ” nowadays depending on what corner one visits is MADDENING. Whiplash-inducing. Surreal. And so much nonsense you can’t pick where to start.
So! I do genuinely hope I'm not kicking off discourse but I felt this Needed To Be Said (and on more than one site). Because posts like “even if they never kiss again, we’ve won <3 “ make me want to be like…
These characters are YEARNING. Do not doom them and us to it. For once, we can reach for the stars and maybe–against all odds–pull them down. Embrace it!
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[Update: after more discourse has occurred, I have somewhat elaborated on this further, from the POV of the significance of the queer themes in Good Omens and more specifically how they center illicit pleasure/desire]
#good omens#good omens season 2#good omens spoilers#good omens season 3#neil gaiman#aziracrow#ineffeble husbands#I'm OVER ITTTT.#this is the delicate version of this rant. trust me. I tried to keep it chill for the sake of posting on main#char writes things#PS adding some brief tags now that the discourse has Escalated:#Mr Gaiman can be pedantic on the internet and pretend by omission he's never heard of subtext all he wants.#it's not what his story is saying and I do actually think he DOES know how to do stories. so. love & light to whatever his deal is.#(what I mean: do not come into my house & try to say 'neil said the ox scene isn't sexual.' inaccurate + that's a whole suitcase to unpack)#(I have now written about All That at length elsewhere with exasperation but it doesn't need to be linked in this post lol.)
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possible tw: brief mention of an eating disorder and body dysmorphia (implied but it’s barely there??).
There was no doubt when someone said Kevin was beautiful or pretty. Everyone complemented his looks, even Tetsuji had said that his looks could be used and he should use them. He hadn’t understood when he was younger what that meant exactly, but he understood now.
You could get anything just by having a pretty face and an eye-catching body. Maybe that’s why he was put on strict diets in the Nest. So the photoshoots they took months later would show his slim waist and lean figure. Riko always said his eyes were the prettiest part about him, and thus were meant to be kept unharmed.
His face never showed any sign of the abuse he had received in the Nest, even years after people still believed he had had it easy. Maybe that’s why he hated his self-image so much, why he stared at the mirror for seconds longer than he should. Why he hated eating anything above the calorie intake he was meant to. Because he had had it easy. Life had been easy for him, he shouldn’t worry others with his problems because he didn’t have any.
He was fine because he wasn’t traumatised. He wasn’t hurt the way Neil or Jean were. He didn’t have lasting scars except for the one on his left hand — and even that wasn’t as bad as the ones Jean or Neil carried.
Everything was fine. He was fine. Nothing was wrong.
And yet… if something wasn’t wrong, if he was truly okay — then why did he still have nightmares? Why did he awake abruptly at night drenched in sweat and riddled with fear? Maybe he was a coward, why else would he have nightmares when his experiences in the Nest had been nothing compared to what Jean suffered. What Neil suffered. Why should he have nightmares when Neil woke from them more frequently? When Kevin didn’t deserve to be traumatised because he wasn’t.
Everybody believed that was true so why shouldn’t he?
Betsy would probably say it wasn’t good to think like that. It wasn’t healthy to undermine his own trauma (which he didn’t have) just because someone else experienced the same things — just differently. She’d tell him to focus on his own nightmares and focus on trying to heal, but what was there to heal from if he was fine? Because he was. He was fine, as fine as one could be.
So he didn’t deserve the small reassurances his friends gave him. Didn’t deserve any kind of affection from them especially because it should be the other way round, but Kevin’s not sure how to comfort people and he knows he should know because if he’s fine and everything in his life has been fine up until this point — then how come he can’t give solace to those whose lives aren’t?
Why must he be so selfish and rude and stupid and a coward? Riko hardly did anything to him. He wasn’t beaten as much as Jean, he wasn’t tortured as much as Neil, he wasn’t broken. He survived the Nest and was fine, so that meant he had no room to argue with those who didn’t. Those who were braver then him. Who endured the pain because they didn’t know much else.
Kevin had the key to his cage whereas Neil and Jean didn’t. That was the difference. That was why he was fine and they weren’t. That’s why they needed to be loved and cared for and he didn’t.
He was not fine. He hadn’t been fine in years, but he’d never voice that aloud. He’d never disagree when someone said he had it lucky; when they said he was spoiled for thinking he didn’t. Whatever horrors he had been through in the Nest didn’t matter because in the end, the only way for people to realise just how broken you truly were was if they had visible evidence. And in that, Kevin was lacking.
#haha I am having a field day rn#the words are just coming to me#I blame my lights for being so shitty#kevin day angst is a minuscule part of this fandom and I crave more#it’s currently 2:35 am in the morning pls do not blame me for my actions#kevin day#aftg#all for the game#the kings men#the raven king#the foxhole court#kevin day angst#sad kevin day#y aren’t these tags???#give kevin some love y’all#neil josten#jean moreau#riko moriyama#tetsuji moriyama
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now imagine my shock when i finish dead poet society and non of the gays kiss !!!
#there were several gays to pick from#not even my boy neil and todd???#let the gays be gay!!!!#and smooch#and cuddle#and be loved#and actually this movie is too sad for me#and i knew !!!!!#the ending !!!!#and still !!!!#oh my heart#todd runing through the snow#):#and now i cant stop picturing angel's au#let me kms now pls#i had to watch this before reading angel's fic#im not ready#i am#but i am not#not todd peacefully sleeping and being woken up to that#him being the last to know??#naaaah#NAH!!!!!#dead poets fandom#dead poet society#marauders#dead poet society au#dark academia#light academia
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a little belated birthday art for my dear pal @cryptidxcrow of the Toymaker and their amazing OC, Aster!! happy late birthday buddy 😉💖
#ohhh my god this was so much fun to DRAW!!!! ASTER'S DESIGN KICKS SO MUCH ASS#and the glowing portions of Aster's design gave me room to experiment a little with light (smth i have historically found terrifying sdfds)#plus. always love to draw the Toymaker 🥴💖💖#the toymaker#aster#doctor who#doctor who oc#oc x canon#neil patrick harris#the giggle#starleskart
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something electric in the blood
hey woah it's my birthday again! this year I've decided to subject you all to the tfc superhero au that's been in my back pocket for 2 years. feedback would be a very chill birthday gift, but I'm also just happy to be here (not letting this story languish in a textedit file)! ok! rock on etc
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Neil’s mother could call a monsoon down from a crisp blue sky. Her power was tearful and tormented; she was always wreathed with rainwater, a grey veil obscuring her face.
Neil’s father was righteous electricity. His power was a fork in a wall socket. He went off before he was even born; his lightning struck his mother dead from the inside out. A killer before he even entered the world—a born murderer.
Mary spent the first few months of her pregnancy wishing quietly for a miscarriage, petrified of a fatal lightning strike from the storm brewing inside her. Lucky for her, Nathaniel was never anything like his father. (He takes solace in this many times, when he’s old enough to understand how dangerous his powers can be.)
Long before he was Neil, he could cradle sunbeams in each hand, whistle for hail, and bend fog around his enemies like blindfolds. He could cover his footsteps with peals of thunder as he ran, and wash away crime scenes with downpours.
When his mother was killed, he struck their car with lightning over and over, and watched the white flames burst the windshield and warp the metal. He set the beach on fire all around him, staggering and tearing his hair, smoking the sand into glass and then cutting his feet to pieces as he ran.
He kept running for months after that, his powers spilling like loose change out of a hole in his pocket. And he was so determined to survive that he no longer had a say in which parts of the weather he wanted, like—instead of checking specialty books out from the library, he was pulling down entire shelves by accident.
Now, in the final stages of his weather sickness, he finds himself screened behind fog and ice most of the time, tidal waves dragging anyone who comes close, sunlight pouring in and out of his body like fever. Most urgently, an electrical storm is always very, very close to the surface; lightning is thick in his nose, tickling his throat, writhing half-formed above him in the veins of clouds. He’s afraid it will make a weapon of him, when he’d give anything to be something else.
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The stranger finds him in an abandoned mall, at the tail-end of his breakdown. Neil had filled the first floor up to his waist with rainwater, filtered down through the caved in ceiling—a shattered skylight that he had ripped lightning through like a hacksaw. He'd beckoned clouds down over all of the windows and finally slept, exhausted, in the eye of the storm.
The man appears out of the blue, drenched, in the foodcourt-turned-swimming pool. Water laps around his belt and bleeds up his shirt. His hair is plastered to his forehead and his expression is unreadable. Neil peers at him steadily across the water. Reflections of the graphic 90s wall decals float innocently between them.
“Neil, I bet.” He wipes his wet hands on his shirt. Through the water, Neil can see his boots grinding against broken glass. “Call me Wymack.”
Neil unfolds his legs, letting his feet dangle from the table he’s perched on. He waits patiently for violence. “How do you know who I am?”
Wymack smiles, half-cocked, maybe a little pissed off to be up to his waist in Neil’s mess.
“Not every day that a storm eats a shopping mall.”
“I asked how you know who I am,” Neil reiterates, “not if you have eyes.” His voice is raw from misuse. Everything is kind of echoey and green, in this washed-out mall of his.
“Alright smartass. I’ve had you flagged for a while,” Wymack says. “I keep tabs on supers who I think might be a good fit with my Foxes. We’ve known the general shape of you since you flattened that barn in Ohio.”
He narrows his eyes. “There’s no way you could connect me to that.”
Wymack raises an eyebrow. “You’ll notice I said flattened. As in levelled. As in hailstones the size of kittens. In the middle of August. Who else has that kind of power? A functioning dairy farm, Josten. It was a slaughter.”
Neil flinches. “Fine,” he mutters. “I know. Why are we talking about it?”
“A ruined barn, a glass beach, a total whiteout in the middle of a grocery store, this castle in the clouds you’ve hooked up for yourself? Seems like a pattern. Seems like a breakdown, actually. My job is to step in when a super loses their shit, and I think we both know you fit the bill.”
“So what happens now?” Neil asks slowly. He’s struggling to keep his voice even, but he can feel thunder brewing, metabolizing in his gut. “You take me to superpower rehab? Give me dampeners and lock me in a basement? Fuck off.”
Wymack looks unimpressed. “Talking out of your ass must be another one of your special powers.”
Neil scowls.
“Look,” Wymack starts, wading two steps closer. “I’m offering you an opportunity to be a part of a team of people like you. We all know the heroes and villains model is psychotic, but shit, powers are made to be used. We use ‘em. Find people, fix things. Or break things, if they’re not working right.”
“You’re vigilantes,” Neil says.
“No,” Wymack says, breaking out in a wicked grin. “We’re government mandated. Barely. My team is powerful. It’s in everyone’s best interest to let them hunt criminals so they don’t become them.”
“You left out the part where we’re all already criminals,” an entirely new voice says. It takes a moment for Neil’s eyes to adjust to the fact that it belongs to someone standing directly in front of him, having materialized seemingly out of thin air.
Neil clambers backwards, and a little taser beam of lightning ricochets perilously close to the water they’re all standing in.
This new stranger is so close that he can see the tawny colour of his eyes. He’s short, nearly chest-deep in the water, with a shock of blond hair and a chalky, sullen face.
“Jesus, Andrew,” Wymack complains. “How long?”
Andrew’s static expression twitches, and he’s a foot to the left without straining a muscle.
“Don’t fucking pause me when I’m talking to you,” Wymack says, nonsensically.
“Were we talking?” Andrew asks. “I forget.” He circles Neil carefully, nearly soundless in the water.
Neil frowns, still in the slippery process of righting himself on the table. His shoes screech against a flaking metal chair.
“Speed?” he demands. It comes to mind immediately, the way Andrew is sort of flitting like a hummingbird, punched out of reality and then clipping back in somewhere else. Neil has always been obsessed with the straightforward usefulness of super speed.
Andrew’s gaze turns shrewd.
“Wrong brother.”
“Excuse me?”
“Settle down. He’s green, Andrew,” Wymack interrupts. “He doesn’t know shit about the Foxes.”
His eyes flicker to Wymack and back. He glitches, and Neil’s neck is wrenched to the side by an open-handed slap to the face. His vision blurs. Lightning strikes the roof.
“Interesting,” Andrew murmurs.
“Christ,” Wymack exclaims, “what have I told you about antagonizing volatiles?”
“You can manipulate time,” Neil breathes, holding the back of his hand to the pain-flushed apple of his cheek. Andrew snaps his fingers and disappears.
“He can manipulate my patience,” Wymack says, turning a slow, sloshing circle in the water to scan the balcony overlooking the food court. His eyes focus suddenly, and Neil follows his gaze to find Andrew lounging at the top of a long-broken escalator. Wymack sighs. “Quit showing off.“
Andrew blips directly behind Wymack, who trips a little bit, slapping his hands uselessly into the water to find purchase.
“Could you turn this to ice?” Andrew asks coolly, stirring the water with his index finger.
Neil shakes his head. “Once it’s out of the atmosphere I can’t really do shit with it. What else can you do with time? Reverse it or—“
“There’s only one button on my remote,” Andrew says simply.
“Not that I’m not enjoying these pleasantries,” Wymack says. “But I’ll take an answer now, Neil.”
“You called me a ‘volatile,’” Neil accuses.
Wymack rolls his eyes. “I’ll let you in on a little secret. Every single one of my Foxes was classified as a volatile when I found them. It’s not an ugly word.”
He thinks of his father splashed through the news attached to that word, of being hunched over a police scanner full of dirty voices hissing volatile spotted, in pursuit of volatile, volatile resisting arrest. It was always about putting down anyone with powers before they could even think about being empowered.
“Depends on who’s using it,” Neil says. He shivers, and it snows a little, a miniature avalanche like something off of a disturbed tree branch. Andrew puts his hand out into the flurry, producing a fistful of slush that he promptly chucks at Wymack. It collides wetly with his chest, sticking there momentarily like a pathetic badge.
Wymack looks skyward. “Give me strength.” He seems to realize that the sky is Neil’s domain when a few more errant snowflakes catch in his hair, and he shakes them off, disconcerted.
“If I come with you,” Neil starts. “Can I stay anonymous?”
“Sure. We’ll get you a mask,” Wymack says, stone-faced. Neil can’t tell if he’s joking or not. He squints. Wymack sighs. “Look kid, I don’t care what you’ve done up until exactly now. You leave here with us, we officially work together. That means I accommodate you. I get you what you need to function. A place to sleep. Doctor visits. Dampeners if you need them.” Neil bristles, but Wymack powers on. “And in return, you work for me. Help us keep things balanced.”
Neil looks at him for a long, searching moment, feeling the snow blowing out of his chest, a sudden spring thaw. His sneakers are soaked, and the thought of a place to sleep where the weather can’t find him is so tempting.
“Fine,” he says. “I’ll do it. But how do I know—”
He’s barely spoken when he feels a strange vertigo, a retreating, phantom pressure, and he realizes he’s been transported instantaneously to the back of a car. It’s indescribable, the absence of even a blink between one set of surroundings and the next. He feels like he was in some sort of virtual reality and his headset was ripped off.
“Fuck,” he gasps.
“You ask too many questions,” Andrew says.
“You moved me here?” he demands. Andrew looks at him blankly, as if this should be obvious. “I can walk,” he grits out. “Don’t waste your powers on me.”
“I was tired of your babbling,” he says. “You already agreed to come with us. The Foxhole needs us more than you need your self-punishing little enclosure.”
Neil glowers out the window, his fingers itchy on the unlocked door handle. A dozen metres away from their spot in the faded tarmac grid of the parking lot, Wymack is wedging open the defunct automatic doors at the mall’s entrance, emerging in an absurd flood of rainwater.
“If the ‘foxes’ are so capable, shouldn’t they be able to take care of themselves?”
“You would think,” Andrew says wryly.
Wymack wrenches the handle on the driver’s side door, but it just snaps back into place, locked. Andrew twirls the car keys on his middle finger.
“Enough,” Wymack says, long-suffering. He raps on Andrew’s window until his fingers jangle, and he and Neil realize at the same time that the keys are now dangling from his wrist. (Andrew’s middle finger is still raised.)
Climbing inside the belly of the car, Wymack jabs a button on the console and the headrests whack down and catch Andrew and Neil both on the crowns of their heads.
Andrew makes an affronted noise. “We have a guest,” he says.
“We have a time crunch,” Wymack says. “Not that that’s ever meant anything to you.”
“Renee will take care of it.”
“She shouldn’t have to,” he argues, turning the key in the ignition and pulling out of the parking lot before the tide from the mall can roll out to meet them.
“What does Renee do?” Neil asks.
Wymack meets his eye in the rearview mirror. “She deals with a frankly inhumane amount of bullshit, mostly.”
“I meant—“
“I know what you meant,” he gripes. “I was getting to that part. You’re going to have to learn at least an ounce of patience if you’re going to—“
“She’s a shifter,” Andrew says.
“A shapeshifter,” Neil repeats incredulously. He’s so frantically jealous for a moment that he has to bite down on his tongue.
“She can turn into pretty much anything with a face,” Wymack says.
“You’re joking.”
Wymack rolls his eyes. “I wish I was.” He takes a hand off the wheel to jab a thumb at Andrew. “You think one of him is bad, imagine three of him underfoot.”
They lapse into silence for a moment as Neil considers this. Scrubby spring scenery whips past, Wymack taps an absentminded tattoo on the gearshift, and Andrew sits utterly, perfectly still at Neil’s side.
“What do the rest of the Foxes do?” Neil asks, badly feigning nonchalance. He’s calculating how much of this could be useful to him, the ways he could co-opt supernatural speed, stopped time, or a thousand disguises. The possibilities are staggering.
“They should probably tell you themselves,” Wymack says, slanting another knowing look at him in the mirror.
Andrew snorts.
Neil narrows his eyes. “What, are they bad?”
Andrew glitches into the passenger seat, and Wymack nearly loses control of the car, clipping the horn with one flailing hand. “Last time he got too comfortable with the secret identity reveals, Kevin made him walk out into traffic.”
Neil absorbs this like a punch to the stomach, thinking of miscalculated lightning and swift punishments, a father with a bolt in each fist.
“Don’t listen to him,” Wymack says, “It’ll rot your brain.”
“I’m telling the truth,” Andrew says simply. He flicks a circle of beads dangling from the rearview, and less than a second later, they’ve disappeared.
“Jesus suffering christ,” Wymack says. “Put those back.”
“What?” Andrew says blankly, and Neil considers that any of these glitches might represent minutes, hours, or days where Andrew has been suspended, alone, in time.
He wants to ask him how long he can stay outside of time, if he ages in the infinite space between seconds, or if it’s as peaceful as it sounds to be the only moving thing in the universe. Instead he asks, “How do you make someone walk into traffic?”
Wymack sighs. “Well, if you’re Kevin, you get inside their head and tell them what to do.”
Andrew glances backwards. “Your worst nightmare, I would imagine.”
Neil’s neck is hot with anxiety just thinking about it, but he sets his jaw, defiant. “You don’t know me.”
“No,” he agrees. “But I know what someone who’s afraid of their own powers looks like. And I know how easy it would be for Kevin to set you off like a firecracker.”
Neil wordlessly rolls down his window and calls down a hailstone the size of a baseball.
“No more powers in my car,” Wymack snaps, deftly forcing Neil’s window up so he has to snatch his hand back, dropping the ice out into the street. “Honestly, it’s like I’m running a daycare.”
“You don’t have a power?” Neil asks.
“I have the almighty ability to withstand annoying questions.”
“Excuse me if I’m curious about how a powerless stranger tracked me all the way to nowhere, where my—where no one else thought to look, just to enlist me into his knock-off suicide squad.”
“Well first of all, let’s make one thing absolutely fucking clear,” Wymack says, twisting in his seat, one hand steady at the bottom of the wheel. “Just because someone can’t—or won’t—use any superpowers, it doesn’t mean they’re powerless. If you listen to a word I say to you today, let it be that. Got it?”
They watch each other for so long that Neil starts to feel uneasy. The car should’ve drifted off the road by now. Maybe Andrew’s correcting their course by increments. Maybe Wymack actually has a banal, embarrassing kind of GPS power that keeps wheels to pavement.
“Fine,” Neil says, clipped.
“Good. If you call Abby powerless, I guarantee she’ll give you an earful about nursing school.”
“Who’s—“
Andrew makes an irritated noise, and when Neil looks up at the sound, he’s disoriented again by an instantaneous shift in light. His head snaps to the right, and he finds Wymack dumped unceremoniously beside him in the backseat. Andrew is busily turning the engine off up front, and a sleek, black parking garage is spread out around them, like a high-tech hangar in a sci-fi movie.
“Chrissake,” Wymack says. “Give me the keys.”
“You have them,” Andrew says tonelessly, and then he disappears. Wymack sighs and starts working on disentangling the keys that have just been magicked onto one of his earrings.
“Does he move other people around like that very often?” Neil asks.
“When the mood strikes him,” Wymack says, kicking the door open and swinging a leg out. Outside of the car, he continues, “he used to say that things have different weight, when they’re paused. All that shit like gravity, velocity, friction—they function differently when time isn’t affecting you.”
“He told you that?" Neil asks. Wymack nods. "Huh. Wouldn’t have thought he’d be so forthright.”
“Amazing what sobriety can do to a person.” Wymack holds up a hand before Neil can speak again. “More on that later. We have a facility to tour.” They’re approaching the subtle seam of a door in a broad expanse of wet-looking dark concrete. Neil hadn’t even been able to make out that it was a door until it was close enough to touch.
“Right now?”
“You have something better to do?”
Neil shrugs. He was kind of hoping to be shown somewhere dry and windowless, but he can play house-tour.
Wymack puts his thumb to an inconspicuous tab jutting out of the near-invisible door-frame, the mechanism beeps and clicks, and the the wall sinks inward.
“That was the main lot, this is the atrium.” The door folds itself away like a bird’s wing, and Neil follows his host into a dark hexagonal space, black walls and cubbies like something from a locker room, everything lit up at the seams with artificial techno-orange. “We usually meet here before a mission, gear up and ship out.”
Neil rolls his eyes at Wymack’s back. Between the faux-military slang and the wannabe spy movie facility, the benefit of the doubt is already stretched paper-thin.
The hallway ahead is long and uniform, with identical corridors extending in either direction every ten paces. They come across a series of matching but modified outfits behind glass, displays full of black, orange and white leather, bulky looking jackets, masks, caps and gloves, boots and holsters.
“Gear,” Wymack says, lingering at the farthest case, a petite, broad-shouldered suit with a full mask, strappy vest, and brass knuckles on a hook. Wymack taps the glass. “Each of these cases opens up into a personal changing room. You’ll get a custom suit. Probably something water-proof and—“ he purses his lips against a smile. “Shock-resistant. Hope you like rubber.”
Neil examines a suit with thick, elbow-high gloves and an ornate half-mask. “I don’t really care what I wear.”
“Glad to hear it. Some of my Foxes were not so flexible.”
“Someone say flexible?”
Neil looks up just in time to see a shape drop from an air-duct overhead, like paper spit from a printer. When it hits the floor, it’s a person.
“What the hell,” Neil says flatly.
The newcomer grins. He’s tall and wiry, and his hair is gelled up into deliberate-looking peaks. Even with a complete, three-dimensional heft to him he seems stretched out, like a teenager still growing into his legs. He offers Neil a friendly hand. “Matt Boyd. And you’re the new recruit, Neil, right?”
He nods, accepting the handshake. He glances meaningfully upward. “That can’t be more than a half-inch gap.”
Matt laughs, obviously pleased. “They don’t call me Flex for nothin'.” His hand becomes putty in Neil’s grip, and when Neil tries to extract himself, Matt has him in hand-handcuffs.
“You could escape anything,” Neil marvels, half-gawking at the unseemly image of Matt’s taffy-stretched, bisected hands, slithering back and becoming whole.
Matt looks sideways at Wymack, still smiling. “He is fresh. Still has the capacity for surprise. That’s kind of nice, actually.”
Neil’s shoulders hitch upwards, defensive. “It’s been a while since I’ve met new supers.” His mother had kept him in the most oppressively average and un-stimulating hideaways she could. If he ever met supers it was by accident.
“Well that ends today, dude,” Matt says. “We see crazy new shit pretty much all the time.”
“I’m starting to get that.”
“Your thing is weather, right? You got a demo in you?” Matt asks slyly.
“You don’t have to do that,” Wymack says quickly, but Neil is already feeling his way skyward.
They’re underground, but he can still kind of always sense the atmosphere, whispering in from outside through filtered air or natural light. It’s as simple as finding a loose end and tugging.
He blinks, and suddenly, the hallway is a wind tunnel. It’s just a little air show, but still, the gusts are so intense that Wymack has to take a step back and steady himself against the wall. Matt whoops joyfully, his immovable gelled hair whipping back. He uses his stretch powers to balloon outward like a parachute, and the wind catches his rubber body and drags him twenty feet down the hallway.
Neil rolls his neck, satisfied, and the wind dies out. “If we were above ground, I could give you a real show.”
“I don’t doubt it,” Matt says, jogging breathlessly back towards them. “Man, we’re going to work so well together. You can be the wind beneath my wings.” He quirks a genuine smile at Neil, who relaxes in spite of himself.
“Don’t you have crime to stop?” Wymack asks drily, and Matt rolls his eyes.
“I mean, if I can’t stop some trouble, I can always make some.” He swerves unnaturally out of the way, laughing, when Wymack reaches out to cuff him over the head. “See you soon, Neil,” he calls, taking one enormous stride to the very end of the corridor, around the corner, and out of sight.
“Everyone shows off for newcomers,” Wymack says, pushing steadfastly ahead. “Please don’t give them the weather-works every time.”
Neil shrugs. “He asked for it.”
“Yeah, and you’re a real people pleaser, huh?”
The tour trundles on, through the tunnelling halls of a facility that is slowly revealing itself to be as well-appointed as it is well-hidden. They pass through a wide-open common kitchen area with enough dining space for twenty; an enormous training gym outfitted with targets, mats, a reinforced spectator box, and a fully stocked library of weapons and armour.
There are a couple of available sleeping quarters, spartan, but outfitted with sturdy furniture, clean bedding, and storage like Neil has never even thought to ask for; a lounge with a beaten-looking couch and chairs, a smaller kitchenette, an entertainment system, and a pool table; and a professional-grade medical station, equipped to hold what looks like the entire team at once.
Neil meets a laser-focused Abby Winfield in the med bay, where she’s tending to a surly Andrew look-alike with a bruise-mottled grimace on his face. Aaron’s gaze darts and slices like a bird unsettled from its perch when Neil enters the room.
Neil asks him if he ran into someone’s fist, but he doesn’t rise to the bait, just casting a haughty look down Neil’s rain-soaked jeans as he hops from the exam table. Abby seems to realize what’s coming a moment before it happens, because she waves a still uncapped tube of ointment in one hand and says, “Aaron, don’t, I’m not—“ but he’s already blazed from the room, head-spinningly fast.
Wymack shrugs an apology for their intrusion, and Abby sighs, offers Neil a surprisingly generous smile, and shoos them from her office—but not before promising a full physical exam for their newest team member.
Neil swallows his instinctive horror to being examined in any capacity, and forces himself to follow Wymack out from the exposing light of the medical hall. From there, they find their way to an imposing set of steel double-doors at the heart of the labyrinth.
“Mission control,” Wymack says, scanning them seamlessly inside. Neil can tell from the quality of his voice that this is the tour’s grand finale.
It’s a massive space, tech-ed out, and the obvious hub for the entire operation. There are sprawling screens full of moving data, a huge table, lit up from within, with stray files and blueprints littering its surface. There are also towering rows of black filing cabinets lined up against the far wall, a computer system too complex for Neil to understand most of its controls, and a couple of inconspicuous doors leading to what must be private offices.
“We do most of our planning here.” Wymack gestures towards the network of screens and keyboards. “Comprehensive database, files on every super in the country, past battle strats,” he nods towards a white-board over by the meeting table. “Individualized training schedules. My office over there.” When Neil follows his sightline he finds a woman standing in the doorway, arms crossed, eyes level and keen. Neil waves awkwardly, and her mouth pulls charmingly to the side like a swept curtain. “And that’s Dan Wilds,” Wymack finishes.
“The most important part of the base, right boss?”
“If you say so,” Wymack says, but he's smiling.
“Nice to finally meet you, Neil Josten. Gotta say, I was pretty impressed by your glass beach.”
He tries not to grimace at the thought of it. “Thanks,” he says. “It was accidental.”
She laughs good-naturedly until he doesn’t join in, and then she raises both eyebrows. “‘It was accidental,’ he says. Like he didn’t change the geography of half the East coast.”
“It’s not modesty,” Wymack says. “He really doesn’t know what kind of trail he’s been leaving.”
“I don’t really like to look—back,” Neil says.
Dan’s eyes glint. There’s something sturdy and well-balanced about her, like a broadsword. “Well. Amen to that.”
“Wait, why did no one tell me he was here already?” someone exclaims, bursting in from the double doors behind them. Dark-haired and animated, the new guy is wearing a hyper-casual graphic crop top and joggers, and when he sees Neil properly, he says, “oh christ, your aura.”
“He means to say, hi, I’m Nicky,” Dan says.
“Yeah, yeah, yeah, for sure, hi, I’m Nicky,” Nicky says, waving a distracted hand. “I can’t believe how fucked up you feel.”
“Excuse me?” Neil says, face burning, caught (as he often is) between anger and shame.
“I feel what you feel,” he says, with some relish. “No wonder we’re having inclement weather.”
All of Neil’s gauges go haywire—instant panic. It’s even worse than Kevin’s supposed powers of compulsion. The thought of all his hard-won habits, straight-faced lies, and tooth and nail emotional regulation being undone by a little empathy is too terrible. Like a bad joke.
Wind whistles in his ears. Dan winces sympathetically as Nicky makes a wounded noise and grabs his own skull, staggering backwards. A wave of energy flows visibly through the air from his body, and Neil feels it impacting his own chest. Suddenly, he feels calm and docile as a lamb. He sits on the floor exactly where he is.
“Hey,” Wymack snaps.
“Nicky, stow the powers, okay. You know most of us vollies aren’t empath-compatible,” Dan says.
“I’m sorry, I—“ Nicky’s eyes screw shut. Immediately Neil is in control of his body again, and he slides sideways, panting. “I wasn’t ready.”
“What did you do to me?” Neil demands. Somewhere above ground, thunder grumbles.
“I’m sorry,” Nicky says again. “It’s an instinct sometimes, I swear I can’t help it.”
“He gave you an emotional sedative,” Wymack says, crossing his arms. “Nicky can manipulate feelings.”
“But I don’t,” Nicky interrupts. “Usually. I didn’t expect it to feel like a war-zone in here all of a sudden.”
Neil stands, and starts to stalk threateningly towards Nicky, but a hand closes in his collar and lifts him clean off the ground.
“Let’s not escalate things,” Dan says, holding him easily aloft. “Nick, will you promise to turn off the charm when Neil’s around?”
Nicky puts his hands up in surrender. “Done and done.” Softer, he says, “It’s actually—nice to meet you Neil.” He smiles sheepishly, and Neil shakes his head in dull disbelief. A total stranger just took the full force of the storm at the centre of Neil’s consciousness, and he’s still smiling at him like he’s not a monster.
Dan sets Neil carefully back on his feet, and he shrugs out of her grip, putting several paces between himself and everyone else.
“I understand powers that happen without your consent,” Neil says slowly. “But if you mess with my emotions again I’m not responsible for what’ll come out of the sky.”
Wymack holds up a staying hand, moving between them. “Alright, alright, enough posturing for one day.”
Nicky looks flushed and upset, but as Neil watches, the air around his body shifts and undulates as a new wave of power is compressed inwards. His expression slackens, hazy. “It’s okay. I don’t intimidate easy.”
Neil blinks at him. “You can turn your powers on yourself?” he asks, putting his own discomfort on ice.
Nicky smiles. He seems to be following Neil’s mood at a distance, matching him beat for beat. Neil’s not sure if it’s a byproduct of his abilities or a true personality trait. “Sure. I can chill myself out if I can’t sleep, get pissed before a fight. I don’t do it very often though, it can get intense. Draining.”
“How do you know if what you’re feeling is real? How does anyone around you?”
Nicky’s smile twitches. Neil suspects he’s stepped on a nerve. “It’s not a memory thing. My power lets people know its been there. It’s why I can’t tell anyone to forgive me, or love me, or anything. They would know better.”
“Eh, I know better,” Dan says, walking close enough to rope Nicky in by the shoulders. “But I do it anyway.”
“Aw shucks,” Nicky says, clearly pleased.
“And you’re—super strong?” Neil asks, eyeing Dan’s thick upper arms.
‘Something like that. I can nudge gravity where I want it.” She looks slyly at Wymack and he uncrosses his arms, taking a step backwards.
“Don’t do it.”
“Come on, not even for the new guy?”
“Dan,” Wymack warns.
“Alright, fine,” she says, hands up. She looks to Neil. “Just know in your heart that I can lift the boss with one finger.”
“It’s a real crowd-pleaser,” Nicky agrees, perching on one of the many data-projecting desks, capped with swirling, changing screens. “But what about you, Stormy Weather? What’s your story?”
He frowns. “I thought all of you knew everything.”
“We’ve seen the highlights reel,” Nicky says. “We don’t know you, though, not yet.”
Not ever, Neil thinks. He plans to treat this like a workplace that he clocks in and out of. After hours, he’ll stay warm and remote in a fog where no one can find him. It’s safer that way.
“I know him,” Andrew says, and Neil looks over to find him cross-legged at the centre of the conference table. The interior glow makes him look haunted, lit ungenerously from below. Andrew tosses a baseball-sized hailstone into the sleek stretch of floor in front of Neil. Preserved, somehow, from when Neil summoned it in the car. “He’s a storm chaser with an attitude problem.”
“Where the hell did you get that?” Dan asks. Then, pinching the bridge of her nose, “never mind, actually. The less I understand the monster, the better.”
“Excuse my cousin Andrew,” Nicky starts. Andrew looks away, apparently bored. “He thinks it’s funny to scare people shitless.”
“I don’t see him laughing,” Neil says tightly.
“His sense of humour was dropped on its head as a child,” Nicky replies sadly.
“Okay, I’m calling it,” Wymack interrupts. “I’m sure you’re exhausted, Neil. Whole lotta new faces today. You’ll meet Kevin, Renee, and Allison when they get back from mission.”
“When will that be?” Neil asks. He’s already paranoid that the shifter will appear to him without him knowing it.
Wymack shrugs. “When it’s done. In the meantime, I don’t want any more gratuitous powers in my base. No throwing shit, no lightning bolts, no—“ Andrew blinks across the room, perilously close to Neil’s side, jaw craned up to examine his face. Neil looks down instinctively, and finds Andrew’s eyes boring into his own. “No pausing me, Minyard, I’m dead serious. If I have to repeat instructions for you again it ain’t gonna be pretty.”
“What was that?” Andrew asks, but Neil’s pretty sure he’s fucking with him, because Wymack just sighs.
“Get out of my sight, all of you.” They all start to disperse, Dan back into Wymack’s office, Nicky over to the doors that lead hall-ward, Andrew into thin air. Wymack catches Neil’s eye. “Get some sleep, okay? See Abby for pills if you need ‘em. We’ll get you something dry to wear.”
“Thank you,” Neil says stiffly.
“Don’t thank me yet. Tomorrow we see how you play with others, and that’s never pretty.”
“Is that a threat?”
Wymack looks tiredly to the largest screen in the room, beyond the place where stats and mission details are spinning in space. “More of a promise, really.”
Neil follows his gaze to the focal point of the screen, where a hundred thousand tiny golden lights are scattered into a world map like beads. Supers, embroidered into the dark fabric of the world, punched into time by some celestial power source or trick of science that they'll never understand.
All that running, all that wishing to disappear, and he was always just a dot on this map. There was never a reality where he was going to be able to hide forever. Not even in the eye of a hurricane. Not even in an underground bunker. And if he can’t conceal his powers, he might as well control them.
He looks back at Wymack, feeling like a season on the cusp of changing, a monsoon shaking itself dry. “Let’s get started.”
#I've been tinkering on this for years and for what!!!#my weather boy neil must finally see the light of day#the foxhole court#aftg#tfc fanfic#andreil#mine#if ppl want a second chapter speak now or forever hold your peace#anyway love you
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1) sam’s living his best life
2) WHAT ARE THEY UP TO?!
#sam lake#neil druckmann#interestingly enough last year#my first hyperfixation was the last of us#which i mean does have a light theme too with the fireflies#then end of the year was alan wake#does it really mean anything? who knows but#i’m glad to love both worlds
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all aboard the clown car keep your giant shoes and rainbow wigs clear of the closing doors honk that nose and hang onto something we’re going to see neil gaiman and john finnemore for a friendly little chat
#good omens#good omens season 2#good omens spoilers#good omens spoiler#spoiler#spoilers#doing my best with the tags it’s 7:30 am and I have t slept and I will probably have a continuous nervous breakdown until season three#if there is any doubt at prime abt green lighting a season three I might actually literally travel to their hq and hold someone at gunpoint#for legal reasons that’s a joke but is it though#neil and john will pay for my therapy#no actually I’m shaking it’s probably the sleep deprivation but also what the FUC K this whole season was a RIDE I loved it so much#the amount of hurt/comfort gifs I’ll be reading in the coming days#fanfic writers do your thing#shut up jonna
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i love mafia restaurant jean moreau……. what a special little guy. cute perfect little murdering linecook. im putting him in my pocket. thank u for the gift of Him
THANK YOU FOR LOVING HIM TWT
#ahhh honestly at this point Jean is more of an oc than anything. like... really i'm just using his name :')#bc... i know that tsc is gonna come out and shed light on his personality and shit but for now i'm happy to be writing him like this :)#me and Char crunchy-rocc were just talking about this kinda thing yesterday and mmmm i'm excited and also sad :') bc i want#jean to be a massive bitch (literally bc he's 6'5" in my heart). to be a crack shot. and also to be utterly devoted to his boyfriend.#and also to put up with neil. his best friend/ greatest annoyance. also he hates andrew. that's just part of him okay? my jean anyway :)#answered#anon#Mafia Restaurant AU#love
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can’t believe all this time we thought neil gaiman was the true Tumblr Adapted Celebrity TM but then after the whole Goncharov thing it turns out it’s actually Lynda Carter
#neil gaiman having a john greene moment while lydia carter is playing along and posting pretend photos of her at the premier was not on my#bingo card for this year. truly this is the most insane website#(pls do not come after me with pitch forks this is just a light hearted post in good fun not intended as criticism or hate)#i am really glad that lynda carter decided to come here tho. i love her blog actually#Goncharov#random musings#lynda carter
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I love your arajade!!!!
You do my two favorite characters in hs justice. Also your art is very cool and good 10/10 love everything about it
Aw thank u!!!! Here's the girls rewatching raiders of the lost ark (it was Ara's turn to pick the movie) <3
#ur so niceeeeee#I fucking love them so much and it makes me happy that other people resonate with my depiction of them :D#also for some reason I've really been liking drawing characters in front of the tv?#it's fun lighting#arajade#ask#neil-cicierega-number-732-fan
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i got a kobo libra for my birthday and my brother sent me a gift voucher for the online store but now i have to decide what i want and it’s Stressful
#thing is i don't read a lot okay#not bc i don't want to but bc i'm very picky about books#i frequently buy books and then read like 50-100 pages before giving up#and the ones i do finish i'm often critical of#probably bc of my own insecurities#i love writing but trying to make a book work has been the bane of my existence since i was like 19 tbh#so if i read something with cringey dialogue or overdone tropes or plot holes or two-dimensional characters i can't get past it#bc i can't get past it in my own writing#and the bar for what i think of as bad writing is unfortunately low#so yeah i'm trying to pick books i want to read but i've been so badly burned by promising-looking books in the past i just daren't#anyway if you have any recommendations then hmu#neil gaiman's my fave#love terry pratchett too#light-hearted and fun preferable i don't want to read anything bleak tyvm i've got the news for that#fantasy's my fave genre but i'm open to anything apart from horror tbh
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