#negative autism rant
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autistic-cry-baby · 2 days ago
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seeing him even a little upset puts me in an episode every time.
the fucking sunshine fucking sad and i can't fucking comfort him
then i'll remember him crying while i listen to deep end or unfair (why do i do that to myself-)
bpd is the worst feeling ever.
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FELIX — UNFAIR
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thatonegaybrit · 5 months ago
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; I know it's talked about but genuinely it's not talked about enough how difficult ( difficult ) it is being autistic. And it's not even just because I have autism, sometimes it's from Third Party People Being Ableist™ and making my life 20x harder than it was previously.
; and I'm sick and tired of people trying to be allies by denying that I'm autistic ?? Denying my struggles and saying " you're just a little funky !! " or " you're not different, you're the same as any other person <3 " because I'm not ( not ), I'm genuinely not like every other person. And wow are you going to be disappointed when you find out I actually can't function like you, I physically can not. I can't do most anything like a " normal " person and every day is a struggle because people want to see me as average, so they treat me as average and neurotypical and no different from them, but I am different. I do need things that others don't, I do need support even if I'm probably categorized as low support needs, I still have needs that the average person doesn't !! I'm Autistic !! I am different, I am not like the average person and it disables me. I do not resent being autistic, I do not want to be neurotypical. What I resent is how I'm treated because of it, how my struggles are either ignored or stigmatized. I resent not being able to function how others want me too, and therefore being labeled as a nuisance or a difficult case.
; I. Am. Autistic. And yk what ?? I'm not making it my whole personality, it is my whole personality !! It's my mother fucking brain, of course it's going to effect most every aspect of me and how I work ?? And so of course most things I talk about or most my experiences are going to " look autistic " or could be categorized as autism, because I'm autistic !! I'm a walking book of autistic traits so yeah, a lot of the ways I think and the things I do are gonna be related to autism, because I literally am autistic. Sorry if that bothers you ?? Like ?? Idk what people expect from me, I'm going to talk about it because it's kinda hard not to when everything I do or say is " affected " by it ?? :/
; anyways, happy disability pride month. Thanks for listening to my miniature rant
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sukibenders · 8 months ago
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Looking back at Girl Meets World, it will forever irritate me especially for how they handled/treated Angela. Oh this show really hated black women because how do you not only 1.) describe her, one of (correct me if I'm wrong) only few black and MAIN characters of the og show, as a "concept" 2.) have characters show obvious disgust at the small mention of her name 3.) depict her as a homewrecker for a new relationship that, really, shouldn't have ever happened 4.) have her old friends treat her like dirt and her old lover like she is the root of his problems, when there was nothing but positive love there 5.) reuse all the concepts from said previous love story just to elevate the new ship with a yte woman and 6.) compare her to Hurricane Katrina, one of the deadliest hurricanes that caused significant numbers of death, harm, misplacement, and trauma to people, largely of whom were black? Mind you, all these points I mentioned were toward the only main black character of the OG show before the spinoff, and the only, from what I can remember, black female character of the spinoff who didn't even stay long. Not even getting into the racist drama with some of the members on set, but you cannot look me in the eye and tell me that the way the show handled Angela, her story, and her relationship with the other characters + Shawn wasn't fucking disrespectful, you can't because I won't believe you.
#boy meets world#girl meets world#like this show had so many issues (from its depiction of autism to religious intolerance to supporting grooming)#but this was a whole other level#it was especially hurtful as a young black girl to see growing bc i really tried to like this show with its lacking diversity#but coming from watching bmw to this a show from the 90s that depicted a black character better than a 2010s show- u get my point#and its so wrong bc it depicts angela as being the one to end the relationship when all she said in bmw how she#didn't want to see her leaving as a goodbye and there was ambiguous hope for the future#also shoving shawn to be with maya's mom was really unnecessary#not only bc of how it depicted being raised in a single parent household so negatively#but that the only way to solve maya's problems was for her...to have a dad? like that really isn't how it works#i blissfully live in the delulu where angela and shawn came back together once she left europe and he eventually married her#after they graduated college and have a beautiful family together#shawn x angela#don't even get me started on how whenever there was a guest cameo it was met audience applause and happy reactions#but when it was for angela: crickets 😬#back to maya- i feel like it would have been better for her story if shawn didn't marry her mother (and was with angela) and u would see her#hope and wish for the opposite to where it nearly consumes her only to finally be sat down and informed that#even if shawn isn't with your mom he'll still be in your life as a father figure no matter what#i personally feel like that would've been better#but this is largely just s rant so forgive the structure of it al
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transintellectualistic · 2 months ago
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Being in the anti-rq & antiship portion of the MOGAI community honestly seems miserable and I’m glad I stopped looking through those tags.
Every post has some miles-long DNI list on it filled with the most innocuous shit like “Steven Universe defenders” and “uses the term f*mboy” next to actual neo-nazis as if they’re remotely comparable. And this is also supposed to serve as a magical ward for who can and can’t use a flag or a fucking term? I’m so sorry for my thought crime of identifying with a concept whilst also watching a children’s TV show you don’t like?
There’s definitely a “you must always be fully immersed in world events and aware of Problematic Content because otherwise you don’t really care about your fellow man” attitude there as well; when I used to lurk in MOGAI tags I would always feel my OCD spiralling because I’d see people reblog dozens of those guilt-tripping “you’re a BAD PERSON if you don’t reblog this” news/“awareness”/donation posts— which just feels really gross for a community that likes to tout itself as caring about neurodivergent people and survivors, because any person with even a sliver of knowledge about mental health knows that posts like that literally only work on pwOCD and cause us to spiral even when we agree with the message being conveyed!!!!!!!
It’s a shame as well because like, I fucking LOVE xenogenders and quote-on-quote “terminally online queer microlabels”. I have a Pinterest archive with thousands of terms and flags saved that I add to literally every day! But the second I step into the Tumblr coining scene I feel an overwhelming sense of sadness wash over me. I feel bad for the people there who feel like they have to police their own thoughts and interests purely based on the fact that no other queer spaces will let them explore the intricacies of their gender and identity with such detail. I feel bad for the ND people who are constantly subjecting themselves to content that puts them in a state of constant vigilance and re-traumatising for the sake of being a Good Leftist.
I know there are a few people in these communities that read through rq tags and if you’re one of them seeing this I just want to let you know: you don’t have to stay in communities that hurt you because they’re the “only option”. You can distance yourself from them if you want to. It doesn’t make you a bad person, and I promise there will be people who genuinely accept you and uplift your identity without any pretense of needing to be “moral enough” attached.
I hope you can find a space that will let you feel loved and cherished, wherever that is.
I love you.
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lilqu33rboi · 10 months ago
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i will continue to say this until all of my fellow lsn autistics understand: we absolutely MUST focus on amplifying the voices of and supporting msn/hsn autistics! i will never stop following & reblogging posts from m/hsn autistics because some of us (lsn autistics) don't know how to get it together & realize that it isn't always about us! this doesn't mean i am trying to minimize our struggles or say that we don't have needs to be met because of course we do, but we also need to understand that just because we aren't in the spotlight 24/7 (which we are anyway when it comes to mainstream media but that's a topic for another day) doesn't mean that we get to overshadow m/hsn autistics who have needs that we shouldn't claim to understand because we aren't all the same. Just because we are all autistic doesn't mean that we can claim to understand the needs of someone who doesn't always share the same experiences as us.
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petiolata · 3 months ago
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😒 is texting ur partner screenshots of your emails to check if they're appropriately worded bad "reassurance-seeking"?
Ive had a hard time wrapping my head around that concept as a maladaptive/harmful practice.
But like. I have zero faith in my ability to correctly communicate with human beings given how many unspoken rules and invisible pitfalls there are. And how often ND people are treated like they're evil incarnate for some (imo) harmless minor gaff.
It would be great if knowing your intentions are good actually let you have some confidence your interactions will be fine. But instead ppl are mean as hell to well-intentioned ND people so we get to walk on eggshells our whole lives, wondering what little unintentional mistake we'll be ripped into over.
Idk. Anyway.
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wanderingmind867 · 2 months ago
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Sometimes I get so stressed and agitated that I just want to rip the head off of anything and anyone who comes in contact with me. I'm feeling that anger skyrocket again (probably because of stress in my personal life), and I'm half tempted to take it out on a bunch of random targets. Mostly things that I have no actual clear understanding of, but which I have convinced myself to hate anyways. I'm an impulsive person, and I'm a person of great anger and stress. So don't be shocked if I just start making some rude posts bad-mouthing things to try and distract my brain from my real life stress. It's probably not a good coping mechanism, but it's the one i'm letting myself get away with today.
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heavenmercy · 2 years ago
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I feel like people on the internet forget that Autism is a disorder and there's a difference between "normalizing" and "mockery".
... labeling Autism as "weird" and "not normal" is more ablest than anything. Just treat Autistic people as human, please.
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cumcov3redangel · 1 month ago
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Yay! Lavender day on cumcov3redangel!
Yes! Today was lavender/purple day on cumcov3redangel’s blog! Tune in tomorrow for black day!
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mily-is-a-star · 2 months ago
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Me when I open up to someone about my personal issues and that same person starts telling everyone that, word for word, they have that issue, and it's literally only because they want attention
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arisveah · 4 months ago
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man i hate slur jumpscares omg
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rory-moment · 2 years ago
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me ranting L man i am PISSED. we are talking about empathy in class right now. I am autistic and on the lower empathy side. I can feel it, but only in certain situations, and I have to be close to the person. otherwise its not there much at all, i'd say. teacher said "raise your hand if you think you have empathy" and i didn't. everyone except me and a few others raised their hands. teacher says something, and then she says "what about our friends who don't have empathy? what kind of friend is that?" and i am so mad. people with low empathy are not lesser or monsters or ANYTHING. we can be good friends. we are not bad people.
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joowee-feftynn · 7 months ago
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using retarded as an insult completely defeats the purpose of reclaiming slurs btw. you don't see queer people reclaiming faggot/dyke/tranny and unironically using them as insults
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ramquest · 11 months ago
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Watching the SuperBowl with my parents rn and I commented on how I wish the halo show wasn't getting more seasons cause I really didn't like the first season for many reasons. They then said I just hate everything and I'm always negative...
No im not...
Thats not fucking fair...
I talk about shit I love all the time you guys just never care because when I do my autistic ass can't figure out when to shut up.
I try and talk about stuff I love and I try showing you guys stuff all the time and you don't care or don't have the time.
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I'm not just a negative person that's not true I love sharing everything I love I can talk about things I love for hours I'm not just negative...
God that hurts.
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roberts-island · 2 years ago
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I am really burnt out lately and it’s getting to the point where I have no memory or sense of time. I keep missing appointments because I miscalculate how long travel time is, or I forget that it’s happening despite setting a reminder, and my executive function is shot so I feel like I’m constantly behind on chores and homework. It’s really debilitating and I’m sick of people acting like I’ll be ok when there’s no clear solution, just because I mostly look functional on the outside. I’m in meltdown and shutdown most of the time lately and I think I’m getting depressed. I don’t know how to describe the amount of effort life takes, or how to make any of it better
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generationa1trauma · 7 months ago
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flatmate has a girl over i am suddenly extremely uncomfortable
#sorry i only ever come here to rant its bc im losing all my interests / passions and always need someone to talk to but have no friends 🤪#negative cw#thats a lie partially in that i am emotionally incapable of talking ab it i just. i have no people i have no outlet#but tumblr hasnt been doing it for me lately. im not sure if jts#its the mental illness or if its just being full time employed leaves me so burned out that i can barely function#so hobbies just become non existent#doesnt really matter either way tho bc i can barely pay my bills on full time wages theres nothing i can do to fix things#time off or less hours isnt an option and i sont have the money to get anything diagnosed#i think i need. a lot of support ive been kinda rawdogging life for 26 years but ill be honest gang its starting to really impact everything#i do not. feel like i am a fully functioning human. i am not capable of being a functional adult in society#but its also like. i have to be#my parents dont really believe in mental health stuff or autism or anything and certainly wouldnt believe if i tried to say i was disabled#its just like. no one ever believes me ab that kinda stuff and i dont have the money to get it diagnosed#and without a diagnosis theres not much that can be done but also even with a diagnosis theres nothing#government disability allowance is $78 a week maximum and only covers specifically medical costs for that disability#like i genuinely feel on the verge of a breakdown so bad that i would need a care person#but alas. thats just literally never a possibility for me#i dont have money and i dont come from money and i will be forced to work full time through breakdowns until i die#there is nothing that can be done to help me or fix me#and that just. it sucks#anyway#hope this girl is nice bc my cat refuses to be in my room and its giving me anxiety bc what if hes scared of her and runs away#2 much going on in my head but i can not stop it so here we are#sorry y'all r my rant place#i have been thinking ab trying to step away from the internet a bit but its also.#not really a thing i can do bc everything costs money these days#social clubs r barely existent and the ones there are cost a shittone#I'd just. I'd like to be in a better place. I just don't know how to get there
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