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aggressivelyaverage21 · 11 months ago

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One Shot - "One of Those Nights" Years after her service to the OCS ended, Beatrice sometimes struggled. Who better to comfort her wife than one Ava Silva?

An exploration of what their life might have looked like after it all as they navigate mental health struggles, and aging, and loving eachother.

Ava rolls over in her -- their -- bed, only for her arm to fall soft to the now cool mattress beneath it where her very warm, very not memory foam, wife should be. Lately it's felt more and more like her bed, especially at this hour. An hour that Ava hardly needed to roll back over and look at her phone to confirm -- 0345 -- and ' yes Bea, will have my phone in bed, because how else am I supposed to know what time it is when you sneak out' she heaves a sigh.

Sad. Tired. Aching for her wife. Her wife who was struggling with ghosts that haunted and futures that never would come to pass.

Beatrice got like this a few times a year.

It was predictable. It was survivable . It was completely outside of her fault or control. But sometimes, sometimes something would trigger something in Beatrice, and God did Ava hate that word.

But it, according to the therapist, was the appropriate use actually.

It was less violent than a trigger pull. Not that pulling a trigger was violent - a mere bend of a finger a few centimeters, but what happened after certainly was. Beatrice knew that all too well.

And well, maybe come to think of it, it was exactly the right word.

Because Bea would see something or someone who maybe looked a little like Shannon on a hard day at work, or hear a song that Mary would make them all listen to on the way home from missions in the grocery store. Or any number of "annoyingly nostalgic happenstances" (Bea's words obviously).

Sometimes it was less of that sweet hurt only loving something like that could bring, and more to do with other parts of their former life. Maybe it was a quick startle that had Beatrice’s adrenaline spiking just the wrong way for a moment remembering one of those more violent times. A noise. A motion. A smell.

It wasn’t anything like Beatrice spiraling immediately into a fit of chest heaving breaths and frantic eyes. Though that happened occasionally at the beginning. No. Usually it looked like nothing, because that startle response had been trained out of Beatrice. But, like anyone who had ever spoken to her wife knew, Beatrice had a fucking brilliant brain, and that brain liked to think - well over think in these cases.

Hours later, Beatrice would be stuck on those thoughts. Memories. Regrets. And she would slip into missing them, or running through missions over and over. Unable to make the broken record of it all just stop.

So, it wasn’t immediate. Not like a bullet after a trigger. It was a slow, sometimes avoidable, creep toward the same end.

A bloodied soul that ached from the holes torn through it with more devastation as they traveled then when they first entered and scar tissue couldn’t ever really quite fill them the same.

Which then led to the not sleeping. The struggling to put thoughts to words to speech. The paralyzation between trying to put thoughts to feelings or feelings to thoughts.

To Beatrice's credit, she always got help. She reached out to her therapist. She tried her best to communicate with Ava. She talked to ‘Mother’ because calling her Suzanne never settled quite right with her, or Camilla or Lilith. She tried all the strategies she'd gained over the years to help. And they usually did, but there were always a few days where those bandages didn’t quite fit the proverbial bullet holes.

Today was one of those days.

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#warrior nun #wn #sister beatrice #save warrior nun #ava silva #ava silva x sister beatrice #avatrice #navigating mental health struggles #it's soft and sweet I promise #emotional hurt/comfort

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pumpkin-the-girlie-girl-vixen · 4 months ago

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**A Man is Nothing Without His Borderline Personality Disorder Girlfriend: Hilarious Tales from the Trenches of Love**

Let’s face it: relationships can be wild rides, and when you throw in a girlfriend with borderline personality disorder (BPD), you’re in for an adventure like no other. As someone who’s been in this kind of relationship, I can confidently say that a man is nothing without his BPD girlfriend—especially when it comes to the endless stories that come from navigating the quirky world of love and mental health.

**The Emotional Rollercoaster**

First off, dating someone with BPD is like getting a VIP pass to the emotional rollercoaster of a lifetime. One moment, she’s on top of the world, showering you with love and affection like you’re the last slice of pizza at a party. The next, you’re standing in the eye of the storm, wondering why she’s suddenly convinced you’re the villain in her life story. “Did I forget to take out the trash?” you ponder, while she’s accusing you of plotting to ruin her life. Spoiler alert: No, you didn’t forget to take out the trash— but now you’re questioning every life choice you’ve ever made.

**Love and Fear of Abandonment: The Ultimate Combo**

Then there's the classic “I can’t believe you’re leaving me!” scenario every time you run to the store for milk. It’s a routine grocery trip, but suddenly, you’re walking into a scene reminiscent of a dramatic soap opera. “You’ll find someone better! I know it!” she cries, clutching her stuffed penguin like it’s the last lifeline on a sinking ship. Little do you know, this is just a friendly reminder that your seemingly mundane errand could threaten the very fabric of your relationship.

**Communication Shenanigans**

Let’s talk about communication, or as I like to call it, “The Game of Telephone on Steroids.” Conversations often morph into full-blown debates over the slightest misunderstandings. You could say, “Wow, it’s a beautiful day!” and end up with her convinced you’re subtly hinting that she’s not as bright and sunny as the weather. You know what they say: “It’s not what you say, it’s how you say it.” And trust me, if you say anything that can be interpreted as a hidden insult, you’ve just opened Pandora’s box.

**The “I Love You, I Hate You” Tango**

If you’re in it for the long haul, you’ll quickly learn that the “I love you, I hate you” tango is the official dance of your relationship. One minute, you’re cuddling on the couch, watching romantic comedies and discussing your future together. The next, you’re being accused of not caring enough because you forgot to ask about her favorite flavor of ice cream. The irony? You both just polished off a pint of her favorite flavor! But logic? Who needs that in a whirlwind romance?

**The Quirky Quirks**

Now, let’s not forget the quirky quirks that come with the territory. There are spontaneous road trips to nowhere, where you find yourself navigating to a destination you didn’t even know existed, all in the name of “let’s find ourselves!” You might even discover that your new favorite hobby is deep-diving into mental health articles, not for your sake, but to keep up with the whirlwind that is her life. You’ll laugh, you’ll cry, and by the end, you’ll probably be a certified expert in BPD—complete with a degree in emotional navigation.

**In Conclusion: Embrace the Chaos**

At the end of the day, dating a woman with borderline personality disorder may come with its challenges, but it’s also filled with unforgettable moments, lots of laughs, and a kind of love that’s fierce and unwavering. Sure, there will be bumps along the way, but every relationship has its quirks. The key is to embrace the chaos, find humor in the madness, and remember that love comes in all forms—even if it includes an emotional rollercoaster or two.

So here’s to the men out there who find themselves navigating the tumultuous waters of love with a BPD girlfriend—may your adventures be wild, your stories be hilarious, and your relationship be a journey worth taking! Just remember, without her chaotic charm, you’d be left with a very boring life…and who wants that?

@bigmikeyde ❤️ @pumpkin-the-girlie-girl-vixen

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in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine · 8 months ago

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I’m scared because I’ve lived my life wanting to die most of the time, and now that I don’t ...

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halyorke-vampiredisaster · 2 years ago

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Most of the time In the Flesh is just another dvd case on my shelf that I don't think about and then once in a while I go to rewatch it very innocently and 5 minutes in I'm violently run over by how fucking raw it is and by how insanely hard it hits omg

#in the flesh #it has everything #the small reclused village and the atmosphere that comes with it #the rising right wing politics #the queer (sub) text (it has both. text and subtext)#the mental health struggles and navigating those for yourself and in a family #KIERENS SHAME (this one is in there for me personally i know it)#he doesn't take out his contacts even when he goes to bad. he covers the mirror when he takes off the make up #it just hits so hard #the camera focuses on kieren after having to experience yet another (micro) aggression and my heart opens up and bleeds #plusplusplus apart from everything that's good about it it also has my special interest: a variation on vampires (it's close enough anyway)#one thing i think is interesting is that back in the day i related to s1 the most. and now it's s2 that i feel is more relevant for my life #which means i made progress kind of doesn't it? now it's less about family and grief and being closeted for me #and more about the shame/pride dichotomy and living in a society as an 'other'. finding joy despite and because of it all

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bookishscrolls · 18 days ago

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To the One Who Feels Stuck…

Sometimes, life doesn’t unravel the way we expect it to. There’s no big win, no defining moment of success — just a long stretch of days where everything feels… stuck. Like you’re walking through fog with no clear path ahead. Maybe you once had a plan — a dream you clung to, a direction you believed in. And maybe, like me, you followed it with everything you had… until it didn’t work out. Or…

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niggadiffusion · 1 month ago

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Riding the Emotional Currents: Unearthing Your True Essence

Life’s rhythm often throws us into storms of emotion, where waves of anxiety, sorrow, or confusion crash against the walls of our minds. It’s in these moments—when clarity feels distant and chaos reigns—that we’re presented with an unexpected gift: the chance to dive deeper into our true selves. Emotional turmoil, though relentless and uncomfortable, becomes the gateway to self-discovery. By leaning into these internal tempests, we not only find stability but also unearth the essence of who we are and what truly drives us.

The Anatomy of Inner Chaos

Emotional turmoil isn’t simply feeling sad or anxious; it’s the clash of conflicting emotions that leaves us disoriented and struggling to function. Imagine a mental storm brewing—one that disrupts your peace and shakes your sense of control. This experience can manifest in heightened irritability, racing thoughts, and an overwhelming sense of dread. Physically, it can drain your energy, disturb your sleep, and even trigger headaches or digestive issues. Socially, you might withdraw or struggle to connect with others, feeling trapped in a cycle of self-doubt and fear.

Recognizing the difference between temporary emotional distress and prolonged turmoil is key. When left unchecked, these emotional currents can erode mental, emotional, and even physical well-being. Yet, understanding their roots and learning to navigate them opens the door to transformation.

Tracing the Source

The triggers for emotional upheaval are as diverse as the human experience itself. Relationship struggles, grief, career pressures, financial burdens, or past traumas can ignite this inner storm. Even positive life changes—like marriage or parenthood—can bring unexpected emotional turbulence. For some, underlying mental health conditions or neurodivergence amplify these feelings, while others grapple with societal pressures or personal insecurities.

By identifying these triggers, we can begin to untangle the chaos and confront the deeper fears and beliefs that fuel it.

The Path of Self-Discovery

True self-discovery isn’t about finding the “perfect version” of yourself. It’s about peeling back the layers—understanding your values, desires, and fears—and embracing your authentic self. This journey requires reflection, vulnerability, and the courage to confront uncomfortable truths.

In moments of emotional turmoil, we’re often forced to question the narratives we’ve clung to and the expectations we’ve inherited. It’s here that we uncover hidden strengths, suppressed emotions, and unacknowledged dreams. The pain becomes a teacher, guiding us toward clarity and purpose.

Tools for the Journey

1. Mindfulness & Presence: Ground yourself in the present moment through meditation, deep breathing, or mindful movement. These practices help quiet the noise and create space for self-reflection.

2. Journaling & Self-Expression: Pour your thoughts onto paper. Explore your emotions, patterns, and experiences without judgment. This process can reveal subconscious truths and foster self-awareness.

3. Seeking Support: Therapy, support groups, or honest conversations with trusted friends can provide valuable perspective and emotional validation.

4. Creative Outlets: Art, music, or poetry can serve as powerful vehicles for processing emotions and connecting with your inner world.

5. Rest & Self-Compassion: Emotional growth requires energy. Prioritize rest, set boundaries, and treat yourself with kindness as you navigate this path.

From Darkness to Clarity

Emotional turmoil isn’t something to escape—it’s an invitation to evolve. By embracing the storm and allowing it to guide us inward, we uncover resilience, authenticity, and deeper purpose. It’s through this raw, often uncomfortable process that we transform chaos into clarity and step closer to the truest version of ourselves.

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compassionmattersmost · 3 months ago

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Poem: Compassion Blossoms

In the winter’s chill, fatigue takes its toll,A silent struggle that steals its hold.In shadows of exhaustion, you stand,Seeking solace, a comforting hand. Amidst the snowflakes and the gloom,Your heart whispers in the quiet room.Lost in the battle, weary and worn,Yet in your words, a resilience is born. School’s path abandoned, relationships few,The isolation, a formidable view.But here, in…

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rfyimmo · 9 months ago

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My Quarter-Life Crisis is trying to kill me. | MillennialMomManifesto

My kid was watching a nursery rhyme that said "Don't throw your junk in my back yard, my backyard’s full," and I froze, my mind spiraling until I sank into the floor and cried, Summer Walker style. Panic attack? Adult tantrum? How many times are my peers and women of my generation finding ourselves in positions like this?... And Why...?

The more I gain the confidence to speak with my peers about instances like these or the catalysts for such, I realize things like this are happening to most of us right now. Our unhappiness is mentally & physically showing itself in our faith, health, mind, bodies, actions and reactions.

Sociologists say "Mid-Life" by today's standards is between ages 35-75 🧐

What do you count as middle-aged? At almost 30, I feel like I used to think this was it, but now, I refuse to accept that. All my life society and media showed us mid-life crises were usually for 30 or 40-something year old men buying sports cars and trading in their wives for newer models, but today what does that look like?

I'm calling it a quarter life crisis (and not mid-life crisis) because if the people in the Bible lived hundreds of years & there are still Centenarian Blue Zones on this modern day planet, I hope this is not the middle. I hoping we have so much more to go. Most people want to live longer and climb the proverbial ladder quicker - so that's where the crisis kicks in. My peers and I are trying not to be crushed under student debt, living costs that don't match the wage gaps, and dreams we don't know how to make come true, but still daily haunt us. Queue the panic about not being where we thought we would by now or how much we feel we should have gotten accomplished and comparison to our peers' highlight reels online.

Being super is tough: It's a constant battle of figuring out when to use your powers (for good or for evil), balancing your secret identity, maintaining your energy and constantly improving your powers or learning new ones.

Good Vs. Evil: Remember that panic from earlier? You know, the panic enacted by milestones you thought you would reach by now? Write down what you want, how you want to get it, and form a timeline to make it happen. Seeing your plan on paper can help ground you.

Secret Identity: Make the best of this time! Even if it doesn’t feel like it, you are supposed to be here in this moment. There is more than one way to navigate life, careers, etc. Why else would there be so many paths if people were not meant to be different and explore different options. Do what works for you! Your powers are different form the supe next to you, and there are still muggles and mortals with no powers at all. Queue the Gratitude & Mindfullness.

Maintaining Energy: They say life gets better with age, so think of yourself and where you were 1, 3, 5, and even 10 years ago! You would KILL to know, do, have the things you do now & you learn daily how to do this life thing a little bit better than yesterday. Consider this quarter or midlife crisis a pitstop for refocus, weather this transition with reflection and grace for yourself. Identify the wisdom you have and apply it to new areas.

"The purpose of your life is to find your gift, the work of life is to develop it, and the meaning of life is to give it away."

As far as Powers: I leave you with this quote:

"Midlife is when the primary operating system of your life shifts from the ego to the soul. It's a period when people start to rearrange what gives meaning to themselves."

As a 'SuperMom' This is How I'm Running on Sustainable & Renewable Energy:

While the early 20s and late teens are living their "Rich 'Hot Girl' Era", I'm trying to find my way into "Wealthy Hot Mom Era" who Dabbles in "Mob Wife."

✨A few Podcast Recommendations:🌤️

From Broken To Branding: B Simone on Nice & Neat

Highlighted Quote: "I wasn't protected as a child so I think that's where a lot of my comedy comes from I walk on eggshells a lot trying to people please and I have a lack of boundaries because I want you to like me because I need validation from other people instead of getting it internally I wasn't I wasn't protected so I feel like I did a lot to make adults happy around me that were supposed to be there to protect me but really didn't make me feel comfortable as a child"

You've Been BLOCKING Your BLESSINGS! | Tabitha Brown

Tia Mowry: You’re Unhappy and You Don’t Know it - Learn to Leave the Comfort of Being Unhappy

✨Here's my Money & Positivity Playlist (to help you see the bright side:)🌤️

About the Author: Proud milso & toddler mom. Lover of art, creative writing & blogging 🎨 Believing in the power of efficiency & innovation 🌟 Passionate about helping small businesses thrive 🚀 Avid traveler & coffee enthusiast ☕️✈️

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myun-saidthoughts · 5 months ago

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˗ˏˋ ⭐ ˎˊ˗ Astrology Observations ˗ˏˋ ⭐ ˎˊ˗

🌟 The placement of Pluto in your chart can reveal the theme of pain or transformation you might experience in this life—pain that serves as a catalyst for profound internal and mental shifts within yourself.

The depth of pain will be dependent on your own choices; if you choose to ignore red flags the harsher and more severe the wake up call would be.

Pluto in the 5th house: Struggles might emerge from overindulgence in impulsive or immature choices, such as gambling or seeking joy in fleeting pleasures (such as affairs or short term relationships). Poor choices may manifest because there's a need of deep inner child healing, which could cause deeper emotional wounds in the process. The extremes of choosing quick fun can lead into a habit of poor decision making. Pluto in the 7th house: Challenges and transformative pain often arise through intimate romantic relationships, pushing you to confront deep-seated patterns and fears. If you keep choosing people who won't choose you or if you rely on others for a sense of self, identity or acceptance then the wake up call would be more prominent or severe. Pluto in the 11th house: Painful experiences may come through friendships or involvement in communities, leading to shifts in how you connect with and trust others. If you find yourself relying on others or seeking external validation through communities, friend groups, or social connections, the wake-up call may lead you to recognize your own worth and embrace yourself as you are, without needing acknowledgment from others. Pluto in the 12th house: Ignoring your psyche or mental struggles can lead to self-unraveling. The more you avoid or dismiss your internal mental health setbacks, the deeper and more painful the lessons will become. You may not even be aware of your emotional needs, but the longer you avoid confronting your sensitivity or past wounds—whether from childhood or relationships—the harder it will be to redefine your self-concept and belief system. You may even experience a revelation about yourself after overcoming depression or anxiety, which can help you understand yourself better. However, remember that being introspective and aware doesn't always mean you're truly feeling your feelings. You may know what to think or how to act, but it’s crucial to connect the emotions you've been holding onto with the feelings beneath them.

Pluto placed in less interactive houses may have a less intense theme, but if you also have Chiron in the same house, its influence can become much more prominent and life-changing, amplifying the potential for deep healing or painful growth.

🌟 If you have many inner planets in your 5th, 7th, or 8th house, you're more likely to seek out romantic connections, desire a partner, or long for one—even if you’ve experienced emotional turmoil in your childhood due to your parents or past partners.

🌟 If you have many inner planets in your 1st, 2nd, or 12th house, you’re less likely to be open to a connection. Subconsciously, you might desire or wish for someone to be “your person,” but you may never allow yourself to fully give in.

🌟 With 8th house synastry, the intensity of this connection swings between unspoken loyalty and complete avoidance—one extreme driven by the fear of showing disinterest, and the other by the fear of being a burden. If you’re not preoccupied with displaying your loyalty to them in a room full of people, you find yourself avoiding eye contact or minimizing conversation to maintain a facade of “normalcy”—a normalcy that doesn’t truly exist in this connection.

🌟 Pisces/Scorpio placements may have a strong tendency to seek deep emotional experiences during times of creativity. They often search for a specific feeling or emotional state as a catalyst to create art or writing.

🌟 Aquarius placements, especially Moon or Rising, often struggle with avoidance as one of their worst traits in any relationships they navigate—whether romantic, platonic, or even with themselves.

🌟 Scorpios are known for their extreme loyalty. Once they choose you, they are deeply committed and unlikely to leave unless a traumatic emotional blockage arises within the relationship.

🌟 Scorpio risings can have beautiful striking eyes, and because of that their eyes can heavily influence appearance. Their eyes may even become an ice breaker for conversations/be talked about a-lot.

🌟 Aries + Libra axis turnover rate when it comes to relationships is incredibly high. Moving on to the next can come naturally to them unless they have other placements that contradicts that tendency.

🌟 Air signs need intellectual stimulation; they need to feel excited and curious with you.

🌟 8th House placements (esp. Moon or Sun) or Scorpio placements are incredibly private towards the public. They naturally will not post on social media: no instagram stories, tweets, memes, their thoughts or feelings willingly and openly.

This is because

At a young age their needs, thoughts or wishes were ignored and pushed to the side for others sake and so they now have coped to never share their own inner thoughts or feelings to others.

They've been burned or hurt in the past by someone they've trusted, and now they don't share or openly state their true feelings outwardly towards others.

If they have a Taurus/Libra/Leo IC or Gemini/Sagittarius/placements then the chances of sharing themselves online is more likely.

🌟 In 8th/Pluto + 12th/Neptune house synastry connections, if you two are not on speaking terms sudden lows may occur when you're reminded of what was.

If it's been weeks or months since you've both talked and one random day they watch your story on your social media a sudden longing for them may come.

If you run into them and the conversation didn't amount to what you wished for, a low may come and you'll feel as if the relationship is completely over.

🌟 8th house synastry amounts to constant cycles and loops, if you're not wishing for them, you say you're over them.

There could be an emotional block between you two and the desire for them may diminish but If they look at you for one second the way they used too, the desire for them will arise as if the feeling never left.

🌟 In 12th house and Neptune synastry, you might covertly share song lyrics on your social media, hoping they’ll read them and sense that the lyrics are meant as a message for them. Instead of expressing your feelings face-to-face, posting these lyrics in a "hidden" way feels safer.

And if so, you yourself may wonder if anything they publicly post, say, or do is a secret message for you.

You may even go out of your way to somehow find a perfect song that depicts the relationship between you two and use that song as a indirect message to state your true feelings without having to outwardly verbalize them.

(The above statement is more true for those who have Pisces, 12th house, Neptune influence in their cart)

🌟 3rd house synastry creates ease with communication, especially if there's 4th house synastry as well, and if the planets involved are the Sun, Moon, or Venus.

🌟 For 12th house synastry to cause intense idealizations, thoughts, dreams, wishes or obsessiveness there has to be attraction involved, the more attracted you are to them the more you'll idealize them.

🌟 A Neptune/12th house person and a planet person can both experience intense desire, longing, or overthinking, but the way they process these feelings depends on their individual natal charts.

🌟 With 8th and 12th house synastry connections, you might never actually date the person, yet the emotions they evoke within you can feel as profound and intimate as if you had.

🌟 Neptune and 12th house synastry: "You are perfect for me; you feel like everything I could ever wish for in someone."

If you're avoidant, this feeling can be terrifying because it brings a sense of inadequacy, as if you could never live up to the idealized version of yourself they see. You'll long for them deeply, but the way they look at you may feel unsettling, foreign, or out of place. Even if they seem like your dream person, self-doubt can drive you to run. You might fear disappointing them or feel you’ll never measure up to the partner they deserve. You'll view them as some sort of prize from a distance and you'll search for them in other connections but you'll never allow yourself to choose them, not like they choose you.

If you're anxious, this feeling will strike a familiar chord, it'll resonate so deeply within and letting go will seem impossible. You'll feel this pull toward them, you'll feel as if they’re your muse, your catharsis, and you'll wish that they were your person. Even without words, you'll sense that they want you, and this silent connection will consume your thoughts. You’ll compare the way they make you feel to everyone else, and you'll search for that same intensity in other people's gazes. You’ll sit in your head, wondering if your wishes align with theirs, questioning if they feel the same. Over time, you’ll realize the emotions they stir in you are unmatched, which leads you to hold onto the connection longer than you should, you'll rather wish on the what could be's than accept what is.

🌟 Pisces or 12th house placements often turn to writing or art as a means of expressing their inner thoughts, feelings, and longings. The more they feel, the more their creativity flows.

🌟 If you have water placements or planets in water houses (4th, 8th, 12th), deep emotions are embedded within you. The more you avoid these feelings, the more likely physical symptoms such as anxiety or mental struggles will occur. It's your body’s way of processing the hidden emotions you’ve learned to suppress. These unaddressed feelings can manifest in subtle, physical ways, and it's a reflection of the emotional turmoil beneath the surface.

🌟 With 8th house synastry, the second and I mean very second there's a emotional block between you two the deep seated desire for them becomes less intense.

Ex: If you also share 12th house synastry with them, parts of their actions will feel like subtle hints that are meant for you, in essence you want to believe you are more important to them than others, and you feel like you are. But once something comes to light or if you were shown that what you thought to be wasn't the case, the realization creates emotional distance and the desire for them (in that moment) shrinks. It feels as if the importance that you thought your presence gave them suddenly means nothing, and from that feeling creates a instant "I'm never speaking to them again" mentality.

🌟 With the 12th house involved, their actions may reveal their actual character, and while you are able to clearly see these actions (in a objective sense), you might still feel deeply tied to the version of them you feel them to be exists. You’ll observe their behavior yet convince yourself that someone better lies beneath the surface.

🌟 With 8th and 12th house synastry, there’s a part of you that feels you’ll never compare to anyone else they encounter. Even if you two never dated, there’s a deep sense that the way they feel when they’re with you is unmatched and it's something you intuitively will feel. It's likely that there will be no set actions or verbal affirmations to confirm this knowing.

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reasonsforhope · 4 days ago

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"A newly formed group of women is creating a map of community fridges and neighborhood pantries across Baltimore, the Bmore Community Fridge Network.

"I am one of four women," said Elizabeth Miller, one of the network organizers. "We are career women, and we just want to see Baltimore do well."

They hope to highlight neighbors looking to serve others, hoping residents living nearby can get connected to the free food being offered to them. Miller said sometimes it can be hard for some residents to travel to local food pantries.

"Some people who are struggling with food insecurity have a lot going on, and it's really hard to get to a pantry on the days that they're open, on the days of the giveaway, navigating bus lines and bringing that food back home with them," Miller said. "Some people simply don't drive."

Miller said the group has connected with about four community fridges and has put them on the network map. However, the group plans to add more locations to the map. They will be at organizations already serving the community.

"...we will provide food for you."

"We provide resources, therapy, and outpatient services," said Nikki Smith, the CEO of The Journey Mental Health and Wellness.

"I don't care who you are, where you are," Smith said. "If you ring the doorbell and you're hungry, we will provide food for you."

The Bmore Community Fridge Network secured a donated refrigerator, which will sit outside of Smith's center, adding it to the community fridge map. Smith adds that other organizations are looking to chip in with donations to keep the fridge stocked.

"I'm hoping that everyone will pay it forward and they will understand that 'Hey wait, there's somebody here that's helping. Maybe I can help too," she said.

The Food Project will also receive a donated refrigerator, which will sit outside of their center.

"I think it's wonderful to have this additional access to food," said The Food Project Executive Director Michelle Suavo. "At the end of the day, we have a pop-up market three times a week, and it's still not enough...Throughout the night, there are so many people coming through that this is really going to help to service that additional need."

As the network grows, they are reminding families of the many neighbors across the city who truly care.

"There's no real rules about how much you can take," Miller said. "Take what you need. You never know what mouths are waiting at home."

Miller said the Bmore Community Fridge Network is trying to get more fridges and searching for more locations to house them.

She encourages everyone to donate to these community fridges by dropping off what you can to a fridge.

"It's spring," she said. "Go through your closet. Do you have canned goods or shelf-stable items that you can donate to one of these pantries? Do you have extra items in your freezer?"

Food insecurity in Baltimore

Maryland Food Bank data shows more than 90,000 city residents are food insecure. The Food Bank said 1 in 3 Marylanders face food insecurity.

The Baltimore Area Survey (BAS) found 28% of Baltimore area residents experienced food insecurity in 2024, down from 36% in 2023.

However, the survey showed the region's rate of food insecurity remained nearly twice as high as the national average.

If you or anyone you know are struggling with food insecurity, click here for an additional resource."

-via CBS News, March 28, 2025

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pumpkin-the-girlie-girl-vixen · 4 months ago

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Arrested Youth: 98 Degrees

I'm looking for an antibiotic for compulsive behaviour

I've reached a boiling point

I call my CVS neighbourhood store and told them

"My temperature is 98 degrees"

I put my head inside my freezer just to get some relief

But I guess it didn't have an everlasting effect

'Cause the moment that I pulled it out, I started to sweat

Now I wish they had an antidote for cognitive stress

Maybe I'll move to Alaska, build an igloo and rest

Inside my head, it's 98 degrees

Oh my God, what you want from me?

I tried my best to get some relief

Just a little break to put my mind at ease

It's 98 degrees

My fever isn't chronic, it's just diabolic in nature

I guess the devil did me a favour

'Cause it makes me stronger every day when

I get out of bed and find a way to make friends with my darkness

As I'm sitting on this park bench

It's 98 degrees outside, I'm feeling nauseous

But I do know one thing though

Feelings, they come, they go

Saturday all the way through Sunday

Sunday to Monday, oh!

Inside my head, it's 98 degrees

Oh my God, what you want from me?

I tried my best to get some relief

Just a little break to put my mind at ease

So I hold my head up high

And hope for peace of mind

Try to stay six feet away

'Cause right now, I don't feel like me

I wish I had a PhD to understand psychology

But I don't, I must roam through my own complications

If they built Rome in a day

This is not complicated

Inside my head, it's 98 degrees

Oh my God, what you want from me?

I tried my best to get some relief

Just a little break to put my mind at ease

So I hold my head up high

And hope for peace of mind

It's 98 degrees

(It's 98 degrees, 98 degrees, 98 degrees)

It's 98 degrees

The song explores themes of mental health, emotional struggle, and the quest for relief from intrusive thoughts and compulsive behaviors. Here’s a deeper analysis of its meaning:

1. **Compulsive Behavior and Anxiety:**

The opening lines mention looking for "an antibiotic for compulsive behavior," suggesting a desire to remedy the overwhelming thoughts and actions that can accompany anxiety. This metaphor indicates a yearning for a quick fix or a solution to manage mental distress.

2. **Physical and Mental Discomfort:**

The reference to the temperature being "98 degrees" serves as a metaphor for feeling frazzled or overwhelmed. The act of putting one’s head in the freezer symbolizes a desperate attempt to find relief from mental discomfort, illustrating the lengths to which someone might go to cool down their racing thoughts or emotions.

3. **Coping Mechanisms:**

The lyrics mention searching for an "antidote for cognitive stress," reflecting the struggle to find effective coping mechanisms in the face of anxiety. The desire to move to Alaska and build an igloo highlights a wish for isolation or a retreat from the overwhelming pressures of life.

4. **Emotional Fluctuations:**

The line "feelings, they come, they go" indicates an understanding of the transient nature of emotions. It acknowledges that while distressing feelings can be intense, they are not permanent. This recognition is an essential aspect of coping and emotional awareness.

5. **Self-Reflection and Growth:**

The phrase "find a way to make friends with my darkness" suggests an acceptance of one's struggles. It implies that rather than running away from painful thoughts or feelings, there is a willingness to confront and understand them as part of personal growth.

6. **Isolation and Social Distance:**

The mention of trying to "stay six feet away" can be interpreted literally as a reference to social distancing (possibly in the context of the COVID-19 pandemic) but also metaphorically, indicating a desire to keep emotional distance from others when feeling overwhelmed or not oneself.

7. **Aspirations for Understanding:**

The desire for a "PhD to understand psychology" reflects a longing for deeper knowledge of one’s own mental processes and complexities. This line captures the frustration that often accompanies mental health struggles, where individuals may feel lost in their complications.

8. **Hope for Peace of Mind:**

Despite the struggles described throughout the lyrics, there is an underlying hope expressed in the desire for "peace of mind." Holding one's "head up high" signifies resilience and the pursuit of stability amid turmoil.

98 Degrees - Conclusion Of Lyrics:

Overall, the song articulates a vivid and relatable depiction of the internal battles many face with anxiety and compulsive behaviors. It combines humor and raw honesty to convey the journey of seeking relief and understanding within one’s mind. Through its metaphors and imagery, it highlights the complexities of mental health while also underscoring the importance of self-acceptance and resilience in the face of challenges.

Navigating the Heat: My Personal Journey with Anxiety and Compulsive Behavior

As I sat listening to a song that resonated deeply within me, I found myself reflecting on my own journey with anxiety and the compulsive behaviors that often accompany it. The lyrics spoke to a struggle that many of us face: the overwhelming weight of thoughts that seem incessant and the quest for relief that often feels just out of reach.

The Search for Relief

The song begins with a longing for an “antibiotic for compulsive behavior.” How many times have I wished for a quick fix to quiet my racing mind? The metaphor struck a chord with me. In moments of heightened anxiety, I often feel as if I’m searching for something—anything—that could provide relief. I’ve tried various coping mechanisms over the years, from meditation to exercise, but there are times when the pressure builds, and I just want to escape.

The imagery of putting one’s head in a freezer to cool down is both comedic and poignant. I can relate to the desperation of seeking any form of relief, even if it seems absurd. There have been nights when I’ve tossed and turned, my mind racing, and I’ve thought about how nice it would be to find solace in something so simple. But like the lyrics suggest, that fleeting relief often doesn’t last. The moment I pull myself from the metaphorical freezer, reality hits hard again.

Understanding My Emotional Landscape

The line about “moving to Alaska, building an igloo” paints a vivid picture of wanting to isolate myself from the chaos that life can bring. There are days when the thought of running away from it all feels like the only option. But I’ve come to understand that running away doesn’t solve the problem; it only postpones the inevitable.

What resonates with me most from the song is the acknowledgment that “feelings, they come, they go.” I’ve learned that emotions are not permanent, and while the intensity of anxiety can feel suffocating at times, it’s important to remember that, like the changing seasons, it too shall pass. Embracing this notion has been a vital part of my healing process.

Embracing the Darkness

The lyrics also touch on making “friends with my darkness.” This concept, although daunting, has been incredibly liberating for me. Instead of running from my anxiety, I’ve started to confront it. I’ve learned that acknowledging my struggles is the first step toward understanding them. There have been moments on park benches, just like the song describes, when I’ve allowed myself to sit with my feelings, no matter how uncomfortable they may be.

I’ve realized that it’s okay to feel overwhelmed and lost. What matters is how I navigate through those feelings. I’ve begun to see my darkness not as an enemy but as a part of my story—a chapter that contributes to my growth.

The Quest for Peace of Mind

The desire for “peace of mind” is something I think we all crave, especially in a world that can feel chaotic and overwhelming. I often find myself holding my head high and reminding myself that I’m doing my best, even when challenges arise. I strive to be kind to myself, understanding that it’s okay to not be okay sometimes.

The mention of wanting a “PhD to understand psychology” reflects my own yearning for deeper understanding. If only I could decipher the complexities of my mind! But, in truth, I’m beginning to accept that the journey of understanding myself is ongoing. It’s filled with twists and turns, and while I may not have all the answers, I am learning to navigate my own complications.

Conclusion: Embracing the Heat

Ultimately, the song encapsulates a journey of resilience. It’s a reminder that while anxiety and compulsive behaviors can feel like a fever—intense and sometimes unbearable—there is strength in facing them head-on. I’ve come to appreciate the moments of clarity and relief that follow the storms, knowing that they are part of a larger tapestry of my life.

As I continue to navigate this journey, I hold onto the hope that I can find balance and peace within myself. It may not always be easy, but I know that I’m not alone in this struggle. Each day brings new opportunities to embrace my feelings, seek relief, and ultimately, find my way back to my own light. Just like the temperature in the song, my journey is a constant ebb and flow, and I’m learning to dance with the heat.

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meet jensen ackles, your regular hollywood washup who weaseled his way back into your father's life after ghosting him for twenty years. to be fair, he had a career he was trying to pursue! a man with many dreams and wasted talent, jensen has a handful of bad habits keeping from reaching the potential that everyone in his life reminded him that he was abandoning. this comes as no surprise, though, considering he's only ever existed in your mind as a warning story; never a face or presence to connect the name to, just the foreboding tales of his mistakes in college. don't be like jensen, your father would warn . . . but he never warned you about liking jensen.

sneak into his room? YES | NO

navigate the trigger warnings by which title has the aforementioned number by it !

part one - friend from college ¹ your dad's estranged best friend from college, jensen, comes back into his life to find you, his daughter, as an unexpected factor in it.

part two - swallow the smoke ² it wasn't supposed to be more than a one-time thing. a little slip in your judgment. but jensen seems to have taken more of a liking to you than he thought.

part three - bite the pillow ¹ the last two days with jensen are going to be torturous if he keeps giving you those eyes across the room, right under your dad's nose.

part four - hide away the signs ¹ jensen says goodbye, but he's not going without a taste, and definitely not without a way and a promise to see you again.

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spotlight-if · 6 months ago

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Lights, Camera…Chaos.

[PLAY HERE] (October 23rd, 2024) Act 1, Chapter 1, 64.2k words.

For as long as you can remember, your dream has stayed the same—you want nothing more than to make it as an actor in Hollywood. After years as an overlooked, overworked talent, your big break comes from an unlikely source. And it’s one that changes everything, for better or worse.

Hollywood is its own character within this world—sometimes it loves you, sometimes it wants nothing more than to see you crash and burn. Navigating this ever changing landscape while balancing your own interpersonal relationships is only half the challenge. The other half is memorizing your lines.

Navigate the red carpet, bloodthirsty paparazzi, cut-throat tabloids and complicated relationship dynamics with A-list celebrities (who may or may not be completely insane.)

But, hey: isn’t this what you’ve always wanted?

Key Features:

- Customize your Actor: are you a classic Hollywood heartthrob? An eccentric and unconventional recluse? Are you kind and genuine despite the fame, or a cutthroat diva with undeniable talent?

- Navigate scandal, paparazzi, and stan culture: dodge or embrace the flashing lights. Interact with your fans, or distance yourself from them for your sanity. Wait—who are they shipping your character with?

-Build your legacy: choose between the stability of superhero blockbusters or turn into an indie darling. Or, maybe forgoe both to become a household name in the horror genre.

- Network and build relationships: whether they’re manufactured by your well-meaning publicist or spawned from real feelings, forge dynamic and ever changing relationships with other industry icons.

- Try to manage your mental health: the dark side of the industry lurks in every corner—the highs are high, but the lows are ever lower.

Characters:

Kendall Mays (gender selectable)—ever the loyal best friend, Kendall followed you into the throes of showbiz without hesitation. From fighting over toys on the playground to helping you run lines for a major motion picture, you can always count on them to have your back. That is, before they met Mason—their ever-present boyfriend who demands more and more of their time. You were never that great at sharing.

[Note: Kendall is not a romance option.]

Sutton Foster (he/him, she/her)—child star turned award winning powerhouse. Sutton Foster has everything an actor could want—well, minus the countless stays at rehab centers around the world. It’s undeniable that Sutton is a generational talent, but what’s even more notable is their messy personal life. You yourself have been caught in Sutton’s gravitational pull, once upon a time. The question lies in whether or not you’ll pull yourself away.

Wyn Grace (he/him, she/her)—on stage, Wyn is electric. The same cannot be said for Wyn off-stage. The lead singer of the up-and-coming Indie band is struggling with their meteoric rise to fame. As the awards pile up and the crowds get bigger, Wyn is unraveling at the seams. All they wanted to do was make music with their friends, but the fame makes them reconsider it all.

Lex Moreau (he/him)—an older, award-winning director with an…eccentric disposition. Yet despite his volatile nature and obsession with perfection, anyone who’s anyone would kill to work with him. Lex is always in search for a muse, a great beacon to pour all of his artistic vision into. And now, he thinks he’s found that in you. Lucky you?

[C is a conditional character, only appears based on choices you make.]

Carlo/Carmen Mencina (gender selectable)—C is harder to pin down than a stable acting gig in LA. When you’re together—it’s kismet. The problem lies in when you’re apart. C’s frequent disappearances abroad leave a bad taste in your mouth, and when a shocking truth comes to light, it’s not just your relationship in the spotlight—it’s your life, too.

Flings and other mini-romances will be available as well. But these I will let be revealed as the story progresses.

When writing this game, I knew what themes I wanted to focus on, and the care/detail needed to do so. Hence, this game is strictly 18+.

TW: death, substance abuse, suicide, bullying, explicit language, violence, and explicit (skippable) sexual content.

Thank you for reading my intro! Reblogs are welcome, and my ask box is open (:

And major thank you @thecutestgrotto for the gorgeous headers!

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xxautumnivyxx · 5 months ago

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I think I’ve done a lot to work on seeing myself as powerful no matter what the mean parts of my brain come up with. It’s a struggle, but I’m proud of my strength and navigating that to also improve in my mental healths strength is important too. We’ve got this. ❤️

#autumn ivy #autumnivy #cosplayer #the bone collector #narrator #actor #costumer #amazon #alternative #cosplay #muscle mommy #gym witch

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the-cosmic-cauldron · 6 days ago

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Pick A Pile: How Your Ancestors Suffered & How You Reclaim Your Power In This Lifetime

Pile 1

Your ancestors struggled with financial unpredictability. They experienced extreme highs and lows—rising from poverty to wealth, only to fall back into financial hardship. This instability often stemmed from unforeseen circumstances, such as illness or mental health struggles, which disrupted their financial and career trajectories. Their lives were marked by periods of abundance followed by devastating losses, creating a cycle of uncertainty and instability.

How to Reclaim Your Power:

To break this cycle, you must learn the power of moderation. Burnout is not a badge of honor—it’s a warning sign. Your ancestors pushed themselves to exhaustion, leading to mental breakdowns and even hospitalization. Avoid repeating this pattern by prioritizing balance in all aspects of life: work, rest, diet, and personal time.

Engaging in emotional transformation is also key. Deep inner work—such as therapy, shadow work, and journaling—will help you integrate your light and dark aspects, preventing deep-seated mental health struggles from controlling your life.

Maintaining confidence and physical vitality is crucial as well. Develop a consistent exercise routine and practice daily affirmations to reinforce your resilience. By strengthening both your body and mind, you empower yourself to navigate life’s challenges without falling into the cycles of the past.

Pile 2

Your ancestral lineage was deeply affected by abuse and toxic relationships—particularly within marriages and partnerships. These cycles of dysfunction often left your ancestors feeling trapped, powerless, and unsupported. Many failed to confront the deeper issues in their lives, choosing instead to endure suffering rather than make the necessary changes. Fear, lack of courage, and external pressures—such as societal or religious judgment—kept them stuck in unhealthy environments.

How to Reclaim Your Power:

To break free, you must plan your life with intention. Unlike your ancestors, who often felt stagnant, you are being called to move—physically and emotionally. This may involve relocating to a different city, state, or even country to create a fresh start. Expansion is key.

Most importantly, don’t give up. Your ancestors surrendered too easily when faced with challenges, but you are meant to embody strength, tenacity, and resilience. Own your power. Seek environments that uplift you rather than judge you. Stop seeking validation from rigid institutions or individuals who will never fully accept you.

This lifetime is about embracing self-accountability—not relying on others for your success or healing. Release inherited self-doubt and harsh self-criticism. Believe in yourself. By doing so, you break the cycle of fear and limitation that plagued your lineage.

Pile 3

Your ancestors suffered from a lack of intellectual and personal freedom. Many were prevented from pursuing education, mastering skills, or gaining knowledge that could have transformed their lives. Opportunities were stripped from them—whether through financial hardship, systemic oppression, or restrictive societal expectations.

Their struggles extended beyond intellectual repression; secrecy and unspoken family tensions were also deeply ingrained. Many painful experiences—betrayals, losses, unresolved conflicts—were buried rather than addressed, creating a lineage marked by suppressed emotions and untapped potential.

How to Reclaim Your Power:

The key to breaking this cycle is balance. While discipline and responsibility are essential, you must also allow yourself freedom and joy. Loosen the grip of strict structure and perfectionism. Find playfulness in life—travel, explore, and pursue interests that bring you genuine happiness.

Additionally, reexamine your belief systems. Some of your inherited beliefs may be restricting you rather than empowering you. This lifetime calls for unlearning outdated mental constructs and redefining what truly aligns with you.

Learn when to let go. Not every battle needs to be fought, and not every past experience needs to be carried forward. Earn your knowledge, but don’t let your ego make you rigid in your thinking. Embrace both wisdom and flexibility. By integrating responsibility with spontaneity, you reclaim the intellectual and personal freedom your ancestors were denied.

Pile 4

Your ancestors were dreamers—deeply artistic, spiritual, and idealistic. They had grand visions for their lives but often struggled with follow-through, leading to unfulfilled potential. Many of them lived with regret over what they never accomplished.

Their ability to express themselves and chase their dreams may have been restricted by social ostracization or strict authoritarian rule. They may have been outcasted, silenced, or controlled by harsh external forces, preventing them from fully realizing their potential.

How to Reclaim Your Power:

In this lifetime, patience and pacing will be your greatest allies. You have the potential to build a beautiful life, but you must trust divine timing instead of forcing rapid progress. Rushing will only create setbacks—sustainable success requires careful nurturing.

Prioritize mental and emotional well-being. Your ancestors’ dreams were crushed, in part, because they lacked the support or emotional stability to pursue them. Engage in self-care, therapy, and mindfulness practices to maintain your inner peace and resilience.

Tap into your artistic and feminine energy—whether through music, dance, yoga, nature, or creative expression. These outlets will help you manifest your dreams. Your power lies in softness, creativity, and intuition.

Avoid unnecessary conflicts. Your energy is best spent cultivating peace, rather than engaging in battles that drain you. Embrace serenity, flow, and self-expression. By doing so, you bring your ancestors’ lost dreams into reality—transforming their struggles into a legacy of fulfilled potential.

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