#narrativism

[accidentalcultleader]

I think it's time I start talking about narrativism and the outlook it gives you because it's a perspective that many people don't get.

Narrativism, as I define it is about thinking of your life as a greater story. I came to this perspective after enough weird things happened in my life that all the jokes about my life being a sitcom stopped being jokes. As things fall apart now, I often find myself wondering if my life is really a narrative, if I got the genre wrong or if it was just always meant to have a different moral than I originally thought.

The ideas of fate and its effect on your life changes so dramatically when you see life as a story, in times of trouble it makes you long for its serendipity and positivity. In the good times you're left wondering if it might actually like you.

One thing I have noticed after going through an interesting backstory and probably about 8 years of thinking in a narrativistic way is that if things seem to be shit, you're not done with the arc yet. Times of closure generally tend to happen on their own so don't force them.

Thinking about life as a story is something that I have answers for now (certain gods have taken an interest in me because of backstory stuff) but it doesn't make this frame of thinking easier to deal with. Maybe it's my autism being too good at pattern recognition but it's so scary to be a person who works in patterns and stories right now because the question becomes, does the narrative care that I want free? Or do they just want an interesting story? Would the narrative kill me for a satisfying end?

[earthling-wolf]

Si Locality

Si is a function that expands its registration of an object to include its temporal totality (Pi), the larger episode or theme to which it belongs. It localizes (S) an event within its historical context, retaining its chronological fidelity and preserving its unique details. The episode in question is not conflated with other concepts that are not linear or directly connected. Instead, it preserves its original form in a discrete and time-bound manner. If the object is an abstract idea, the idea will be archived with precise properties and fixed conceptual boundaries.

Narrativism

The Si user lives and views life through narratives; understanding how things are connected through a chain of past events, and how the present is but the most recent moment in a long link of events that are intrinsically interdependent. Because of this orientation towards the roots of things, all the more value is added to something by knowing its background. A great richness is felt by learning how it is that a city came to be what it is, or how the shops in town came to be famous. Through these anecdotes, the Si user's comprehension of life multiplies and there is great joy felt in learning how the "here and now" fits into a much wider context. This will lead Si users to be avid readers as well as storytellers. They may sit at the feet of their grandparents and listen to old tales and later come to tell their own. They may particularly enjoy "based on a true story" films and appreciate learning about history --including their own. They may be elated to learn that their great great grandfather was a duke or king, and may voyage on an ancestral quest driven by a search of identity; an answer to "who am I?" that is rooted in a concrete reality. The Si user often stumbles into subjects such as world events, geography and anthropology in an effort to understand "what is this place, really?" They may be driven into an academic direction and become bookworms or librarians. More than a few Si users are also paleontologists; a domain driven heavily by the quest to discover what the links are between the earth as it was before and how it is today. The more complete a picture can be formed, the more grounded the Si user will feel in their paradigm and place in the world.

Encyclopedia

As they go about life, the Si user will also be passively accumulating mountains of information from everyday occurrences which, over time, come to form a vast mental archive of details. A few Si users may find themselves able to mention what they were doing four weeks ago on a Tuesday afternoon. Others may not have their talent fixed in chronological time, but be able to recite the names of all the past presidents, all the states or the actresses in old films. They may like to watch "Who wants to be a millionaire" and enjoy trivia games such as Jeopardy. Some Si users are generalists; knowing a little about a whole lot of things. Others are specialists, and know everything about one field of study. If they're into camping or hiking, they may have memorized all the herbs and flora of their specific corner of the world. On a backpacking trip they may call out: "See that? that's poison oak, don't touch that. And this one over there, you see the white stripes? That means it's ok to eat." Little factoids of this nature will follow them around at all times, and those who live with an heavy Si user will note their voluminous body of knowledge.

Backstory & Context

The Si user will be thorough when it comes to sharing information; intrinsically understanding that knowledge requires a proper context or backstory in order to be meaningfully received by others. Whenever giving an explanation, the Si user will tend to append the appropriate information to each explanation which can then fully unpack it and give the desired understanding. Just as the Si user would expect to be mistaken if they extrapolated a trend from missing data, they will expect others to also misread their meanings if forced to fill in the blanks they leave in their words. They will be very thorough in this manner, taking the extra steps to make their personal story, argument, idea or thought relevant and meaningful by painting a fuller picture of the ideas that surround and embed it. But often times the Si user may overdo it; expecting less context to be understood than what already is. They may lay down seven datasets before conveying their core idea, only to realize the same thought could have been relayed with three. This may lead others to view the Si user as rambly, perhaps repeating information that's already known or unnecessarily inflating the conversation. Over time the Si user may discover where the right balance is and be able to supply just the right amount of information for any given situation.

Indexing & Modularity

Yet the reason the Si user tends to be particular with their data is because they will naturally tend to store their information internally in discrete packages which can be accessed and woven together independently. Like a shelf of books or a bin full of old trinkets --if the Si user is very disjointed-- they will draw out resources from memory as an occasion calls for them. However, each dataset is its own separate mental object and there is in them a tendency to compartmentalize memories, datasets, schemas and ideas; indexing them separately even if they belong to a wider whole. This does not mean that the Si user can only view reality through a narrow frame, but at any given moment the frame they are looking at is understood from its own appropriate context. The Si user will have a very modular grasp of the world; experiencing reality as multiple schemas suspended in superposition and always responding to reality from the most adjacent dataset/model/idea in their large reservoir at any given time. This may cause them to grow into polymaths, as they may wear many hats and be a bit of an amateur astronomer, linguistic hobbyist, bird watcher, dog whisperer, interior decorator and gardener.

Collections

Given the aforementioned narrativism, the Si user will have a soft side for the preservation of antiquity. A fascination will exist for the ancient which is not to say they are attracted to "old" things for the sake of it, but because through them they are able to trace the lineage of the world. An old lamp is not just an old lamp but a symbol of an object that permeated hundreds of houses back in the 1920s. It's a token of a time period, but more specifically it is "the very lamp" that so-and-so touched and used. Via this literal object, there's a direct contact with a specific narrative now gone, acting as a sort of time traveling experience. The totem gives them vicarious access to the perspective of someone who once saw this very same thing and held it in just the same manner. Collecting coins, vintage records, bugs and the like may be favorite hobbies of an Si user. Having "the full collection" of a thing brings a special level of satisfaction. However, this collecting habit can also lead to certain real world disarrays. They may be prone to pack-rat behavior; storing mountains of childhood trinkets filling up garages with unused boxes of things. Their house may be decorated with knickknacks, often hung up on walls; each a keepsake or symbol of a certain time/place or experience.

Nostalgia

The Si user will grow very personally attached to events, people and places they encounter in life. Even though a better, newer replacement for a broken bicycle is available, they may reject it and keep the one they've known and experienced life through. Fond memories are deeply cherished and preserved both mentally and physically. If the memories pertain to specific people, they may never disconnect from those old friends; often attending alumni reunions or arranging periodic meetings. However, this nostalgia can cause problems with new relationships, as they may always viscerally feel like their best times and moments are behind them. They may not admit it aloud, but one might feel that nothing can match the feeling tone of those special events now epitomized in their subconscious. This can leave new friends or potential lovers injured and neglected; their affections always second place to an impossible ideal. It may feel as if they were interfacing with a human stuck in a previous era and not truly "present" with them here and now. The Si user's tendency to look to the past can cause them to struggle with moving forward both emotionally and spiritually. This can lead to decade-long grudges, bitterness or emotional hangups. And surely Si makes unrequited love all the more prolonged and difficult to forget. In the extreme form, the Si user may feel that they can never replace what has been lost; that what is past is gone forever not only as a tangible reality but as a potentiality in themselves. They may refuse to remarry, or never again own a dog after their special companion passes away.

Caution & Skepticism

Just as with their communication of information, the Si user will approach life in general with a level of prudence, skepticism and caution. They are not swiftly taken away by grandiose ideas; by the glitter and flair of things untested or unknown. Magical thinking is avoided, as are things felt too good to be true. In general the Si user may feel the world is filled with false promises and uncertainty, causing them to be doubtful and incremental in their approach to life. Over time they grow familiar with the general range of situations that constitute life, and from this they map out a subconscious rhythm they live by. This will cause the Si user to be a very stable and dependable person as the Si function encourages a modest, measured and relaxed existence; one which avoids the chaos of risks and spontaneity. Yet often their skepticism is more visceral and impressionistic than technical, sometimes being expressed in statements like “I just don’t trust it.” When something doesn’t appear to add up, the Si user will feel there is a misalignment between the situation at hand and how they have come to understand the world to work. They will use this felt sense to steer clear of suspicious paths and tread paths with the least probability of peril. Their temperance and hesitation will act as a shield against the ever-changing winds of the world, allowing them to plant a seed that may slowly grow with effort and time.

-Behaviors Under Stress

Paranoia

The Si user's initially natural risk-aversion can grow to an excessive degree, causing them to anticipate the worst outcomes to situations and irrationally avoid things for some unfounded but looming fear. If a family member suggests a vacation at Malibu their response may be "What if we get stuck in a weather storm?" A request to buy a used item at a flea market may be met with "What if you get aids from that..?!" These objections may be only vaguely possible or entirely impossible. The vacation spot may never experience storms, and a given disease may not spread through the avenue they're avoiding. In this sense, Si's paranoia will differ from Ni's more thematic and karmic fatalism. Si's fear will be tied down to Ne's intuition which is real-time and situational. On the fly, the Si user will fabricate objections in a scatter-short format as their unconscious Ne speculates wildly into the unknown. If they are politically inclined, they may suspect the forces of the world are orchestrating devastation, loosely associating facts together to construct narratives that align with their felt sense. A heavy anxiety will seep over them where almost nothing is felt as certain anymore. This paranoia will lead the Si user to stick firmly to the narrow band of what they know and not leave its perimeter at any cost. This can lead to a stagnation of personal or professional progress as the Si user refuses to take necessary risks in order to guide their life on a more fruitful path. Business opportunities may be declined, friendships may be kept at a distance and the doors of their house may be shut with double locks.

Dogmatism

Amidst the chaos before them, the distressed Si user will want to feel that there is something solid they can depend on. This will lead them inevitably to external explanations that cohesively make sense of the conditions of our world. The distressed Si user does not have the most confidence in their own assessments and judgments. And having lost the stability of their paradigm, they are seeking refuge in something more consistent than the wild speculations that plague them. It therefore becomes important for them that any given explanation be entirely comprehensive, and if after an initial round of questioning they can come to see the sense in the explanation, they will have no trouble fashioning their whole life paradigm around it. Suddenly stability is regained through this anchor and their anxieties are abated in coming to understand the conditions of life. Whether it's for a simple philosophy, an ideology or for a religion - the distressed Si user will be among the most loyal and faithful in the group. Having latched their sense of identity to this community or paradigm, they nurture and protect it with the same care they would for themselves. However, over time this investment in their belief system can cause them to feel defensive and resistant towards any criticisms. Once they have establish a belief as trustworthy, they do not easily question it and may even refuse to engage in conversations with others about it's reasons. In the Si user's mind, the topic has been settled; the facts have been evaluated and they have passed through their phase of inquisition. It becomes important to the Si user that the questioning process does not drag on forever, causing them to have a cut-off point after which they have fixed their mind on the issue and little may be done to change it.

[hyacinthsdiamonds]

The more things change...

The more they stay the same...

[mischiefbuckley]

Eddie not having a visitors pass on and already being in the room with Buck during his visit like at the end of the day Eddie isn’t just a visitor to Buck and Buck will never be a guest in Eddie’s house like let me just scream

[mazojo]

Tell me more

[chirpsythismorning]

Ya'll catch the final rose ceremony at the end of s4?!

[andreisvechnikov]

I’m sorry but the Pens losing to Claude Giroux’s team in Sidney Crosby’s hometown is the funniest possible outcome of this welcome home week.

[cruelsister-moved2]

& this is why i think it's such a red flag when people talk about 'the media' as some unified entity feeding you one unified narrative because you can already see how quickly that invites you to consider who Controls that unified narrative but it also just makes you stupid and unable to think critically in the exact other side of the coin to people who think The News Would Never Lie To Us. like there's no shortcut for reading things critically and thinking about who wrote it and paid for it and what they might 1. genuinely believe and 2. want to convince you of and why, let alone using your language skills to pick out persuasive languages or fallacies. this is why we were taught in school to be able to identify when a piece of writing is trying to convince you of something or take a specific side of an argument like if you're able to read critically you can still discern genuine information even out out of extremely biased articles (even just by using them to discern what's NOT true) but if you just plug your ears and scream THE MEDIA IS LYING TO US that ultimately leaves you no less uninformed than the person who blindly absorbs whatever fox news tells them, let ALONE if you then turn to TIKTOK for your information??

[ef-1]

dear kate, as someone who wasn't watching the sport back then I'm very curious about what happened in russia 2018 (re your tags on that post)?

it's lore. Daniel/Christian lore. horrible, awful, multifaceted human lore. when you watch a little thing, just an awful real moment and it reminds you that people are unfortunately complex and love is prideful, and sometimes love is selfish and love manifests differently in different people.

Russia 2018 was Max's birthday, Red Bull got a marching band and mimes to welcome Max into the paddock, it was a v elaborate and uncomfortable affair for everyone involved, and there was a cake cutting ceremony once Max walked the length of the paddock where the rest of the team were waiting for him.

Mind you, this was at the END of September, Daniel announced his departure from Red Bull at the very beginning of August, so it had already been almost 2 months of Christian calling Daniel stupid, and a girl, and that he took the easy way out but also Christians time during the sessions up until then was split equally in Daniel's garage and Max's but after that for a while it was the pitwall or Max's side.

Anyway back to Max's uncomfortable birthday, Daniel was also there but he didn't stand with Helmut and Christian at the front, he was uncharacteristically stood away from them, and away from the cameras. Daniel is usually front and centre during moments like these but I think it was a combination of how insanely uncomfortable the whole mime/marching band combo is and also the fact that he was no longer really 'part' of the team. Christian had already said Daniel will not be involved in the remaining development of the car effective immediately.

The official video that Red Bull posted(still up on yt) didn't really show it but Christian was the most uncomfortable/annoyed by the whole thing, more so than Max somehow lol

In the unofficial janky live stream of the whole thing however Christian kept turning back to Daniel who was behind everyone and it was very much an 'oh.' gut punch moment because it's just a real little human interaction of turning to someone you know/trust/relate to. And I just remember thinking that's like the first bit of normalcy we've seen from them since the torrid separation

Anyway really the most devastating part is from the janky live stream, one of the times Christian bodily turns to Daniel (twice) to catch his eye, Daniel kinda just laughs and tells him "you're not dancing" to which Christian replies by actually dancing for a second

this janky clip from a janky stream was a formative moment

[adelphenium]

speaking of constantly-baked-looking noah hanifin, may I please request a drawing of him dhsjsjds

here's hanny!! i wish i could find that original comment but i have no idea where i even saw it 😭

anyways! hoping he'll have a blast in vegas with one jeichel 🌟

[barzyhughes]

sid is wearing nate’s hoodie. I REPEAT, sid is wearing nate’s hoodie.

[fritzes]

the thing about this wimbledon final being a repeat of last year is like… it was so special. watching carlos overcoming the odds and expectations to win isn’t something that can be replicated. either it’s a repeat of last year’s result but without the same spark or it’s yet another edition of “fuck them kids”

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

Daniel, Deconstructed

YA contemporary

an autistic boy interested in photography and cyperpunk LARPing notices his soccer-star best friend seems sad after a breakup, and decides he should try set her up with the cool new kid he just met

(because he thinks she’d be better off hanging out with other cool people than his boring self)

but the matchmaking doesn’t really work out - he’s developing a crush on the new kid and his friend doesn’t seem interested, and he has to question what he wants out of his relationships

pan MC, pan nonbinary LI, aro bi best friend

[moonshynecybin]

I just watched Argentina 2019 and what to you mean Vale initiated a handshake with Marc and Marc winked at him like Vale I thought you hated him and Marc I though you were done and the commentator going nice to see the handshake between Rossi and Marquez are they friends again like they make me insane on high levels. Is this the thing Marc’s referencing when he said it was like kissing a girl?

yeah so. argentina divorce 2018. bad. category five marc marquez moment bad. uccio in marc’s face bad. calling marc evil and dangerous bad. then vale refuses to shake marc’s hand in misano 2018 despite being like. i don’t have a problem with this guy whatever do you mean. AND THEN vale shook his hand in argentina 2019 smack dab in front of the camera and one exact yearrrrr after divorce two electric boogaloo?? like. as a symbolic offering of peace perhaps?? marc doesn’t even go for it vale taps him on the arm?? they shake hands a bunch?? and like a week later at cota marc says the “it was like kissing a girl” line during a press conference… and THEN three races later vale fucks up marc’s quali lap (also at misano) and marc is. literally madder at vale than i’ve ever seen him lmao. so what happened lol. cause SOMETHING was going on.

dovi is also there which is. interesting. okay jealous.

[lunasilvis]

"Hey Michelle, what have you been up to?" ☝️

[barbiecarlo]

looch's last point as a bruins was a goal with a pasta assist and now his first point back is an assist on a pasta goal i -