#my subconscious mind

[aropride]

interaction i have with shocking regularity is when someone’s complaining abt someone they know and theyre like “ughh they’re 21 and dont have a job and refuse to learn to drive” and then they remember who they’re talking to (me. 21 cant work cant drive) and go like

[mylittlepony45]

I'm going to get over this,one step at a time.

I'm still a hero,and I won't let people who can't take things seriously take me down.

[nukbody]

Jeckole I've never posted cause....uhhhh.....UHHH

[pcktknife]

i neeeed alien juno to be real. i neeeeed her

[buckingham-ashtray]

Not Them still haunting me even on my hike.

More than one hundred miles away from home and I am still unable to escape Them. Not even physically.

I can't anymore. THEY WON’T LEAVE ME ALONE.

(watch me lose my absolute mind in the tags💀

[stellas-and-tonitruses]

Everything we know about Project Apple (and, by extension, Anya's past) thus far

thought i'd compile all of that now while endo's on break Just In Case the next chapter happens to start anya's backstory (i don't Think it will but endo likes surprising us LSDFKLFS)

important disclaimer that project apple and the organization in charge of anya's experiments have not been confirmed to be related! there's evidence that they have things in common, in particular employees, but that's our only real connection between the two thus far. still! worth looking into

more under the cut!

so, starting very strongly with the very first mention of anything related to the project: anya's introduction in chapter 1

despite her being a main character, we know very little about her past at the moment, and this little blurb at the beginning makes up a very big portion of what we know.

things to note here:

as an experiment, her name was "Test Subject 007". important to note that the notation differs between her and bond: she was Test Subject 007, bond was Subject 8, no zeroes in there;

she had been made thus by accident, the phrasing itself implying quite heavily that she was just a normal child before said accident (but this is the translation! i don't know japanese so i can't cross-reference with the raws to clarify if the phrasing changes anything, but the fanbook uses the word "gained" to describe her powers too);

because her mind-reading is an unintended consequence, that means the scientists were presumably not, at least initially, trying to achieve cognitive enhancements in humans, and were instead trying to achieve something else, whatever that might've been;

she escaped from the facility and then moved from institution to institution, looking for a family.

so, crucially, through this little introduction we learn that there is an organization, government-funded or otherwise, that is or was conducting human experiments for unknown purposes. we also learn that whatever family anya had prior to being involved in the experiments is more than likely unreachable, at least as far as she knows, and so she has settled for finding a new family to take care of her instead.

in terms of the facility itself, here we see they clearly drilled it into her that she can't ever reveal her secret (and the darn plush is there too -- in the anime it's even more emphasized, as you can see in the gif i made)

through her reminiscing though, we get our very first look at the scientists that were in charge of her! they're in the gif above but here they are in the manga too. it's so interesting that the anime actually shows their eyes behind the glasses though, fascinating choice.

the insistence on world peace is important, as it explains her own personal obsession with it and shows that it's not just because of twilight's own focus on preserving the peace. i also don't think twilight ever really talks about "world peace," only about "preserving the current peace between westalis and ostania" -- anya seems to be the only one talking about WORLD peace (even in the very first scene where either of them mention it in proximity to each other in ch 1, loid says "understanding the other party is the first step towards peace" and anya's interpretation is "understanding me makes world peace?") but take this with a grain of salt because i might be wrong! going through every single mention of peace in the story just to fact check this one little trivia fact is a bit much i think so i'm not doing it JSDFKLSD

but yes

remember mr hair strand and baldy, we'll see them again. not her though, ig she wasn't in charge of bond

now, fast-forwarding to chapter 19, we finally get a name and a premise for the experiments:

"but oana," you might say, "this is talking about animals only! how do we know it's the same project as anya's, which involved human experimentation?"

i don't think it is, is the thing! i think it's related to the experiments anya was a part of, which is evidenced by the same scientists being featured in project apple too, but there's more going on that we don't know about. there wouldn't be such adamancy on keeping the two separate in every official mention of them if they were just the same thing, imo!

back to the evidence, we learn that the project, conducted and funded by the previous ostanian regime (meaning donovan's related to it one way or another, since he was prime minister), was marked by franticness and desperation -- a prime place for accidents like anya's telepathy and bond's future vision.

we also learn that the project was sacked by the new administration and that the former test subjects ended up on the black market.

(this makes it very important, imo, to learn when anya escaped the facility vs. when the project was sacked. it's clearly no longer in function, but while we've heard nothing from them thus far, i'm willing to bet the shady dealings around the desmond group are NOT related to the war, as W.I.S.E. has been led to believe, but rather to reignite project apple. that is speculation however so i'm going to refrain from theorising much on why the desmond group is focused on acquiring pharmaceutical companies!!)

ok speculation tangent over, back on track

so, that's already a decent amount of info! but moving to chapter 22, when bond is finally home, and we finally see some familiar faces

behold! baldy and mr hair strand!

and 2 other guys we don't know but will see again in another bond flashback!

that's 2 out of the 3 scientists we've seen thus far from anya's own time as subject 007, confirming that there IS a connection between anya and bond's experiments, regardless of whatever the project anya was a part of might've been named.

this is also the chapter in which we learn that bond himself was subject 8 (or, if we take it from the fanbook, subject #8. still, diff notation from anya!)

in chapter 31, we learn an interesting tiny piece of trivia. we don't get any further info on it, but it IS mentioned as something that is known by W.I.S.E.:

ostania is rumoured to have done human experimentation! and W.I.S.E., and by extension loid, are aware of that.

do i know how them knowing may be important later? not really!

the next droplet of info we get is in chapter 40. we see that project apple had collaborators that are still functioning unhindered.

of course, born industries is only rumoured to have been involved with project apple, but regardless of whether or not they actually were, the rumour itself implies that the project likely pulled scientists from various other companies' R&D departments.

(this makes the desmond group's acquisition of glooman pharmaceuticals shadier, but anyway)

as a side note, twilight is emoting so much at just his wrong assumption that bond is seeking revenge against the scientists. imagine how he's going to react when he finds out about anya JKSDFKLFSD

and now aaaaall the way in chapter 58, we see the bald guy who anya also knows, the two scientists from bond's previous flashback, and one whole new guy!

and thus ends our current knowledge of it all!

the only other thing worth discussing is anya's knowledge of classical language

but plenty people have already discussed these scenes, especially recently, so here are some links: 1 | 2 | 3

the only thing i can add is that i'm fairly certain that classical language is a lot more likely to be latin than old english, because it's a very common language to learn in school (in europe at least, and ostania is based on east germany so it makes sense to me. i learned mandatory latin in school for a few good years too, even if i wasn't that good at it lol) and because one of the most common modern usages of latin are in medicine and science, it would make sense that she'd be better at it due to exposure.

a possibility is also that the scientists would think in latin to conceal their thoughts from her, and that's how she ended up learning so much. she's not fluent in latin, she's just well acquainted and that cicumstance would explain the how.

BUT THAT'S SPECULATIONNN

also i don't think "ANIA" is an acronym, nor do i think anya's been misspelling her own name out of lack of knowledge. "ania" is a polish diminutive of anna and an alternate transcription of Аня, so i think it's far more likely that anya isn't ostanian or westalian than it is that her name comes from an acronym.

now,

TL;DR!

what we know about project apple (and the "mysterious organization"):

project apple was funded and conducted by what appears to have been donovan's regime and, from what W.I.S.E. knows, aimed to create highly intelligent animals for military purposes;

W.I.S.E. is aware that ostania is at the very least rumoured to have dabbled in human experimentation;

the project is presumably no longer on-going, though it is likely there are efforts behind the scenes to revive it;

it is rumoured but not confirmed that project apple had collaborating companies that are still functioning perfectly fine;

the same scientists who were in charge of bond were also in charge of anya, signalling that there is a very significant connection between project apple and the "mysterious organization;"

based on what they were telling anya, they were/are very focused on "world peace";

their experimentation methods include but likely aren't limited to electrocution.

and what we (vaguely) know about anya that relates to this:

she is at the youngest, 4 years old, and at the oldest, 5 nearing 6. we don't know her real age, all we know is she definitely lied about being 6;

she is very fixated on specifically world peace while twilight is focused on peace between ostania and westalis. the scientists are the very first we see talking about this, so it's likely their fault;

she is unreasonably well acquainted with classical language;

she has escaped the facility at LEAST 1 year ago;

and, one tidbit from the fanbook (page 29): "Anya has been reading minds for as long as she can remember," implying that her memory of a life before the lab is muddy at best and absent at worst.

that's all we know that i know of!!

if you got this far, thank you for reading :D hope any of this was interesting or sparked any theories >:] have a good day!

[universalitgirlsblog2]

💗🍰THE WATCHMAN AND THE CAPTAIN🍰💗

🍰The conscious and subconscious are not two minds , they are merely two spheres of activity within one mind. Your conscious mind is the reasoning or logical mind . The conscious mind has the the choice to choose. For example , you choose your home , books etc . You make all your decisions with your conscious mind.

💗Without any conscious choice on your part ,your heart is kept functionally automatically and the vital function of digestion , circulation and breathing are carried out by subconscious mind. Your subconscious mind accepts what is impressed upon it or what you consciously believe.

🍰Think of your conscious mind as the WATCHMAN at the gate. The chief function of your conscious mind is to protect your subconscious from false impressions . Your subconscious mind accepts everything and it does not have a choice to reject , it must accept your suggestions. You are like a CAPTAIN navigating a ship . The CAPTAIN must give the right orders and likewise , you must give the right orders i.e. right thoughts and images to your subconscious mind , which controls and governs all your experiences.

💗Be very careful to give your subconscious only those suggestions that heal , bless , elevate and inspire you in all your ways.

🍰Realize that you have the power to choose. Choose healthy and happiness. You can choose to be friendly or unfriendly. Choose to be joyous , co-operative , friendly , loveable and whole world will respond. Choose life ! Choose love ! Choose health ! Choose happiness !

[meamiiikiii]

5% of a color headcanon.... two versions since b&w emphasizes the dagger more i think but i still like the warm tones ASFSADA

i am not biased towards rainbow daggers whatsoever i promise (lie)

((also friend is streaming now and im there too!! bit more info linked here, its rated mature tho))

[potato-lord-but-not]

hello !

so i was looking again at your latest arkayne art and oh my goodness potato lord,,, im not normally a fan of arkayne but your art is just !!! ✨ the detail of kayne letting john’s hand touch him while he’s actively holding arthur’s hand away and by the wrist so arthur has no way of holding/touching kayne is just brilliant.

you’re doing the (potato) lord’s work with your malevolent art keep it up and have an oscar outstanding day/evening !

TEEHEE THANK YOUUU I’m so glad I actually got around to drawing that, it turned out so GOOD UGH

[televised-goose]

Drabbles from a valgrace fic that will hopefully be done before the heat death of the universe.

This fic is in development, so constructive criticism is totally accepted.

Prompt by the great @demigod-shenanigans

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Jason thinks he liked to draw as a kid. He has vague memories of a secret sketch book and drawing random pieces of architecture, but just like everything else, it's blurry. He does like it, though. It's like writing, but it doesn't have to make sense. All of his emotions can leave him and be transferred into the paper. Its his own fucked up therapy. No humans needed.

He only started again when he saw Leo draw. He seemed so focused and enthused when making his schematics. It was like he fused with the paper. So he watched Leo draw a lot. Because it was nice to see him calm and the drawings were amazing. That's it. 

He ended up trying it out, and his brain seemed to remember his style even without that memory of the practice. It was like his hands were moving without him thinking of what each movement really meant. His first drawing was Leo, of course. It was only because he was right there and his best friend. 

After figuring out he could apparently draw pretty well he tried everything under the sun, even stealing one of Annabeth’s sketch books and hiding it under his bunk just like he thinks he did as a kid. The book was filled with whatever he could think of, the bow of the ship, his crewmates, fantastical landscapes and architecture, monsters, his nightmares, and even just skribbles making up how he felt. 

But most of the book was filled with Leo. He was so interesting to look at. His rugged charm and his messy appearance made him so unique to draw. He had such intense emotions, making him the caricature of every single one. Some people might think that means he has a crush, but he doesn't. His friend is simply something he enjoys looking at that's not that weird. It's not like he remembers everything he does.

(He hasn't memorized Leo's determined quirk of his brow as he sketches a curve like a compass, not the little sigh he would release when a blueprint was done, not the cross-hatching perfectly aligned and segmented showing his prowess, not his smirk whe-)

He thinks before he focused more on things instead of people, but everything about Leo needs to be documented to him. It's all so perfect that he can't forget it. 

He doesn't draw in front of anyone because it feels too personal to share. These are his true raw emotions and those stay right next to him and his heart. If people saw him draw they might see him weak and he needs to be a leader for them. This is an escape from the pressure and the pain and the fear. He knows it's dumb, and he knows no one will make fun of him, but it still scares him.

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Was it shit? Tell me! I'm still thinking about plot, I'm think it could be a 5+1 of Jace opening up to people and finding out that drawing isn't that fucking stupid. It's really cool, I may be biased to be fair.

[stunie]

it’s so easy to forget that you can literally write whatever you want

[jeeaark]

The way you draw SquidGold reminds me of Zoidberg from Futurama, and I say that with as much admiration as possible.

I,too, get Zoidberg vibes from this dork

[blueskittlesart]

nintendo hire me i have tons of marketable skills like uhh *checks notes* drawing your characters wrong

[mewkwota]

My Xeno-reaching brain when I see any concept anytime.

It always comes back to Xeno. (Whether I mean it to or not.)

[bumblingbabooshka]

tags by @frnkiix - nobody sedate this user. This guy gets it. The depths of my very soul have been peered into and succinctly summarized. Absolutely, yes.

[universalitgirlsblog2]

💗🍭NEW MIND , NEW YOU 🍭💗

💗Hey , yes you , Do you struggle with negative thoughts ? Do you have a negative self-talk ? Do you always think about unproductive thoughts ( thoughts which do not align with your desires or your dream life ) . Do you keep feeding the old story ? Do you feel bad about yourself ? Then please read this post.

🍭You need to change your self-talk . Change your self-talk through affirmations. Instead of telling yourself how you are dumb or ugly , tell yourself how beautiful , smart and valuable you are. Think about your childhood version , would you tell your five year old version how they are dumb and unworthy of their desires ? No , right ? That version has grown up to be a wonderful person, they deserve love and care. You cannot become your dream self by hating yourself or by always pointing out your flaws. Tell yourself how amazing you are , the fact you are alive is a proof that you are amazing. Just because I say so , you are amazing. Sometimes the harsh words we say to ourselves , they do not belong to us. Maybe when we were younger , someone told us those harsh words, it can be anyone , a bully or your friends or your family , anyone , but you do not need to treat their words as your reality because you create your own reality. What they said projected their own reality and insecurities . Replace those harsh words with kind and sweet words. No one or nothing can make you feel bad without your consent. The only person who decides who you truly are is YOU !! Always remember to put you first, you do not need listen to others because they are just a third person pov , their words do not create your reality , only your words create your reality.

💗The best way to kill the old story is to let it starve, do not dwell on the old story. The more you will ignore it , the more it will disappear. Replace the old story with your new story. Replace the limiting beliefs with new beliefs . Here is what you need to do , take a page and a pen ,draw a column and write down your limiting beliefs without any hesitation , draw another column and write your new beliefs which will support you.

For example :

Limiting Belief. New Belief

- I am not chosen. → I am chosen

- I hate myself. → I love myself

- I am not committed to my studies → I am committed to my studies

Another thing which can help you is MENTAL DIET.

🍭To replace these limiting beliefs with the new beliefs , you need to make new beliefs dominant. Dominant thoughts manifest.

Question ) How to make thoughts dominant ?

Answer ) To make a thought dominant

1 ) Repetition of information

2 ) Persist in the new story.