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ohgreat-moretapes · 5 months ago

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I like your style. I should listen to you...

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-Tim

#i actually don't have a job just yet but i am definitely looking #my savings will only last me but so long #and i dont like just staring into space all day like i am now #ask.txt #mh #tim wright #marble hornets #afterlife au #slenderverse

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pokeberry5 · 1 year ago

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tim "faking" a bicycle accident to get his neighbor to come help him, based on @upswings's post, which gripped me by the throat the moment i read it

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#sart #tim drake #dick grayson #dick & tim #dc #long post #ITS FINALLY DOOOOOOOOOOOONE #i've been chipping away at this for so long #im never gonna draw a full comic again #<- will absolutely draw a full comic again #only for these two #anyway tim probably gets grounded but somehow finagles dick as his “responsibly neighbor who saved him” to babysit him #while dick is simultaneously angling for that exact position to keep an eye on his suspicious kid neighbor #the payoff of the last page was the only thing keeping me going (and my friend <3)

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buttercupshands · 8 months ago

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rewatched Kurogiri's holiday story from ultra impact (not related to sketch at all)

(but it did inspire me)

on another note

finally!!

#fanart #sketch #my art #bnha #shigaraki tomura #tenko shimura #kurogiri #I cried a bit while playing it I missed the classic LoV I missed Kurogiri WITH the LoV it's been so long :(#and it feels like last chapter (423 atm) broke the seal of sketching them as anything but something static #it took me two or so days to just understand that Kurogiri is... yeah #I can't believe it took Horikoshi so long to bring him back but as I said and will say it again I glad it happened at all #after some thought I just want to sit with the chapters #anyway getting the preordered book was so much fun #it was full of LoV from Toga and Dabi talking about her house to Tenko being upset over being told that he doesn't have friends #and everything in-between basically only Compress left to join in the next volume #I think????#I actually want to get another one already they're so goodddd #and the translation sounds pretty good but I checked some pages not the whole book it'll be boring #it's actually so weird to think that I started a goal of reading the whole series ad it was now officially coming out like this back in 201 #and now it's 2024 and the translation is pretty much ahead of anime and maybe it'll be faster than viz volumes too #since it's 2 in 1 basically - I think it's really great since I save some money but get LoV chapters every time #because they appear every 2 books at the start of the series and back then it was hard for me to get them #but I felt content seeing all the books that I bought when I was visiting family for holidays this month because there are so many of them #and I don't need any wi-fi or internet in general to read them back to back now with an addictional volume #they have some mistakes but I don't mind them it feels good to just hold all of them (and a bit heavy after like 8 books) and now it's 18

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brain-rot-central · 10 months ago

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I don't wanna go to work. I just want to write vampire smut, cook good food, and bake bread.

#i seem to only be able to write when I know i don't have the time to write #what the fuck is that about #neech's speeches #i did voice lines with my fiancé last night for his latest yt vid #maybe i should explore cooking on yt #good news is i finally started the actual sex scene this morning #just word vomitted 300+ words worth of smutty tension #jdkanskdk #sorry this is taking me so long #my mind has been a battlefield for the last month #also my work contract is up as of thursday so i have to find another site #i have enough saved to chill for a bit #i probably will #but still #that's stress #plus personal life bs happening ugh #I'm ok just really busy sorry

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coolnonsenseworld · 2 months ago

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Omg your instagram story is so right! I can’t believe I’ve never even noticed that, probably because in fanon keith and shiro are so close that I’d forgotten that isn’t canon :0

Deserves this awesome quote which I had to dig out of my sideblog reblogs

#for context - i was complaining how under-served we were to listen how much shiro did for keith and how amazing their relationship is #and then were forced to watch him just recruit him for school and be a decent teacher #like any teacher should #i mean....#any.#like he was just showing basic decency for not throwing Keith away for bad behavior #keith acted as if that man hung the moon #as if he was reliable... took a few punches that were meant for Keith ....risked something for him #wanted to give up his liver or something #gave up his last food in the apocalypse to feed him i dont fucking know #Keith acted as if that guy literally saved his life and we got scenes where Shiro is emotionally manipulating him to stay in school #or to become a leader #never really asking how he feels about it or if he needs help #i thought twice before saying Keith attached to a pile of shit because it was warm #but not thrice #i've re-watched season 1 of Arcane and was so mad about it i couldn't hold it in djdjdjd #i do think they could have a good relationship but what we were /shown/ was just not it too many plot holes to fill #love that the fandom can fill the discrepancies and rewrite those relationships though #and also i was really glad people answered to that story agreeing #i was feeling weird reading all those 'keith and shiro are my fav relationship in the show'#...lance was more warm to the mice than Shiro to Keith '#i feel like it owuld make more sense to me if keith did all of this WHILE being pissed at Shiro for leaving him #or if we saw he finds him unreliable - Shiro was only useful to him as long as Keith followed his rules too #Vander doing all he did for his daughters that shit was unconditional fucking love #vi and jinx never being able to off one another had more raw pure love than that #you know what i mean??? sorry im doing it again.... end of ramble #mezzy out 💀

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khrysalisposting · 7 days ago

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wiz worlds tierlist based on soundtrack

(justifications in tags)

#yall already know im gonna glaze khrysalis to death bc its my goat and the heartwrenching gallifrey vibes i get from last wood theme AUGH #AND I STILL STAND BY LAST WOOD BEING DYVIMS THEME. no further questions at this time #and novus bc when am i NOT listening to novus soundtrack #mooshu and wintertusk are peak and classic #selenopolis was actually incredible so its teetering very close to S-tier #wallaru is actual fire im ngl so its a solid A; just wasnt a fan of billabong themes #azteca's saving grace is zultun dock/combat/xibalba but i rlly dont like that apocalypse theme becomes the overworld standard post-xibalba #marleybone is pure british and thats both a positive and negative #grizzleheim is good im just not the biggest fan of some of the overworld themes #wizard city is wizard city. u cannot deny the classics #celestia couldve been a LITTLE more alien but i cant bash it too hard. its one of my fav worlds overall #lemuria was all over the place (as it should bc thats the point) but i only ever listen to mystery theme :(#polaris was okay. walruskberg combat is the best and thats abt it #darkmoor is. well. darkmoor. we've all been there #empyrea wouldve been higher but i viscerally despise aero plains combat + zanadu combat + most of the part 2 tracks #karamelle i cannot stand EXCEPT wilkommen to karamelle. do not talk to me #avalon and zafaria and dragonspyre are purely bc i was stuck in them for so long #mirage never truly jumped out at me? idk #krok is obvious #aquila also just doesnt have a lot of music??#and i just despise wysteria idk #val is just rambling #wizard101 #w101 #wizzy fandom #wizblr #wiz101

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danielnelsen · 3 months ago

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well that's just a lie

#ash plays bg3 #bg3 #gale #gale dekarios #personal #look. im used to the way he looks now. im cool with it. but she shouldnt be!#this was an interesting conversation tho. i know ive been leaning into him following his own ambitions but--#the dialogue options along those lines are becoming a lot more direct in a way that doesnt quite fit with how im playing #the gale that im playing isnt going around pronouncing that he's gonna take over the world (because that's not what he's actually planning)#so im not completely sure how to play this. i saved before so i can go through it a few times to work out what i want to say #(ftr i have no qualms at all about reloading in this game. i dont feel bad in the slightest. im playing this game for fun)#ultimately i dont think it matters too much what i say here unless i choose some really extreme options. which isnt my plan anyway #but it's important to me. im enjoying the roleplay aspect #it's also pretty funny that ive only had one long rest since the one where i fucked the emperor. i should be able to tell her that lmao #like hey yeah a lot's happened since we last spoke #but anyway if you say you're gonna take the crown yourself she says 'if it doesnt crush you i will' which is fun #gonna stick with the 'im not sure' option. and all my companions are saying such nice things to me about it :')#except wyll and jaheira. come on guys #and lae'zel but that's because she's been kidnapped so. rip. should probably make that a priority but i like progressing main quests LAST

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rudnitskaia · 6 months ago

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yay a week until my 29th bday ✨🔥😎🔥✨

#about myself #heldig life stories #birthday #it's hard to believe that a year ago in that same period of time i wrote my last will haha #the only reason i didn't make an attempt on myself was my hyper responsibility 'cause i wanted a notary to approve my last will #so my beloved ones would have no problems with my property and my corpse after i die #but i had no time to do so and then my husband led me to psychiatrist and she confirmed i'm having a suicidal depression all my life #after i described my habitual living she was shocked that i managed to go so long without any medication just on my inner will itself #just because i constantly pushed myself forward from 'you need to go everyone counts on you'#but then it was awfully worsened by my long term burnout due to constant work crunches to the point when my inner will became not enough #and i stopped functioning like a normal person completely: not eating not getting up from the bed not wanting anything except disappearing #now i'm on antidepressants and it feels like i'm awake from a living time nightmare #it would have been so much easier if someone gave me antidepressants back then when i was 14 and tried to take my own life for the 1st time #fortunately unsuccessfully #so it will be another happy birthday to me that i wasn't supposed to live haha #don't be like me pls don't ignore yourselves and your condition and instead take care of yourselves dudes <3 #go to the doctor if you need to it's neither scary nor shameful - it can literally save your life #hug you all tightly

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shannonsketches · 6 months ago

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Every time I talk to a DB fan who doesn't know or doesn't agree that the whole franchise is an adventure comedy first and an action series second I feel insane but then I find an old Toriyama interview,

You made some comedic scenes where you have minor villains Pilaf & co. appear; how did you come up with a balance between laughs and fierce battles? Do you pay attention to the difference between comedy and battle in making a work “entertaining”?

I believe that, when you combine comedy and serious battles, both of them might come alive even more. As for me personally, though, I much prefer drawing dumb jokes to battle scenes.

as a bonus, every time I'm like 'idk I didn't really like most of the DBZ movies prior to Yo Son Goku and Friends Return and BotG,' and get the 'whAAaaT they're so gOOD' (from my brother, tbh askdjs) but they all seemed really Action-Drama and About the Fight Scenes and I'm like 'meh kinda boring tbh' I get to gaze upon,

In the latest movie, Toriyama-san, you participated in the production from the scriptwriting stage for the first time. What is the reason for that? Was there anything you noticed in coming face-to-face with the work after so long?

I was told about a project for Dragon Ball in its first animated film in a long while, and I read the story outline; while the beings “Beerus, God of Destruction” and “Super Saiyan God” (which goes above Super Saiyan) were interesting, the themes were heavy, and I felt that the world was a bit different from Dragon Ball. Rather than telling them about this or that problematic spot, I thought it would be faster if I just wrote it out concretely, and while I had intended just to give them a model―”for example”―my hand wouldn’t stop, and ultimately, I ended up writing almost everything, including the dialogue. I am reflecting on the fact that I did something terribly rude to the scriptwriter.

Akira "It was bad so I fixed it, oops" Toriyama, Absolute Legend

#I saw someone on Reddit say Toyotarou's Super was “sloppy bad fanfiction” and “WHAt was Toriyama thinking” as if Toriyama didn't write #the outlines and personally approve reject and give notes to Toyotarou the entire time aklsjdaljk #Like baby tell me you've never read the manga without telling me kljsajdka #Tell me you've Never Read Toriyama's Writing Even One Time without telling me #god i can't imagine what the original botg was going to be if Beerus' name was Virus #Toriyama looked at a Goku Saves the Day script and went “What if Goku loses immediately and needs Everyone's Help in order to even compete”#“What if this movie was about Vegeta and how much he's grown actually. What if Dragon Ball was idk... like...fun and meaningful”#“What if Goku gets his ass beat right away and can't win this fight even WITH help What if the best he can do is just Be Entertaining”#I hope you are enjoying your afterlife mr t i love your choices so so so much #Like my ABSOLUTE respect to the directors and board artists and animators and actors and crew who do amazing work in those films #but 90% of toei's producers and staff writers can meet me in the pit tbqfh #like granted it's been a long time but I feel like I enjoyed the REALLY old ones like Tree of Might and Worlds Strongest??#But Broly was SUCH a huge turn off and the future trunks movie was kind of my last straw for caring about any of the EU stuff askldj #gen the only part of the anime I like at all anymore are some of the unhinged choices the dub cast makes because you can tell #that they're having fun when they're not spending six hours screaming into a mic and that is extremely valuable to me

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skunkes · 7 months ago

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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.

#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day #how they're already memories since moments pass so fast #everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever #and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed #it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily #so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day #ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been #the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief #and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately #id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again #like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night #one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys #i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i #hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day

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tittyinfinity · 15 days ago

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contemplating deleting my blog soon I might make a new blog but idk

#.bdo #i just need to work on some insecurity issues is all. been on a long self journey this year #can't shake the feeling that every time i say anything it's wrong somehow #and there is some reality to that. i have been wrong several times I've even been downright mean to people over misunderstandings #i just haven't been able to break out of the habit of feeling permanently embarrassed about every small mistake I've ever made #& old insecurities from my childhood are resurfacing #like when i was a kid/teen and no one would ever tell me when i was breaking social cues but they'd make fun of me behind my back #i have 3200 followers and most of my posts get 0 notes sometimes i get 1-5 so it makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong #i end up deleting a lot of them...#almost every post of mine that's gone viral was just a screenshot or picture saved from somewhere else....#and the times that i have gotten attention over a post that stands up for people who aren't like me it makes me terrified #that i look like i'm trying to play a savior role or like i'm virtue signaling #i have a few good mutuals who i love so much and that's why I'm still here #it's also the only social media i use currently #but it does really hurt when i put a lot of thought into something like spending hours making a funny meme or a thoughtful post #just to find out that the only people who find them interesting is my extremely small circle on here if anyone at all #it's so dumb i shouldn't be feeling like this over fucking numbers....it's not even real #i find a little bit of (petty) solace in the fact that there are people on here who are loudly and repeatedly saying way more embarrassing #shit than I've ever said #but even then when i know someone is absolutely wrong it makes me feel nervous like what if im the next person to fuck up that bad #and i find out through public ridicule #well that actually kinda did happen on here once but not on that scale #last year i sent someone something i thought was funny and they sent back an 'ok'#and then immediately made a huge long post about how you shouldn't talk to strangers like you're already friends #called it parasocial behavior...got tens of thousands of notes and i knew it was about me...#i wholeheartedly agree some people go too far with parasocial behavior but i never fully understood what part of what i said/did was wrong #and i went back to feeling like the kid who never found out they were doing something wrong until they heard that they got made fun of #i don't even attempt to make new friends on my own on here anymore because i'm terrified of that happening again #almost all of the people I've become friends with on here came to me first and i love and appreciate them for that #but even then i feel too nervous to socialize that often bc i never find out/realize that i fuck up until later on

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burningcomputerpersona · 29 days ago

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my cds (and cassette tape) finally arrived in the mail today!!

#I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS #was getting 10 cds and a cassette tape at once maybe a bit overkill? possibly #but i saw the bogo free sale banner and my brain lept at the chance to get more cds for half the price lol #i feel like my collection might be growing a bit too fast esp considering i only started collecting them this fall #but also I HAVE A WHOLE PILE OF CDS NOW LOOK AT IT THERE'S SO MANY AND THEY'RE MY FAVORITE ALBUMS TOO #it's like seeing blorbo from your music in real life in your home #just looking at a cd and being like !!! i literally listen to you every day i didn't know you were also Real #the difference between having something only on your phone even if you still see/listen to it a lot and having a Physical Thing is massive #just. i haven't even opened these up yet they look so pretty im just staring at them in awe while typing this rn #ykw 10 cds is a lot to unbox all at once and if they have extra stuff on the inside too i don't think I'd be able to fully appreciate it #i think im gonna save some of the unwrapping for later as a lil treat maybe for when im having a bad day #so i can come home and unwrap it and look inside and get that serotonin boost #just a lil something i can look forward to in the future :3 #they said money can't buy happiness but it turns out i just did and my happiness comes in the form of physical media lol #and ykw i think this is a pretty sweet deal like if i had to choose any hobby to spend money on this would be a great choice #it's cheap you get to support your favorite musicians and you get infinite dopamine out of it (well as long as the cd lasts ig)#just. im still looking at them i cant believe the pictures and sounds from my phone are Real and i can touch them now #...it's probably gonna take a while for me to get over the awe and actually open them up and start looking inside for goodies and stuff #ive been meaning to take pictures of the cool stuff from the precious cds that i got but i still haven't gotten around to it lol #just. the emotions are too big. even just looking at it brings me so much joy that if i opened it up to find more stuff inside #it'd be too much for my brain to handle and it would just explode or something lol #anyway i think that wall of text is long enough so im gonna go admire my cds some more now #mine #cd #cds #cassette tape #music #reminder #for later #<- and that is so i actually remember to open them up and look inside instead of just admiring it like a painting

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insomnya777 · 3 months ago

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finally watching the etho wild life episode lets gooooo!!!

#before you wonder why it took me so long i was saving best for last #actually that's a lie i have to watch scar next then grian so he's not Technically Last (but the sentiment remains)#i had a superrrr long list of povs to watch so im only now getting to my favs sighh #the way i do it is like watch my favs that i can't stand to wait for right at the beginning (joel jimmy gem etc)#and then the favs where i Can wait/want to prolong the excitement for i watch at the end #and everyone else in the middle #tldr IM SO EXCITED TO WATCH ETHO FINALLY i've been at the edge of my seat all week #don't be surprised if there's a sudden influx of etho posts. actually i might just do my etho posting right under this posts reblogs #nya talks #trafficblr #ethoslab #wild life #wild life smp #wlsmp #etho

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svtskneecaps · 4 months ago

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so what i'm putting together from osmosis and the wonderful livebloggers and the incredible arkanis english updates account is something like this

Prefeito Jota: Hello, I'd like to hire you to investigate what happened in my city/island(?)!

Bagi, who was previously "invited" to a mysterious island/city by its elected official, subsequently trapped on the mysterious island/city, investigated the deep mysterious history of the island/city, came to no conclusions, found her brother after years of searching, was separated once again from her brother, gained and lost an adopted daughter (possibly to being kidnapped by the island government, which was evil), gained and lost a demon fiancée (possibly to being dragged back to hell, so there's no way to find her), gained and lost a close demon friend to dubious circumstance (did he die for his children? is he with skeppy in the gas station?), and has had an unknown amount of time to process and/or suppress all of this: Sure! :D

#ah shit now i gotta tag this #arkanis #qsmp #qsmp bagi #q!bagi #long tags #hopefully that covers it for people who don't care abt the lore tie-ins; i think they'll be able to filter this post #this is mostly a qsmp post so i hope you are able to filter it at your leisure :)#i try very hard not to bug have a good week :D #shut up vic #block game brainrot #is valigma an island or a city i'm unclear on this #or is it a city that's on an island #is there an island??? there's not. there is. where were they travelling. there was a boat i know that #fe//lps crashed the boat there's gotta be a port somehwere close by #but it could just be a port city.... is it an island??#brother i'm cooked i don't speak portuguese and i work during the streams.... cognates save me....... save me cognates.........#the name of my tiktok collection for qsmp is 'context clues only' bc i was determined to follow its story through only osmosis.#i was wrong about that one but. welcome back context clues only.#idk anyway hopefully this post can be filtered by people in either fandom who don't care abt crossover lollll 😭#look q!bagi has every reason to distrust elected officials that try to invite her places #last time it happened it was a bona fide second location.#it's kinda wild she was willing to do it again lmao #do you think she got the request and idly wondered how long she was gonna be stuck this time #we kinda had to skim over that aspect of q!bagi's arrival bc of the weird meta parts of the presidential invitation #but iirc the qsmp president inviting her was canon. which is WILD lmfaooo #and also how she was fiancées with tina (a demon) and friends with bad (a demon) and coparents with mouse (a demon)#and then she gets invited and comes to valigma and she's probably already got insane déjà vu and then BOOM. matt.#like i'm not cc!bagi so i don't know but i didn't read q!bagi as someone who just. moved on.#i don't think she would process the events of quesadilla island i think it's more likely she suppressed it. really really well.

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dawdlecentric · 1 year ago

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As the world caves in

#lycoris recoil #chisato x takina #chisataki #my edit #mine #anime edit #of all the chisataki edits I planned to do this random one is what I ended up doing #and I made this back in September so no reason from not uploading this other than setting it aside #cuz I thought I'm gonna edit some finishing touches only for me to upload it as it is #this is basically the draft. long story (I ranted on a vent post) but basically I'm having some export issues #which is why I cannot upload the latest version of this edit #anyways fun fact I listened to this song on loop upon discovering it (bc I was having an existential moment)#that it became my no. 1 most played song on Spotify lol #also it made me think of an idea that what if takina can't save chsiato at the last moment in the last episode #so here's that sort of 'what if' scenario also I just realized how foreboding the lyrics are considering the last day of this year 👀💦#nonetheless! I do wish things would be better next year... ahaha totally not jinxing it (⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;⁠)

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tenwhiteandalusians · 13 days ago

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is episode 8 the domitian arc ? more on this and EVEN MORE narratives i’ve been ignoring that the show said “actually,,,” about in 5

#hermes staying domitian’s hand… hermes’ face a flash of discomfort when he was torturing tenax… hmm. character growth.#WHAT WAS THAT HERMES. WHAT WAS THAT LOOK. NO GIRL GET BACK HERE I CANNOT ALSO DO THIS NARRATIVE OF YOU NO LONGER ABLE TO PULL HIM BACK FROM #THE BRINK OF HIS CRUELTY WATCHING HIM CHANGE AND SEEKING OUT SOMEONE ELSE IN HIS NEED AND FEAR AND ANGST. NO BABY GIRLLLL #I DON’T WANT TO WRITE A HERMES POINT OF VIEWWWW OF THE SIX YEARS HE SPENT WATCHING DOMITIAN BLOOMMMM INTO HIS POWER AND CORRUPTTTT because.#correct me if i’m wrong but in that very first scene that was a young hermes in the white right he watched domitian give his speech and saw #his father to truly see him the whole time as hermes has seen his brilliance.#NO I ALSO SAW THAT GUARD’S HEAD FOLLOW HERMES oh i hate it here. you know what i also hate? i need domitian to be successful for tenax #but also i do kinda like titus… NOOOOOO NO KILLING TITUS DOMITIAN I JUST SAID I LIKED HIM!!!! DOMITIAN!!!#oh. ohhhh no. OH NOOOO okay listen we can redeem this. we can have the whole turning point of the narrative be domitian’s mercy of hermes #the ultimate staying of his hand. proving he’s not entirely gone that hermes & his love still means something. do i think this will happen #no absolutely not. before he can kill his brother domitian has to kill the only other living person he loves perhaps more than titus if he #could ever realize it. (a brief interlude to yell LET’S GO LESBIANS LET’S GO HI IRIS) domitian… please spare him… OH WAIT HELLO THE BLOOD!!#ALSO a brief interlude to say i knew it was coming but ELIA’S SPEECH ABOUT LOVING INCITATUS??? I WAS ON THIS INCITATUS SHIT WITH THE LITTLE #NOD THEY HAD WHERE SCORPUS CALLED HIM TO BEAT XENON OH MY GOD I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS!!! elia’s going to crush him. incitatus won’t listen.#scorpus is going to die twice once when they call elia’s name instead of his and then the second time when the scorpion bites him again #(he kills himself and tenax finds him. sorry to give everyone absolutely maximum damage here but uh. that’s how i can see it going down)#or alternatively worse: after killing titus who at times he loves and hates in equal measure (if y’all don’t think I have some UNHINGED #brothers quotes. we’ll keep mum here about why but suffice to say it is. relevant to other fandoms. and thus i have a Collection) the last #thing domitian has to do is kill hermes. and this one is both out of betrayal but also love because I think somewhere in here titus’ queen #berenice plays a role because domitian’s hatred of the jews probably comes to play a role and I think titus would show up and protect her #like Domitian engineers some kind of a situation where in theory titus could escape alive or beat him but he can’t do that & save berenice #and so of course he saved berenice. or she dies in his arms and he goes mad with grief and any way you put it berenice is the trap & titus #happily crawls into the lion’s mouth to save her for love of her etc and domitian sees him die for it. he gives titus every chance to come #back to him to work with him to be what he wants him to be and he always chooses himself he chooses love and domitian can’t understand even #when it makes him weak. and then he sees hermes dirty and emaciated and still terribly terribly beautiful and feels such a pang of longing #and love that he decides he has to die because he (domitian) cannot be weak. he cannot have any of it. also giving domitian worse paranoia #than he already has because if you kill your brother the one person who should always love you—support you—who can build me a new brother—#you’ve gotta generate some MAJOR issues. namely trust issues. and if he kills hermes they’ll be even worse. so like ideally To Me domitian #wouldn’t kill him but i do very much see the symbolism of cutting off his last earthly tie & desire to ascend to the divine imperial throne #those about to die

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