#my posting schedule’s fucked i know im sorry

[evidenceof]

and roll credits for webgott valentine's week! long-ish post but i don't think it can be anything but saur...

haguenau is for lovers was me deciding to shoot for the moon after 1) meg wondered out loud about a webgott week (after injecting webgott into my brain), 2) i zoomed in on lieb reading sunday comics, feverishly tore through the stars and stripes archive only to realize that easy was in haguenau during valentine's week 3) caoimhe said, "haguenau is for lovers" and it sticking into my brain permanently.

that is to say, i am so very lucky to be friends with people whose thoughts are so infectious and always brilliant. would like to take this time to thank the people who held my sweaty hand all throughout my first stab at organizing a fan event.

tierney @kbsd my beloved!! thank you for literally putting up with my anxiety through all this and for reading (and proofreading) walls of text on gdocs to make sure i still sounded sane. putting up with wips for queueing and scheduling posts when i'm asleep even if you've had a Long Day of Moving houses. i would literally be in the trenches without you. thank you for never doubting me and for genuinely matching my (control) freak.

meg @ww2yaoi head webgott babe (let's all acknowledge that) for the really kind messages. they helped me more than you'd know!! licherally hilf wouldnt even be alive if i hadn't seen you post theee Webgott Wednesday Locket way back last year, and if you hadn't written lippenstift, down in the valley, no ghost looms (tbh all ur webgott) and made me spiral into this for good.

caoimhe @randlemartin. this'll sound weird but just trust ok. thank you for writing both text posts and fic that compel me to no end. the germ of the idea wouldn't have grown into anything good without it being fattened by your thoughts and words!! haguenau is for lovers <3 ik it isn't webgott, but reading delichon while prepping for this over the holidays kept me going fr.

karina @markedfordead and julia @joe-fuckingtwice-toye. your tags and everything you made throughout the event made me wanna cryyyy. they were all so sweet and genuinely, when i'd be fidgeting over the event day ahead, seeing that you two took the time to make something so lovely nearly every single day literally pacified the gnawing self-doubt hahaha thank you i mean it so much.

to everyone who participated!! wrote fics and drabbles, made web weaves, beautiful art that made me want to chew my screen because of how beautiful they all are, thank you so much!!!!!!! to everyone who rb-ed and liked, made valentines, my heart feels a lot bigger thanks to all of you.

shoutout to my laptop, photoshop, my secondhand wacom tablet that's been roi-ed the fuck out since november, my two hands, and futura condensed (1940s print would be NOTHING without you). thank god none of them decided to give up on me during event prep and proper. (and to my bubs who had to literally listen to me scream and yap about this from beginning to end. you are a saint. idk how i got so lucky to be with someone who supports my being a fujo wife with dead ww2 vets)

really wanted to keep my modding this on the down low, largely cos idk!! i just wanted the focus to be on webgott and the event, but also bc i knew this whole thing couldn't have come together because of a singular person, or even moreso, a singular interpretation of the ship. so i felt the distance was necessary. though i am proud, in a small way (im allowing myself a lil' bit of it), of being able to create a bunch of things for a pair i've fallen in love with, and for a group of people who hold so much affection for them.

all that to say! im glad to have made things with love, and (tw: cheesy as fuck) im only really able to do that bc im surrounded by people who love so beautifully. thank you all from da bottom of mi heart. if u read up until here. thank you for that too. ♡

♡ happy webgott wednesday. haguenau will always be for lovers. ♡

sorry this is literally too many scrolls down lmfao

[harringroveera]

It’s okay ‘cause Steve loves making Billy blush

[plusbeam]

hell yeah oofurixmas! dedicated to @anicream loved all ur prompts to bits so i drew them all!

[heartorbit]

i wanna make a prsk major arcana...

[rogueddie]

Noah Schnapp and Shawn Levy all signed the no hostage left behind letter.

The letter is full of celebrities names, but i wanted to highlight the ones tied to stranger things. I am not optimistic enough to believe that this is any indication that other members don't agree.

The real kick is that the letter is pointless. The media made the "mistake" of allowing a recently released Hamas hostage speak live on the news.

She revealed that she, and the other hostages, were treated well. She spoke of reassurances that Hamas gave her, telling her that she wouldn't be harmed. They made sure the hostages were well fed and cared for. They were sharing their own food.

This is the same terror group that Israel is using as an excuse to commit genocide. Not only are they bombing Gaza, explicitly aiming for anyone (including civilians), they are also bombing the west bank.

47% of the population of Gaza are children. The hospitals are going to run out of power any hour now. The west bank has literally nothing to do with Hamas. They're only being targeted because they're Palestinians.

If you still support Israel, or are still under the illusion that Palestinian people are the villains, you aren't paying attention.

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

i realized they had the same birthday (dec 21st) so i was like "yoooo i should draw them together"

silly bonus:

[catboybeebop]

if i reply to a quote retweet you made and your first thought is "oh this is that guy that this friend of mine made fun of before but i don't even know him, i should use that in-joke here lol kek" i think you may have something wrong with you if you just go straight to that. just no restraint at all huh

[bedforddanes75]

can someone acknowledge the existence of this (collection of) paragraph(s) that doesn't exist to other's eyes yet Please

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And then Matty holds his arms out by his side, lets his head fall down, chin against one of his collarbones, and George sees it immediately.

He’s playing the part of a saviour with blackened teeth and scummy hands, telling George he’s Jesus, telling George he could be his saviour, telling George to just fucking listen.

Matty keeps his arms there until George takes two long, steady strides over, and throws them down by his sides. He looks angry.

"You’re fucking disgusting. How could you? Why would you do that?"

There’s pretty, shiny tears starting to build over George’s brown eyes, and Matty knows he’s walking a fine fucking line between showing George what he knows and killing him in the process. He’s taken a whole lifetime of being told he’s dirty, he doesn’t care about one more. But he does. He does. He really does.

Of all the things George could’ve said to him then, that hurt him the most. He could’ve told him he was a sinner, that he should repent and worship like everybody else, could’ve told him that he deserves to go to hell, but telling him he’s disgusting hits somewhere far too close to home. He looked hurt at the sight, like he had no idea Matty could even think to do that, and that’s almost the worst part, because it came so easily to Matty, was he just that bad? Too far gone into that secular, Godless place that he couldn’t even see that he was wrong?

No.

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this is so dramatic its Lowk making me giggle...bitch why are u playing jesus sit down

[famewolf]

i will genuinely never understand my dad!!! and i feel guilty for being confused and angered by him!!!! i don't know what he wants and i doubt i ever will

i guess he's known that he's had cancer for over a month now but never told me. and i dont know if it's because he wanted me to reach out/pay attention to him, as he's done in the past or if he just didn't think to, or if it's some other third mysterious reason that i can't think up

we aren't close since he was rarely in my life but i feel like that's something you tell your kid.

and the only reason i found out is because i went to go check and see why he hadn't replied to my message about asking if he wanted to hang out for the thousandth time without getting a response

[bokuwadekinaiko]

(advice appreciated + long ass tags)

this sucks this sucks this SUCKS FUCK. ive been hokeschooled / "unschooled" for the entirety of my 8th grade and school is starting again in 2 weeks and i really want and really need to be back in school but idk if im mentally at all ready. opening day would be best to go back obviously but i didn't spend anytime during summer preparing for the routine / fixing my damn sleep schedule but i really need this .

i also know its gonna SUCK because i have severe sensory processing issues (tldr my brain Cannot filter out uncomfortable noises / textures / etc andi go Fucking ballistic and melt/shutdown) and even at home im having multiple daily meltdowns / panic attacks from just the everyday noises / sensations so god forbid what it will be like around 300 teenagers who don't know personal space exists.. i also have a severe anxiety disorder / autism so itll be even MORE fun :-) yaAy (thats not factoring in PDA disorder which is made my dad drop me out anyways because its Fucking Hell trying to go to school with that)

but i want this. i need this . iwant to get an education. i wanr to be around kids my age instead of being forced to be inside all day. i want to have routine and make friends and feel normal. im just scared that because of circumstances out of my control ill never get that

[rainingcatsandjune]

ask game!! list 5 things that make you happy then ask this to the last 10 people that have liked and reblogged things from you <3

OH WOW YES OK !!

my friendsss :))) that are kind to me :))))) and let me ramble about my special interests :))) and hang out with me :)))) and let me be kind to them back :)))))

THE HUMAN EXPERIENCE OH MY GOD I could talk for hours about how happy that makes me,,, yknow those tiktoks with the candid videos of people going about their day with emotional guitar music and #hopecore in the caption?? yeah that shit makes me SO HAPPY I genuinely begin to cry whenever I see those and notice little stuff like that in real life. do not ever take me people watching I will cry.

MEDIA. ART. MUSIC. CREATIVITY RAHAHFSHDGSHG right now redactedverse is making me sosososo happy I love engaging with it so much

my nice comfy bed with my many many plushies :)

the indomitable human spirit can you tell I love humans

[goatboard]

hi

[izzy-b-hands]

finally broke into one of my new syringes (still have some old ones, but figured hey i should try them for this shot)

Tw for bitching abt medical shit/my injs below the cut

and i just. why is my doc intentionally making this harder. I ask for 3ml syringes bc it's what im used to and know how to draw up. She agreed to that, so i never checked my new ones bc why should i? she listened, she sent in for 3mls, right?

NOPE. fucking 1 ml which means figuring out the draw up has required online searching to make sure it's right, and bonus! everything I've found doesn't recommend it for T bc it's such a slow inj to begin with, and 'many feel it takes longer to inject in smaller syringes designed mainly for IV use, which lessens compliance with injection schedules in some'

And i hate how it looks. it looks like so much more, and i know that's stupid bc it isn't, it's the same amount as usual, but the sight of it is v much involved in me getting my injs done with my fear of needles. I know, again, I KNOW planned parenthood is dealing with not enough funding, hands on staff, etc, but does that really prevent you from listening to your patient and trying to help them with shit like this? bc i don't think it should. I'm still forever grateful they've been helping me keep my T going until I find a primary care doc, but at the same time...what the fuck? I said this would be an issue, and i need to stay with my usual supplies. If that was an issue for them, i was willing to buy syringes myself from the medical gear shop I've used for extra supplies before (that will ship out here, I've checked.) Why won't she just fucking. listen, and talk to me? if all she could do was 1 ml syringes, fine, BUT FUCKING TELL ME THAT BEFORE SO I CAN JUST BUY MY OWN

Like. I will get this done. ill use these crap syringes up bc I refuse to waste them.

But now I'm overly nervous and worried im gonna fuck it up with the new syringe, or that it will hurt more or take even longer to inject than usual, so my hands are too shaky to do it! im already a day late with it, and I'd bet ten bucks I wont be able to calm myself enough to do it until tomorrow. Yes, this is also autism bs of needing things the same but like. I've had to do a lot of adjusting since last year, and have made efforts to accept changes and sporadic things. it's been hard as fuck, but I've fucking done it. so why can't i have one fucking thing like this stay the same? just my inj supplies, that's it! I'll accept and deal with other changes but for fuck's sake, she KNOWS I'm nervous abt fucking up my injections (bc i always want them to go well so i get as much med in me as i can, with minimal tracking out after it), why the fuck wouldn't she at least tell me if she was limited in syringes/what she can rx?

Why don't docs listen when i talk, and why won't they just talk and be honest with me like a fucking adult. is that honestly so fucking difficult?

Apparently so 🙃

[yukinyaminyato]

im so fucking annoyed bc i was supposed to get a seasonal part time job at the same place i worked last year, i asked abt my shifts and stuff a couple of times and the boss was just like "sorry it's taking me so long, this 'puzzle' has turned out to be quite complicated" and i was just like k as long as i get the shifts eventually and then he contacted me like "so basically i won't have any work available for u unless u agree to work 10h/week at an outdoors xmas market" (which would have been way less work than i requested in an uncomfy environment) so i declined & now i have no work after all. :))) and im pissed mainly bc it took him legit almost a month to come to this conclusion and bc i was promised work i didnt apply for anything else and now it's basically impossible for me to find anything else. So. fucking great.

[itsalwaysdark]

oh nooo i stayed up late . do you think theyre going to kill me

[honestmouse20]

Small rant time !

So schedules at work are posted by hr on thursdays. This time of year, hours are cut by corporate bc they're 'making less money' it's bs but we live with it. Anyway, this thursday when i get my newest schedule, it says i have a vacation day on the 24th. Which immediatly im like?? Bc one, I didn't request the day, and two bceacuse a leader Has to help me request a day. And this day off leaves me with only 28 hours that week. I can't live off of that.

So i go to hr and all they do is take the little bannor off that says 'unpaid vacation day' and then tell me that I have to ask if anyone would give me their shift that day. Which, is rediculous. And Then when I finally get them to look into Who exactly made the request for a day off in the first place, we find that it was a random leader on wednesday. Wednesdays are my day off, requests have to be made while im working. If i'd have done it, id' have my number attatched to it even if the leader helped. So someone typed in the wrong number, hr saw and recongized it was weird (in their own words) but still pushed it thorugh without asking me? ?

And so I asked that, since I very clearly didn't make the request, if they could schedule me that day. Any shift. Doesn't even have to be my usual closing. I just Need at least 34 horus to pay by bills mininum. And she tells me that they'll have to look into it. Cause theve already used more hours making the schedule that corporate gave them.

But here's the kicker yall. FOUR people have called out every single shift for the last 3 nights. The Same four people. That's at least 32 extra hours in the system, not counting that one of the people was scheduled for 10 plus hours. so yeah, i called bs and the hr lady said she would email Her leader to try and get it fixed.

This of course was all after she'd texted me at 8am saying that those same four people called out again and was wondering if I'd work a 12 to 10pm shift. by myself. Again. I said no i could come in at 1:30 and stay to clsoe. She was very relieved lol