#my mental illness is winning
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when that person I simped over for months actually finds me funny but we cannot be friends because in the end of the day I'm just a filthy cloneshipper. :')
#yes.#i'm still sulky.#I'm considering making my blog not safe for non-cloneshippers out of spite#and will refuse to tag my stuff anymore#because...#fuck everyone#fuck everyone who makes me feel shit#on MY OWN FUCKING BLOG.#my rage is winning#my mental illness is winning
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TEAM FRYE FTW!!!!!! SHARK GIRL AND PANCAKE HAVE HAD THEIR FILL, ITS HER TIME TO SHINE
[image description: a headshot drawing of frye from splatoon. she is smiling and wearing a small crown with the words "FRYE OR DIE" next to her. she's also surrounded by sparkles. end id]
#GIRLIES WE HAVE TO KILL. FOR HER#IF SHIVER WINS THIS NEXT FEST I WILL DEVELOP NEW AND UNFORTUNATE MENTAL ILLNESSES.#FRYE FANS!! TEAR AND MAIM#doc talks#my art#eyestrain#splatoon#splatoon 3#splat3#frye#frye onaga#frye splatoon#shiver vs frye vs big man
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Does anyone else play the game of Autism vs Chronic Pain?
Like, yeah, my hips and knees are aching to ALL FUCKING HELL because my window is open and the cold is really fucking with my joints but also, I refuse to shut the window cause the heat is fucking SUFFOCATING and I’d rather freeze to death than be a little bit too warm.
#mental illness vs physical illness is my favourite game to play#it’s really interesting to see who is going to win#usually it’s my mental illness cause I’m very good at ignoring pain :)#autism#chronic illness#chronic pain#mental illness
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ghost fucking soap so hard and so good he passes out but he utterly panics about it
he thinks he must’ve ignored soap asking to stop; was it pain that made him pass out? how bad could it have been to make him pass out when he’s been shot and kept going? should he bring him to medical? he’ll never touch him again, he’ll never so much as look at him again; he’ll ask for a transfer- fuck that, a dishonourable discharge. there’s no coming back from this
he spirals, guilt chasing hatred chasing despair chasing fear, until soap finally wakes back up
soap's still floating, loose-limbed and buzzing; fucked so thoroughly out of his head that it takes him a while to notice ghost isn't in bed with him anymore. he frowns, lifting a heavy head off the pillow and freezes. ghost's on the other side of the room, curled up tight in the corner as far away from soap as he could get without leaving him alone
(he would've left, would've made sure soap never had to see his face again and be reminded of what he did to him, of the monster he’d let into his bed- but he couldn't just leave him unconscious; what if he didn't wake up, he had to make sure he was safe first even if he'll rightfully hate him forever when he does wake up)
soap's voice when he calls out to him makes him flinch, his head burying deeper in his knees. cold worry chases the bliss from his blood and soap pushes himself up but his shaking arms can't hold his weight
the sound of him collapsing back onto the bed makes ghost rear up, his panic growing and soap's heart breaks at his red rimmed eyes
it takes a long time for soap to coax him back to the bed, countless loops of, "sweetheart, please, come here, what happened? it's okay, everything’s going to be okay.”
(and how ghost’s self-hatred grows hearing soap comforting him; hearing the concern and love in his voice when he doesn’t deserve a drop of it)
it takes even longer for ghost to believe soap when he says that he passed out because he felt so good; that he never asked ghost to stop, never wanted him to stop. that he trusts him more than anything and knows he'd rather die than ever hurt him, especially like that
“you’re not a monster, love,” he promises, soft with conviction and it’s as much a surrender as a relief when he collapses into his lap and lets him hold him close
ghost believes johnny but he still can't bring himself to be intimate with him for a while; that fear still haunting him, but soap doesn't hold it against him, doesn't complain about ghost's perceived "step back" in their relationship
hell, ghost seems to hate it more than he does; he misses being with soap, misses the connection, the closeness they shared, the safety and quiet he found in his embrace, but he's always trusted soap more than he trusts himself
soap doesn't let him be consumed by his fear or worse, sabotage them and turn it into a punishment; doesn't let him even get through the suggestion of switching because he knows how much he hates it and he won’t let him twist something as good and pure as their physical love into something self-harming
instead, he brings them back to the basics, working through the steps to get ghost comfortable with intimacy again, to get him to trust himself again; spends happy months just grinding and exchanging handjobs like when their relationship first started
and it's a happy day for them both when soap finally falls apart on his cock once again, anxiety the farthest thing from ghost's mind when his arms are wrapped so tightly around him, kissing a smile against his lips
#i dont want to know what it says about me but i love traumatic misunderstandings?#thing like thinking the other is sh’ing or has an ed or in this case pushed the other beyond their limits#i think its the knowledge that its not true and the love or trust of the souple will win out above the guilt or fear#even less severe ones like thinking the other is mentally ill when they actually time traveled or can see ghosts or whatever#i just really like misunderstandings that have actual weight to them#tw for ghosts comic backstory#but ghost surviving roba and the hell he put him through only to be terrified of being like him? oh that shit Hits#like ghost knows hes fucked up he knows he has trauma and he knows he likes killing people a little too much#but him being scared of that twisting into him becoming like the people that hurt him? very interesting very painful#and him ever thinking that he did that to /johnny/? it would destroy him#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#ghostsoap#soapghost#ghost cod#simon ghost riley#soap cod#john soap mactavish#we’re a team. ghost team#save post#ghoap#call of duty#cod#cod mw2#cod mwii
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Also I spent hours yesterday in the hot sun cleaning out my car from hording/living in car junk mess with trash and food rotting thats been there for months to vacuumed cleaned, scraped gunk from cup holders and got new car seat covers, tapestry, vent decor and more so it's starting to look like a pinterest car and im telling you about it rn because Oh My God My Entire Body Hurts but it looks So Nice
#mentall illness and chronic illness did NOT win yesterday and now my car is NICE#now i have to do my room#not today but at some point#sara shush#personal
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Hey, I was wondering why you think Roxy was destined to end up with Eridan? I get the shared wizard interest and the quirk foreshadowing I guess, but that still seems like a large stretch. It's kinda like saying that Equius and Dirk are going to end up together because they both like robots and horses. It's just seems like the sort of character remixing that Hussie uses a lot in Homestuck. But what do you think?
Roxy
- fucking LOVES WIZARDS
- is a hipster and literally wears a colorswapped version of eridans scarf
- is pink and bubbly
- uses riflekind
- has a perfectly opposite powerset to eridan (can create anything by stealing its void away vs. can destroy anything with pure belief) and are connected to each other through the matriorb
- has a crush on a troubled, eccentric prince so you know that's her type
- quirk cameo with momlonde
Eridan
- Is a wizard
- Is a hipster and literally wears a colorswapped version of roxy's scarf
- Uses riflekind
- Had a huge crush on Feferi, a bubbly pink girl whom he (wrongly) believed to be so nice she might not even be capable of pitch, so we know that's his type
- The equal and opposite powerset & quirk cameo
At the end of the day I can't tell you what to ship, nor am I interested in making anyone ship anything, but I'm kind of just saying, the things that make Roxy predisposed to liking Eridan are, like, the biggest parts of her character, and Eridan is very easy & would pretty much say yes to anybody, but Roxy is also definitely His Type and Eridan is a simp who thrives under any sort of positive attention & would do anything someone asked if they were giving him positive feedback. or attention at all. case in point kanaya fucking hates him but at least she talks to him and he's constantly praising the shit out of her
Jane and Jake also have their introductions IMMEDIATELY followed by talking about how they've got a thing for "cobalt" hunks and "cerulean babes" respectively, so setting up roxy with eridan also fits into a pattern of the b2 kids being set up to date a dead troll. still rereading this part of the comic, but it really jumped out to me how blatant it was for jake and jane
#ship what you want to ship idc but#imo the foreshadowing is pretty blatant#which also fits with eridan because pale erikar was one of the most heavily foreshadowed things in the comic#and imo pitch calliope/eridan was also in the cards though less blatantly#calliope has 'biologically compelled to spades guys that remind her of her brother“ disease (moment of silence)#and eridan has literally been described as a proto-caliborn and also kind of is that#an evil wizard boy obsessed with murder and genocide who has zero social skills#the angel killer and the cherub whose adult form is a snake with wings#the destroyer of hope and the cherub whose adult form features white wings that look like the hope symbol#im just saying they're 50/50 at winning in chess bc theyre that one meme thats like#'my gf who doesnt know how shes losing' 'me whos eating the pieces when she isnt looking'#'BELIEVING IN YOUR PIECES IS NOT A VIABLE CHESS STRATEGY!!!!' like can you imagine#it'd be so goddamn funny if theres anyone capable of hating calliope itd be eridan#eridan (idiot) (mentally ill) (zero social skills) (derogatory)#erirox#eriroxy
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🎂happy blogaversary!!🎂
EVERY ONE OF MY HUA CHENGS I COULD FIND IN PROCREATE :)
#nov 28 was my first post on here .. katya goncharova fanart#(2022)#mental illness is a powerful thing#look at himmmmm. my guy. i throw him in the washing machine on low. i give him little treats. i take him to the dog show and win a ribbon#the cunty gay goth living through the nature of romantic and religious devotion that hit my psyche like a truck#heres to another year of whatever the hell i want to draw!!#thank u for the kind words and attention :)#there are probably a roughly equivalent amount of xie lians. but slightly less#he is not the guy i themed 4 social media accts after though.#art#my art#tgcf#tian guan ci fu#hua cheng#mxtx#hualian#hob#heaven official's blessing fanart#heaven official’s blessing#tgcf fanart#not art
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btw this is probably one of the most insane and telling scenes in regards to stewy nd kendall. like the stewy-marcia interaction first off. the way it’s so clearly paralleling kenstewy with logan and marcia. stewy and marcia literally watch their respective persons in silence. also important to note that stewy was one of the first ppl to greet logan when he arrived probably bc he knew that one of the first things logan was going to do was approach kendall and he wanted to get in there first to gauge the situation + logan. but stewy’s concern for kendall in regards to what could happen when he’s in close proximity to logan is so clear and almost synonymous with marcia’s own concern/love for logan at this point. like it seems intentional that they were shown to be like. logan and kendall’s respective partners here
#kenstewy#succession#stewy hosseini#stewy/marcia interaction just in general is insane. like she greeted him with such warmth. you can tell she genuinely fucking likes him.#like that’s soooooo . us brown ppl always win btw !#but also it’s like. the loganmarcia kenstewy parallels you could make…#marcia was the only one to completely understand and unequivocally love logan while knowing exactly who he was and what’s he done. and she#supported him stuck by him etc until he betrayed her#like he grew careless of her and took her for granted. and does that sound familiar? like that happened to my guys kendall and stewy. insane#ALSO throughout this scene you see stewy greet logan and marcia -> watch kendall talk to logan -> see him walking kind of fast in some#direction until caroline approaches him (and even then he doesn’t chat for long at all) -> then finally he finds kendall and sits down to#talk to him. like throughout this whole scene he’s just following kendall around😵💫 like it’s literally a party and he’s like. running after#kendall the whole time. and when he sits down he’s like. hey heard you talked to your dad lol. like he wasn’t 8 feet away watching kendall#intently stood next to marcia while it was happening. like that’s super insane#kind of unrelated but not really but stewy has the worst case of anxiety i’ve ever seen like he’s sooo anxious. he’s mentally ill fr and#i love him with all my heart#stewy#kennystewy#p
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Been thinking lately. And I want people's opinions on this.
I'm kind of tired writing reader's body to be as neutral as possible. Kind of really tired trying to make reader as neutral as possible to be honest. It used to be something that I kind of prided myself on but nowadays, I'm just so tired of it. And I know that many would argue that that is the point of reader inserts, to be neutral but I am so bored of it. I've been writing for chubby reader a lot more lately and it's the most fun I've had in a while because I get to represent my body type. I am kind of tired of seeing people writing headcannons for my favourite characters and saying that they don't like my body type. I'm tired of seeing people draw "chubby" characters and they have the bare minimum tummy fat. And I get it, write and draw whatever the fuck you want, who am I to stop you? I suffer severely from "everyone else is allowed to do it, but me" syndrome. Other people are allowed to write just for chubby reader, but not me I can't do that I would be seen as an asshole for not including everyone.
I want to write more x chubby reader content but I'm terrified of people coming to shame me and give me flak because I follow x chubby reader writers and the amount of shit they get for writing for a body type other than skinny is so disheartening. I have briefly thought about making a separate blog where I just put chubby reader content there but that wouldn't make me happy. I love my username and everything goes under this umbrella, including multiple fandoms.
I'm sorry if I just rambled I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm lost and feeling really depressed lately and I have no idea what I want to do anymore. I would like to hear people's opinions please, it's upsetting when I ask for others opinions and I get nothing back.
#ramblings#rant#ahhh i dont know what to do#why is everything so hard?#urgghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#this all happened because i wrote my kafka x chubby reader#and im so proud of it#but then i got depressed because why cant o just write this type of thing all the time?#TT^TT#im a potent concotion of mental illnesses and they are currently winning
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Feeling so insane right now ohh my god-
THEM
( @maken-cheezy might not hear the end of this, this show is so good you got to trust me bestie please join me in my Sandman brainrot 🙏🏻)
#the sandman#the sandman netflix#the sandman season 2#dream of the endless#death of the endless#desire of the endless#despair of the endless#IM SO NORMAL (IM EXTREMELY MENTALLY ILL)#THEY ARE ALL SLAYING???#BUT ALSO OH MY GOD NEW MASON/DESIRE CONTENT??? IM WINNING??? LIKE HELLO???#WHY ARE ALL OF THEM ACTUALLY SLAYING SO HARD THO-
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need me a fem! skk ballet and/or figure skater au so bad yall dont understand
#my mental illness is hitting and i think this will cure it#been spinning it in my head#imagine fem!chuuya in these beautiful outfits doing jumps and spins and being all graceful in the air IMAGINE it rn this is a threat#and my fav girl failure dazai being like :OOO n thinking thats my future wife up there !!#or dance duo skk grrrgrrrr#n the way the public catches on that there is something going on is bc when one wins first place they run straight to the other to#give them the medal or trophy#and ofc they r like 'just so u know who is better' and they they make out in the changing rooms#broooooooo i need i need this so bad#figure skater fem!skk au call that shit yuri on ice#... wait a second#bsd#skk#fem!skk#pebbles (me) ramblers#i need this so badly 😭😭😭#honestly wasnt uuuuh the other side of paradise (?) chuuya a dancer ?? gotta check#gotta finish the fic actually#o7 mission received me im going
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It was... weird, having all these animals being near their home. Brightbill wasn’t really sure what to think when he heard almost the entire forest stayed in their house during a winter storm- which he is fascinated that everyone managed to fit but Roz has always been good at figuring stuff like that out- but he really isn’t sure how to feel right now. All the other animals usually kept a large berth away from this place and them, barring Pinktail and her kids and sometimes Paddler. Brightbill feels like he should be more grateful that everyone cares about Roz so much now that they’re willing to help rebuild his home and he knows he should be happy because the other animals like them now but... But Roz was leaving for who knows how long soon. So he wasn’t sure how to feel about anything anymore.
#AKA: what happens when you let the intrusive thoughts win#it's my mental illness and i will treat it any way i want#the wild robot#my writing#brightbill#rozzum unit 7134#roz the wild robot#fink the fox#I Want to Go Back (And Ignore the Future Calling Our Names)
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Reconnecting with nature after going into a full mental breakdown over billford
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HAPPY 2ND RAEDA-VERSARY EVERYBODY!!
TWO YEARS AGO TODAY, RAEDA AND RAINE WHISPERS BLESSED OUR LIVES!! HALLE FUCKING LUJAH!!
SPINNING THIS EPISODE AROUND IN MY HEAD LIKE A MICROWAVE BECAUSE IT IS ONE OF THE BEST THE DUET WILL FOREVER BE BEAUTIFUL AND ICONIC AND JUST- EVERYTHING ABOUT IT GIVES ME A MENTAL ILLNESS!!
HAPPY RAEDAVERSARY 2023!!
#toh#the owl house#toh season two#raine whispers#raine whispers my beloved#raeda#raeda my beloved#spinning everything around in my head#the mental illness is winning#WOOOOOOOOOO!!!#screaming crying throwing up#scratching at the walls
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when work makes you wanna off yourself
#corto maltese#my coworkers seemed in awe of both my art skills and my mental illness#winning at this working at a grocery store thing one mental breakdown at a time#(the clapping is them kissing if that wasnt clear)
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pink/black dividers by : @dollywons 🩷
#asks open#send asks#academic validation#pink everything#girlblogging#im just a girl#this is a girlblog#princesscore#princess life#it’s my world#spoiled#obsessive love#actually npd#bpd vent#actually bpd#bpd problems#actually mentally ill#actually borderline#they hate to see a girlboss winning#body dysmorphic disorder#just a girlblog#elder emo#grunge girl#pink gore#shitpost#bleach anime#anime weeb#watching anime#in love with a fictional character#jjk fandom
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