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onequeermushroom · 7 months

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i hate it when people tell me i just need to exercise more. like bitch, i do two fucking sports. i go to practice (depending on the day 2 or 3 or 3 1/2 hours) three days a week, plus matches on the weekends. i do more than most people my age. i have better stamina than most asthmatic people and also than a lot of non asthmatic people. but i'm still fucking disabled. this isn't a matter of me just needing to exercise more and build up stamina, i have a literal fucking disability! than i'm going to have to live with for the rest of my life! there's only so much i can do, i can't just fucking exercise it away

#it fucking pisses me of when people (my dad) say that shit #like it's my fucking fault i can't breathe #my lungs suck at being lungs

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months

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#ill b real. hanahaki makes me mad bc im like bro u cannot fit a flower that big in ur lung without it being a HUGE fucking problem #like what the fuck do u mean its coming up with stems????? this doesnt make physical sense #flowers would have to b teeny tiny like when ppl get fungal infections in their lungs #anyway. sorry this sucks. i didnt realize my light blue pen was fucked when i started coloring #naruto #kkir #kakairu #umino iruka #hatake kakashi #tw blood

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dark-side-blog3 · 10 months

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Live action buggy this, impel down buggy that, yandere buggy fics left and right,

BUT THE TRULY OBSESSIVE SADISTIC CLOWN ONLY GETS CRICKETS?!

Injustice. Look at him. He’s disgusting. He’s horrendous. He has canonically an island full of unethical human experiments, and gets the child-prisoners addicted to his heroin so if they ever leave they suffer extreme withdrawal.

My guys: if anyone that has “clown” in their name in one piece was gonna get obsessed with someone he’s seen maybe in passing to the point of kidnapping them and never letting them out of his sight and developing romantic feelings along the way, it’s gonna be Caesar.

New fans from the live action you’ve GOTTA get to the Punk Hazard arc, please I beg you, there’s such good yan potential.

#no hate to the buggy fics #the answer to there not being a fic you like is NEVER that there should be less fics #it should be MAKE the fic you want/get someone else to do it #but where my Caesar fics at… Where’s the modern day au where he puts nicotine patches on you while you sleep so you get withdrawal #whenever he’s not there #where’s the clicker training fics where Caesar clicks a pen when you do something good and gives you a special fizzy candy #where’s him being a little creep that sucks the air out of your lungs literally #yandere caesar clown #yandere one piece

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todayisafridaynight · 3 months

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THIS IS GONNA SOUND SO MEAN BUT WHY DO U LIKE RYO AOKI/MASATO

masato hot

#snap chats #just like me... heh ... my ac has been broken all month im melting for the love of god send an iceberg im begging you #him turning into aoki is incredibly funny to me like jesus christ. what a lack of self love does to a mfer #but anyway 1.) please do not yell i scare easy 2.) meaner has been said its ok 3.) very reasonable to ask why anyone would like aoki #and 4.) to be Cereal he's inch resting to me. also his speech to ichi at the end hit a lil close and i was reminded of high school #5.) i really like his eng dub voice sorry im american. BUT HIS JP VOICE IS EXCELLENT TOO IM JUST SAYIN #rgg doesnt give an Exact on his disability so looking into lung diseases/conditions has also been interesting #esp post-lung surgery cases and care too so i thank rgg for the opportunity to do some reading #i also do In General just like cases of someone wanting to be loved and changing drastically to get it only to still be unhappy #granted. he sucks so LMAO can only have so much sympathy but it's still interesting to watch #the arakawas is also a part of why i like him because they all work as a big machine. if that makes sense #like the arakawas in general are such an interesting bundle i love all of them a lot because of what they mean to each other #in the case of aoki none of them mean anything to him at most resenting arakawa and despising ichi #meanwhile sawashiro's just. There LOL im so sorry king thats the truth of it all ... i love you tho ...#oh but back to aoki. i also really like politican characters- or at least characters who can have a 'public' persona #its fun thinking about what they have to do mentally to present themselves in public versus when they can 'be themselves'#like aoki's 'intro' scene where he's pleasant to his secretary and then a second later is conniving with ogasawara... peak i fear #OR THEEEE CAR PARK ONE i love that scene so much ...#very fun.. aoki being a politician just makes it infinitely funnier like guys we gotta bully the governor #plus i live and breathe by a glass analysis/comparison a twitter mutual of mine did ... i love glass imagery .......#uhhhh is that all ... idk prob im literally sweating my skin off i cant think right. my clothes are sticking to my skin i hate summer #i dont hate summer im so sorry i didnt mean it .... summer is beautiful .. i just wish this heat wasnt murdering me

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coco-kitty-cl · 27 days

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It appears I have fallen lil

I might not post in a bit bc of it sadly Σ（ﾟдﾟlll）

I SORGY

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general-sleepy · 2 months

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Looks like my loser liver is staying intact. I have two small lesions on my liver--which is not as scary as it sounds! They're called hemangiomas and are basically clumps of blood vessels. As it is, considering that I have no symptoms and am otherwise in good health, they're nothing for me to be worried about.

But, at the same time, it's not a good idea to go cutting around them. And it also doesn't make my liver the best choice for the recipient.

Next step is to start the process of kidney donation. Which I'm cautiously optimistic about, because the scans didn't find anything wrong with those guys. I guess, in one way, it's selfishly good news, because kidney donation is significantly safer, but it's still a huge bummer. Ah, well. I'll just have to thinking about kidney puns instead of liver puns.

#the organ trail #what's a girl gotta do to get someone to carve out her organs?#silver lining #i got a bunch of testing that i never would have gotten otherwise at my age #and it's not bad to have confirmation that that my heart and lungs are completely normal #and my liver is functioning fine #(i'll have to get them checked in a year #because there's a *small* chance that they could grow and *if* they grow #there's a *small* chance they could cause problems #and even then the treatment is simple)#getting even more tmi #i found out i have to get a mammogram because the mri found something #which again is almost certainly nothing to be worried about #and that on one hand sucks #but it's way better than it being there and me not knowing it

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eggsistential-basket · 2 months

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how it feels getting trapped in a sleep paralysis/false awakening loop for 40 minutes while trying to take a nap right before having to make a phone call

#this made less and less sense the more i worked on it and the more the memory faded #didn't see a demon or anything (couldn't open my eyes) but hallucinated for the first time ever someone?#presumed it was my friend or sibling or something someone who could feasibly get in my room #poking me in the ribs bc they thought it was funny (it was not)#was going to try to find an emoji or one of those meme faces but i don't think it would have worked as well #so hurrah first my art im posting exclusively to this blog #literally the ONLY thing in one of the loops that indicated it being a dream was where in the previous loop i moved my water bottle #and it was in the same place that i moved it into the previous loop #the fuckiest thing was i was trying to take deep breaths to not panic but i couldn't control my lungs or airways or anything #so it was a lot like when you surface from water and there's that vacuum and you try to suck in air #but there's nothing there so there's that massive disconnect of what you expect to what you feel and ofc that makes it worse #but also when i was trying to exhale and my body (on autopilot) was inhaling #that phone call went surprisingly well considering i was like only 40% sure it was even real #i'm like still only 60% this is real some of those loops were scarily realistic #yikes #i uh don't like this feeling #i really didn't like that #sleep paralysis #false awakening loop #eggsistential draws #my art #eggsistential speaks #tag rant

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tea-earl-grey · 11 months

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every time I get an asthma attack from existing in an indoor public place because someone is smoking they should have to pay for the $75 of asthma meds I take every month.

(disclaimer – I fully support the decriminalization and legalization of marijuana. i just also support the right for people with respiratory disabilities and sensitivities to exist)

#personal #vent #im on a FUCKING TRAIN. while im WEARING A MASK #its so easy to NOT SMOKE ON A TRAIN #im fine but my lungs are just gonna be uncomfy for the next two and a half hours.#if its outside its fine i can just move even if im annoyed #but whyyyyyy do so many people think its okay to smoke inside all of a sudden????#if you need to smoke weed for anxiety i get it bro. but there are options that dont involve putting people at actual medical risk #i had someone tell me it wasnt a big deal once and i got to pull the “i have medically recorded lung damage from covid” card #anyways if youre a smoker cool but please be nice to people with respiratory disabilities. having asthma attacks suck.#i like being in cities but ive learned with how bad my asthma is i just usually have to leave my mask on while im walking around #which is a good practice regardless #i just wish i didnt HAVE to just because of The Smoke and Smells #and btw YES weed smell and smoke can trigger asthma attacks just as much as cigarette smoke!!!!! if not more so for me #same with strong perfumes and stuff #my posts

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taters169 · 5 months

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Went for a swim in the sea today, first one of the year cos the weather's been shite.

Absolutely freezing but worth it it's amazing 🥶

#went with my best mate who ive not seen properly in ages #well i saw her last week but that was her nans funeral it doesnt count #finally told her about my dads lung cancer #then she told me about her husband's gambling problem #we'd both avoided trauma dumping on the other cos didnt want to be a burden #then told each other off for doing so 😅#being a grown up really sucks sometimes

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weepylucifer · 2 years

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“Harry is the next Innocence” is GREAT, and has so much potential, and is even plausible, but i like THIS - i say, gesturing to my bizarre crack AU where it’s Kim

#he's just in deep deep denial. and/or in hiding #more of my disco elysium impressions #his whole ''i am just a normal man; i don't believe in weird shit'' is his desperate attempt to hide what he is #sometimes his hands glow like dolores dei's lungs and instead of unpacking that in any way he said well it's gloves forever #the halo is very real (in a way harry can see it) but harry just assumes he's hallucinating it #there is so much wrong with his brain! who's to say!#eventually harry figures it out bc of course he does. but no one he tells about it believes him #he'll be like ''kim's the next innocence!'' and people will go ''aww that's sweet'' or ''just suck his cock like a normal person shitkid''#kim: ''detective check it out'' *levitates*#harry: ''WOAH why are you doing this right now?!?''#kim: ''because no one will ever believe you >:)''#he does it behind people's backs where only harry can see and when they turn around he's standing there being normal #harry is suffering #posts by me

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onequeermushroom · 7 months

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ah yes, spring is here, everything is blooming, and the next 6-8 months are going to be literal fucking hell. goodbye oxygen, see you next winter!

#i fucking hate having asthma #and pollen allergies #i wish i had a functioning pair of lungs #my lungs suck at being lungs

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satellite-blossom · 8 months

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Today I learned that I'm chronically ill and that my whole ass family already knew that. ✌️😭

#I didn't know asthma was a chronic illness ✌️😭#I thought it was just some mid ass thing especially in my case #I kinda assumed it had tiers with ones that were more ❝serious❞ than others #and I thought I'd always be in the ❝mid as fuck low intensity not important❞ category #I saw the lung doctor today and he was like ❝Oh yeah you should enter this program to learn how to live with this chronic illness❞#And I wanted to cry because damn I had just learned I was chronically ill #I wasn't sad I was just like : Wow it is serious and I can get help #For years I thought I was being overdramatic because I had the ❝silly stupid❞ version of asthma #And when it got worse I just thought ❝that's weird. Doctors will only care about it for a month though❞#I thought people wouldn't take me seriously because I didn't take my asthma seriously myself #I thought I could just suck it up & that I was hypochondriac or something #But no I'm actually ill #In a way I'm relieved #Relieved to finally know what's going on & relieved to know I'll get proper help for it #berry rambles

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caffeinatedopossum · 2 years

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I can't believe I survived the worst days of my life and I still can't help but return to that place everytime I close my eyes. It's not the same exact place, it's just the same place from a new vantage point. But it still leaves me with this sense of longing- not to go back but to finally leave

#why am i here again in this house with no lights on #in this chill that sucks the breath out of my lungs. in the freezing cold that makes my head ache and steals my consciousness #why am i in this car with my mom going somewhere i cant leave. with cardboard boxes full of my debts and a vengeful ghost under the seats #why am i here. why am i crying. why can i feel it all happening again #i just want to be here in the life i have now where i have a girlfriend that loves me and a place where ill never have to be cold or hungry #i want to experience it and appreciate it. but im being pulled back in time #why does remembering hurt so much

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confier-boyfriend · 10 months

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You know it’s bad when I start getting pissed and envious at other trans and queer people just existing.

#screaming into the void and the void enters my lungs and consumes my entire being from the inside so I just suck the life out of everyone #around me.#they’re not even doing anything. they’re just passing me or being happy or making trans jokes and I immediately want to never see them again #they’re nice people and people I would normally want to be friends with. but right now I want to murder them #zenith vents

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dredshirtroberts · 6 months

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hey. hey universe. hey fucker universe.

no one said you could bring back the Wednesday Curse, bitch. fuck off with this shit i didn't need any of this first thing today.

#the Wednesday Curse is related to a span of about... almost 10 years of every single wednesday having something major go wrong #''major'' is a strong word but it would always feel big and afterwards would be when i would notice it was wednesday #it was a lot and i got very tired of it very quickly but it eventually stopped and i stopped noticing wednesdays #because they stopped being bad every single week #i would wake up on a wednesday bracing for whatever terrible news i would learn or whatever horrible thing would happen inevitably #and i stopped having to do that #my dreams lately have been absolutely horrific and last nights/this mornings was.... worse than usual in a way i wasn't anticipating that's #made me very very worried about a dear friend i can't easily reach out to and i'm doing my best at waiting patiently for a response #but it's hard and then the tire on the car exploded *again* so we're scrambling to figure out how to fix that and we've got a plan #and at least 3 butches on the job and it's going to be okay in the end but i have extreme car anxiety and tires going out is one of the mai #triggers for that and i'm just #i'm also still dealing with the tail end (hopefully) of an upper respiratory infection which makes all the crying i keep doing difficult #because i keep needing to hack my lungs out because breathing sucks rn even though i've had all my meds for it #and i'm just... it's just... anyway #i'm having a rough morning #but i am surrounded by people who are very lovely and care a lot and are willing and able to help with whatever they can #and that's helped a lot and it's just... i know i gotta wait patiently for resolution on things and i'm gonna do my best #to calm myself down and try to be less anxious but i'm only able to do that because of the love that surrounds me and it's a lot #it's all a lot and idk man #the spectre of my dad is doing his best to ruin it but he doesn't exist here in this space it's just a bad memory and no one is at fault

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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Nooo the trans allegory is also a Big one for me in that song, but I know not everybody is about Trans Aoki so I figured it went well with his disabilities regardless. And like yeah blah blah basic whatever, idc y'know, I'm here to enjoy life so imma listen to music people don't like 😂🤣

But you're so real for the trans Aoki thoughts okay.... I love both cis and trans interpretations of the Boy bc he's fits very well in both categories. It's all just spice y'know!! You sprinkle some of this... Some of that... And tomorrow you make a new dish! Love moving head canons around for funsies

Anyway ty for validating my music choices 🫡 good luck charging your phone

i dont really hc charas any particular sexuality or gender since i always feel weird about it its called being BORING its what I AM but its the way i was playin y7 and just kept jokin bout it every time the game gave me a chance until the very last scene then i was just like.. hm... feels less like a joke to me now... its just what my eyes perceive at this point.. sorry...

but i got you covered with music choices man !!!! i like most music even if it can be considered 'overplayed' or 'generic' like idk man... if it makea me feel ima listen to it..

#snap chats #love how i forgot the Eyes lyrics to Body when it's deadass the first line.. STUPID ASS !!!!!!!#but anyways. yeah it been a hot year since i talked bout trans aoki LMAO #honestly if it wasnt for the fact i saw korean artists draw aoki with top scars (and specifying they were TS scars) then id prob just like #be quiet about it. cause most of the time i was just jokin like the whole injections bit and his voice being hoarse in eng #and nasally in jp... lol.... the jokes were being lined up for me... and then he went and changed his name #and got surgery that made him feel more at home in his body... LIKE THEY PROVIDE NON-TRANS REASONS WHY HE DOES THIS #I KNOW but thats why i just kept /jokin/ bout it cause i was like 'lmao' yk. Lmao congrats your accidental trans rep is republican #AND THAT'S WHY IT'S FUNNY TO HC HIM AS TRANS CAUSE HE SUCKS !!!!! i want more shitty people as trans rep #im p sure im the only one who 'openly' hcs him trans but not even. like i remember twitter was Allegedly mad at me for drawing aoki a lot #and they made a point bout me makin him trans but like... i never even 'publicly' made him trans..#when i'd draw aoki without a shirt i'd give him scars but those were from his lung surgery.. lmao...#not my fault the scars look Like That... cause i like drawing scars leave me alone...#my DB followers know i was obsessed with drawing yamcha's leg scar from when his leg was broken #Truly just a coincidence but also not cause it Was lowkey intentional but anyways.. lol...#i remember the period where people were askin me bout the hc.. hehe...#My Apologies for going on the Trans Aoki rant i still do very much like to joke bout it with myself.... it was too real to me...#every time i think of The Specifics i start to get like 👁️👁️ because then it gets too real so i gotta stop before i start crying....#it's not that the HC is personal or deep to me or anything it's just funny <- in denial for the bit #anyway.. i havent been able to be productive all day so !! time to start i have a really hectic week and its only getting worse (╯▽╰ )#thanks for letting me ramble... and feel validated for being delulu...#lowkey funny that While True you said not everyone's about the HC Which Is True it's why i dont talk about it a lot #but like... Not To Be Presumptuous And Self-Important but i do remember being one o the first people to bring it up with other aoki fans..#imagine me not being abot my own hc.. or at least one i stand heavily by... lmao..

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