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I'm having such a terrible gender time right now jfc
#im more confused than i ever have been tbh#and i want help but dont know where to go??#like. im nervous about detrans forums because of transphobia but idk where else to figure out what stopping hrt will be like#and how to decide where i feel about top surgery#because i can schedule it any day now tbh but im scared#i dont want a fully flat chest#so im like. is it possible for me to get more comfortable with my chest as is? rather than doing a whole thing i dont need to#ive been considering reduction for a while but im still scared#its honestly also reconciling my trauma and identity alteration with my gender#and where im going#also some shit my gf said recently has also got me in a whole tailspin about a lot of shit#but especially gender
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Gender isn't stored in the pronouns!
#text post#genderqueer#posting this not because it's making me go crazy or because I've been really bothered tbh#it's just a friend (?) of mine was REALLY confused after i said so#like buddy pal i love you but you CANNOT say “idk anything about those LGBTQs” when last time i checked you're asexual!#sure it's not gender but it's still part of the LGBTQ community!!! just do the bare minimum research instead of making yourself sound dumb#gender isn't stored in words!! they can indicate it! but they don't equal it!!! and gender is a spectrum!! so your choices for gender#aren't “she/her he/him they/them and neo pronouns” YOUR GENDER IS WHATEVER YOU WANT IT TO BE! YOU WANT TO BE A WALKING TALKING PLANT? NEAT-#-NOT MY PLACE TO QUESTION SO YOU DO YOU I WILL RESPECT YOUR CHOICE#rant post#rant#personal rant#gender
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is passing a win for my safety and security? yes. is passing also a fat L for how people view and treat me in the world when it comes to making friendships with women/femmes? yes! like literally i'm one of the gworls. LET ME HANG OUT LET ME IN!!!
#it's like the weirdest gender dysphoria because like#yeah i'm binary. yeah i'm a guy. but like i don't identify with cis maleness. being trans is part of my manhood#and when people don't realize the depth of my understanding and intimacy with femininity and being a girl like#it takes away from who i am as a person. being raised as and treated like a girl is part of my perspective on life#i don't even know how to rectify this internally. i want to but i am so confused man#i'd do well in the drag scene like genuinely tbh it makes sense for me#anyway#cían's ted talks
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okay, but dealing with depression and anxiety from a young age completely rots your brain and tricks you into thinking/believing things about yourself that simply aren’t true. for example: i spent literal YEARS thinking i was the ugliest motherfucker alive, like my face was FUCKED. and now, i’m in my twenties and i’m like, bruh you are the most normal looking guy ever
#me spending my teenage years dating girls and thinking they couldn’t possibly ACTUALLY find me attractive in any way#like it must be pity or something?#nah they genuinely thought you were pretty/hot etc#like you should have believed them but like i get why you didn’t bc your brain was tricking you and that’s not your fault#genuinely can’t describe what i thought i looked like tbh#like i thought my face/body was wrong™️#like yeah normal puberty shit#but also depression/anxiety and gender confusion played a part#like i would look at other girls and think there was something deeply wrong with me because i didn’t look like them (pretty)#but like i know for a fact that those same girls felt as wrong as i did#like brains will completely fuck you over and it’s the WORST#but then you get to a place where you’re like kinda okay?#like i’m still unlearning a lot of that old shit but being able to actually look at myself in the mirror and not feel gross is progress!#like obviously i still have days where i don’t feel attractive but like that’s so normal#no one feels good 100% of the time#either about themselves or in general#i’m not the outlier#even tho i spent half my life thinking i was#also i’ve found that the most beautiful people in the world tend to not believe that#like the outwardly beautiful people who KNOW it don’t tend to feel bad about themselves in quite the same way? ya know?#genuinely have known some of the most beautiful amazing people who don’t believe it about themselves and it’s so bizarre to me#and like okay vaguely hypocritical but imao we know this#i will always make other people know they’re beautiful and i love them before myself and i always have#but again i’m working on that#working on trying to do both#loving my friends and reminding them they’re beautiful bc they are#and also learning to not be so hard on myself#anyways idk random thought i’ve had lately#gwen rambles#gwenposting
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lmao i never came out to my siblings about being nb (and questioning more) but the gender euphoria of my sister calling me 'boy' did a number to my brain
#shes just saying phrases but im like ITS ME!!!! IM BOY!!!!!! YAAAAAAY#gender tag#snow speaks#my sisters wouldnt mind tbh but my ass is just too lazy to bother explaining#u either get it or dont pretty much dnfdnndnd#like i figure im probably more genderfluid? but i am also too lazy to bother with labels i am whatever i want to be blahblah#i also just dont put in any effort to look androgynous or more male#i just Am and that might be confusing and i dont have the energy nor time to bother with explaining lmao#its that and also being in a household thats MOSTLY girls save for my dad definitely puts my brain funky on how i feel about my gender aldk#but anyways.
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i hate coming out so much
#maybe i shouldn't have.#maybe i should have just left it ambiguous forever#i got excited :(#but i just... i don't like feeling like i'm Different Now#if that makes sense?#i have so little self-confidence that i work myself into a panic over how my friends perceive me. lol#like 70% of me wants to crawl back in the closet again lmfao#one of my friends is trying out he/him pronouns for me tho and tbh when he referred to me as he randomly today it felt really good#like weird. weird as fuck. but good#gender is so. fuck.#it's. i'm. like i feel like this is right. it's always been right#there's not even euphoria as much as... just... yeah. yeah that's right#relief maybe. but mostly it's unremarkable. normal. it's right#i don't want people making jokes and shit about it because i just want it to be normal#trying to figure out how i feel about this because i snapped at one of my friends earlier for trying to start Jokes#this is rambling as fuck. im just sitting here crying :)#lots of really confusing and conflicting emotions about coming out#muffinrag blabs
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Sometimes I feel like I look more mask with my long hair, idk, I’m standing here looking at my 5’3”, shoulder length haired, tits clearly visible (under my gay ass button-up) ass in the mirror and I’m like, “yeah no I don’t see it, it’s not giving woman, idk why every stranger and most acquaintances misgender me all the time” 💀
#it’s real delusion hours ✌️#I know I don’t look like a guy but I definitely don’t look like a girl#I feel like people should at least be a little more confused about my gender#throw me some “just to be safe” they/thems#ahdkdhakfjs#could be the voice#oh well- doesn’t really bother me much rn tbh#gender
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just remembered that when I was like. 12. I asked my mom why lesbians couldn't become men and then peg gay men who had become women. invented t4t in elementary school.
#shut up az#baby me did not understand gender my mom had to explain it to me like 400 times#I didn't know what being gay was for a long time bc I was like just change ur gender and then you'll be straight? skill issue#And then immediately after it clicked I was like oh God damn it. I like women. And I'm not a guy......... I'm gonna repress that shit#had like 400 dreams about being a dude until I finally stopped repressing it on purpose#and now I'm a nonbinary lesbian bc tbh gender is still confusing#edit: I just remembered I found out what trans ppl were when I was like 9 bc someone said a slur on project runway and I was so confused#not bc my mom wasn't explaining it right but because the idea of gender and sexuality being different was killing me#as someone who has said that lesbian is my gender before. you can see why I was struggling.
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#late night spiral please ignore#i regret going on T augh#tbh all i wanted was top surgery and a name change#but with how fuckin confusing this country is with Healthcare and stuff#i was under the impression that being on T would help my case#plus we don't have gender therapists around here#so not an option even though that would have saved me a lot of distress#anyway I'm crying again cause i want my voice back and my hair back and i want this scraggly beard gone#god I'm dumb#still he/him like thst part hasn't changed#Been holding this in for months#probably gonna stop taking T for a while
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being my father's female son is hard work but someone has to do it 🫡
#gadanie żaby#in my 'my gender? i'm a mechanic' era#more like murarz tynkarz akrobata era tbh#doing home improvement shit is so fun bc now when he yells at me i can yell right back like what's he gonna do#also with my short hair i do look like a 14 yo boy so that's also adding to my general gender confusion swag#that's why i'm here less and less bc i've been doing shit like switching fridge doors and priming walls for paint
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I think I’m distancing myself from my trauma cause it makes it easier to process if it happened to not-me than if it happened to me
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The abuse happened to Mina, a transmasc pan dude who hated being afab
I’m CQ, a nonbinary ace-lesbian(?) who’s happy with their body and willing to embrace being afab
We’re so obviously two different ppl
Yknow?
#I bring up the gender thing cause my ex liked keeping me in a bubble of being transmasc and only transmasc#no questioning allowed#now that I’m out of her grasp I’m allowed to question who I am without worrying I’ll hurt her in the process#I’m allowed to question if I’m ace and lesbian or not#I’m allowed to be confused about my gender#and that’s freeing tbh#like yeah I’ll hate not having the security of having a label#but I’m better off without them I think#idk if any of this makes sense#oh well#cq.vent.exe#vent
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Does anyone else look back and realize that one of your childhood invisible friends had some really weird gender stuff going on that you never thought to examine at the time?
Like I had a whole superhero universe and the main villain, T-who, was... I don't even know. I used he/him to refer to him, but thinking of him as a man feels so weird to me now, and the way I pictured him, his gender was similar to Princess Lily, the main hero, who was Very Definitely A Girl. (His real name, Tom Jack, was like the first two random guy names I could come up with- and the whole thing was a Voldemort ripoff because 'if you say his real name he will send his wolves after you'- not even getting into the fact that my younger brother proceeded to rip off my ripoff by creating an entire supervillain society of alphabet people named A-who, B-who, etc. It was a whole thing.)
But anyways yeah I don't know what was going on with the gender stuff.
#tbh the way I saw gender as a little kid was an absolute mess#like I specifically remember my favorite color being green and my least favorite being pink#and one day my older brother told me that girls like pink#and I just kind of decided that now pink was my favorite color and green was my least favorite?#and I would always sing a little song to myself that went 'I wish I was a boy'#and I remember having a whole list of reasons why being a boy would be better but I can't remember what any of them were#except for 'boys have short hair so it wouldn't get tangled in the trees when I'm climbing#but like nowadays the idea of being a man produces a visceral 'oh hell no' reaction#like I have done the gender questioning and am literally cis#but I still get weird gender moments from like getting my stuff labeled as guy stuff or something#Like maybe you could describe it as being a girl who is a guy#or is that just called being butch#which is even more confusing because now I am VERY attached to my long hair#for dragon reasons rather than gender reasons#because to add some extra layers to this- I experience dysphoria of a non-gender variety!#where was I going with this
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I need more GNC OCs I think
#the thing about me making OCs is that I forget gender is a thing at least half the time?#I still don't know what gender Nerium is other than 'fucked up creechur' but tbh that's all they need#but yeah basically 90% of my OCs are technically GNC in some way#I just don't know if it counts if it's just 'this guy character wears dresses sometimes'#or 'this (mostly) girl character's wardrobe is mostly shitty men's hoodies and suits for when she needs to be ~fancy~'#Is Veni GNC for wearing mostly pastel colours and especially pink?#Is Axciss GNC for wearing his mohri in a feminine way half the time and wearing dresses sometimes?#Is Raorin GNC or is he just a flamboyant gay guy who accessorises a lot and has culturally-significant long hair?#Is Caroline GNC for wearing mostly men's hoodies/suits and being muscly?#Is Rinnae GNC then???????? Is fucking Protazy GNC???????#Man I don't know!! I don't know what gender is!!!#I'm making it up as I go along and honestly there's probably art of at least 90% of my OCs that I could call 'GNC' in some way#gender presentation is something I don't really get! What is the 'line' here!!#I see people calling all sorts of stuff GNC and man I'm a little confused#I guess I'm too autistic for this or sth idk#I only 'get it' when it's extremely obvious#anyways everyone should be GNC as fuck because fuck gender roles and fuck assigning gender to items of clothing#or just........ traits that people have#or hairstyles dear GOD
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my gender crisis is hopefully over until next week
#im probably genderfluid cuz my gender just keeps flipping around#and i get so confused a lot of the time#but for now i think im ok cuz i worked out that#i can be femme presenting#and still be nonbinary#it takes me so long to work out things (in all areas( idk why#im just really stupid#but i liked femininity#but not being a woman#and i dont have to be so its cool#i also have a mock exam today#like in half an hour actually#im going to do badly#like i do in every mock#because surprise surprise i never fucking study#i cant#i just zone out and get bored and then do badly#i hate myself man#tbh its probably innatentive adhd#but ive never been diagnosed and never will#and idek if i have it#so it just feels like im making excuses for myself#to cover up the fact that im genuinely lazy and stupid#but whatever#red meows
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i know i’m super active on here rn but i feel like this is my home my safe space
not expressing my gender through clothes is getting to me. being fat and agender is hard, i’ve been trying really hard to respect myself more and give myself more credit because i have such a bad habit of bullying myself. i bully myself out of getting the things i want because,, trauma and shame ya know
anybody have any tips for fat friendly androgynous clothing that doesn’t cost $100 for a skirt :(
#also any genderqueer or trans folk wanna give me any advice on what questions to ask myself to find how i want to look#did yall just like#have an idea of how you wanted to look or did you just kinda start#getting stuff#did you pick an aesthetic#im so incredibly confused about my gender tbh
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Fake HC 10 dashboard mayhaps??
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nvm gem ran out of pickles im depressed again
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uM hey @.hpo-official could i ask why you havent' received my messages?/? Every calsl Ive made just puts me on holdd
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Sorry about that, sir. Admin error. I'll speak to my manager.
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...hELLO?
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lmao they deactivated what a loser
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Remember there's a person behind every poor worker! I see you bullies in the notes
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@/mending-book-fanatic is a hermit permit office spy confirmed??
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Guys everyone agrees that purpur is cheap and beautiful and godlike and everyone should go buy it right now this second *sweats*
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I feel like I'm missing something...
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SHE HAS EYES EVERYWHERE BDUBS
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Joel!
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anyone know a good shop for ethically-sourced wood?? i normally shop at big wood but ive heard things about a mafia :/
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That is absolutely NOT true!! If anything you should be targeting the crypto scheme at Big Wood,,
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aaaand this is why you should never trust businessmen in red suits
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says the one compensating with a massive HOURGLASS of all things
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Actually @.big-salmon Xisuma_voyd made a really well-explained video here going into detail about all of the shady elements of Big Wood, it's worth a watch.
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To answer the original question OP here are some safer (privately owned!) shops :)
Gem's Moss Shop (azaleas for sale which can be bonemealed)
Bdub's Bamboo Shop (bamboo wood is a good eco-friendly alternative to your typical spruce or oak)
The Purr-purr bus (if you're okay with having slightly more exotic trees, from the End)
Hope this helped! <3
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Why would you pay diamonds for less when you could just pay a few grains of sand for the best quality wood in the shopping district? You people confuse me
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actually the Purr-purr bus isn't ethical at all!! ive heard they blackmail people into giving them sails!!!
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*sales
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Grian you know you can get free mending books at the cat cafe right
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it's not the same
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I need to be able to smell the breath of the sea between its sodden pages
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continue along the same path and you'll soon be facing villager unions
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skill issue tbh
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hallo how flirt with pretty girl time sensitive question
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sell them something
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bribe diamonds
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okay will do!!!!
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etho is just kakashi on maple syrup send post
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