#my brain is exhausting

[soundlessroom-archive]

Won't go into details but I got on another blog a statement I don't like and now I am checking in.

[asolitaryrose]

how do i stop being obsessed about something, asking for a friend

[whorunthewcrld]

Oh look, the urge to delete myself from all social media and never talk to anyone ever again. Love that for me

[ineffableigh]

For real though "Do you focus on the big picture or little details" I'm imagining like project management or something meanwhile what they fucking mean is CAN YOU LOOK AT A TASK GLOBALLY OR DO YOU SHIT YOURSELF OVER THE 8000 STEPS INVOLVED IN DOING THE TASK

Like I'm trying to think metaphorically or whatever and meanwhile they're referring to the fact that I look at

'going to the store'

and I see :

Get dressed (sweater? Jacket? umbrella? check weather 20 times)

pick a bag

make sure i have my purse wallet phone keys

Sunglasses? Headphones? Yeah headphones I always need those

Did I forget anything? Check again

go out my front door to building exit and maybe run into neighbors

walk the ten blocks to the store and be sore and tired after (bonus: chronic pain from hypermobility and inflammatory arthritis)

maybe run into weird or rude people

maybe run into people I know and have to, gasp, CONVERSE

deal with all the street noise lights and crossings

deal with drivers trying to run me over

go in the store and avoid looking weird or shady so they don't think i'm stealing

but also don't look weird by trying not to look weird

find the item in the store myself so i don't have to ask for help

fluorescent lights oh god fluorescent lights and white walls

can't find the item shitfuck I don't want to ask they won't know what it is anyway

plus I have to say it in french because of where I live

got the item thank fuck, now i gotta wait in line at the cash

dealing with people asking me if this is the line, yes this is the line, yes i'm waiting don't cut in front of me stop I was waiting i'm right here I"M RIGHT HERE

pretend to be a regular human at the cash don't stare don't chat too much don't be overly friendly enunciate don't stim

aah god i muttered and they didn't hear me shit I have to repeat myself sputtering aah DEBIT PLEASE NO RECEIPT THANK YOU OK BYE

rinse repeat on the way home

IT TOOK ME 34 years to get my diagnosis ahahaha shit lol

autism screening quizzes will be like “do you take things too literally” and then ask fifty of the worst-worded questions ever dreamt up by man

[padamoosemakegirlmoosegowhaaa]

you know the phrase "head empty, no thoughts"? I always thought that was happening for me, but I realized the other day it's actually "head full of thoughts, I am not in control of any of them"

[timethehobo]

Dressing the blorbo up just because. 🫢

[hauntedbestie]

writing isn't happening but i think im too tired to start trying to learn to crochet but i can't just sit and watch tv either.

[herb-welch]

that stupid fucking clown

[anxiouscaretaker]

me when the character canonically gets little to no rest

[saddevilsworld]

should’ve taken the chance to unalive myself

[cangrellesteponme]

wife

[arcanegifs]

rewatch the show yall. it gets even better if you do.

[vacantgodling]

ngl i get that people hype up hating writing for the bit but like. idk. yall i Do actually really like writing. it is so satisfying and fun and rewarding and i get to look back what i made over and over again and get joy every single time.

yes writing is hard but if you hate it more than you love it im kinda like. idk. find another hobby?

[sinstear]

me in docs; “cock” “pussy” “cunt” “lickin’ her clit” “pussy squelch” “am i okay?” “cock” “cock” “cock” “oh guess what, another use of the word cock” “folds” “what are we folding? clothes?” “cunt” “cunt” “cunt” “cunt” “cunt” “cunt” “cunt” “cunt” “cock” “cock” “cock” “cock” lesbian use a different word, FUCK

my reaction every time;

[tapakah0]

[jellynotbees]

The narilamb demons possessed me and I had to exorcise them via drawing them kissing or I wouldn’t be able to sleep