#my bpd thoughts

[bpd-girlie]

had to listen to one of my sister's friends tell her that it must've been very hard to grow up with me around (she didn't know I was close) and now I feel shitty. yes this is the same sister that I put a lot of money into.

I didn't choose to be mentally ill. I can't but be a product of my environment. And to hear how hard it was for others, because it's always about others... but when will it be about me? Why does no one tell me "it must've been hard to deal with that growing up"?

But I must be sympathetic towards my sister. Of course, she's so anxious, she has stuff to do. My stuff? Oh, that doesn't matter. Anyway,

[xnoworneverr]

There’s a reason why we feel lonely even though we aren’t alone. It’s because loneliness is not about how many friends we have or how many people are in the room with us. It’s a disconnection from others. Being social doesn’t cure loneliness, loneliness comes when there is not a single person close enough to see past the illusion to who we really are and what we really feel inside.

[d3ad-but-st1ll-al1v3]

think im losing this fight tbh

[starbbypluto]

[sadbxtchthoughts]

how many more nights like this until I don‘t have to wake up aynmore?

[hamoodmood]

[rainywhispersblog]

[k3t4min5]

i got a thing for pushing people away when im at my lowest

[drowningbpdbodies]

“How are you?” I should be in a straight jacket but unfortunately for the both of us I’m here

[bpd-girlie]

welcome / bienvenidxs

I will write a lot about my experience with BPD and just life in general. Argentina posting frequently. Also very nosy.

[g0thicf0xskulls]

am i the abusive one?

am i the reason so many people leave?

i am arent i?

i’m the problem

i always have been the problem

i’ll always be the problem

[wishiwasanyonelse]

I wish I was loved I wish I was loveable I wish I was a first option

[vixensofdeath]

I destroy myself to make me feel better but in the end I always feel worse.

[3m0g1rlyyy]

am i just too much?

am i not enough?

am i too hard?

am i too soft?

am i too normal?

am i too weird?

am i too loud?

am i too shy?

am i too cold?

an i too nice?

am i too depressed?

am i too happy?

am i too serious?

or am i too unserious?

Tell me what am I? What is the real me?

What is the me people will like?

What is the me people won’t leave?

[rainywhispersblog]

[crush-echoes]

i dont know if anyone actually likes me

it doesnt feel like they do

everyone seems so close to each other

what if theyre talking about me

do they hate me