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Immovable object (my chronic fatigue) vs unstoppable force (my desire to do literally anything other than lie in bed)
#was cooking nonstop for an hour yesterday#then did a bunch of dishes and some cleaning#my body did not appreciate that#i could tell when i was going to bed last night that i overdid it#but today was worse than i thought it would be#btw ive been trying to process my grief or whatever over losing so much of my ability to function over the past year#its not going well#thought a therapist might help but the ones i found and liked dont take my insurance#my last therapist specialized in trauma (was good at helping me process that) but isnt a good listener lol so i need someone else#im not thay motivated to find a new one though tbh#its a hassle and im too exhausted to deal with it#maybe ill save up all these feelings and put it into a fic someday#i talked to a fandom friend once about writing a story about a disabled character so maybe ill actually do that#someday#after i finish sgb#which will be a long time from now#a long long long time#at this rate#its so frustrating to be incapable of doing the things i want to do#especially when those things were within my capabilities not that long ago#i have to chill out about it though because emotions use energy and i have so very little of that to spare#ha ha#ha ha ha ha ha#its all good#we press on
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"Gojo should've gotten to live as a person-" THAT’S THE POINT. That is the ENTIRE point of JJK. Every single character who died was someone who "should've gotten to" do a lot of things. Riko should've gotten to live for herself, Geto should've had the chance to be a teenage boy given support and safety, Junpei should've gotten to live without fear, Nobara should've had the chance to let people in without fear, Nanami, Yuki, Mai, Higurama, EVERYONE.
Here's the thing, Gojo is on this list. Gojo isn't the exception because JJK at its core is a story about how overarching systems destroy people; bullying, capitalism, sexism, etc. And this system does not need people to run it. Which is why killing Kenjaku didn't stop shit because yeah he started this mess but its grown beyond him. Fuck, it was there before him.
This is also why despite Sukuna & Uraume being the only ones who are actual threats, nothing is better. The cast got rid of the higher-ups, jujutsu tech as it is, is no more. The major families are dismantled. This should be a victory. This is what the Sashisu gen pointed out as the problem but things have never looked more bleak.
Why? Because the problem isn't Kenjaku, Sukuna, curses, sorcerers or curse users. It's the existence of Cursed Energy itself. This has been pointed out multiple times by Yuki. Its the system and Gojo has been complicit to the system for a long, long time. He's also it's victim. Gojo says he's the exception a lot, but as everyone has rightfully pointed out, he was nothing more than a weapon to jujutsu society.
JJK has followed a very clear pattern to every character right from Geto to Junpei to Riko; characters are representatives of systems of suppression, and they will not escape it. I can't recall a single character that's escaped unscathed, much less alive.
Is it disrespectful? Yes. Is it demeaning? YES. There has not been a single character death that's been dignified in JJK. It's all on a scale of bearable to absolutely horrifying. It is genuinely wild seeing people resort to threatening the author AGAIN. Calm the fuck down. You are entitled to feeling upset about how Gojo has been treated but Yuta stans are being calm despite Yuta arguably suffering the "he is a weapon" thing WORSE. It's still a fictional character and JJK's narratives never treated Gojo with any exceptions despite the character saying otherwise.
#gojo satoru#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk meta#jjk 261#satoru gojo#jjk manga#i really like gojo and appreciate his character btw#and i made my peace with 236#i also think we kind of got our answer to geto's question about being the strongest#gojo 100% was forced to give away his body to fight sukuna#but gojo.....isn't his body- isn't his six eyes#in his final moments as gojo satoru-what did he see him as?#we see him in some disembodied form unattached to his body#our kast glimpse of gojo as a oerson is unrelated to his six eyes with a smile
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alicent + (lack of) bodily autonomy
"This felt like a baptism. Stripping the outer layer, and that f-cking collar [laughs]. Her getting into the lake on her own is embryonic, in a way. It’s weirdly a coming-of-age moment for Alicent—the start of the rest of her life, what she’s about to do, and the woman she’s possibly about to become." (x)
#alicenthightowerdaily#alicenthightoweredit#houseofdragonedit#hotdedit#alicent hightower#house of the dragon#i hope the vision is clear...#there's a lot of (interesting) discourse about alicent's arc this season and whether it did right by her or not#but i really appreciated this facet of the arc#it was a downwards spiral of like waning control and disillusionment and loss#but imo an upwards spiral of like reclaiming some bodily and mental autonomy (to a certain degree)#and that was painful but also worth rooting for and satisfying to watch#i think i'm still cheering for her abortion fjgkldjglkjdf#i could have waited for ep 8 to include the blue dress but i think the peak of this arc re doing what she wants with her body-#-that the climactic organ point of the arc was indeed the swimming so might as well#my gifsets
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The sexiest touch in movie history and no, nothing's ever gonna change my mind.
#clannibal#clarice starling#hannibal lecter#silence of the lambs#anthony hopkins#hannibal x clarice#dr hannibal lecter#gifs#movie gifs#did you get that 'no' reference lol#Sir Anthony going 'nO' lives in my head rent free all day long#but back to them can we just appreciate anything about this scene please and thanks#I just know it's not solely me having shivers all over my body when watching/reading that scene right#Clannibal supremacy#Him breathing out “Goodbye Clarice” is not a final passage but a promise for what might follow soon enough#I'm again being so normal about them#If there were no bars between them Asfkkhxdr
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here is my official tier list of body parts i like to draw / look at :
it basically can be summarized with this
#butts are mid im sorry im just not a big fan of them#that is probably my hottest take yet#i mean i can appreciate a nice butt i just like tiddies more#i had SOOO much fun drawing these i mean i just did a bunch of studies of my fave body parts so its rlly no surprise#when i was drawing the s+++ tier parts i had the urge to bite something#preferably one of those body parts#froodles
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I love the way you draw Medic, he’s just so perfect in your style 💕 and thanks of course for not making him a twink, I’ve seen too much fanart like that 🥹
danke sehr~ im glad you all like it!!
#all i do is draw myself all day and you guys eat it up like starved animals#which i appreciate actually im glad people like my art its fun for me >:]€#and about the not making medic a twink thing..#i did not make myself a Testosterone Beast to be disrespected like that. body hair and meat on the bones OR ELSE#anyway#smiles#thank youu#doodles#tf2#tf2 medic#the doc is in#might post this whole sketch page later we'll see
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sketched out the size difference between ashton and orym when ash is in demititan form bc i was curious. and also am always thinking abt how the fuck a halfling would actually be proportioned
#cr spoilers#critical role#ashrym#yeah i'll go ahead and tag that i'm sure some of y'all would appreciate the reference for. reasons#mainly what i've concluded re: halflings is that i find 'human but shrunk' boring and tend to make them a little stouter#and their extremities a little bigger if not necessarily as big as they would be on a human body.#which is not necessarily conveyed in this image bc i also did those things to ashton for their demititan form. so!#my art#crposting#i know you mean well
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OTHER POSTS: Baby bunny Trucy, Uendo lizard, Prosecutors, Aura Blackquill, Clay Terran, Bobby Fulbright, modpoppy's Uendo, okartichoke's Caracalvier,
Compiled here is almost every single design sketch I've done for this... AU? It's my nonsense, take it or leave it! The tag for it is "#The Great Detective's Animal Attorney", but the prefix is mostly for filtering, I just call it "Animal Attorney".
I must disclaim that this is not meant to "compete" with any other AUs or designs! They're all real and I hope my dognix can be friends with yours.
The below post has my designs for the Gavin brothers, Maya, Fransizka, Phoenix, Athena, Sholmes, Lord van Zieks, aaand a teeny Harebrayne. Sadly, no Apollo this time, all his art is doodles and I hit image limit anyways! Him and Trucy may get their own post soon, however!
These were all done with my non-dominant hand, and Athena was done on a Magma board, if that explains the anything.
The Gavins are the first ones I really did, and they're both caracals! I've kinda wanted to go back and change Klavier a bit in regards to an insane headcanon, but caracalvier is too iconic like this, I just can't do it
Putting Maya and Fran together, cause they're both kitties! If Maya was a specific breed, then I forgot, but Fransizka (and her dad, by extension) are both oriental longhairs. If I weren't presently injured, I'd draw a scrungly Manfred, but alas your mind's eye will have to do the work.
Phoenix is a puppy dog! Very very nearly made him a hyena... But I couldn't. I couldn't reconcile it with Ryunosuke. I have a Yeenix in the back, for any interested parties
LASTLY for my main-series designs is Athena! She's a seal. I don't think I had a specific reason besides not being able to get ears to fit with that ponytail... Might change her to a sea lion, though!
AAAAND TGAA BONUSES... Aka the Barokorn Cinematic Universe
Sholmes is a lion (with his sad little low testosterone mane)! He was easily the hardest, as I went back and forth... Alot. He was a pigeon at first! I contemplated rabbit..? But I tried to steer away from the mascot designs, generally. I'm happy with the decision of lion, however, mostly cause it gives him fun symbolism with the whole Professor thing.
The van Zieks-es are unicorns, and Bunnybrain is a pony! I could go more in-depth, buuut that's kinda spoilery
Ryunosuke and Kazuma (not pictured) are both puppy dogs, and I think I settled on bunny for Susato?? To make her pops a bunny also? I also have some sketches of her as a sugar glider, but I don't really like most of their art 👎 so there's a couple gaps here
If anyone wants to (??!?!?!!) you can use these designs for pretty much anything you want (and feel free to extrapolate upon the rest of their designs, most of these are very limited), just make sure to tag me, partially for credit, but also because I'd just REAAAALLY want to see... They are my babies, my world, I think I might break down into tears (/pos) BUT ANYWAYS I LOVE YOU ALL. THANK YOU FOR STICKING WITH ME AND I HOPE THIS MAYBE MOTIVATES YOU TO DRAW SOME SILLY ANIMAL ATTORNEYS OF YOUR OWN!!
#aka watch my injuredness + skill in my left hand fluctuate LOL#I'M SO SORRY ARTICHOKE I HOPE IT'S WORTH THE WAIT#IF the reception continues to be positive‚ I'll make more posts with more doodles and designs!#and that last little bit is a lie partially. i actually made a full ref sheet for dogzuma BUT I'M TOO SHY TO POST IT LOL#The Great Detective's Animal Attorney#for sitting through my madness YOU GET EDGEWORTH LORE cause i didn't like the art i did for him way back#he's a borzoi / collie mix‚ but since he was raised around cats‚ his grasp on dog body language is questionable#he thinks tail ''flicks'' (wags) = mental stimulation so he thinks he's soooo subtle and nobody knows what he's thinking#wait i do actually have a sketch of that#LMK AND I'LL DROP IT#and please any questions / comments on anything here ARE APPRECIATED... I'M SO CRAZY !!!!!!!!#ace attorney#the great ace attorney#i... dont wanna tag everyone. that feels greedy#if you have any requests for fuller designs / designs for other characters LMK and ill see what i can do!! >:]#the deduction of art
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I'm feeling a lot more confident in my training with Rory than I ever did with Mav, which is really cool, and the single best thing I started doing this time around was Rory Appreciation Time.
Allocating mindful screen-free time to be silly with Rory helped me avoid the puppy blues, creates a lot of levity, diffuses tension, and helps me learn more about what she finds rewarding. It's been really cool to see.
#dogblr#about aurora#rory appreciation time#i had dedicated snuggle time for mav but it wasnt as intentional#most of my intentional time for mav was training#and thats awesome!#but rory needs a lot more lightness and affection than mav did#rory appreciation time lasts about 5 mins at a time#we kinda go based on the vibe#sometimes its full body snuggles sometimes it's ridiculous playing that leads to zoomies#we do it at least 2x a day but usually 4x (before work at lunch and once or twice before bed)#it has helped rory immensely#her training sticks better when interactions are overwhelmingly positive#even bad training sessions are easily overshadowed by all the fun rory appreciation time sessions#anyway highly recommend mindful silly time with your dogs
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PALLA GRANDE - charred saints
Saint Deja takes the stage
skeletal sculpting done by nikifor aka zdisław inspired by the catacomb saints
#vtm#vampire the masquerade#charred saints#clan hecata#deja#*23#mine#outfit design#art#palla grande#im kicking my feet giggling i voted for this and i was sooo excited. dejas a hecata w/ decay bane btw so she's not actually that skeletal#nikifor did some fleshcrafting for her 'on the house' bc they're long time friends. they both appreciate... fashion. the arts. bodies.#inspiration for this also kinda came from st lucia!! she's like the only saint thats even remotely celebrated here bc she's a lightbringer#GODDD i havent done proper outfit designing in ages i missed youuuuu... u cant see all the details in these tho like the shoes but. eh#maybe i'll do like a proper ref sheet type of thing but its like. what would i even use it for.#tho idk what i was smoking when i decided to make this outfit 90% sheer. as if that isn't one of the most difficult things to paint.#i have a few other designs for other sabbat/sabbat adjacent ocs too so... we'll see how many i end up making lol
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HWANG MINHYUN as KIM DO HA (alleged agent at NIS)
MY LOVELY LIAR (2023)
#my lovely liar#kdramaedit#kdramadaily#userdramas#asiandramanet#dailyasiandramas#asiancentral#hwang minhyun#bysya#ep 1#this set to appreciate that he did this w/o body double#you've worked hard bb#so farfetched lmao#im still not entirely feeling the show yet#but i guess i need more eps#or maybe i was distracted lol#mylovelyliaredit
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Nightmares and Dreams that Haunt the Night Commander Harukehn - @harukehn
#gw2#guild wars 2#gw2 oc#gw2 sylvari#art#lyhil#harukehn#gore#fantasy gore#suggestive#well. steeples hands. where to begin.#The departing haunts my mind constantly. tyria's hero is killed in a cowardly ambush and they die alone#in a place that is not their home#against a god that is not (always) their own#how long did the hours stretch on before your comrades found you#how long did they grieve you around the incomprehensible doom your death brings upon this realm#if youre a sylvari then youve had five years to experience life#before balthazars sword ensures you do not see another#in harukehns case - it creates an anxiety and a drive to finally allow himself the desires and curiosities he previously shamed himself for#it takes death for him to truly comprehend how short his life could be - and all that he has forbade himself from having#the link between these two pages is that lyhil has carried harukehn like this only twice#once - a broken small body bleeding in his vice grip as he rushed to harukehn to a mender. every step filled with panic.#twice - legs failing after a moment of bliss: far too weak to make it down the snowy mountain from the hot spring they had escaped to#also i enjoyed a lot the focus of a body being so terribly shattered by violence and fear could still mend and be held and appreciated#anyway if you made it to this tag you're a real one#please be appropriate levels of unwell about this else i shall refrain from sharing in future LAUGHS
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I have been eating nothing but broth and steamed gyoza and drinking nothing but electrolyte water and my body will NOT stop THROWING UP, can you PLEASE let a bitch LIVE
#Well this morning I pushed the boat out and had Plain Toast with A Can of Seltzer#Which my body did NOT appreciate
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It’s so embarrassing and heartbreaking being in so much pain over losing someone while knowing they don’t give a fuck if you live or die. Your favorite person becoming a stranger is a special kind of hell.
#I fucking hate having bpd#while I’m at it I don’t understand the fuckin audacity some people have to say they love you and do horrible things to you#I feel so stupid#I feel so stupid for believing all the lies#but I was so in love and put him on such a pedestal that I just allowed it all.#thinking about someone constantly and grieving over them and knowing they’re perfectly fine and to them you don’t exist#I’m still in such a state of grief and I don’t understand why time hasn’t healed#it honestly feels like it’s gotten worse w time#I just torture myself but I can’t help it my brain wants me dead#it’s so painful I feel so fucking stupid#being abandoned with no closure by someone who’s your entire world#for someone they were unfaithful to you with multiple times (I don’t even know how many and dony want to know) immediately#like that was the plan all along#he took our cat hundreds of miles away and I don’t even know if he still has her or if she’s still alive and I miss her every day#I never loved someone like that and it feels like the heartbreak is actually physically killing me#i spent 1/5 of my entire life with him#I was my prettiest and had the best body at the time and I wasted it on someone who didn’t appreciate me#not wasted. it wasn’t wasted. we had some incredible times together#I’ll never be that beautiful again#and now idk what do so bc i can’t decide which is worse: being alone and isolating or loving deeply and ending up horribly hurt all over#it’s all just so upsetting.#and I feel so stupid for allowing it all#he knows more about me than anyone and he made me feel like he loved me so much sometimes and then did horrid things and it’s so fucked up#nobody read this I’m so embarrassed and horribly broken#it traumatized me so much there was so much abuse and pain idk if I’ll ever recover#I deserved it but it still hurts my heart#I was so mentally ill and sick I know it had to have been miserable to be around me#there are so many things only he understands and knows about me and I need to talk about them I j wanna b able to b there 4 each other#but that girl is so beyond insecure and controlling so. if I want to talk to who fuckin gets me I’m just fucked#why lead someone on like that for years knowing you’re going to abandon them the second it’s convenient
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Jessica De Gouw as Mina Murray from the 2013 NBC series Dracula
#For those who do not know: this show is NOT in ANY WAY loyal to the source material#Once again Dracula is depicted as 'tormented' and 'sexy' and now also a 'genius'#(Aaaaarrrrggghhh)#but it's not exclusive to him! Everyone gets their own character assassination.#And what they did to Lucy... I have no words#The one silver lining I managed to find was that Mina is given things to do other than pine for an awful man#She's Van Helsing's student - which is already a premisse taken directly from my dreams!#I hope some day a good series does this so I can forget about this trashfire#And... I mean#the day I don't appreciate Mina cutting up a body just assume I'm dead#Seeing her happy with her accomplishments and proving all the men wrong made me smile#It was the one thing keeping me up from the coma everything else put me through#Wilhelmina Murray#Mina Murray#Mina Harker#Jessica De Gouw#Dracula (2013)#NBC Dracula#Dracula#May 9th#Dracula Daily#Dracula Daily 2024
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love how the older skaters in the senior division give Yurio encouragement and that each time it pisses Yurio off. JJ is intentionally condescending so that makes sense, but with Viktor and Yuuri they're not even being condescending. Yurio's just dialed in on being a hater... and i love that for him <3
#'plot twist i LOBV you' -Yuuri#'i am going to skin you alive' -Yurio#yuri on ice#sometimes he is a teenager#he's got so much fury in his tiny body. and yet he is also just an earnest lad. i find him sooo funny silly#which he would hate me for!!#I recall a meta post about Otabek being the first one to verbally recognize how hard Yurio devotes himself to skate and I really dig that#like I think Yurio's frustration is justifiably rooted in how little others take him seriously despite his life-consuming dedication#I DO think he is over the top and i enjoy this; for it is entertaining.#but i also think his feelings are genuine and he is a complex little guy.#i'm thinking of him sharing his grandpa's food with Yuuri and being emotionally vulnerable with him at the waterfall#Yurio is a hater on his opponents (and Viktor) but I think on some level he recognizes the genuine care Yuuri+Viktor show him#I think Yurio doesn't understand how they can be encouraging to him while also taking him seriously#Cuz Yurio is so wary of his elders dismissing him#so older skaters being friendly translates in his head as 'they dont think i can beat them / they dont see me as an equal'#But I think when these relationships are removed from that competitive atmosphere Yurio DOES see how they care and he appreciates it.#It would be so sweet to see an older Yurio reflect on this time and realize that Viktor + Yuuri + others DID take him seriously#and just because they were fond of him it doesnt mean they didnt appreciate his talent.#tbh being a young athlete must be such a mindfuck and idk how these bitches do it. send tweet#yuri plisetsky#yoi meta#queue#my words#AWW right after writng this i watched the part where Yurio starts yelling encouragement to Yuuri#who internally tells himself 'i got more stamina than that fuckin Yurio mf' (paraphrasing lol)#they switched love languages <3 cheerleader & hater role reversal
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