#my be-lux-ed

[xoxohannas-world]

how will i ever make peace with becoming everything i swore i wouldn’t be

[epersonae]

Because you foolishly agreed to more than one of these: Director's Cut of "BIGFOOT STOLE MY HUSBAND!", please.

anyway.

before I even start on this, let me just say that I love that you've picked out my three OFMD fics that imho get the best comments in very different ways. for the benefit of all the broken hearts gets the in-depth analysis and plot-based screaming; I spit on your grave is full of I NEEDED THIS CATHARSIS; and BIGFOOT STOLE MY HUSBAND is about 80% "would it be weird if I wanted to kiss bigfoot/o no you've awakened something in me", which me too bud (actually this comment is one of my favorite comments on anything ever).

Sometimes you write something you're not into entirely out of spite, well, 80% spite and 20% as a gift to your friends lol.

Which is to say that someone posted a link to a pretty bad (and also at the time the only) Ed/Stede/Bigfoot fic in a server I'm in (come ON, "it was all a dream"?!?!?! COWARD) and we got chatting about what a good fic would be like, and then dammit now I have an actual idea.

I said in my previous director's commentary post that I often need a hook to get into a story, and the camping narration that it starts with was the hook.

My ex-husband (first spouse, the bad marriage, the divorce) was very outdoorsy in that Pacific Northwest way; in college he'd worked for a summer as a guide on Mt Rainier and then the following winter was the caretaker for a lodge. He was not as gung-ho about it as some of his friends, but he did always want for us to go on a "real" backpacking trip, and we did a lot of car camping. And like, we had some real awful arguments and terrible experiences, but also there was a lot I enjoyed about it, and I hadn't (still haven't) done that since before I got divorce. (iirc we didn't go out at all that last summer we were together, which feels like part of the "everything coming to a head" of that year.)

So apparently I had a whole bunch of pent-up feelings about camping, both the actual physical experience of being in the woods/mountains and the experience of doing something that your partner is into WAY more than you are. (Which, yes, is both about the camping and Bigfoot.)

One of the other things about that fic is the whole scent experience, obviously, and that is the 20% gift for a friend aspect of that story, because one of the people who I was more or less writing it for is someone who I thought would appreciate that particular aspect. My beta also pushed me to be more specific and detailed about the actual fragrance notes, so I did two things. One, I looked up perfume sites and stuff for the kind of language people use for that, and two, what ended up being the most notorious (?) details: I opened up my spice drawer and literally smelled all of my spices to find something that might be a little unusual but also felt right. And that is where the cumin thing comes from.

(I think the commenter experience of "would it be weird if I were into this" comes both from my commitment to sensory detail and to Ed's inner narration of "would it be weird if I were into this")

Finally, I knew it needed to end not with Bigfoot, but with them affirming their connection to each other, and I did seriously laugh out loud when I realized I could use "he's got nice hair". It's so stupid and so perfect.

(also the detail of the two of them having a selfie with a roadside attraction fake taxidermy Bigfoot is stolen from my experience going to the Portland Maine cryptozoology museum and doing exactly that with Ryn, who loved all things Bigfoot.) (I've had relationships with at least four people who are/were really into cryptids, I have no idea what that's about.)

[ask me for the director's commentary on a fic!]

[settons]

Remember Pure Heroine. I do

Go here^

[mrsichinose]

god give me the strength not to eat anything else todayyyyyy 🙏🙏🙏 i feel like i had my meals too close together but the energy drink was really making me sick & i needed to have something but i’m worried about making it til bedtime now >___< i’m so jazzed about finally making progress again tho i need to bear with it!!!!

[ashwhowrites]

Hello, I saw that your inbox is open again, so I'll share my idea: it's a little dirty, embarrassing and funny. Imagine Eddie and the reader, who have been together for a while, being caught by Uncle Wayne while making love. Eddie is shocked and tries to protect the reader (perhaps by covering her with his body), and then Wayne lectures them both. After the reader leaves, Wayne scolds Eddie for being thoughtless and disrespectful and doing it in the worst possible place. Eddie responds with smug pride, saying, "I didn't do anything she didn't want." It seems like a fun scenario to me; I hope you can bring it to life.

-🧚🏻‍♀️

A little blurb since it's quite short. I hope this is what you wanted and you enjoy it. Thank you for requesting 🫶🏻

Caught

Y/N moaned as Eddie trailed kisses down her neck, her back against his mattress as he settled on top of her. Her nails scratched down his back as his cock slid in and out of her.

"Quiet baby," Eddie warned in her ear. She pushed her lips together as she tried to keep quiet, knowing Wayne was in bed just across the hall. "Don't want to be interrupted do we?" He teased, purposely snapping his hips against hers to push himself deeper inside of her.

She glared at him the best she could with her heavy eyes. "You are such an ass," she groaned, her eyes rolling in the back of her head as his fingers worked on her clit.

"You weren't saying that when you were begging for me to fuck you," he teased. She couldn't reply when he sped up, the sound of their bodies smacking against each other.

"Ed-OH MY GOD"

Y/N screamed as Eddie's door flew open and Wayne stood as he covered his eyes.

"Shit!" Eddie said, quickly sliding out of her and moving to cover her body.

"Get dressed and meet me in the living room, now!" Wayne demanded, closing the door behind him.

Y/N felt her face burn in embarrassment, and horror on her face. She looked at Eddie and he began to laugh.

"It's not funny, asshole!" She said, smacking his arm as she pushed him off of her.

"It's not my fault you can't keep quiet," he was smug as he threw on his pants. Y/N ignored him as she quickly got dressed.

She grabbed Eddie's hand as they walked out, shame in her bones. Wayne was standing in the living room and they quietly sat on the couch.

"I understand you guys are in a serious relationship, but sex comes with a lot of responsibility. You need to be mature and do things correctly..."

For the next few minutes, Wayne went on a rant about protection, sexual diseases, and pregnancy. He did a good enough job to scare Y/N off. She quickly left the two boys in the living and raced home.

"Really Eddie? With me in the house?" Wayne shook his head.

"You know what it's like! You've had to have had a smoking girlfriend before," Eddie tried to reason.

"Edward, this is about you. You need to treat your girlfriend with respect. You need to use protection because I swear if you get her pregnant I'll kill you. I get that it's your bedroom but be considerate about the location and who's all around. It was thoughtless, disrespectful, and the worst time to do it with me here. I'm not saying I want you to do it when I'm gone. Just don't do it!" Wayne ranted, hands on his hips as he stressed out.

Eddie leaned against the couch, spreading his legs and crossing his arms. He had a smug smile as he thought about how she was whimpering underneath him.

"Trust me, I didn't do anything she didn't want," Eddie smiled.

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[n9nno]

i miss sam so here’s a post full of songs i associate with him / darlin + some headcannons

everywhere, everything by noah kahan

no plan by hozier

your needs, my needs by noah kahan (more specifically the lyric “i’m naming the stars in the sky after you”)

never never gonna give ya up by barry white (darlin’ poked fun at sam for liking this song initially but he occasionally catches them singing along with the song)

in another life by son lux

american money by børns

dress by taylor swift (the lyric “made your mark on me, a golden tattoo” reminds me of what sam said to darlin’ toward the end of the most recent BA of his)

womb by adrianne lenker

hold me, never let go by rocco

gale song by the lumineers

missing piece by vance joy

sweet by cigarettes after sex

heart like yours by willamette stone

mess is mine by vance joy

my love mine all mine by mitski

call it what you want by taylor swift

i was made for loving you by tori kelly

till forever falls apart by ashe

invisible string by taylor swift

love. by wave to earth

feels like by gracie abrams

pov by ariana grande

iris by the goo goo dolls

nothing new by taylor swift

freckles by kevin atwater

you are in love by taylor swift (“and you knew what it was, he is in love” is so early relationship sam coded)

work song by hozier

forwards beck rebound by adrianne lenker

space song by beach house

don’t let me go by cigarettes after sex

photograph by ed sheeran

everything has changed by taylor swift

daylight by taylor swift (i only added this bc of the lyric “maybe u ran with the wolves and refused to settle down” hehe)

i apologize for the amount of taylor swift in this list LMFAO

[xoxohannas-world]

baby, i’ll be like a wildflower

i live on sheer willpower

[swashbuckling-sweethearts]

Ed and Stede celebrating Valentine's Day 💘

Would you like this art printed on a luxe postcard? Snag one for $6 on my Ko-Fi! It'll arrive in an envelope so you can keep the art for yourself - or turn around and mail it to a friend 🩷🩷

[knotwerk]

ofmd fics by me, knotwerk!

okay you got your alternate universes, your rpf, your canon era, and a podfic. browse, click, win! as always, mind the tags & notes.

alternate universes

lux 14k, E. modern au Gentlescribed pwp, trans Lucius POV. Lucius has a stellar time at the gay bathhouse TM4M night. posted 3/11/25

and prosper 4k, E. modern au established relationship Ed/Stede t4t fluffy pwp. t4t sex is neat and Ed and Stede have some before bed. posted 12/15/24

Proper Hydration 208k, E. Ed/Stede. A 7-part modern au that explores the question, "what if they met after coming home to themselves a bit first?” the first installment has an incredible podfic by @lindie-kninjaknitter! here's my Proper Hydration masterpost with links to each installment and related blog posts. fics posted 10/13/22-8/28/24

Happy Accidents 1.8k, E. Ed/Stede, modern AU. Stede wears his new remote-controlled vibrating butt plug to brunch with friends... and loses the remote. proud to be the first fic in the extended butt plug universe lmao. posted 12/24/22

The Ylp's Tale 20.6k, E. Ed/Stede, medieval AU for AUgust 2023 prompts 'restaurant,' 'medieval,' and 'cryptid.' sweet delightful collab, with delightful art! posted 8/13/23

rpf

rhys never breaks 2.7k, E. Rhys/Taika. messy, angsty Taika POV, post-"zaddy" improv moment. posted 4/21/24

character research 11.7k, E. Rhys/Taika... Ed/Stede. once again a messy Taika POV, once again inspired by a behind-the-scenes drop (the "tangy/zangy" improv, this time!). i both lol'ed and yelled nooooo a number of times while writing this one. posted 10/2/24

canon era

if stede is not mistaken 6.4k, E. Ed/Stede. post-S1E5 "you wear fine things well" scene. gorgeous podfic available by @sierrajanesims! written fic posted 10/3/23

Pinch Me 5.4k, E. Ed/Stede/Mary (actually Stede/Ed/Mary, heyooo), silly horny Ed POV in a happy post-S1 setting. an Ed Sandwich fic. posted 3/27/23

stede knows 0.6k, Teen. Ed/Stede. the S2E5 kiss, from Stede's POV. wrote this after watching these gifsets five million times. posted minutes before S2E6&7 dropped on 10/19/23

Tomorrow's Almost Here 9.2k, E. Ed/Stede. post-S1 reunion. plus tentacles. posted 9/20/22

Choose Your Own Adventure: Reunion! E. Ed/Stede. what it says on the tin - and then some! collaboration with an awesome group of writers and artists. i wrote a couple scenes, contributed to a hidden scene that is absolutely worth the price of admission, and beta'd a good chunk of this delightful fic. posted 5/20/23

Crescendo 4.4k, E. Ed/Stede. bby's first fic[tion] ever lol. post-S1 post-reunion. posted 8/10/22

podfic recorded by me

[Podfic] Ink by zemph147 aka @gaypiratebrainrot. (link to written fic here.) "a twist on Ed-is-literally-the-Kraken, where instead of having tentacles, Ed ejaculates squid ink." this fic changed my life lol. (the author's pretty great, too.) podfic posted 5/4/23

[longwuzhere]

Some cool Easter eggs I caught watching My Adventures with Superman that I want to show to people so they can be in on it with comic book readers: For the first episode's Easter eggs it's here

For the second episode's Easter eggs it's here

For the third episode's Easter eggs it's here

For the fourth episode's Easter eggs it's here

For the sixth episode's Easter eggs it's here

For the seventh episode's Easter eggs it's here and here

For the eighth episode's Easter eggs post it's here

For the ninth episode's Easter eggs post it's here

For the tenth episode's Easter eggs post it's here

My Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman comic issue 1 post is here

My Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman comic issue 2 post is here

My Easter eggs and references for My Adventures with Superman comic issue 3 post is here

SPOILERS if you haven't seen this week's episode obviously

We start off the episode with this shot of Superman with the drawn on glasses. A good homage to what Lois did in the 1980 Superman II movie...

where she not only drew the glasses but also a full suit and hat on a picture of Superman.

Next we see Jimmy waking up and seeing someone debunking his conspiracy theories on Sub-Diego.

Sub Diego was an actual place in the DC universe before the New 52 reboot. In Aquaman #15 and #16 (2003) , shown here (W: Will Pfeifer, P: Patrick Gleason, I: Christian Alamy, C: Nathan Eyring, L: Jared K. Fletcher for issue 15, Nick Napolitano for issue 16). The underwater city is actually San Diego, but is buried underwater thanks to a tidal wave and makes its first appearance in Aquaman #15 (2003). There was a lot of casualties from this.

When we get to our title its "You Will Believe A Man Can Lie" a reference to the tagline for the 1978 Superman movie.

As seen here on the poster, it says "You'll believe a man can fly".

Next we see our villain, well one of the villains, for the episode, Heatwave.

In the comics Heatwave makes his first appearance in Flash 140 (1963) (cover art by Carmine Infantino, Murphy Anderson, and Ira Schnapp). Heatwave aka Mick Rory is a Flash rogue usually acting as a rival to Captain Cold aka Leonard Snart. In MAwS, their Heatwave shares the same last name and powers, but MAwS Heatwave is gender flipped. You might have seen Heatwave in the CW DC comics shows where he is played by Dominic Purcell in The Flash and Legends of Tomorrow.

Lois, later in the episode, name drops Heatwave's name. Gotta be honest when Heatwave showed up I was like is that Rampage? Cuz the MAwS design looks vaguely like Rampage.

If she does show up in MAwS, I'll talk more about her in another post, but for now, Rampage aka Karen Lou "Kitty" Faulkner, makes her first appearance in Superman #7 (1987) (full page here: W&P: John Byrne, I: Karl Kesel, C: Tom Ziuko, L: John Costanza).

Steve drags Jimmy to film his debunking Flamebird videos and references Starro who I talked about here.

Lois, later runs around with the Daily Planet police scanner trying to catch Superman and the dispatcher reports that a robbery is in progress at McGuinness Luxe Garage.

This is a nice reference to Ed McGuinness who was the artist for Superman, Action Comics, and Superman/Batman in the early 2000s. If you've seen Superman/Batman: Public Enemies, then you'll know the movie takes inspiration from his character designs in the first arc of the Superman/Batman comic series. The Superman/Batman #1 (2003) cover here is done by Ed McGuinness, Dexter Vines, and Dave Stewart. I like Ed McGuinness's pencils, very stylized.

Heatwave name drops Livewire and the Gazzo mod family. Both of whom I've talked about here and here respectively

Heatwave has been running away from Deathstroke here who has been taking our her crew. Notice that Slade Wilson doesn't have the half black half orange helmet yet that almost every Deathstroke depiction always has.

He, Amanda Waller, and the General who I totally think is General Sam Lane, Lois's dad, are fans of DBZ cuz of the scouters they're wearing.

Later in the scene we see the General again he's totally General Sam Lane. I'll talk more about him when we get a double confirmation through a name drop/reveal in a later post calling Amanda Waller, Mandy. What a fucking bold thing to say to Waller! Like damn! power move right there!

Superman and Deathstroke are fighting under a highway and we see the traffic is heading to Bludhaven!

Very good reference to my favorite character in all of pop culture, Dick Grayson aka Nightwing. Nightwing makes Bludhaven his city to protect. The city makes its first appearance in Nightwing #1 (1996) (the panel here - W: Chuck Dixon, P: Scott McDaniel, I: Karl Story, C: Roberta Tewes, L: John Costanza). Fun Bludhaven fact, its crime rate is WORST than Gotham! Also HIGHLY recommend reading the new Nightwing run cuz its fucking amazing! Won a few Eisner Awards (think the Oscars but for comic books) recently and I am not just saying that because I am a Dick Grayson fan.

Near the end of the episode, we see Lois willing to jump off a building to prove that Clark is Superman. A lot of discourse was happening online over this, but I do want to say this is pretty on brand for her to do.

In Superman II, Lois does something similar and Clark saves her. its just in MAwS, Clark flies to save her thus ruining the secret identity, while in Superman II, Clark does save her but he is still able to get away with it thanks to him playing it more subtly.

Don't know why people we're in such a fucking fit over something that Lois has done before.

In the after credits scene, Jimmy, who planned a sasquatch finding adventure with Lois and Clark, but they were dealing with their shit and Jimmy was by himself, decides to do the finding on his own and meets a giant gorilla. In the first episode Jimmy mentions an intelligent gorilla in France and my guess is this is Monsieur Mallah. You can read more about him here. If you made it this far down, I appreciate you taking the time to check this post out and if you want to see my other MAwS Easter Eggs posts - Episode 1 is here

Episode 2 is here

Episode 3 is here

Episode 4 is here

Episode 6 is here

Episode 7 is here and here

Episode 8 is here

Episode 9 is here

Episode 10 is here

My Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman comic issue 1 post is here

My Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman comic issue 2 post is here

My Easter eggs and references for My Adventures with Superman comic issue 3 post is here

[jusvibbbin]

Deep Denial

Ed Mercer x Female!Reader

“Lay in a course for…”

Captain Ed Mercer could barely pay attention to what Commander Grayson was saying as he gazed at the newly transferred navigator. Lieutenant (Y/N). She was cute, a bright and eager smile was on her face when she first came onboard. He’d never admit it, but from that moment on, she took up a significant portion of his thoughts.

It didn’t help that she seemed to be getting along well with the rest of the bridge crew, Gordon taking a shine to her instantly. Which led to him inviting her to get drinks with a few of them after shift. Which led to the events of the previous night…

After a long and fairly boring day, about half the bridge crew was in the mess having a drink. Gordon, in his infinite wisdom, had insisted on saving Ed a seat, so he had to sit in between his helmsman and his new navigator. He walked in while Gordon was telling some long and highly embarrassing story from their time at Point and he tried not to groan as he sat down. 

“Yeah and then Ed totally fell in the pool. It was nuts!” The table chuckled collectively as Ed just shook his head and jerked his thumb towards the new navigator.

“Trying to humiliate me in front of the newbie?”

“Always, man,��� the ginger chuckled before launching into another tale. Ed had glanced over to find said newbie eyeing him. She looked flustered at getting caught, burying her face in her glass as he looked back at his friend, the smallest of smiles on his face.

As the night winded down, he offered to walk her to her quarters.

It’s the captain-ly thing to do. I’m just being nice. It’s on the way.

All not quite lies but not total truths as they walked in silence.

“So…how do you like it so far?”

“Oh! Uh, I mean it's only been a couple days…”

“Right, duh sorry.” He kicked himself a little.

“Everyone has been really nice so far, if that’s any indication,” she offered.

“Sounds about right. Can’t be hard to be nice to someone so-” His brain finally stopped his tipsy train of thought dead in its tracks, but (Y/N) had looked at him expectantly as they stopped in front of her door.

“Well uh, this is you. See you tomorrow, Lieutenant,” he had quickly, and loudly, announced before high-tailing it out of there.

“Ed?”

“Hm?” He pulls himself out of his thoughts with a little start, looking over at Kelly and her quirked eyebrow.

“Is that alright with you?”

“Yeah, definitely.” He nods but has no idea what she asked him. Kelly relaxes back into her seat so it must’ve been the right answer and Ed attempts to shake off his wandering thoughts for the remainder of the day.

Later that day Ed is in the mess, sharing a beer with the empty chair across from him as he looks over daily reports. His attention is quickly stolen by a flash of orange moving near him. As he glances behind him, he can see his new navigator taking a seat at the table over with some other lieutenant dressed in green. He quickly looks back at his work, not wanting to seem weird, but a small, quiet part of him wishes he could look at her for longer.

“How are you liking it here so far?” The other woman asks.

“I mean, it's okay,” she answers hesitantly. “I’m just worried I’m not gonna find my fit here, Lux.” He can hear the other woman, presumably called Lux, hum in response. He knows he definitely shouldn’t be eavesdropping but he can’t help being a little nosey.

“What do you think of the bridge at least?’

There’s a short pause as she seems to think over her answer.

“I like everyone, I think. Lieutenant Malloy is pretty funny.”

“Sounds like you’re interested. He’s cute!” 

“No, no, no. Not like that,” she chuckles awkwardly.

“Good. I’ve already called dibs,” Lux chuckles, and Ed can almost feel (Y/N)’s eyeroll.

“Have at it. No, I think I would rather wait for Ed.”

Said captain chokes on his beer as the two women look over at him.

“Are you alright, sir?” The navigator gives him a look of concern that he attempts to wave off.

“I’m fine,” he insists. Both women eye him warily before turning back to their conversation.

“Yeah, I would rather wait instead. Someone can approach me, you know?”

Ed flushes a bright red as he curses himself softly. He had completely misheard her and now he felt rather foolish. He quickly gathers his things, deciding it’s probably for the best that he avoids Lieutenant (Y/N) for the time being as he hastily exits the mess, much to the confusion of the two women.

--

Unfortunately for Ed, avoiding social interaction is easier said than done. Gordon’s birthday rolls around only a week later and the captain finds himself heading to his ginger friend’s quarters. As he heads in, he’s instantly amused at seeing Lux chatting up the birthday boy as the bridge crew and a few people from engineering mill about. He scans the room as he moves to drop his present on the table, spotting (Y/N) speaking with Talla. He’s content to look for a moment before moving to get a drink.

“Oh, good idea,” he can hear Gordon say to the woman before addressing the whole group. “Truth or dare,” he calls. Most everybody moves towards the couches and Ed makes his way over to sit on the floor by the coffee table. A few timid rounds pass as he works his way through a couple beers before John dares Gordon to kiss someone. The ginger man grins before grabbing Lux’s face and planting a kiss on her lips. There’s a couple little oohs before he pulls away, and the woman’s flushed face only makes his grin wider. Ed rolls his eyes, finishing off a beer as his friend points at him.

“Truth or dare, Ed?”

He does his best not to groan, tipsiness already taking over his body.

“Uh, truth?”

“Lame!” John heckles as Gordon waves him off.

“Okay uh… when did you have your first kiss?” He grins at Lux who just playfully rolls her eyes.

Ed pauses for a good few moments, trying to really answer the question.

“I was twenty I think? Which I know is pretty late, but I thought it should be like special so I was saving it. I don’t think that anymore. In fact, I keep kissing people when I should be saving them for something special. Not like that’s happened anytime recently… I don’t know.”

He flushes a deep red when he realizes he’d started rambling, sharing way more than was asked or that anyone would be comfortable with. He wants to just about die when he looks up and locks eyes with (Y/N), looking at him with concern. He chuckles awkwardly as his eyes dart to literally anyone else and land on Bortus. “Truth or dare, man.”

“Dare. It is the only option.”

“I uh… dare you to eat that,” he points at one of Gordon’s couch pillows, getting up to slip away during the chaos as the birthday boy tries to wrestle the pillow out of the Moclan’s hands.

--

After the incredibly awkward exit from the night before, Ed is doing his best to avoid as many party goers as he can. He’s doing well, staying at home for most of the day, until Kelly calls him to pick up some reports with no time to drop them off. He groans but gets into some casual clothes to go to his XO’s office. It’s a quick trip, and he’s almost home free when he spots a couch in the middle of the corridor. He pauses, looking around for an owner before Lieutenant (Y/N) pops out of her nearby quarters.

“Oh, captain!” She stands at attention as he waves her to relax.

“Making the place a home?”

She chuckles awkwardly, nodding.

“I’m trying, but clearly it’s not going well…”

He mulls over his next words very carefully.

“Let me help you,” he offers with a smile.

“You don’t have to! I wouldn’t want you to waste your free day!”

“I’ve moved a few couches in my day,” he tries to joke before calling over a few crewmen to help him lift her sofa and move it into her living room area. Once it's in the perfect spot and the other crewmen have left, Ed goes to take his leave.

“Thank you again, captain.”

“Really, it's no trouble, Lieutenant,” he assures with a smile. “What was I gonna do? Let a pretty girl like you move it all by herself?”

The heat rises to each of their faces simultaneously as the silence between them thickens.

“I should uh,” he gestures back to the door.

“Yeah, I really need to uh,” she gestures back into her quarters.

Ed gives her a tight-lipped look and nods as he skedaddles his way home, beyond embarrassed.

--

A few days later and Ed is still doing his best to avoid looking at (Y/N) whenever he can. But it’s even more noticeable on the bridge and Kelly can’t help but mention it to someone else as she heads towards the shuttle bay with Gordon.

“Hey.”

“Yeah?” The ginger looks over at her questioningly.

“Ed seem weird with the new girl?”

“Oh thank god, let’s talk about it.”

Kelly chuckles as they get into the elevator.

“Yeah, he’s been really weird this whole week. I think he likes her.”

“No, he definitely does,” Gordon nods as the doors open and they walk into the bay.

“Maybe… No, I don’t want to overstep,” Kelly waves a dismissive hand.

“I do. Are we gonna play matchmaker, Commander?”

“If you’re down, I’m down, Lieutenant.”

And as the shuttle heads towards the planet, Kelly and Gordon come up with a perfect plan.

Ed sighs as Gordon finishes telling him about the night’s plans.

“I don’t really feel up to a party dude…”

“Come on, Mercer. It’ll be fun, aaaand a great way to welcome (Y/N) to the Bridge Babes.” The brunette gives his ginger friend a look at the dorky nickname before shrugging.

“Fine. But I’m not gonna stay very late, I’m tired.”

“Sick! You won’t regret it. Kelly and I have everything all planned out…”

Ed gives Gordon a suspicious look.

“You said that weird.”

“No I didn’t,” the red-head denies instantly, and Ed just rolls his eyes.

“Whatever, man. I’ll see you at 1900.”

Far too soon for Ed’s liking the appointed hour rolls around and he forces himself to head to the simulator. When the doors open, he can see the bridge crew milling about a small, 21st century bar. As he walks in, he scans the room until his eyes land on (Y/N). She’s far too busy talking to Kelly to notice his gaze and he quickly turns to order a beer from the bar.

“Hey glad you made it!” Gordon quickly wraps an arm around his best friend’s shoulders as he gives him his best smile.

“I said I would come.”

“Yeaaaah but I’m still glad you’re here.” 

“Yeah, me too.” He glances back at the two women again, seeing them move to sit at a table.

“Wanna go sit?” Gordon tries his best to be casual as he turns to get himself another beer.

“Oh, uh, nah. I’d rather sit up here. Can get drinks faster,” he jokes as Gordon chuckles.

“Sure, man. Sure.”

A few downed beers later, Ed is a bit more malleable and Gordon migrates them over to the table. As they take a seat, the tipsy Captain sends his navigator a warm smile.

“Hey Ed. How are you?” Kelly’s voice pulls his gaze and he nods.

“I’m good. How are you two?”

“I’m fine. Gordon and I are gonna get more drinks. Want anything?”

The brunette shakes his head as the Commander stands and looks to (Y/N). She shakes her head as well and the other two head for the bar.

“So, I asked how you were…”

“Oh! Oh, um… I’m okay, captain. Thank you.”

“Ed is fine when we’re off duty.”

“Alright, Ed.” She hums, trying it out as he smiles at her.

“Have you decided if you like it here yet?”

She shrugs a little. 

“I think so,” she takes a sip as Ed moves to follow suit.

“You think or you know?”

She gives him a confused look.

“Capt- Ed… Why are you so worried about what I think of the Orville?”

He blinks for a minute, trying to formulate a good answer.

“I just… want you to feel welcome,” he says honestly. He glances over at her as she gives him a little smile. He can’t help but return it with that signature grin of his.

Their conversation flows easily after this, Ed asking her questions about herself and retelling some of the crew’s best adventures. As they gab and polish off their drinks, Ed offers to get them another round. But as he turns to stand and moves to the bar, he notices the rest of the bridge crew is gone.

“Uh…I think we got ditched.”

(Y/N) looks over and tilts her head.

“Oh…I guess we did.”

Ed moves to get them drinks anyway before returning to the table to find the woman chuckling.

“What’s so funny?” He slides the drink over to her.

“I just am surprised I guess,” she says as she reaches for her glass.

“Surprised about what?”

“About you.”

He looks a little worried and she waves his anxiety away.

“Honestly, up until now, I thought you just weren’t able to talk to me. Maybe you didn’t like me, I don’t know,” she admits.

Ed brow furrows as he tries to think clearly about the past few days. 

“No… No, (Y/N), I like you a lot.”

She gives him a smile as she sets her glass back down.

“I like you too, Ed.”

He takes a gulp of his beer and, feeling brave, speaks again.

“No, I like really like you. A lot.”

Her face definitely heats up as she smiles into her glass.

“Yeah?”

“Absolutely, yeah,” he hiccups.

The lieutenant looks around the bar before downing her drink and standing.

“Did you wanna get out of here?”

Ed blinks up at her for a moment then stands, beer long forgotten.

“Yeah. May I?” He holds out a hand to her and she takes it. Ed gives her that damn smile of his as he leads her out of the sim and into the corridor.

They stroll through the ship until they reach her quarters and she releases him. He preps himself to bid her a goodnight once her door is open, but instead she pulls him inside.

“Stay?”

Ed makes a skeptical face.

“I don’t know if that’s a good idea…”

She scoffs out a chuckle.

“I asked if you would stay, not if you would have sex with me,” she teases drunkenly as he chuckles.

“...okay sure, I’ll stay.”

She takes his hand and leads him to her bedroom. She disappears into the bathroom to change as Ed takes off his shoes and lays down. When she comes back out, she turns the lights off and slips under the covers beside him.

“Hey, Ed?”

“Yeah, (Y/N)?”

“I really like you, too.”

He smiles at her, tucking some hair behind her ear before getting comfy and falling asleep.

The next morning, Ed groans as he rubs his eyes. When he finally opens them, he sees a painkiller and water on an unfamiliar nightstand. He takes it quickly before rolling over to see (Y/N) peeking at him.

“Hi,” she says softly as his face pales.

“Did we…?”

“No, no…”

“Oh good.”

They lay in silence for about a minute as they each think about what to say.

“I should go…” He says as he sits up, (Y/N) quickly sitting up as well. 

“Yeah, okay…”

“Last night was fun, from what I remember,” he offers as he gets out of bed.

“Yeah it was.” She follows him out of her room and into the living room while he attempts to tug his shoes on.

“See you on the bridge.”

Before the door can swish open, she grabs his hand to stop him.

“Wait!”

As he turns back to her, (Y/N) gives him a quick peck. Ed is sure he’s a bright red as he looks at her, surprised. Before her anxiety can catch up with her, he leans down to capture her lips for longer.

“Think they fell for it?”

“Are you doubting my sim programming abilities?”

“No, no. It definitely looked like the whole bridge was there. But if they talk to anyone besides us they’ll find out.”

“That’s okay,” the ginger shrugs. “Once they figure it out, they’ll be too into each other to care.”

[luxsmall]

Welcome to my thought dumpster !

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You can call me Lux 💖 my pronouns are she/her, I'm 24, I'm a pisces and love purple and Kuromi. My special interests are mostly in baking, sewing, gaming, history/politics and arts 💜

I'm in recovery for an ed and drug abuse, there might be mentions of abuse of different kinds although I try not to ever go into graphic details 💜 I'm autistic and have ADHD, I'm very much a grown and capable woman, don't treat me like a child because of it, please.

if you're a minor I would advise you with caution, I won't follow you back, nothing personal, I'd just rather not. Take care 💜

Don't take my rage too seriously I'm just a people pleaser who's been holding onto stuff for too long, it just helps me deal with stuff to vent like that

This blog is old, don't scroll too low you might go back to the very triggering stuff, I honestly don't remember half of what I've posted here so apologies in advance

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DNI list :

Zionist / pro Israel

Racists

Transphobes

Homophobs

Fatphobes

Abelists

Pro lifers

Misogynists

Right wingers in general

General bigoted views

Ed coaches

Pro Anas

Pedos/maps/pedo defenders

Don't send me DMs if you're an old man, I'm gonna post your dms to my blog and call you a creep, no questions asked

TW list :

EDs

Drug abuse

Trauma (from physical, sexual, psychological and medical abuse)

(I keep changing up this post because I'm never happy with it lol I'm sorry)

Xoxo, Lux ✨

Ps : moots, feel free to dm whenever, I'm bad at answering fast but I care a lot 💜

[audikatia]

2024 Reading Review

Overall notes:

Anna Karenina truly is one of the best novels ever. It really, honestly, truly is a classic. I know a lot of people shit on classics, but goddamn. It really deserves all the hype.

With the exception of a few truly amazing stand outs, I felt like it was a poor year of reading. I want more 4-5 starred

That being said, some really amazing books. I am never going to stop thinking about Henry, Henry.

One of my goals this year was to read more sapphic fiction, which I definitely accomplished. As per usual, it was a lot of queer reading and I'm thinking maybe I should start including more breakdowns on that.

Next year's reading goals:

I want to read all of Shakespeare's plays in order of publication. I have read most of them, but it's been a while since I've read some of them and I've neglected some of the histories. Plus, I think it'll be really cool to see the evolution of his craft playwright by reading them in order.

I am hoping to raise my average rating within the 4-5 star range.

Am I really gonna read War and Peace this year since I liked Anna Karenina so much? Yeah, I think I am

Idk, man, I'm just trying to make my way through my never ending list. I'm just gonna keep tearing my way through the waitlist at the library

Full 2024 reading list and rankings under the cut

The City We Became by N. K. Jemisin ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ 

Delilah Green Doesn’t Care by Ashley Herring Blake ⭐️⭐️

Cleat Cute by Meryl Wilsner ⭐️⭐️

Patron Saints of Nothing by Randy Ribay ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ 

Persephone Station by Stina Leicht ⭐️⭐️⭐️ 

Pathogenesis: A History of the World in Eight Plagues by Jonathan Kennedy ⭐️⭐️⭐️ 

Divine Might: Goddesses in Greek Myth by Natalie Haynes ⭐️⭐️⭐️ 

The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes by Suzanne Collins ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ 

Legends and Lattes by Travis Baldree ⭐️⭐️⭐️ 

A Marvellous Light by Freya Marske ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

The Fury by Alex Michaelides ⭐️⭐️⭐️ 

Only If You’re Lucky by Stacy Willingham ⭐️⭐️ 

Everyone Who Can Forgive Me is Dead by Jenny Hollander ⭐️⭐️ 

My Murder by Katie Williams ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

A House with Good Bones by T. Kingfisher ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

In Memoriam by Alice Winn ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Big Swiss by Jen Beagin ⭐️⭐️

If This Gets Out by Sophie Gonzales ⭐️⭐️

Ace of Spades by Faridah Àbíké-Íyímíde ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Howl’s Moving Castle by Diana Wynne Jones ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Caught in a Bad Fauxmance by Elle Gonzalez Rose ⭐️⭐️

A Restless Truth by Freya Marske ⭐️⭐️⭐️

A Power Unbound by Freya Marske ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

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Ruthless Vows by Rebecca Ross ⭐️⭐️⭐️

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The Screaming Staircase by Jonathan Stroud ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Mercury by Amy Jo Burns ⭐️⭐️

Time to Shine by Rachel Reid⭐️⭐️

The Drowning Kind by Jennifer McMahon ⭐️⭐️

Swiped by L. M. Chilton ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Dayspring by Anthony Oliveira ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

You Know What You Did by K. T. Nguyen ⭐️⭐️

UNSUB by Meg Gardiner ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Into the Black Nowhere by Meg Gardiner ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

The Unclaimed: Abandonment and Hope in the City of Angels ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

A Rome of One’s Own: The Forgotten Women of the Roman Empire by Emma Southon ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

She Left by Stacie Grey ⭐️⭐️⭐️

Four Eids and a Funeral by Faridah Àbíke-Íyímídé and Adina Jaigirdar ⭐️⭐️⭐️

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The Dark Corners of the Night by Meg Gardiner ⭐️⭐️⭐️

Middle of the Night by Riley Sager ⭐️⭐️⭐️

My Darling Dreadful Thing by Johanna van Veen ⭐️⭐️

The Midnight Feast by Lucy Foley ⭐️⭐️⭐️

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A Fatal Thing Happened on the Way to the Forum by Emma Southon ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Shadow Heart by Meg Gardiner ⭐️⭐️⭐️

Breaking the Dark by Lisa Jewell ⭐️⭐️

The Pairing by Casey McQuiston ⭐️⭐️

Summer Sons by Lee Mandelo ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Butter: A Novel of Food and Murder by Asako Yuzuki ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

A Psalm for the Wild-Built by Becky Chambers ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

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What You Are Getting Wrong About Apalachia by Elizabeth Catte ⭐️⭐️⭐️

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Love Letters to a Serial Killer by Tasha Coryell ⭐️⭐️

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The Heiress by Rachel Hawkins ⭐️⭐️⭐️

Murder on a Moon Trek by Diane Vallere ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Murder in the Master by Judy L. Murray ⭐️⭐️⭐️

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The Honey Witch by Sydney J. Shields ⭐️⭐️⭐️

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The Quiet Tenant by Clémence Michallon ⭐️⭐️⭐️

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Fire and Dalmatian by Darlene Dziomba ⭐️⭐️⭐️ 

Help Wanted by Adelle Waldman ⭐️⭐️⭐️ 

The Raven Cycle by Maggie Stiefvater ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

The Dream Thieves by Maggie Stiefvater ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Blue Lily Lily Blue by Maggie Stiefvater ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

The Raven King by Maggie Stiefvater ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

 Opal by Maggie Stiefvater ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

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The Mystery Writer by Sulari Gentill ⭐️⭐️

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 The Royal Art of Poison: Filthy Palaces, Fatal Cosmetics, Deadly Medicine, and Murder Most Foul by Eleanor Herman ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

 I’m Starting to Worry About This Black Box of Doom by Jason Pargin ⭐️⭐️

 Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

[witchersmistress]

Monster pt 10

Hello my Darlings!! back with some monster today

Trigger Warning: straight up fluffy august

Word count: 2.5K

August’s POV 

your eyes filled with tears, I spun your round and kissed every inch of your face as you clung to me. Crushing you into my chest as you sobbed. I had no idea you felt so broken and unwanted. The thought that not a single person loving you drives me over the edge, i want to scour the world and burn them all to the ground.. Gripping the back of your head and wrapping an arm around your back “Wrap your arms around me” you put your arms around my neck and I picked you up by your thighs and lifted you off the ground, depositing you back on the bed. You curled up and just watched, eye glassy and conflicted. Shooting a quick text off to Ed to bring me my laptop, I pulled back the crips sheets and moved you under them. Making quick work of your leggings and socks, then your bra. 

Leaving you in you cotton panties and tucked the blankets around you, Ed knocked on the door and brought me my laptop and various other things that i was working on, Nicci trailed in behind him with a tray of a variety of food and drinks, she gave a small smile and walked back out the door, Ed clapped me on my and walked out. I stripped down to my boxer after they left the room and climbed into bed with you. Pulling you into my side, I drew circles on your shoulder and hummed a soft medley. “I want our son to be loved, he is the most important thing to me” moving my left hand to cover yours on the swell of your stomach “He is the most important thing, but he isn't my world you are” i wiped away a few stray tears as you laid your head on my chest and fell asleep. Watching your breath even out, I moved a few  pieces of hair from your eyes “ “I promise, if I steal, it will be to steal your heart. If I cheat, it’s to cheat death so I can stay with you longer. If I fight, it will be to protect you.” Then I add my own twist, “If you cry, it will be tears of happiness. If you're in pain, it will be because you're giving birth to our children.”

After placing a kiss on your head, heart and belly, i looked over at my laptop that chimed, grabbing the damn thing i looked over and it was a message from Sy and Walter

Walter: *Sends the video of August talking to you while you are sleeping*

“ I may vomit..”

That rotten motherfucker, i am going to get him one of these days

Sy: I hate to say this man but someone has to. You are pussy whipped cuz, ain't nothing you can do about it”

August: like you aren't over a 27 year old girl you’ve known your entire life?”

Sy:” shut up Gus”

Walter “Wow I've never seen you this love struck since you discovered yourself”

Sy:  “🤣 🤣 🤣 Thats  a good one Walter”

August: Seriously fuckers, your a bunch of children 🙄”

Closing out of the chat and scrolling over to my emails, most of it junks or unimportant matters, but one stands out to me, from Matthias

“Hey Boss,

We have auction night coming up but none of the other partners are available and neither are you, still continuing without one present?

Matthias 

Adjusting my laptop so that i could type, 

“Matthias,

Dont worry man one of the partners will be there, don't you worry”

August

Smiling to myself as i switched back over to chat:

August: “Since both of you are being fuckers.. Sy you’ll need to be at LUX this weekend, for the auction since i am unavailable and Walters is just a dumb fucker”

Walter: *typing* Rude..

Sy: Seriously?!?! I have other stuff I was going to do, Gus this is bullshit!!

August: Oh what were you going to do?? Masterbate to pictures of Rory?

Walter: “Damn bro that harsh.. I fucking love it”

Sy: “.........fucking asshole.. I had plans with her dad, we were going fishing”

I was typing my reply when Sy responded again:

Sy: “Fucking assholes, her dad just asked me to keep an eye on her since she is going out to LA this weekend. What the fuck am i suppose to do?”

Walter: “Wear a condom”

August: “an extra small one”

Sy: “Assholes the lot of you, this isn't fucking funny. She is his daughter like how do i deal with that, ive been wanting your daughter since she was 18, im fucking 45 years old man. It's wrong on so many levels”

August: “It's funny from where I’m sitting”

Walter: “Like I said man, wear a condom.. An extra small one and pray you don't have a heart attack”

Sy:” Fuck you man”

August: “Nah Syverson dont fuck Walter, fuck Rory” 

Sy: “🖕 i fucking hate both of you”

Walter: There sure seems to be a lot of fucking going on, just not with poor Rory, the poor thing i hope she brought a friend”

Sy: 😒 😒 😒

Letting out a sharp laugh, I startled you, your eyes flutter open, reaching across my chest, dragging your finger nails down my chest, i feel the sting, your nails leave behind along with the 4 pink marks down my chest before you settle your hand low on my abdomen and drift back off to sleep. “My sleepy little kitten, what have you done to me?” burying your face deeper into my side, with a gentle laugh, i focus back on my work. A few restful minutes pass before knocking at the door. “Come in” 

“Sorry boss” Ed said as he came in with some documents, “I know you two needed time but we found how her dad got into the estate” he extended his hand to show me some grainy footage of Ethan and his crew of misfits making their way into an old ice house. Fuck i forgot all about that, there was a passage way from there to the kitchen.

Pinching the bridge of my nose, I ran a finger gently down the bridge of your nose, “Sweet girl, I’ll be back before you know it” placing a kiss on your forehead and tucking a pillow in my place, you snuggled up closer and sighed. I didn't want to leave but I need to protect you and our son more than ever. Quickly getting dressed, I looked back at you curled up in bed. With a heavy sigh I turned and left you, hopefully for the last time.

*hours later*

Does Ethan think I am that stupid? He wanted me to find him. Slinking through the front hall, my men spread out behind me. I nodded at Ed before I opened the door and made my way into the house, walking into the den. There is no sign of anyone here. I pointed to my left and right, spreading my men out to search the property, Ed and I went further into the den, looking over plans and blueprints of my home in Paris and our current hideaway in Italy

FUUUCK!! Scrambling for my phone, I called Walter “Hello brother to what do I owe..”

I cut him off before he could finish “ I need an extraction team in Italy, immediately, she and my baby are in danger.” i heard the clicking of keys as he quickly typed and the muffled sound of voices as he barked out orders ``It's done, they will be there within the hour” the click on the other end told me that he had hung up, i quickly pulled up the cameras and saw his men making entry to the home, Nicci woke you up and threw things in a bag before handing you a prepaid cell phone, Ed came up beside me and handed me his “Baby girl listen to Nicci and do what she says, you’ll be safe in her hands and i'll see you soon”

Your POV

I remember hearing August recite an old Irish prayer, then i was being woken up by panicked Australian accent “Wake up we need to go” coming back to the land of the living, i saw Nicci throwing stuff into a bag and clothes on the bed “Quick, we need to get you to safety.” I sprang up from bed, quickly pulling on my clothes as Nicci scolded the men when they came in. “Have you no respect, she is naked” my cheeks flushing at the thought of another man seeing me naked, but more of how August would behave if he found out. Nicci handed me a cellphone, it was August “What is going on?” there was chatting on the other end of the line “Just moving you to a different location sweet girl, i'll see you when you get here” the lined clicked on the other ended and i handed the phone back to Nicci, i pulled my favorite sweater, stolen from August, i felt something scratch me along my back, hissing as it bite into my skin, Nicci came over, “What's the matter love?”

“Something is caught in my sweater” pulling at the back, she pulled it up and gasped “That rotten bastard, your father planted a bug on ya” she called for one of August’s men and they came in. she handed over the bug and they grimaced “Boss won't be too happy” he grabbed his wand and nikki snatched it. “‘I’ll do it, you don't need to be touching her” she waved it over my body and my stuff  nothing else beeped, tossing my black flats at me feet, “Come girly lets go” we rushed through the beautiful home as we were hustled out the door and into the driveway. There was  a couple, standing there talking to one of August’s men, they could have passed for August and I at a glance.

Nikki gave me a squeeze “Your safe I promise you that, come we have someone we want you to meet” i nodded as we made our way towards were they were standing. Nikki tapped the man on the shoulder and he spun around “Nikki” he spoke with a Irish accent, as he scooped her up and spun her around “Saint you eejit, put me down” he let out a loud laugh and placed her back on her feet “ We will make an irish woman out of you yet” she rolled her eyes and slapped him in the chest, she turned back to me “where are my manners, this is my brother in law Saint and his girl Nyx” i looked over at Nyx, she had to same type of build as me, from hair color and eyes, to height and build.

Nyx popped the trunk of her vehicle and opened a duffle bag “ Hi sweetness” . I wasn't expecting her to have a soft tone like she does. “Come, let's see if I have anything that matches” I nodded as we dug through the bag. Nikki chatted with Saint and August’s men, fiddling with a necklace.. She was nervous. We all were. We managed to get Nyx dressed like me, “Now for that last piece” I jumped out of my skin as Saint came up behind me. He let out a soft chuckle as Nyx stared him down “Saint dont scare the poor girl, you were raised better than that” he rubbed my shoulders and then moved to Nyx and pulled her in his arms and devoured her mouth in a passionate kiss. I was equal parts embarrassed and jealous. 

Jealous that they can be so open like they are, I don't know if I’ll ever get to have that with August or if he and I will be doomed to the shadows while my father hunts us. Somebody clearing their throat, stopped them. “If you two are finished we need to get moving” Nikki huffed at them. They broke apart and Saint retrieved a little clear bag from his pocket. “Last piece, the tracker” he looked at Nyx and indicated for her to spin around, she did and raised the sweater up, he attached the tracker to the band of her leggings and pulled her sweater back down “We are all set” confusion must have been written on my face..

“Sweetness” Nyx cooed at me “We are the diversion for you to get away safely, you and that precious baby” she winked at me. Nikki pulled me into her side, “Do not fret those two are very good at what they are doing.  Come on into the vehicle with you ", throwing one last glance over my shoulder to Nyx and Saint, he was putting his helmet before giving Nyx hers, she smiled at me and yelled “Don't worry love we’ll be seeing you again.” popping on her helmet and getting on the back of the bike and taking off. Nikki put me into the black escalade and we took off, she rubbed my shoulder as we drove to the air strip. I just couldn't get out of my own head, I wanted August but I may never have him the way I want to. I felt a tear slipping down my face as I watched the house fade into the background.

We pulled into the airfield where a plane was waiting for us and a familiar figure was pacing in front of the steps. August, he looks like he has aged 20 years since he left. The car had barely come to a stop before I was flinging off my seatbelt and opening the door.  “Woman, what is the matter with you?” Nikki called after me as I took off from the car. “August” I yelled but he didnt hear me, pumping my legs faster “AUGUST!!” I yelled with everything in my chest, he stopped pacing and looked over at me before I started running at me. I'm not sure who collided with who but that didn't matter, i wrapped myself around that man like a snake hanging from a tree. He wrapped my legs around his waist, one hand was on my back, the other one went to the back of my head, securing me to his frame. Turning around he walked up the steps, Nikki was shaking her head and laughing at me while he carried me. Passed the seats and into the private bedroom in the back. Closing the door behind him, he sat on the bed and pulled me closer to him. We did speak for several long seconds, he unwrapped my legs from his waist and he sat me on the edge of the bed while he paced around bedroom space, i fiddled with the grey throw blanket as he moved about, the plush grey carpeting with white wall and the window shades half drawn so there was some sunlight streaming in.

“August” I started as he blew out a breath and turned around to look at me. “Marry me” 

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hello !! my name is clarissa, but i also go by lux and maureen. i use she/they pronouns + sodapop/pearls .

i am taken by my AMAZING boyfriend!! ( i would like to give him a big smooch. )

this account is for girlblogging!! the current theme is blue, or tidal ( fiona apple ).

my favorite-

🩵 artists : lana del rey, simon&garfunkel , taylor swift, gracie abrams ( i do NOT like her as a person ), sabrina carpenter, ed sheeran.., fiona apple, jeff buckley, olivia rodrigo, bob dylan, jimi hendrix, elton john

🩵 bands : the beatles, hole, mazzy star, red hot chili peppers, sm6.. ( their music is good okay. ), traveling wilburys, buddy holly & the crickets, dion & the belmonts, tally hall, weezer, panic! at the disco, fall out boy

🩵 movies : the virgin suicides, buffalo ‘66, girl , interrupted, little women, alice in wonderland ( 1951, 1999 and 1985 adaptations ), the outsiders, lolita ( I DO NOT ROMANTICIZE OR SUPPORT ANYTHING IN THE MOVIE. ), almost famous, karate kid I II and III, priscilla, black swan, the children’s hour

🩵 shows : cobra kai, gilmore girls, brooklyn nine-nine, a series of unfortunate events, tally hall’s internet show, new girl

🩵 musicals : alice by heart, almost famous, heathers, hamilton, little shop of horrors, ride the cyclone

🩵 books : my year of rest and relaxation, the virgin suicides, alice’s adventures in wonderland, girl , interrupted, the bell jar, twilight, a series of unfortunate events

my favorite colours are white green and brown.

that’s it for now!! hope you enjoy my blog * .

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Luxe's Masterlist💗

Spiderverse 🕸️

Hobie brown

Consistency : Hobie x gn! reader fluff

To Be Enough: Hobie x Gn! reader hurt/comfort (Tw: ED)

Numbness : Hobie x Feminine reader fluff

When He Sees Me : Hobie x fem! reader, fluff, confessions

Genshin 🧚🏻

Zhongchi

My Love ; My heart : where Socialite! Childe manages to drag CEO! Zhongli to a fashion show and puts him in a dress

Kavetham

Come Home To Cake : Kaveh comes home, bruised and bloody. Al Haitham is worried. ( Tw: Slight Mention of Blood)