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So, I've got a prompt for you.
I love movies and tv series and they are all so different from each other but also have so much things in common. And there is one thing i can picture our beloved men from Eternals in.
I think at least one time in their whole time on earth, Ajak forced her children to spend time together, in groups. So while Ajak is dragging her daughters around, the group of men are forced to hang out with each other. And a full men group, hanging out, means normal conversations drifting to uncomfortable and awkward conversations (for at least one or two individuals.) So I'd like to ask you to write Kingo, Phastos, Druig, Ikaris and Gilgamesh (god i love him, malewife) in such a situation, maybe sparring together, drinking alcohol but the most important: talking about (their) girls! (or boys, or whatever preference our individuals have in a partner)
"This fuckin' sucks."
No one spoke up to agree with Druig, but certainly no one argued with him, either.
Ajak was with the other half of the Eternals, having brought Sersi, Makkari, Thena and Sprite with her to the beautiful natural springs just outside the palace grounds. India was so mild in climate, and they were still getting used to the place after arriving short of a month ago.
She had claimed it was mother-daughter bonding time, and encouraged they do the same. Gil and Kingo had certainly had their reservations, while Ikaris, Druig and Phastos had quickly asserted that they would rather let the villagers burn them on the pyre.
And yet here they were.
Kingo took a sip of his...whatever it was. He winced a little at it, staring into the fire they'd built simply for something to do and occupy their time. He was the most antsy, the rest of them having devolved into silence naturally. Which wasn't really Kingo's style. "Is anyone going to say anything, or...?"
"Just did," Druig barked at him from an entirely separate log bench all to himself, "sucks."
"Oi," Ikaris snarled at him, which did nothing to improve the atmosphere. He leaned on his knees, also sitting on a separate log bench.
Phastos was occupying himself with whatever, using his powers for something or other, ignoring them all deliberately. Also on his own log.
Gil sighed, staring up at the moon from where he had given upon talking and simply laid down on the ground.
Kingo turned around to look at Gil, lying down behind him, "what's with you?"
The Strongest Eternal shrugged, absently pulling up a bite of mango for himself. "I wonder what Thena's thinking about right now."
A round of loud groans hit the air, startling the birds in the trees.
"What?" Gil sat up with a frown at his band of brothers.
"Thena-this, and Thena-that," Phastos supplied readily, rolling his eyes the hardest at it.
"Oh, come on," Gil huffed, but he looked over as Druig barked out a sharp laugh at him.
"Gil, you ever heard yer own thoughts, mate?" the mind reader snickered, poking at his own temple as he said it. "Thena-this and Thena-that is exactly what you're thinkin'--always!"
Gil sighed, dusting himself off and sitting himself on Kingo's log properly. "I don't see the problem."
"You wouldn't," Ikaris snorted, and this time Gil took a little more offense to it. "You've got all that muscle and not a single one in your brain."
Gil picked up a rock and flicked it at the Soaring Eternal. For any mortal, it would have gone clean through their head like a bullet, but Ikaris snarled as it bounced off his forehead like a nut shell. "Aren't you supposed to be getting married soon? I'd expect you to have thoughts of nothing but your future wife."
Ikaris also soured at having his fiancee brought up. "Some of us can think of more than one thing at a time."
"Okay," Phastos held a hand in both of their directions, as if trying to soothe savage beasts. "No one has to talk about anyone's wives, y'animals."
"Let 'em have it out, Phastos," Druig laughed, picking up a pear for himself and biting into it with a disgusting amount of gusto. Chunks and juice flew from his mouth as he pointed, "I wanna shee what 'appensh!"
"Close your damn mouth when you're eating!" Phastos barked at the 'youngest' of them present.
"All that'll happen is Ajak getting mad at us," Kingo pointed out liberally. He patted Gil's shoulder, knowing that he was the more easily reasoned with between him and Ikaris. "Look Gil, I support you, and your gross, sappy romanticism."
"Thanks," Gil sneered at him and his 'support'. He turned his glare in Druig's direction, "I don't bring up you following Kari around, now do I?"
"Oi," Druig grumbled.
Phastos shared a look with Kingo, both of them entirely capable of disparaging their siblings in similar and opposite ways. Phastos wasn't opposed to the vessel, but needed the right soul. Kingo was proudly uninterested in everyone equally.
Ikaris also looked up at the moon and sighed. "What're they even doing?"
Kingo looked at Druig, "what did mother-daughter bonding mean?"
Druig snarled up one side of his nose and lips. "You think I'm in everyone's heads all the fuckin' time?"
"Kinda."
"Well, m'not," Druig shrugged, tossing away his pear seeds and reaching for a fresh one. "That'd be exhausting."
"Whose thoughts are the loudest?"
"Yours."
"I don't believe you," Kingo countered just as quickly as Druig had. He got a look for it but shrugged. "Maybe sometimes, sure. But it can't always be me."
Druig chuckled, bobbing his head in Gil's direction, "who'd you think? It's Mister Thena over 'ere."
"What do you mean they're loud?" Gil crossed his arms in his defense.
"Just what it sounds like, Gil," Druig offered at least slightly more amiable than he had been before. "S'not like shoutin', I guess. But they're...they're loud and clear. All the time."
"Like wh-"
"Thena," all four other Eternals answered for him simultaneously. Gil pursed his lips, feeling his cheeks warm. But at least the others were smiling and laughing (even if it was at his expense).
Druig slapped his knee in glee. "It's always 'where's Thena?', or 'wonder what Thena's up to', or 'I miss Thena' from you."
"Okay, okay," Gil sighed. It wasn't as if he had a correction to make, or even a defense to it. Those certainly sounded like his thoughts.
"Her too."
"Huh?" Gil blinked, hearing a much softer follow up from Druig.
The solitary Eternal was looking down at his pear, toying with it in his hands as the truth of his words made him quieter. He offered Gil a smile. "She's the same way--if you somehow didn't know."
"Thena?" Gil blinked.
"Yeah, Thena?" Kingo repeated from next to him. "I mean, I don't doubt it about Gil, but I figured T was...harder to read."
Druig grinned, shaking his head. He became a little more sheepish, but shrugged. "Most'a the time, yeah. But when it's about Gil here...she's clear as a bell."
Kingo just nodded, taking another sip of (whatever). "Wouldn't have guessed."
"First time I caught it I thought I was fucked," Druig shook his head. "T doesn't take kindly t'me pokin' around, 'course. But this thought just--it shot out like an arrow."
"What was it?" Gil asked, unable to resist.
Druig looked at him, offering a much more genuine smile, "Gil."
He just stared, "yeah--I'm asking."
"No, that's it," Druig chuckled, shaking his head again and ruffling his hair for good measure. "Just Gil--she walks around with your name in 'er head like the breath in 'er lungs. I had to learn to block it out--s'like a clock, tick-tick-tickin' away in the background."
Gil looked like he could burst with joy.
Ikaris cleared his throat faintly, already ruddy cheeked when the others looked at him. "Does, uh, Sersi-"
"Don't know, haven't checked."
"Okay!" Phastos stood, clapping his hands together before Ikaris could pick up Druig and throw him clear across the Ganges. "Why don't I reach out to Ajak and see what they're up to?"
Druig rolled his eyes as a loud and clear I want to see Thena floated into his mind. Gil was like an unchecked faucet--sometimes dripping, sometimes on full blast, but always leaking in some way.
"That's a good idea," Ikaris growled as he floated back down to his log, fists still clenched and eyes still glowing.
"Well," Kingo sighed as he set down his nondescript beverage. "What an unproductive discussion."
"Speak for yourself," Gil chuckled, nudging his most jovial brother's arm.
#I do think this is exactly how a conversation like this would go#because first of all#these five in particular#do not want to all hang out together#Even malewives extraordinaire Druig and Gil#don't want to talk to Ikaris let alone about the loves of their lives#Kingo thinks it's all very boring#unless it's funny and then he loves to get the gossip#even if it's about his brothers and sisters being in love#and yes that's how he phrases it#much to all their distress#Phastos is like I hate each and every one of you I hate this family#but he is the responsible brother in charge of every camping trip#and of course Gil is just moping around like I wish my wife were here#and listen...Thena's the same way#she's over in the springs with her sisters and their Prime#She and Sersi are braiding each other's hair while Ajak and Makkari are making little flower crowns#Sprite is lying face down in the water trying to achieve drowning#and Thena is sighing every five seconds until they're like jesus what the fuck is it???#and she's like what?#obviously she misses Gil they all know that#but Thena's like that's silly I know where he is and that he's unharmed#I don't miss him#I just want to be near him and feel him next to me and breathe the same air as him#like babygirl is down bad HORRENDOUS#Thenamesh...themed?#Thenamesh AU#let's say
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yes i Am paying real money to make you all look at our new dog. we've had her for 3 hours and if anything happened to her I'd kill everyone in this room and then myself. her name is Tater Tot
#dogs#🥔#we think she's somewhere in the 2-5 range but everyone gave us a different answer#they said aussie/pomeranian but i (self-proclaimed world champion of dog identification) am 99.998% certain she is aussie and great pyr#the shape of her tail and the way she moves but also oh my god. SO much hair. this is 80% hair and 20% animal#also she is very calm & gentle but every time one of us leaves the room she'll get up to observe where we go#she isn't distressed at all she's just keeping tabs on us which as i understand it is Peak pyr behavior#anyway she is 100% goodest girl and i wuv her 😭#chi's adventures in pet ownership
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Redraw • Voltron S02E01 • This episode is so inherently intimate with the way Shiro and Keith are talking to each other through their intercoms while Keith is coming to Shiro's rescue. Both are in danger and still worry about the other one, asking "what happened". 😩
#keith#shiro#sheith#voltron#vld#midnott#midnott.art#redraw#this show#it made me realises how much I love when the bigger and stronger guy is the one being in distress all the time#and his smol partner stops at nothing to save him
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We were circling each other.
#iwtv#iwtvedit#interview with the vampire#loumand#louis de pointe du lac#armand#i'm still obsessed with this sequence of shots#there's no dialogue but so much meaning#at first louis is just covering up his distress and confusion over his hallucination of lestat#but then he gets all cocky and flirtatious and bold#and armand is clearly trying not to smile but unable to stop himself#louis' little glance around to make sure they're alone before he gets in close#his slow grin. armand entranced by it but then catching himself and withdrawing.#IT'S SO GOOD. THIS SHOW IS SO GOOD. THE ACTORS ARE SO GOOD.#that's CHEMISTRY babey!!!
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#this is pretty good if you ignore all the parts that are bad#anyway i hope you like double encryption i'm starting to get into it more <- normal sentence for normal people to say#something something tim begins to distort more the more distressed he gets or some shit idk brother i just work here#i was being forced to watch the room while i drew the majority of this if you want an idea of my mental state during the Artistic Process#my art#art#illustration#marble hornets#marble hornets fanart#mh#tim marble hornets#tim wright#i'm Not tagging all of them that is so much#eyestrain cw
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if you worry about suddenly becoming a pedophile, abuser, zoophile, etc because of a damn pairing of two characters that wouldn't ever know you exist, you shouldn't ship stuff.
#if its causing you that much distress just. don't ship#thats all#nyannyannyanx3#proship#comship#darkship#proshippers please interact#comshippers please interact#darkshippers please interact#pro para#profic#pro fiction#pro fic#profiction
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kiss the pain away
#vashwood#trigun#trigun stampe#vash the stampede#wolfwood#nicholas d wolfwood#ep 10 was crazy bc vashwood was literally the plot goodbye#i like how the most intimate moment between these two was in the goddamn sewers#i feel like that alone symbolizes so much in their relationship. im half joking BUT ITS JUST LIKE#the SPONTANEITY the PRIVACY they get in such an open Space while being literally chased / hunted after....#and vash is out here showing his scars.............. and ill always lose my mind that they gave this spotlight to wolfwood instead of#meryl and milly like in the previous versions. i dont know how else to read this other than that wolfwood is the romantic interest of stamp#it makes sense even aside from this scene. u know. wolfwood was technically the damsel in distress in ep 5-6 and vash saved/helped him.#and who stayed in the bedroom with vash.................#who rushed to his side when he got shot...... with that worried ass expression....#i dont have anything smart to say at all im just gushing over vashwood thru stampede bc its just so blatant. and its great that its blatant#bc it was blatant in trimax too. like so blatant. the romance was written in every chapter they showed up together#god#ive never witnessed a pairing more canon without being spoken as such its soooooo much theyre so much#ruporas art
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My night was going so wonderfully.
The headshot of this cover is just PAINFUL. They're actually acknowledging each other, they're the only ones on a cover to do that. And it's the prominent detail that Mizi looks horrified staring at Sua, even though they're clutching each other so... like they can't let go, while Sua looks reverent in the lane of that gaze, even blushing, slightly, savoring the moment. This also looks like their kiss scene...
To me, she looks just the same as the day she died because I think this cover is Sua's haunting of Mizi, because Sua's singing is just that, haunting and distant the longer she sings, she's fading out, but so gently despite its gruesomeness. And Mizi is grieving.
She's as angelic as she is in Mizi's memories..
But there's a cruelty to this because Mizi will never forget what she saw in round 1, that's why seeing Sua over and over and over again terrifies her, hence why the tone of this song is SO dark, especially in the second half when they're coming to a close, they get desperate to keep each other close, and there is a certain, but familiar ignorance to Sua's presence as if she can't see Mizi's pain even though Mizi is crying right in front of her--childish egos, Sua becomes a more honest character after her death, and in more expressive formats like this, and I like how she takes on that position in this song, the taker. (Like Till, he wanted a security blanket out of Mizi; Sua is similar in that sense.) as she takes and wants from Mizi for her own sanity.
And this newest illustration, oh my god. EXPRESSES THIS IDEA PERFECTLY, Sua looks so utterly distant, ghostly, dead.
In contrast to Ivan and Till's cure, Mizi and Sua's cure is more of a duet, and they switch places often. Mizi starts the song, she ends the song (just like in my clematis), and Sua supports it. Whereas Ivan and Till take turns leading and harmonizing, Mizi and Sua both participate.
And I believe they're interacting? Ivan and Till's cure wasn't a message to each other, something a lot more complicated than that--but Mizi and Sua transition frequently and it feels like they're singing to each other, It's more intimate.
Mizi - Allow me, to the tips of your finger
Allow me, to the ends of your feet
Dissolve me in your gaze
I don't want to let you go.
Sua - Please, leave me scars
Please, hurt me so that not a singly drop of me remains
Let me drown in you.
(The backing vocals mean so much to me, it's like a choir(?))
Mizi - Until these falling stars
Are buried in the blur of time
On your icy lips
Read my soul, yes, my soul
It wasn't spontaneous for the sake of it either, because this is a call-and-response
Sua - Even if your cold words
Carve scars beneath my eyes
May they linger on your tongue
You can break me apart
Mizi - Notice my pain
And mend me right now
To quiet my fears
I'll drown in you
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Mizi is directly asking Sua, or the version of her she can't forget, to stay with her, calm her like she used to, as she wishes to have remained in the dark, to drown in her, or to have just not been left alone and, because even now Sua's death is not something she can accept, the portrayal of her feelings as she expresses her pain and desire to keep Sua close, even the false presence of her "On your icy lips" and "notice my pain and mend me right now" even though It's terrifying her, she doesn't want to let go.
Sua acknowledges Mizi's pain, and their shared pains after she died for her, the blame and the betrayal. Interestingly, Sua takes on the metaphorically self-destructive lyrics, Sua lives in fear, anxiety, and utter gloominess, she didn't want to be hurt by Mizi in the literal sense, but she would've rather been warmed in Mizi's soft light, her false hope and optimism, to be destroyed and to destroy Mizi's hope, even dying as the penalty of their love was far better.
Then Sua goes on to sing through the perspective of Mizi and her loneliness and grief after losing her with perfect clarity, it takes me back to the comic where Ivan scolded Sua about her plan, saying that she'd be nothing more than a trauma to Mizi after everything is said and done, she got upset at Ivan because she knew that, was devastated by the fact that she would be a burden just as she always feared, but then, what's a life without Mizi by her side, her only safety net? Her every reason for living?
This song displays their deep love and devotion, they sound melancholic but even in these horrific circumstances, Mizi's pain and hesitance, they don't drown each other out, they move together in perfect harmony just like they always do, in this way, it also feels like an apology of sorts from both sides before the bitter end, and a final goodbye.
AND THEN AT THE END WITH THE PERFECT SYNCHRONIZING OF THEIR VOICES ARGHH
And a new Sua illustration for the occasion 😭💔 (I'm gonna catch you soon Vivinos just wait.)
#brain vomit: Sua never looks worried about Mizi when she's in distress because--in death she's much more open. She has a childish ego.#--And cares for herself. Often leaving Mizi in the dark and unintentionally hurting her for her own security.#The dead don't talk but the feelings say it all#alien stage#alnst#alien stage mizi#alien stage sua#alnst mizi#alnst sua#makes me think beta ivantill wouldve had more of this vibe since they reciprocated#AGRHHH I LOVE YOU MIZISUA CURE#TILL ALL IN#FUCKKSSKSKDKFHEE#RHEHHHE#EXPLODES ALL OF THEM#THEIR VOICES ARE PHENOMENAL SERIOUSLY#can someone come over here and match my tragedy#IM SO SAD ABOUT THEM#hehhrhehehhe#mizisua#alsnt mizi
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Emma Swan and Killian Jones in OUAT, 3x22 There's No Place Like Home
#cs graphic#captainswanedit#csedit#dailycsgifs#hookedit#emmaswanedit#ouatedit#Captain Swan#Emma Swan#Killian Jones#cs mafia#cs crew#justa's edit#Jennifer Morrison#Colin O'Donoghue#3x22#once upon a time#love this scene#cause it shows that emma is capable of saving herself#she's not some damsel in distress that needs man to save her#but killian does show up so she knows that he is there for her#she doesn't have to be strong all the time#she can be fine in 9 out of 10 cases#but when this 1 time something will go wrong#he'll be there to help her#for someone who's been abandoned so many times in the past#i think that means so much and i love this
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This one is for all the aspecs who didn't feel like there's something wrong with them. To all those too oblivious or too indomitable to feel alienated. You're still awesome and you're still valid
#aspec#aro#ace#aromantic#asexual#aroace#i pretty much constantly only see posts that talk about the ascpe experience of feeling different and being distressed by it#and those people are valid#but this one is for all my peeps that were more like “oh this label fits” and went on about their life as normal#don't derail please#gelatinous post
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Times they had to say goodbye — [3.5/4]
Pocahontas (1995)
#i had to split this scene into 2 parts#bc it's Long and they say good bye twice over#so like. yeah. hopefully i'll post the last part tomorrow 👍#pocahontas (1995)#pocahontas x john smith#pocajohn#pocajohn so long and farewell#disney pocahontas#disney john smith#pocahontasedit#pocahontasgif#disneyedit#disneygif#pocahontas#john smith#i want to talk to the color department about the light variance in this film?????#the skin color adaptation to various light changes is so cool but so frustrating to keep consistent in gifsets yo#gifset no. 23235 of That Kiss#john smith is literally about to pass out look at him#he strained himself like twice. once when he's ''helping'' pocahontas down (why)#and again when he's starting to panic as the circumstances really sink in and he sees that pocahontas is all distressed#and he can't do much bc he has a stupid gut wound#like u GH
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I think it's kind of hilarious that in PJ's movies one of the main reasons why Thorin doubles down and refuses to deal with Thranduil (instead keeping the Company imprisoned for perhaps longer than necessary) is because he just has THAT much faith in Bilbo and believes he's not only still alive (which he has no proof of at this point), but that Bilbo will ALSO come back and find a way to save all of them within the relatively short amount of time they have before they miss Durin's Day
On one hand, he was right!! Bilbo DID do all of that, and it's really heartwarming that Thorin believed in him!!
But on the other, I can never think about this without also thinking about the fact that Bilbo was living in Thranduil's walls for multiple weeks (according to the book) and probably had little to eat nor ample opportunity to rest. All while Thorin could have taken Thranduil's deal and stopped it at any moment
I'm not saying that (movie) Thorin was wrong for not doing so (I probably also wouldn't trust the word of someone who tried to make a deal with me as "one king to another" while also bargaining the freedom of my family and friends, even if I didn't have a century-long grudge on top of it), but I can't imagine a reality that Thorin lives where Bilbo wouldn't have something to say about it. I don't know if he would necessarily be angry or upset at Thorin, but I think he'd at least feel some type of way about it
#I see a lot of people talk about Thorin's POV in this scenario but surprisingly not much about Bilbo's#I just think there's a lot of good fanfic material here somewhere I don't know#text post#my post#the hobbit#thorin oakenshield#bilbo baggins#this isn't explicitly bagginshield but all are welcome to interpret it that way#don't get me wrong the thorin “damsel in distress” oakenshield shtick is really funny but bilbo was actually fighting for his life here
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Plural culture is yeah we mask really well, no one can tell
Literally every single time we've come out to someone about the system (/srs)
"Yeah I kinda had an idea"
Or
"Ohhh that makes sense now actually"
Like guys please ;-;
We are trying to pass ;-;
And we've had people ask us if we have DID without us even mentioning it like come on
#endos dni#osdd#did#pdid#did system#osddid#pdid system#actually did#traumagenic#actually dissociative#plural culture is#syspunk#side vent in the tags this is actually a genuinely terrifying thing for most of us#like knowing that people can tell when all of us are masking as much as we can a majority of the time#that is distressing that should not be happening#granted the only people we've told outside the Internet are extremely close to us so maybe they can only tell because they spend#so much time with us#but also we had an ex just straight up ask us if we had it when he and the host first started talking#it had been like a week and only the host had talked to him and he just.. knew??#is it that obvious???#Puter how to hide DID better ;-;
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it takes a while for Floyd to come to after Bruce brings him home
(aka: the moment from the Dream AU that I rotate in my head the most. Gotta love that sweet sweet concern ♥️)
(★ my Kofi)
#my art#dreamworks trolls#trolls fanart#trolls au#trolls floyd#trolls bruce#there is. SO much more to this scene but it's all vague ideas. nothing really concrete.#me when the character shoves aside their own fear to comfort another character who's more scared than they are ☺️#also i love drawing distressed emotions sue me#trolls#the dream au
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#a doodley#okkk 2022: the torture chamber....i only sparsely drew al and developed talon (he was borned...) bc my mind was occupied with other things.#2023: exiting torture chamber; it took me a tiny little bit to get back to drawing and ''interacting with'' al again but i did it even#though it was a reminder of the Bad bc he's my copium#summer 2023: i view and witness media and suddenly have like 5 fictional men i cant decide on which to focus... and september (talon month)#comes along so I decide to focus on Talon after not touching him much at all throughout the entire year#(forced this btw i did not wanna do it LOL i didnt even remember how to draw him)#september 2023 to now: talon has infiltrated the brain. but i want to swivel back to al#now: i've forgotten how to Talk to al (just like i did in beginning of 2023)#(and just like i forgot how to talk to talon for most of 2023)#so ive kind of just been replaying the smunker cow al daydreams from when they first met#so I can find my way back...retracing my steps#in doing so ive kind of also forgotten how to interact with talon but still havent gotten back to al#so rn my life is so boring without imaginary bf interactions. just the before sleep plot rehashing daydreams...#or sparse visions of em Sometimes#nobody in my brain rn just like the short period last yr and its distressing#what do i draw without a love obsession.....#how do i pass time without it....! so boring. idk what to do#i miss the me of several yrs ago when i was drawing 50 different aus with al....ive downgraded in skill and imagination and creativity#so bad since then. idk. idk. i hope they come back to me soon#maybe i shld just draw al a lot which is how i kickstarted caring abt talon again almost a yr ago ?#hoping i can get him to come back before my surgery i need my big sexy boy nurse for recovery#(complaining abt things usually fixes em for me so im hoping thats the case here)
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