#missed out on all the fun last night
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jude stans i get you this is how i felt after zayn and perrie announced their engagement at the this is us premiere
#missed out on all the fun last night#having a ball reading all the tweets/going through his tag#neymar being at the scene of the crime is what’s sending me😭😭😭#jude bellingham
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#OMG i kept forgetting to post this after i'd drawn it#no backgrounds we in the void#to h&m fans: i prommy im working on h&m ive just also been roped back into cof and im the planner for it#to cofheads: i prommy im working on cof ive just also got a full time job#'budget' is a metaphor for my time and energy ahaha#man it was really fun to draw askravenpaw and also miss maple after all this time#speaking of miss maple. to cofheads: me and my wife are not the same person. my wife does not run all of cof dhjdghkd (i do)#ppl keep saying any hiatuses must mean he's busy im right here#ANYWAYS. the character tags#sorry im super tired because i barely slept last night because its randomly started being 30 C in winter (85 F or smth idk google it)#hawkfrost#mudclaw#frederick di luna#mustard#intermission#warrior cats#ask blog#post#i only realised after posting this theres no filters as well as no background. i was procrastinating & wanted to make sure i got it out LMA#*lmao
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The sukugo fight can't get animated any sooner I'm craving sukugo tiktok edits
#jjk#ryomen sukuna#gojo Satoru#sukugo#my post#sukugo's date night#Grown ass men beating each other up looking each other in the eyes thinking about love while a cutesy song plays in the background 😍#I saw a tiktok edit of Sukuna annihilating everything with the song “what is love?” by TWICE playing I was like wait a minute THISSS!!!#but with the Sukugo fight!!!!#I have a whole montage in my brain hear me out.... starting from 2:27 minutes in#Wonder where you are?~ I'm gonna find you~ Wonder where you are?~ I'm so dying to see you~ I can't take it much longer~#👆🏻these lyrics with that scene of Sukuna waiting for gojo on the rooftop before their fight...hmmm yes yandere vibes yes#How it could be as sweet as candy~ How it's like flying in the sky~#👆🏻These with Sukuna and gojo clashing in the sky over kenjaku#this part of the song is the slowest so a slow motion scene of them in the sky would look beautifulagghj#I wanna know know know know~ what is love?~ What love feels like~#👆🏻 these with Sukuna giving Satoru that look💀 and thinking about yorozu's words after Satoru chose their date to be on 24th..#How it keeps you smiling all day~#👆🏻 this one is obvious there are too many instances of them freakishly smiling during the fight that it's hard to choose lmao#How the whole world turns beautiful~#👆🏻cut to Sukuna saying he cleared his skies...yeah...#I wanna know know know know what is love?~ Will love come to me someday?~#👆🏻 and maybe if we're getting angsty with this... that scene of the last time “the one who will teach you about love” was brought up#in the airport where we see Sukuna from behind and Satoru says it was fun asdhjkkll#Then the song just continues with I wanna know~ I wanna know~ for 30 seconds until it ends#👆🏻 And here comes a compilation of Sukuna missing gojo and standing there looking bored and we have Yuji black flashing his heart#and sukuna looks behind him and has heart eyes for larue but it fades to him looking at yutagojo thinking it's gojo#because these two scenes are SIMILAR for some reason and then yuta failing at being gojo and sukuna copying gojo's hand sign and-#Do yall see what I mean this is their theme song fr The song being cutesy and upbeat is what makes this for me#Sukuna is living his first teenage girl experience Yall don't understand I need this so baddd I'm gonna learn how to edit and do it myself
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Godless Prophet
#wtnv#welcome to night vale#wtdb#welcome to desert bluffs#kevin wtnv#kevin wtdb#kevin desert bluffs#gart#haha so fun fact about this one#i haven't seen the sun in like. two weeks. so i thought#''what do you think would happen if kevin went that long w/o the sun i think he'd die''#so thus. uhm. i got thinking. and then i drew#i miss the sun where the fuck is she#oh also this like. idk man. somewhat based off frown night#this being. kevin feels abandoned by the smiling god#anyways. VERY PROUD OF HOW THIS TURNED OUT AND I HOPE YOU ALL ENJOY! YAY!!!#LAST BIG PIECE IF THE YEAR!
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Oh.
#according to facebook memories (why do i even have that still??) 12 years ago today i saw Linkin Park for the first time 🥺#in a few days it'll be 10 years since the last time i saw them#and. hm. there's a lot that surfaced this days since clancy dropped and i'm a bit more emotional / sensitive than usual#and this is. well. making me extremely sad.#12 years ago. i remember as if it was yesterday. i cling to that day so much and i'm scared of forgetting about it#i wonder how 14 yo me would've reacted if she knew.#they were my first gig ever! i remember the 2nd song was given up and the people around us started moshing pretty hard.#so much that my shoe came off and my dad had to shield me while i crawled and looked for it hahaha#it was so fun! i didn't really know that was a thing#that day was the first time they played Lies Greed Misery - it had been released just the day before#my videos are SO blurry but i still have them all saved 🥹#idk i've been in some typa mood these past days. not necessarily bad at all but.#me and a couple friends had a very important conversation 2 nights ago which was GOOD but. the bad thing about letting everything bottle up#is that once you spill it's hard to deal with. and yeah this is. idk. i'm just venting here like. ignore me.#it's just really hard for me. i miss him terribly and i'm really scared for myself because i *know* i'm back in the loop#and it feels so hopeless sometimes. maybe this is super silly but i'm so thankful that Clancy came out now because OH BOY i need it#maybe it's not the best strategy to put so much faith? importance? in like. music and other people but#man. i genuinely don't know if i'd be here if not for certain songs/artists etc#idk I'm rambling lol. i might delete this later#probably. maybe. i try not to talk too much about this here because i tend to deal alone but. sometimes it's nice to send things to the void#anyways. support your favs. talk to your friends - even if you much rather not. don't be like me and let things rot inside.#🤍#darya talks to herself
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Went out with 5 friends yesterday and after 2 peeled off, 4 of us went to a different bar where a third person left, but the last 3 of us stayed (and it's the latest I've ever been out I think, like I was home at like a quarter to 4) and it was so fun, but I keep thinking about this absolute legend of a guy we met, he was from copenhagen which I won't hold against him, and clearly already drunk, maybe somewhere in his early to mid 40s, and got so excited that one of us was rolling her own cigarettes, and he showed off he had a hidden full size vodka bottle stuffed down the front of his pants, and he also showed off his knuckle tattoos which on one hand was an area code for and I quote "the worst part of copenhagen" and then he showed the other hand which was like numbers that each represents a letter (idk what that's called) and was like "you guys know what this means right? Do we agree?" very excitedly, and it literally means "ACAB" lmao
Anyway then when he and his friends came back out later and saw that I was ALSO rolling my own cigarettes he got even more excited, pulled out the vodka bottle and asked if we didn't want a shot each, and normally I would not in any way want to accept a drink from a guy I don't know from a bottle stuffed down his pants, but I said sure man, if you're offering why not, not intending to actually drink it, but one of my friends downed hers immediately before he even finished pouring for the rest of us, and it literally was just vodka so I also just drank mine (well, half, he filled up my shot glass quite a bit more than hers had been, not on purpose but he was drunk and it was hard to control, so I gave her half of mine) and it was just such a fun experience and he had such a rad fucking vibe and he was so nice lmao, like he left immediately after and wasn't in any way pushy even though one of his friends was telling him he was and telling us she'd drag him along so he wasn’t intruding, but he was just honestly a great dude and it was a great experience and I had a really good time overall and I love my friends 😭
#AND i think my new meds are also helping my tolerance a lot because last time we were out i had half a beer and was way more drunk than last#night where i had almost a full 750ml bottle of 5% alcohol myself 2 shots a gin hass a breezer and 2 juice and vodka/gin drinks#and i dont have anything even remotely close to a hangover today thank god still havent experienced one#but it's also a testament to how much i like these people because i had a pretty bad headache all day yesterday from when i woke up and i#forgot my loop earplugs at home and i still stayed out as long as the rest did#it was such a lovely time#we also all chatted and played Red Flags and Cards against humanity and later Who's most likely to and it was just such a good time#as someone who lost the years of my life when people usually do the drinking and partying and only have tried it once or twice it just means#a lot#and then meeting fun randos on top of it is just. idk it feels like I'm maybe starting to catch up on what i missed?#it's great#who knew life could be like this#my post
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Hello everyone <]:) just plopping in one last time to tell you that I'm retiring solarcas for the time being. The spn brainworms left me (they're probably already seeing other ppl smh), and I don't see myself making any new content for it anytime soon and I don't wanna keep a seperate space for it anymore. You can follow my main @masters-calling if you wanna stick around, but no pressure. If you were just here for the desitels I get it <3 I will still rb spn stuff over there occassionally when it crosses my way bc I'm not fully done w it (bc let's be real when is one ever hfkfhfk) and maybe one day I'll revive this blog who knows. If the brainworms ever return. Or if jackles drops the tapes whatever happens first
I'm not deleting this blog now or ever so all my art will stay up here :) thank you for the great time everyone!!! Spnblr, despite its many ups and downs, was a whole lot of fun and allowed me to meet many cool people <33 wishing you all the best!!! 💕👋🏼☀️🫂
#i feel like i need to end this w saying smth grand but. honestly i said everthing there is to say#and who knows maybe i'll just need a break of a month or two and then i'll return. we'll see#i already unfollowed like. 200+ blogs last night to clean my dash from spn fhdkfhfkd i kept the close mutuals tho (i think mist of you#already follow my main anyway xhkffhdk <3) and i already feel much better#i think part of me being so done w this interest is that i focused all my creative energy into it#and while i rly found myself as a fanartist through this it is also an open invite to burnout so.#i feel like i need to find my own artistic voice again. branch out a little and what not#anyway. its been fun!!!! 💕😚 im already missing some of you. esp my blorbos from my notes i had a few under all my art pieces that i had#started to recognise. schnüff#i'll see yall in another life (my main) <333 fhkddh#solar posts#personal
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lil hiatus away
#trump winning hit hard#harder than I thought because I didn’t think he’d win#we all met up the next day and had depression strolls#lots of vents and talks and anger#window shopped and actually shopped#looked at expensive guitars and little hamsters find fun in every place we go#we all made food with/for my niece and talked at my table for hours#played among us like old times till 1 am#got emotionally rejuvenated by the ocean#had plans with a friend that fell through so another time maybe or not idc anymore hahah she’s persistent though#I’m kinda over everything!#this 4:30 sunset always gets me bad for a while#on top of heavy world changes too like do that shit in summer#my dads friend Chris is visiting and that always makes me happy#I heard them cracking up watching South Park in his room last night was the cutest shit#reminded me of old times I miss living in Boston that whole era#wish we could have a redo#or even when he lived here with us after#maybe he'll move back this way someday#or go up that way since won’t ever be able to afford a house where I wanna live#or get out of the country all together#hiatus away was nice especially from Instagram and fb they're horrible places right now#unfollowing and unfriending everyone rn idc who u are#and honestly idky I still even have tumblr now I ask myself that a lot#more and more lately#have a good day#and take care of yourselves
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torn between "what the heck do you even wear on your last trip to a show that's spiderwebbed its way through the back of your mind for over a decade?" and "well, now I'm going to have to manufacture other reasons to be in NYC so I can annoy my friends there."
#RIP SNM I'll miss you#I'm hitting friday's show for the record#it's the last one for me lmao#because I'm seeing joe hisaishi on saturday night#(though I'll also be at all three nights of apparitions so)#but yeah there are lots of things to do in NYC I suppose#I foresee a lot more day trips in my future#so trips to museums and movies and such#maybe some shows if I can get a decent price#if I plan trips out early train tickets won't be too expensive... hmm...#well if any of my nyc friends ever hear about something fun just lmk I suppose
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#ok tag rant time yay#cus i need to process some shit#soooo the big thing is ajdhfnfhdk pretty girl!!! yay!!!!! and first time for that!!!!!!!! we matched on an app last friday#got coffee the next morning then met up again monday night (implied fun things) then in the wednesday morning shit show she came over just#to sit with me and so everything could be ok for a while and i felt the safest I ever have#which is a big deal because last time i had that feeling i was with the guy i like and one of my best friends sleeping on the floor because#little tiny college beds dont fit three people and then they left me on the floor to sleep in one bed together and i cried a lot#then they essentially kicked me out of the polycule and started dating soooo :) yeah#good to replace that with a (absolutely fucking gorgeous) pretty girl holding onto me while the world falls apart#and yeah she's sosososo prettyyyyy she has such nice dark long hair and really pretty eyes and she's literally#6 feet tall (which. ajdhdjfndbsmdjcjfj.) and she's the biggest nerd omg i had a like 2 hour conversation with her and her gf about star trek#its great#we're moving sapphic fast lol which is a lot but im obsessed with her a bit#did i mention shes so pretty? its fr like that one tiktok sound about a hot girl and her little gay boyfriend#oh and she came over again last night and i think im gonna dieeee lol i never realized how much of a physical touch person i am before#i mean i knew i liked it a lot but i just do not want to let go. at all. ever. i miss her#this is what i mean by bisexual so gay for men and women and it happens liek the stereotypes for both#sadly she's already mentioned maybe having to move because of everything and i really don't want that#but i guess we'll try it for as long as we can#overall though yay yay yay!!!!!!!!!!!!
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i think i finally realized why ive been feeling so damn depressed lately again
sorry for writing this here. im really hurting actually. im not good. i feel a bit helpless too. idk who to talk to bc i dont want to burden anyons and i donf feel like anything could console me right now
Like. fuck me man. thanks for saving me but. why the hell are you not here. i dont want to do this without you. i hate only being able to remember you. i was supposed to grow old with you, not without you.
And. honestly. even with all this bullshit i say here, all the endless times i spend trying to write down my feelings, abt you, about all the pain ive felt my life, it doesnt get better. not at all. and no words, no poetry takes it away and i truly feel like nobody will ever truly understand how suffocated i felt all my life.
and i want to change thanks to you but. i dont know. nothing's satisfying enough.
no matter what, i truly only feel great when im in that daydream like world you created.
and these past days ive been thinking a lot that. i really wouldnt mind dying right now. not at all. because at least i know what happiness feels like. and i want to stay in that state. probably, even in this life your music will bring me happiness, but i want to be trapped in it.
im tired of being so unseen, and even when im seen, im hurting. but i dont know whats hurting. i think im just really tired thats all.
and. ye. i feel brave tbh. i still havent posted my video to instagram, bc im not brave for that. i dont know. and i feel like a hypocrite bc everything is true that i wrote there but at the same time these are my thoughts currently
in a long while i looked up suicide methods again. i feel so hopeful, but im not really sure if really for the future. jm sorry this is probably alarming. i will probably not kill myself but. idk. im not sure actually. i dknt know what to say. i wasnt cut out for this wordly shit.i feel unlovable but even if im loved, i donf want to be. i dont want anything. just let me stsy in this quiet place snd just. disappear. i wouldnt want my family to hurt if i die but i wont know about it anyways. idk man. i feel strongly i could die calmly this time and thats nice. bc 6 years ago i was terrified, and hurt. but now im content and kind of ready idk man. its not a terrible feeling, its a "this is it, it was nice while it lasted" ig.
there are no clouds in my head actually. i truly dont feel like im thinking irrationally, i feel like this would just be like. the end goal i was looking for. to feel true love once. it was nice.
no goodbye yet bc idk how id kms even if i do. But ill tell u guys if i found something.
#you know it's funny#i still feel this way but the moment i wrote this#on tiktok one of my friends that was there for most of my times followed my secret tiktok account and#the friend that i lost last year checked my account and#i hope she fucking knows how much that means to me#because i always felt like she hstes me but i still deeply feel she cares abf me and silently looks out for me and i feel so sorry#bc in the past 4 days she has checked my account multiple times and idk man#i truly feel like she sees that im struggling i appreciate it a lot#but i could never tell her that because what if im wrong and also#i dont fit in that friendship anymore#but im still really greatful#for checking up on me even like this#*most of my life#noticed a typo#idk anyways i just really needed to scream this into the void. I didn't want to be so sad today. i just scrolled instagram to numb myself#all day. but i got off my phone it was terrible. idk. i feel im not sure i can get my shit together by monday#im sick of having to fall apart and build myself up every fucking day man. and each day i literally wake up telling myself affirmations#trying to convince myself that its oka#it will be okay at least when u are home at night. wait for that moment everyday but. im tired of waiting for night to be happy man.#i have 30 mins to either post that fuckin video and make a fool of myself bc i told myself i need to post it on the 19th. but idk man. Im#terrified it will only disappoint me. people will make fun of me. idk man. its not that funny is it. or is it? how pathetic i am for clingi#g to the only hope in my life like a fucking abandoned dog man. but what can i do. i dont want to depend on you so much. but then who shoul#i depend on? if i depend on myself im just gonna kill myself man.idk. my grief is getting worse day by day. i still practice guitar everyda#hoping that maybe you will come back or something will come back. maybe mywill to live will come back? maybe the Instrument will play a not#that I can depend on? i dont really know what im looking for thats the worst. living is uncomfortable and dark. even when im smiling with m#friends i feel lost.there's something i feel like they know and i dont. when they could name their favorite colors in kindergarten i alread#knew something was different abt me.its really isolating.not having a clue of who am i.i keep saying im finding myself more and more but tb#i still in a way like im always wearing a costume. i wonder how naked id have to be to find myself. sorry for word vomitting.it maybe helps#anyways acchan i miss you.this world feels really stale without you.i wish I could truly show how much I love you with my words or life but#i dont really think it makes a difference.my voice really doesnt matter that much in the end.maybe im too much
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happy mind/martini/mercy monday!
🎉🎉🎉 Happy Mind/Martini/Mercy Monday!! 🎉🎉🎉
(these guys gotta pick a new consonant man. freaking copycats)
#posts made by rae#posts made by bees#q&a#POV you didn’t do the homework last night but your friend did so you copy last minute#the real question is#which of them would be the type to not only actually do the homework but share too#actively fighting the demons on my shoulder (there are two) trying to get me to make a college au#i shan’t stray from my one true goal#yet#anymore than i already have#call me the avatar because when the world needed me most i#vanished#not dead btw fun fact#you’ve all been missing out on your daily dose of fun facts#and i’m sorry for that
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i need eddie to get another guy friend in season 8, and buck loses his shit about it (again), so he breaks up with t because he's convinced that the weird feeling he gets when he sees them together is because he is Really attracted to the new guy.
#like things with t are fine cuz he likes exploring this new side of himself even if t doesnt always match his energy but whatever its fun#and maybe at work chim is the one who brings up eddies new friend and he is immediately just. what new friend?#chim laughs and says. tbf last time eddie got a new friend you attacked him so you could date his friend. hes probably keeping it to himsel#and bucks like. dude what. that was. yeah it was shitty of me but it was a one time thing. i wont do it again...#and when eddie shows up for shift buck immediately asks about his new friend and eddie tells him about the guy without hesitation#after shift tho buck is like. why didnt you tell me about him? after t i get why you dont want to but im just. you dont have to worry man.#buck. i know. im not worried. anyway he and i are gonna head to a bar to catch the game. you want to come with? you can bring t if hes free#oh. thats. thatd be okay? i dont want to idk ruin the vibe by bringing a date#nah man. itll be fine#and so he and t go to the bar and eddies already inside with the new friend and its Fine. its Great actually because t gets along with eddi#and the new guy and the new guy makes eddie laugh and doesnt miss a beat and knows more about the teams record this season than buck and#buck is doing Fine. this guys smile is big and his eyes are bright and when he laughs he sorta leans into eddies space alittle and its Fine#the night ends and buck and t go back to his apartment and buck cant stop thinking about that guys hand when it clapped down on eddies#shoulder or the look on his face as he teased eddie about the beer he drinks (cuz its kinda bad but only buck can say that) and buck Cant.#he wants that guy. he wants his hands and grin and teasing voice all to himself and not on eddie.#so he breaks up with t and ts confused af cuz i thought things were going good?#yeah. i just. i want to explore my options yk now that ive uh figured out i like men.#and its a clean break. not dramatic or messy. t tells him to call if he every changes his mind. buck wont.#bucks trying to not pry about eddies new friend and he doesnt grill eddie or anyone and just waits and listens to all the new info he gains#and eventually eddie invites him out to watch another game because whatever team they were watching made it to the playoffs#and when he gets there eddies like. no t tonight?#nah we. uh. we broke up.#eddie says sorry man that sucks. and the new guy is like. honestly he didnt even seem that into you which what an idiot. youre great.#and its good because the new guy splits his attention between the two of them now. eddie isnt the only one getting hands and grins and eyes#and the third time theyre at the bar the guy follows him to bathroom and kisses him hard against the door before pulling back with a#panicked sorry and leaving and when buck finds eddie after hes like. what happened? new guy ran out of here without even saying goodbye#he kissed me in the bathroom. i think uh. i think he was kinda freaking out about it and thats why he left.#and eddie just blinks at him before being like. buck. buck you said you werent going to do this again.#i didnt mean to! and buck means it. he just saw the way that guy made eddie laugh and put his hands on eddie and had eddies attention and#oh.
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Me finding tiny meaningless character details in something that's not even canon to make more shit up about the fictional character i dont like for literally no reason (i want to ruin their life)
like im at making a headcanon off of an assumption off of a headcanon. im multiple layers deep
#psa only do this to fictional characters!!! do NOT do it to real people#real people have lives and can be affected by things with real consequences#fictional characters dont have lives so feel free to torture them in your head all you want <3#what do you mean did i take my meds today#ok i missed them last night but like im fine. howd u know#unhinged posting#not gonna say who it is because i dont have to :P#im sure if you stalked me for long enough you'd figure it out#oh yea also dont stalk me thats not an invitation that was a joke#ok im gonna shut up now#sometimes character assassination is fun#again FICTIONAL PEOPLE ONLY#ok ok ill stop for real this time
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my best friend's MOTHER called me to scold me about being depressed and self isolating lol what has life even come to
#she was like. kya hua why won't you meet her she's saying you're busy do you have exams or something#and she knows too much about me so she's like beta exam toh agli saal hai na#it was more like pyaar se scolding ki mil liya karo usse acche lagega she's very sad she misses you#i was like. hmph. what??? she certainly hasn't said that to me#im kinda sick and tired of begging people to make me a priority pay attention to me tbh. i did ask to meet but she was like you come to my#house only i won't come to your house. even tho last few months ive been to her house soooo many times because of her parental drama#i don't want to go anymore im trying to study consistently and we don't sleep at all during nighout and i don't even want to waste a single#day. plus dad is being so weird and involved these days i can't even just sneak out. i mean if she came to my home atleast i wouldn't be so#tired that id waste the whole next day. but she doesn't wanna and she doesn't even have a reason so i just let it be i gave up#but aunty made me feel so guilty so whatever i texted like hey u wanna meet#tbh i don't want to sit and listen to her boyfriend drama all night. she never wants to do stuff together anymore we used to watch movies#we used to dance to songs we used to have so much fun. we were even planning on drinking but she keeps cancelling. now it's just endless#talk about how she feels so lonely and how she misses the guys so fuckinh much and howshe can't stop talking to them and how she needs them#to fill the gap the empty space#well fuck you!!! i feel the same and you don't give a fuck. you blow me off constantly don't hangout for a month even when we're in the#same city !! so we fuck you go to your boys and go your cousin ill be on my fucking own then always on my own desperately#trying everything to fix myself enough to move forward so my life doesn't fall apart and comes to a crashing halt#okay im definitely pmsing but whatever
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This week kinda fucking sucks
#idk#maybe it won't feel as bad once im out of it#maybe im just stuck in my head#my great grandma passed away at the beginning of the week#her funeral is over the next two days#ive overall been upset over various things all week#im sore#im tired#my head is fucking killing me#im pissed#im sad#im alone#one of my favorite coworkers had his last day today#good for him i guess#my cousins birthday was this week#by the time i could get there it was so late it was like i missed it#ended up driving home at 2 am#i haven't really given myself a proper break this week either#only just realizing it#any free time has been immediately filled either by myself or someone else#my game night with my friends is most likely not happening this week#and to top it off#three for three on plans with my favorite person being destroyed by fun surprises#having a great time#can't wait for next week#here's hoping it's not worse#im done ranting for now#sorry to those who have to see me like this
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