#mental Illness

[caughtthedarkness93]

To add to this - often intrusive thoughts are hard to talk about because they lead to a self-perpetuating spiral of shame and horror. It can be complex and multilayered. I've had a long history of intrusive thoughts and OCD fixations about my sexuality or gender identity, and those in turn create their own sense of shame because I don't think anything is wrong with being gay or trans - I just know I'm not. But then my brain goes - ok, but if you don't think there's anything wrong with it, then why are you resisting the involuntary thoughts about it so hard? if you think it's perfectly fine, when your brain goes "Hey, you're this thing," why do you scramble so hard to say no? To prove to yourself that you aren't?

And the answer, of course, is because you just...aren't. And something in you can still feel it. Something in you still knows it. You can feel the noise your mind is feeding you coming into conflict with your sense of self and identity. You can feel it taking everything that's ever contradicted that sense of self and identity and throwing it in your face, no matter how irrational or otherwise explicable. You can feel the part of you that still knows what you are and is content in that going "Wait, this doesn't feel right."

You can feel it all happening at once, like a war in your mind, and it's not a fun experience.

For this Disability Pride Month, I saw a post that was shittybad and it made me angry. So have this

[emotionaleating]

„but you survived“ but i didn’t want to lol. i wasn’t supposed to. i hate that i did. i’m angry that i did. i want the pain to go away so badly.

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

i’m just so fucking tired i don’t think sleeping for 20 days straight would help i need to die

[randomreasonstolive]

Reason to Live #11876

   Beautiful butch women and fat women and poc women and transfem women and every woman ever!  – Guest Submission

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[sammysworld11]

Absolute truth. It saves me over and over again.

[beluevelvet]

I worked tirelessly to make myself perfect, hoping people would like me, but instead, became perfectly unlikable

[temkia]

I hate what you did to me

[d3r-d4s-di3-dex]

outside vs inside

[doomedfromthewombfr]

I destroy every bridge I cross, and then wonder why I’m stranded in the darkness, crying out for a rescue I’ll never let happen

[crispycreambacon]

A comic about primarily obsessional OCD, otherwise known as Pure 'O' OCD

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I'm really happy with how this turned out. I hope you can resonate and come away from this comic with renewed hope. At the very least, I hope you learned something from this. Thank you for reading. Please take care.

[adrienne-stoker]

Will it ever stop?

[randomreasonstolive]

Reason to Live #11874

    To be able to listen to a song you like over and over. – Guest Submission

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[purple-grackle]

I've spent the last few weeks off my SSRIs (...h...h..highest dose ☠️). I've just watched this and it's just the most relatable thing possible.

ok but as someone who has depression I really loved how it's depicted through Stolas this ep?

like just the beginning where we see him reach for his pills on instinct, then starting to ask Blitzø if he could grab more, before stopping himself in fear of being more of a burden than what he must be feeling like right now

to seeing him reach for those pills (that he still hasn't asked Blitzø for) and reaping the results of being off his meds (cue intense insecurity projecting onto other ppl's situations) and just how he is overall not ok

I just love how his breakdown is so ugly, it's nowhere near the composed yet eccentric Stolas we've known so far, it's the culmination of everything that's happened - losing his powers, his wealth, his status, his daughter alongside being off his meds, that would be a recipe for disaster for anyone and I love how Viv didn't shy away from that

[small-bambi]

Harrison Wood Hsiang

[demonboyhalo]

collection of useful things tumblr has taught me:

even if you can't fall asleep, laying down with your eyes closed will still rest your body

you don't have to brush your teeth standing up

you don't have to do any chore standing up, from dishes to showering

you don't have to shower with the lights on

if you can't brush your teeth, flossing and a tongue scraper gets rid of plaque and bad breath

if you can't do that, mouthwash kills a lot of bacteria

eating "unhealthy" food is better than eating no food

you can make the same meal everyday for however long you still want it

some pills come in syrups or chewables if you can't swallow them

kids nutritional shakes can be a quick way to get fuel if you can't eat/don't have time

if walking hurts/exhausts you on a regular basis, canes and rollers are for you, no matter how young you are

we have free will—if doing something "out of the ordinary" makes life easier for you, do it

if you have even a dollar to spare, please consider donating to Alaikum's family.

they're a large family at only 10% of their goal to evacuate, and could use any help you can give!!