#me: ............. brb real quick

[hexy-lynesdein]

The Traveler & her Path Behind

“Wounds suffered, lessons learned.”

I think the most prominent part about episode 4 other than it being Alice's trial— wherein she was able to ended her generational curse for once and for all; changing something that she thinks “wasn't real”, is that you get to see how it affecting her.

How Alice realizes that she was angry at her mom who was only trying to save her. Lorna did everything in her power to protect Alice in any way she could. So that even if she was no longer present on Alice's life— her protection through the song, in which she pours all of her love for her daughter into, would persist. Thanks to the people who sang that song with as much passion as how Lorna is writing it for Alice.

And I love how she learned all of this from a journey with a broken coven, each filled with covenless witches who had their own issues. But even though they are hardly a “true” coven— they were there for Alice. They sat there with her on that campfire, talking about each scars that they had, so that she wouldn't feel so bad about hers. And for once, she felt that hole in her heart was slowly filled with warmth. That similar type of warmth that she's been missing for ages.

Alice has always been angry all her life. It's easier for her to get angry and blame something instead of grieving it. Because being angry is relatively easier than grieving because you feel like you are in control of your life, you get this power to push through from that fire burning in you. But unlike anger, grief is far from that. It's that feeling of hollow and emptiness— that you acknowledge something was no longer yours. It's gone and you have to accept that. You will eventually move on and there might be something else that will replace it. You will learn to live side by side with this pit that sits with you and it will left you in a vulnerable state, and that's not alright. It's hard to said it'll be alright when it clearly didn't. But eventually, you'd move on. People always do. That's just how life is always been.

And for once, when the cause of Alice's angers was no longer there— and that she was finally free from it after a long time of suffering, she felt nothing but sadness.

This is a simple phrase if it were to be said by anyone. However, it held much bigger weight when it was Lilia who said that.

Lilia being the oldest witch from the coven. Lilia who's been alive for 400+ years. Lilia who made it this far in life, seeing all the horrors, and the tragedies that humanity experienced— the malice that lurked in their hearts. She's seen it all. She saw their path and “destination”; but mostly their destination because of her gift. That's almost all the thing she ever saw throughout her life up until now. Not to mention the flow of time that seems to be never standing with her.

It makes her angry. Because she saw it all. Lilia has seen their death. The causes and what's about to happen. But there is nothing she could do about it. She warns them. She tells them. And it didn't change anything. There's nothing she could do about the outcome. Because her task as a seer isn't supposed to change. She's there to observe — to see. And that alone upsets her. She turned away from her gift. Unwilling to use something that is a part of herself. For years. Decades. Probably centuries. Because why would she be? Death is all she'd seen. Why would she want to subject herself into something that would hurt her? Something that would only make her sad? And that's why, in the end, she resorted into being a con artist. Masking herself behind something that was not Lilia Calderu the chased-out-of-every-village-for-accurately-predicting-tragedies; running away from her true self.

Lilia already lost count on how many days and nights that she yearns for a change. To be able to do something for once. Flashes upon flashes would appear on the peripheral of her vision. About her coven. Her family. Her sister in the craft. And often times she wondered if a miracle would happened again in her life.

And it finally did.

When Agatha Harkness recruited Lilia to joined her coven, she almost wanted to spat. No one with a sane mind would willingly joined her coven. But fate always has its own ways with Lilia as her future self went back into that fateful day, where she write down the name of her new coven. Assigning herself to embark into a treacherous journey with a group of people that she, somehow, has quite a lot in common.

From there, she learns again what it feels to have a coven and be in a coven. Each trials they faced with death and their worst nightmare following in their step. But at least they are together this time. Lilia is not alone and maybe she could actually count on these people. Perhaps the walk down on this road with the infamous Agatha Harkness is going to change her. Maybe she still couldn't prevent deaths but at least she could piece up something that she has been missing. A part of herself that she was trying so hard to ignore— a part of herself that yearns for some form of connections through sisterhood.

And she finally got it again. She saw Jennifer who's capable of saving a life while being bound. Changing the outcome of Teen's life. She saw Alice fighting, oh ever so bravely, and full of fire. Ending her family's generational curse for once and for all — changing something that she thought she couldn't. She's seen all the struggles and how it impacts them.

And there they sat in that campfire, after the fire-trial. Sharing their own scars as an attempt to make Alice felt better about herself. Lilia saw the sadness that lingered on the once fierce and full of fire woman. She's seen it and she acknowledge it, she knows that feeling all too well. Lilia feels like she saw a piece of herself on her new coven members yet again, and she felt the urge to give Alice one last words of comfort, “Sad is better than angry”. And maybe that words is not enough to fully filled the hole in Alice's heart on its own, but as long as it means that Lilia could have a chance to do something for her sisters in the craft instead of running away again or being indifferent like how she always do— then that's fine. It's okay. She will take those chances.

And Alice? Alice is grateful to hear that from Lilia— who lives longer than her, who suffers worse things than her, and who knows so much more than her. Because to be loved, is to be seen and heard. And now Alice is surrounded with love.

[kaeyachi]

i was about to triple check my upcoming theory post when i hear news of more lore drop and now i have to pause everything ehe

[kuragesoda]

WHAT THE FUCK

[novastrypes]

Tldr; mean comments were unnecessary, still ship bakudeku and togachako, let me be delulu on the Internet, happy for Izuocha, death threats to horikoshi WERENT AND NEVER WILL BE OKAY IF YOU WERE ONE OF THEM GET OUT

Alright my last post about Izuocha becoming canon got some traction and nasty comments

It's nice to have opinions but PLEASE be respectful and don't be mean in comments just because someone expressed they prefer bkdk and togachako instead of izuocha (which I still ship)

I am happy for these 2 fictional beans, and they do look cute together. I didn't mean to come across as "grrr my gay headcanon didn't become canon I must go feral now GRRRR"

I still prefer bakudeku and togachako over izuocha even though they're now canon

I have already seen people using this as a way to be homophobic. "Bkdk shippers now look delusional as always" just because izuocha became canon. I'm sorry but that is not stopping people from making ships

Does that mean I am all for sending death threats to Horikoshi? FUCK NO! and if you were one of the people who did that FUCK OFF FROM MY PAGE YOU HAVE NO PLACE HERE

I don't have time for passive aggressive or straight up mean comments. I just stated my opinion (I understand this is the Internet and people have the right to literally respond to me) but there is no reason to be straight up mean or passive aggressive

I apologize if my original post sounded like I was really upset over bakudeku and togachako not becoming canon, that was not my intention.

Am I upset? A little, but at the end of the day, they're fictional characters, and the world will keep on spinning. So this will leave my mind in the next hour because I have better shit to do than to argue over what fictional character should have ended up with another fictional character. As long as they're the same age and can consent and it's not overly sexualised I AM FINE WITH IT. Hell ship mineta with the girls. I don't care because they are the same age! As long as it's not pedophilic or has a power imbalance like hawks x endeavour (still iffy about this ship because Hawks is a big fan and endeavour could take advantage of him??? Like, yeah, they are adults, but I am iffy about fan x celebrity ships)

What I'm trying to say is ship whoever and whatever you want even if izuocha is canon. I don't care if you'll call me delusional because I still prefer bakudeku and togachako. I am fine with that. Let me be delulu on the Internet.

Again I just respectfully wanted to talk about how izuocha seemed forced but after some passive aggressive and unnecessary mean explanation in the comments, yes I can see why they ended up together. I did say it WASNT UNNECESSARILY OUT OF NOWHERE

Also, yes, I understand people are passionate about these things, but still, there was no need to be mean or passive aggressive :(

Thank you for coming to my Ted talk

Here have a denki in these trying times

[ink-and-dagger]

oh no ao3 was down!

Thankfully I printed out DWM in a novel form so that I can read it whenever!!

(This is what happens when I become hyperfixated on something)

Also i used @spirits-lament ‘s artwork for chapter 5 of DWM for the cover :)

(The last image is a disclaimer page)

(Ignore my baby hands 😭)

SHUT UP NO FRIGGIN WAY

Idnebfisjgayrbndjfnfdjehwhdhe you have NO IDEA how much it means to me seeing my words in book format. Like AN ACTUAL BOOK??? THAT CAME OUT OF MY BRAIN??????

I’m very emosh about this I need a minute to process but thank you so so much for sharing it. I’m going to treasure these pictures forever 💜

[brekkie-e]

Oh my god, Bellara's first quest my heart. That got so emotional so quick. I wasn't quite feeling the pacing at first, but the writing snuck up on me, and I was so moved by the end of the last scene. Genuinely, I don't know that I've ever wanted to hug a DA companion more than in that moment? Ever? And I've been in this fandom for a long time.

The way I was immediately analyzing at the end of it because it felt so much like she needed a hug, but it feels purposeful that there wasn't one? Because you're not that close yet. Because she clearly doesn't open up about it this often, and she needed to walk away from the conversation feeling like she hadn't over shared. So hugging would be too much. It would be needing too much. And she doesn't deserve that. Because she feels like she deserves her guilt. God. Wow. Okay, Veilgaurd. I see you regret themes.

[sp4ceboo]

YALL I WISH I COULD TWERK BECAUSE ATEEZ HAVE DONE IT AGAIN AND THE ALBUM IS FULL OF SONGS WHERE I NEED PROPER HIPS IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN

ITS SO CUNTY HOLY SHIT

[pokemon-ranger-booker]

I love doing things that would get me death threats in Kanto

[gregmarriage]

Yayyy happy movie night, I hope you had a good time <3 I think I'm gonna watch a movie later tonight too. I heard nothing but good things about Lisa Frankenstein and I hope you'd reanimate my corpse (or whatever happens in that movie)

-🧁

you should watch!! it’s my new fave movie!! i could see it definitely becoming a comfort movie that i watch on repeat <3

and yeah, lotta corpse reanimating in that movie, it’s all v cute amongst all the horror, which is the type of shit i love <3

[cheruei]

I'm pretty experienced in art but when it comes to Lilia I lose all sense of reasoning i swear. Baby boy why are you so hard to draw for no reason?? LET ME LOVE YOU???

[heartbreak-sandwich]

SORRY ONE SEC I'M FLATLINING SOMOENE HAS ME ALL FUCKED SIDEWAYS WITH THE ANONS IN THE BEST WAY I GOTTA GO SCREAM IN THE STREET BEOFRE I ANSWER THIS JUST HANG TIGHT GUYS I'LL BE RIGHT BACK HOLY FUCK SHIT WHAT THE FUCK WOW

[dumortains]

FERAL OVER THIS

[hellsrazedarch]

am  i  still 𝖆 𝖍𝖊𝖗𝖔  if  the  only  person  i  𝖘𝖆𝖛𝖊  is  myself ?

                                   am  i  still 𝖆 𝖛𝖎𝖑𝖑𝖆𝖎𝖓  if  the  only  person  i  𝖍𝖚𝖗𝖙  is  myself ?

[theeminentlyimpractical]

turns out the only thing worse than being a librarian in a bookless library is being no longer in a library at all. like how do I even explain that? “ah yes sorry I’m a librarian, but I’m non-practicing”

[d4isywhims]

What is the joy of life legacy? 👀

hellooo nonny!! :D

it’s this challenge by the ever-talented @simelune :)) it honestly looks so fun but i already have the family dynamics and globetrotter challenge on my gameplay list 😭

[todayisafridaynight]

snap u r like a priest runnin a confession booth but ppl keep catchin u on the streets and confess

i open up a nice clean handy dandy confession blog and aint no body sendin all their wack ass asks to it !!!!!