#brb gonna scream real quick

[cheruei]

I'm pretty experienced in art but when it comes to Lilia I lose all sense of reasoning i swear. Baby boy why are you so hard to draw for no reason?? LET ME LOVE YOU???

[bossboudicca]

in this essay i will-

my rambles on johnmanny and why i love this rarepair and you should too

first off, that wink. me and mine didn't even notice it at first, and i've seen TP about a million times and the minute i spotted it i think i actually screamed out loud. like yeah right in front of my parents and family let me observe your fond little smirk and then wink at you, like these mfers were playing footsie under the damn table i tell ya.

manny kicking jp by accident, jp like "can i fuckin help you??"

but for real jp is to johnmanny as harry welsh is to winnix. at least to me.

next we have:

manny noticing john the second he walks into a room full of a bunch of other dudes in the exact same clothes with basically the exact same haircut and very similar builds. like his ass was WAITING and WATCHING that doorway for his little boyfriend.

"oH WeLL iF tHeY'Re sO cLoSe WhY DiD'nT hE uSe HiS FiRsT nAmE?"

because half the guys in that room are probably named John, NEXT.

these fond ass looks. also hilarious that they both completely turn their backs on the doorway and do not even notice jp until he's right there lmao. manny was not waiting for his buddies, he was waiting for john specifically.

size difference goes crazy here. manny is so fuckin WIDE jesus

jp like "i am married here is my wife" (i told you he's harry welsh) while john and manny are like hhaha yeah marriage definitely we're totally straight 🙃

manny: "my mom couldn't understand how i could get through high school without that wedding date set"

jp: "i could!"

could understand what jp??? HMMM??? yeah okay bud

bonus: john looking right at manny after jp's comment and manny refusing to make eye contact. read into that what you will

this one is kind of a personal mind palace thing, but i like to think that manny observed this super sweet moment between john and his dad, and really took it upon himself to look out for john when they were deployed. more on this later. *brb crying*

this next one you're just getting a screen recording because a.) i dont wanna gif the whole thing b.) i feel like hearing manny's vocal inflections and stuff is important

manny's obviously gonna be rattled after their first bit of enemy contact, and john is not the only guy with blood on him but manny still immediately did a double take when he saw the blood on john's face.

the way he asks "hey...are you hit?" he dips his head and really looks at john, like yes looking for injuries john may not have noticed but to me it's like he's trying to get john to make eye contact, so he can see if he's mentally okay as well. idk, this seems important to me as manny literally does not even glance at the guy who's actually fuckin shot until john looks over at him.

then manny's little exhale and swallow after john says he's gucci 🥺

and when john stops and stares at the deceased man, manny does too but immediately looks back to john, gauging his reaction. i feel like most of these guys are like "you're physically okay? yeah moving on as i, another marine in this hellscape jungle, have my own issues" but maybe thats just me being ignorant.

and then manny doesn't take his eyes off john for the rest of the scene. also john's tiny little nod at manny, like he knows manny is always overly concerned about him; a little wordless gesture just for him. more on The Nod later. alsdkfjalsdjlsfj

also directly after this:

john: jp go set up on that hill 🙄 manny you dig in next to me 🥰🥰

more touching and staring

quick sidebar: manny and his slutty ass open shirt like sir-

and then john with his big gorgeous brown eyes he is literally a 6 week old puppy why is he in war

next we have Manuel "I Need To Shove Past Everyone So I Can Walk Next To My Boyfriend" Rodriguez

This Look is my all time favorite. ugh i am sick about these two.

and that little hint of sadness in john's eyes like he doesn't wanna let manny go but he's gotta because duty comes first 🥲

so he cracks a little joke and lets manny go and manny looks so crushed and forces himself to smile anyway and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh his face absolutely sends me into a spiral right here

next up, personal space- dude did you really need to get RIGHT up in john's bubble like that?? (yes, yes he did)

i swear it must be in the hbo war actor manual that you have to look at your male companion's mouth X amount of times

watching chesty on the phone like "yeah but is john okay"

#bigbrowncoweyesquad

sorry this gif looks weird as hell, i cut it up and brightened it because its hard to see through all my tears

so yeah! this is the last time they see each other alive! i am okay!

it was something i didn't notice at first, but it looks like manny intentionally pushes john down and out of harms way, whereas i originally thought they just ran into each other and it was a lucky accident.

more prolonged eye contact and then the little tiny nod is back from earlier 😭 i am unwell about those two fucking nods and what they imply

circling back to earlier and how i mentioned maybe manny seeing that interaction between john and his father and taking it upon himself to be john's protector....yeah...yeah

continuing on-

no "hi jp are you okay, i noticed you almost got shot in the fuckin head last night", just straight into "where's my husband??"

also, to me it looks like the sun is close to being directly overhead when john starts asking about manny-

-by the time he finds him the sun is setting, so john literally spent HOURS looking for manny. im sure he was doing some other stuff but the show seems to suggest that's pretty much all he was doing.

how long do we think john sat with manny's body before going to get jp omg im gonna throw up

the way they carried him, john would have been looking at his face but he's looking away the whole time and im in pain about it

john doesn't look at his face at all.

and then of course we've got john's musings after the fact. in the short time we see him in combat/around combat he doesn't really seem to ruminate on things like this, he kinda takes everything in quietly and moves on. but here, he really sits with manny's death and i don't think he ever really got over it even though he shut down this conversation with jp after a few seconds. you know, because of the golf scene and his flashbacks to manny 🥲

anyway that's all i have for now because tumblr won't let me add any more gifs and screenshots and i'm sure those of you who stuck around to read this whole thing have had enough already lol

tldr: john and manny are tragic husbands and i think about them a lot

also shoutout to my new friend @tahnawanda for encouraging me to actually finish this post. rarepair solidarity ✊

[jwirecs]

RECOMMENDED NCT FICS OF NOVEMBER 2023💖

hello, hello! here are my nct recs of november! hopefully these beautiful stories get more recognition as well as the writers 💝

** anything in parentheses and bolded are my thoughts that can be disregarded if needed **

🔞smut || 💔angst || 💕fluff || ✅completed || 🔄ongoing || 💯favorite

Makeup, Make Out || @polarisjisung💕✅

↳ somewhere between testing eyeshadow palettes and mascara wands, renjun tests the prospect of loving you (i love me some soft renjun. soft renjun is prob in my top 5 fics to read about in nct. like how can you not enjoy reading soft renjun fics?????)

Ready For Love || @jnnul💕✅💯💯💯

↳ a boy who has never taken a relationship seriously. a girl who is seriously over relationships. when they end up finding each other, will they let their ideas of what a relationship should be like ruin their relationship before it even starts? (the concept of one person believing in one thing and the other person believing in another but they come to one accord to overcome the obstacle is amazing. literally as op has said in their warnings "match made in heaven", they truly are and i love that.)

Misses Suh? || @nctsplug02🔞💕✅💯

↳ (there was not exact summary, but if you remember the jeongs fics from this author then i present you the suhs. stop i freaking love these fics from them. i hope theres going to be more suhs.)

Silent Treatment || @polarisjisung💕💔✅

↳ your boyfriend broke some guy's nose for you, but what he doesn't realise is he also broke his promise to you (how does one give jeno the silent treatment???? easy, pretend to be oc cause thats what i did. LOL LIKE HOW CAN YOU GIVE THIS MAN THE SILENT TREATMENT. mans gonna be looking at you with them eyes and you are just gonna fold. gosh hes adorable and sht)

Trauma || @peanutpinet💕💔✅💯

↳ Being the son of the famous Nam Goongmin came with a heavy price to pay for Jaemin. Though Taeyong managed to get Jaemin out of his father’s mafia business and helped him to heal, there was still some trauma that Jaemin had yet to face. Until he came across a girl that he would soon learn that he can’t always run from his problems (the fact that the story lowkey connects with the other fics that they have is a gold mine. my ass is out here re-reading everything from the beginning aka the first one all the way to this one while i wait for the next one.)

Enough For You || @midmourn💔✅💯

↳ you wanted to be enough for mark, but no matter what you did, you weren't. (brb let me just sit in the corner real quick. stop, i need more angst nct fics to satisfy my angst side. like you can just feel the hurt that the oc is feeling, cause i know for a fact everyone has been through this once in their life time.)

I'm A Mouse, Duh! || @springseasonie🔞✅

↳ Nomin in police costumes and Y/N in a "mouse" costume (it's literally just lingerie). Will they fuck? Keep reading to find out! (1. i love the mean girls reference. that movie is a classic. 2. another roommate threesome, i may have a problem. BUT THATS FINE. this fic was hella good.)

I Wanna Make You Scream || @nctsplug02🔞✅💯💯💯

↳ (johnny in a scream mask?????????? sir???????? HELLOOOOOOOOO????? like god this fic is, oh child.)

Rent Is Due! || @starillusion13🔞✅💯

↳ (theres no summary, but do you know what else is due??? my insanity after reading this fic. like god dam. had to take a moment to breathe after finishing the fic.)

Strawberry Cough || @hazyhae🔞💕✅

↳ when your longtime bestie and plug moves out of town, he recommends one of his buddies to fill your weed needs. jaemin is glad to deliver that, and maybe even more. (the fact that jaemin automatically has a stock of the strawberry flavor for the oc is cute as sht. mans literally fell in love at first sight.)

The Day That I Met You I Started Dreaming || @nctstar💕✅💯

↳ You watched in satisfaction as the imprint of your lips stained a faded red colour, two semi-circles adorned by fine lines. The smell of strawberry wafted gently, so subtle you could have missed it. Yet, his voice rang in your ears. “You taste so sweet, baby. You always do.” (stop, i think this was one of the "long" jungwoo fics that i have read so far. i should start reading more jungwoo fics ngl. i honestly like how the story went. like it was at a good pace. not too rushed and not too slow, at the perfect pace. )

They're Roommate || @luvyeni🔞✅

↳ maybe those “jokes” your roommates play on you aren’t actually jokes (nomin threesome??? let me at it. lord have fcking mercy on me)

Young God || @jaeminvore🔞💕✅💯💯

↳ in which you were essentially scammed into cohabiting with a ridiculously clingy demon that lives off of sex. It could be worse. At least he staved off from sucking your soul out in exchange of you sucking something else—among other things (demon hyuck is a menace but hes a cute menace you know. hes gonna be like your bffl demon. i honestly fully enjoyed this one so much, like you dont understand. the mans a cute ass menace)

NCT 127 Texts || @phoxphenex💕✅💯

↳ Baby 127 Calling Dad on Tour (stop i cant wait for them to be parents. like these fans are gonna have to grow a pair of balls and suck it up that these mens are gonna be parents in the future. like can u imagine their kid just texting them. their kid will have them on their knees i swear.)

NCT Dream Texts || @jenosz💕✅💯

↳ Jeno boyfriend texts (the way that i fcking cackled at the first one. i cant, that was literal GOLD. ngl thats prob something i would say to my boo, if i had one LMAO)

NCT Dream Texts || @midmourn💕✅

↳ Your mom hasn't paid me this month (stop jisung would be the one to actually tell his mom. protect this lil sprout.)

8:57PM || @gyeomsweetgyeom💕✅

↳(faster/2 baddies era jaehyun has me on a fcking chokehold im not gonna lie.)

Do check out all of the other NCT Fics that i have reblogged as well!!

** if there is any fics that you guys would like to recommend, please do! i am slowly running out of fics to read **

[sapphire-writes]

Yooooo.. firstly jo's DIF! Extended Universe is back ! All rejoice!!!!

Girl im not even going to comment on the fic.. how could i when i was presented with these?

GIIIIIRLLLLL YOU ATE THAT! what the actual fuck those lyrics are so good.

A beast beneath the boards summoned by the chords???!?!!

The burden on my brow, my bed becomes my shroud?

Brb gonna go pass out real quick, you really said Inspired. Good god

BESTIE IM SCREAMING!! Oh how I've missed the DIF!verse for real 🥹 I'm so glad you liked Egg's song!! I was literally singing it to myself when I was writing it haha! Mr. Tortured artist indeed he is 🤭

thank you for sending me this lovely message bestie its always a pleasure when I see you in my inbox ily! 🫶🏻

[afro-hispwriter]

H*ley is so NASTY ! If using “bad idea right?” as the audio of her new reel was a way to let people know she’s still with Jack, knowing what the song is about makes it so GROSS. That raggedy old bat is out of her mind to think it’s so cutesie and quirky to scream at the world that she’s getting railed by an 18 yo. Brb, gonna throw up real quick

i cringed at the ending of this ask, hollup lemme join you😭

[futuregws]

Honestly right now I think there's only one maybe two marvel characters that if they were brought into the mcu I would literally scream and the main one is Claire Voyant aka the black widow like that woman and her story has a hold on me but the chance of her actually joining are slim to none so brb gonna go cry about that real quick

[chishnfips87]

i'm bouta to simultaneously whip and nae nae

i'm going to crack ubuntu

i wanna stephen hawking unattended on a hill

that's it i'm mining straight down

this is the part where i eat 50 mcnuggets and die of stress

god, take me like you take hamsters: as fucked up as possible

i've decided i am now paraplegic because i can't stand this shit

you take the moon, and she took the kids

and this is where i'd put my sanity IF I HAD IT

brb, gonna scream into my pillow real quick

if i could consciously stub my own to right now, i would at full force

on my way to totally NOT cause a four car pileup

*inhale, exhale* yep, i'm more done than a woman in a tanning bed after 30 minutes

funny phrases to use when something goes wrong instead of jokingly saying "i'm going to kms":

i'm going to kill god

i'm going to delete my blog

i'm going to explode

i'm going to blow up this entire website

i'm going to become the joker

this is going to be my villain origin story

i'm being so brave about it

fuck it we ball

god had to nerf me because i was too powerful

i'm too pretty for this

all according to plan

feel free to add on

[murdockbuckley]

I2I IS SUCH A GOOD SONG OMG I LOVE THE GOOFY MOVIE

if there’s no spongebob in the childhood playlist i’ll scream. (but also completely valid if you’ve never seen it)

gonna send you my playlists in a dm

the buck one doesn’t make sense but he’s just like me so it’s fine

100% following you on spotify now

the goofy movie is so underrated

brb going to add some spongebob to the playlist real quick 👀

[kindahoping4forever]

He 😌 didn't 😌 just 😌 post 😌 a 😌 video 😌 of 😌 him 😌 drumming 😌 shirtless 😌 with 😌 a 😌 man 😌 bun 😌

LOTS 😌 OF 😌 PRACTICE 😌 TIME 😌 THIS 😌 YEAR 😌 HE 😌 SAID 😌 WITH 😌 HIS 😌 WHOLE 😌 CHEST 😌 WHICH 😌 IS 😌 ENTIRELY 😌 EXPOSED 😌 THIS 😌 IS 😌 FINE 😌 I'M 😌 FINE 😌 THANKS 😌 FOR 😌 ASKING 😌

[queerlikearavenclaw]

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[terrapia]

brb gonna scream real quick

guys!! if you find something, reblog this and share it! HAPPY HUNTING! 💙💙

[cosmicgoddesswrites]

imma just need a bit with cat burglar X Peter where Peter introduced y/n and Jude to his Aunt May.

Brb im crying in the club cuz this idea is super cute and also there's no gifs of tasm! spidey with Aunt May

It was hard to miss the way (Y/n)'s knee bounced nervously the entire ride to Aunt May's home. Peter also had to hold one of her hand's in his while the other gripped the steering wheel of his car, he knew if she didn't have one hand occupied she would pick at her nails.

She stared silently out the window while Jude chattered away in the backseat, admiring all of the houses they passed on the drive to Aunt May's. Once the car came to a stop, Jude practically glued himself to the car window.

"Is this the one?" He asked excitedly, already unbuckling his seatbelt.

"Yup! That's Aunt May's," Peter responded proudly as he turned off the car. He noticed (Y/n) made no move to unbuckle her seatbelt while she stared at the house. Peter bit his lip, then turned to look over his shoulder into the backseat at Jude. "Buddy, I gotta talk to mommy real quick. Earphones?"

Jude nodded and reluctantly put on his headphones, then relaxed back into his seat while Peter played The Strokes on the old iPod of his that he had gifted Jude.

Peter shifted his attention to (Y/n) and lightly squeezed her hand. "What's wrong...?"

(Y/n) hung her head and stared at her lap. "I'm nervous... I really want her to like me. I know she'll like Jude but I'm a different story..."

Peter's eyebrows furrowed, "She's going to love you...I've already told her pretty much everything about you- except for the job that we don't speak of, of course."

She shifted uncomfortably in her seat, "Most moms don't like their sons to be with women who already have children of their own..."

"My Aunt May isn't like that," Peter assured. He reached forward and gently cupped (Y/n)'s cheek so she would look at him. "Everything's gonna be fine... Lets go inside before she runs out here to see what's up, okay?"

(Y/n) pursed her lips and nodded, waving down Jude so he could take off his headphones. She clutched the cake box they had brought like her life depended on it, and once Aunt May had opened the door she thought she might drop it.

"Happy birthday, Aunt May!" Peter said, quickly stepping forward and giving his aunt a big hug.

The older woman laughed while returning his embrace, "Ohh thank you, Peter. It wouldn't be a proper birthday without my boy!" She pulled out of the hug and turned her attention to (Y/n) and Jude.

"Aunt May, this is Jude and (Y/n)-"

"Oh I know," May waved him off, "I've heard so much about you two already I feel like I already know you!" She smiled. May's eyes brightened as she took them both in. "Oh, so beautiful, the two of you."

Jude, who had been shuffling his feet nervously, now smiled shyly at May. "Happy birthday!" he greeted, causing May to visibly melt at how cute he was.

"Absolutely precious," she chuckled.

(Y/n) adjusted her hold on the cake, "Happy birthday, thank you so much for having us." (Y/n) said, hoping May wouldn't notice how her voice cracked.

May's smile didn't falter as her kind eye's met (Y/n)'s, the warmth of her gaze putting (Y/n) at ease. "It's my pleasure, I've been so eager to meet you both. Come inside and make yourselves comfortable!"

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After a pleasant dinner, Peter volunteered to wash the dishes while Jude and (Y/n) sat with May in the living room. Jude had been leaning against (Y/n)'s arm, practically falling asleep on her, while she and May flipped through old photo albums of Peter.

"This was his first time ever meeting Santa, and also one of my favorite baby photos of him," May giggled while pointing at the photo.

(Y/n) couldn't help but hold back her own giggles as she studied the picture. "He looks petrified!"

May nodded, "that was the best photo they got of him that day. In all the others he was screaming his little head off, Richard and Mary couldn't get him to stop until they got home."

May flipped to the next page, to photos of Peter's first birthday. On either side of him was a man and woman, who (Y/n) assumed were his parents.

"Is that Richard and Mary...?" (Y/n) asked, glancing between May and the photo.

The older woman nodded, "Peter looks just like them, huh? A perfect mix of the two..."

"No kidding," (Y/n) breathed, unable to take her eyes off the photo "Richard was Ben's brother, right?"

May sighed softly, "He was. The two were so close when they were young, once they got older... well, they had their own paths. Peter was what kept them together."

(Y/n) felt Jude shift so his head was in her lap, finally succumbing to sleep. She gently began stroking his head then looked back at the pictures. "He was lucky to have the two of you..." (Y/n) trailed off.

May glanced between the sleeping boy and (Y/n) before speaking, "Did you grow up with your parents?"

A sad smile tugged at (Y/n)'s lips and she shook her head. "It was just me and my mom... my dad didn't want to be in the picture, so my mom moved us to New York and raised me here."

"I can't imagine," May sighed, "Your mother must be a remarkable woman for raising such a wonderful daughter."

(Y/n) felt her heart swell and she tried to bite back her smile, "It wasn't easy... We definitely had our struggles, but it made us both stronger." She paused as Jude mumbled in his sleep, "It even kinda prepared me for Jude..."

May reached forward and rested a comforting hand on (Y/n)'s knee, "He's so lucky to have you, (Y/n)... and now he has Peter and I too."

(Y/n) couldn't help but smile as she rested her hand over May's, "Thank you... He adores you already, I can tell. He's never warmed up to someone so quickly, aside from Peter."

May chuckled and shifted her hand to stroke Jude's hair out of his face. "That makes me happier than you will ever know... I've been waiting so long for Peter to bring his own family home. Now he finally has."

Unbeknownst to the two, Peter was leaning against the doorframe of the living room, watching them talk and flip through the photo album while Jude slept soundly.

After more photo browsing, the three said their goodbyes, and Peter and (Y/n) wished Aunt May one last 'Happy Birthday' before carrying Jude to their car. Peter happened to glance back at the house after getting Jude buckled into the back seat. May stood on her front porch, pointing at her ring finger with an expectant smile.

Peter couldn't help but laugh at that before rushing to get in the car and drive off before (y/n) could see. After a year of Aunt May practically begging him to bring (Y/n) and Jude to meet her, Peter predicted she would start begging him to hurry and propose.

[thefloorisbalaclava]

Sexting with Neighbor!Frankie (starts out as an innocent conversation and then turns absolutely filthy) 😶

oh I've been looking forward to this one!

warnings: some dirty talk (text)

[neighbor!frankie masterlist]

A week or so went by and you still hadn't stopped thinking about the way Frankie kissed you. His lips, his tongue, his taste--it was all still ingrained in your mind. You wanted to do it again badly, but didn't want to seem desperate. He texted you a few times but it never led to more.

That was until tonight.

Your phone buzzed on your bedside table and you already knew who was messaging you.

Frankie: hey u busy?

You: no. what's up?

Frankie: i wanna kiss u again also im a little drunk

You giggled at that and another message came through.

Frankie: u in bed?

You: yeah why?

Frankie: wish i was too

You: in your bed?

Frankie: yeah with u

Your eyes widened at that and your face grew hot.

Frankie: sorry.

You: don't be. i kinda wish you were in bed with me too.

Frankie: then i could kiss u again. i love kissing u.

Frankie: sry. i need to stop drinkin

You: is that all you wanna do in bed with me?

Did you really just send that message? It had been a very long time since you 'sexted' anyone but you hope you don't scare him away.

Frankie: i wanna do more. i dream about u

You: you do? good dreams?

Frankie: dreams i shouldnt be havin.

You: oh yeah?

Frankie: brb gotta walk my friends out

You waited a few moments for him to text you back but when your phone buzzed this time it was more than a text. Frankie had sent you a picture. The angle was a little weird and the picture slightly blurry but he was a little drunk. You could still see him though and that was the important thing.

He was smiling a bit and his hair was slightly messy. He had a flannel shirt on with the sleeves rolled up and jeans that accentuated his lovely thighs. His tummy poked out a little and that made you smile. You were gonna pretend you didn't see the bulge that was oh so obvious.

Frankie: how do i look?

You: you look great.

It was only fair to send him a picture back right? You sat up in bed and took a quick picture for him, making sure it wasn't too much. Though right now you'd send this man any kind of picture he wanted.

Frankie: oh wow. u look so comfy and sexy. i'm gonna tell u something. u promise u won't get mad?

You: promise

Frankie: i think about having sex with u

You dropped your phone to grab a pillow and scream into it. You giggled excitedly then took a few deep breaths to calm down.

You: do you really? and how is it?

Frankie: fuckin amazing. sry. is that wrong? sry. r u mad at me?

You: why would i be mad at you?

Frankie: cuz i said i wanna have sex with u

You: maybe i wanna have sex with you too

You imagined him sitting up straight and gawking at his phone when he got that message. It was time to surprise him a little more.

You: that night we kissed...i wanted more

Frankie: like what?

You: i wanted to climb into your lap and straddle you and feel you against me

He took a while to respond and you wondered if you had creeped him out. Or maybe he had fallen asleep.

Frankie: i bet u feel good. its been so long. i need good.

You: you need good?

Frankie: yeah u know

You did know. Your phone buzzed again and it was another picture. You gasped at the sight of his bare chest and boxer briefs which didn't leave much to the imagination. This man was sending thirst traps and probably didn't even know what that meant. He was beyond handsome. The tipsy little smile on his face was adorable. Your eyes trailed down to his chest, his soft tummy, the happy trail. You were biting your lip.

Frankie: was that inappropriate? u can block me if it was. sry.

You: you're sexy

Frankie: i am? thx. im in bed now too. wish u were layin with me. id kiss u again.

You: i want you to do more than that

Frankie: ill do whatevr u want

The next thing you sent...you had no idea what came over you but it was sent and there was nothing you could do about it now.

You: i want you to fuck me

You couldn't see him but if you could you would've seen him drop his phone on his face. It took everything in him not to roll out of bed and be at your door in a minute flat.

Frankie: i would make love to u

You smiled at that.

You: i'd like that

Frankie: i would tell u how beautiful i think u r while i do. if u want, id let u get on top to show me how u like it

You: you're just fucking perfect, aren't you?

Frankie: far from it. i am horny as fuck for u tho

You: i am for you too. i might have to touch myself

Once again, you couldn't see him but if you could you would've seen that he had beaten you to the punch. Every text from you took him higher and higher and soon he would hit the peak.

Frankie: what r u gonna think about?

You: you and your kisses. i'll look at those pictures you sent too.

Frankie: anything else?

You: you inside of me

That was almost enough for him right there. You knew he said you guys would take it slow but, damn, if this wasn't making it hard.

Frankie: do u wanna make love to me for real?

You nodded your head as if he could see you.

You: yeah i really do

Frankie: let's make it happen

You sat up again.

You: when?

Frankie: whenever ur ready

You were ready right fucking now but you had to control yourself. He had had a few drinks and though he was only slightly drunk, you wanted him to be completely sober when you had him for the first time.

You: soon. i promise

Frankie: lookin forward to it 😘

You sent him another picture. This time you were blowing him a kiss.

You: sleep tight, sexy 😉😘

He had something to take care of first but you didn't need to know that.

Frankie: goodnight beautiful ❤

[katnissmellarkkk]

Andddd here’s my chappy three thoughts 🥳🥳🥳

Hmmm Katniss saying that her mother has a dress made of velvet is actually really interesting because it shows that Mrs. Everdeen Lily-Rose really was well-er off before she married Katniss’ father Hunter.

Or did she get the velvet dress from Maysilee? Oh well, who knows.

Aww, Katniss’ nervous habit of touching soft things repeatedly to soothe herself 🤧🤧.

“Crying is not an option. There will be more cameras at the train station.” — someone tell that to Peeta 🤣🤣🤣.

Okay I gotta stop picking on Primmers, I know but like. How small is she that she sits on Katniss’ lap like a toddler but then in the following year is the same height as her? Doesn’t matter I know but still I wonder.

Okay so Mrs. E is the doctor for the people of the Seam? Idk I never thought about this but who does people like Peeta or Madge or Delly go to if they’re sick or hurt? Is there a still running apothecary shop that Katniss never mentions? Are her grandparents still running the family biz?

Also okay, I gotta stop having so many thoughts on all the lil details I know but like. Katniss says here she’s familiar with the herbs her mother doesn’t grow on her own so like a). Katniss is more of a healer than she leads on because no average person knows what kind of plant is medicinal and b). Her mother is just growing herbs and Katniss never mentions it again in the whole series? Or I just missed it.

Okay imma move on from this one singular paragraph but Gale and her made a pact a year ago that they’ll supply each other’s family with game if they were to be reaped... I’m feeling like their close friendship is probably only one year old then? Idk. Just my interpretation.

Honestly I love Katniss getting mad at her mom here.

She’s sixteen, for God’s sake, of course she’s angry at what her mother’s illness put her through.

Also I lowkey like that her mother got mad back because that lady in the movies had zero personality.

“Boys who are two to three times my size.” She sounds so little, omg 🥺🥺🥺.

“I don’t care if we’re rich, I just really want you to come home” 🤧🤧🤧😩😩😩😩 okay Primmers, you got me here.

“the Peacekeeper is at the door, signaling our time is up, and we're all hugging one another so hard it hurts and all I'm saying is ‘I love you. I love you both.’ And they're saying it back...” this is so sad leave me be 😫😫😫😫

Katniss is burying her face in a pillow to block out her emotions this is too much for me 🥵🥵🥵

Omg I forgot Peeta’s father visits Katniss 😅

Why does he visit Katniss?

She describes Peeta’s father as a “big, broad-shouldered man.” And then describes Peeta as stocky. Idk the comparison of the two descriptions has always led me to think Peeta is gonna be a big dude when he grows up like his father. This made no sense and had zero correlation but I thought, so I said it, no regrets

Oh he brought her cookies 🤧

WAIT WAIT WAIT. I just had a new thought, y’all. What if instead of the baker bringing cookies being a thing he does for all tributes, what if he’s bringing the cookies because Peeta asked him to, because he made them and wants to give them to Katniss and knows she’ll never accept / trust them coming from her competition? What if that’s the real reason the baker visited her in the first place? Because Peeta asked him to? This was such a shipper comment but idc, no regrets, remember?

Omg Peeta’s father is just mute 🤣🤣🤣

Between an abusive, angry mother and a mute for a father, the Mellark brothers must have had a fairytale of a childhood 😅😅😅😅.

But seriously #PoorPeetaMyBaby

Aww Peeta’s father is gonna help keep Prim alive 😭

Omg I just remembered he’s her mother’s ex boyfriend. Haidon Mellark, as I named him in my fics.

That one fic where he was thought to be Prim’s real father is just playing now in my head, rent free.

But does Katniss not realize that he may be offering to help Prim as a favor to her? Like she claims Prim is just so wonderful people adore her but there’s like zero evidence in the text that make her endearing? Okay I need to turn this bus around, I need to find a love for Primmy Deen.

Madge is not one for preamble apparently. No “hi, how are you? I’m sorry you’re gonna die? What will your last meal be?” Just right to “here, wear this family heirloom of mine, k thanks.”

I like that Madge had to kiss her cheek for Katniss to realize they were friends 😅😅😅.

I remember always loving her and Gale’s hug here. I’ve always felt like it was platonic, but especially when I first read the books and had zero preference one way or another for Gale or Peeta, I really liked how she said even with nothing romantic between them, “when he opens his arms, I don’t hesitate to go to him” or something I’m paraphrasing ok I’m lazy

Also though, this is the first time they’ve ever hugged? Idk why that surprises me? It shouldn’t because where is a hug gonna fit into a hunting trip 😅🤣😂 “I just caught a deer!” “let’s celebrate with a hug!”

I like that Katniss remembers how her father even failed to make a good bow sometimes. Random, I know.

I like that the Capitol weren’t entertained by the people freezing to deaths because it wasn’t bloody enough 🤭🙃

“How different can it be [to kill a human vs an animal]?” She’s about to find out, Gale 🥺. And when she comes back you won’t understand 🙄😔

What did Gale want to say before the Peacekeepers dragged him away?

I used to think it was a confession of love but I’m actually sure it wasn’t now? Just the wording “remember I-“ doesn’t sound like it, considering he never confessed anything prior to her coming home.

I’m assuming now he was just gonna give her some more advice to stay alive 🤷🏼‍♀️. Clearly if it were relevant it would have made its way to the others books.

Aww, she’s never been inside a car before 😭😭. I didn’t even know they had cars in this universe but okay.

I notice though how she says “In the Seam, we travel on foot.” So is Peeta just riding his trolly down the street every day with the other merchants then? 🤣

Peeta just openly crying on camera 😅😢.

I like how Katniss is like “ooo is this an act to get sponsors?” when in reality Peeta’s like “no, I’m just a soft and genuine boy ™️”

Omg I just realized this totally goes along with Peeta’s thing later on “I want to die as myself”

He’s refusing to hold back his emotions because he thinks he’s doomed to die and he’s already refusing to pretend to be or feel something ingenious.

But a Johanna mention in book 1 chapter 3 woohoo 🥳🥳🥳 also Katniss comparing Jo and Peeta is kind of like foreshadowing of their shared torture in book 3.

Omg she just called Peeta broad-shouldered and strong. 🥰🥰🥰 my headcanon for his post-canon body is confirmed

Also why does Katniss keep allotting his strength to carrying bread trays around? Are they heavy? Why have I never once heard of people who carry bread trays being strong? I always thought Peeta was really strong because he learned to fight in order to defend himself against his mother but that’s probably wrong.

But if a mother is abusive, it can lead to one of the kids being physically violent as well and we know Peeta isn’t but he has two older brothers I’m gonna cut myself off now but I think we all smelled what I just stepped in.

Also I just find it so fascinating now how she regards herself vs Peeta here.

When talking about herself, she says, “The competition will be far beyond my abilities. [...] Oh, there'll be people like me, too. People to weed out before the real fun begins.” But when she talks about Peeta, she immediately says, “It would take an awful lot of weeping to convince anyone to overlook him.”

It’s just funny how she discounted herself right from the start but thought he was a real contender and then come to find out, Peeta believes it’s the exact opposite 😂🙃. They’re both so stupid I can’t even take it.

Wait did they actually give the location of the Capitol and the location of District Twelve in today’s world? And I just overlooked it? Brb I’m gonna go to google maps right quick.

Okay so basically what I gathered is the Capitol is probably in New Mexico and District Twelve is somewhere between Kentucky and Alabama. Irrelevant I know. But just a reminder now to everyone that Katniss and Peeta are literally speaking, crying and screaming in thick, backwoods southern accents.

It’s literally so sad how everything for Katniss is about food. Like every motive she has, every action she does is about preventing starvation ever again. 🤧🤧🤧

First mockingjay mention 🤭🤭.

“My father was particularly fond of mockingjays” 😭😭😭 I bet he was 😭😭😭😭

We always go on and on about how Katniss is a mockingjay or her children are mockingjays but Katniss herself here says mockingjays represent her father imma cry, y’all 😫😫😫😫

“It’s like having a piece of my father with me, protecting me” shut up shut up shut up shut up

Awww, Katniss has never had food like this before 😔😔😔

Neither has Peeta 🤧🤧

Katniss disliking the way Effie put the two kids from the year before down and so began to eat like a pig just to prove her point, is so her. And the beginning of her fighting for the underdog.

Omg the Rue introduction 🥺🥺🥺

Bahahahaha the commenters calling District Twelve backwards but charming 😅😅😅 they really are the hillbilly district

Peeta’s unexpected laugh 🥺🥺🥺 I love you, baby

“He was drunk. He’s drunk every year.” “Every day.” Katniss and Peeta are already finishing each other’s sentiments and teaming up to get on Effie’s nerves I love them so much 😍

Oh my God, Effie, you selfish jerk. They’re kids having fun for like one second, no need to throw in their faces they’re gonna die if the drunk won’t help them. I’d forgotten why I don’t really like the book version of her. I actually prefer her as comedic relief in the movies.

I actually just realized I really dislike Effie Trinket, I hope they never speak to her again Post-Mockingjay. Idc how you’re raised you don’t need to treat teenagers who are sentenced to a probable death badly just because they laughed at you 🙄🙄🙄😡😡😡😡. They didn’t even really laugh at her, she’s just annoying and awful, we don’t stan Effie in this household.

Okay, that’s all for my thoughts on chapter three! Until next time, y’all ! If anyone actually read this long mess of a post.

[greensagephase]

AHHH @zoopzaper YOU'RE BACK WITH MORE FANART!!! 🥹💖💕 OMG I LOVE THIS SO MUCH AND GUESS WHAT????? Actually, I cannot say more 🙂‍↕️ But I have plans for NC... plans I cannot share with you right now because the haters will sabotage me sjkkkk but I'm just gonna say... stay tune with the updates!! 👀👀

BUT OMG WAIT - YOUR OC??? SHE'S A BADDIE!!!!! 💅🏼I LOVE HER AND THAT DRESS!!! It's so cool with the spider you added to it!! I adore the details like the gold hoops (I'm a gold jewelry girl and wear hoops every day, so twinsss), the gizmo on your OC, and her nails - SHE'S SLAYING!!!! Also, the hand difference... let me go scream about this real quick, brb... AHHHHH!!!

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slow dancing

praying for a slow dance scene in nc?? 👀 i can just imagine míguel being a little stiff and flustered cause hello?? he’s dancing with a baddie (aka reader aka my oc hehe)🙄. he don’t know what to do with all that! (we don’t know what to do with all of him either god DAMN.) anyways he’s a YEARNER I SWEAR!!! ILL DIE ON THIS HILL!!!

also tryinh my best to get better at drawing his face hhhhhhh he’s still so hard to draw even after a year UGH! anyways take this before i leave to drown in medical homework

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