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dreamersparacosm · 2 days ago
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under the checkered flag - epilogue blurb 1!
prompt ; in which your boyfriend, who’s normally all confidence, cockiness and self-assured, turns into a pouty, jealous mess when he remembers how much of a catch his girlfriend really is.
warnings ; unprotected sex, lil bit of oral (m recieving) (also this is not even a blurb. this is a whole ass story. also wrote this hungover so if there’s grammar errors… welp. idk how i got so ahead of myself pls help)
request ; linked here
part of the under the checkered flag universe
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You’re not entirely sure why you agreed to this.
The room is packed: it’s loud, buzzing with conversation, glittering lights and expensive diamonds you could never dream of affording, filled with the kind of people who look like they walked off the cover of Vogue. Jungkook, of course, is in his element, shaking hands, flashing his signature grin, seamlessly weaving through the crowd like he was born for this.
Meanwhile, you are hiding behind him like a child.
“Baby,” Jungkook murmurs over his shoulder, amused. His hand rests against your hip, keeping you tucked close as he greets another executive, another industry legend who already knows exactly who he is. “You gonna say hi or just use me as a human shield all night?”
You huff, clutching onto the sleeve of his tailored suit, peeking past his shoulder just enough to offer a shy, “Hi.”
The older man chuckles, shaking his head. “Cute one you got there, Jungkook.”
Jungkook beams, unbothered. “I know, right?” His fingers tighten around your waist, clearly very proud of you, and he wants everyone in this room to know exactly who you are.
And, to be fair, they already do. Your face has been plastered across every media outlet since his last race a few weeks ago, the headlines barely able to contain themselves. “Jeon Jungkook Off The Market: Meet the Woman Who Stole His Heart.” Paparazzi shots of him running to you after his win, kissing you in front of thousands, wrapping you in his arms like you’re his greatest trophy. Really, it was getting a little overwhelming.
You smile up at him as the aforementioned man turns away to entertain another person “Why are you doing this?”
He bites back a smirk. “Doing what?”
“Introducing me to every single person like I’m some mystery. They know who I am, Jungkook.”
“Do they?” He grins, leaning down, voice dropping just enough for only you to hear. “Because I don’t think they know you’re the love of my life yet. Want me to make a bigger announcement?”
Your face bursts into flames. You slap his side, making him laugh as he pulls you closer, not letting you escape even an inch.
“Relax, my love.” He presses a kiss to your temple, warm, grounding, very much second nature now. “Just wanna show you off a little.”
You groan, burying your face in his shoulder. “I hate you.”
“Liar liar pants on fire.” He says it so easily, so confidently, because he’s right. You’re completely, stupidly in love with him actually. However, the worst part of that? So is everyone else in this damn room.
The buzz of the party hums around you as you trail behind Jungkook, hands still lightly clinging to his arm like it’s your lifeline. He doesn’t seem to mind, laughing lightly as he introduces you to every person who approaches, all the while keeping one eye on you, making sure you’re still there, still close. You’re the quiet one, always in the background, but tonight? You’re sticking to him like glue.
The chaos around you only adds to the sensation of feeling out of place, and your mind pulses with the need to break free for a moment.
“I’m gonna get some champagne,” You tug on his arm to get his attention, hoping he won’t follow, aching for just a second alone.
“Alright,” Jungkook says, winking at you. “Dont wander far, I’ll miss you too much.”
You roll your eyes, the slight teasing in his voice making you smile despite yourself.
And finally, with a little space between you two, you head for the bar, where the bartender is already pouring multiple glass of champagne, a brand you hardly recognize besides the times that Jungkook has sprayed it over your head in his locker room after a win. You grab one, thank him with a smile, clutching your drink tightly, letting the warmth of the alcohol loosen some of the tension in your shoulders. You lean against the bar, taking in a deep breath, trying to shake off the intensity of the room.
You shift slightly, your heels pinching the back of your feet. Even though Jungkook is across the room now, deep in conversation with some high-profile men, you can still feel him, like a phantom touch, like gravity pulling you toward him even from a distance.
You’re halfway through your first sip when someone leans in beside you. His voice is warm, easy-going.
“Is it safe to assume you’re with Jungkook?”
The voice comes from your right, definitely belonging to someone who’s good at conversation.
You glance up, blinking at the tall, well-dressed man beside you. He’s… handsome, you suppose. Friendly. Dressed in a navy suit, collar slightly open, drink in hand. Polished, but not in an obnoxious way. He leans against the bar with a casual kind of confidence, the kind of presence that blends in rather than commands the room.
“Yeah, I am,” you admit, still feeling a little shy. “I’m his… well, girlfriend. Sort of.”
He raises an eyebrow, amused. “Sort of? That’s an interesting answer.”
You huff a small laugh. “I mean, yes. I am. He just… likes making a big deal out of it.”
“Yeah, that sounds like him,” he chuckles, taking a slow sip of his drink. “I take it you’re not used to all this?”
You shake your head immediately. “Not even a little.”
He laughs, genuinely, like he understands. “I get it. These events can be overwhelming.”
You tilt your head slightly, curiosity creeping in. “You say that like you’ve been to a lot of them.”
He grins, and that’s when it clicks. You suddenly recognize him, the familiar face.
“Wait—” Your eyes widen. “You’re a driver too, right? You raced today.”
His smile turns a little playful. “I did. And I did alright, if I say so myself.”
“You placed third, didn’t you?”
He blinks, slightly impressed. “Didn’t expect you to know that.”
You blush slightly, shrugging. “Well… I may have learned a thing or two from Jungkook.”
“Ah, so he’s been turning you into a racing expert, huh?” He teases.
“Not even close,” You laugh, shaking your head. “But congratulations. Third place is still huge.”
“Thanks,” He says, tipping his glass toward you. “Though, I have to admit, Jungkook is damn near impossible to beat. The guy drives like he’s invincible.”
You smile softly, the kind of smile that only comes when someone you love is being praised. “Yeah… he does.”
“You must be proud of him.”
“I am.” The words fall out before you can second-guess them, before you can hide them behind your usual shyness.
That much, you know is true. You are proud of Jungkook, more than he’ll ever know.
The man watches you for a second, a knowing look flashing in his eyes. Then, he smiles, shaking his head slightly. “He’s got a good one.”
You tilt your head. “What do you mean?”
He gestures toward Jungkook, who’s across the room, entertaining the guests, bright and effortless. “I mean, it’s not every day you see him this… settled. The guy used to be a bit of a wildcard.”
Your stomach flutters. You know that. You know exactly who Jungkook was before you.
You swallow, about to respond, when his next words catch you off guard. “Though, I have to admit…” He leans in slightly, voice dropping just a bit, teasing but still measured. “It must be tough, standing next to him all the time, knowing you stand out. ”
You feel your heart skip, your fingers tightening around your glass. You’ve always been completely oblivious when it comes to flirting. It’s not intentional—you just never assume anyone would be interested in you like that. Compliments fly over your head, teasing remarks get brushed off as jokes, and subtle advances? You don’t even register them.
Even with Jungkook, it took months of playful taunts, agreeing to do whatever you wanted, and blatantly flirty texts before you even considered the possibility that he might actually like you. And now, standing here at the bar, faced with a man who is clearly steering the conversation into dangerously suggestive waters, you’re a little slow to catch up. The moment finally clicks a beat too late, the realization washing over you like a delayed shockwave—oh. He’s not just making conversation. He’s flirting. And you? You walked right into that trap.
You let out a soft laugh, playing with the hem of your dress, trying to ignore the way his words sit uncomfortably in your chest.
“I mean, yeah,” You say lightly, swirling the champagne in your glass, forcing yourself to play it cool. “Jungkook has a lot of eyes on him. That’s kind of the deal when you’re one of the best, right?”
You try to steer the conversation back to Jungkook, hoping it’ll naturally fizzle out, but he gives you a look. A slow, appreciative glance. The kind that lingers just long enough to make your stomach twist in anxiety.
“That’s true,” He muses, his voice casual. “But I think most people would be looking at you tonight.”
Goddamnit.
Your fingers grip the glass so roughly it might shatter in your hands as you blink at him, processing. You laugh again, but this time it’s a little awkward, a tad nervous, like you’re trying to buy yourself a moment to think.
And then, as naturally as breathing, you look for him. Jungkook.
Your eyes search the crowd, scanning past the fitting dresses and tailored suits, past the photographers and the industry elites, until they land on him.
Of course, he’s right at the center of it all.
He’s laughing, head thrown back slightly, looking so alive, so magnetic, exuding the kind of confidence that made the world fall in love with him (and you as well, for that matter.) His suit jacket is long gone, probably thrown off on the back of a chair somewhere, replaced with a perfectly tailored white button-up, his sleeves pushed up just enough to tease the tattoos running along his forearm. He looks stupidly good.
He’s glowing, genuinely happy, his eyes crinkling as he talks, hands gesturing animatedly, completely and utterly in his element.
You bite your lip, a new kind of frustration blooming in your chest. How is he over there, completely fine, while you’re over here trying to figure out how to escape this conversation without being rude? Why must the universe put you, of all people, in the ring of fire?
“So,” The driver’s voice pulls you back, making you blink and turn your attention back to him. “How did you and Jungkook even meet? I don’t think I ever heard the full story.”
You shift again, clearing your throat, desperate to reroute the conversation away from yourself. “Oh—uh, through work, sort of. It’s actually kind of funny—”
Focus. Focus on Jungkook. Keep it safe. Keep it neutral.
You take another sip in between your sentence, the champagne fizzling against your lips, but the tightness in your chest doesn’t ease. You keep your focus on the man, trying to steer every single word back to Jungkook. It’s a delicate balancing act, keeping the conversation polite while dodging every veiled compliment, every lingering glance, every slight shift in tone that threatens to turn friendly into flirtatious.
“Yeah, it’s kind of funny, actually,” you pick up where you left off, still trying to keep it collected. “I had no idea who Jungkook even was when we first met. Everyone was freaking out about him, and I was just..”
You pause, shaking your head with a soft laugh. “Well, completely clueless.”
He chuckles, leaning in slightly, interest still flickering behind his eyes. “And now you’re wearing his jacket, front and center at every race.”
“Guess I learned who he was real quick,” You joke, though your fingers tighten slightly around your glass.
He tilts his head, like he’s about to say something else, perhaps even heavier, when two warm hands slip around your waist. They’re firm, familiar. A voice, deep, steady, and close enough to feel the breath of it against your temple. “Didn’t realize you two were getting so close.”
You blink, your entire body reacting before your mind even processes it. His presence is instant, all-consuming. You barely have time to react before you feel him pull you back against him, his grip on your waist just tight enough to send a message. The warmth of his chest presses against your back, solid and unwavering.
And when you tilt your head slightly, looking up at who you know damn well is your boyfriend — Oh. Oh, he’s not happy.
His jaw is tight, his lips pressed into a firm line. His usual easy-going expression is replaced by something darker, sharper, a quiet intensity simmering behind his eyes.
The man clears his throat, shifting awkwardly. He knows. Everyone in this room knows. Hell, even the higher powers know better than to mess with Jungkook’s girl.
“Jungkook,” he greets, nodding slightly. “Good race today, man.”
Jungkook doesn’t move. Doesn’t nod. Doesn’t blink.
He just keeps his eyes on the man in front of you, expression unreadable, until he finally speaks.
“Yeah?” he muses, voice deceptively smooth. “Guess I’m lucky I had my girl with me.”
His hold on your waist tightens, just slightly, as if reinforcing the point.
Your pulse spikes, warmth creeping up your neck as you become painfully aware of how close he is.
You’re not usually the center of attention. But right now, you may as well be standing in the eye of a storm.
The tension lingers for a moment more. Jungkook’s hands are possessive, fingers pressing slightly into the fabric of your dress. His presence is impossible to ignore, a wall of warmth at your back, his cologne—deep, musky, with some woodsy notes—wrapping around you like a second layer of skin.
The man shifts, clearly picking up on the shift in atmosphere. Still, he offers an easy smile, nodding toward you.
“She’s beautiful,” he comments, like it’s the most obvious fact in the world. “Guess I can’t blame you for keeping her close.”
Jungkook hums smugly.
“Yeah,” he murmurs, tilting his head slightly, like he’s weighing his next words carefully. “Prettiest girl in the whole damn room.”
Your stomach flips violently, a cage of butterflies releasing themselves in your body. You’ll never get used to the way he speaks about you.
The driver gives one last chuckle, his eyes flicking between the two of you before wisely deciding to move along with his night. He excuses himself, raising his glass towards both of you before scurrying away as quick as his legs can take him.
And then it’s just you and Jungkook.
You exhale, not even realizing you had been holding your breath, still feeling the ghost of his touch on your waist.
You’re about to say something, but before you can, he turns to you, leans down, presses a soft, lingering kiss to your cheek. The warmth of it spreads across your skin like wildfire.
He pulls back, just slightly, his lips hovering over your skin, his voice dropping into something quiet, “You really let that guy talk to you for that long?”
Your eyes widen. “What? I wasn’t—”
Jungkook pulls back, finally looking at you, and he’s pouting. Actually pouting. The 27 year old man. Lips jutted slightly, brows furrowed, his usual confidence slipping juuuust enough to reveal the jealousy simmering beneath. It might be the cutest thing you’ve ever seen.
You can’t help it. You giggle, heart swelling in your chest.
“Jungkook,” You breathe out, leaning up, pressing a kiss to his cheek.
He grumbles something under his breath. You kiss him again, again… one more time for safe measures. Tiny, peppered kisses, soft and teasing, trailing across his cheek until you feel the tension in his shoulders start to ease. He exhales slowly, tilting his head, still acting like he’s suffered through the potato famine, furthering your agenda on the sassy man apocalypse.
“I just don’t get it,” he mutters, dramatic. “Why does everyone love you?”
You giggle again, nose brushing against his as you murmur, “Maybe because I’m soooo beautiful?”
Jungkook scoffs. “You think I don’t know that?”
And for the rest of the night, Jungkook doesn’t let you go. Not for a millisecond.
His arm is wrapped around your waist like an iron band, keeping you flush against his side as he guides you through the afterparty. He greets people, nods along to conversations, but his attention never fully strays from you.
Every so often, he leans down, his lips brushing against your temple, the shell of your ear, whispering things only for you.
“Having fun, pretty girl?”
“Gonna keep breaking hearts tonight, or am I enough attention for you?”
“Can’t believe you almost let some other guy steal you away. The blasphemy.”
You laugh every time, eyes sparkling, cheeks warm from the champagne and from the way his voice wraps around you like velvet.
By the time you’re finally in his car, it’s even more obvious.
The moment he pulls onto the empty streets, one hand gripping the wheel, the other immediately finds your thigh. You’re all giggles and smiles, alcohol-induced laughs spilling from your lips as you shift beneath his touch.
“You’re being so touchy,” You tease, voice teasing, light, dripping with warmth.
Jungkook barely glances at you, but you see the smirk pulling at his lips. “Don’t see you pulling my hand away.”
You roll your eyes, but your skin betrays you, heat pooling everywhere his fingertips graze. His thumb circles slowly, rubbing absentminded patterns into your thigh, like he doesn’t even realize he’s doing it.
“You’re ridiculous,” You mutter, biting back another laugh as you lean against the headrest, the world outside the car nothing but passing trees and shadows.
“And you’re also tipsy,” Jungkook counters, stealing a glance at you, his eyes dark, amused, playful.
He licks his lips, the silver of his piercing catching the streetlights, and you hate how mesmerizing it is.
“So?” you huff, crossing your arms in mock defense.
“So,” he drawls, fingers squeezing slightly around your thigh, watching with interest as you visibly react. “You’re all giggly and sweet right now, and I think I like it too much. My bad for wanting to get my hands on my girlfriend.”
Girlfriend.
God, the word rolls off him so easily it makes you dizzy.
“You like me all the time,” You poke his hand that’s on your thigh.
“Yeah, but I like you even more when you’re like this,” He plays with his lip ring as his eyes focus on the road.
You peek up at him through fluttering lashes, watching the way his jaw flexes, the way he glances at you just a little too long at a red light. And then, without thinking, you lean toward him, voice dropping into something soft, just shy of teasing. “You’re really that possessive, huh?”
Jungkook’s fingers flex, grip tightening, and for a split second, he looks like he might mount you in that car. “Oh, you have no idea.”
And, he proves it to you. The second his front door swings shut behind you, there’s barely a beat of silence before his lips crash onto yours. It’s immediate, it’s urgent, all-consuming from the tip of your scalp to your toes.
His hands are already on you, fingers digging into your hips, pulling you in like he’s been starving for this. You gasp against his mouth, the taste of champagne still lingering between you, and it makes you giggle yet again like a little high schooler. “Jungkook—”
“Mm,” He hums against your lips, not even bothering to let you finish.
“You’re so cute when you’re needy ,” You chortle in between, barely able to keep up with his pace. Jungkook groans, grinning against your lips before kissing you again, longer, slower.
“What did I tell you about calling me cute?” He mutters, voice low (definitely playing up the octave to seem even more menacing.)
“That it’s true?” You tease, bubbly from the way he won’t stop kissing you.
In a single swift motion, Jungkook grips your thighs and lifts you off the ground, your legs instinctively wrapping around his waist, and a squeal exits your mouth.
“Jungkook!” You yelp, arms looping around his neck in surprise. Except it’s really no surprise, because the man has made it clear he’ll throw you around like a rag-doll. He’s already moving, already carrying you toward the bedroom with so much ease your head is spinning.
“Tired of you running from me,” He murmurs, smiling cheek-to-cheek, his bunny teeth poking out as he shuffles quickly down the hall.
You can’t stop laughing, light and heady, fingers threading through his dark hair as he all but sprints the rest of the way. He nearly flings you onto the bed like you’re deadweight.
The laughter is still spilling from your lips when Jungkook slots your mouth with his again, swallowing every giggle, every teasing remark before it can fully form. He kisses you like he needs you to stay quiet, like he’s trying to erase every last trace of your playful remarks before they slip past your lips.
But, you are not letting him off that easy.
“You were so jealous tonight,” You whisper between kisses, smiling against his lips.
Jungkook groans, tilting his head back just slightly before diving back in, his mouth brushing yours in a way that feels punishing.“Maybe. Or maybe I was just passionate.”
You roll your eyes, your fingers curling into the front of his shirt as he leans into you.
“It was kinda hot,” You mock. “You couldn’t stand it, could you?”
Jungkook grumbles something under his breath, his fingers pressing into your waist, pulling you closer, as if kissing you harder will shut you up. But the moment his lips trail down to your jaw, your pulse leaping beneath his touch, you decide to take control.
In a swift motion, you push against his chest, sliding out from underneath him and standing up.
Jungkook stumbles back onto the bed, eyes wide for half a second before something darker, more intrigued, flickers through them.
You smirk down at him, your confidence surprising even yourself.
“Oh?” Jungkook muses, grinning as he props himself up on his elbows. “Taking charge today?”
You hum, sliding onto his lap, your knees pressing into the mattress as you settle yourself atop him.
“I think you need to be reminded,” You murmur, your fingers ghosting over the silver chain around his neck before trailing downward, nails grazing the buttons of his shirt.
“Of what?” He questions, eyes dark, eager, watching your every move.
You lower yourself, pressing your lips to the corner of his mouth, not quite kissing him, just kind of floating.
Slowly, with a purpose, you start kissing down his jaw and the column of his throat. “That I’m all yours,” You whisper against his skin, letting your lips brush over him with every word.
“All mine?” His voice is rough, strained, his fingers practically imprinting upon your skin. He needs to hear it again.
You pull back slightly, rolling your eyes just a little. The man knows very well you’re all his, but the desperation in his voice has you a little more soaked than you’d like to admit.
“Yes, baby,” You breathe out, cupping his face, your thumbs brushing over the faint pink tinge dusting his cheeks. “All yours.”
Now, Jungkook has seen many sides of you. The quiet, reserved girl who hides behind him at events, the sweet and hesitant thing who blushed at every flirty remark he threw your way, the one who overthought every touch, every glance, every lingering silence between you. However, that’s not to say he’s not thoroughly enjoying how unbelievably attractive you looked sitting on top of him.
The girl—the one who is straddling his lap, fingers tangled in the fabric of his shirt, murmuring sinful things in that soft, teasing tone, the heat of breath sending shockwaves straight through him—he does not recognize.
His heartbeat pounds in his ears, blood rushing to his cock. He can hardly breathe or think, all logic stripped away. Jungkook watches, wind knocked out of him, as you shift in his lap, your hips rolling against the growing bulge in his pants. He is ever the patient man; almost as if he wants to see how far you’ll take it.
He continues to stare as your fingers reach behind you, tugging at the zipper of your dress, the soft fabric peeling away from your shoulders, slipping lower, revealing more, more…more. Good lord.
The room is silent except for the soft rustle of fabric, the faint collective gasp in his breath as your dress pools around your waist, leaving your bare skin kissed by the golden lamp light in the room. Jungkook is entranced, his pupils dark. He’s still propped up on his elbows, yet he’s barely keeping himself upright.
Your body is soft curves and slow movements, every roll of your hips against him smoother, more confident than the last, every movement calculated and precise .
His head tips back against the mattress, his long lashes fluttering, his cock throbbing beneath the confines of his pants. Just when he thinks he might combust, you lean down, your lips hovering near his ear, whispering something he doesn’t even hear properly through the haze in his mind. He doesn’t even know what language you’re speaking.
Every teasing shift of your body against his, every brush of bare skin against fabric is driving him to the brink of insanity.
“Tell me what you want, baby.” Your hands trail up his chest, slowly undoing every button, nails barely scratching the heated skin beneath his shirt. Your jaw slightly drops as you let out a soft, needy whimper, a sound so devastating it makes his cock twitch beneath his slacks. “I’ll do whatever you want.”
Jungkook’s resolve crumbles, and his hand flies up, fingers wrapping around your jaw. He tilts your face toward his, making sure you see him. His eyes are feral, his pupils so black and wide they nearly swallow you whole. “Want my cock in your mouth.”
The words send a bolt of heat straight to your core, your body clenching instinctively. There is a small part of you that’s not all that experienced, despite your past boyfriend and you having sexual experiences. It’s just.. different with Jungkook. You think he expects more, although he tells you he doesn’t. But you’ll do your best for him, like you always do.
He moves up, sitting against the headboard, and you wiggle down, your lips parting just slightly, like you’re already imagining how he’ll feel pushing past them, how he’ll taste on your tongue, which you 100% are.
Your fingers work slowly, methodically, undoing the zipper of his slacks with a deliberate precision that has Jungkook shaking beneath you.
The sound of the zipper unfurling is deafening in the quiet room, drowned only by the unsteady rhythm of his breath, the way it stutters every time your fingers brush against him, every time you shift or press a kiss just a little lower. The man is putty in your hands.
You slip his pants down his thighs, fabric pooling around his ankles, and you throw them somewhere in the room; it doesn’t even matter. What matters is beneath them, he is hard, aching, straining against the waistband of his boxers, the fabric doing nothing to hide just how much he needs you, letting you take control while he teeters on the edge of losing it completely.
Your lips press softly to the fabric, your breath warm, your hands gliding up his thighs, fingertips tracing the defined muscles there, feeling the way they tense under your touch, how they twitch with anticipation.
Jungkook watches you, his dark lashes heavy, his chest rising and falling too quickly. He gathers your hair for you gently, fingers running through the strands, pushing them away from your face, tucking them behind your ears, cradling the back of your head, making sure he can see you completely.
For the first time in a long time, you want to be seen.
You want him to watch as you shift, as you lean back, as you slowly kick off your dress, letting it slip down the length of your body, letting it pool onto the floor in a forgotten heap, leaving you bare and exposed.
The black lingerie set you had worn underneath is still intact, a stunning contrast against your skin, the delicate lace barely covering anything at all, making you feel utterly unbreakable under his gaze.
You finally pull his boxers down. His cock springs free, the thickness of it always making you gulp. It’s flushed an angry shade of red, the tip glistening with precum, leaking and throbbing.
You swallow, your mouth already watering, your thighs pressing together as you wrap your fingers around him, feeling the weight of him in your palm. “F-fuck, baby,” Jungkook gasps, his head tipping back against the headboard, his hands gripping your hair tightly.
You stroke him slowly, taking your time, watching every little reaction, fascinated by how his body responds to you, by how his hips barely lift off the bed, chasing your warmth, chasing more. There’s normally a slight hesitation from you, but between the mix of the champagne and how fucking good he looks, you lean in. The first kitten lick to his tip is tentative, barely a flick of your tongue, just a taste.
Jungkook groans, his body jerking, “Jesus fucking Christ,” he curses, his voice shaking, his grip trembling against your scalp.
You hum softly, the sound vibrating against him, your lips parting slightly, your tongue flattening against the tip this time, lapping up the bead of precum that had gathered there, savoring the salty, musky taste of him on your tongue.
“That’s it, baby, fuck, so good,” Jungkook moans, his thighs tensing, his abs clenching, eyes screwing shut, then flickering open again, desperate to watch you, desperate to see you taking him, loving him, making him fall apart in the most beautiful way possible.
His praise makes you braver, makes you bolder, makes you want to see him even more undone, even more at your mercy. You press a soft, open-mouthed kiss to his tip, feeling him pulse beneath your lips, hearing the way he gasps sharply.
“You’re so fucking perfect,” He whispers, his voice awe-struck that you’re letting him have this piece of you.
His cock is heavy, filling your mouth so perfectly, stretching your lips as you slowly bob your head, taking in as much as you can. You feel the weight of him glide over your tongue, your throat relaxing, your jaw straining in the best way possible.
“Shit, baby,” Jungkook groans. You’ve always loved how vocal he gets for you.
You steal a glance up at him, and that’s when your eyes meet. His gaze is so dark, pupils blown out, his lips parted, damp. The moment he catches your heavy-lidded, pleading stare, something in him breaks like a live-wire.
“F-fuck,” He chokes out, his abs flexing as his breath breaks. “You’re so beautiful like this.”
You get the urge to keep going, faster now, the wet, lewd sounds of your mouth working him filling the room. Your tongue flattens along the underside of his cock, the heat of your mouth searing, your hand wrapping around the length that won’t fit, pumping in time with your movements.
“So, so good, so fucking good,” He pants, voice cracking like a prepubescent boy, his self-control hanging by a thread.
You feel it when he starts to twitch on your tongue, when his hips stutter, when his grip tightens, when he pulls your hair just slightly, as if he’s trying to stop himself from spiraling completely.
“Shit, fuck, wait—” He pulls you off him suddenly, his cock leaving your mouth with a wet pop, a string of saliva still connecting you. Your lips are swollen and glossy, your breath ragged as you look up at him, dazed and a tad cock-drunk.
“But…” You sigh, your voice small, your fingers still gripping his length, feeling the way he pulses in your palm. “I wanted to keep going.”
Jungkook groans, pulling you up onto his lap where he needs you most. His lips find your cheeks first, then your nose, your forehead, your jawline, kissing you everywhere, like he’s seconds away from breaking.
“I know, baby, I know,” He pants, barely coherent. Before you know it, he’s positioning you, guiding you to straddle him, to let him sink inside you where he belongs. “But I need you to sit on my cock, baby, please.”
His forehead presses against yours, his lips brushing against your mouth, his breath mingling with yours. “Need to feel you, need to be inside you.”
You whimper against him, the words sending a shudder through your body. Your core throbs and aches for him, whole body on fire like you’ll die if you don’t have him.
You align yourself, rolling your hips just slightly and letting his tip press against your folds. You glide it through your slick, coating him in you. It’s disgusting how aroused you are by him, but there’s comfort in knowing he feels the same way about you.
The sensation sends a jolt of pleasure through you, and your head tilts back, your mouth falling open, a soft, breathless moan slipping past your lips as the friction sparks along every nerve in your body.
Jungkook is completely gone, eyes glued to where your bodies meet, his jaw clenched so tight. He’s doing everything in his power to not completely lose control before he even gets inside you.
You sink down, slow, so slow, inch by inch, your walls stretching and molding to accommodate him.
The moment his thick length pushes inside, Jungkook groans, low and broken, while he holds you steady. The slide feels endless, like it always does, stretching you out like you’ve never taken him before, and he’s still struggling to ground himself, trying not to explode right then and there.
“Oh, f-fuck,” He hisses, his thighs tensing beneath you, his muscles coiling so tightly. He’s barely keeping himself from thrusting up into you, from taking what he wants, from losing himself in you completely.
You are getting split in half. Or, it feels like it. Your walls squeeze around him, your body shuddering.
“That’s it, baby,” he pants, his voice low, as his fingers trail up your spine. “Taking me so f-fucking well, feel so good, so tight.”
You only really sit comfortably when your clit presses against his pubic bone, when he is fully, completely inside you, when his cock is buried to the hilt, stretching you so perfectly, so devastatingly deep that it feels like he’s become a part of you.
“Oh my fucking god,” He chokes out, his grip on you bruising, completely lost in the feeling of you milking him already, pulling him in deeper, deeper, deeper. “I almost, fuck, I almost came just from that—”
The thought of it, the idea that you could make him cum just from sinking onto him, has your brain on autopilot.
You start to move, hips rolling in smooth undulations, dragging yourself up his length, feeling every ridge, every inch, before sinking down again. It’s a steady rhythm, one that has you both gasping for air.
But you don’t let him look away from you.
Nails pressing into his shoulder blades, you keep him anchored to you, your body flush against his. You tilt his face back up, your lips ghosting over his. The eye contact sends a shudder through him, his pupils blown wide, begging without words.
“You’re mine,” You murmur, your voice soft but firm, dripping with possession. Your hands trail up to cup his face, holding him there, making sure he hears you.
“Yeah?” he pants, his voice slightly slurred and drenched in adoration “Show me, baby. Let me feel it.”
Your walls squeeze him with every movement, every drag of your hips. And it’s all too much: his cock reaching even deeper, grazing that spot that paints stars in your vision.
“You’re so fucking good to me,” He groans, his voice choked, eyes desperate.
Your hands slide into his hair, tugging slightly, and he whimpers, his lips grazing over you, kissing wherever he can reach, mouthing at your skin. “All yours, baby, fuck. No one else, just you.”
Your heart swells, his jealousy from earlier feeling so distant, so insignificant, when he’s begging for you like this.
“Mine,” you whisper again, your lips ghosting over his ear, your hips picking up the pace, making him writhe beneath you.“Always fucking mine.”
Jungkook shudders, “Yours, baby.” And the words are just being repeated over and over like babbles, barely coherent to either of you as the feeling of being full by him overtakes all.
His hands lift you slightly, just enough for you to feel the drag of his cock leaving you, before he pulls you back down, filling you again in one smooth, deep motion. You cry out, your walls fluttering around him, the pace shifting from teasing to something more consuming, more needy.
“That’s it, baby,” he mumbles, his hips meeting yours now, pushing deeper, guiding you exactly how he wants you. “Just like that, ride me just like that.”
“Kook,” You whimper, nearly shaking, nearly crying from how good it feels, your hands sliding down to press against his chest.
You’re practically soaking him, your slick glistening at the base of his cock, collecting there, and he might need to be put in a mental institution after catching sight of it.
“Look at what you’re doing to me,” His eyes lock onto yours, hand slightly moving your face to avert your gaze elsewhere. You glance down, and fuck, he’s right. He’s glistening, his cock shiny with your arousal. Every time he pushes back inside, there’s more slick coating his length, dripping onto his thighs, pooling at the base of him like a sinful masterpiece.
“You feel that, baby?” he whines,“This is all yours.”
Everything becomes messier, sloppier, you’re not even sure where you are anymore. Jungkook is barely holding on, his thrusts erratic, his hands tight on your waist, slamming your hips down over and over again.
Your walls are fluttering, pulsing around him, the pleasure so intensethat you can barely even think or form any thought that isn’t jumbled.
“Jungkook, fuck,” You sob, your body jolting forward every time he drives into you, every time he hits that perfect spot inside you, over and over and over again.
“I got you, baby, fuck, I got you.” And then you really can’t take it anymore when he says things like that. Your hand flies between your legs, fingers pressing to your clit, rubbing furiously. You’re trying to tip yourself over the edge, trying to chase the orgasm that is so close, building like a wave, curling at the base of your spine, ready to crash over you at any second.
Jungkook watches, lips slightly parted. He can’t tear him away from the way you touch yourself, how you look so absolutely fucked out on top of him.
“You gonna cum for me, hmph? Hm, baby?” His words send a shockwave through you, his pace stuttering for just a second before he pounds up into you without a single ounce of restraint left.
“Fuck!” You cry out, your release inevitably waiting for you. Jungkook grins, knowing how close you are, already used to how you look when you finish.
The pleasure crashes over you like a tidal wave, drowning you in pure, white-hot ecstasy. Your entire body locks up, breaking apart as your orgasm rips through you with violent force.
“Oh, Jungkook,” Your walls are squeezing around him so tight it nearly forces him out, your head tipping back, mouth falling open, but no sound coming out. Your fingers slip from your clit as your body gives out, but Jungkook doesn’t stop. His hands are locked onto your waist, his hips still driving up into you, prolonging your orgasm, forcing you to ride it out until you’re whimpering.
“Holy fuck, squeezing me so tight,” He’s shaking with restraint, his muscles taut.
Watching you fall apart like this, feeling your walls clench around him like a vice, holding him, owning him, milking him—it’s a lot.
Jungkook grits his teeth, his grip on your waist turning bruising, his chest rising and falling in frantic, erratic pants as his orgasm hits him like a fucking wrecking ball.
“Fuck, mineminemine,” He gasps, and for the first time since you two started dating, he doesn’t ask for permission to finish inside of you. Doesn’t wait for your sweet little nod, your usual whispered “yes” into his ear.
No, not tonight. Tonight, he needs to claim you, needs to remind you, remind himself that no one else is going to have you.
Tonight, he slams you down onto his cock one final time, burying himself as deep as he can go, he spills inside you, filling you up.
“Take all of it, baby,” He gasps, his hips jerking up, riding out his high. Your bodies tremble together, both of you completely wrecked. Yet still, he stays inside you. Still buried to the hilt, his arms wrapping around your waist, pulling you flush against his sweaty body. His lips press lazy, open-mouthed kisses to your temple, your collarbone.
The room bathes in the warm afterglow of post-sex air. Your limbs are tangled with his as you lay with your head sprawled across his chest, his heartbeat still hammering beneath your ear. For a long moment, neither of you speak. Just deep, ragged breaths. The faint hum of the city outside. The lingering warmth of his hands tracing slow, absentminded patterns across your bare back.
“So… still wanna deny how jealous you were tonight?” You laugh, the words muffled slightly against his skin.
Jungkook groans, his arms tightening around you instinctively. “Don’t start.”
You grin, tilting your head slightly to catch the faint pink creeping up his ears.
“No, but really,” you hum, your fingers lazily tracing the chain around his neck, feeling invincible. “You almost lost your mind over a five-minute conversation. Kind of insane, actually.”
Jungkook lets out a low, gravelly laugh, the sound vibrating through your ears. “You don’t understand how fucking attractive you are. Seriously.”
“Jungkook—”
“No, really,” he kisses your forehead, watching you so intently you feel like he’s seeing right through you. “You walk into a room and I lose my goddamn mind. Every single time. You could have anyone, and yet… you chose me.”
He exhales slowly, lips brushing against your forehead in a way that feels so domestic. You don’t know what to say to that, so you sit with the words for a minute, let them reverberate through your chest. And it almost feels like your chest can’t contain it, like the pressure is building too fast, too much, like your ribs might crack beneath the weight of it. Behind them, your heart swells, expanding at least three sizes larger than its usual.
You pull him back down, lips curving into a soft smile as you kiss him again. “Always gonna choose you, Kook.”
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cinnamqnbuns · 3 days ago
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buried feelings
summary - ellie x female reader! seeing the person you admire the most get closer with her, stomach coiling. hidden feelings shoved far down, to reluctant to admit, until it gets to full in your chest to keep down.
warnings / contains - fluff! kissing, a bit of arguing, angst, y/n only a few times, both readers in their undergarments together, only for a moment (changing clothes).
authors note - this is my first story so i hope you enjoy reading :) if any critiques or comments you would like to suggest feel free to let me know! i had this vision while just thinking of scenarios in my head and thought i should write it all out!
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the faint smell of book pages, dust, and hints of weed accompanied by the presence of ellie, dina, and y/n. warm lights hanging and the sound of calloused fingers brushing guitar strings ever so gently bring a sense of comfort to the auburn hairs home. you cant keep your eyes off the freckled face in a sense of love, and hurt. dina and ellie have been getting closer to each other, stomach turning every time dina makes her laugh, throwing her head back, having a good time like it was nothing. but to you, it was everything. you felt it everywhere in your body. why cant she seem so delighted when it comes to me? you could question yourself all day to the point your sick to your stomach, feeding into your thoughts that most arent true. your insecurities and jealousy talking louder then any other thought in your brain. what does she have that i dont? you could never not enjoy dina, she was perfect. something about her and ellie enjoying time together made you not interested in anything around you when you were together. you over thinked everything. the way she looks at dina, the way she looks at you when your across the room, hands touching for a second longer after passing something, how she is always quick to help, the way she stuck up for you a few days back. just ellie for you, being polite to a friend. cant even do the simplest thing as much as look at you without the butterflies in your stomach fluttering.
you fiddle with the bottoms of your pants, staring off into nothing as the two carry conversation in the background of your hearing. you both on the couch while dina on the floor. the way dina fluttered her eyes at ellie, looking up talking to her, made you sick. it was all in your head. over analyzing it all. just brush those thoughts off.. your fine, everything’s fine. you had been more quiet then usual today. the smallest thing between the two happened, and it felt as if something heavy in your chest kept weighing down on you more and more. trying not to make it obvious constantly pressing on a forced small. you thought they were so oblivious to your act, but she noticed. from the second it happened. the glares you would give them, how you couldn’t sit still constantly shuffling, the way your pretty eyes looked so dull today. ellie always notices when it comes to you.
“alright guys, im gonna get going before i end up staying here all night.” a small giggle comes from her lips as she nudged ellie resulting in a playful shove back. grabbing her belongings and heading to the door,
“see you guys sometime soon, dont have to much fun without me!” dina teased, winking.
“we will have so much fun thank you, see you later dina.” said ellie with sarcasm. does she think we wont have a good time without dina? a sweet smile came across her face just before she opened the door and was gone. ellie getting up to lock the door behind her before focusing all her attention on you, your face, the look in your eyes, how you started fidgeting with the nearest thing, sitting ever so still, be sides your restless hands, with a blank expression. she knew something was up. the room fell silent after she left. to silent for comfort. the air felt thick and your eyes heavy. you feel a dip in the couch as she sat next to you, knees almost touching. your heart sank for a moment, not knowing why. you peer up at her and by the look of concern and confusion on her face you could tell what was gonna be the next thing that she said,
“hey,” she paused, contemplating on what to say next, careful of not to say anything wrong to you,
“whats going on?” you let out a breathe, not wanting to respond at all and tell her “go away.” but you didn’t, you cant. it wasn’t ellie nor dinas fault your carrying this heavy feeling.
“nothing, im okay.”
“oh come on, you dont have to lie to me. i know somethings wrong. your never this quiet y/n, not like this.” she spoke quickly after. she was deeply concerned, your never really like this and it worried her, badly. she could imagine showering you in a affection and comfort, looking into your eyes cupping your face, telling you that your okay. it hurt her to see you hurt. the dullness in your voice made her heart hurt, thinking she did something. your here with me, i got you baby. just talk to me please. placing a soft, warm kiss on your pink lips. you guys locked eyes for a brief moment before you look away, dreading this conversation even if it just begun,
“i.. its nothing alright, m’fine. just.. leave it alone please.”monotoned. slowly getting up, looking around for your things. you were ready to go. you couldn’t explain to her your feelings right now let alone even face her at the moment. you were leaving. now when you look back on it, realizing all you needed in that moment was a hug and someone to talk to. you just needed ellie, but she felt out of reach. eyes glossy, voice shaky. you felt stuck, you want to shout at her about how deeply you feel for her, but at the same time, shove the feeling so far down you cant ever reach and never speak on it. ever.
“you cant tell me to leave it alone when i see you.. like this,” grabbing your arm gentle, not wanting to hurt or startle you to much, but firm. firm enough for her to move your body towards her, pull you closer, wanting you to look at her. eyes meeting, she wanted you to know she was serious. looking into your eyes, oh how beautiful she thought you looked even when you were worked up over, well she didnt know but she could tell how deeply it weighed on you by the look in your eyes. its almost like the world stopped for a moment. both pairs of eyes on each other, only a few inches apart, scanning every detail and crevice on your face. the look on ellies face comforted you, knowing how concerned she was made you feel a little bit more okay. knowing it wasn’t just in her words but in her face, you could physically see how she cared. not saying anything for a couple seconds before she spoke,
“please just look at me, look i dont know if i did something or maybe dina did but im sorry and i just need you to kn-“ talking with her free hand, you pull away from her grip, it wasn’t on purpose. your body just did it, you couldn’t handle all this. cutting her off,
“jesus ellie just please leave it alone, leave me alone. i told you i was fine, i need you to stop questioning me.” you uttered, with a raised voice. not yelling, but up with volume. you both paused, shocked at your words. her lips parted as if wanted to speak, but she didnt. she couldn’t, nothing would come out. never would she have imagined you telling her that, speaking to you so harshly for just helping you. it hurt, made her stomach drop, heart beat faster. you didnt mean it, there was so much going on in your mind you just snapped. fuck fuck fuck. you cursed yourself. and in this moment, if felt as if the person you dont have you already lost, all because she was just trying to help.
“ellie.. fuck, im sorry i didnt mean to.. to snap like that im really sorry okay, there is just a lot going on in my mind and it was all to much and-”
rambling for a moment before she stopped you,
“y/n, its okay. just please calm down for a moment, i see your worked up, i was just trying to help alright. m’sorry”her “sorry” coming out as a whisper. she wanted to say more, but nothing would come out. tears beginning to fall from your eyes, you were feeling to many emotions at once. thoughts running a mile a minute. god your so fucking sensitive when it cones to her. before you said anything else she looked away, taking a seat on the couch, parting from how close you two were. she wasn’t mad, you could tell. she was upset, which made you feel so much worse. she wanted to comfort you. she didnt mean to push, and you didnt mean to break. after standing there for a second you sit next to her, leaving some space between. after a moment of uncomfortable silence,
“im sorry, i really do mean it els. you just kept asking and i dont know it.. it just set me off,”
“but why, was it something i said? im just not understanding y/n”
you can sense her getting mad, only slightly, could hear it im her tone. dreading this conversation again as much as you were when it started.
“do you really want the reason ellie, i.. it wasn’t for no reason. you didnt do anything”
trying as much as you can to make it sound as if it wasn’t her fault at all. spoken at just above a whisper. your heart started beating faster, it took you a second to realize what you said. am i really gonna tell her? now? here? like this?
“i mean, yes.. please”
she asked sort of like a question, as if it was obvious why she wanted to know why, and her “please” as begging. you took a deep breathe. waiting a moment before speaking. wiping whats left of the salty tears on your face. you could feel ellie looking at you from your peripheral, which made you so much more nervous. feeling her eyes on you, feeling yourself shaking, gripping the couch slightly to tame it. telling the girl you’ve had feelings for her since you were young, before you even knew you liked girls, on a random thursday. your breath became shaky trying to build up the courage and speak.
“i, uh.. god..”
the last word came out breathy, this is it, the moment you have been telling yourself you would not be a coward and go for, whats the worse that could happen.. and the worst that could happen flooded your mind, it was all building up. finally, looking up into her green eyes, her face silencing your mind for just a moment. she looked so.. eager to know what was on your mind.
“i think i.. i know ellie, i love you. i always have. ever since the day i met you, ive always felt something for you. your the best thing that has came into my life and i’ve always adored you, even if i had to silence my feelings the entire time. the way you look at me when i speak and actually listen to me, the way you care so much about me, and the people around you. how your eyes look in the sunlight light as the wind blows in your hair. your beautiful, your everything i want in a person. your intrest in reading, space, and dinosaurs, i admire. your smart, i love everything about you. and look i understand this is awkward, i didnt want it to come out like this, not after i came at you like that. but it had to come out eventually right?”
letting a awkward breathy laugh, followed by huge sigh. all that pressure on your chest, mostly, lifted up and off, the rest relying on her response. placing your hands on your thighs looking down, not daring to look into her eyes. those beautiful green eyes, how you could look at her forever and never get tired. not now. mind racing a mile a minute, not believing you just did that. your hearts in your stomach. what if i fucked up our friendship.. ellie on the other hand, every word you said made her stomach drop even deeper as you went on. she was stuck, not knowing what to say. she feels the same way.. i feel so fucking stupid, how didnt i know. ellies mind rewinding back to all the times where it was bluntly obvious you had feelings for her. like the last puzzle piece fit into place. she slid closer to you, almost positive you could hear how loud her heart was beating. grabbing onto your hand,
“i wish i would’ve known sooner, ive had feelings for you since, i couldn’t tell you how long. and im sorry for all this and for pushing you i didnt mean all of this to happen, i feel so stupid for not realizing earlier and just getting mad at you for-“ you press a kiss onto her full, pretty lips cutting her off. it felt like something clicked, what you’ve been wanted this whole time. the feeling you have been searching for. ellie. her lips on yours, the warmth of her connecting with yours so perfectly, her lips were made for you. bringing her hand up to your face to bring you closer, time stopped. you could’ve swore someone was setting of fireworks. everything meant nothing to you. all that mattered was that you had ellie, and ellie had you. melting into her, you pull closer into her with your hands around her waist. smiling to yourself again her lips, forgetting everything that happened before this. deepening the kiss with her, slow yet hungry kissing, not rushing this moment one bit. as rain drops are heard hitting her home, you had a bright idea. all this tension and feelings needed to be released. you pulled away, not looking away from her lips, looking as if she wants more of you, as if she needs you. hungry for more of your touch.
“lets go outside.”
“what?”
“in the rain, come with me.”
“are you being serious?”
“so serious, el.”
you say as you push yourself off the couch, grabbing her hand, both out of breath from the heavens of kissing. you opened her front door, hand in hand as you run out in the rain dragging her with you. letting go, spinning in circles with the biggest smile on your face, you feel so alive. so happy, so free. the porch light, the only light illuminating your faces as you cheesy dance in the rain together. passing smiles back and fourth to each other. suddenly picking you up with both arms wrapped around your waist spinning you as you grip onto her shoulders, throwing your head back, the kind of laughter that makes cheeks hurt as she smiles up at you, just watching how pretty you look drenched, in the rain, in her arms. it felt so nice having you in her arms. she could hug you forever. putting you down, your hands around her neck and hers on your waist. forehead to forehead, with the biggest smiles on your faces both letting out a small laugh before your lips crash together. feeling so vulnerable and warm in her touch despite the cold rain.
“come on babe.” as she pulls you under the roof between the outside and her home, still outside, but sheltered from rain. pulling you into a hug, you really needed this one. you both did. just to hold eachother felt like the best thing, not feeling heavy tension or holding back anymore. the feeling of safety came over you both.
as you step into the door, both dripping above her door mat, shivering cold. she takes your hand speeding walking into the bathroom, giggling, taking off your rain soaked clothes. both in nothing but a bra and underwear, trying try not to look at eachother to much, not wanting to make one another to uncomfortable. ringing out your clothes and hanging them over the tub, she grabs her towel and wraps it around you, “ill be back with some clothes, okay?”
giving her a smile and a small nod before she walks out. leaning back onto the while, smiling to yourself. you felt so good. coming back with a towel wrapping around her, a sweat shirt, some sweatpants, and a pair of socks. after getting dressed, drying your hair with the towel she gave as you walk out to see ellie already dressed, sitting in bed, doing the same with her towel. you sit down next to her. admiring her features for a second before she looks back at you,
“you know, we are probably catch colds after that” looking at your lips, then your eyes again. you shrug,
“maybe, but it was so worth it and you know it els”playfully nudging her, give eachother sweet smiles
“absolutely was.” after drying eachothers hair and talking for a bit, you lay in bed together. ellies head rests on your chests as you two share conversations and sweet apologies about everything. sharing heartfelt stories on how you guys acted before the truth of feelings came out. after almost a half an hour of laughs and heart to heart, you decide to tell her one more story before bed,
“okay so before i tell you this, i dont want you to be upset at joel for this,”
letting out a breathy laugh, stroking her damp hair,
“joel has known i liked you for a while now, one day he noticed how i got jealous i got after you simply helped up a girl up from slipping on ice, back when it was winter. it took a minute to admit it to him after back and fourth disagreeing but, i sat there for a while telling him all about how i felt for you. he thought it was the sweetest thing. he promised me not to tell you until i was ready to tell you. thats why joel always subtly tries to bring me up, he told me that and i was so nervous. like he talks about me to you? i always wondered how you reacted. but yes, joel has always supported me and you before there was a me and you.”
you played in her hair almost the entire time, as you continue to rub your fingers through her auburn locks, you hear soft snores come lips. a small laugh comes from you wondering how much she heard of that. and if she didn’t hear any of it, you had no problem telling her it all again tomorrow. placing a lazy kiss on her forehead, pulling the cover up onto her a bit more, you took a deep breath and took in everything around you before closing your eyes. the faint smell of rain in her hair, the way her chest rises and falls, the small snores coming from her which were adorable, you felt yourself melt into her bed taking in the scent of ellie, ellie williams, the girl you love, and forever will. finally being able to go to sleep with the girl of your dreams, with no more buried feelings.
the next morning, ellie stopped at joels after you had left that evening,
“i saw you two kiddos in the backyard last night, through the window. it was about time”
as he sipped his coffee.
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biwexop · 7 months ago
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I AM FREEEE!!!
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unriding · 2 months ago
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a … a gift from the talented @kruinka 🥹 thank you so much!! ദ്ദി ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ)
#彡 moevie!#彡 cherishing.#kruin …. !! you sent this a few days ago but i am still . reeling in . /pos because i cannot believe i am seeing moze ( and myself ?! ) in#your !!!! style !!! your !! adorable !!! and beautiful !! style !!! and there is a lot i have to say — i am in the chattiest mood despite my#sleepiness !! FIRST omg ): thank you ?! thank you !! THANK YOU !!! for being so kind to me and drawing out a sketch that i will treasure for#eternity really 😭 !! i will gaze at this whenever i wake up … gaze at it before i sleep …. gaze at it when im sad … when im happy ( to#amplify the happiness of course !! ) OOOOH KRUIN. kruin . words can absolutely NOT describe how much i love your style … i just cannot ?!#figure out how to put it in words ?? i can’t just say ‘i like how you do this’ ‘and this’ because it’s the literal entire thing that i love#aiwnendjdkke and ): before i get too deep into that — i must thank you another time kruin !! because i know you’ve been busy — and of#course you must be ?! im sure life becomes much more hectic during the holidays and new years like this — so i’m just so soft over the fact#that you spent time to do this for me and i :’) i really appreciate it from the bottom of my heart — i would like to say ‘you really didn’t#have to!!’ BECAUSE YOU DIDNT !!! YIU DIDNT NEED TO DO ANYTHING FOR ME — YOU DIDNT ): IM JUST SO SAPPY AND MUSHY THAT YOU CHOSE TO AND ):#and the background being pink . i love pink !!! i know exactly where this specific shade of pink will prosper ( give me a second .. when i#awake ) .. BUT OH )): thank you so much kruin … it means so much to me .. more than i could ever try to explain !!! BUT IS IT OKAY IF I TALK#ABOUT HOW YOU DREW MOZE BECAUSE . i’m dead on the floor -> x0x this is me because you made his cheeks SO squishy HIS SIGNATURE SQUISHABLE#LOOK . I WONDER HOW ARTISTS MAKE HIM LOOK SO SQUISHY ?? the squish technique ?? BECAUSE HE LOOKS SO CUTE SHJEJD ): KRUIN YOURE SUCH AN AWESO#ME ARTIST . SO TO BE ABLE TO SEE HIM IN YOUR STYLE ….. *thanks everyone for allowing me to have eyes* a wonderful day !! to have eyes !!! i#will actually risk disintegrating into evieparticles if i even so much as mention the blush on his cheeks so — instead . YOU GAVE HIM SUCH A#oh no . the look on his face T T kruin i don’t want to talk about it !!!!! but you — the look on his face !!!! must you draw him in such a#cute manner /pos i am starting to feel speechless trying to talk about how pretty he is in your style because . perhaps toopretty for me#to even make any type of comment ( instead — i sneak a glance and then turn away because if i stare too long …. IF I STARE TOO LONG .. *expl#explodes* ) kruin i think i will just cry seeing the level of detail you put into this ): like my hair ): i think i will just kneel in front#of you and cry and apologize over and over as i wipe my tears on my sleeve because my tears make it difficult to properly thank you /lh#the fact that there are sparkles T T the world is full of sparkles when mr shadow exists !!! a lovely . YOU KNOW WHAT . the sparkles are#there because KRUIN EXISTS . I LOVE YOU KRUIN. I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH ))): I DONT RVEN KNOW HOW TO DTART EXPRESSING MY GRATUTUDE#tldr - i am gobsmacked & staring at this for the next ( infinite amount of time ) thank you kruin !!! ): wishing you only the best .#aggressively wishing you only the best * aggressively turning to go O_O at anything that dares threaten a lovely day for you!!!!
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mishy-mashy · 1 year ago
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Bruce is actually really attractive, and I have enough reasoning to make a list
He's:
Tall (. Tall enough to hit his head on the vault doorframe)
Long-legged
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Has a straight nose bridge
Has high cheekbones (more noticeable in 2nd pic below)
Has a strong jawline
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Sharp eyes, but they aren't small (plus eyebags if you're into that)
Overall, he has strong, attractive facial features
Has broad, refined shoulders. You can tell he works out (or he did, when he was alive)
Even has a thick, muscly neck
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He has MUSCLE. Is SCULPTED. NOICE. VERY NOICE. (nice arms. Nice shoulders. Nice neck. Nice legs. Nice butt-)
(There are actually panels where you can see some of his muscles. Other than those already shown here, he's got bricky thighs-
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-and in the panels where we first get his name dropped, he's got those shoulder blades too-)
The one time we see him smile, and he actually has a scary one
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Has small, kinda sharp pupils, and his eyes remind me of a cat. We only ever saw him tense or defensive, so his resting/listening face is really cute
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Other than the physical appearance stuff, he also:
Takes shit without batting an eye (patience, knowing it's just how Kudo is, etc)
Kudo being all "Cut the crap Bruce and give it to me straight", after Bruce tests his blood and is rightfully Concerned because they just faced AFO
Put up with Kudo's experimenting and testing over Yoichi's transferable Factor
Did ya'll see the look on Kudo's face when he realized he had Yoichi's Factor/will? Kudo was going to start in nonsense and Bruce just dealt with that.
Also something I noticed when looking back at the images here; Bruce has bandages on his arms in the void. But not when he faced AFO in the sewers.
Were he and Kudo cutting their arms open in their experimenting over Yoichi's theory? Is this why Kudo has two gauntlets instead of his one? Why we never see his bare arms in the void? That he always keeps his arms down so there's no slip?
Is smart enough to run blood tests, plus has enough common sense to pick Shinomori as his successor
He picked a guy who avoids society, has an Ability to detect danger so he can always stay away from AFO, is also a coward so he's never going to go throw himself into danger, even without knowing instinctively he stands no chance, etc.
Meanwhile, Kudo chose Bruce, who he played Hot Potato Yoichi with; but he did also trust Bruce, and put the only pure combative Ability in OFA through Bruce.
These two made their choices based on what they valued and saw the Factor needed.
Is logical, analytical, and calm.
He tried advising Midoriya on their Abilities in One For All, especially his own.
Midoriya then tried ignoring him about using Fa Jin for the first time, but found he was right, thinking: "Dammit!! I had [Lady Nagant] right where I wanted her, but... ugh! The Third was right. My parallel Quirk processes are all screwed up!" (ch. 314).
Plus, when Midoriya fixed his processing mistakes, Bruce was analyzing the way he reached his new conclusion. Pure facts, no bias, very calm, just saying it as it was.
We never see him panic. When he's caught by surprise in the sewers by AFO, Kudo, and Yoichi's little bubble event, he immediately reacts. He doesn't falter, he just knows he has to do something right now.
Was more willing to listen than Kudo to Yoichi's beckon, and probably was just following Kudo's rejection of Midoriya
While we don't see Kudo's face, we see Bruce's eyes when Yoichi calls on his heroes. Bruce was more open and receptive, or at least more impacted.
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Bruce was also the one to start talking, while Kudo just kept quiet.
He actually communicates a lot
When Yoichi called them to support Midoriya, Bruce started talking to paint a picture of why they thought the way they did, so Yoichi understood where they were coming from.
(Though he seems to beat about the bush sometimes, since Kudo spoke up to be direct on how they couldn't just put their trust in some starry-eyed teenager. Plus, when Kudo tells him to just tell him what's wrong [double Factors])
When Midoriya first used Fa Jin against Nagant, Bruce came out just to tell him he knew what he was trying, but that Midoriya wasn't ready; and Midoriya found he was right. Midoriya just didn't want to listen to him then.
He asks Kudo for clarification after finding Kudo had two Factors in him after the sewer incident ("Just to be sure, All For One didn't touch you, right?") Kudo knew him well enough to go "stop beating around the bush and tell me", so Bruce was probably gonna start with questions, theories, and trying to understand everything in general, before saying "yeah you have two Factors. Don't know why".
Is strong-willed and loyal.
He followed Kudo, even to death, carrying on the cause he started until it ended with him.
Plus, when talking about how AFO needs a strong will to override OFA's own, we first see Bruce, Kudo, and Yoichi.
AFO couldn't steal OFA because the will was too strong for him, and that was back during Banjo's time. Since Shinomori never actually tried opposing AFO and just hid, we can assume the first Three (Yoichi, Kudo, Bruce) already had an accumulation of strong willpower that made OFA un-stealable. Those three are a strong enough foundation, and the main wills, that the other users just become bonuses.
Kudo, also saying that Midoriya needs allies with the same will and drive as him... hey Kudo, you're talking about yourself and your old allies, aren't you? That's why you look at Yoichi and Bruce when you say this.
Not only is Bruce attractive, but he's got good character. THE END.
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luck-of-the-drawings · 11 months ago
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"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi the suckening#arthur bennett#HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT?#LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT#this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page.#but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT#ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH#WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW?#ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME#DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER#HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW#AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE#I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much....#AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game#but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping#DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds#I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors#what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012.#almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS.#only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE#while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs#THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN#WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS#the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess.#i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band#EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION
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perfectlyfrosty · 1 year ago
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*throws this at u*
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I think he’s funny
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twisting-in-wonderland · 5 months ago
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Get Ribbon-ed , Heart boy
(slight) alt ver and a ver for funsies under here:
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(if the ace gacha comes back, i may spend One more x10 pull to try and get his card... maybe...)
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syrupbitee · 5 months ago
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this is so ass im so sorry
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greyjade00117 · 2 years ago
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I have done it.
The four personas of Grian.
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hey-heigo · 1 month ago
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one of the big draws for me when watching let's players is watching them achieve something. the progression of it. and even occasional setbacks are interesting because it demonstrates growth and suspense, and 'how're they gonna get out of this now?' but games that try to put in an excess of complex puzzles that aren't the draw, with no real defined goal beyond showing off story that's designed purely to sell, are just frustrating to watch...especially in the case of survival horror if it's a fast-paced sequence and big stakes and the player literally can't slow down and take it in without dying. like hey i get you wanna show off your awesome indie horror Lore while also holding tight onto that golden 'survival horror' selling point. but also. could you not stuff the escape key into a gordian's knot while Poopy Pissfuck is after me
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icewindandboringhorror · 25 days ago
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I'm so heavily anti-advertising that all pitches sound goofy silly to me/I can never take them seriously, so I have no idea how I'll manage to to advertise my game even if I do finally finish it soon-ish lol...
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#Especially how so much modern media advertising is like... getting people excited about random tropes and stuff like#''Do you love enemies to lovers? Do you love sad stories that make you do a heckin CRY? Do you love big stupid dumbo muffin cake#sinnamon roll babies who are too good for this world? Have you ever wanted to read a blah blach blah" whatever stuff and it's like#... i cannot type that... I couldnt do it.. I couldn't even think of how to do it ghbjhbjh#I am such a literal person... Like I love when an advertisement is just like 'This product works well. Look at it. Buy it if you want. Ok'#You know what makes me want to read a book or watch a show or play a game? Reading a detailed plot synopsis or the full wiki page#for it and then deciding 'yeah I wouldnt mind sitting through seeing the events I just read about happen in more detail' lol#OR aesthetics. since I do often watch things JUST for the set/costume design. Sometimes I will watch stuff literally#just because I saw a picture of a costume in it that looked really cool and I want to sketch costume looks whilst watching#But aside from appearance like... little bullet point break downs of things that are in a story just ... do not do anything to me at all.#And i just hate 'selling' things to begin with. I don't want to have to convince people to like something.. they should just... like it...#LOL.. like.. just be born liking it. just like it automatically please. Dont make me beg to you like a weird little freak. So many commerci#als seem weirdly desperate and manipulative. Like those Truck/Car commercials that will have like a freaking dog crying and#a war vet in a wheelchair with the american flag in the background and a family hugging around a christmas tree or some shint and its#just like oh my GODDD... shut UPP.. you could literally not be MORE blantant about just trying to prey on peoples emotions to build#some sort of fabricated positive association with your product/brand.. begone.. Or brands having their own twitters where they post#~~relatable content~~ as a means of shallow audience endearment GGGRR..... ANYWAY.. hhrgh...................#Maybe that's something I can ask playtesters I guess like.. I feel like I don't know my own audience very well because I am not#much of a media person?? ironically.. Like I do enjoy MAKING media. But I've never been in a fandom. I've never read fanfiction. I've never#spent much time in those spaces. I've just never really had the inclination and don't personally derive much joy out of stuff like that#(since I'm already so focused on my OWN world and projects its like.. hard for me to even find the time and mental energy to expend on#others). Even when I finish a movie or game and really like it.. I just kind of like...move on? and don't really dwell on it much? At most#I will get into the worldbuilding of a piece of media and read the wiki for a while or watch Lore info or critical analysis videos. But I#never really care for or attach to the characters or the plot itself very much. So I feel like.. the way my brain works. I'm just not as#good at approaching things from that angle? Kind of like how if you're a lifelong vegetarian whos never eaten meat - you might#struggle to write an ad for fancy brand of steaks bc you'd be like... idk what meat eaters are even looking for? whats the selling point??#Which I'm not saying that I wouldn't play my own game. i AM definitely the audience for it. But it's more like.. I would play it for my own#very niche specific reasons that I think are different from what MOST people might want to play it for. So I need to somehow#tap into the minds of the Majority who play things for Normal Reasons than pure lore collection or whatever lol.
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thedrotter · 9 months ago
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re:kinder doodle dump part three !!! drawings with wildly different moods www they are more polished ans complete than my other doodles because. why not🥺!!!
#re:kinder#rekinder#fanart#ryou re:kinder#mami re:kinder#takumiel re:kinder#yuuichi mizuoka#i will now provide commentary ...#the first one i did was the takumiel one lets start with him#that one was done in ms paint MERELY for the sake of me making a speedpaint in the style of 2010's speedpaints#turned out great . put some nightcore on it... not placing it here because tumblr does not take it kindly to me putting speedpaints here#(im still petty about that)#the chie one as you can see. is not a line from re:kinder. it is a line from “If...” another game by parun#where the girl who says it has the same sprite as chie. so i drew chie based on the line. chie in the multiverse...#mami was because i just dont draw her enough for being one of the characters with a drawn portrait and why not#ryou candy because i can ive been meaning to draw him more properly for a while outside of silly little projects i just never got to it#so there he is with the layout of clip studio paint because the drawing looked bland. and i didnt know what to use as a background#i do not use clip studio on light mode. i just thought itd look better with the background. all for composition sake...!!!#now about the yuu drawing i did that this morning its funny actually... if you see it that way i prefer seeing things as comedic if possible#today's morning dread would simply not leave so i decided to draw rekinder because its my go to for whenever im feeling low#and i decided. i will channel my feeling into this drawing because i can i will channel it outwards so i dont have to deal with it#so at first i was very dreadful and sad drawing. but then as i was finishing it#and the drawing looked more gloomy than it had ever had I HAD GLEE ONCE MORE!! IT WORKED!! i did channel it outwards im a genius#so i totally would recommend if you dont want to deal with dread and are in a state where you can draw#you should make your drawing feel it so you dont have to. its great#its like when one manifests their period cramps onto goku from dragon ball z.... at least i do that#i do love goku. what kind of latinoamerican would i be if i didnt id be a disgrace but im not strong enough i know he can fight it
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sylustra · 2 months ago
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Sylus saying "...don't run" to MC when they're finally being openly honest about their desire for one another and their trust and shared spaces.
#their stupid connection was made in a lab to torment me I can't BELIEVE I want to write fic for them#the fact that her desires are essentially laid bare for him but that he still verifies#that he knows her SO well... her tendency for avoidance that both hinders and benefits their situation#her own underlying possessiveness of Sylus and need to be his equal. on his side.#Sylus trying to be patient and playing whatever role she needs until she's ready to accept that place. accept their mutual connection#MC seeing no other option but to embed herself in his life and his problems even though he's a risk to her career and life in Linkon#the fact that she meets him after she loses the people she considered a family... when their background brings up the concept of Home#I actually love when MC is petty and jealous and Sylus just accepts it and finds it insanely charming like.#the way he obviously Sees her pain and anger and need to protect him over seeing his old scars. angry that he or another didnt properly care#and then with knowledge from their myth origin its like...#the idea that theyre essentially mirrors containing eachother in equal capacity. the allusions to the threshold of light and shadow#the whole aspect of freedom from restraint and captivity. the mirror of her past being raised as a weapon and his nature. l#the little dragon statue she coveted and kept as a secret confidant...#and then like their shared capacity for indulgence. Sylus preparing all that food for her even when he was willing playing her villain.#his tendency to replicate his memories of the past to stir her own#im so obsessed and its been a week. help.#he always gives her space to retreat. and in the newest content now he's revealing his own desperation. dont run this time#dont retreat into yourself or into your role as a hunter or a lawful citizen#I just love that he also adores everything about her even her darker aspects that echo in himself#and the whole who will ''win'' in the end. will she make him more human or will they both embrace their predatory nature in the Fiend#them being the lovers and the devil simultaneously. sylus as death and mc as temperance. idk idk im insane rn#i literally made a sideblog for these posts apologies all 😂#personal tag#they have so many callbacks its crazy. the stupid territory thing is so cute like he'll play into anything for her and just be delighted#i need more main story so bad like. Sylus talks to MCs boss in one of the memories or something.#what the fuck is he doing there?? one assumes he's covering their asses and cooperating in some manner so that MCs career isnt at risk#since he knows she loves hunting#and with the whole mutual enemy in Ever... lets not forget that also Sylus might be the head of a crime syndicate or whatever but what#i just need to know when he became aware of MC in her current life.#I have no one to talk about this game to can you tell
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puppppppppy · 1 year ago
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i feel shy talking here when i dont have anything worth sharing but i cant help feeling like ive said things in the tags that could be brought up in court
#im joking#i think i just get embarrassed saying smth that most ppl can see out in the open. its like when prey animals are grazing in a pasture#and then they hear a twig snap yk. im like that. but talking in the tags is more comfortable because it just feels more.. hidden?? quiet???#its kind of like how i prefer responding thru asks than DMs.. idk if it has something to do with space or less pressure#i also use these as an excuse to ramble a little abt recent events so. ive worked a little bit on shuffle and prestos backstories ^_^#i was thinking abt giving them a shared past where they knew each other as kids and forgot but i also though hmm.. idk if it would drive th#story i want bc i think itd be better if they bonded over similar experiences instead of the fact that they knew each other before. i get#that reconnecting and reconciling your idea of someone now and then is a good concept but id have to think abt it.. i dont want it to feel#like they owe each other to be friends again just bc they were as kids. ive experienced that a lot and all it did was make me feel guilty#so i think id want to write it as u can be friends with someone who had similar experiences and make u wish you knew each other then#i also know theyd hate each other but idk HOW. i suck at writing conflict so idk if theyd try to make each other eat glass and why#idk if itll ever come up but id also like to see if theres a way i could rationalize why they have animal ears.. normally i say aliens#but ive had an idea for a species and background for that too. although its very abstract and it probably has a lot of holes#smth abt peoples souls attaching themselves to smth they identify with.. although i dont know to what extent like if it can#be called a sona or if it can even be smth mythical like a unicorn or god itself.. its very weird rn#yapping#oc talk
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eternalnostos · 6 months ago
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