#maybe there's sth im not getting tho idk

[helianthus21]

best part about season 3 were the flashbacks to season 1<3

[sydmarch]

it was so stupidly difficult to find any nutritionist who has experience with arfid & takes insurance so after having to go through all these referrals my therapist sent me & jumping through hoops I lowkey hate the lady lmao feels like such a waste of time & energy

[unlikecharlie]

nothing more annoying than a bitch who complains about their favourite artist/song becoming popular or 'tiktok-ified'

[widevibratobitch]

something about being told im 'the leading person at this whole academy when it comes to interpretation and stage intelligence' by the husband of the woman im trying (not really. but i mean. who knows) to seduce... ok boy you got me. lets make it a polycule.

[szczylpierdolony]

oh also. there’s a little ghibli marathon during a film festival next month and i’m wondering if i should go….

[sleepyagent]

I mean we can hang and just talk too but i dont want to do that too much

What about once every half year

[highoncatfood]

Rainstuck 4th and final part of the classpect reasonings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

putting these 4 together bcuz i feel like kurumis and desuhikos analysis dont even deserve their own post bcuz of how unsure i am abt them, halaras too kinda. i also dont have any additional drawings for them so! theres that i guess. more notes in read more if u care...

pt.1 pt.2 pt.3

im kinda bummed that i couldnt rlly incorporate their fortes into the classpects in form of powers bcuz that would make this like 3 times more awesome. buuut it would be so hard to try and make it all work in a way that both their personalities And the powers would make sense for them as characters AND the classpects. so i had to choose and i think matching their personalities was more important. idk

im most happy with vivia. i feel like i could find sth better for halara but honestly i kinda dontttt care for halara that much in general so i probably just dont understand them enough to properly analyze them. desuhiko being heart-bound is nearly perfect if u ask me. maybe i could find a better class for him. kurumi as a heir of space is like... fine. i think i made it work and its enough but again theres probs another classpect that fits her better that i just cant figure out! oh well.

i mentioned grimdark vivia but after refreshing my memory on the horrorterrors i realized that they only communicate with derse dreamers. i could go around it somehow and say that maybe bcuz of his connection to ghosts and shit he could access the outer gods DESPITE not dreaming on derse???? idk, its a bit of a stretch. maybe he could have 2 dream selves! a wink towards his forte? this is homestuck we're talking abt. why should i look for logic here.

another idea for his dream self is that i think it would be fun if he could wake up on prospit pre-session despite not being a space player (tho im not 100% sure thats even canonically a space player thing). "hes just special like that" right. lol but yeah this guy would enjoy prospit i think.. snoozing a lot just like jade and escaping into the perfect peaceful moon world... kurumis there too like "how did he GET here" i dunno im just thinking out loud at this point ermmm

[ganondoodle]

every now and then i get comments on some of my older rants about totk and im pretty sure its usually the very first post without any of the additions i tend to add later on-

old post about how i found it a lil weird that the one of the first things rauru and sonia doing is put zelda back into a little white maiden dress even tho her own clothes didnt look damaged at all and were far more practical and someone commented that its so she doesnt stand out (something that was said in nearly every comment i got on that post already) and that it was only weird bc i was making it weird or sth xD

but it made me think about it again, so .... that excuse doesnt work for me at all bc .. why wouldnt she want to stand out? whats the danger of that? her suddendly appearing out of nowhere, not knowing anything of the traditions or happenings of the time, being around the king and queen all the time with a duplicate enigma stone and unknown technology (purah pad) isnt weird? i know the excuse of oohoho shes a distant relative of sonia (i know its far stretched techinically true i guess) but why even do that, why go to such lengths of keeping her time traveling secret? making her less of a target for gan isnt really sensical either bc he went for sonia anyway, despite zelda clearly being the younger and less experienced of the two with less control of her power, and if he knew she was techinically more powerful .. well then shes even less in danger, and if he might have wanted to get information from her what could he have gained from it really? she didnt really know anything more anyway? like all she could tell him would be like you will lose i guess lol

(also you could keep it secret from him but why from the others, i just dont see the point, i dont find her look pretty either, she just looks uncomfortable, like if she gets put in to a lil white uwu maiden dress AGAIN im just gonna assume ok you are stripped of all your agency and will sacricifce yourself again wahoo what fun)

in a world were time magic is normal why wouldnt you just say yep she literally came from the future to help us? the usual rules of time travel, as in, dont tell anyone who you are, dont mess with the happenings bc everything can have major consequences, doesnt apply anyway, she goes around by her real name and is involved in literally every major happening .. so why care?? keeping it secret from gan for the future? why? he literally recognizes her within a split second anyway

(no gonna get into why i think her time travelling in the first place is like .. so forced? its only segway to put her out of the game essentially and the oh no tragic twist, but like why, she got the powers and the stone so she unconcisouly travels ... back in time ..?? why not reverse the stones she fell from or something, if it was soemthing that would come up again ok! like she did the time travel accidentally and then learned how to return over the time she spent in the past thats good!! i like that idea, but its never broguht up again, the closest thing to it is the weird two time bubbles that just serve to give you her time powers (whats up with how that went down anyway) and then to send the mastersword back ... why even do that when it could have fallen and travelled back with her right away?? and both of those are at the very start of the game AND IT NEVER COMES UP AGAIN, like fine if it was her trying to go back but not getting it right so she creates weird ass time bubbles cool! why not put them all over the place with them getting bigger and maybe being able to talk to link from the past idk SOMETHING- ok ill stop here ...)

[redstrewn]

Girlybro theres this post and it reminded me sm of leander! Its by frankiecorleone and it says ‘an ouroboros is the opposite of a pearl’ and jejdjdjejdjs i looked up pearl symbolism and its associated with the moon(goddess) but also with marriage. In relation with the ouroboros, a pearl is basically a hard core made by a cycle of creation right? Something that entered a shell by accident gets covered by many many layers,, which is like an outward creation instead of a self-negating and creating one.

(This is me just going off like a madman btw)

SO theres this lyric in bjork’s atopos that goes like ‘If we don't grow outwards towards love

We'll implode inwards towards destruction

If my plant doesn't reach towards you

There's internal erosion towards all

Pursuing the light too hard it's a form of hiding’

But also ‘hope is a muscle that allows us to connect’

AND like,, i already talked about leander and hope vs faith (faith consumes hope = ouroboros = no connection!!!)

But with the pearl (i think we as mc should embody it,, thats my hc anyway) its accident (birth, curse??) gets covered in layers of stuff (should be hope) creating a hard gem outwards (reaches outwards to connection)

idk about the shell tho. Is the shell the world??Is that a reason for leander to be so protective and all consuming? Him knowing theres has to be some cover needed for connection (and ideally him controlling it and creating it,, or at least redistributing what is) but failing to realise the destruction he causes?

ALSO (sorry) atopos calls out obsessions with reciprocity

‘To insist on absolute justice at all times

It blocks connection’

Another reason for leander failing to connect with ppl and maybe even the world!!

This is either rlly smart or a total mess idk,, also happy new year!!! — musa (deranged)

Woah happy new year thank you for leander food! I love when ppl talk abt all the possibilities w touchstarved so hell yeah. He sure is SHELLtering us (you can hit me for that its ok). We do be like a pearl, as we have something of value he would want to cultivate.

Im going to keep it 💯 hope, faith, outwards towards connection are stuff my singular brain cell is overclocking to even begin to comprehend but i can see youre onto sth esp w how much ure able to connect it w (im sure others reading this will get it way better than i am rn 💀)

I rly enjoy all this use of symbolism and metaphor its delicious

[jaywhere]

also today (i am writing this post so i do not forget these ideas) lauren and i spent like a full hour or two talking about a jean/scott/logan fic where the premise is basically that jean and scott's relationship gets extremely codependent and toxic bc she can literally read his mind, Is Not Supposed To Be reading his mind with the regularity she is & scott is quite autistic and in the middle of a sexuality crisis bc he is somewhere on the ace/demi spectrum but this fic takes place in like 2004 or sth idk so none of those words are actually used everyone is just horrible to each other

some of my favorite scott-related scenes from this tho include 1) post-implosion everyone is like "scott bro are you good" and he does have an actual real "im not good enough what is even the point of me" type of meltdown but it does not make him feel any more stable & someone's like "man you really need to take care of yourself" and hje is like shit you are right. i need to take care of myself. i will go do an activity that i enjoy. so he goes bowling, which is an activity he makes enough time to do like maybe once a year despite the fact that he owns his own bowling shoes. so he goes bowling alone at like 3pm on a tuesday and there is a bar there and he gets absolutely fucking hammered. just little guy in his shiny shoes and his polo and his lil red glasses getting absolutely trashed on cosmos or some shit. he is the only man in the bowling alley. logan finally shows up to be like "hey xavier is putting u on forced vacation bc ur freaking everyone out" and as soon as he walks in the employees, whomst are Actively Gossiping, are like "omg that's gotta be sad guy's boyfriend act cool"

there is also a bit much later where jean and scott try to take logan on a date and it goes very poorly, including hijinks such as: getting into scott's car and jean being like "scott logan is the guest he's not going to sit in the back" and logan being like "scott you're not putting your gf in the Back Seat for a date" and scott being like "Under No Circumstances Is Logan Allowed To Drive My Car" so jean's like "fine you drive and me and logan can sit in the back" and scott's like "ive been cuckolded enough thanks not ur fucking taxi driver" so logan's like "i'll just take my motorcyle and meet yall --" and jean just takes the keys from him and tells the boys to get in the backseat and scott's just "like we're your kids" and that is how they drive to the fancy restaurant

[yunwangja]

OH I JUST SAW THE MATHCMAKING THING. i guess i just say stuff abt mysrelgf??? THO MAYBE U KNOW ME A LIL BIT BC IVE INTERACTED W U A LOT. annnyway !

i'm introverted, i talk more if i am with people i'm comfortable with but once i go home i text way less i kinda just am.

i also get really good grades liek i only have a's even tho i am not rly a nerd

i play video games a LOT

i contemplate existence a lot.

i used to edit on ae religiously n had a few editing accounts

my humor is very sarcastic n i have an rbf too so i can be seen as like mean or sth? or just like im done w life lol. also part of my humor is talking up my friends a LOT like i compliment them all the time n like talk like im in love w them lol. sometimes as if i was a desperate ex DO U CATCH MY DRIFT.

i decide i wanna do sports like once a month n then i give up after like a day. in early 2024 i did go to the gym a lot though n i always listened to yeat or travis scott so now whenever i listen to them i feel like im in the gym okay that is short enogh i think! LOL thankkk youuu cant wait to see it :)) and also JS CAUGHT UP W FAULTLINE N ARGHHH i lvoe it sm

HELLO IM SORRY YOU HAD TO WAIT FOR LONG <//////3 I WAS LIKE AFTER I UPDATE FAULTLINE I’LL WORK ON THIS!!!! so here it is, i hope it was worth the wait !!!

ok. yk what i was reading everything u sent and at first i was like maybe kenma? and i as u went on i was like i think u guys would work more as besties. IDK !!!! ur so bff coded i swear </3 ANYWAY.

yamaguchi 6/10. i can see this a lot actually! i think u guys could be besties but can be more than that too :p i can just see him really interested in you and find u super cool !!! u guys would get along. i realized i say this all the time everytime i do this but still. friends to lovers trope def. i think with sports he cen empathize about ur attempts, and i think u’d be the one to teach him abt video games :p he’ll try so hard to be better bc he loves playing w u. he’d blush whenever u compliment him and i think he’d be really so scared to confess !!! when u guys r tgt he’d love to start that animal shelter w u. he’d also like wait for u to fall asleep to tiktok reddit stories then turn em off before falling asleep himself too :p

tsumu 7/10. i think u guys are such a match despite i think him being more extroverted ! bc in that way he can bring u out of ur shell more and also he’d love yapping with you !!! at first i think he’ll think ur super quiet but when u get to know e/o he’d be super into you! literally i think he’d love to do everything u mentioned here. he’d take pride with all of your compliments because i just think he loves getting em. he’d be the type that when u tell him u used to horseback ride he would immediately look for sum stables because he just wants to see it in action. he’d also try to look up ur old edits and rate them LOL

bo 7/10. man i just know. I JUST KNOW BO WOULD LOVE YOU. you guys will never stop talking to e/o. he’d tell u everything, u will tell him everything. he’d fall asleep WITH U while listening to tiktok reddit stories. would ask help from u w studies and he’d be like “pls help me coz ur smart :(“ and u’d think its ridiculous lol idk fr tho! i think u’d like to tease him though and he’d always fall for it but when he realizes ur just joking or wtv he’d be like “oh! great! :D” would absolutely start an animal shelter with u. he’d be like omg that will be our bucketlist. he would also contemplate existence w u, that’d be like a typical night w him.

iwa 6/10. ok i think this would also be an opposite attracts typa thing. he’d be super interested in you at first but he’d try to be lowkey abt it. always gets flustered when u compliment him, would try to get u into sports too then sigh when u give up the next day LOL. he’d try to be ur “coach” me thinks :p i think he’d respond well to ur humor? he’d play video games w u, at first he’d be competitive but eventually he’d calm down a little and let u win. i dont know how competitive u are but if u wont let that u’d dare him and he’d get affected then itll turn into a whole ass marathon 😭 he’d be supportive of the things u like, he’s like ready to help u even make ur dreams come true :p he’d always listen to ur yapping never interrupt then quietly like say his response to everything in one long yap as well mwehehe. when u start contemplating existence he’d be like ??? at first then slowly be like “well.. yeah…”

[some-thrilling-heroics]

omg I don't think I sent you any ?s for the ask game??? what a dink i am. If you've already answered these, pick some ones you didn't get asked yet <3

🌊What moment in the game had the strongest emotional impact on you? 

💧Is there a ship you wouldn’t write yourself, but love reading?

🔥Is there an aspect of the game’s story that you think it could have done better?

heyyy! no worries!

🌊What moment in the game had the strongest emotional impact on you?

first time I reached the ansur plot and the fact that there's a dragon and we could make him our ally and then the backstory with the emperor - that hit me HARD. i loved it. it quite literally had me with my jaw open for majority of the thing

and then i got robbed. why is the game forcing me to kill the dragon? 😭 noo, i don't wanna!

💧Is there a ship you wouldn’t write yourself, but love reading?

hmmm🤔 maybe in a way anybody / astarion? bc I do enjoy him with tav / durge and some others but i don't really write him.

he is tricky for me to write. the most im gonna have in my current wip is have him sort of pine sort of long after tav but very lowkey? less abt romance and def not abt desire but very intense feelings of wanting.... approval is not the right word, idk how to explain it better. the one thing he and halsin share in my fics is feeling indebted to tav. i enjoy astarion still having that anxiety that if he's not useful tav will kick him to the curb and a vibe i got from one fic i read how they all are strays taken in by tav or durge. so that. whatever you make of that XD

ultimately tho, i love other charas that have a spoonful of fics dedicated to them specifically compared to the bathtub that astarion has, so i don't particularly care abt writing any astarion -centric fics

🔥Is there an aspect of the game’s story that you think it could have done better?

i mean. wyll and karlach. abso-fucking-lutely. granted i haven't reached the epilogue since it's been added 😩but their stories should have some proper conclusions WITHIN the game not off camera in the epilogue if you squint maybe. you know?

other than that i wish there was a way where friendship + high approval is treated more like partnered dynamic by the game. like, i have 98 approval and companion is highly open to my suggestions, but won't do x simply bc we haven't kissed / fucked. that's bullshit.

also idk maybe it's me and not being familiar with that type of games but i remember being frustrated the first time around that i fucked up the tiefling party romance offer and by the time i realized THAT was the trigger i was deep in act 2 or sth and i WANTED that romance 😩 i had to console myself awkwardly fucking the emperor. yay me.

thank you for asking these!! 💛

[gerandor]

Yes yes it's only two episodes so far. Tomorrow we will have another one but any thoughts on Nandor's possible arc this season? The babygirl is finally happy but there is something more there?

Ok so its a well-known fact that nandor's gonna have a jealousy arc this season (or at least that's what the reviews were saying --which were for the first 4 episodes only -- and we got a glimpse of sth in the promo for ep 3.)

And yes!! Nandor seems to be happy so far and he even said 'i'm in a good place' (which kinda echoed what Guillermo had said in s4 when he was talking about freddie? Hmm). And we also got that line from kayvan saying 'Guillermo makes nandor happy -' BUT. He added that but now he's making him sad.

Which made me think of Gail. Remember Nandor's reaction to gail basically cheating on him with that werewolf dude? He looked heartbroken and sad and miserable. During s3 i said sth about how nandor doesn't get jealous in the traditional sense, you know, getting angry, getting possessive and idk, vengeful? probably bc he thinks he deserves to be treated like that. Like, he doesn't deserve to be loved so he just gets immensely sad over it. (I just remembered that the whole gail thing was also Guillermo's jealousy arc, and how his jealousy was more of the traditional sense. Oh boy)

But with Guillermo. Idk if what he feels for Guillermo can be compared to what he felt for gail (as a side note, i read someone say nandor will never be romantic with Guillermo bc the guy doesn't know how. Which is not true?? Remember gail? Hell, even jan? He was also kinda romantic with marwa in the beginning even tho he didn't actually love her. Also Harvey said Nandor's lovely when he's in love which is so true. And how can you think the whole bedtime stories and exchange of gifs and movie watching on rainy nights aren't ramantic? Anyway) so yeah. I think what he feels for Guillermo is way more intense and life-altering than what he felt for any other character we know of. So maybe his jealousy this time will take a new form? But im also betting he's gonna be super sad and heartbroken about it. Even if he tries to hide it under other emotions. Nandor will always think 'i don't think i deserve to be loved.'🥺

[smileymoth]

Idk if i could ever actually live together with anyone because 1) i need like 6hours of alone time per day to function bc otherwise i crumble and die 2) if i live w someone i always am on high alert bc i am afraid of disappointing them if i dont do enough during the day. i never know whats expected of me. I think this is sth to do with my dad 3) i listen to music 24/7 and i can imagine it gets really fucking annoying listening to hyperpop or screamo from the moment i awake till i sleep 😭😭 4) im so weird about food and it freaks me out if i dont have control over it (this is something therapy could maybe fix. maybe. dont have time for it tho)

I just think i would die or guilt bc i dont do things during the day and im weird and i like being alone

[xmoonlitxdreamx]

Hiya!! I’ve stopped by once or twice to ogle and awe at your artwork—but recently you have installed mercy and junkrat *into my brain*—SPECIFICALLY, your Angela and Jamison. But I am also obsessed with with Junkhog 😭😭SO I WAS WONDERING—do you have any headcanons serious/silly/otherwise for those three? (Be it interactions between themselves or just things about them!

I seriously cannot applaud you enough, I don't think I've ever seen an artsyle that I adore with all my heart until you T^T thank you for creating!!

Ahhh thank you!! 😭💖💖 I'm really glad you like!! Those three are my favs to draw rn so I'm glad you're enjoying~ And thank you so so much for the kind words about my art style 🥺💖💖

I've drawn the 3 of them together a few times; you can find most things I've drawn of them together in my "mercyhograt" tag. ;0

I have a blurb abt their dynamic in my carrd (and also all my other ovw ships/etc), but I'll include the blurb + some other notes under the cut (cw for some suggestive talk maybe?):

Blurb from my carrd (somewhat outdated, wrote this in like march or sth & i kinda softened their dynamic a bit):

Mercy/Roadrat -> she's mostly just friends/begrudging acquaintances. She finds them exasperating. The three of them slept together like once or twice for some reason. (????) Occasionally is a little patronizing toward them, especially Junkrat. Despite her frustrations w them she worries abt them and their health & wants the best for them. Tends to be more earnest around Roadhog, thinks a little more highly of him than Junkrat. Junkrat is kinda oblivious that she finds him exhausting and is mostly friendly to her, tho he thinks it's annoying when she lectures him. Roadhog trusts her and generally agrees with her, but finds her kind of pretentious and a killjoy.

Other things:

◇ Junkrat mainly hangs out w Mercy when Roadhog's away on a mission + d.va and lúcio aren't around

◇ junkrat & mercy sometimes do random frivilous stuff together like spa days, watching trashy movies, getting dressed up, going to cafes/bakeries (lmao??? Listen idk)

◇ Junkrat has kind of an earnest crush on Mercy; Mercy doesn't have the same feelings; they don't rly talk about it much & their relationship is mostly friendship

◇ I don't think Junkrat rly flirts w Mercy tho, he mainly lets her make any advances if she feels like it (??)

◇ Mercy & Roadhog have like a mutual trust but they don't really hang out much? Mercy thinks Roadhog's like immensely cool™️ but she'd never admit that to him lmao;;

◇ mercy & roadhog work pretty well together on missions; but if Junkrat's there too, roadhog's more inclined to follow Junkrat's lead which can cause leadership tension (since mercy tends to act as leader on missions)

◇ Roadhog thinks Mercy's corny but tolerable & trusts her medical advice

◇ Roadhog's not attracted to Mercy & loves to act like a little hater around her (esp when she and Junkrat are trying to like impress him or wtv), but he actually finds her efforts kinda entertaining lmao

◇ despite all her complaints abt the two of them Mercy earnestly trusts their expertise in fighting and mechanics (<latter is mainly junkrat)

◇ Junkrat & Roadhog do occasionally have a little bit of animosity toward her (or mainly toward overwatch) for being less sympathetic (? Or kinda just patronizing or not fully understanding) to junkers/life in the outback post-omnium explosion, tho this kinda happens in bouts idk (? Not rly sure how to explain what im imagining)

Comics/scenes I wanna draw sometime but may or may not:

◇ Junkrat asking Mercy to teach him how to dance so he can woo Roadhog at some holiday party or sth (??)

◇ Junkrat talking to Mercy abt his apprehension w getting healthy & aging, & how it relates to his relationship w roadhog (also partially abt Mercy's struggle w treating the two them)

◇ Junkrat, Roadhog, and Mercy go on a mission together where they infiltrate a casino (???)

◇ junkrat & mercy eating at a cafe together (??? Lmao idk)

Ok I think that's it.... mainly mercyrat, tbh I don't imagine a lot of mercy & hog.

[milfygerard]

abt the cat tournament i am in the part of mcyt fandom that the cat is from and the drama is SO much better than just the post grom the person running the poll . they apologised on their main but it was a half assed "i didnt know people were gonna see it but it statted spreading around i wouldnt have said that if i knew people would see it" which is so funny cuz like. bro mcyt fans are insane of course theyre gonna dig it up but also??? the cat was a Big Part of life for both the creator she belongs to (whos disabled and had the cat for 17yrs as a mental support) as well as for fans bc she was cute or whatevr SO when the screenshots of their first post and the apology started spreading even more they made another one that zs more proper and apologised and said sth like . i cant rememebrr fully so i dont wanna quote but it was also quite shit for an apology OH and they said that of course theyre biased even tho theyre running the poll as if being biased & wanting one cat to win is a reason to be a dick. and also in true mcyt fashion they started getting death threads and stuff which is also amazingly funny to me cuz like i dunno guys if u want people to side with you on this maybe dont send death threats and suicide bait a person just an idea . its also really funny cuz today morning before it all the anglerfish was winning 60/40 and there were 30k votes so i think the whole thing with them saying all that made people vote for jellie and possibly could make the cat they wanted to win lose. i love being in mcyt fandom even tho i watch only hermitcraft bc the drama . bro you cant find drama like this i wonder if this leaked to twitter idk sorry im actively falling asleep and thought id present to you how hilairpus this thing is . oh also they didnt put a drad cat in a tournament when the tournament started jellie was still alive she only died like a week or two ago

mcyt is like an endless black hole of misery and disaster for anyone who interacts with it....and all because of minecraft.....is this what the square bees would want?