#maybe one day i'll elaborate (<- will elaborate the second someone asks because i really wanna talk abt this au)

[machrealgirl]

naruto modern au but the sannin are just the worst polycule you've ever met. like they're all in their 40's, tsunade is the sole bread-winner because she's a doctor, jiraya self-publishes erotica that only three people consistently read, orochimaru is fully unemployed but refuses to do chores (mostly gets away with it because they have permanent nerve and muscle damage in both of their arms because of The Incident) (The Incident is also the reason the three of them broke up for like four years before getting back together, much to the dismay of literally everyone around them)

[agentark]

WIP Wednesday!

I was tagged by @fauville <3 (thank you!!)

I am tagging anyone who sees this! Show me anything you're working on! but also @anticupid16 and @honeylemonbutte :)

I haven't worked on much in the last few days, I've had the w o r s t headache, but we soldier on 🫡

Anyway, I'll share from two different wips! The first is another fernweh saga fic, Rose attends a boring party at the Verner mansion (and maybe ends up sneaking off with jealous!Reese Verner to make out 😌)

Instead, a former classmate (was he? He might’ve been a year above…. or below?) continues to talk her ear off, regaling her with stories of all the moments she missed during her years away from Fernweh. He’s behaving awfully familiarly for someone she doesn’t even really remember. She’s not even sure she knows his name. (Connor? Kevin?) It doesn’t really matter. He’s too close, too comfortable, and a little too interested. His hand claps down on her arm every time he tells a joke only he laughs at. The only reason she’s still standing here is because she can’t think of an excuse that’s good enough to let her leave. She’d rather endure this mind numbing conversation than receive another lecture from Ms. Verner about appearances. Resigned to her fate, she starts imagining ways to get back at Reese if this all turns out to be an elaborate prank.  Ten minutes later, he (Corbin?) is still talking, and Rose is seconds away from faking an upset stomach. That’s when she spots him.

The second is more of a very rough snippet than anything. One of my very favorite moments in all of TWC is the N Sewell moment in book 1 where they're like, "it must've killed Rebecca not to tell you about all of this." I am always always thinking of UB actually realizing how much time they got with Rebecca vs how little time the detective got

“How long have you lived here?” The question slips out before he has a chance to wonder why he's even asking. “Hm?” She glances up from the sink, where she's been methodically scrubbing dishes for the last 20 minutes. She hasn't asked for help, but he feels like he should've offered by now. Her brain finally catches up to her ears, “Oh, uh, over a decade now? The minute I was legally allowed to, really.” A soft laugh.

[yuuuume]

cooking with the lieutenants

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characters; nanao ise, genshiro okikiba, renji abarai, yuyu yayahara

requested; yes (ty bb this was so cute i'll be taking reqs for the next batch!)

rating; safer than a protected pc

@potatoq-een asked; Hi! New follower. Here to show support and maybe a... Suggestion? I don't like to call it a request... Just... Do it if you like the idea and if it inspires you. After all the rambling the idea: [drums please] cooking!! I'm so curious about how the lieutenants manage that part of their daily life with their s/o. Do they cook for their s/o? Do they let their s/o cook for them? ¿Maybe they do it together? ¿Or let the cooking be done by someone else? Idk, just thinking its a good prompt for some fluff. Do what you please with the idea. I'd be happy to read whatever comes out of this. Thank you for reading and be happy.

伊勢七緒・nanao ise

I am under the assumption that Nanao doesn’t really know how to cook. At least, not full blown elaborate meals. Her rice cooker and crock pot are her best friends before you. Having to deal with Shunsui all day along with her typical lieutenants duties leaves Nanao with little time and patience to cook big meals. However she eats well and you come to learn that when helping her prepare one morning. Nanao enjoys coming home to warm stews in the winter. As for summer, she’ll eat anything that won’t heat the kitchen too much. She doesn’t strike me as someone who would eat out often if I’m being honest. Nanao is a weekly grocery shopper with recipes in mind so she knows what to buy, she’s a bit particular about this aspect of her life because again, she’s typically a busy bee. Your help is a relief to her, especially when you work less hours. A bonus if you know how to cook and don’t mind it either. You get to go with her on the weekly grocery shopping trips and make suggestions for the menu because she’ll always consider your thoughts too. The daily chore slowly becomes one of your guys’ favorite quality time activities. At least, a close second to your first favorite.

沖牙源志郎・genshiro okikiba

I don’t think anyone in this fandom cares about this guy but honestly when I see an old man, my coochie goes into overdrive so I’m including him. Anyways, I feel like since Genshiro is older he’s a bit more traditional, meaning he expects you to stay home while he is the breadwinner. So naturally that means majority of the cooking is left to you. On his days off I like to think he would be by your side as you cook, a spectator. Genshiro may be an older, more traditional man but he is thankful for your work, knowing it is not easy or much fun cooking meals every day. He slowly starts to welcome the idea of takeout and food delivery once in a while since he feels asking you to teach him to cook would be too much of a burden on you. Even if you insist on working for whatever reason, if you two are in a relationship, Genshiro has the same expectation that you’d be the one cooking. Boomer expectations, you know?

阿散井 恋次・renji abarai

Renji is the only King in the Seireitei okay. Soul King? Mid. Renji throws it down in the kitchen like everyday is Thanksgiving. He will take full charge of cooking because he loves you (not because you’d get in the way like… totally not…). If you’re feeling under the weather he has the best soup recipe from when he and Rukia were younger, surviving out in Rukon District. It was one of his survival skills, to be fairly honest and one he never would have expected to become a hobby. He assures you that he doesn’t mind cooking, mostly because he loves the way your eyes practically roll every time he makes that one dish you love so, so much. You can certainly wash the dishes afterward. Also, he totally wears those corny ‘Kiss the chef’ aprons. You’ll do it anyway to show your appreciation. However if one day you insist on cooking, he’ll acquiesce and relax. Just because he’s used to cooking doesn’t mean he won’t accept some of yours! Whether you’re a good or bad cook, he always puts his best foot forward and makes sure you don’t lose faith in your culinary journey. Definitely has an album on his instagram saved tab that is strictly recipes.

八々原熊如・yuyu yayahara

Be so for real, you two would blow up the kitchen just by stepping into it. Or at least Yuyu would. She’s an absolute sucker for delivery services once they pop off in Soul Society. Honestly, that’s what half of her paycheck goes toward every two weeks but what’s not to love about it? On-demand healthy meals are such an insane concept for the soul reapers and once it finally landed in Soul Society, Yuyu has been on it and has no shame. Besides, she wouldn’t be up for cooking after work anyways. The hours are long and even with Lisa as a captain, its not as easy a job one might believe. She has your guys’ orders saved, you just need to tell Yuyu what you want for dinner and it’ll arrive shortly.

do not steal or repost my works anywhere

edit: i fixed renji’s section lol

© yuuuume

[khaoala]

hi bibi what are your top 5 songs for each of the fk couples? if you think it's fun to elaborate please do

also if any of your mutuals wanna do it too 😸

as always, i preface this by saying i don't know how to pick favorites. to be fair, most of the songs i put on my playlists happen to be there bc of a line or two, but anyway, these songs are still very good, so i hope you enjoy them. i won't give explanations to most of them, tbh, but i'll at least put the lyrics i relate to each of them, hence why this is under read more, because again, it got too long.

AKKAYAN

iris - the goo goo dolls

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming Or the moment of truth in your lies

this is what falling in love feels like - jvke

I got a lot on my mind Got some more on my plate My baby got me looking forward to the end of the day

as the world caves in - sarah cothran

And here it is Our final night alive As the Earth burns to the ground Oh, boy, it's you that I lie with

line without a hook - ricky montgomery

Oh, baby, I am a wreck when I'm without you I need you here to stay I broke all my bones that day I found you

i love you so - the walters

I just need someone in my life To give it structure To handle all the selfish ways

honorable brazilian songs mentions:

passarinho - gabriel froede, carol biazin (this one can work for all three of them to be honest, it's a song i really like)

I'll take you away from here To anywhere else where there's no one Just us, and us only

aliança - tribalistas

If I find you someday The way I dreamed of Maybe even be your perfect match And love you the way I imagined

você me faz tão bem - detonautas

When I get lost, that's when I find you When I let go, your eyes see me When I fool myself, that's when I forget about you When I have you, I feel so good

SANDRAY

nobody gets me - sza

I don't wanna see you with anyone but me Nobody gets me like you How am I supposed to let you go? Only like myself when I'm with you

505 - arctic monkeys

When you look at me like that My darling, what did you expect? I'd probably still adore you With your hands around my neck Or I did last time I checked

wildfire - syml

In good time, you'll come to know When you release, when you let go You can find yourself where you belong You're not a curse, you're not too much You are needed here, you are enough And nothing’s gonna hold you down for long

teeth - 5 seconds of summer

Fight so dirty, but your love so sweet Talk so pretty, but your heart got teeth Late night devil, put your hands on me And never, never, never ever let go

Fight so dirty, but your love so sweet Talk so pretty, but your heart got teeth Late night devil, put your hands on me And never, never, never ever let go

atlantis - seafret (sand, ep 8, break up in front of yolo)

I can't save us, my Atlantis, we fall We built this town on shaky ground I can't save us, my Atlantis, oh, no We built it up to pull it down

honorable brazilian song mention:

hotel caro - baco exu do blues, luiza sonza (this whole song tbh, so sandray coded, i even made a gifset using it here)

You're a bad liar, you're a bad pretender It's on your face that you didn't forget me Lie so badly, pretend so badly It's on your face that you didn't forget me

Other bodies, other smells to forget mine You're gonna call me pretending nothing happened Asking when you can stop by my house Feeling is gone, but the attraction is not over This is the fifth last time, there are no words

Prioritizing myself feels like choosing to lose you Don't leave me alone, let me be near you Bad relationships are easier to forget I know it's going to hurt because it was so good

KANTBISON

play with fire - sam tinnesz

Insane, inside the danger gets me high Can't help myself got secrets I can't tell I love the smell of gasoline I light the match to taste the heat

I've always liked to play with fire Play with fire I've always liked to play with fire

catious - tyler shaw

Look like an angel In devil's clothes A perfect picture Hanging on burning walls They say your kiss is deadly But I still wanna know Pull me into the flame

sailor song - gigi perez

My mom says that she's worried, but I'm covered in this favor And when we're getting dirty, I forget all that is wrong I sleep so I can see you 'cause I hate to wait so long I sleep so I can see you and I hate to wait so long

i wanna be your slave - måneskin

I wanna be your slave I wanna be your master I wanna make your heartbeat Run like rollercoasters

I wanna be a good boy I wanna be a gangster 'Cause you can be the beauty And I could be the monster

kill bill - sza

Oh, I just killed my ex, not the best idea (idea) Killed his girlfriend next, how'd I get here? I just killed my ex, I still love him, though (I do) Rather be in hell than alone

honorable brazilian songs mentions:

tenta acreditar - anavitória

What if our romance played in the radio? What if the news talked about us? What if the rest of our lives was one step ahead? What if today could be when I find you? The start of everything

escada do prédio - pedro sampaio, marina sena

You wanna meet me, I wanna see you Let's go on an adventure, me and you The stairs of the building is already our bedroom In each floor we get soaked

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

Questioning NPD, and already prof. dx'd autism and OCD culture is (lengthy and vent-ish, but not really with the latter):

📌 Carefully orchestrating this whole ask.

📌 Thinking every day about how much criteria you meet. **It's nearly all of it**, but you're still unsure if the things you've been prev. dx'd with would cancel it out or not.

📌 Stigma and misconceptions making you second-guess yourself.

📌 "-But I don't constantly or overtly seek attention/admiration..." Though I DO desire it, fantasize about seeking it, and get upset or disappointed when I don't receive what I'd like/had expected (when I do so). I'll think about it for a bit and feel a mild (?) sense of entitlement, then scoff "whatever" in my head.

I'm also afraid of people thinking I'm pathetic if I try too hard, so that's why I don't.

📌 ^ Comparing your competence in something afterwards, then being like "🤔🧙‍♂️😏" (silly ass emojis ik) when you notice that you're better or on par with whatever someone/everyone else has presented.

📌 ^ Moral OCD kicks in not long afterwards. I'll be writing a book if I elaborate.

📌 Struggling to find resources on covert presentations of NPD besides "10 signs of a covert narcissist" (it's mostly emotional abuse shit) or "the covert narcissistic mother." 🫠 Like bro please.

📌 Being afraid that by claiming you have "narcissistic traits/tendencies" and potentially learning it's all something different later that you'll seem like a fool (I feel like there's irony in this).

📌 "What if it's just C-PTSD?" (Also questioning) + "What if I suspect what could be C-PTSD is just my OCD and *some trauma.*" The fear of seeming like a fool to people (generally and those you'd seek help from) 2x.

📌 "I'm also aware of how my actions affect others sometimes, and I'm pretty self aware..."

I KNOW it's a misconception/overgeneralization that narcs 'can't have empathy' (also dude how do you think I manage how others potentially perceive me lol). I ALSO KNOW that self-aware narcs exist (like on here, hello...), but man...

A therapist once told me that I seemed too self-aware to be one as the 3 (yes) previous people they had experience with "typically only came in due to other problems like depression or perceiving others having 'the issue,' then were later diagnosed."

Self-doubt plus a lack of resources is a Bitch...

📌 That same one also used Donald Trump as an example of a narc (not that I'd disagree since I've read a bit of that one book about his family that was made by.. I think his Niece? Who's a clinical psych, but lmao...), wasn't aware of certain terms I'd bring up, and would accidentally skip questions (brought a pocket diagnostic manual with me, so I knew).

They were nice, but it made me go "hmm I think I'm more competent." Fear of being 'an arrogant fool' with that one (esp. as they've gone through schooling and I haven't.... *Yet* 😏), but seriously. Makes me teeter between whether I should just go with self diagnosis or seek out a more qualified professional (realized that one didn't specialize in pds besides BPD, so..) whenever I'm more prepared (both bringing up that fear again).

📌 OH AND BEING ASKED "Do you exploit others?..." with a waiting stare. Maybe others have no problem admitting that or other unpleasant things, BUT WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I WANNA SAY THAT!!! 😭 (I actually don't - at least not harmfully or often? But still).

📌 Obsessing/having intrusive memories and thoughts about people who've rejected you, left you out, did relational bullying, and/or perceived you as somehow 'less than' and were condescending towards you. Fantasizing about either winning their approval (more of a younger me thing) or overpowering them; either directly proving them wrong/that you've actually been better than them/putting them in their place or becoming famous for something unique/grand. ALL for **Years** and it sucks because it's likely that I barely exist in their minds, and I've yet to move on.

I've yet to heal/grow from this internalized shame and whatnot in full (plus there's more I could add into it like familial shit, the compassion/thoughtfulness I've had for those people despite what I've mentioned above - like ik they've had their own issues, etc.) I mean, I have been doing better... I've noticed my own growth, but it's been a painfully slow process.

📌 My mom being like "*you're not like your dad!!*" when I talk to her about narc stuff; further feeding my self-doubt/questioning. Also yeah it's likely that my paternal side has tendencies and that my dad has NPD. Way more than me actually LOL (plus I also likely get the OCD from his side, but y'know... Lots of them are old, they're Latinos, and idk what's up w my cousins since I rarely talk to them).

- Uhhhhh can I please claim 🌀🪄?

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[mintraindrop]

for the ask game

💊, 🍄, and who u watch with

ooh, three questions in one ask. I like this.

before I start. I literally can’t decide between Oscar and Lando as my favorite drivers - but luckily you asked two questions about favorite drivers, so I'll answer one with Lando and the other with Oscar :)) hope, that’s alright.

💊 what’s one narrative/take about your favourite driver that annoys you?

this one was made for Lando. I don’t even know where to start. and the word annoying isn't nearly enough to describe my feelings about this but here's my answer.

first and foremost it's discrediting him just because he is brave enough to openly talk about mental health; his own struggles in particular. starting with the comments from Helmut last year all the way to some assholes in comment sections online. in a world as cruel and chaotic as this we should be happy to have people like him. people who know what they're talking about - even tho that is nothing I wish on anyone. mental health issues are a terrible thing to have -, who speak on everyone else's behalf, who are famous enough to reach many people, to draw attention to a problem as big as the mental health topic. people who use their status for something good.

instead he recieves all these unnecessary comments and hate (...hate is always unnecessary but you know what I mean). it’s like nothing he does will ever be enough. and the fact that all these people are in no place to have an opinion like that. most of them have close to no idea what they're talking about and idk if they know what their statements do to him - because they are getting to him one way or another, there is no way around - but either way they should be ashamed of themselves. in no situation is it okay to bring someone down - even further - with hateful comments.

the fact that Lando speaks so openly about his struggles, about how he overanalyzes things and how adamant he is about learning from his mistakes and getting it right definitely makes him WDC material. it's everything that's usually used against him and I'm sick of reading all of this. if you don't have anything nice to say or can at least help with constructive criticism, shut your damn mouth.

🍄 if you could ask your favourite driver a question, what would you ask?

if I were to meet Oscar I probably wouldn’t be able to say anything, let alone form a thought coherent enough to actually get a suitable question out of my mouth.

the first one that comes to mind would be if it'd be okay to get a selfie with him. or if he could sign smth for me. but that's boring and honestly if I get a few moments to actually ask him a question I'd want it to count as something worth his time.

maybe I'd ask him how he keeps as calm as he is. or if he himself really feels as calm as he appears all the time or if he knows how amazing he is and that he changed so many people's lives for the better.

but I'd also want to know if his hair is as fluffy as it looks or I'd ask him about the heart eyes he has for Lando. and that fond look. and if he'd like to elaborate on that. that would be quite interesting tbh.

📺 who do you watch f1 with?

I usually watch it alone - to be able to shout at anything that happens without giving it a second thought.

but sometimes when my boyfriend's over on race day we watch it together. he's actually the one who introduced me to the rabbit hole that is f1. so he now has to live with me being overly excited about anything f1.

[little-miss-deviant-s-diaries]

Hey. What do you like about older men? What do they make you feel?

Hello there, mysterious person!

In a previous post, I mentioned being asked a similar question by a friend, but I couldn't find a satisfying answer.

This might take a bit to explain fully. Most people assume that the reason why younger women like older men is because they are financially stable or maybe because we have daddy issues. That would be partially true but not exactly the reason why. If you asked women who have dated both younger and older men, you would get a response from them saying that they find older men more mature, mentally and emotionally, confident, knowledgeable, and wise, and these women are not wrong in thinking that.

Personally, though, what really gets me is charisma. I find it incredibly appealing. Honestly, if a guy has that special charm, he can just go buy a leash because I might end up following him on all fours like a dog if he asked me. woof woof

Older men, compared to younger guys, have already discovered themselves. Most of them are not here to play (well, not talking about that kind of play ;p, I love an older naughty gentlemen!!! swoon). They tend to be more assertive and know what they want, and isn't that just extremely magnetic?

Now, let's go back to your original question: what do I like about older men? I'll start by saying, I don't exactly know what daddy issues are. So I really wouldn't say that's what caused me to be more attracted to them. However, I do look for a protector in a partner, someone who shows authority but also care,wait a second.. those attributes are something you will find in a father figure... maybe I do have a father complex. That's a topic for another time ;). FYI, I am my dad's little princess, but i am not into calling someone Daddy. I am a Sir kind of girl.(∗´ര ᎑ ര`∗)

The whole time that I have been writing this, I have been thinking about 3 characters. 2 I will share, the 3rd will be mine to keep.

A grumpy man once called me an ADHD poster child. So expect I go in and out of topics. Chaos is my second name :P.

1.Nagato from Sesame salt and pudding. A very cute manga about Haruhi, a 22-year-old machine operator, who wakes up one day to find that she drunkenly married an older man the night before. They make a deal and end up living together. I don't remember much about it besides that he was a lovely grump and he took care of her. I remember him talking about his salt and pepper hair, and since then, whenever I see an attractive older guy with that hair, I am instantly in love. I can already imagine my friend sighing and thinking I am hopeless xD.

2.Jean Girardi by saagelius

Oh man, this is divine! I wish I could repost every piece of art about him. I just found out that there is an official fanfiction about him that I will definitely read today.

The first time I saw the art, I was captivated. It was exactly what I envisioned. I won't disclose any more; the images speak for themselves.

All I'm going to say here is that they confirmed my preference. It wasn't just a fantasy; it was what I truly liked and wanted...

Enough distraction!!! Man, these men make me a mess!!!

I adore the appearance of older men. They exude the warmth of a comforting embrace. A warm hug <3. They give off an aura of reliability, as if you could wholly surrender to them, entrusting them with complete control, knowing they understand what's best for you through their experience. they can guide and lead you. I find older men's natural protectiveness endearing, and their wrinkles and white hair are quite attractive to me.They embody qualities like patience, love, and a strong appreciation for women, thanks to their extensive life experiences. Regarding your second question, it seems I've already provided a broad answer. But let me elaborate. Older men make you feel heard and valued. They can also make you feel empowered with their guidance and mentorship. You can have genuine conversations with them. They usually handle things more carefully than younger men who are still learning.

Wow... well that was a long answer. I hope i didn't make you regret asking. well thank you for asking. This was really fun to write about.

[seventeenlovesthree]

Greetings! So I've just finished Digimon 02TB and I need to discuss it with someone with legit opinions lmao. So the thing is: how do you tackle the apparent continuity disagreement that Ukkomon claimed he created the Chosen kids when there's lore established since the 1st Adventure that there was a group of Chosen kids (Maki Himekawa's group) before Taichi's group? I'm looking for possible Watsonian explanations since simply saying "it's a plothole / retcon" doesn't satisfy me 😁 So far I got these ideas, feel free to elaborate on them or give some new ones:

First, there's a possbility that Ukkomon was lying (I love how many plot holes can be simply explained by "character X was lying) and didn't actually create the Chosen kids - he just introduced them as Lui's "friends" to make Lui happy. BUT then, if Ukkomon didn't create them, why did the digivices disappear after Lui un-did his wish and BigUkkomon was defeated? Second, maybe when Lui claimed he's the first person to ever bond with a Digimon, he meant "the first person to bond with a Digimon without some divine intervention and/or a mission they were chosen to fulfill", which technically makes him the first Tamer instead of a Chosen child. Daisuke & co. calling him a "Chosen child" was therefore just a misunderstanding Lui didn't correct since he couldn't tell the difference.

What do you think?

Ooooooh boy! I still remember how much my head was rushing when I had watched the movie in cinemas back on launch day and I simply couldn't get home fast enough to write down all my thoughts. I had compiled it all back then here and I believe it already summarizes everything you've been asking and talking about, but I'll still try to put it together again shortly.

First of all, @jamesthedigidestined are currently still trying our best to make sense of the current timeline and the order of when which Chosen Child (or generally "humans partnering with Digimon") came into existence, so I still hope he will post his own ideas himself soon!

However - my theory back then and also today is what you already outlined:

Homeostasis does not have a physical form, so it created its agents like Gennai - and PROBABLY Ukkomon too. Since we know the Digital World has “wish granting” abilities, I can accept there being a singular being that is capable of doing the same thing. So then, a Digiegg gets into the real world in 1995, and Homeostasis gets to scan Hikari, Taichi and the others, discovering the potential they have - since Hikari is the child that enables the hatched Botamon to evolve into Greymon super quickly, Homeostasis sends Parrotmon to retrieve it. Afterwards, in 1996, Ukkomon “would appear who had special connections with [a child] in the real world”. And thus, Rui’s wish was the indirect catalysator of the foundation of the “partnership system”. Basically, Ukkomon’s wish fulfillment powers enabled a system based on the limitless potential (of wishes and the bond between humans and Digimon) that was deemed useful by Homeostasis for the sake of saving the world(s). A system that wasn’t in place like this before, so Rui was basically some kind of “prototype” - as was Ukkomon, kinda testing the waters of partnerships in the first place. And through analyzing the other 8 kids in the meantime, their potential had been discovered, which is why THEY also had Crests created for themselves. Like Ukkomon said - they came into existence to “protect” him, so he wouldn’t have to save the worlds himself. And so would Daigo, Maki and the others between 1996 and 1999 (including Wallace, though we need to still figure out where exactly he fits in there).

On a different note, I like the idea of treating Ukkomon like Menoa in the way of her being an unreliable narrator that led to the whole “adulthood vs. neglect theory” in the first place. So Ukkomon may actually NOT even be aware that Rui WASN’T the first Chosen Child because, either it really didn’t know or was manipulated by Homeostasis to claim that it’s true. The reasoning behind that could be interesting to look at too… Long story short: Never take anything in Digimon at face value!!!

Plus, me and James are also a fan of the idea that Rui was just "a child with a Digimon partner" and NOT a Chosen Child. Again, he has outlined this way better than I have, coming up with different groups of Digimon to be partnered with humans!

Plus, I still think of Rui as an unreliable narrator too, because they're all just speculating about the Digivice origin, even though there has been clear lore for it in the back...

[theygotbitchesinmedia]

ask dump

i have a couple dozen unanswered asks on this blog, most of which i believe are media recommendations, so i'm going to go through those now in a batch!

if you haven't seen it already We Are Lady Parts would be a fantastic recommendation for this blog. I started it last week and really love it. It's about a struggling punk Muslim girls band who recruit the extremely anxious, goody-two-shoes Amina to be their lead guitarist. It balance its moments of drama really well with the comedy and all of the women in the band get to be deeply weird in different and endlessly charming ways. My favorite is Amina because of her very relatable habit to have elaborate silly daydreams about anything and everything. Good show with some really good women!

I've heard good things about this one! Adding it to the list

I can't remember if you take recs for things in progress or not but the webtoon Katlaya Rising is currently the high point of my week, the art style POPS and it is jam-packed with girls and girls who love girls

I will always read things in progress 👍 I honestly in some ways prefer getting into stuff before it's finished. Like an animal with one of those food bowls that stops you from eating too fast. Added to the list.

Please read Villain Initialization!!!! The female characters are really good!!!!!!!!!

Looking at the cover and description for this one it seems like most of the female cast is gonna be side characters. i'll add it to the list but itll probably be reallllly back burner unless someone wants to go to bat hard for it and sway me

if youre taking recommendations bittersweet con panna is a cute yuri manhwa and hacks is an insane tvshow about millenial comedy writer who got cancelled on twitter and a beautiful old standup comic about to lose her vegas residency.

added both! never heard of bittersweet con panna but my sister has been going really hard for hacks and i feel like i owe it to her to watch that sooner rather than later because of all the media im always trying to force onto her

"Kevin Can F*** Himself" on AMC is fantastic and has some really interesting female protags, I recommend. Might be a similar vibe to On Becoming a God in Central Florida actually!

Already on the list!

i'd like to second the rec for no home, probably one of the greatest webtoons of all time

one moth ago anon i can safely say you were correct about this it is certainly one of the greatest webtoons of all time. i do think its not really About women but i get why you all wanted me to read it enough to push it

@whatasmoothgardener Reccing a short manga I've been reading recently called Is Kichijoji the Only Place to Live. Its a manga about twin girls who run a small real estate company in Tokyo from the POV of their clients. It has a unique art style, its female character focused, and it teaches you about the different places in Tokyo. However its kinda episodic.

I don't mind episodic at all. Cool to see female manga protags who arent stick thin! added to the list

@phoenixfangs i got into a webtoon the other day called nevermore and considered recommending it to u, but i second guessed myself like oh what if its not worth recommending and its stupid actually, BUT i had a dream last night that u were talking about it so i think i have to at least put it on ur radar, if it isnt already xD what happens if u take edgar allen poe stories and make it about lesbians? u get the webtoon nevermore ❤️ theres an actual Plot to it too im not trying to sell it based on tropes, i just cant describe it better than the actual synopsis/description on webtoon, so id say its worth a glance!

At first glance i'm not sure how to my personal tastes this owuld be but i feel like i have maybe been unfairly biased against popular webtoons in that front. added to the list !

@counttwinkula listen i know your "media to get around to" list is forever long but i reread the haunting of hill house (the book) for my podcast and eleanor and theodora just. won't stop touching each other. some of the most classic toxic yuri imo. also the 1963 film adaptation (the haunting) is so good

ill always appreciate a horror recommendation from one of my learned Horror Mutuals. added both!

if it changes anything, you can find the main stories of arknights and limbus company here and here respectively without downloading the game: [retcons dot github dot io slash limbus-storylogs] [akgcc dot github dot io slashcc slash story dot html hashtag main] (sorry it wont let me send links) i totally understand if u think its too much trouble, but i do think both games have very good female characters

I'm sorry... i just cant go down this road.... it's a path i'm not willing ot walk. if i was going to read the stories for a gacha game i wasn't playing i would just go read shoujo kageki revue starlight re:LIVE. which i havent been able to make myself do. so its just not gonna end up happening

have you heard of tangle tower… it’s a relatively short murder mystery click and point game about two families & their secrets. the art is gorgeous + the game is fully voiced, and the protagonist + his assistant have a dynamic that reminds me of the classic ace attorney ‘lawyer + weird girl’ duos. the majority of the cast are women, and the game features some of the Girls Of All Time. highly recommend, esp since you’re an ace attorney fan

Added to the list!

if you’re trying to flesh out the book section, i’d like to recommend three parts dead by max gladstone! admittedly it’s been a hot second since I’ve read it so i can’t speak on the quality of the writing itself, but the plot and the worldbuilding had some interesting stuff. the novel follows tara, a necromancer in a world where doing magic is more akin to being a lawyer, who’s hired to resurrect a god. the book is the first in a series, and the books that follow have some other interesting female protagonists + canonical queer women if you enjoy it o7

Sounds neat! Added to the list

ok i still have some more from back in fucking April that i didnt manage to get to. but im getting distracted now

[carriehobbs]

1, 20, & 28 for the OC ask 🥰💖

Tysm for asking Bree!! 💕💕💕💕 You didn't ask for a specific OC, so you're getting whoever I want (😈) and I'm giving you Ella Wiseman

(01) Is your OC in love? If so, with whom, and for how long?

Based on where Ella and Ambrose's relationship is in canon, I would say that yes, Ella is in love! It's very new, though (and kind of in the stage where Ella would phrase it as "I might be in love with him" or "I think I am in love with him"): I'm always a little bit blurry on Mind Blind's timeline, but it's only been a few days at most. Her initial attraction to Ambrose (immediately after meeting him) is physical (she thinks he's hot), and those feelings quickly grow into a crush (through the process of the Room 1 assignment and working with him on Operation Hemera - I'll elaborate on this in a second). But there's this really tender, gentle moment in Chapter 12 that is kind of a turning point for her, where she realizes that she doesn't just admire or respect or have a crush on Ambrose, but that she has these real (and intense) feelings for him that go beyond the feelings she's had for previous crushes or even previous partners.

(20) How does your OC feel about public displays of affection?

Ella's feelings on PDA depend a lot on whether or not they're at work, lol. I mentioned in passing the other day that Ella and Ambrose have mutually established very strict rules about professionalism in the workplace while Ella is a student (the boundaries get laxer once she has graduated and is his coworker, instead of his student) - it is very important to both of them to keep their personal and professional relationships separate. So at work (while Ella is a student), there is no PDA at all. Even once Ella has graduated, there is still minimal PDA (they both still care about maintaining their professionalism, even if they're not as rigid about separating their personal and professional lives). (The one exception to this is if they're alone in Ambrose's office, but that's not really classic PDA.)

They're still not over-the-top PDA people, even outside of Aeon, but they don't have strict boundaries (because now it's their personal time, not their professional time). They'll hold hands (Ambrose doesn't strike me as someone who is particularly fond of PDA, but Ella does enjoy handholding sometimes and convinces him that, actually, this is nice), maybe embrace or kiss (chastely). (They might kiss a bit less chastely in public if they think they're alone, but again that's not really classic PDA either).

(28) What is something unconventional that your OC thinks is romantic?

This is one of Nick's top 5 "oh my god, what is wrong with you for being love with Ambrose 'A-Is-For-Asshole' Kim" moments.

In Chapter 2 (during the Room 1 assignment), Ella asks for Ambrose to explain Kent's AMO profile to her. In one of the dialogue options (I don't remember which off the top of my head), Ambrose says (and I'm paraphrasing here, I also don't remember the direct quote) that she's probably one of the smartest MIV students in the room, so she should act like it. Ella is absolutely enamoured by this (and this is actually the moment that takes Ella from just thinking Ambrose is hot to actually having a crush on him).

Yes, he's insulting her, but he's also demonstrating his belief in her competence: she is way too smart to be acting that stupid. Ella's intelligence and professional competence is a huge part of her ego and self-image, and it's often one that gets questioned by people once they learn about her Pollard score. Moments like this where Ambrose shows that he recognizes (and even appreciates) her intelligence just make her fall more in love with him.

[error-dream-was-found]

can I ask for the Tommy, Dream and Quackity try home-made therapy wip?

You sure can! So where do I begin ..?

Basically Tommy decides to visit Dream again, to get closure (because that went so well the last time). He finds our favorite teletubby in truly pitiful state (happens when you're tortured for months) and decides that he can't let this injustice continue! After calling Sam every vulgar name in the vocabulary, he takes Dream and in a moment of great brilliance decides to fix him!

It's truly genius! Two birds with one stone! Two flies with one blow! Two hares-! You got the idea. He will reform Dream and help him be a better person, which will not only help the server as whole but also ease Tommy's own anxiety! (Not to mention that Dream himself is currently pretty traumatized, could use some therapy and who is a better candidate than Tommy? He's an expert at therapy! Best therapist ever! Puffy is not helping him, he is helping her!)

And it's going perfectly (despite Dream's consistent insistence that he does not need therapy) for maybe ten minutes. Tommy will very quickly realize that he has no idea what to do with Dream. Despite everything he has no experience with this kind of trauma and he's actually not so comfortable around Dream to be alone with him. But it's fine! He got it under control! The solution is simple! (No Dream, you're not fine and you can't go)

He needs help! (Not because he's not good enough therapist! It's just that talking to someone with at least distantly similar experience might help Dream!). Tommy's second brilliant idea of the day brings them to Las'nevadas, much to Dream's dismay (too bad for him that he needs Tommy's support to walk, running is not an option and all his attempts to convince Tommy to change his mind were in vain)

Quackity is as happy as you'd expected when those two show up but before he can complain Tommy starts a 2 hours long ramble about how terrible Sam is for doing this and how he's disgusted. Well, Q can't really spill out the whole torture thing now, can he? So he has to play the part and be nice. The moment Tommy is out of sight he makes very clear that the last moths are nothing compared to what he'll do to him if Dream spills.

Dream for his part is too weak to try and escape and unable to tell Tommy about Quackity as he knows what the duck would do to him. He needs to recover first and that means playing along.

The main story is mostly Quackity coming up with elaborate schemes to indirectly convince Tommy that Dream is evil while Dream comes up with similar schemes to either unlive or at least expose Quackity. All while Tommy is sweetly obvious to it all, spilling random psychological terms that he heard Puffy say and thinks are cool (he also has no idea what they mean).

I don't have snippet for this one but if you'd like one feel free to send another ask or dm me and I'll write something ;)

[sizzlingpatrolfox]

Jimin used to have a lot of stories on Jk, but now we don't hear them anymore. even when he said he hasn't had ramen with him yet, there are no follow-up anecdotes.if this happened before, he would maybe have an explanation as to why. I remember that article of an interview he had on FACE where it was mentioned he has been accused of many things. it's either he's being careful with what he says as he's had it with the fake news, or they just hadn't have ramen. my friend who is a non-shipper, who doesn't like shipping Jm with Jk, surprisingly doesn't believe they're not seeing each other.haha

I just put all of these together to talk about it once and be done with it. I'll try to say everything I think in this one post and close this topic because it's redundant.

First of all, Jimin doesn't talk about any member. It's not that he's particularly trying hard to make it seem like he doesn't care about Jungkook, he just doesn't mention any member on his own. Not even when he's asked; if anything, people ask him the most about Jungkook and he replies to those questions. He doesn't elaborate, no; but anyone who thinks he would elaborate on other member is terribly wrong. The idea that he's purposefully hiding something about Jungkook or giving short answers because he's secretly dating Jungkook is tremendously wrong. If you asked him about Hoseok or Taehyung, the answer would be just as short. He wouldn't really go on and on about their dates even if he's hung out with them.

So, first point: No, Jimin is not giving "weird" replies about Jungkook, it's the same he would answer about any other member. The difference is that if Jimin had said Taehyung or Jin haven't cooked him ramen yet, nobody would think he's lying. Jikookers only think he's lying because it has to make sense with the fantasy that he's dating Jungkook, which he isn't.

Second point is related. Jungkook has just reacted to some Jimin videos; he's not giving any updates on their current interactions or relationship or hang outs. Nobody has asked Jungkook if he's met Jimin, or if he's cooked for him. I'd even go as far as saying that I'm sure Jungkook would ignore such questions.

There's absolutely nothing suspicious or wrong about saying they ate together. It's as normal as any of the interactions Jimin has had with other members, especially Hoseok during this year. It's as normal as Jimin making plans to eat at Taeyang's house and addressing that question. Was he lying when he said he hadn't been to Taeyang's? They filmed vibe in January and it was March and he still hadn't been to eat with him. Nobody thought he was lying about that, right?

I believe Jimin was saying the truth, and he's not really trying to hide anything. No, ramen is not the only food in the world and if we're going to get anal about it, he didn't really specify that he didn't see Jungkook. But that food was something they talked about, something we actually saw them talking about. They aren't on a diet 24/7 365, and if they were actually seeing each other and hanging out in the frequency shippers believe, then they would've eaten that at some point. You can't spend several days a week with someone and not have the opportunity to eat something you've been wanting to eat or do something you've been wanting to do. Me and my friends sometimes are craving some particular junk food and we're like "we have to get this" so we go and buy it, or the next time we hang out we bring that food. Sometimes we make plans and we're like "let's have a beer soon" and so the next time we meet we get beer. Last month I told my cousins I'd take them to the movies but I didn't have time, so this weekend I'm travelling to see my family and we've already made plans to go watch the little mermaid on Monday. What do people call it? Raincheck.

Mind you, I don't even live in the same city as my family or most of my close friends. Yet, I still make plans with them and we make them happen. I'm not dating anyone right now, but it was just the same when I had a partner.

So this just tells me that they're not seeing each other as something other than friends. That's all they are. The ramen thing happened in March. It's been 3 months. If they were seeing each other a lot lot, as a couple, it would've come up once. One lazy Sunday lunch, one Friday night in watching movies, anything, they would've had the food that they were "planning" to have and Jimin was craving.

And yes, Jimin is still affectionate towards Jungkook. They both are affectionate towards each other and as we've seen with recent events, like October last year, or hobis enlistment when Jimin hugged him and shook his hand and asked him to cook for him and all that. I've said that when they'd interact on camera, it would be as if nothing changed. But if in 2019 they were seeing each other every other day, and in 2023 they go months without seeing each other, then something has definitely changed. And I will always make my strongest opinons based on their offline interactions rather than the ones they might have in front of a camera. Okay, a hug was lovely but friends hug too. You can hug a person with immense affection, you can even "flirt" playfully and still not go to bed with them, which is something shippers always forget.

As for jikookers going mad because "Jimin is killing jikook" while apparently Jungkook is "holding it"... I just can't. In 2019, Jimin went to celebrate Jungkook's birthday when he came from Paris. In 2020, Jungkook talked about the night of Dynamite's hot 100 #1 THREE times and never once mentioned Jimin. Not once. Jimin talked about it once and immediately said he'd been with Jungkook. In 2021, Jimin said Jungkook went to his hotel room a lot, and that they worked out together. Meanwwhile Jungkook was dismissing it and some months later he pretended he didn't know where Jimin got his 7 tattoo. I could find some "big" gesture from Jimin for every year they've been a group, while half of the things Jungkook said and did in the past ten years have been used by people only to hate on Jimin and prove that they're not dating or that he doesn't like Jimin.

Have people considered that Jimin can't "kill" the idea of a relationship that doesn't exist to begin with?

Watching/reacting to Jimin's videos might say a thing or two about him liking Jimin, or Jimin's songs/performances, admiring him and that he finds him entertaining, but it doesn't really talk about a relationship or how much they see each other. But of course shippers are blowing it out of proportion and putting feelings and emotions and reasons into Jungkook's actions that he's never really alluded to.

I can't help thinking all of this is a frog in boiling water situation where the little things that happen or are said day by day don't feel big enough to be a statement or closure, but it's been building up to something tho I don't know what.

[wildroseofarran]

What is Needed || Quintane || July, 2023

Q: Q plops in Tane's lap, stealing the remote to turn off the TV.

Tane: Tane was happy to give up the remote, because it meant his hands were free to wrap around Q instead!

Q: "I wanna ask - hi," he laughed.

Tane: “Hiiii…” He kissed Q’s shoulder. “You wanted to ask what?”

Q: "Soooo, uh... I have this client... that... wants me to be a birthday present for his new boyfriend." He turned just enough to look at Tane. "I want you to come with me."

Tane: It was the dynamic at play there rather than the nature of the request that had Tane saying, “…Huh,” and humming thoughtfully.

“Can I ask why?”

Q: Q stared up at the ceiling, rather than the man he was sitting on. "You're not my pimp or anything, but, he's - I dunno. He was like, rough, last time."

Tane: A frown creased Tane’s brow. He didn’t like the sound of that, or the silent implication that it had made Q uncomfortable enough to want him to come along this time.

Tane kissed his shoulder again. “You just tell me the day and I’m there.”

Q: "It's $800, I don't wanna pass that up." As though he had felt Tane's thoughts. He felt a need to elaborate.

Tane: “You don’t have to justify yourself. Job’s a job, right?” And money was money. Everyone had to eat and pay their bills.

“Besides, you’re being safe. You’re bringing a big scary bouncer with you.”

Q: "Yeah," he scoffed, waved his hand. "Not laughing at you, just, the - never needed one before." That was a bold-faced lie, but moving on.

Tane: Tane strongly suspected that wasn’t true but he wouldn’t ask. What mattered was that in the here and now, when Q was feeling uncertain, he trusted Tane enough to ask him for help.

“I’m glad you asked me. I’m happy to sit in the corner and look intimidating so he doesn’t get any ideas.”

Q: "Probably not in the house, but like, out in the car, or - I dunno. If they wanted your cock, would you jump in?" He was laughing, but, serious just the same.

Tane: "Wherever you want me." Tane was a bouncer, after all; his looming presence was just as effective outside as it was inside, as all the unruly patrons of The Brig could attest.

He rested his chin on Q's shoulder as he contemplated that. "Knowing what kind of personalities are involved here? Probably not. Cute face can only get someone so far with me."

Q: "Yeah. I dunno. Maybe... Maybe I should... just... let him go." Tane's presence was strong, but it wasn't helping him figure out the correct course of action. He'd already said yes. Maybe he could lie, or just say fuck off. The man was... rough. He'd always given a bad feeling but nothing horrible had ever happened. Nothing worth saying no. This was just... something like gum on his shoe.

Tane: Tane gave Q a squeeze to comfort and reassure him and just because he wanted to. And maybe to drive home the point that Tane was there for him no matter what he decided.

"I'd say if it's worrying you and making you second guess, it might be worth it to really think about turning the job down. Money's money, yes, but your comfort and safety matter. Besides, there are always other clients."

Q: But it was sex, and he needed it. Needed it like he needed breathing. He knew what he was, once upon a time, but in the present, there was only the question of whether or not he was a nymphomaniac.

"Ok. Ok. I'll... tell him... no." But dorm rats fucked the hardest, and dorm rats were always wanton. It pained Q to even say no in this scenario.

Tane: Q didn't sound entirely sure either way, despite what he said. To Tane it was a no-brainer but Tane also wasn't the one in that position. All he could offer was advice.

He kissed Q's shoulder. "You make whatever decision you feel is best, okay? I'm there for you either way, however and whenever you need me."

Q: "Think I just need to do porn and get it over with," Q laughed, not quite reaching his eyes.

Tane: "You'd be amazing in porn." He shifted around and kissed the other shoulder, lips lingering. "Tell me what you need."

Q: "For you to do porn with me." His laugh was genuine this time.

Tane: Tane's kisses began creeping toward Q's neck. "I could probably be persuaded. What else do you need?"

Q: His eyes rolled closed, nuzzling into Tane's cheek. "Your hand on my cock."

[mr-missani]

so i'm gonna ramble a bit here

i had an interesting experience yesterday that i feel was a new life experience for me. i think i said goodbye to someone that i'll never see again, with full awareness of that being the case.

to elaborate a little, and provide some context..

try to remember some people from a previous time in your life that you fell out of contact with. not bc you didn't like each other or you had any specific falling out, life just took you in different directions and you never had the chance to say goodbye to them, bc you didn't know that the last time you saw them would be the last time ever (or at least, up until current day)

i think of two specific friends i had as a kid, one that was a friend in middle school and one who i knew in high school. nowadays i purposefully avoid most of the people i knew at that point in my life, bc we did have a real valid reason to never speak to each other again. but when i think of these two specific people, i remember that we never had a falling out. they never even really hurt my feelings, in fact they could've been the nicest friends i had during that point in my life. and i've thought about both of them over the years, even into adulthood, and sometimes considered reaching out to reconnect, to catch up, to see how they're doing and tell them about where i'm at.

and at the same time, that sounds so exhausting and like i'm just begging to have some horrible memories come back to me. not because of these individuals, but because of who i was when i knew them

maybe it's just a social obligation that we feel this "need" to keep in touch. i'm still the type of person who apologizes first when i'm responding to a message that i failed to get back to for over a week (and this happens frequently to me, i struggle with consistently messaging folks back even if i really really want to). whenever i think about these friends and i feel the urge to reach out and rekindle what was a lovely interaction for the time, i stop myself with the same anxiety that keeps me from reaching out to even the people i love the most. no offense to them nor the empty ache i feel when i think about them, but i'd rather spend my limited messaging energy on people that i want to be friends with now, that treat me well now, and that i love now. i've never reached out to these two people, even after thinking about them off-and-on for over a decade

this is all going to connect back in a second here, i promise

so now i work as a lead barista at a coffeeshop. the culture of the store i work at is extremely regular-focused, so i know pretty much everyone by name (and drink) who comes in on their own daily, weekly, or monthly bases. i really enjoy a lot of these people! they're interesting, funny, they've had a variety of life experiences and are all kinds of ages and backgrounds. i defo have some that i feel closer to, but even then i wouldn't say that any of them are really my friends, in the formal way of speaking

recently, a lot of our regulars have been moving away, and many have come by and said goodbye or at least informed us that they're leaving in the near future. it's never struck me super hard, even when one of them was one of my favourites. i think that i just didn't process the sincerity of their goodbye, and the reality of them saying "this could be the last time i ever see you." after all, we aren't friends. i'm their barista, they come to my store for coffee, and happen to enjoy me enough to spend some extra time chatting. it's no hard feelings that someday, some of them will move away, and not even think to say goodbye to me. i don't serve that role in their life, and they don't owe me those explanations. i say that genuinely and without any bad taste in my mouth

which leads me to the events of yesterday

one of my regulars is moving away to the other side of the country. it happened pretty quick; he got hired and was asked to relocate asap, so he is. i knew for a couple of weeks that he was moving and when i heard the news initially i was pretty bummed about it, but not any more than i had been for the others before him

he is someone who comes in almost every single weekday, orders refills and stays to work for hours, and sometimes comes up when we're not busy, just to chat with us about our own lives (which he remembers the details of if you tell him). he was also the first regular to be corrected when he used the wrong pronouns with me, and he never once messed them up again after that. even some of my favourites don't do that. i always enjoyed talking with him, he was always super friendly and interested, he made conversations easy, and he was genuine when referring to you by name and thanking you for making his drink (even if it was just a drip coffee with honey)

but anyway,

yesterday, he came by bc he was going to be selling an AC unit to one of my coworkers, who wasn't there at the time. my manager and i were closing and we told him he could just bring the unit to us and we'd keep it in the store until she was able to pick it up. he is leaving this morning to drive across the country to his new home, so this was literally the last time he could bring it to her. unfortunately we didn't have this conversation with him until we were just about closed, but my manager told him to just come back and knock and we'd let him in (which is a big deal, bc we are not allowed to open the doors again after closing for safety reasons)

so he did. he came back. it was half an hour after we closed, and he was helping us move the ac unit into the store. he stood in our lobby and chatted with us for a while. we got out late that evening bc we spend like ten minutes just talking with him. and at the end of it, when he was going out the door, i encouraged him to come back and visit any time, and he admitted that he found it unlikely he'd ever come all the way back up to the city we're in. for the first time in my life, his words clicked in my head in a way that i completely understood and i heard him telling me - "this could be the last time i ever see you."

i didn't really know what to do with that information. and i knew that i had a job to finish, and he had to go finish packing. without thinking, i said to him "i'm really glad i got to meet you." he gave me a really gentle smile and said "yeah, i'm glad i got to meet you too."

no hugs, no tears, not even a handshake, and not even an actual goodbye. just a shared sentiment that it was nice that our lives overlapped for long enough that i got to know who he was, and he got to know me.

i thought about this exchange for the rest of the night while we closed, and on my drive home. i realized that maybe those friends that i want to reach out to, i don't actually want to rekindle with them, or become friends again, or reminisce about a time in my life i'd rather move past. maybe all i really wanted them to know was that i was glad i'd met them. even if only for a while, i knew them, and they were kind to me. i enjoyed their company, and i called them my friend. and the time and distance we've had since then didn't change that at that point in my life, i needed friends like them. it doesn't mean i owe them a reconnection or a message or a long and flowery thank you; but in my own head, processing things that happened in that time, i am grateful to remember that those people were there, and that i knew them

and i hope they're all doing well.

[cloudninetonine]

*walks on tiredly with hair looking like Wild's after a tumble through bushes possessed by the fae because he accidentally proposed to Player, hands you a cup of tea and honey cookies, leaves without elaborating* Hey there, just passing by for now, may existence be treating you better than it is treating me.

Abyss's/Villain First's/First's and Hylia's kinda but not really break up song, also know as Una having enough of Hylia's bs in my Ancient Au after Fia/Seraph lost his arm and Dia/Ganon got corrupted and going off:

https://youtu.be/L8oYplzqdAs

I don't know why but the vibes feel right specially when you look at the story, the female singer is Athena and the male singer is Odysseus from Greek Myth on the Epic Musical by the way. Also, do you have any idea what happened with First in the Villain/Mess Au? Like is the man still trapped or did Hylia straight up obliterate him to try and keep the Chain from getting ideas (which straight up did not work because Abyss is a thing). Also for context: in my Ancient Au, Una/Zelda is straight up a Hylia slanderer, girl is so feral she'd throw hands with her and probably win with Fia/Seraph cheering in the background, specially after what happened with Flora and the entire mess with Player, I can see her also helping Fia/Seraph with the Hero's Shade deal, except instead of giving Player the means to shank Dink she teaches then the best way to suplex and throw hands with him hand to hand (Can you imagine Player straight up sucker punching him in the face and taking his kneecap rights while the Chain tries to pry them off? Fia is straight up howling with laughter and Una has the most smug, vicious smile any Zelda has ever worn), that and she'd probably teach Player how to set up traps midbattle, like Dink is midway through speech or something, closing in on a Link but ends up stepping in a net filled with barbed wire or something and trips on his face, the possibilities are endless, but I'll be back on my Fia/Seraph and Lora headcanon thing on another ask. Also her and Player straight up dragging Hylia through the coals in late night discussions during a break in Fia/Seraph's impromptu bootcamp of Player while Wind, who can most likely see ghosts is just bewildered. That or he joins in. The man himself is just trying not to die again as they get more and more vicious by the second.

Also I heard Fae instincts for Fairytale and my sleep deprived brain immediately latched on due to my latent hyper fixation with Irish myths, so I'll raise y'all this:

-Any Hyrule with a Player who's a Changeling, aka a shapeshifter Fae who has it really rough because they were abandoned by their own kin, most of them being killed via burning or drowning while young and bringing misfortune to those who hurt them in return (like someone puts Hyrule near contact with holly wood, which hurts the fae, and then immediately falls into manure the very next day, or someone speaks ill of Villain Rulie or of his missing wings and then the very next second after Player sends them a dirty look they straight up break their legs, no one knows how it happened but at least someone is side eyeing Player), also, missing/wounded wing solidarity with Villain Hyrule and anyone reacting with mild horror once they notice that Player's own wings are permanently wounded (maybe someone poured molten steel on them, so not only does it burn on a regular basis but they're just straight up permanently welded to their back) or maybe burn scars from where someone tried burning them alive, and a way too used to it Player just shrugs and goes "Humans don't like cursed children" without elaborating. Like they've just been in so much pain it doesn't bother them anymore? I don't know, just a thought, could be interesting.

-Fairies like the sound of bells although they really, really dislike the sound of iron bells (that's why a good chunk of the bells in old Ireland are made of iron, it's to keep the Fae away like how gold scares away Dullahan for a time), so I can see Hyrule getting immediately distracted or calmer around Player if he's uneasy if they have silver or gold bells on their person or, maybe having a bad feeling he could slip up and want their blood or before they get isekaid to another Chain, he gives them a steel chain (since depending on the myth it hurts fairies) filled with iron bells and tells them that, if they ever feel in danger from the Fae to ring it like their life depends on it and use the Chain as a garrote as a last resort, I doubt Player would use it with our Hyrule (heck I can straight up see then wrapping it in cloth so it doesn't ring at all near him, and sabotaging any nearby iron bells they can for good measure), but I also can imagine Yandere Hyrule or Villain Hyrule just straight up shrieking, with ears bleeding and falling down to the ground with the most inhuman sound of pain to ever come from their throat as Player uses the opportunity to run away.

Also the main reason I don't think Four is the original Hero of Men, in spite of Jojo's Lore, is because of the way he reacts to Twili magic, he recognizes it as dark magic (due to his intense trauma with it) but he doesn't recognize it as Twili magic (which is very specific and I feel like the Hero of Men would recognize, because in the opening cutscene of Minish Cap and Hyrule Encyclopedia it shows the hero of men sealed the monsters away with the original Minish Blade, and that around the same time period between Skyward Sword and Minish Cap the Twili/Interlopers were sealed away in the Twili Realm), which I feel he would after dealing with them, plus Four has and forged the Four Sword in Minish Cap, he doesn't have the original Minish Blade and it's established that the Hero of Men didn't have Fi, hence, they can't be the same but much like how Lora is an inflection point for Legend and Hyrule from my point of view The Hero of Men is an inflection point between Sky and Four.

My main headcanon is that he's even more feral than Four in account of living through what was basically a war, extremely snarky, and also has several mixed feelings towards Sky but would be super proud of Four, like him and Fia straight up almost get into fist fights about who has the best descendant (which Lora, ever unhelpful because even as a shy boy he's still a Link and a bard, so obviously he's a little shit, tells them they're both being ridiculous and to stop fighting because clearly Hyrule is the superior descendant, their battles are almost as legendary as Twilight and Fia fighting over Wild's and Calamity's custody). Also Players gets another ghost following them around and, rather than accidentally scare them like how Fia probably did between you know, appearing and the murder fae horse although he redeems himself by giving them a wolf, he just straight up messes with them for the giggles for a bit before Fia straight up smacks him over the head so he'll quit with the shenanigans).

And that's all I have for now, though I'll come back with some excerpts and Ancient au/Lora headcanons later on after my headache passes, I apologize in advance for the full on rant I'll go over my sleep deprived thoughts on possible Link/Zeldasonas because the Ancient era lives in my head rent free due to TOTK, you have been warned.

-Just a Tired Summertime Musician.

HI SUM GOOD TO HERE FROM YOU

Ngl when you mention breakup song all I could think about was Taylor Swift and I was expecting a Swiftie song Idk why

As for Prime (Villain! First) Hylia neither trap him or obliterate him- bro was straight up brainwashed, she used her opportunity when he was broken within his prison to take that shell of a man and mold her hero. Bro is neither thriving nor flourishing he is straight up in a constant state of inner suffer, stuck in mania.

Una and Player deserve to body Hylia, them both just sit over her unconscious body and share some cakes and tea and just go on about how much better they are then here- after all they didn't leave a devoted man to die nor get him trapped in prison for years.

I'm loving the idea of iron bells! Maybe a possibly way for Player to originally get away from the Vils? I dont know but I do likenit!

Listen, all Know about Jojo's Four is that his timeline confuses the fuck outta me JFNQNNSNS

Can't wait for more Lora stuff from you, Sum!

[melancholy-marionette]

Now that you answered my ask I'm gonna keep sending stupid questions about Blythe >:D

First of all, how is the dynamic after Bad Ending 3? Do both Blythes actually take turns taking care of us? I can't shake off the feeling that eventually they would get greedy and want the other to spend less time with us, until they straight up fight. And if so, who would get to keep us? Maybe they just cancel each other out and we starve to death lol.

Second, how does that ending work? Are we in a very elaborate illusion or are we physically trapped?

Third, what does Blue Blythe enjoy? You said he liked to play games with us, but does he enjoy the tormenting, being in control or something else entirely? I'm curious about how his brain works.

And lastly, the most important question of all: How have you been doing these past few days? I hope you are well. Remember that you are amazing and you deserve the world! ♡

-💌

Hehe, I don't mind :3 but my ability to type has severely decreased cos someone broke my arm yesterday >.< crashed into me on an electric scooter, and it's my dominant arm that's broken, so can't use my right hand for typing or holding stuff atm. Stuck with my relatively useless left hand, which is really hard to type with x3

I'll try to answer anyhow, it'll just take me a while to type, haha.

So after bad end 3, you pretty much hit the nail on the head! The sharing arrangement wouldn't last long. Blue Blythe would get too greedy and try to push orange Blythe out more and more, and orange Blythe would grow more and more jealous and desperate to get you away from blue Blythe's clutches x3

I think both of them would attempt more sneaky and underhanded methods to get rid of one another before resorting to a physical fight. And while orange Blythe would prefer to avoid throwing punches, I wouldn't completely discount them in a fight because, while blue Blythe is undoubtedly stronger and arguably smarter too, orange Blythe would be more like an a cornered animal in a genuine fight, dangerous and unpredictable.

I reckon one of them would win before it got to the point that you wound up neglected and dead, especially since orange Blythe would do literally anything to ensure your survival at that point.

The second question is more difficult to answer because even I am unable to determine with 100% certainty what is real and what isn't x3 Part of me would like to say that you're physically trapped because it would make more sense that you'd be unable to escape from a contraption like that, but then in many ways, escaping from elaborate illusions can be even more difficult.

Since it was supposed to partially represent my own experiences of being confined within my own mind, I suppose elaborate illusion would be closer to the truth! Still, I like to leave stuff like that for individuals to determine for themselves since everyone's version of reality that they're living is different, and I don't want to impose mine on anyone else's x3 I realise that probably sounds like a lame answer though >.<

Blue Blythe enjoys both tormenting and attempting to dominate you, and while they do get their own pleasure from the controlling games, their main reason for doing it is that they're convinced it's what will ultimately set you free. They believe giving in to your darker desires, often (but not always) more sensual stuff, is what will ultimately liberate you. So, in a way, the games blue Blythe likes to play are a form of conditioning, because there's no saying that you necessarily enjoy any of that stuff, but since blue Blythe is utterly convinced that it will do you good, they will continue doing it with the aim of making you enjoy it, no matter what. They're much more narcissistic than orange Blythe in that sense, because orange is at least more inclined to actually listen to how you're feeling, whereas blue thinks they already know how you feel, even if you're outwardly expressing something else that doesn't match up with their image of you. Blue Blythe thinks that only they know the true you, and will do anything to liberate you from the world and yourself.

Lastly, that's so sweet of you to ask ^-^ Well, I wasn't doing too badly until my arm got broken x3 just the usual ups and downs of depression really, mixed with extreme tiredness from overworking like an idiot during the jam, haha. I'm always relieved but also sad when jams finish cos I know I need to rest, but I like the sense of purpose and drive that they give me! Always feel a little lost when they finish >.< But I suppose the upside of having my arm broken is that I'm forced to rest xD Can't really even play much with one hand though, cos the way my broken arm is atm after going to hospital, I can't move it at all, so it's very uncomfortable to sit or try to sleep.

Thank you for being so kind :3 I hope you're well yourself and I wish you all the best! <3