#maybe ocd???

[x-crowart-x]

Okay turning to you guys because google isn’t helping and it’s a while til i see my psychiatrist. So I wanna preface that like all of this went away for the most part when I started anti psychotics, when i lowered my does recently it’s been coming back. I wanna know if this is just extreme paranoia or what the fuck it is.

So since for a few years i’ve had the idea of this specific woman who i can vaguely describe (never really seen her before) being in my house, like waiting for me around a dark corner, there as a ghost, in my closet, stuff like that. I call her my brain women cuz i make jokes about it. Anyways I’m always just waiting to see her, like i’ve decided she’s gonna be the one i see, i have a fears that for some reason she fills in the blanks of those fears (ex. fear of a person in my house, that person is her, i’m not just scared of her, she’s the place holding for the antagonist in the fear.)

Another thing is in dark windows I expect to see humanoid creatures (like the rake).

And the most recently developed one is when i’m outside at night I’m afraid of being attacked by a man with a weapon, but i usually think it’s gonna be this specific man i made up. I can also vaguely describe him like the women.

Feel free to ask me literally any questions, i’ll answer to the best of my ability. I just wanna know if anybody experiences this or knows what it could be.

[turtletoria]

one downside to digital mediums of art is that you cant see the tear stains (they just slide down the screen)

[saulathan]

Sure dirk strider

[gleafer]

THERE’S A NEW SEASON OF THE GREAT BRITISH BAKE OFF STREAMING!

You know what that means.

Will our hero FINALLY get The Paul Hollywood Handshake??? WILL HEEEE????

[lucabyte]

A belief in Nominative Determinsim

[joe-spookyy]

so glad it’s not illegal to use lycanthropy as a metaphor for obsessive compulsive disorder cause i’d be in jail big time…. but i’d still be right give me one werewolf character you can’t apply an ocd lens to. exactly you cant. it’s about the guilt and the lack of control and the feeling like you’re irreparably bad or a monster and the fear of hurting others and the anger and. it’s perfect.

[defire]

So I'm having a million of anxiety today and here's the result (it's always guns 🤦)

Guns

Content: gun threats, killing

Gun to whumpee's throat just close enough that their trachea presses against it when they swallow

Gun to skin but the metal is warm. Whumper had it in their waistband and now having it up to their skin, it feels almost intimate. Embarrassing.

Gun to lips. Aggressor: "Open." Victim tightens their lips shut. Aggressor: "do you want it clean, or do you want your teeth blown away too?"

Whumpee's team going down until it's just them, falling to their knees in an overwhelm of grief. Enemy leader walking toward them with a gun casually ready, and whumpee thinks they're next.

Victim already captured, walking in front of aggressor, who isn't sure they'll "behave". A gun is pressed in through victim's coat until finally victim finally feels it. They gulp and try not to look suspicious by glancing back at whumper.

Aggressor having a valuable whumpee lined up with other expendable prisoners. Walking down the line and shooting them for made-up reasons. When they get to whumpee, whumpee is trembling, trying to be "perfect", so they aren't next.

[morsobaby]

Socially unacceptable disabled and mentally ill people: I love you. You're being really brave. You in fact have a right to be like this, and you deserve to have people who understand you the way you are. I'm sorry you have to perform social acceptability rituals in order to not have the people around you ostracize and punish you. You deserve better. No matter how socially unacceptable, rude, "taking up space" or an "inconvenience" you are. I'm sorry everyone always sees you and your symptoms as obstacles to overcome or bothers that you need to take care of for them.

You deserve better

[coral-canary]

I need the world to see my vision of OCD An but the only way I feel I can accurately convey it is with this.

(There’s alt text if the text is hard to read, although idk if it’s formatted well….)

[jiraisupportgroup]

[charon-cries]

when OTHER people try to distract or comfort themselves, they call it "coping" and "self-soothing," but when i do it, it's a "mental compulsion" and "you have OCD"

[spirkbitch]

people who write spirk fics that are plotted and formatted like a tos episode but just with spirk included

i love you and i want to kiss you on the mouth

[theythemmer]

am i really a clique artist if i haven’t draw THE pic of tyler

[c-kiddo]

caleb has ocd to meeee , and yes , some of these behaviours are created from paranoia about very real dangers, but i think despite that all, he always feels safer when he creates rituals. clothes folded the same way Or Else, odd numbers or Else, distressed that frumpkin's whiskers are uneven (some fell out) and feels antsy until he re-summons frumpkin. he pats the doorframe or else he'll be found, lay down the silver thread, talk to each of tmn before bed, clench and unclench his jaw, cover himself in dirt so then he's dirty all over and not unevenly, pick the skin off his fingers, check the lock check the lock check the lock . etc etc

[narfin-frood]

Just realized something: Wander probably doesn't know his own name/backstory

During the episode where they were protecting some kids from Dominator, Wander seemed genuinely curious to hear what the oldest had to say since she claimed she knew the hero's "true backstory". He almost acted like it was possible for this random teenager to know his several thousand-year old history and seemed more curious than cautious for what it'd contain.

Seeing how traumatic his backstory was through his PTSD in the crystal room, it's entirely possible he repressed it completely! Especially knowing how young he was when it happened.

If Craig doesn't know Wander's backstory either then this feels like a possible explanation; what are your thoughts?

i didn't personally get the impression that he was excited to hear what she thought because he himself didn't know, i just think he wanted to hear a theory that didn't involve too much violence. he says near the end that setting their stories straight wasn't ever part of his plan, and he just wanted them to have some semblance of hope, no matter how inaccurate it was.

i think keeping his backstory vague is mainly a writing choice, since 1) it's easier to deal with than an expansive lore-drop in a largely lighthearted cartoon and 2) it keeps wander a lil mysterious, which is a really fun part of his character imho.

that said, i don't think it's impossible or even unlikely that wander himself is repressing some large chunks of his memory. maybe he's even been around for too long to even attempt remembering what happened way back When beyond fuzzy shapes and general feelings. since we'll never know what exactly happened to make him the way he is, or if there even is one specific event, it's up to whoever's writing the fanfic!

[puppppppppy]

AND I MET THE CHANGE GOD TOO. OKAY. COOL OKAY