#maybe ocd???

[x-crowart-x]

Okay turning to you guys because google isn’t helping and it’s a while til i see my psychiatrist. So I wanna preface that like all of this went away for the most part when I started anti psychotics, when i lowered my does recently it’s been coming back. I wanna know if this is just extreme paranoia or what the fuck it is.

So since for a few years i’ve had the idea of this specific woman who i can vaguely describe (never really seen her before) being in my house, like waiting for me around a dark corner, there as a ghost, in my closet, stuff like that. I call her my brain women cuz i make jokes about it. Anyways I’m always just waiting to see her, like i’ve decided she’s gonna be the one i see, i have a fears that for some reason she fills in the blanks of those fears (ex. fear of a person in my house, that person is her, i’m not just scared of her, she’s the place holding for the antagonist in the fear.)

Another thing is in dark windows I expect to see humanoid creatures (like the rake).

And the most recently developed one is when i’m outside at night I’m afraid of being attacked by a man with a weapon, but i usually think it’s gonna be this specific man i made up. I can also vaguely describe him like the women.

Feel free to ask me literally any questions, i’ll answer to the best of my ability. I just wanna know if anybody experiences this or knows what it could be.

[turtletoria]

one downside to digital mediums of art is that you cant see the tear stains (they just slide down the screen)

[saulathan]

Sure dirk strider

[gleafer]

THERE’S A NEW SEASON OF THE GREAT BRITISH BAKE OFF STREAMING!

You know what that means.

Will our hero FINALLY get The Paul Hollywood Handshake??? WILL HEEEE????

[lucabyte]

A belief in Nominative Determinsim

[eat-rock]

“nobody understands me” but not in the “edgy suffering from teenager syndrome mad at mom” kind of way, but the “lonely isolating young adult realization that the specific combination of mental illnesses and past experiences i’ve had have resulted in a pattern of behaviors that are often misinterpreted and misconstrued by others” type of way

[morsobaby]

Socially unacceptable disabled and mentally ill people: I love you. You're being really brave. You in fact have a right to be like this, and you deserve to have people who understand you the way you are. I'm sorry you have to perform social acceptability rituals in order to not have the people around you ostracize and punish you. You deserve better. No matter how socially unacceptable, rude, "taking up space" or an "inconvenience" you are. I'm sorry everyone always sees you and your symptoms as obstacles to overcome or bothers that you need to take care of for them.

You deserve better

[joe-spookyy]

so glad it’s not illegal to use lycanthropy as a metaphor for obsessive compulsive disorder cause i’d be in jail big time…. but i’d still be right give me one werewolf character you can’t apply an ocd lens to. exactly you cant. it’s about the guilt and the lack of control and the feeling like you’re irreparably bad or a monster and the fear of hurting others and the anger and. it’s perfect.

[jiraisupportgroup]

[charon-cries]

when OTHER people try to distract or comfort themselves, they call it "coping" and "self-soothing," but when i do it, it's a "mental compulsion" and "you have OCD"

[identitty-dickruption]

any other ocd-havers up feeling like something is inherently corrupt about them and their entire life is just one big scheme to cover that up or is it just me

[spirkbitch]

people who write spirk fics that are plotted and formatted like a tos episode but just with spirk included

i love you and i want to kiss you on the mouth

[theythemmer]

am i really a clique artist if i haven’t draw THE pic of tyler

[c-kiddo]

caleb has ocd to meeee , and yes , some of these behaviours are created from paranoia about very real dangers, but i think despite that all, he always feels safer when he creates rituals. clothes folded the same way Or Else, odd numbers or Else, distressed that frumpkin's whiskers are uneven (some fell out) and feels antsy until he re-summons frumpkin. he pats the doorframe or else he'll be found, lay down the silver thread, talk to each of tmn before bed, clench and unclench his jaw, cover himself in dirt so then he's dirty all over and not unevenly, pick the skin off his fingers, check the lock check the lock check the lock . etc etc

[puppyeared]

AND I MET THE CHANGE GOD TOO. OKAY. COOL OKAY

[sqwdkllr]

I like cleaning not bc it makes my house clean or bc I’m scared of messiness but of a very convoluted situation that if I were to explain to someone I will definitely get stared at