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maliciousalice · 5 months ago

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Could someone help me figure out why the old Diviner appears in the search party of the future that Dal disrupts. Shouldn't he be young too, like the flashbacks in season 1? This is strange to me if it's supposed to be 1:1 until the launch goes wrong. It doesn't seem like a mistake to have the old Diviner here.

#perhaps a surprise tool that will hinder us later? (s3)???#Is this actually Ilthuran on some kind of mission of his own to make sure things happen correctly #cos he was YOUNG in season 1 flash...err backs to this time frame where he and the Order sent ships through the wormhole #if it's parallel then why is his age different #maybe it doesnt matter and im reading into this too much #the other guard has weirdly similar hair tendrils to the young diviner why show that when they've all been covered.#They do reuse models but it seems so focused on two of them here at once #its probably nothing but im trying to figure this timeline thing out lol and they still had to launch ships through at some point..#anyway lmao no one could answer me #startrek prodigy spoilers #startrek prodigy #02x04 #star trek prodigy #star trek prodigy spoilers

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puppyeared · 5 months ago

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i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you

#im reading that post that says artists are directors of audience reaction and not its dictator:#'you cannot guarantee that everyone viewing your work will react as you are trying t make them react. a good artist knows that this is what #allows work to breath. by definition you cannot have art where the viewer brings nothing to the table ... this is why you have to let go of #the urge to plainly state in text exactly how you think the work should be interpreted ... its better to be misinterpreted sometimes than #to talk down to your audience. you wont even gain any control that way; people will still develop their opinions no matter what you do #im thinking abt this again cuz i was thinking maybe the thing that lets adventure time work so well the way it does is cuz it doesnt #take itself too seriously that it gives the audience enough room to fuck with subtext and then fuck with them back yknow. i think it was #mentioned somewhere that they werent even planning to run with the postapocalyptic elements that are hinted in the show but changed their #mind after the one off with the frozen businessmen and dominoed into marcy and simons backstory. on the other side there are stories that #explain too much to let the story speak for itself and i think it ends up having to do more with the crew trying to lead ppl in a certain #direction than expand on what they have and i see a lot of this with miraculous. like when interviews and tweets are used as word of god in #arguments and it becomes a little stifling to play around with it knowing the creator can just interject. u can say its the crews effort to #engage with its audience but it feels more like micromanaging. and none of this is to say there ISNT room for stories that spell things out #theyre just suited for different things. if sesame street tried abstract approaches to themes and nuance itd be counterproductive #a lot of things fly over my head so i need help picking things apart to get it- but it doesnt have to be from the story itself. ive picked #picked up or built on my own interpretations listening to other ppl share their thoughts which creates conversation around the same thing #sometimes stories will spell things out for you without being so obvious abt it that it feels like its woven into the text. my fav example #for this might be ATLA using younger characters as its main cast but instead of feeling like its dumbed down for kids to understand why war #is bad its framed from a childs point of view so younger audiences can pick up on it by relating to the characters. maybe an 8 year old #wont get how geopolitics works but at least they get 'hey the world is a little more complicated than everyone vs. fire nation'. same for #steven universe bc its like theyre trying to describe and put feelings into words that kids might not have so they have smth to start with #especially with the metaphors around relationships bc even if it looks unfamiliar as a kid now maybe the hope is for it to be smth you can #look back to. thats why it feels like these shows grew up with me.. instead of saving difficult topics for 'when im ready for it'#as if its preparing me for high school it gave me smth to turn in my hands and revisit again and again as i grow. stories that never #treated u as dumb all along. just someone who could learn and come back to it as many times as u need to. i loved SU for the longest time #but i felt guilty for enjoying it hearing the way ppl bash it. bc i was a kid and thought other ppl understood it better than me and made #feel bad for leaning into the message of paying forward kindness and not questioning why steven didnt punish the diamonds or hold them #accountable. but im rewatching it now and going oh. i still love this show and what it was trying to teach me #yapping #diary

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witchqueen · 4 months ago

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Does anyone have any tips to help stop yourself from comparing your artwork to others, or equating your value as an artist with likes and reblogs?

I've struggled with this for a while and it's getting old, I don't know how to just shrug it off. Any genuine advice would be nice

#its just bygging me bc i know rationally they dont matter i knoe they dont #but i still feel it in my bones that im not good enough because my work doesnt circulate on platforms #i paint for fun and then i post and i get these feelings and theyre so goddamn annoying #i know to just keep posting anyway and try to enjoy the ride but my Depression Brain is such an asshole #i wish it would be quiet #i never used to feel this way either until likes and reposts/reblogs became so integral to social media #on top of needing commissions to get by while looking for work and attending school soon #idk maybe this is just a vent and ik no one can Fix it that simply #i guess im just speaking 2 the void rn and maybe others feel the same #*bugging #and i really am so grateful just to know anyone likes it or comments on it and reading feedback really really means so much #but i feel like unless im pumping out specific fandom stuff that doesnt really happen #but the negative thoughts and feelings can b rly strong sometimes and im just tired #im sure this is a depression thing too #hoping i can get into therapy thru school but it depends on finances as everything else in this world does 🫠#ill keep going tho #and please if you are someone who does comment or reblog and say something about the work please do not ever stop #it means so much to me and others im positive it does #i see you and i appreciate you so so much #thank you and thank you to anyone who reads or comments some ideas

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sophiethewitch1 · 6 months ago

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ill be quite frank, fic is not something you are owed. fandom is a community and if you are constantly treating your artists/writers like shit they will stop. they get nothing from this other than community feedback (comments. im talking about comments here) and thats it. and if you make stuff remember: unless youre getting paid, they dont owe you shit!!!!!

#sophie speaks #that lore.fm thing is kinda #driving me crazy #the comments on tiktok... its like these people geniunely have never read a single fucking legal document #like bro the terms and service!!! dude theyre right there!!!! its not just like a weird captcha or something!!!!!!!!!!!#ai is geniunely such a plague to humanities creators #which should be everyone btw i dont care if you think youre bad i dont care if it embarrasses you you should know what its like to create #doesnt matter if only you ever see any of it you should do it #maybe im too much of a sap but i believe in cave paintings and song and dance and stories and a million other things #there is something innately better you can do than a robot can and that is have a soul. use it!

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ganondoodle · 2 months ago

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struggling again with extreme artblock and general demotivation (as in nothing seems fun or appealing and you sit around staring at nothing doing nothing bc apparently no matter what i do whether drawing or not drawing i end up like this now)

i started to watch skitties totk video (again) and wrote a big post about how much i hate how the gorons are treated there but saved it as a draft like i have been doing with several rants now in order to not spam people with it over and over

but it does end up feeling like talking to a wall and just kinda .. increasing this looming feeling of extreme loneliness i have been fighting with for .... since i left school really..

#ganondoodles talks #personal #i know i know this is my own doing #i never go out and have enormous trouble keeping in contact with people or answering messages #i never ever mean it mean #it feels like my battery is never above 10% charged no matter what i do #and answering messages often takes too much #which just makes this whole problem worse #its like a spiral making everything worse and idk how to fight it #maybe meds would help me #but if i have trouble even answering an ask i cant try to start the process of getting diagnosed with whatever hundreds of things-#-that are wrong with me #also being afraid of being put under surveillance or something for it doesnt help either #also fearing wrong meds doing wrong things bc i am weird #also afraid of not taking any meds bc that can reduce your lifespan if you are weird like me or something #which ........................... adds dread and guilt and doesnt help either #sometimes i wonder how i am evn still alive #the only reasons why are probably -luck- and being too much of a coward to end it all back when i was at the worst point of my life #bc i am not strong or resilient and getting through the worst .. so far .. hasnt made me stronger- just weaker and more pathetic #idk why im rambling all this in the tags- it must be exhausting to read .. i know it is #ill just go back to staring at a wall

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phagodyke · 1 month ago

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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍

#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man #thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking #mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they #dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done #listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life #i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this #once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i #dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this #ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be #i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about #how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being #given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out #entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please #its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have #to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once #and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general #feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this #but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is #i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired #i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if #i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore #i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr #and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning #my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better #it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood #my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it #cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen #.vent #ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.

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marsbotz · 5 months ago

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not going to lie i do find it quite upsetting that so many ppl think that animals that arent immediately relatable to humans are completely incapable of thought or feeling. and thats the only thing that matters when it comes to animal rights arguments a lot of the time

#like the take of ohhhh Well this animal is smart and shows emotions!!! it might even be smarter than humans!!!#as if that matters literally at all #like the argument abt fish or hamsters or w/e being stupid (wrong) so it doesnt matterrrrr if they dont get cared for properly #as if its ever ok to mistreat animals.#in general the idea around smaller or less relatable animals being worth less is super frustrating #like if u post abt microwaving ur hamster when u were 6 everyones like ‘lmaoooo i did the same thing’#but if u posted that abt a dog….? The Gallows #we shouldnt have to care abt mistreatment of animals bc theyre cute or funny or smart #i just watched blackfish again and it annoyed me how much ppl were arguing abt the orcas being so smart and emotional etc #which is true. but thats just smth that makes their captivity harder. u jnow. like if they were simple and had simple needs it would still #be wrong if they werent met #its just such a huge issue bc of how hard the needs are to meet in captivity #same as like. bears and shit. you physically cannot give them enough territory to stop them going insane #ik theres ppl who believe All captivity is wrong #like my strpmum is one who believes nobody should own Any pet #which is. Imo a stupid argument and not at all sustainable. ppl need companions thats why weve had dogs and cats for thousnads of years #but also they are such successful pets bc their needs are so easy to meet!!!!!#its this misconception that fish or rodents are Easy Beginners pets… in reality they are 100x harder. but their lives are worth less to ppl #bc they dont show love the same way #well. anyways im not very good at expressing my thoughts abt serious stuff #but its smth that rlly upsets me #its frustrating too bc ppl either dgaf abt animals aside from Maybe the cute ones or r too extreme in advocating for the freedom of animals #like u can absolutely give indoor cats proper enrichment. its just slightly more effort #and its not as simple as just. emptyinb out the zoos. READ ABT KEIKO!!!!!#i feel its a very interesting topic. but ppl r very b/w on it #idk i feel the majority of ppl know so little abt animals its like. impossible to get thru #like ok cool u think zoos r bad bc the lions get saddddd. but u also think snakes and bugs and rodents are nothing but disease spreaders #and cant also have complex lives #Tsk. Whateevr

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orcelito · 1 year ago

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Also remembering that I get to write wolfwood next chapter and I'm a widdle nervous bc this is a Big Moment and I only wrote him a little bit with Sentido and it's been 8 months since then

But im also REALLY excited bc I get to finally (FINALLY) start executing the vashwood concepts I'd thought up at the damned START of this fic

So much relationship development to get to. So much Wolfwood to get to. Very exciting things.