#maybe ill do smth with them for christmas

[chubmle2]

boom. hits ur gay guys with the relaxed ray

[philosophicallie]

also being short in the western world is fucking humiliating and not even in a compare your appearance way. its the fucking constant lack of fitting clothing because your proportions are so fucking short because you total up to fucking FIFTY FIVE!!!! 55 inches ONLY

small sized clothing will usually still have 4-5 excess inches for fucking standardization IM NOT THE STANDARD IM A STUPID SHORT ASIAN IMMIGRANT JUST LET ME HAVE SMALLER CLOTHES WITH SOME FUCKING DIGNITY

[kroosluvr]

i'm genuinely curious I WANT YOU to outline how the shu/ake/sumi romance/and-or/situationship would unfurl in a post-p5r reality (where akechi lives, of course). what are the bullet points for what would happen between them. would they have a falling out. are they doomed. would they be horrible at communicating. would they finally be good at it. which pairing comes together first, if any at all. or would all 3 pairings happen at the same time at the same pace. or are they all in a limbo, not romantic nor platonic but a secret third thing.

OMG HI. HIIIII ok so. i havent actually thought about it that much (SURPRISING I KNOW) because i honestly suck ass at timelines (in regards to canon. tennis au on the other hand...) BUT I WILL DO MY BEST a lot of this is loose too.... im totally up for most anything but this is how i see it most of hte time heheeh (TY FOR THE ASK I LOVE THINKIJGN ABT THESE 3.)

this is .. kinda.. long.. ahem

pre-p5r: sumire is acquainted with goro thru her dad's show: they're not friends, but she's talked with him more than her sister. so when goro meets 'kasumi' at the cafe something strikes him as odd but it doesn't quite register: like ehhhh well why should i care / maybe my memory is just wrong / not worth my time

during p5r: 'kasumi' has a crush on akira, a kind of on-the-surface adoration of "wow i think you're really cool and we get along well!" nothing that's super advanced on or anything, and akira doesn't see her as anything beyond friends anyway.

she drops the crush upon reverting back to sumire, and it builds slowly over the course of 3rd sem but is also never really actualized - like she likes him ok whatever but then what..??

3rd sem (long winter au): long winter barebones: maruki's idealized world starts like on christmas or smth (havent thought this out TOO much LOL) and royaltrio-centric part of 3rd sem lasts for quite a while, at least 3 weeks-1 month. how does this work w the timeline i have no idea. BUT it leads to tense moments like spending new years together with the idealized thieves and trying to stay upbeat during all that, all the attempts and failures at breaking them out of it, and a LOT of tension during this time.

they argue and fight and are irritated with each other a lot of the time (goro the most vocal abt it obviously, sumire kind of drawing back into herself, and akira doing his best to stay optimistic. i think when akira starts to lose his spark is when the others r like oh we gotta make up for that slack and they finally up their game a bit) and yeah even sumire argues with akira and with goro and etc. im figuring this out PROMSIE ill come up w stuff and draw comic/write fic for it...

also 1/9 sumire fight is probably the beginning moment when goro starts to respect sumire more/see her more as a friend/comrade than a teammate. bc she almost kills joker and then him LMAO really giving them a run for their money... and also he really sees the pain she feels at being herself and resonates with it, either unconsciously or consciously

also upon seeing her Past broadcasted on maruki live television:tm: he makes the connection and is like oh so that's what happened. so all this time she was just masquerading as someone else. hmmm

anyway they're all very fragile and scared and sad during 3rd sem so they stick to eachother closely bc they're all they got to lean on. i think they have a lot of skinship during this time? handholding hugs leaning on each other sleeping in the same room (they hang out at leblanc A LOT bc 1) they're kind of afraid of being alone during this time 2) they're afraid of the OTHERS being alone during this time 3) leblanc is "untouched", compared to other parts of maruki's reality. can u imagine if even goro's apartment suddenly became nice overnight LMAO) but its like no feelings attached, just pure comfort kinda thing

kissing could also happen during this time but also no feelings attached, purely Why the hell not etc sort of vibe.

also goro and sumire get on first name basis during this time. this comic i drew w goro dying in my head which is Why he initiates first-name basis, but we can operate off the idea that he thought he'd die but somehow magically didnt. YAY!

but they have impeccable communication w each other and are very honest with their feelings. (goro avoids talking about his past tho. so maybe not THAT honest.) but they all achieve a really strong understanding of each other to survive maruki's winter wonderland...

i do think they develop feelings for each other during this time but they're all confused whether it's feelings of like comfort/security with each other or like romance/yay. so like nightmare situationship basically. so they all individually decide to hold on to this happiness while it lasts bc they sure as hell know it won't last (when have any of them been able to keep good things)

3rd sem: the thieves join yay! i think they'd notice that the 3 of them have become very close-knit (bouncing off eachother insanely well in battle, talk to eachother casually, and are generally pretty affectionate with each other. weird but ok! at least they (akira goro.) aren't trying to kill each other all the time.

this is also nice for sumire bc she had those 3-4 weeks to kinda Figure herself (sumire) out btwn akira and goro so she's less like down in the dumps about not being 'kasumi' anymore and more secure in herself and stuff like that. yay!

they beat maruki and stuff. YAY!

post-p5r: akira moves back to his hometown for 3rd year of highschool and college, goro is who-knows-where (i imagine he gets back on his feet of his own making and then goes abroad for school somehow. idk just seems like smth he'd do esp since i think he'd avoid everyone during this time) and sumire stays at shujin for 2-3rd year, then probably goes to a uni in japan but goes abroad for 1-2 yrs (gymnastics and etc.)

the "goro doesn't die and reunites with akira/sumi" timeline

goro, walking into leblanc on 2/4 or whatever: hi guys i didn't die actually

sumire: haha why would u silly? lol

akira: WHAT THE FUCK

the end.

i think they do go to separate universities though and theyre like damn wait i miss those guys but they go thru school and keep pretty decent contact w each other and see each other during vacations and stuff when they can and then when they come back to tokyo it's like no time has passed btwn them and they just pick up where 3rd sem left off but like better and happier and more peaceful. YAY!

i haven't really thought of how they "CONFESS" or whatever but i think all of them just feel (TWINGE OF JEALOUSY) at the idea of any of them dating someone else so theyre like ok well thats that i guess. we're a thing now (they refuse to use any other terms like that i think. For a while at least. until maybe one of the thieves etc gets engaged/married and then theyre like ok we can grow up about this. but basically they're just A Thing and Offlimits:tm: and etc.)

COMMUNICATION IS GOOD HERE!!!! i think for sh/uakes/umi i prefer them becoming a Thing at once rather than 1 couple happening first (esp since i like the idea of "none of them rlly understand romance and stuff so they just say 'fuck it' and become Thing" like thats kinda funny asf to me.)

i also feel like to anyone else they just seem like a group of besties until u see exchanged kisses or hugs or interlocked arms/hands and ur like wait....? hm. well idk. (bc they don't either. no one has any idea)

the "goro doesn't die and avoids them" timeline

also in my head sumire doesn't endeavor for the olympics/world stage/international fame and just kinda sticks around national rankings while she still figures herself out (in this timeline. also probably true for the other one but shrug IT CLD GO EITHER WAY I THINK)

somewhat relevant is my shsm fic where i elaborate on sumire's emotions more during this time (especially while thinking goro's dead). <- actually this is pretty recommended cele sumire reading bc this basically totally encapsulates how i see her. the first oneshot is 6k words tho ITS A MOUTHFUL.. SORRY

she and akira drift farrrr apart. she feels extremely guilty and also bitter and frustrated about goro's death and the fact that akira didn't tell her (or goro, in fact.) and he feels guilty and sad about it too, that he should have done something? anything? for him or for her, and he couldn't figure it out and now its over. so now the two of them r grappling w this and trying to overcome it and forget each other even tho the memories during 3rd sem, although painful and haunting, still were sweet and nice and they don't want to forget but they HAVE TO MOVE ON... RIGHT....

meanwhile goro's probably thinking like "damn i miss those guys." but they also think he's dead so hes also like "this is stupid i have to move on(?) Or whatever." ok imma be honest i didnt really think THAT much into goro's thinking during this time (YET.) bc i think he'd be floundering a LOT with everything during his life and being kinda just miserable.

also during this time they try to date other people and it all is miserable and falls apart and also they havent forgotten about the other two so theyre like fuck.

akira - 25~, sumire - 24~, goro - 26~, eventually goro moves back to tokyo and kinda just goes about his life hoping he'll see them again. or maybe find out what they were up to and finally get some closure. wow he does! they kinda all go back to tokyo at the same time wow shocker soulmate things IM JOKINGGGG but they all kinda hold that sentimentality of ok so much time has passed maybe i'll feel better about this place now. and then when they run into each other again its like no time has passed at all. HAPPY ENDING YAY!

communication is less good in this timeline now they're healing from the "I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD" stuff. so thats a whole nother can of worms. probably ironically in this universe they try to actualyl figure out how this whole romance thing works so they can label each other as partners and be like OK DONT RUN OFF AGAIN. ANY OF U!!! DO NOT!!!!

ok this shit is so long im so sorry. HI. SDGSHKJFHJKDSHG THANK U SO MUCH FOR THE ASK IM BAWLING i really havent thought much of post-3rd sem stuff as u can tell........... but i WILL ipromise.

edit: LAST ADDENDUM im very passionate abt shsm being nightmare situationship. guys who never got together but got divorced 50 times. sh/uake fits into this category as well i think. i can also kinda see ak/esumi like that but ironically i feel like they'd have the most stable situationship out of the 3 individual ships..... idk.. need to let it all cook in my head a bit more BUT VERY PASSIONATE ABT THE SHSM THING.

[shsunderland]

Hey! I heard the news about the game! I'm just here to say my thanks, because lord knows this community has been waiting for something new for years now. You tackling an entire game is admirable and I only wish the best of luck for you!

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Anyways, since you wanted plot holes, I'll drop some here for you:

● Dusekkar doesn't know Scriptliss is in his trash can.

● Antagon kinda caused a war and killed someone but only got a month's worth of community service. (I'd either lessen his crimes or actually make him face the consequences)

● While on that topic, how did Antagon even steal the plot book anyway?

● Plus, how did Antagon learn of Scriptliss? And why didn't he do anything with him when he released him in the first place?

● How did Scriptliss end up in the middle of a forest when he got released?

● Tucker doesn't have a reason for why he wants to infiltrate Rozanda's ship.

● Antagon has no established motivation. He also lacks consistency. (Naive enough to not realize he's harming people while simultaneously starting a war to "cut short the supply of able-bodied soldiers...")

● Antagmom doesn't know her son is a war criminal.

● Dusekkar wasn't there for Tess' death and got the news in a random shop. Not a plot hole, just something really weird.

● The inconsistencies of the people who know the sages. ----> Scriptliss knows Lanter is a sage but doesn't know that his best friend, Tess, is a sage. ----> Otempes spontaneously gained the knowledge that the third door shouldn't be opened, and he knows Tess?? ----> The dialogue is weird and made it seem like Dusekkar only knows Lanter is a sage and not the others. Personally, I'd just simplify it so that only the sages know other sages, and maybe Dusekkar knows them all. It makes no sense for Scriptliss to know the sage thing about Lanter after meeting him just once.

● Literally, what is Cogen. Mind reading how??

● The villain's motivation and them not questioning the fact they're working for a child.

● Aristris being down for killing Tretone and not facing jail time for it.

● Tretone died and they turned his dead body into a fucking Christmas tree lol

● Scriptliss performing in a concert shortly after Tess' death. Also... they invited the villains to play as well... They should all be in jail.

That's about all I can think of.

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Also, regarding your theory about Lanter. I think you're pretty spot on! But also, I'd like to think it was a culmination of things that ruined their relationship, maybe something as simple as them having different ideologies and that slowly growing into bigger and bigger disagreements. The dethroning of the old gods was probably the last straw.

I feel that Lanter's thing with Equinox needs a big of tweaking by the way. After all, Lanter denounced Equinox in the same sentence that he said he sided with him. So it would be odd that he'd hate Dusekkar because of Equinox even though he himself doesn't like Equinox either. Hope that makes sense!

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Make the game 2d. That's all I have to say regarding that.

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Sorry for the long message, it took me a bit to get this all down. I hope you have a nice time working on the game, I know these things can be difficult, especially with the source material being as convoluted as it is. Good luck! And stay strong, you have my blessing! 💪

Ohh mmyyyy godd tysm for this message actually Ive been having trouble getting all the plot holes together 🙏 i can’t promise that ill fill spr plot holes bc the game im planning on doing is before spr but ill try to do smth 🫡

Also yeah tackling an entire game is probably an insane idea for me but honestly as someone who has absolutely loved paper roblox ever since 2016 im a bit excited to actually start working on it.

It probably will take me a really long time too (i mean i am asking a family member who is skilled at using blender and roblox studio but still) but ty for the blessings and also the list of plot holes 🙏❤️

[hughesquinn]

Are there any fics you want to talk about in particular? Is there something you’ve been working on or haven’t started but have been thinking about that are giving you brainworms?

THANK U ANON okay so like. i actually have a lot of fic ideas i Want to write but just. absolutely have not written so im giving u a LIST

and btw all of these fics would hopefully be at LEAST 10k so I can explore them enough <3 adding a break bc I talked so much

- COLLEGE AU WITH THE DEVILS!!!! so specifically. this would be with jack because we all know im a whore for him. this would primarily focus on him in college + getting together with nico. like i would want it to be dealing with a semester in college (or an entire year) where he starts the semester and meets nico, a new foreign exchange student and then his teacher sits him at a table with nico and says he can help him

so then ofc they become friends and jack introduces him to his friends and THEN. winter break and nico cant go home for break (? strange reason id figure it our) so jack offers to bring him to his house for break

and so then how i decide what happens after this depends on whether it would be just a semester + winter break fic or year long fic bc if its just winter break fic,,, then nico shares jacks room, they do a lil flirting You Know How It Is. and then on Christmas he gives jack a gift and jack realizes then that he is actually in love with him and then they fuckin kiss under a mistletoe like the cliched bitch i am

- GIRL JACK!!!! so i Have started this fic and I think i have close to 1k for it but it is smth im obsessed with as i am also mostly a female (gender is weird LOL) but so really my plan for this is just broadly follow career from draft to now but obv. rewrite what i please and have jack be girl

and then of course. i would focus on her + brothers bc i am Like That and i would want to forcibly include some of the canucks also being like protective older brothers to her

like. I want to have a scene of jack luke nico + marino and then quinn brock elias and one other guy maybe? going out after the first hughesbowl and then some dude is creepy as hell to jack (possibly when quinn goes to restroom? and jack is at the bar? idk) but id just want to add the canucks being like older bros to her <3

but i would try to primarily also focus on how HARD it would be for her. like in this au specifically she is the first girl to join the nhl and the ONLY one and i mention how insane the pressure is since she is also #1 pick so. ya <3

- CIFFEE SHOP AU!!!

I actually have notes for one in my phone im such a whore for them <33

^ that plan is from January so likely if i do this id update it and shit but ya that is basically an au <3

- and finally (bc ive talked so much)…. RETAIL AU. like i fucking despise retail so much and id want to take it out on the devils. but imagine…. Jack and nico as coworkers…. there is mf Tension between them…. luke joins and he is cashier :]

and then also there would be a point where luke goes on his break so jack takes over the register and some guy fuckin yells at him <3 because jsck asks for id because he’s buying alcohol bc it is the law <3 and guy yells at him so much he cries (is just me venting LMAOO)

but yaya ill stop now bc ive talked so much

[altruistic-meme]

hhhgh it kind of sucks that my mother is so frugal sometimes actually

[happyendingsong]

my last job basically offered me my old job back and idk what to doooo

[bodyinthebog]

kind of???? A rant in the tags please ignore I just needed to vent lmao

[christopherwilde]

It is meee!!! I love the idea of dressing up your pets in xmas sweaters lol. I do kind of wonder whether it stays still though? That must be a ride. And i also love reading xmas romance books AND yes, I do enjoy those cheesy netflix movies as well. As for your question, this might be cliche but I think Starstruck would make for a fun holiday movie. Like maybe christopher is forced to perform at like idk the local xmas fair in jessica's hometown to redeem his troubled image, and Jessica is like in charge of the planning or smth but she absolutely despises it...at first, of course. And the rest is history.

Anyways, for my question of the day: favourite holiday movies ? (Disney channel or not)

no i agree! what’s so funny is the reason i stopped working on my starstruck fic (aside from mental illness) is because i was trying to figure out how to make it holiday related and that was one of the concepts i explored alkalakakkskdf but also i really want to think the bailee madison starstruck is like that (not that i have watched because i hate starstruck rip offs and lowkey her) but also i’ll have to investigate the hallmark movies to see if they have one but yes it’d be such a cute plot i love them in anything

as for my favorite holiday movie i really love all those puppet ones (like rudolph, year without a santa claus, ect.), mickey mouse twice upon a christmas, and iron man 3 (of course)

i’ll have to think of a other holiday movies because i don’t really watch them outside of hallmark i just watch a bunch of movies around the holidays if that makes sense alakalakkakdkf thank you angel 💜

[manias-wordcount]

any anime you haven't written for that you'd like to write for?

so i had answered this same question a while ago but obv my answer updated soooooooooo lemme give a little rundown of some of the old and something(s) new:

old list!

more ghibli movies! those movies are just so cute so doing and writing some soft fluffy things like the guys from the movies bc theyre just cute.

kakegurui! i would like to maybe do something with characters from this show but im not too sure tbh. it feels generally like a hard series to write for that stays true to the story but ill have to see if still am all that interested in writing for this show.

sword art online! i wanted to write something for the 10 year aniversay (oops) but i totally forgot about it until like 8pm on the day (oops again) but the fact that i only watched the first season is kinda a big limiter for me tbh.

new list!

blue lock! just started this show (im on episode 2 WHAHAHAHAH) and i really like it so far. lots of guys who i can totally imagine having a super supportive s/o who loves to watch them play and worries constantly for their career so maybe when i actually know what the show is about i’ll write for it

chainsaw man! except im only going to write about taking pochita for a walk. highkey lowkey not joking tbh. i “read” most of the manga and seeing the show has given me a greater appreciation for the characters but unironically pochita is still the main reason why i keep going. the little panels and moments of his dumb face is just everything.

the devil is a part timer! THIS WAS MY SHOW BACK IN THE DAY and i always though maou’s basic ass design was cute as fuck. also the girls in here are cute so that might be fun to write about. idk though, just a thought AHAH

but there’s also a lot of shows on my list that im trying to knock out. things like tokyo revengers, demon slayer, tokyo ghoul, bleach, jujutsu kaisen, mob psycho. you know... the works. okay that was a list of a bunch of popular shows that i probably will never remember to watch. but i pick up shows randomly and i decide based on how much i like the characters or the development to see if i write for a series. so dont be surprised christmas time if you see smth new from this list or something completely from left field. or if there’s a new game that i find that i love. then that might make this list too

also anyone has any show reccs, please let me know heheheh (bonus points if there’s some boring ass looking brunette [with or without issues, either way- i can fix him] in the cast somewhere. that’s my weakness.)

[heleizition]

first of all, your art is so beautiful 🥺 and if you have the time, i would love to know more about your au ideas! perhaps some more hc or details in the farm au or stalker one! ofc only if you feel like sharing :)

THANK UUU SOBS ;;_;;

ill just go and ramble about the farm au which is my Default State...

☼ ok so ive drawn jay roy and tim with jay’s jacket on him for the farm au and i dont think i gave context so : for reminders, jason goes to college at the end of the summer tim gets adopted, but they get really close. tim is 14, jason is 18, and roy is 20 but very close to jason as well and after an argument with ollie abt addictions flees to jason’s appartment in the city, like, in october ? november ? of that same year. they’re basically roommates and also pinning after one another, and tim takes the bus to come see jason on week ends sometimes, like, after christmas that year (because he realises even if he has warmed up to the rest of the family, hes just much more comfortable w jason and sometimes he just needs to see him sobs....) so like tim is there every other week ends and when he’s on vacations too and jason’s friends (roy, kory, artemis & bizarro whos human name is bill ive decided) have all basically adopted him,,, one time all of core four comes up to the city and both groups hang out together for the whole week end,,,, shenanignas,,,, 

anyway that specific piece of jay n roy with tim is one time when tim is 15/16 and went to the city alone and he arrived late at night and jay and roy are supposed to come fetch him but they’re Late for Reasons and someone corner tim in a corner for his wallet or his phone or smth worse and tim gets hit when he panics and doesnt do anything just before jay n roy arrive n Rescue him,,, roy sees the situation and just bodyslam the guy into he wall and jason drags tim (and then roy) away..... they protecc

☼ cassie gets in fights at school (and out of school) a lot and she pretends that she keeps the bandaids for bart who is a magnet for little objects that gives him little cuts but actually she uses them more on herself,,,, shes hot tempered a lot,, mellows out a bit around her 17th bday. she just has a lot of anger issues and sometimes its hard to manage but u know what always work ? one of the boys jst petting her head while she lays it on their lap. just. soft. shes upset and angry ? conner just grabs her and make her lay down and breath a bit. sometimes she cries and she doesnt know why either. shes just doing her best :(

☼ so im not sure what im doing with damian yet bc i kinda want him to be growing with the rest of the family rather than arrive at 10 years old... idk about cassandra either................ i think i want her to arrive the year after tim, she’d be 16 by that time so maybe its a bit old ??  anyway she’s great and amazing and There and idk waht to do with her yet but . ill find out

[rosiethots]

K so i hc as richie comn from a rlly big family so imagine richie taking eddie to a family event (like christmas dinner or smth) and eddie refuses (he argues w richie over it “baby theyll love u, stop trying to act scary”/“no im gonna wear my studded leather jacket, fuck off and let me do my eyeliner”) and shows up looking super badass and everything but all of richies younger cousins r super intrigued by him bc of it and

he softens up like instantly like “idk what the FUCK ur talking about but of course ill play cars with you” and richies grandparents are just watching this hardass punk kid make ‘vroom vroom’ noises and let toddlers climb all over him. All of his aunts and uncles fucking ADORE him even if he starts the “so what are your opinions on the 2016 election” and “womens rights, how about em?” Conversations over dinner

JDNDJMDKDNDJFN BUT THIS IS SO CUTE

eddie looking like a demon and richie’s grandparents are like,,,,, Oh,, Nice to meet you, and all of richie little cousins are looking at eddie with wide eyes

so a little bit after dinner the oldest cousin (he’s like eleven) walks up to eddie and very quietly asks Is It True You’re A Warlock? and eddie just ?????? n he’s like Um No Where’d You Get That Idea? n the kid’s like Richie Told Us That You Fight Ghosts n Monsters n You Dress Like That Bc It’s Scares Them and eddie kinda wants to wring richie’s neck but at the same time,,,, Argh I Told Richie To Keep It A Secret, You Can’t Tell Anyone n the kid’s like !!!!! I Promise I Won’t !!!! n Eddie’s giggling bc this kid’s So Excited n he’s asking all these questions and eddie’s having a Blast talking to him.

and then two of the younger cousins (like five and six) are tip toeing up bc they’ve been watching eddie and the other kid talk and eddie seems really nice so they ask if they can play too and Eddie’s like Of Course!! bc eddie’s always had a soft spot for kids so they pull him over to their play area and there’s lego blocks and toy cars and action figures and they think eddie is So Cool bc he knows the names of the action figures and he knows their powers!!!

and maybe eddie slips out of his leather jacket and the eleven yr old puts it on (and eddie is kinda flustered because it honest to god fits this prepubescent child) and richie is giggling at the side bc of you gave this little group just a passing glance you might miss the fact that there’s a whole ass nineteen year old playing along with these kids and it’s so adorable and the Adults sneak up to watch eddie play with the kids and they have these shocked (but fond) smiles on their faces and they’re saying how good eddie is with kids

which leds richie to very loudly declare Thats Why He’s Gonna Be The Mother To My Children which earns him a toy car to the forehead courtesy of eddie

[transrightsjimin]

just how do ppl motivate themselves to take showers regularly TT_TT i try to keep track of which days i shower or wash my hair on this week schedule form but im not keeping it up enough. i think showering more is supposed to make me feel better but ironically now that ive done it thrice this week nd washed for most of the other days i STILL feel awful but thats more bc of my nausea acting up nd lack of sleep nd anger at family nd frustration w racism against minorities in this fandom tht pretends to be super friendly nd cool despite not batting an eye at actual issues within in, nd just. all the anxieties abt money nd the future nd feeling helpless nd idk if ill ever get better or if the world will ever get better. again i know i know i shouldnt let shit devastate me but radicalize me instead but its hard when im not engaging much w a positive environment aside from being comfortable w my friend / housemate nd maybe a few mutuals nd friends i rant to who r also in deep shit (nd rly shouldnt dump all ny worries). like im just so fucking tired nd trying to get help from the municipality w getting a job has taken like HALF A YEAR now and i still didnt hear back from them bc they said it would be before christmas. and i rly dont fucking care abt christmas and wish everyone would just stay the fuck home instead of do family gatherings just bc it's legal, but urgh whenever ppl tell me 'have a nice holiday' it's always just???? wait u have 2-3 weeks off??? oh right vacations r a thing. nd i rly need a proper job if only to get a fucking break eventually instead of get stuck in this im-working-but-it-doesnt-earn-enough limbo, plus i of c have so far worked more days in the holidays bc that's when more help is needed in mail delivery so hearing abt the concept of holidays sounds so bizarre. i mean i did always feel super depressed in holidays bc i had no more structure so tuats also not good but i basically already live like that now except i cant afford to rest, according to my mind at least. but i also dont do anything bc idk how to break w patterns nd do smth unknown.

[sunsetsover]

any headcanons for protective!ben and protective!callum??

i don’t see either of them being particularly protective tbqh. i feel like they both know the other can hold their own and look after themselves so i doubt they would feel the need to be particularly protective over each other (outside of like normal protective stuff) 

but i do think there would be certain circumstances that would bring out that protective streak in both of them:

ben protective streak will come out big time when people are homophobic around callum - even when they’re not being homophobic towards him or callum; even if it’s just like that ‘nan you can’t say things like that’ breed of homophobia. even if it’s something that he might just let go of or even play up to if he were alone - if he’s with callum he will immediately get super defensive. almost aggressively so.

it’s partly because he knows callum isn’t at a place where he can just shrug off comments like that the way ben himself might be able to now (because he knows how much even the most innocuous comment can destroy you and all the progress you’ve made), but it’s also a lot to do with what happened to paul. after something like that, he’s just very defensive and maybe paranoid that the same thing will happen again, which makes him very, very protective (perhaps overprotective) of callum.

and while callum knows it comes from a place of care and love and that ben just wants to keep him safe, it gets to the point where he has to pull him to the side after he completely overreacts to some ill-judged comment someone made and be like ‘ben, you can’t keep doing this. you can’t fight the whole world for me.’ and ben’s like ‘i will if i have to’ and it’s so sweet that callum almost forgets he has a point to make lmao

but then he just takes ben by the shoulders and looks him in the eyes and is like ‘i’m not paul, you know? what happened to him was awful, but that doesn’t mean the same thing is gonna happen to me’ and ben doesn’t even deny it, just quietly goes ‘you don’t know that’ and callum’s like ‘ben, nothing is going to happen to me, alright? i’m not going anywhere.’

and ben just crumbles so callum pulls him into his arms and holds him there and whispers reassurances and promises into his hair until he calms down :-(

yes i went on a bit of a tangent but you can’t tell me ben wouldn’t be absolutely petrified that what happened to paul is going to happen to callum and make super protective of callum when it comes to homophobia as a result :-(

and callum!!! callum generally isn’t a very aggressive person, is he? he’s not someone who likes confrontation. however!!!! all of that goes out of the window when ben’s in a vulnerable state - be in physical or emotional. 

and i mean like he will become Proper Protective. like you know those mother lions who will literally Fight You to the Death if you try and get near her babies? well that’s callum with vulnerable ben. it brings out a side of him people rarely get to see.

he’s also pretty defensive of ben in general actually, like when he hears people criticising ben or talking shit about him (especially behind his back when ben isn’t there to defend himself) he’s very quick to defend him….. bc he’s not stupid. he realizes ben hasn’t always been a good guy and has done some pretty shitty things in his time. but he also knows that ben has been through a lot of shit that has damaged him - and that has manifested in some bad ways, yes, but ben is inherently a good guy with a good heart who cares about the people he loves a lot so maybe if you got off your high horse and stopped assuming the worst of him all the time you’d realize that 😤😤

but yeah idk i just keep imagining this scene in my head of some point down the line where phil is back to not really giving a shit about ben (bc given history, we know his love and respect for his son can only last so long lmao) and being his usual dickish self and shitting all over ben in front of the whole family at like christmas or smth bc phil doesn’t give a fuck who hears like has he ever…. and phil’s just being phil and laying into him and like….. callum doesn’t want to insert himself into ben’s business w his dad but at the same time he can only sit there biting his tongue while phil lays into ben for so long…. especially when he sees ben start deflating and shrinking under his dad’s barrage of Shit

and no one expects callum to be the one to stand up and try to shut phil down but he is!! because how the fuck can everyone else just sit there quietly and watch him tear ben to shreds!! how is no one jumping to his defence!! they should all be ashamed of themselves honestly (he doesn’t say that part, but he definitely thinks it)

and he lowkey kinda lays into phil…….. basically calls him a hypocrite and tells him he should be proud of who his son is instead of constantly making him feel like he isn’t worth anything all the fucking time…. because ben is a good dad and a good man who looks after his family….. but phil doesn’t care about that, does he? he’d rather have ben jumping through all his hoops, bc he knows that he will do it just to please him.

and phil (and everyone else tbf) is so stunned he can’t even really argue back like the man’s in shock……. and then callum very politely turns to sharon and thanks her for the lovely meal, excuses himself from the table and just straight up leaves the building because like…….. what the fuck did he just do

but ben runs after him and stops him in the street and kisses him stupid right then and there bc no one has ever really done that for him before, not to his dad, and it means the fucking world to him honestly. (and perhaps he got a little teary eyed hearing callum talk about him but they don’t talk about that)

like it’s stupidly unrealistic i know but i would give my life to see callum properly stand up to phil in defence of ben i swear to god if it ever happened i would just pass away right where i’m at

yeah so maybe not the protective headcanons you wanted but this is my opinions on it :-) i just think they’d be more defensive of each other, rather than protective, if that makes sense??

[szopenhauer]

Do you like Chanel purses? no

When was the last time you had Pepsi? ages ago

Do you know anyone with exaggeratedly big muscles? not personally

What is your favorite endangered animall? elephant

Can you name someone with the same last name as you? my parents

Who was the last person to scream your name? ...

By the way, that wasnt meant to be perverted.  too late  I have no idea why I thought about that - no one ever screamed my name this way and nobody ever will :x

Do you struggle to articulate your thoughts and feelings? it seems Name something that you are doing tonight. nothing and I realized that I don’t want to go to sleep more than ever before, I just don’t want to wake up tomorrow and yet I’m scared of dying (suffering)

Do you like the smell of a barbecue? nah

Would you date an 18 year old at the age you are now? too young for me Are you more likely to show affection through your words or your actions? words I guess Do you have an easy time falling asleep? I wish Are you a crier? crybaby Do you like to wear makeup? no Do you have a high tolerance for people? pfft Do you like your bed? why not How many times have you been to the ER? few

Are you wearing shorts? basically never

Do you eat randomly, just whenever the hell you want? ...

Did you have trouble getting up this morning? yeah What’s a few things that automatically make you go, “Awww”? cute little dogs Do you have soft hands? Do you like holding hands? do I? I like to hold hands tho What’s your opinion on perfumes that are REALLY expensive?  dumb, I hate perfume but expensive - that is ridiculous! Have you ever really hated a teacher and practically made it clear you did? Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know. Are you a little bit cautious around horses? Do they scare you a bit? I’m just a cautious person in general  If you could live next door to ANYONE, who would you want to live beside? love of my life, I mean - we can live together but for now it would be cool if we were neighbors at least, you know what I mean? Do you think your friends are pretty? Do your friends think your pretty? what friends... Are you currently worried about your parents finding out about something? maybe mom about that one particular thing that starts on S and ends with X

What is your opinion on air pollution? less cars!

Were you forced to read ‘The Odyssey’ in high school? from what I remember

Who was the last person to come visit you? M.

When was the last time you shaved your legs? recently

Do you own any superhero shirts? nope

What is your opinion on the “Team Edward/Team Jacob” shirts? I dislike Twilight

If you had to teach a class, what would you teach? if I really had to then art

How did your parents meet each other? personal

What profession do you think is the most under-appreciated? garbage collectors, those who clean the streets or hospitals, postmen etc.

Have you ever drawn on someone while they were sleeping? don’t do that

Does time really heal all wounds? Or is that just a trivial saying? trivial saying

Where is your favorite place to take a nap? I don’t do naps but my bed

Would you rather lose all your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? not be able to make new

Have you ever swerved off the road to avoid hitting an animal? I don’t drive

What’s a tradition you hope never dies out? it’s a secret

Do you have any exes you’d consider dating again? I’m dating my ex 

Have you ever went a year without getting your hair cut? yes Do you think you could go a week without sugar? without sweets? I already do, I don’t even drink tea with sugar  Would you be willing to go one day each week without meat? absolutely Do you feel comfortable telling people how much you weigh? whatever Are you any good at sewing? I know basics Have you looked at any old photos of yourself lately? this year Do you carry a calculator around with you everywhere? I don’t need it that often Do you like to plan things out or just go with the flow? plan but not strictly

Do you garden at all? If so, what types of things do you grow? I help my parents which I find pointless because there is always much more work than results Do you consider cooking to be an art? when done right How many pairs of sunglasses do you own? too many considering that I barely wear ‘em ^^” Are you a fast or slow reader? fast Would you ever spend $500 on concert tickets? hell no Do you know anyone who looks like you? there was a gal who was similar to me on tumblr but younger than me, I lost contact with her  Do you get nervous when you go to the doctor?  yeah :( Are you a short tempered person? oh well...

Does it take a lot to gross you out? I’m easily grossed out  Last time you seen an ocean: never saw ocean in person Do you collect sea shells? not as much as I used to

What is one change you need to make in your life this month? lets not talk about it, ok?

Would you have sex with the last person you texted? done Are you planning on kissing anyone tomorrow evening? she’s gonna be busy working Do you require a lot of private time? yasss Have you ever told a guy you were a lesbian to get him to leave you alone? it’s because I’m a lesbian lmfao If you have a favorite television show, who’s your favorite character? in my most fav shows plot was more important to me than characters tbh, it’s hard to explain, I hope I’m not the only one who thinks this way haha but in Buffy I didn’t like Xander and Angel was annoying even though he was necessary, I wasn’t a fan of Faith and didn’t understand Riley existence in the universe, also Dawn changed a lot for worse but I swallowed it with patience, in Call the midwife I felt crappy when they took Chummy and Jenny away, I didn’t watch newest episodes so I have no idea who Lucille and Valerie are, I horribly miss sister Evangelina :(

What’s the best part about flying? don’t ask me, I’ve never been on a plane

Did you ever watch Sailor Moon? fragments

Chocolate or Vanilla ice cream? vanilla

If you had to get glasses would you wear contacts? I’d prefer glasses

Are mac’s really better than PC’s? I’m a PC gal

D0 y0u l1k3 t0 t@lk l1k3 a 5c3n3 k1d? *cringe*

When you were red and green clothes do you feel like a Christmas Tree? lol

What TV show has the best theme song? hard choice

New Year’s Plans? I don’t plan to live that long

Would you agree that Sex and The City is the best show ever? no way, I didn’t even care enough to watch one episode of it

Do you call your friends with red hair “ranga’s”? wtf

Have you ever been surfing? me? surfing? r u kidding?

Would you feel funny if you kissed somebody of the same sex? excuse me, I’m into women exclusively

Name a thing in your room that other probably don’t have in theirs: me ha!

What’s your best jacket like? comfy :3

What’s something you can cook or bake like a pro? nothing 

If you could pull off any hairstyle, what would it look like? I have couple of ideas ;)

What is the worst thing that happened so far today? my failed appointment as I didn’t get any answers nor help for my heart condition and allergies and that was the last attempt, I have no other ways of fixing things to survive next months, my life;s officially over, I only have suffering and fear left, I’m a burden and I want to kill myself sooner than food or cardiac arrest 

Did that ruin your day? it ruined my LIFE

What’s something good you’re looking forward to? sweet relieve of death?...

What’s something that you think is really cute?

*wish it was mine

Describe your feet: eww, why, better not

If you see somebody crying, do you start crying too? depends

How do you like your hoodies? oversized, without kangaroo pocket in front and/or a zipper, yuk

Is having to pee really badly worse than being really thirsty? it is to me at least

Were you a cute baby? I was a red haired potato

Are you talking to anybody right now? online 

How tall are your tallest socks? I kept my rainbow knee high socks but I don’t use them anymore

Are you waiting for a phone call? at night?...

Do you look forward to swimsuit season, or get really nervous? I was skipping swimsuit seasons for over 10 years until this summer - I bought the cheapest and went to stand/walk in the water and sit on a beach despite my insecurities 

If you could live for a year with any foreign family, where would you go? don’t wanna, scary

What do you wish people would pay you to do? browse the internet XD

Do you take good pictures? I try

Should you be doing something else right now? wash my hair, drink water, commit suicide - who knows

Did that question make you nervous? that question made me sad 

Why don’t girls like porn? some enjoy it 

Tell me a memory of this summer: this summer is all about romantic love, illnesses and nostalgy

Do you think it’s pretty when 100s of balloons are let loose into the sky? a waste but still pretty, sorry love, I know you’d be irritated so don’t worry - I will never do smth like that to ya

[faintly-aloof]

The Skam 11 questions tag

rules:

1.       always repost the rules

2.       answer the questions given to you by the one who tagged you!

3.       give 11 questions

4.       tag 11 people

Thank you @homofilskammer and @hufflepuff-ish for tagging me, guys! I appreciate it, you rock!

1. When did you first start watching skam?

It was during Christmas right after season 3 of og finished, I binged all three seasons in a few days.

2. What is your favourite season to watch out of the 4?

Season 3 without a doubt. I love that season with all my heart.

3. Favourite remake

That’s a hard one, I feel like I can't really choose. Season 1 is my favourite in Skam it and Skam nl, season 2 in Druck, Wtfock, season 3 in Skam fr, Skam it and Skam es and Druck (i just said all of them lol), season 4 in Druck even though just one episode is out.

4. Least Favourite scene to watch

The one in season 2 where William leaves Noora crying on the ground because I hate that, and hotel scene in season 3 because it hurts too much.

5. Character you relate to the most

I guess it could be Eva, since she was feeling alone in her season, she was trying to find herself, trying to belong somewhere. And Even because of his mental ilness.

6. How many times have you rewatched skam?

A lot of times lol. I don’t usually rewatch other series but Skam is the exception. It always makes me feel different things. I always find smth new in it that I haven’t noticed before.

7. What remakes have you watched?

All of them, Im obssessed ok.

8. Which characters do you wish would get their own season after season 4?

Engel from skam nl, that girl deserves it, she would be an amazing main.

Elia from skam it, Eliott from skam france.

I’m buzzin‘ about Arthur’s season, i can’t even describe how excited I am.

9. Remake with the best soundtrack

Druck and Skam nl use amazing songs. And actually, what i didn’t expect at all was the soundtrack from Skam fr season 3, even though they had a low budget they used such an amazing artists that i haven’t heard about before.

10. What country would you want to get their own remake?

I would love to see a Slavic country, like Polish maybe. I know it wouldn’t be perfect, it would probably be a disaster, but i would watch it anyway. Also what about a Vietnamese skam? That would be wonderful.

11. One thing you would have changed in Skam and/or the remakes

It would certainly be the moment from season 2 where William walks away from Noora while she is crying and begging him on the ground, I hate that scene to pieces, that’s why I’m so glad that skam it and druck got rid of this scene

Also, I would love to get a season 3 without cheating, and I would change season 4 of og and france because Sana and Imane deserved so much more.

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 1.       If you could create an ultimate girl squad, who out of the skam universe would be in it and why?

There would definitely be Noora and Sana from og, Eva from Skam it, Cris from Skam es, Kiki and Amira from Druck, Imane and Alexia from Skam fr and Engel, Isa and Liv and Janna from Skam nl, and Zoe from Wtfock.

2.       If you could change one thing in each remake, what would it be?

(same answer) It would certainly be the moment from season 2 where William walks away from Noora while she is crying and begging him on the ground, I hate that scene to pieces, that’s why I’m so glad that skam it and druck got rid of this scene

Also, I would love to get a season 3 without cheating, and I would change season 4 of og and france because Sana and Imane deserved so much more.

3.       What is one plotline that you wish to see in a remake of your choice? (go wild lol)

Mental illness. I know that they acknowledged mi in season 3 but that's not enough since it's not from the point of view of a person dealing with mi. I feel like so much ppl would be so grateful to finally get our Even season since we didn't get it in the original. I want to get into his head, to feel his struggles, pain, thoughts.

4.       Which side character would you want to have their own season?

I would give my life for an Engel season. I love that girl to pieces, she is so well written. Also, an Elia’s season would make my life so much happier lol.

5.       What do you wish the fandom would appreciate more in each remake? (could be a season, a character, a scene, anything)

I feel like season one of each remake is not very appreciated. Like I get that it doesn't really have the biggest plot twist or whatever, but it's so important. The loss of friends, trying to find new ones and belong somewhere, finding yourself, struggles in a relationship, people deal with these themes on a daily basis. It's actually so helpful to see it on the screen.

6.       If you could create a crossover between the og/one of the remakes and a movie/tv series/book, what would it be?

Can we get a Skam in Harry Potter’s world? How freaking amazing would that be? The characters being wizards in Hogwarts while dealing with the problems that are acknowledged in Skam. Now I want this really bad.

7.       A crack ship that you wish would happen?

Elippo! pls made it happen

8.       Is there a character that is very different from you/you never thought you would like, but you ended up loving?

I have never really been a fan of Jonas, idk why, he wasn't bad or anything just not a person I would have a lot in common with but that changed with Giovanni, he is the best friend you could get, so helpful and understanding and omg everyone should have their own Gio.

9.       What is your favorite friendship? 

The Italian boy squad is the definition of friendship, also the Skam nl girl squad.

10.   Do you read any og/remakes fanfiction and if so, do you have any favorite fanfictions?

Actually, i don't. I used to love fanfics when I was younger but now I don't really like it as much? I am certain that the ppl writing these are doing amazing jobs and maybe I will give a shot to some of the fanfics I sometimes see on my dashboard, but now I'm not really in the mood for it.

11.   Would you have preferred if Skam worked a bit more like Skins did, in terms of every character gets a full episode from their pov instead of an entire season?

Definitely not. I loved Skins but just the thought of not being in the main character’s head for like three months straight? no i don't want it lol

But i wouldn't have a problem with the entirely last season to have episodes about the characters that didn't get their own season.

My 11 questions:

1. If you could get a Skam from any country where would it take place?

2. What character in all Skam universes is your least favorite?

3. If there would be a chance to get a Skam feature movie, about which character would you want it to be?

4. If you could play one of the characters, who would you choose?

5. What would you say to your favorite characters if you met them?

6. If you could create one Skam character, what would the person be like?

7. Which Skam would you choose to get renewed for their own seasons?

8. What character is the most similar to you?

9. If you could change one season from Skam and do it your way, what would it be about? (it can be anything)

10. Would you want to see Skam taking place in your country (if it already doesn't)?

11. In which girl/boy squad would you love to belong to?

I tag:

@loveforpiccolinoandbambi @lucasonthesun @sunflowerchaos @notactuallygay @idonthaveanydamnidea @amorgignitamore @247-series @icnthndlemylifesorry @skamuniverses @all-the-mecs @children-with-the-cheap-cocaine