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guess who’s 20 (me)

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i always make mistakes

kids — current joys

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if I use tumblr itll be on @selfc4res btw

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hi follow me on twitter 🔫🔫 using it instead of tumblr for health

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hiii uhm. i have to take a mental break from this blog + everything bc it is getting bad mentally and my illnesses are bad but ill probably still use tumblr with @selfc4res

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hiii uhm. i have to take a mental break from this blog + everything bc it is getting bad mentally and my illnesses are bad but ill probably still use tumblr with @selfc4res

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Reminder that you're actually interesting. Your hobbies are interesting, your interests are interesting, you are important and loveable and people appreciate you. You're just a loveable, interesting person.

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there is always tomorrow

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You have to stop ruining things for yourself preemptively because you believe they’ll fail anyway. Give yourself a chance to succeed.

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hiii uhm. i have to take a mental break from this blog + everything bc it is getting bad mentally and my illnesses are bad but ill probably still use tumblr with @selfc4res

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Hard pill to swallow, maybe, but sometimes you are the problem. You may not have been initially, but people around you can only have so much endurance for understanding why you're "like that" and how you got to where you are now. Even if you were the one who was victimized, hurt, or abused to begin with, your behavior affects those around you. There's a point at which personal responsibility needs to kick in, or you will become toxic. You can become toxic even if you never become an abuser yourself. If other people are constantly having to help dig you out of the holes you made but you keep slapping their hands away, you cannot expect them to have an indefinite amount of patience and energy to keep trying. If you're not putting in the work to recover from what damaged you; if everyone else in your life is consistently the only one making a real effort to effect change for you--you're the problem.

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i might delete

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starting to think no one would care if i died,

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hiii uhm. suffering with suicidal thoughts again so if i am inactive. theres explanation el oh el

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im gonna have a panic attack

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u all should totally follow my twitter account ive been sucked into this shit