#maybe i'm being weird idk
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I spent some 10 months working in this retail supermarket shop that's close to home and after quitting the only experience that's stayed with me is those rare few times when i would see other queer people just existing in public. Maybe it's because I'm kind of a coward and could never be that openly out, or the environment in this area of the city that I know is very christian and very hostile (the things that i've heard my coworkers saying...) but I came to treasure those rare moments in a very special way. It can feel kinda lonely here, where sometimes it seems like it's just me and the friends I met in artschool and the people in other areas that i see on instagram, weirdly far away from me, and knowing that it'll be decades before we achieve anything meaningful in this country, but seeing someone being so open and brave like that makes me wanna keep going y'know? Maybe someday I'll live in a future where my teacher from artschool didn't have to travel to the USA to get married, and I can go to the beach with my friends and have twin scars on my chest.
#i say stuff#trans tag#idk it's just that everytime i would see someone and know they were queer my heart would shake in this weird way#i can remember like two lesbian couples#two men that asked me about curtains and as I was walking away heard one of them call the other 'darling'#this trans girl that was shoping with a friend and she had beautiful green braids#a couple of other trans women who asked me about what comforter sizes we had#i feel like i would see these people and in my head chant 'please look at me please recognize me please'#maybe i'm being weird idk#also i was working in this store as like a temporary thing#after graduating here with an associate's i applied to this artschool in the USA to like finish my full degree#they accepted me and I spent almost a whole year looking for help to actually study there#i looked in many ways and help never came sadly#a part of me also just wanted to escape from here#maybe some weird karma from that prevented help from coming idk#anyways maybe things can get better. maybe#i started tearing up just writing this
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they should invent being metamours without having a partner in common
#not because i don't want to share a partner but because i want someone to be my metamour without like. forcing my partner to like them??????#maybe i'm being weird idk
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something something luigi doesn't remember the final events of spm or dimentio at all after he's defeated (but mario remembers everything)
#super mario bros#super paper mario#smb#spm#dreamyart#i have a lot of thoughts about luigi having amnesia afterward and mario knowing and remembering vividly exactly what happened#like he has vague memories of bleck's crew but just as he knew them as Luigi and not as he knew them as L y'know? plus they're still around#but dimentio is Gone gone and idk maybe his floro sprout sapped his memory of him entirely something like that#i also just think bc dimentio is a weird little interdimensional being he definitely still exists Somewhere#and just wants to torment luigi with visions lol#AND i just think weege has weird vivid dreams anyway thanks dream team can we take this guy to a sleep study#this all severely fucks mario up right like i saw you turn into the antichrist and what do you mean you have no idea what i'm talking about#i saw this little freak brainwash you and force me to fight you. and luigi's just like. Huh. What. No way that happened ur pullin my leg#i dunno i have many thoughts okay byee
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weird little guy
#asoiaf#a song of ice and fire#valyrianscrolls#joffrey baratheon#my art#idk I just wanted 2 draw baby joffrey being weird and offputting. likely place for him to be#when you're so mad at your dad you dissect his fursona#I <3 giving asoiaf characters cute little plushies of their house sigils idc if it's anachronistic#little baby joffrey makes me sad to think about he's my eraserhead baby...I could be a good mother...I could still save him :(#ok maybe not but I could definitely be a better father than robert I'd give him litte pats on the head and say 'I'm proud of you sport'#I could not save him but I could love him </3
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[I.D. Digital three panel comic using Baxter Stockman from TMNT 2003 and Flora Chau from Jentry Chau vs the Underworld. The first panel shows them from behind, staring at a building currently in flames. The light from the flames reflects onto Stockman as he stands slouched forward slightly, while Flora, as a ghost, hovers in midair. Unlike Stockman, the light does not reflect on her. The second panel shows them both from the front, eyes wide in matching stressed and shocked expressions. In the last panel they make eye contact, Stockman raising his arms in a helpless shrug and Flora putting her palms together to gesture forward. Stockman says "Minor setback?" and Flora answers "Minor setback." End I.D.]
The fact that they both refer to events where a building is destroyed and people almost die as 'minor setbacks' is so funny to me lol
Also full disclosure I drew ghost Flora because she's short as heck and it worked better for putting these characters in the same frame to have her hovering, but the implications of Stockman just being able to see ghosts for some reason are also very entertaining to me
#image described#tmnt 2003#jentry chau vs the underworld#jentry chau spoilers#2003 baxter stockman#tmnt 2k3#jentry chau gugu#flora chau#jcvtu#my art#these two would be so unhinged together and i'm mildly obsessed with the idea of them being old friends or something#gugu knows some *weird* people i think knowing an amoral tech mogul wouldn't be that odd for her#maybe she wanted to see if he could make something that could destroy mr cheng idk#i feel like if you went to stockman and were like 'i need you to build me a gun that can kill demons' it would be surprisingly easy to get#-him to build it#this is a man who routinely looks at unsolvable problems and goes 'i can solve that because i'm the smartest man in the world'#he wants to be smarter and better than everyone else and there's no competitors on the market of course he's gonna build a demon killing gu#does it work effectively?? well thats a whole other thing because how exactly do you test a gun meant to kill a mogui
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why can't i enjoy things like a normal person? casually, just a few episodes/chapters here and there, then move on with my life. but no, whatever it is, it worms its way into my brain, consumes my thoughts and it slowly drives me insane. i am unable to think about anything else but the Thing of the week, or month, sometimes year(s) if it gets that bad.
#dc#smallville#henry danger#i never thought i'll be here. like actually. smallville is not a surprise i've always liked heroes. i love supes. marvel and dc and whatnot#by proxy me being lowkey into henry danger shouldn't be such a big surpise. but it is. i'm a little lost even i mean what do i do with THIS#because it's not the kind of hero stories i tend to gravitate to. i first watched the show when it aired (being around 16 years old)#and i remember thinking it was funny. maybe too much. i was laughing my ass off really. and now as an adult i find myself#looking for the things that gave me some modicum of comfort in the past. it so happens that one of those things is this silly wacky series#i know when something has embedded itself into my mind in such a way that a hyperfixation is in the making. but still. it's odd#again i cannot reiterate how strange this hyperfixation is and i can only hope it won't last long#because i cannot stay up any longer thinking of how deeply complex both ray and henry are#the connection between the two and whatever weird bullshit they have going on as individuals is. just too much for me#idk. i'm kind of losing my mind#this whole rambling of unorganized thoughts goes specifically for:#lex luthor#ray manchester#yipyip
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that one movie sinbad did about the genie
#my art#dc comics#shazam#captain marvel#billy batson#mary batson#mary bromfield#mary marvel#earth-101#me making the character whose name has gone through a bajillion changes and legal issues into a trans woman and a story of accepting onesel#and the pressure of transitioning and being trans as a public figure#and combining mary and billy into the same character at different points in her life#basically the bit is that kid billy transforms into an adult Woman superhero and is like. what's up with that.#hey wizard. why'd you make me a girl.#and the wizard's like. dead. so isn't able to explain.#and later on kid finds out that the powers transforms you into the idealized version of your self in your heart#and for this kid its a cool and strong lady#cue a lot of weird identity shit and name changes and struggles with self image and being like#''am i trans bc of being the captain or is the captain a woman because i'm trans. is this something i want or do i just feel obligate to.''#eventually big moment of self discovery and she comes out as a woman and changes her name to mary#maybe when she fully comes out she transforms by saying mary instead of shazam as a fun like. ''say my name'' to ''say YOUR name'' reversal#as a symbolic moment of oh. that's me :)#idk. i'm spitballin
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i wasn't planning on doing anything more for the @tmntaucompetition,, but i had this idea and thought it would be cute,, a little farewell if you will
it's been an honor 😌
#teenage mutant ninja turtles#mutant!chompy#mutant chompy au#why am i lowkey sentimental abt this 💀#like i'm not upset over losing- just the fact that it's ending soon#it's been going since like???? early march??????#THAT'S 3 MONTHS???????#idk maybe i'm just being weird abt it lmao
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evbo meets a little friend!
alright you already know the drill, time for a yap session
his eyes are just rectangles (oblongs?) here since i wanted to incorporate that specific aspect of evbo's skin into the design. it also kinda serves to make him look more... animalistic? he's a bird, so i really like this look for him
the song i listened to while designing him was to the sky
another inspiration i had for this design was meteion since she's probably one of my favourite designs in ffxiv
he's somewhat based off a conure/hummingbird! their colours are similar at least and hummingbirds have incredible control over their flight so yeah, that's him
but if you asked me to pick between those two for like, an actual bird form, he'd be a hummingbird. again, because they're super agile but this is what i imagine what he sounds like when he snores
related to that: all of his colours were made warmer on purpose, really colourful birds usually come from tropical regions so this was a way to reflect that a little bit
no boots, just netherite scales on his legs and hands (claw? talons?) because i thought it would be cool. so these things can't be taken off, they're part of his body
the knee pads can though, those pop on and off like magnets
he can't actually fly, but he can glide and it helps with adjusting the trajectory of his jumps and it negates the need for water bucket clutches if he times his wingbeats right (so i guess this makes it closer to an elytra? it might be interesting if he figured out how to use fireworks)
instead of having tail feathers coming off his body, i thought it would be a cooler visual to have his headband become his tail. so... that's' another thing he can't take off his body now!
the things he can take off are his hoodie and pants
pants are worn as usual, but the hoodie has a giant hole in the back for him to slip into so he doesn't have to pull things over his wings
speaking of his tail feathers, they're based off peacock feathers since he's kind of a show of lmao, the 'eyes' on them are a nod to him being the parkour god since i did something similar for acg's design with his head wing, evbo's markings are pretty much just that. markings, so he can't see through them or anything
not visible because it's being covered up, his chest is fluffy! i just think it would be cute and i'll take literally any excuse to add more fluff to a character because it brings me that much joy
also this is the first iteration i had of bird evbo's design, look at this little guy
the green highlights were cool here, but they kinda just ended up blending in with the rest of his hoodie/body so i decided not to do that
i made him fuzzier in the full piece too because i can
his ears were changed to be wings since these ones were too similar to my previous evbo design
headband tail feathers have been part of the vision since the start, but these ones here were pretty much just slapped on without too much thought about what they actually look like
now i don't usually share unfinished work on its own but these two have been sitting in my drafts for weeks now so... here's another little guy!
can you tell that i really enjoy making designs of him?
anyway, since summit evbo's still a draft at this point, i won't say much about him since he'll have his own post eventually
but i do want to say that i consider him and bird evbo as a duo of sorts since they're kinda opposites in terms of design
#parkour civilization#minecraft#evbo#i love drawing wings#yeah my other evbo design has a name too it's 'mythic'#originally i thought maybe hermes since that's what his boots were based off but like#that's an actual name and the other two don't have an additional name so mythic it is#do you think emf helps him preen because i sure do#so let me tell you about the power of what the incredible urge to create things can do to a person when their main hand is being weird#i did this entire thing with my non-drawing hand because i was going insane I HAD TO MAKE SOMETHING I JUST HAD TO#err the piece at the top that is#both of the drafts were made way before... whatever happened to me#idk if or when i'll make a post about it here#but i may have written something that's out there now so i'm just#look the situation was dire okay my hand hurt and i had to make something#if you're here reading tags hiiii don't worry about it#i'm okay i think#much better than when my arm first started hurting anyway#there are way better things to do than sink into despair#like create things in ways that you don't usually consider#i dunno what will work for you personally#but you have to live#anyway don't ask me what kind of hummingbird that is i literally don't know SKJDHF ASJDHASHJ
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Holy shit Ajax is so close to figuring it out!! Zhongli is lucky that he grabbed the guy who knew he wasn’t human with the radio but at the same time. Dude. Least subtle string of events ever
ajax is indeed close to getting it, but i'm not sure this situation in particular was like- unsubtle? ajax only clocked it in as weird bc 1) he knows he's not human 2) he's realized zhongli just does not know the names of some things and 3) he's realized there's a good chance zhongli has never interacted with most technology and is just (somehow) apparently winging it but like, from a non-ajax pov, nothing about this sequence would've been necesarily weird. zhongli never stated he doesn't know what a walkietalkie is, ajax just (correctly) assumed that bit. he said "i've never used one of these before"; that's not a weird thing to say. you have an oldschool radio and you can't figure it out so you pass it over and say hey yeah never used one of these before. that's not weird. people don't assume you don't know what a radio is from that, this is just ajax' brain firing at all these things bc he already knows zhongli isn't human and not knowing how to use a military-grade walkitalkie- unless i'm missing something, that's not- weird. is it? is it weird to not know how to use a military grade handheld radio? yeah this version of teyvat probably had an equivalent to our motorolas before they got smartphones and yeah czl is in that age range but like still. if someone told me they don't know how to use an, again, military grade walkietalkie, i wouldn't be werided out by it. i can handle a motorola but i've never held a cop's walkietalkie so idk
maybe i'm wrong on that last bit tho who knows
#if anything zhongli was unlucky to grab the one guy that would immediately think something was weird abt this lmao#anyway yeah ajax is slowly getting it i'm so proud of him he's filling in his own plot holes hahah#thank you <3 <3#the only thing suspicious about the exchange was the way zhongli worded it immediately upon yoinking the walkietalkie#but that's still like. it's only the wording what's weird#all he said was “this shit is their direct private line so it's faster than calling an emergency operator”#“why did you grab a walkietalkie” “bc then we're in their private line?”#idk that doesn't seem all that weird to me (obviously his wording was the problem here but that can be waved away as zhongli being zhongli)#maybe i'm wrong on that again
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sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'
#red said#recent events have reminded me that my life has involved like. a LOT of other people's psychosis#like not in a way where i have been Beset By Terrifying Crazies bc that's not like. a thing.#but a lot of people in my life have had a lot of really severe psychotic episodes#and i FORGET sometimes. that actually that is an Unusual Amount Of Experience With Psychosis for someone who's not#for somebody who has not really personally ever had psychotic episodes (unless severe PTSD flashbacks count)#actually i tell a lie i have maybe had One psychotic episode but because it was very situational and i knew what was happening#i was able to ride it out. because i am literally only psychotic Inside Hospitals and so that's all fine#as long as i LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO HAVE INPATIENT CARE. Very important to me to never ever ever require surgery i think.#i can handle the amount of psychosis i get from a 1-4 hour stopoff in hospital#as long as i know I'm leaving soon then i can just Cope with the fact that the walls are moving and reality is thin#ANYWAY that's not the point the point is i forget! that most ppl i know have experience of at most a handful of severe psychotic episodes#some people i know have experienced more for sure. especially if the episodes were mostly theirs.#but people really seem to expect me to be more freaked out by their symptoms of psychosis than i am#bc i don't think i really register it as frightening unless they're in actual danger or Currently Aggressing Actually At Me#like i WORRY about them bc it can super suck but it's not SHOCKING or WEIRD#there have definitely been times ive been frightened. one time i woke up in the night and my friend was standing over me with a knife#but also like he was still HIM he was just having a moment. and as soon as i got the knife off him he just came back and broke down.#and we were fine and he was safe and i learnt the valuable lesson that even when people seem like they wanna kill you they probably don't#tbf now I'm thinking about it it's honestly a tossup whether he was there to threaten or because he felt a need to guard us#like to be clear probably don't try and take a knife off someone having a psychotic break. i was 17 and it was 3am and i knew him very well#i probably did not make the smartest call but nobody got hurt is the point#anyway you know there's that kind of psychotic episode and my granny got very violently angry a few times. buuuut you know there's also#been plenty of other times I've been with somebody having an episode and it's been chill as hell.#my ex saw and heard monsters so much that eventually she just got sick of being scared. we used to watch TV with them#i would sometimes have to sit on a bit of sofa that wasn't haunted and we might not be able to watch certain things bc they didn't like it#most of the time she was hallucinating there was absolutely nothing to worry about we just had a few extra variables#honestly of everyone i know who's had psychotic episodes or schizophrenia the amount of times it's been a material risk#is like. low single figures? maybe low double if you include self harm but idk what the cause and effect is there.#idk why you would need to be frightened like 99.99% of the time it truly is usually just Oh No That Seems Distressing For You I'm Sorry
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not to descendants post but it's crazy to me people are still looking at the core four like "you should have saved and liberated the entire isle within a month of being in auradon" girl what. how much power do people realistically think they had over auradon for them to do this without being evil about it (which y'all also hate)
#like any half valid point is immediately ruined by people being stupid#they should have fought harder / not forgotten about the isle but pretending they could strong arm auradon royals is insane i'm sorry#y'all hate when they're evil about shit and hate when they try to play by the rules idk#weird#also ... lmfao ... sorry but the characters you want them to be ... are just other characters#controversial maybe but idk#i'm glad the isle had uma but not everyone was going to be an uma#lest we forget all of those kids grew up being abused and everyone has a different reaction to abuse#(btw the barrier coming down entirely and all of those abusers now being free was not the move but i digress)#like i actually very much like when they lie and fuck up and make bad decisions sooooooooooooo#core four they could never make me hate you#descendants#LOVE that the isle had uma fighting for them but i don't think the responsibility should've been put on any of the abused kids at all#hope that helps#core four
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The Minecraft movie would've been so good if they'd just. Made it in earnest
#ramblings#i saw the trailer lol. wasn't gonna talk abt it at all and just pretend it's some weird fever dream#but i've been playing a bit of minecraft again recently and like. the makings for a good story are Right There#a movie abt someone waking up in and unfamiliar world learning how to survive in it#being in awe of its beauty and its dangers#going on new adventures every day and discovering more and more abt the world#building with the blocks they find along the way#and at the end you have the end poem read to you aloud#it could have steve and/or alex as the main characters we follow. or we could have a new character#a character that's explicitly a stand-in for the viewer/player. going on adventures with steve and alex#and maybe. steve and alex are the ones that recite the poem at the end#because they were the ones watching the player in their dream of the game all along#or something like that idk. anyways what i'm saying is they should've turned rt game's playthrough into an animated movie#instead of making an obvious (and ugly as fuck) cash grab#tho ig hollywood isn't really known for making things in earnest is it
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#I still feel weird about just posting pics of Louis and being like heh he look good#when he's going through such a terrible time#for me all the pictures were always not just that but to sort of celebrate that things were finally finally GOOD#the joyfulness of all that#to be like LOOK at this THRIVING we MADE IT look how far we came etc... and things aren't very fucking great right now#HOWEVER....#idk about you but my dash is depressing af#I think maybe we could use a reminder of joy#and a reminder of happy things and times and that even after the worst things... those times come again#not to get overly precious or deep about it or whatever🙄it's just some pictures on tumblr.com I KNOW#but we are how we live or whatever idk ANYWAY my point is I'm gonna start the queue back up#for now at least#and hope it makes some people smile
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I know I poke fun at the john constantine pink triangle incident but jokes aside i'm genuinely curious what other people think about it. imo it's a great blaring example of how incapable dc is at writing john's bisexuality into a story that doesn't surround corporate pride or getting together with a man.
I tried talking about it once on tiktok (idk what i was thinking either) and a few people defended it saying things like "how else would you explain a blond hair blue eyed man being sent to a ww2 ghetto?"
didn't the joker send him there? was that not reason enough? 'the joker' was kidnapping girls and ordering soldiers around, we can't suspend our belief that she had the power to send a british soldier caught undercover as a nazi away? the pink triangle and 'bunny that doesn't breed' comment was necessary to the plot?
#maybe i'm being dramatic or chronically online i'm genuinely curious what other people think#i know there's some big bombshell fans and i'm not gonna act like i didn't read it issue by issue as a kid#also call me crazy but that whole issue was weird#from the pacing to the raven stuff#but make me see a pink triangle stitched into ((the trenchcoat)) again i'm dropping comics bruh#also correct me if it's just a different tone in the west like something you can joke about and it just went over my head or something IDK 😭#john constantine#dc comics#dcu#dc bombshells#zatanna zatara
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Okay here me out! I've had this idea cooking in my head for a while and it's taking me way too long but I'm finally doing it! Or, well... explaining it hehe! Basically, Makoto's Kirk, Byakuya's McCoy, and Kyoko's Spock. Also, had some other ideas too such as Aoi being Uhura, maybe Chihiro as Chekov though a part of my brain also thought of Komaru being in that role but that's cus I was initially thinking the other supporting cast being the survivors of the first game. The others though are like Taka as Sulu, Toko as Christine Chapel which fuck I did NOT notice the pun there. Also, I had the thought of maaaybe Leon being Scotty but that's mostly because Red hair -> Red shirt. That's it. Though for the guy who didn't last long in the canon, at least he's immune to the red shirt curse by being a main character!! ALSO, Junko as Khan. It's great and the thought of Makoto screaming Junko's name in anguish is too good to pass up! As for some thoughts on the main trio, for Makoto, it's obvious why I made him Kirk. Main man privilege. Also, any of you folks who enjoy the Makoto Harem shenanigans will especially enjoy this cus Kirk is just always around ladies so at least there's that. Not that he'd be Kirking it up. It's still Makoto after all! But still! Meanwhile, for the other two, I feel Byakuya as McCoy and Kyoko as Spock are great fits. Kyoko's known for being kinda cold and seemingly emotionless and having her arc of learning to trust people. I can just SEE the parallels of her and Spock, the balance of the analytical side of the Vulcan and the emotional side of the human. And, while it would be funny to give Byakuya the permanent pointy Spock brows, the guy's too sassy and petty to fully be a Spock. Thus, he's McCoy! He gets to bother the shit outta Kyoko in the bridge too while she dunks on him every time. Some other miscellaneous bits are that yes, Byakuya is hanging out with Toko in the med bay cus I found it funny to have him with her there. Who knows! Maybe Syo's knack with scissors can come in handy in the medical field, just like, minus the murder. Also, yes this means that Makoto is kissing Aoi at some point, that Taka is running around shirtless with a sword cus sci-fi shenanigans and that Makoto and Kyoko get to roll around in the sand as she almost tries to fucking kill him cus Amok Time being amoking and Pon Farr be like that. Also this means Makoto gets his tiddies exposed. That is if the Star Trek canon is heavily followed and all but it's just something to imagine. Plus, typing that just out there is funny to me. Don't think I have the expertise to make this an AU of my own though, probably just make silly drawings. Despite growing up with Star Trek as a kid, I was an idiot that processed none of it, only really remembering the tribbles, Kirk making a billion dramatic speeches I never understood, Spock kinda floating in space with Kirk being worried or something. Aso the movie where Spock fucking died and that other one where he hung out with some whales which is such a goofy way of describing it all. And like, I have NOOO clue what the overlap between a Danganronpa fan and a freaking Star Trek fan is. Like, I'm kinda the case study but also I have no clue at all!
#danganronpa#danganronpa art#danganronpa fanart#danganronpa makoto#makoto naegi#danganronpa kyoko#kyoko kirigiri#danganronpa byakuya#byakuya togami#if there is a danganronpa fan who also knows way too much about the original serious of star trek please help T_T#or like the reverse. a star trek fan who knows at least some things about danganronpa i guess??? idk this is such a weird post#also just realized that this will maybe be floating around with the star trek fans out there so um hello?? hope u're all doing lovely!#but also like i'm kinda too lazy to edit it out? not like i should. that's just the shy part of my brain being shy and nervous#also just realized too that this may be the closest i will get to fan art of this franchise cus i'm too much of a wimp to actually draw tha#unless that changes which it might! who knows! i certainly don't
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