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dreamescapeswriting · 1 year ago

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Bound Forever ~ BC [MATURE WARNING]

WORD COUNT: 2.1K

GENRE: established relationships, angst, couple having a lovers spat, chan being an obsessive lover, clingy needy sex, SMUT minors DNI or you will be blocked!!! Unprotected sex, sweet and soft ending, hand holding, love yous,

PAIRING: Dom!Chan x Sub!Fem!Reader [ @whatudowhennooneseesyou]

⤜Copyright: © DreamEscapesWriting - January 2024

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Under the fluorescent lights that were in Chan's studio, you watched him as he worked hard on his laptop, his eyes never straying from it barely even noticing that you were standing in the room with him. At one point you would have distracted your love together as a masterpiece sculpted by one of the greatest artists in the world, your relationship was filled with love and laughter over the years but just lately it was taking a hit. You always thought that you and Chan could face any storm together and that you'd somehow come out even stronger but just lately doubt was beginning to waver in your mind. The love that you had once cherished so deeply somehow felt as though it was fading into an echo of what once was and you were terrified you were going to lose Chan once and for all.

The two of you rarely went out anymore and hardly saw one another unless it was like today when you'd taken him some lunch to the studio since you doubted he was eating well at work. But Chan had barely looked up from his laptop to eat anything you'd cooked for him, all of his favourites too since you weren't sure what he was going to be in the mood for today.

Did he even want you to stick around for lunch? You stared down at the food on your plate, toying with the noodles on your chopsticks before putting it down and wiping your mouth on a napkin. Maybe you should have left after bringing him his food, he'd be back home later...You'd be asleep by the time he got home but he'd be home with you nonetheless. You began to gather your things, reaching for your bag beside Chan's desk, his eyes not once straying from the screen he was concentrating so hard on, a bunch of timelines on the screen you had no idea how to read.

"I'll see you at home baby, I love you." You spoke softly to the side of his head but he didn't even move, he just grunted something before you sighed a little and made your way to the door. Tightness pulled at your chest as you shook your head to yourself, maybe you were fooling yourself into believing your relationship was as strong as you thought. Perhaps things had always been like this between you and Chan and you'd failed to notice it until now.

As you reached the door, you paused for a second, turning to look over your shoulder at him, your eyes taking in the appearance of him one last time,

"Do you even love me anymore?" Something you'd intended to not say aloud flew from your lips anyway, stilling everything inside of the room as Chan's chair squeaked. An indication that he had turned around to face you but you were staring at the wall in front of you, wondering how long it would take for you to sprint out of there before he chased after you. The elevator doors were open, if you could make it to them then you'd have a fair chance,

"What did you say?" Chan's chair once again squeezed as he raised from the seat, his laptop abandoned as he stared at the back of your head. Sweat began to bead at the top of your head as you span around to face him, laughing nervously and shaking your head.

"Nothing, I was just thinking of a TV show." You lied, your nose twitching as a clear indication to Chan who was now pulling you back into his studio and shutting the door.

"Yn, don't bullshit me." His voice was stern as he stared down at you, but you avoided his gaze looking anywhere but at him right now.

"Chan, it's nothing." You whispered as you shook your head, there was no use getting into this here when there was nothing either of you could do about it.

"Yn." Your name came out of his mouth so low and demanding you knew it was a warning from him and you smiled weakly, staring at him as you shook your head.

You didn't want this to become a fight the two of you were going to have, it was a little doubt in your mind that you wished you could play off.

"I mean it, it's literally nothing. I was just-"

"Have I ever given you any indication I don't love you before?" The air turned thick as the two of you stared at one another, Chan stared at you waiting for you to answer him. Never in a million years would he want you to feel as though he didn't love you, that he didn't crave you at every single moment of the day.

"Well...t-things have been...strained." You admitted through a shakey voice, refusing to look at Chan

"Yn," His voice came out softer this time and he barely got it out through a whisper, his fingers moved to cup your chin and he turned your face to look at him.

"I-I'm sorry, I just...we don't see each other anymore and I'm scared you're losing feelings." Chan stared at you as he shook his head, you were the only woman he'd ever loved, the only woman he could ever see himself loving and he hated that you were doubting that. He'd been trying for months to tell you how deeply he felt for you, but nothing ever felt good enough for you.

Taking in a deep breath his eyes locked onto you, his emotions welling up inside of him as he began to speak, his voice coming out tender and with a sense of vulnerability.

"Yn, every single beat of my heart is a beat for you, my heart beats for the two of us every single day." You stared at him, whimpering a little as he took your hand in his, leading you over to the sofa and sitting you down.

The two of you stared at one another as you swallowed the lump that was forming in your throat and attempted to stop the bouncing of your leg.

"I've tried to put into words how much you mean to me, but every language I try seems to falter me. No words ever seem good enough to express how much I need you in my life." Your heart was beginning to beat so fast that you were almost afraid he would hear it from sitting so close to you.

"Every breath I breathe is infused with the essence of you, without you by my side, every inhale feels incompletely. Leaving me gasping for the very breath that carries your love." Tears began to well up inside of your eyes, your eyes staring into Chan's as you could have sworn you saw stars, and galaxies even as you watched him speak to you.

"You're the oxygen that keeps me going every single second of the day, you're the reason I keep going. I can't imagine a world where your laughter doesn't bring brightness to my world and pull me out of the darkest parts of my mind." His hand squeezes yours as he stares back at you, his tears beginning to roll down his cheeks,

"Where your touch doesn't linger on my skin leaving me tingling for days. I can't breathe without you. Without you, Yn, my lungs would cease to find relief, you are the air that completes me...You're the love of my life." As soon as he finished you grabbed him by the shirt and brought him into a kiss, starting light at first but almost immediately turning into a needy kiss.

"Channie." You breathed out against his lips, his arms wrapped around you tightly as he pulled you onto his lap, neither of you fighting against it as you mould against one another perfectly.

"I missed you so much." You whispered to him, biting his lip a little,

"Me too," He whispered as he pulled your shirt off, throwing it to the other side of the room as he began to kiss your exposed chest. The two of you had always had a great sex life, explosivie even and Chan was always an obsessive lover with you.

"Off," You whispered as you tugged on the shirt he was wearing, looking at him as he smirked at you. Chan liked it when you could get demanding with him even though he was always the one in charge.

"Off...Please," You added at the end before he ripped off his own shirt, throwing it in the same direction he'd thrown yours. Your lips connected once again as he trailed wet kisses down your neck, both of you stripping until there was nothing left between you.

"I need you," Cha gasps out as he holds his cock at your entrance, your hand gripping onto his shoulders as you slowly sink down onto him moaning out his name as you dug your nails into his skin.

"I've missed this...I-I've missed you, all of you." You moaned out, holding onto his bicep as your other hand tangled with his this time. It had been two long since the two of you had been together like this and it was all a bit much as tears began to trickle down your cheeks.

"Baby girl," He whispered as he realised you were crying and he stopped still, afraid he'd hurt you somehow or that you wanted to stop he was ready to do anything to stop you crying.

"Did I hurt you?" He panicked, his hand squeezing yours as you sniffled a little and shook your head, whimpering a little as you wiped the tears off your face and sniffled.

"I missed you, I missed us." You whispered, clenching around him as he let out a low grunt, his eyes finding yours as you felt your whole body heating up. You slowly moved your hips on him, letting him know it was okay for him to move again and he groaned your name softly,

"I missed you too baby, fuck, I love you." He moaned out as you slowly began to rise and fall against him, his cock stretching you out as you squeezed his hands.

"I love you," You moaned back as he began to rock your hips on him, biting down on his lip as he watched you closely.

"You were made for me, you fit me like a glove." He grunts as he stares at you, he wants no doubt in your mind that the two of you were meant for one another. He thrusts up to meet your hips as you let out a loud cry of his name.

"You're mine and I'm yours," He moans out as he continues to push into you, holding you steady as his cock drives into you repeatedly and roughly. Claiming you as his own as the sounds of your hips slapping against one another filled the quiet studio.

With every thrust Chan gave to You, you pushed back to him meeting him with every single stroke. Your fingers lacing together as he looked deep into your eyes, neither of you said anything as you moaned out. The two of you were linked in inextricable ways and there wasn't a single doubt left in your mind about that.

"O-Oh god, Chan," You moaned out as your eyes screwed shut, your grip on Chan's hand tightening more and more as you continued to ride his dick your movements getting a little sloppier but Chan supported you. Smirking as he continued to drive into you roughly,

"I-I'm going to-"

"Cum for me bab, come on my dick." He ordered as he drove into you, your body shattering around him as he continued to thrust into you wildly. Chan grunts lowly as your orgasm drives him over his own, moaning out your name as you slump against his chest and let out a small giggle. Chantried to prop himself up a little, breathing heavily from what might have been the most intense orgasm of his life.

"Shit," He breaths out against your neck, your skin prickling as you let out a small giggle.

"Yeah," You agreed, squeezing his fingers before looking down into his eyes as he chuckled a little neither of you moving from the spot you were in until you absolutely had to.

"Let's eat and then head home," He told you, his hand slowly rubbing up and down your back as you nodded at him, curling your head into the crook of his neck and relaxing completely against him.

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ramblingsfromthytruly · 6 months ago

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the pages are turning~

a months old pic of my desk

29th august 2024

day 4/50 - productivity challenge

🕒 6:00 a.m.

sleep deprivation is hitting. eating leftovers and coffee for breakfast.

checked notifs

actually ate some goddamn breakfast

not me realizing that i barely eat 2 meals every school day..

revised psychology: ch-1: what is psychology

here's a (self) reminder to actually go study instead of procrastinating 30 mins by watching study motivation videos.

also i recommend listening to non-lyrical music while studying. i personally listen to classical piano music. this is what i was listening to today morning.

showered

morning skincare

extended duolingo streak

aaand off to school. thought i would be late but honestly i've been reaching at the correct time all these days. if i leave my house by 8:05 then i'm good.

at school i first had physics and then 2 continuous chemistry classes (the teacher is good but her classes are so draining ugh).

completed physics classwork (the stuff i missed when i was absent on tuesday)

did the OCEAN test in psychology class! idk why but i love personality tests. i'll discuss my results with my teacher tmr hopefully but what i gathered is that i'm an ambivert leaning to introversion and ok emotional regulation & stability. my other classmate was very much an extrovert with higher tendency to take others' words to heart. we bunked the last 2 english classes together in the library lol. also want to say that i'm so ashamed for having formed an image in my mind of her, without really knowing her that well. i cruelly judged her prematurely and though we didn't really talk about our lives and stuff, we did get closer (maybe even friends?) today and i regret my judgments. ik i would be crushed if someone thought up an image of me in their head like that and i try not to do the same but sometimes i make mistakes. i'm trying to be more aware of that.

studied psychology ch-6: human memory (in the library when i skipped english)

lightly rained the entire trip home and got much louder as i ate a hearty lunch 😋

started a word doc for biology investigatory project

started a word doc for chemistry investigatory project

me and my bestfriend have been much more honest with our feelings recently. the saying "distance makes the heart grow fonder" was actually made for us. she's in a new college all popular with new pretty friends and boys probably crushing on her and she says i'm her favourite person. i'm at a new school slowly making new friends and she's my favourite person. i told her i love her. she deserves to know that. and i meant it totally platonically and that doesn't make it any less. if anyone ever asks, "who's your first love?" i'll say her name. it'll always be her.

practiced playing keyboard 🎹

read newspaper 📰 (some of those cases make me feel sick)

post for studyblr weekly prompt

dinner. yum. noodles and cake.

made notes psychology ch-1: what is psychology?

night skincare

🕒 nope! pulled an all-nighter.. yes i have school tmr 😃 listen i do not recommend doing this shit at all. why did i do it you may ask? i don't really have any crushing deadlines as such, but i've tricked my mind into thinking my own plans are deadlines. this week my sleep has been astronomically fucked up. the weekend will be a reset (i have school on saturday 😭) and i will prioritze sleep. i need to at least manage 6-7 hours everyday.

edit: actually i fell asleep around 2 a.m. and did no other studying..

🎧 i love you, i'm sorry by gracie abrams

her songs are actually just excerpts from my journal but minus the romance unfortunately like where's my gf ugh we're wasting time

a months old pic of my desk

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akwolfgrl · 1 year ago

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I'm a great fuck but better lover part 1

This is the sequel to lust filled thoughts. Looking for a beta

Sanji yawned as he excited the bathroom, his hair still damp from his shower. He would love a nap, but he had far too much to get done today. He slipped into the galley, and Mr. Noddles starched from where he was curled up on the same stoll from yesterday and hopped down, meowing up at him.

“Are you hungry boy? Ready for breakfast?” Sanji opened the fridge and took out butter, the marmalade since he hasn't had the time to make more jam, whole sardines, chicken, a bit of liver and kidney for Mr. Noodles breakfast. He would need to dehydrate the organ meats to use for Mr. Noodles food, that way he had it readily available. If they could get fresh game that would be prefect.

Sanji placed the dish on the floor and Mr. Noddles attack the food in a very Luffy esce style. He turned his attention to the stove to start his breakfast while he planed the crews meals for the day.

He took a seat with his tea, toast and notebook. He keep a running list of everything about the ship, he could make shakuka for brekasfast with extra meat for luffy, tuna poke bowls for lunch with tuna steaks for luffy, maybe some ricotta and lemon pasta for dinner again extra for the bottomless pit of a Captain, semla for dessert. He had some fresh cardamom pods he wanted to use and it wasn't too sweet.

Sanji wanted to keep busy today so he wouldn't have time to think about last night. He felt embarrassed that he had gotten so upset at Zoro last night. It was a mix of things, he had been mocked during sex before and hated it, unfortunately with Zoros green hair it had also brought back memories of Yonji. Every if his shity family wasn't shitty he wouldn't want to think of them during sex.

While in the middle of mixing the paste with the cabbage, a pair of arms warped around his waist and a head rested between his shulder blades. Zoro muzzled againt the back of his shirt like a giant cat.

“Wow your up early, thught you'd still be sleeping,”

“Couldn't sleep any more after you left,” the green haired swordsman mumbled. “Why do you have to wake so early anyway?”

“I'm used to it, I like to have a bit of time to myself to drink tea, eat and plan out the meals for the day, some of us actually ha e jobs Marimo,” Sanji couldn't help but tease.

“Hey! I have a job, I'm the frist mate I protect the crew,” Zoro lifted his head and placed it on sanjis shulder. “It's to fucking early start shit Ero-cook,”

“Here,” Sanji held up a gloved hand, a pice of kimchi in his fingers. “Try this see if you like it before the fremastion,” Zoro allowed Sanji to feed him a bit of the red coated cabbage leaf.

“Mmm little spicy but good, more?”

“It's not that spicy, here have a piece of the core,” Sanji gave him another piece.

“Hmm maybe you just burned all your taste buds off, more,” Zoro demanded, his mouth open and waiting.

“Here the middle part, it's got the core and a leaf, next I'll let you try a piece of radish but that's it,” Sanji popped the piece into the swordsman's mouth.

“Stingy,” Zoro spoke before chewing after he ate the radish he spoke again. “I like that one it's crunchy,”

#one piece #fanfic #sanji #vinsmoke sanji #black leg sanji #roronoa zoro #zoro #zoro x sanji #lust filled thoughts #I'm a great fuck but better lover #zosan

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dream-meister-translations · 11 months ago

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PERSONA 5 : THE PHANTOM X

PERSONA 5 : THE PHANTOM X BETA - PART 6

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As Wonder leaves the classroom, he is greeted by the girl with pigtails.

TOMOKO NOGE : Ah...It seems I keep running into you today.

TOMOKO NOGE : Arai rushed off to the cafeteria. She said if she didn't get the sandwich she wanted, it would sell out fast. This kind of thing always reminds me of when we were still athletes....

WONDER : When you were still athletes?

TOMOKO NOGE : Yeah, Arai and I used to play baseball together. But...For some reason, she gave up on it. Since then, she hasn't been quite the same. She's been a lot more cheerful lately, though. It puts my mind at ease.

TOMOKO NOGE : Ah~ Maybe it's because you're sitting next to her in class?

WONDER : I think it's all thanks to you, Tomoko.

TOMOKO NOGE : That's not true...All I can do is be there for her when she needs me...Ah! Sorry! I've said too much. Are you heading to get lunch too? Where do you usually eat?

WONDER : On the rooftop.

TOMOKO NOGE : If you're going to the rooftop, just take those stairs right over there. Haha, are you the type who enjoys eating food alone, Wonder? We have someone like that in our class as well. Anyway, I need to go find Arai, see you later!

With that, Tomoko fixes her glasses and walks away.

When Wonder arrives on the rooftop he is met by a guy who is eating a cup of noodles on a bench. The guy has spiked blue hair and looks like a delinquent. When the guy spots Wonder he leaves.

WONDER : (What he was eating smells good...)

WONDER : (Where's Ruferu...)

Ruferu flies down from the sky and perches on the railing.

RUFERU : I'm here! As agreed, it is time I answer your questions. About that place you saw yesterday, that is what we call the Metaverse and those monsters are what we call Shadows. What I have to say is tough to understand. You ready?

WONDER : I'm ready.

Ruferu and Wonder are now seated on the bench talking.

RUFERU : Well then, first things first, about the Metaverse. It's a space that materializes from the collective unconscious of humanity. If you consider the real world the "surface," then you can consider the Metaverse a deeper "inner" world existing on parallel lines.

RUFERU : You can think of it as a cognitive world where human consciousnesses are all mixed together.

WONDER : Cognitive world?

RUFERU : It's how people perceive the real world. Maybe that's easier to understand? The Metaverse is a dark, twisted version of our own. This means that the current humans living in Tokyo cannot perceive any hope from the world.

RUFERU : As for why that is, you already understand, correct?

WONDER : Because human desires have been taken away?

RUFERU : Precisely! You're quite clever. Then I'll continue.

RUFERU : In the other world, there are entities called Shadows. There are two types of these. The first type was those enemies that attacked us without warning. Those guys aren't human. They're more like monsters triggered by desires.

RUFERU : The second type is different...Those shadows are a second side to a human in the real world. Symbols of their dark and twisted hearts. It's the embodiment of desires hidden in a human's heart. In other words, "another self."

WONDER : Could it be...

RUFERU : You should already understand. After all, you already awakened your Shadow as a Persona.

RUFERU : But not everyone has the same ability you have. They can't all control their inner selves. If for some reason desires become twisted, their Shadow will lose control...Even in the real world, they will harm others without hesitation.

RUFERU : In conclusion, when someone's Shadow loses control it is considered the mastermind who exploits desires in the other world. At least that's my speculation.

WONDER : Is that really what's happening...?

RUFERU : Indeed. It may be difficult to wrap your head around, but it's the truth. What's even worse is that when a human's Shadow loses control, the monstrous Shadows are also effected. They will continue to drain the desires from the real world until there are none left.

WONDER : (.........)

RUFERU : I don't know everything yet. That's why we need to explore and understand that other world in detail. Although it's a bit soon, let's change the topic to work.

WONDER : Work?

RUFERU : Yup! I have high hopes for you! I'm hoping that you'll work with me and become a Phantom Thief. As for what you will be stealing, you've already figured that out, haven't you?

WONDER : This is all too sudden...

RUFERU : Opportunities always come suddenly~ But, I get it. It's a lot to take in at once. Let's leave it at that for now. I'll explain more once you find the target. It will be more efficient that way. I'll be waiting for you in Shibuya after school.

RUFERU : To steal back what humanity has lost....That is the Phantom Thief's goal. I'll give you some guidance along the way. See ya later.

WONDER : I didn't say I'd help!

RUFERU : Oh!? Don't you suddenly go backing out on me! I finally set up a cool pose to take off...Ah, whatever, we can talk about it later!

With that, Ruferu flies away.

WONDER : (..........)

WONDER : (The Metaverse and Shadows....To steal back what was lost...A Phantom Thief...? Ugh...Lunch break is almost over, I'd better hurry to the cafeteria!)

As Wonder is rushing down the staircase, he suddenly bumps into Arai, sending him and his phone flying. Arai, noticing his phone is flying across the hallway, leaps to catch it before it breaks. Then she stands up and brushes her skirt while Wonder is still laying on the ground, blushing and rubbing the back of her head.

MOTOHA ARAI : Sorry about that, Wonder, I was lost in thought and didn't notice you were there. Ah, actually, it was you I was thinking about....

WONDER : Yeah...I'm sorry, too.

MOTOHA ARAI : Ah...Right! Almost forgot. You dropped this! I caught it in time so it shouldn't be damaged or anything.

She hands Wonder's phone to him.

MOTOHA ARAI : Huh!? That icon...

Riko Tanemura approaches with a hand on her hip, glaring at them.

RIKO TANEMURA : Please refrain from performing diving catches in the hallways.

MOTOHA ARAI : Ah...Sorry, Riko senpai. It's just that Wonder almost dropped his phone...

RIKO TANEMURA : It seems you still have the ability to win the Best Nine award to this day.

MOTOHA ARAI : That was years ago...

RIKO TANEMURA : Oh you...

She looks at Wonder.

RIKO TANEMURA : You're the one from before...

WONDER : Thank you again.

RIKO TANEMURA : I just did what I had to do. By the way, you seem different from before. No, maybe it's just my imagination. Anyway, it's almost time for fifth period. Don't be late, both of you.

WONDER : (...I seem different now....She's right...It feels like I can take the initiative now...Is it because my desires have no longer been stolen...?)

MOTOHA ARAI : You okay? You've been zoning out for a sec. Fifth period is in the science lab, right? We'd better hurry up!

WONDER : (I guess I'll have to just give up on eating lunch today...)

After the final class of the day, Wonder stands to his feet and leaves the classroom, thinking to himself,

WONDER : (That's right, Ruferu said he'd wait for me in Shibuya...)

Behind him, Arai pulls out her cellphone.

MOTOHA ARAI : Wonder has the same icon on his phone...No matter how many times I delete this darn thing...I asked around school, but nobody knows what it is. Why does Wonder have it on his phone?

MOTOHA ARAI : The way he disappeared and reappeared yesterday...How does he do it?

Tomoko approaches Arai and she puts her phone away.

MOTOHA ARAI : Hey, Tomoko, isn't there a club activity today?

TOMOKO NOGE : The club room is under repair, so it got cancelled. It's been a while since we walked home together, how about it?

MOTOHA ARAI : Sure, let's do it!

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aching-tummies · 11 months ago

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Sugarless Saga: Liquified Jello

Finally got around to trying more of the sugar-free gummies. I managed to eat 15 of them this time.

I ate the gummies around 7AM on an empty stomach. I didn't have my water-bottle with me so all that wound up in my stomach was just the gummies. I was a little disappointed as there wasn't much activity or noises or anything. Eventually, around 2PM I decided to give up and made myself a bowl of instant noodles for my first meal/late lunch. After being disappointed by what I thought was the gummies failing to work, I decided that maybe a little dairy was in order to see if I could upset my tummy that way. I made myself hot chocolate with copious amounts of milk (usually I only put a splash of milk in the drink for fear of a tummy ache).

I guess the gummies need something else in the belly for them to work their magic. By 3PM, my stomach was gurgling up a storm. Like…you know that sensation when you suck jello/jelly through clenched teeth and the stuff sleuces through between your teeth as a liquified, viscous sludge? The sensation of sludge passing through the gaps between teeth--that's the same sensation I felt rumbling around in my guts. Burbles and rumbles from all over my belly.

I was shocked, It had been over 7 hours since I had downed the gummies and there they were. They just needed something else to kick around in my guts. So I guess for future reference, downing the gummies with food or at the very least with water is the way to go--by themselves they don't do much.

Even at 2AM--19 hours since I had eaten the gummies, my belly was still making those "liquifying jello" rumbles. I could feel the sensation throughout my guts and intestines too--like if Flubber was struggling, refusing to be digested and wreaking havoc throughout my guts. It wasn't a stomach ache, but my guts felt unsettled all day--there were the jello-sensations but also just a constant tensing of my guts like they were getting ready for a #2 that never happened.

I'm writing this around 10AM of the next day, 27 hours since I ate 15 sugar-free gummies. The gurgles have stopped and my gut is relatively calm now, but I still feel a slight "sludge" sensation in my intestines. It's not moving around, but it kind of feels like some sludge is clogging up my digestive tract. Maybe I'll feel something if/when I eat today.

As always, feel free to respond to this post in an ask/RP-scenario or whatever.

#tummy kink #upset stomach #sugarless tummy #tummy noises #stomach noises #stomach gurging #indigestion

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lumine-no-hikari · 7 months ago

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Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #221

M and J went out today sometime after J got back from a faraway place called Great Barrington. I had requested time by myself in the house so I could do the recording for the song I'm trying to make for you. I suppose, then, it was a "mandated man-date"????? Hahaha…

…Yeah, it wasn't that funny, I know. But maybe it got a small smile out of you nonetheless, and I'll count that as a victory for today!

But before J returned home, it was just M and I in the house for a while. We passed the time with J away by going to this awesome momo place for lunch. And... given that you speak Japanese, your first thought might be about peaches, but this kind of momo is not a peach - it is a dumpling!!

It was a Nepalese place, and... the food there looked kind of like a halfway point between Indian food and Chinese food. And I know you don't have places called China or India on Gaia (that's what your planet is called, right?), so... dumplings and noodles feature pretty strongly in Chinese cuisine, and then in Indian cuisine, they use yogurt and tomatoes and lots of different kinds of spices, and... I guess what you get when you mix these, at least in the place we went to, was lots of different kinds of dumplings in broths that resemble tikka masala. Here:

...I also took pictures of the menu; I wonder if maybe you've seen food like this before during your travels:

Along the way, M and I met a kindly gentleman who was wandering around with a cardboard sign, offering a song, a joke, or a bit of advice for a dollar. He says he used to be a mental health counselor, and... I can't help but wonder what happened such that he is wandering around carrying a cardboard sign. But it is no business of mine; similarly, the $20 we gave him will help him, and what he does with it is his own business; he's gotta live his life his own way, and if we can help even a little, it is good.

Given that he was a mental health counselor, he said he is good at advice, and I am always wanting to learn about others' perspectives, so I asked for his thoughts. He then proceeded to show me one of his tattoos; I took these photos and am sharing them with his permission, do not worry:

...It says, "Collect the broken things and let their jagged edges fit into yours."

...You know. I think in one of my letters to you, I might have written something like this. Something about doing our best to love the broken things, I think it was. And other things about turning our jagged pieces into something wholesome and beautiful.

It's a beautiful piece of advice. And.. it's what I try to do with my life in general. We can take the broken things by the hand and lead them to perhaps a better outcome than they might have been able to imagine before. It's part of why I write these letters; every day, I try to lead those who are lost in the dark, or caught in their pain and fear, back into the light where they belong. Every day, I try to weave part of the roadmap that works for me, in hopes that it might work for someone else.

This kindly gentleman told me a very little bit about his story. I hope he can find safety and peace. I hope that what little I was able to do for him today helps him to find whatever he's looking for.

Once M and I returned home, we played some more Grounded. I like building networks of ziplines, and so our version of The Yard has a pretty intricate zipline system; I'm really liking how it's turning out! One of the obstacles involved with planning ziplines, though, is that if your character's body brushes against a blade of grass, they fall from the zipline.

The only solution I've found is to put the ziplines in very high places, where there's no risk of colliding with grass or other plant life. And the only way to get up to the high places (like the top of the birdbath near the hedges, or the top of the little pagoda in the pond, or the top of the huge logs in the upper yard, or the picnic table benches...) is by building lots and lots and lots of stairs.

Fortunately, though, I am autistic; I am well-suited for repetitive, pattern-based work. I have lots and lots of patience for it. I can forage for the supplies for stairs and then build stairs all damn day. It's one of my better superpowers.

M and J went to go see a movie called Inside-Out 2. I stayed home to record.

...I recorded for a long time. I repeated the song many times. I am not satisfied with how any of the recordings turned out.

...I used to have so much better control over my voice than this. But the rib injury messes with the muscles of my throat, and so my voice is harder to control than it used to be. I can show you a little bit of what I used to be capable of:

...I feel like anything I do now is... kind of pale by comparison.

I have a rough draft. I'll show it to you, but only if you promise not to hate it so much that you are motivated to crush my skull into the floor just to get me to shut up:

...I have to re-do the vocals. I used to be able to do so much better than this... and I'm gonna hafta do so much better than this if I want to be able to move anyone to having compassion for you.

...If I want to move you into having compassion for yourself enough to turn around...

...Well. I guess the thing to do is try again tomorrow. Suppose we'll see what happens then...

I think I'll end today's letter here. I'm maybe a bit dysregulated from thinking about all the things I can't do as easily anymore, and I don't wanna get weird.

I love you. And I'll write again tomorrow, so please stay safe...

Your friend, Lumine

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ohifonlyx33 · 6 months ago

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I love how much food variety there is available in America when you consider all the ethnicities bringing their own food over. Like... It's insane.

I can get a simple deli sandwich or German-inspired hamburgers and fries or southern soul food like Fried chicken or country-fried steak and mac n cheese or mash potatoe. We can have breakfast pancake and with bacon and egg or biscuit and gravy, but I can also get Jewish Bagels or French or Danish pastries or Czech kolaches filled with meat or sweets.

Then if I want something spicy I can order Mexican food (typically Tex Mex but still good), or Indian samosas and curries, or maybe I want try Korean bulgogi and BBQ Chicken and then burn my mouth and regret my life choices trying tteokbokki, or Japenese sushi and ramen and boba tea, theres also Thai and Vietnamese, or perhaps I'll just order Chinese-American takeout. Or if I don't want Lo Mein, but I still want noodles, I can get (or cook) varying levels of "authentic" Italian pasta quite easily.

And if we can't decide: we probably end up just getting pizza.

Today alone I had a kolache for Breakfast, a Korean hotdog (like a hotdog stuffed inside a mozzarella stick, wrapped in a corn dog, and fried... amazing) with a fruity popping Boba slushie thing for lunch, and now for dinner I might just have a bowl of Cereal or a frozen pork egg roll or a pb&j or a yogurt and some fruit.

Like this is just a post to appreciate how many choices we have...

So. Many.

Kings of old will weep.

And yet sometimes it seems like our choices consist of berger or nuggies or salad. Chocolat or Vanilla extract.

But the while wide world is open to us.

And yet people still willingly choose to eat cream cheese and put pineappl on pizza 🤢

#food #food appreciation #i say this as a picky eater... there are so many foods I haven't tried and foods i probably never will but i still have so many choices!

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fangirlstorycreator · 2 years ago

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Terry CK X Reader

Context: Terry can smell the lunch your making and asks to join you 💚

You were happily doing your thing in the kitchen, making some lunch while some music was playing in the background. Terry wasnt home at that time, he said he was working at the dojo all day and probably wouldn't be home till late. And as you had the afternoon off from coming back from work, you decided to make yourself some of your favourite food, spiced chicken with vegetables and ramen. The kitchen was filled with the aroma of spiced chicken breast that was marinated on the kitchen side and the vegetables you had cut up left a fresh and wonderful smell.

However, very unexpectedly, you hear the front door open and in walks Terry. "Hey sweetheart" "Hey babe! I wasnt expecting you back for ages?" "Ah yes, well it turns out there is a stomach bug making the rounds and nearly 80% of the students have it. So I couldn't keep the dojo open today" You give him a warm smile, walk up to him, rest your hand on his chest and give him a sweet little kiss in the lips. "Aww I'm sorry to hear that Terry, but noone can help it if there is a bug going around" "That's true" Terry's focus changes suddenly, instead of looking at you, his eyes close and he inhales all the smells of the kitchen.

When his eyes open again and hes looking down at you, he asks "What are you making that smells this good sweetheart?" "I'm just making one of my favourite ramen dishes, I have plenty of ingredients hear, would you like me to make you some too?" "Oh sweetheart, I would love that. Thank you" He lifts your chin with his finger and kisses you sweetly again. "Its not going to be ready for a little while yet, so why dont you go get yourself a shower and get into something comfy?" "You just read my mind Y/N, I'll be back in a while" Kissing you on the forehead, he then makes his way to the stairs and up towards the bathroom.

Thankfully you had enough ingredients for two of you, so you got the 2 chicken breasts and cooked them in a pan with a little butter and garlic, pan frying them until they were cooked through completely, nice and juicy. Then you boiled the ramen in the ingredients packet and some chicken stock, and when that was nearly done, you threw the vegetables into the same pan as the chicken and sauted them in with the other flavours, just as your eggs were none boiling in the little pan. You could hear Terry getting out of the shower upstairs just as you were dishing up. You got two bowls and filled them with the noodles and broth, then you placed on top of the noodles the vegetables. And sliced the chicken breasts, and the eggs, adding them too.

You had just put them on the table when Terry walked into the room in his black vest top and grey jogging bottoms. "That smells wonderful sweetheart" "Thank you Terry, let's hope it tastes as good as it smells for you" You both take a seat and Terry takes a bite of the noodles and chicken. You had never seen Terry close his eyes as he ate food before, it looked like he savoured every moment. "Oh my god, that is absolutely amazing" "You really think so?" "Sweetheart I have never had a dish like this, and I'm more than impressed! The flavours, the spices, and the chicken is cooked beautifully"

"I'm so glad you like it babe, I'll do it for you again when you want it. And maybe I'll even cook you some diffrent flavoured ones? Like garlic and chili prawn? Or-" "Sweetheart, everything you cook turns into pure gold, and I will be more than happy to try your other flavours" "You are very sweet Terry, you know that right?" "Thank you sweetheart, you know...neither of us have to work this afternoon. Why dont I take us to the spa in town? It will be a nice way to spend the rest of the afternoon" "Terry, you had me at spa!" You giggle and Terry chuckles, before you both carry on, enjoying you lunch.

#thomas ian griffith #sensei targaryen #terry silver #cobra kai #terry silver x reader

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softsky-daily · 1 year ago

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9/22/2023

I was back near the lake again and happened to capture a plane taking off from the nearby airport.

Positive thing: I played Salmon Run with some friends for the first time, and I also had lunch with classmates.

I'm definitely glad it's the weekend and I can sleep in tomorrow. I always feel myself dozing off during the day since I hardly get enough sleep at night so being able to lie in bed and not stress about stuff I have to do will be nice.

My friends at lunch today were really, really stressed. Like, I'm stressed about prac and classes but I could tell they were especially going through it. I'd mention saying it was going to be fine if we end up not doing this field, if it's not what we think it is and we end up doing something else, and be met with a very pressed "it's not fine this is horrible". Which yeah it is horrible in a sense. Being stressed literally ruins everything else in your life and just being told "don't stress about it" is about the worst advice you can give.

Maybe it just reminded me of a few years ago (that feel like an eternity) where I was, if you can believe it, a way more anxious and depressed person who struggled even worse with coping through it. I ran the gamut of pushing myself, letting myself have extreme spirals, you name it. I used to think it was unthinkable that I'd fail at anything. It was so unthinkable I'd actively run away from things I thought I'd fail at. But the truth was that I even failed at things I thought would be good at. And after a while I realized you may have a decent idea of your strengths and weaknesses but you can never perfectly predict how something will go. By not going through with things, sometimes you rob yourself of really good opportunities. But anyway, I still struggle with the fear and want for control and perfectionism so I get it.

Oh yeah, another positive thing is I went to the Asian market for noodles and wandered around. I love looking at the shelves of random stuff at grocery stores. I find it genuinely fascinating how we have so many different products just to make food delicious or convenient.

They didn't have the specific Buldak flavor I wanted, so I think I'll try a different market tomorrow. If the one I try doesn't have it, I'll have to go to the huge Asian market that I know has everything but is like, a 40 minute drive so I'd rather try to find a closer place.

#skyposting #thoughtposting

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frizzle-tales · 2 years ago

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As soon as Jiyeon spotted the website, she could finally understand why Taehyung had asked; he planned on having lunch at one of her favorite places. She didn’t quite understand why, but nonetheless a small but cautious smile appeared on her features as he opened the menu.

“Their beef tomato noodles are really good, and their spicy chicken ones… I usually got the set menu with side salad and drink.” She answered him, but before she could recommend him any of the dessert options, a knock sounded from the door.

The constant touching; the rubbing of their fabrics, the nonstop traveling of his hands across her body, soon made Jiyeon ‘s face fluster a light shade of red. She muttered a weak ‘Okay’ when Taehyung spoke to her, but before she could get away from him, she was stopped and given a clear warning. “I… understand, Taehyung.” Jiyeon replied, a shiver running down her spine, stopping herself from dashing away from him when he finally did let her go.

Jiyeon opened the door to Taehyung’s assistant, and she noticed that Jiho was different than the others she had met so far. He wasn’t loud and yapping nor did he seemed to harbor any ill feelings towards Jiyeon, atleast… not yet.

“Huh?” Jiyeon turned to look at him, wondering if he really was addressing her with that… nickname, a nickname she always heard married couples who were madly in love say, not something she thought either of the two would use in their situation. “Alright…” She moved away from Jiho and sat on the sofa nearest to Taehyung.

Did she do something wrong?

—

It wasn’t long until Taehyung’s assistant returned back with their lunches, along with the change, and after a quick chat where Jiho checked with Taehyung if anything else needed to be done, Jiho left the two to enjoy their meal.

“Taehyung…” Jiyeon picked up the chopsticks, waiting for Taehyung to start before she could. “I was just wondering…” Jiyeon started as she opened the can of soda, not yet taking a sip. “What are we? I mean uhm… you know, for if people ask, what should I tell them that we are?” Jiyeon clarified, finally starting to eat when she saw Taehyung starting on his meal.

It has been so long until she had this taste. Maybe spending time with Taehyung wasn’t so bad afterall.

— 🎙️

"Yes. Mhm." Taehyung still sat at his desk. The corded phone held against his ear with one hand, while the other scribbled down information coming in from the other side of the line. "I'll give them a call back in a bit. Leave a message if you have to."

At that moment, Jiho stumbled in carrying two bags of take out. Silently, without needing his boss's direction, he took each container and drink out of the bag, setting them across the table. And after a brief check in with Taehyung, once the phone audibly hung up, he left the office behind.

"Yes, Jiyeonnie?" The man answered her, taking a seat next to the young woman. Normally, he's sit across from her. It was the perfect way to admire her features, learn more about her, observe her habits. But today something compelled him otherwise. He needed to be closer.

"Well isn't that a fascinating question." He mused once she finished, a grin pulling on his lips. "I suppose it is time for us to come up with a proper story now, isn't it?" Using his chopsticks, Taehyung pulled her bowl closer to him before trying a bite of the lunch she chose. "What do you think, hm? Let's see, if anyone asks.." He nudged it back towards her. "You're my fiancé. We met orientation day at your university, and have been inseparable ever since. That will be our story, do you understand?"

Though, his words did ignite some thoughts in his mind. Jiyeon, his little bird trapped in a cage.. She'd make such a wonderful partner. She was still young enough for her mind, her every thought, to be molded by him. Not to mention how inexperienced the poor thing was.

Its exactly the advice his father gave him oh so many years ago.

—

"You have to pick your women carefully, Taehyung." The boy's father spoke, his voice slightly hushed as the two crouched behind some dead bushes. "I tell you this from father to son--" Bullets clicked into the rifle's chamber, the sound creating a soft echo. "--Never choose a woman who's willing to throw themselves at you. They have no decency. And never go for one who catches just anybody's eye."

The gun lifted, aiming at a target through the twigs and branches.

"Remember, the younger they are, the easier it is for them to be taught. You need to be able to keep her in line."

In the distance, leaves crunched under the weight of a deer that stumbled into their line of sight.

"If she's a wild one, a woman with her own thoughts ..."

A blow bounced off the trees. Birds squawked, flying off in a panic. While in the distance, the animal dropped to the ground.

"... She'll never respect you. You want her sweet. Obedient. A beautiful gem only to you."

—

Perhaps after all, they were meant to meet. Jiyeon was meant to be his. It was beginning to look like the only reasonable explanation.

After their special lunch together, Taehyung returned to his work, leaving the young woman to her own devices on the sofa, until the clock ticked closer and closer to 5 p.m.

"Come on, sweetheart. Get up." Taehyung whispered from behind her, leaning ever so slightly over the back of the couch. "Let's go home now, shall we?" As she listened, he held out her jacket for her to slip her arms into. Once it was on her, his hands rested on her hips. "Don't forget our little story from earlier. We wouldn't want any slip ups, now would we?"

A snicker vibrated from his chest before one hand slid to Jiyeon's, intertwining their fingers before leading her out of his office.

#🎙anon #serial killer!taehyung #yandere taehyung

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patentedchronicles · 3 days ago

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26/2/25, girl procrastinated too close to the sun, now has three deadlines to finish by tomorrow

<//3 You heard it here first, folks.

Mostly done assignment: so like I fucked up the code for half of it, and didn't bother testing the other half, and when I went to submit it I realized they have a q&a that is worth marks that grills you on your code and your tests so.... Theoretically it really is not a big deal I can get it done in two hours max but UGHHH

Not done at all assignment: This is my actual worry. I haven't even covered the theory for it, let alone written ANY code. So I'm going to prioritize this for the next 6-8 hours and we'll see how it ends up

Not done at all , not an assignment, but a group work: Which means i HAVE to get it done (I refuse to be a deadbeat groupmate). It's just really boring which is why I hate working on it. But anyways. We will persevere.

POSITIVES: No classes today, late classes tomorrow. Theoretically I DO have enough time.

????s: Wtf do I eat for lunch. And DINNER. Maybe I'll run and grab some instant noodles or if I find loose cash i might just get a sandwich tbh (not out of my bank account = not actual spending).

NEGATIVES: I've totally forgotten how to even use java ... this is sick and twisted ...

#assignments #studyblr #ahhh the consequences of my own actions #computer science

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lapeaudelamemoire · 2 months ago

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Log, 4th January 2025 -

Yesterday:

Did some laundry

Collected my parcel from the post office

Swapped out the A3 poster in the light wood frame into the medium-coloured wood frame - found out that the frame I bought for the papercutting is the wrong size, but I'll go exchange it this weekend

Started watching Love Game in Eastern Fantasy the rest of the time

The only thing I didn't do that was on the list of things I'd meant to do was reply to an email, which had been a 'maybe', so I basically did everything I meant to yesterday, which I'm pleased about.

Today:

Folded and put away the laundry from yesterday

Did more laundry

Successfully changed the two piercing jewellery pieces to the ones I want

Paid the gas bill

Paid the parking permit renewal

Made and fed myself breakfast and lunch - I've been very good about using the instant food items I've been having left squirrelled in my pantry for ages, and finished the two macaroni packets I've had lying around for ages today, and also just finished my bottle of lychee oolong tea that had been sitting in my fridge; yesterday I ate a small bowl of instant congee for dinner and also finally had my sesame oil noodles mwahahahahah (this was a 'I wanted to eat it and bought it this week' thing), and also finished a half-eaten banana

Crossed one work thing off my list (completing the outstanding timesheets I had that weren't uploading/submitting previously)

I realise my food exploits probably sound ridiculous but eating food in my pantry and finishing food instead of saving it for later until it eventually goes off or just continues lying there is something I have a lot of trouble with. I am feeling very proud about finishing or using items that have been opened or which I have bought and not just forgetting about them or not using them, and it's something I would like to do more of from now on - and have successfully been doing so far this year (!).

I haven't started on my work stuff which I had actually meant to do but didn't write down today but I am going to say here now that I will do at least a little bit of it today. I will check back on myself later.

Probably not going into the city to pick up the children's book I need for work today however because it is 37 fucking degrees Celsius out. I will do this tomorrow instead.

Therefore -

Today's remaining tasks:

Start doing at least some work on either my logbooks OR my second case report draft

Maybe actually figure out how to use Wise and finish transferring some money to myself

Possibly go exchange the frame I need for one the right size - this is very unlikely however, given that the shop closes in an hour???

Tomorrow:

Go into the city to get the children's book I need for work

Exchange the frame I need for the right size

OKAY!!! SETTING INTENTIONS AAAAA-

#personal #log

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40sandfabulousaf · 2 months ago

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大家好! I hadn't noticed how privileged we are when we include eggs as the most basic form of nutrition in our meals until I watched Bisan from Gaza. In a recent video, she mentioned she hadn't eaten eggs for months. This made me more mindful and thankful as I made lunch of a potato bun, carrot sticks, 2 ajitsuke tamago and coriander hummus. Inflation might be coming under control, but food is much more expensive nowadays. Thanks to conflicts in the world, life has regressed for many across the globe. Eggs may be a luxury to those who're struggling to put food on the table, just as they were during our forefathers' time decades ago.

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I've eaten hummus and loved it. It was time to try something new. Baba ganoush is a luscious dip from Lebanon, made from eggplant, tahini, lemon and garlic. It's the first time I'm trying it and I'm very excited. Besides eating this and hummus with celery and carrot sticks as well as potato bread, I might experiment using them as sandwich spreads with other fresh veggies. For protein, I'll start with smoked salmon, canned sardines or sliced and mashed tau kwa (firm tofu). Bread is 1 of my least preferred form of carbohydrates; I'm a rice and noodles person. However, alleviating suffering is very close to my heart. Supporting Palestinians in Gaza and Lebanese as they're going through hardship is very important to me. So if I have to eat bread with hummus and baba ganoush, I will.

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Pa and I returned to the vegan cafe after a few months. We were early and it was still closed, so whilst we waited, we had coffee. What drew us back was a promotional deal of 20% off their bibimbap. I ordered that, added 'scrambled eggs' (tau kwa coloured with turmeric) for extra protein and declined the gochujang to cut down on salt intake. Besides the tofu scramble, the rice came with seaweed, enoki mushrooms, shredded carrots, kimchi, sweet corn, green beans and roasted tau kwa (firm tofu). This was SO delicious! I finished all of it. Pa also finished his bean burger with steamed sweet potatoes and salad.

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In Singapore, we have about 3 months of rainy weather and 9 months of intense heat. I live in athleisure most of the time when I don't have to return to office. During the hottest months, I can be found in shorts, sports bras and airy tops. My favourite footwear to match these outfits is flip flops and, speaking of them, it was time to replace my current pair. I've tried and loved Anta's sling bags, backpacks, leggings, sports bras, tops, caps and socks. Now that it's time to replace my flip flops, they were the first brand I checked out and they didn't disappoint; behold my new Anta slippers! I've worn them already and they're SO comfy.

It's NYE today. As we enter a brand new year, my prayers are for peace between Israel and Palestine so that both are able to exist in safety and harmony. I also pray that Palestinians will survive the winter cold which has claimed the lives of several babies. The outlook for 2025 remains unpredictable, but I'm glad to see the back of the Biden administration, which has had 2 wars which commenced on its watch. May there be no new wars on President Trump's watch, otherwise, maybe the US shouldn't have a President at all. It doesn't benefit the world if there's only chaos. 下次见!

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aching-tummies · 1 year ago

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Hunger Prompt

3rd or 4th night in a row where I've gone to bed with an achy, hungry tummy.

I'm in the process of applying for more post-secondary education. Application fees, deposits, paying for authorization of academic records and such--all of that is taking massive bites out of my humble bank account. At the same time I'm still juggling more than one job and still applying for "better" employment. Seeing what's out there, what could potentially make my hours more worth it (i.e. paying me more than my current places), jobs that'll give me more preferred hours, and all that jazz. On top of it all, family is dealing with some health stuff and some big home projects we're all pitching in for…so…time, money, and patience/stress stuff is all being stretched super thin.

My stomach's often been neglected over the last week or so. I work basically every day of the week, with maybe half of the week as 'little' shifts (takes me more time to commute than the amount of time I actually spend being paid). The little shifts are annoying because getting up and ready is the same regardless if I work a 4 hour or a 14 hour shift (not technically legal and I'm exaggerating a bit…I have had days where I've worked for 12.5 hours or so though). Anyway…with the little shifts it's super annoying because it means I get up and leave the house before anyone else is up--so cooking and making breakfast in a house that may include some light sleepers isn't recommended. That means I either gotta prep a breakfast the night before, or pick up breakfast at a fast-food place and I end up eating breakfast anywhere from 7:30AM-10AM depending on when my shift starts and whether I opt to eat at home, eat it while in transit/waiting for a bus, or eat at a fast-food place somewhere. Work stretches until somewhere between noon-3 depending on when I started…which means I worked through lunch and by the time I'm off it's too early for dinner. Family and/or housemates tell me of dinner plans so I have to commit to saving my appetite for dinner…which means I end up being extremely hungry until some time between 6-9PM--depending on when our house manages to get dinner on the table. I'm also an extremely slow eater because I find that eating at what's considered a "normal" pace often gives me a tummy ache really quickly--often mid-meal.

For the last 4 or so days…this has been the cycle. Breakfast before 9AM, 10 hours between a measly breakfast and a planned dinner…that has been cancelled the last 4 nights 'cuz one of the other members of the family/house has reneged on the "save your stomach for dinner"…so I end up having to throw together something after 8PM after housemates have stopped their flip-flopping…so…11 hours after a singular breakfast sandwich I'll maybe have a packet of instant noodles or half a cup of pasta mixed with oil and seasoning and some frozen veg. I think 2 nights out of those 4 (tonight included), I've actually been too tired to bother with finding/making breakfast. Housemates bicker over dinner and the person(s) that reneged on the "wait for dinner" rule…so then nobody gets any dinner/everyone fends for themselves…

I deal with a lot at home--between responding to and staying on top of post-secondary applications, job-applications, planning, budgeting, and doing my part of the home projects, I also have a few personal projects--handicraft stuff to replace stuff wearing out (i.e. new scarf 'cuz maybe old one is getting a bit too dirty or worn to be nice), sewing cosplay stuff for myself or friends, etc. While abiding by the often-challenged "save your appetite for dinner" rule, I've distracted myself with these things. That's what I did today too--having not eaten since 9AM…and when I finally felt too tired to continue my projects, I realized it's passed midnight, nobody's had the proper dinner that two members of the house were harping on, and my stomach is aching. Unfortunately, I can barely keep my eyes open and the idea of standing over the pot to cook instant noodles for 5 minutes + another 5 to wash everything + however long it takes me to eat…that just seems too daunting and I'd rather not doze off in a pot of boiling water.

Unfortunately, my neglected stomach isn't growling. It aches and I can tell that I'm hungry--but it's not audibly hungry.

I don't know if this is worth a "send your best responses" thing--but go for it if you want. Honestly, the fact that my stomach isn't even growling makes me think that that often-seen scenario where the other party with-holds food until they decide my stomach is truly hungry or whatever sounds kind of fun. My stomach remains mute so no matter how much I say that I'm hungry or that my stomach is aching with hunger, the partner teases by saying something like, "I want your tummy to tell me" or something. Basically, a partner that teasingly refuses to take my word for it and will only accept 'truth' from my stomach. Even if my stomach ever actually growls audibly, maybe it's not deemed loud enough 'cuz the partner hasn't had their fill…so I won't be getting mine.

#hunger kink #hungry tummy #empty tummy

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