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Life update: trip sucked, legal and financial chaos ensued... Now the dust has settled, the emo squirrels living in my backyard are adorably round and fat, and I'm back in driving this good old meat suit on first person mode again
#the holidays are making me think of red sharks and green elfs#writing this is making me realise I could decorate my appartement with sin instead#maybe i could like christmas after all#i could have drawn something festive but there are too many good farming game around nowadays idk what to say
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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!
#cats#holiday#OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few#days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart#rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart#so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag#and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day#last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few#hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent#ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect#because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make#me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these#'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a#few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is#getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better#and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo#I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c#Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after#like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was#doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally#ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully#whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos#ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely#though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart#stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive#things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***
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everyone get up and make some noise for sirius' vivienne westwood two cowboys with their cocks out shirt!! we're losing our minds over here for sirius' vivienne westwood two cowboys with their cocks out shirt!!
#sorry i uhh. wrote this yesterday and just have not been able to stop thinking about it since so you guys had to see it#google vivienne westwood two cowboys shirt you know the one i mean xx the famous one from SEX xx#unironically this scene went from being kind of difficult to get through to housing my favourite paragraph ive written so far. all because#of sirius black's gay cowboy shirt. also pretentious vaggio reference because well this is remus' pov after all and i have spent#the last few weeks poring over the caravaggio art book i got for christmas i love it sooo much xx#hes done like. 8 john the baptist paintings but theres a few specific ones that really. give me the vibes im going for with sirius' arms xx#he's sooo. well maybe i get it is all im saying#this fic is just. sirius' gay little outfits and descriptions of all the different mugs remus owns and lots of flat kitchens#it is also just. remus having the worst ever time of his life emotionally physically financially and then sirius. sitting next to him#engaging in the sluttiest behaviour you could possibly imagine and having a little smoke#tonight they are in james' kitchen xx he has cooked them all a chicken jalfrezi xx#my fic#snippet#r/s#tsah
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Everyone Introduced in Dimension 20′s Neverafter episode 4
#dimension 20 spoilers#dimension 20#d20 introductions#neverafter#neverafter spoilers#finally got around to after a real busy week leading up to the holidays- even got to watch this on christmas! what a treat#weirdly enough i don't really feel too bothered by the..... horror or anything this episode i guess? it feels right up my alley i think#the multiverse hopping with consequences thing feels pretty neat too imo; it's tuesday breakfast for me but i'm still interested in how#how they'll handle it and if it'll be different from the ways i usually see it when i consume content like that#i LOVED all their different ways of sort of crossing over too#i feel most unsettled by pinocchio's whole deal with stepmother; and i LOVE the deal with zac's character and the animal spirits#those are my favorite characters so far and for those reasons#my best wishes go out to ylfa..... who i could swear didn't have an intro card this ep but maybe i just missed it#oh well
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Remember my super cool Mori? My Mori is different from regular Mori. It's like my Mori is in the top percentage of Nagayoshis.
#Fate/Grand Order#fgo#Mori Nagayoshi#I am going to use all of my apples to farm EXP christmas lotto be damned.#I'm gonna have to wait a while since I'm technically short on servant coins.#I could spend more SQ to get one more copy but hitting bond 15 should cover it.#And trust me. I spent a lot of SQ to get to this point.#He's NP 18.#For context: I also got Summer Nobu to NP 6; Okita J Souji to NP 2; Okuni and Lancer Ryoma to NP 1; and my Murder Hobo to NP 19.#And a fucking Ganesha spook.#I stopped on the Okuni banner shortly after getting her since the Ryoma banner was a few days away and I kinda maybe sorta like them.#They're my emotional support straights.#And I'd like to have a chance of getting them.#And I did and I am living in bliss with my Mom v2; Dad v2; and homicidal doggos.#Uhh anyways thank you for coming to my TED Talk.
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🕯️ Prayer circle for the mooncat polish I just ordered not to explode in transit or when I get it or while using it or just in general 🕯️
#i keep seeing stuff about bottles breaking and people getting cut by the glass but oh my GOD that siren collection#i need a fucking display… thing. i’m never gonna financially recover from this#stopping biting your nails is all well and fucking good until you get addicted to nail polish and you have expensive tastes#i couldn’t have been into essie or rimmel london could i? nooooo it had to be holo taco#(i can’t say i’m addicted to mooncat til i try it)#i would’ve waited til christmas but my grandma randomly gave me money and i don’t have pressing expenses so why not#i have also kicked the weed habit. i mean kind of. i have edibles on the way but the craving’s gone. it’s the oddest thing#like it’ll be nice to have these edibles but i won’t be ordering more for a While after these. i’m talking like six months or more#i’m gonna be asking everyone for HT and mooncat gift cards for christmas#and rainbow connection maybe. i haven’t tried any of their polishes yet but they donate to good causes and i appreciate that#i just don’t like when my nails are bald lol. they’re getting stained and they’re SO sharp bald#i need like 57 options and i’ll be happy#personal
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it’s finally starting to settle in that christmas is in 3 fucking days
#like. it doesnt even feel like winter#maybe i’m js getting older but last i checked i was counting down the hours and it was getting hard to sleep at night#it was a “its finally cold out! my favorite time of year! we’re off on break! christmas is almost here!”#n now its a “oh right christmas. free stuff”#my parents apparently have something big planned for my 18th this year and i can’t bring myself to even look forward to it?#like. yeah. my fucking eighteenth birthday is in like a week#and the start of a new year is less of a celebration and more of a sigh of relief#its more of a “yippee. another year. at least it’s a fresh start.”#i think this is the 2020 effect#2020 was 4 years ago guys. that is absolutely insane#its not even nostalgia it’s just “wow. okay.”#its like getting punched in the gut yk#2020 was the last year the holidays felt right.#now my whole life feels like a blur and i cannot believe it was four whole years ago#and now we’re entering 2024 with nothing but see you again by tyler the creator and a few loose hopes#the election is this year#maybe things will fix themselves and go back to normal#thats all ive ever wanted since 2020 ended. was for things to just be normal#after the masking mandates were lifted i felt like maybe they could#but im just kinda being rushed through life#and i wish it would just be normal.
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im GOING to write today ........ i WILL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#the sky speaks#i havent used twitter in so long and lemme say i missed using tumblr like twitter. just putting my long rambly notes into a single post#anyways onto the rambling#i havent been writing or drawing like at alllll#too busy#also was so sick#but now that i have my new job and i know what my schedule is gonna sorta look like#3 days at joann 2 days cleaning w mom and 2 days nothin#PLUS i dont have to spend money on therapy til after the new year now#and mom is coming home and she seems rly optimistic abt sobriety#im feeling like i can finally create again !!!!#i have 2 creative presents i need to do before christmas#but aside that and 1 prompt still in my inbox (that i rly wanna do anyways) everything else i wanna do is all for Me :)#im kinda put out bc a lot of stuff i wanted to do this fall got shelved.. i wanted to make bday art of kirishima xinyan and kazuha.#i wanted to open comms. but im way too rusty w art rn to be confident doing that. maybe after new years?#god i wanted to come out to my parents properly. the day my mom went to rehab was national coming out day.#it was also one of my last therapy sessions. i came out to her instead#i still managed to do stuff tho. started my new job and got together with friends TWICE !! and i've kept up w doing my moms job alone#idk where im going w this anymore ive lost steam. but yeah. i wanna write today! idk what yet. i hav so many wips i could work on..
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it's interesting to always read about american evangelical protestantism as the reason why so many people base their worldview on the fact that suffering is a moral necessity because... catholicism is the same. I grew up up in a staunchly atheist household but I unwittingly absorbed these same ideas from the ambient noise of default catholicism around me. I may be wrong but I think this is just a christian thing actually
#sidenote i had this discussion last christmas with a friend#that was convinced there were like. aspects of 'traditional beliefs' that were older than catholicism#and so could be thought of separate. I disagreed!#there's nothing about our particular way of living that's not been molded by catholicism#nothing would have survived unscathed after two thousand years of this shit#you can throw a bomb on vatican city (and I will support you) but true change in this aspect#will never come from finding 'roots unmarred by christianity' because I don't think those exist anymore#not speaking about 'all italians' or anything there's many people who aren't catholic#just. you know. the idea that some superstition are 'older' than catholicism (maybe! but they've been absorbed into it seamlessly!)
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Stiles Stilinski is my favorite/comfort character, which means that I have a deeply desire to ship him with everyone, wish pain and suffering upon himself and an unresolved need to read 'Dead Stiles Stilinski' fics.
I need more angst in my life. I need him to suffer
#but also I need more what if fics with Stiles dying in many situations. like why there's no fic where he's the third virgin sacrifice????#what if stiles died after getting kidnapped by gerwhateverhisname?? like maybe he tried to do something to save Erica and Boyd that got him#killed or just the events took a darker turn than canon#stiles dying in all those instances where a gun has been pointed at his face#THE NOGITSUNE MAN. Stiles getting affected by the bite Scott gave his double and dying because of it??? Stiles actually dying instead of#losing concussions after they got the nogitsune??? Stiles not having a divine move and actually following with the suicide route????#What If the Nogitsune possessed Allison and is Stiles the one who dies when they go rescue Lydia??? That idea is living rent free in my#mind not gonna lie. I could see Stiles spending time with mr Argent trying to understand why he was able to hurt an Oni#Imagine Stiles stealing Chris's gun (the one he used back then) with only a few bullets in it and a silver knife and when the bullets run#off he stabs the last oni and that's when it hits him. is silver.#ANYWAY the idea was that.therr's no enough dead Stiles Stilinski on AO3 !#and I wanr more#teen wolf stiles#teen wolf#stiles stilinski#all I want for Christmas is more angst and rare ship fics with this boy#PETER EITHER FORCING THE BITE ON STILE OR HIM ACCEPTING ONLY FOR IT TO NOT TAKE???? WHERE'S THAT.FIC AT HUH?????#just... the showdown is over peter is dead and derek is the alpha. everything nice and all until stiles... just falls on the ground.#the argents and jackson didn't need to be werewolves to tell that Stiles was hurt and bleeding but no one beside Derek knew why the blood#was turning black. anc Chris but how do you tell a bunch of kids that one of tgem was dying????#ughhhh my heart man. Derek.offering to mercy kill Stiles??? omg Stiles being like 'Dad. I can't die I can't what about dad?' like he would#ve so worried about him!!! because if Claudia dying broke him? then Stiles dying too would kill the sheriff#so much angst potential yet nothing. unbelievable
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#ladies.............. i asked him to hang out BDNJDNDJDJDJDJ#i guess..... background info maybe ???#i had asked him if he wanted to keep in touch with me n one of our mutual friends. he said sure.#said mutual friend is gone on a trip all of january#so i was like oh fuck what do i do#so.... i was like oh i can like.... tell him like....#blank is in blank. id still be down to do something or we could wait until she's back. either is good with me!!#and he was like.... (after over AN HOUR) 'i guess we could wait till she gets back'#so im like NDJDJDJDDKS OK. i sent.... okay let me know if you change your mind !!#like brb dying NDJDJJDJSJDMS#like could have been worse. like he could have said no to both. idk the 'i guess' is kind of sending me.#n e way. im just glad he replied. thats more than most ppl get from him JDJDJDJDJJDJDJDJ#hhhhhhhh ya... idk if i was ready to hang out with him by myself anyway. id like to get to know him better first....#like i wanna see if we can even be friends outside of school....... n e way !!!!#so relieved that i just asked !!! its been hanging over my head a few weeks now. i just wanted to have a calm christmas n new years JDJDNDN#personal#ONE OF MY TAGS GOT ERASED. HOLD ON#... GOTTA GO ON DESKTOP TO FIX IT#edit: ok it should be fixed
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#Weekly TV Guide#Happy Christmas Eve everyone <3 Turns out it was a Fellplates Christmas after all!#I didn't tag it as much since he's a skeleton but do be on the lookout for injury - nothing like a hurting-Gaster-Christmas pfft#Another mix to send off the year! Like I said before tho art from this year will be continuing for.....a while lol#My current queue has dipped all the way into February and it's still December...#But in the meanwhile there'll be lots of things! Sometimes different things like this week-#Although I have to say the bookends here could maybe count as a bit of foreshadowing lol#Not completely! Yet#But I'm quite pleased with how to see out the year hehe ♪ It feels fitting :D#I hope you're all safe and warm and fed and well! <3
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Well glad to know I'm not the only one not feeling the Christmas season this year. Mom isnt either
Now we dont know why, but here are my guesses. Feel free to place your bets.
Is it:
Bc our aunt/great-aunt died and essentially dissolved the family
|_> Bc of this we've faced so much bullshit from the surviving family we have left.
Bc the only remaining family we have are major assholes aside from like 4 people.
Long covid?
Work stress/ working under a tyrant piece of shit.
Bc I'm an adult now so the *magic* is gone?
All of the above??
#marquilla#we still havent made cookies and are like i want the cookies but i dont want to make the cookies...#so we agreed we can do it after christmas if need be#i really think it's all of that combined. like my g-aunt dying really tore this family apart. we weren't like close close before but i mean#everyone started taking sides (the executors (my mom) vs my cousins. like listen you motherfuckers she left you [insert number bc i also#got this amount and am not disclosing]. you little freaks need to get over the fact that she loved me as much as if not more than you.#maybe bc i wasn't a fucking entitled brat and was always a polite well behaved child (for her) and didnt take my mommy/daddy issues out on#her. you already got: 2 free cars. 3 fully paid for weddings. 4 college degrees (one that you're not even using bc you havent worked since#college bc you became a tradwife. (not dissing stay at home moms im dissing her making college a BIG DEAL for her and then just#essentially saying haha thanks for the 100k in tuition but no ❤). COUNTLESS hours and money poured#into your lives from her and our g-uncle. amongst the 4 of you. (only 1 is not a brat but thats bc they pretend she doesnt exist bc shes#annoying and autistic so a drain on them they were ever so happy to dump on their dad)#you aren't entitled to any of that. that was a GIFT. your inheritance was well thought out. it is an insult for you to suggest otherwise#anyway so theyre being whiny brats and oh boo hoo you exects are SO MEAN to poor Ally who didnt sign the fucking will and thus held up#$50k FROM A CHURCH. and my uncle (not their dad. their moms brother) is taking their side. his wife is a massive piece of shit ab it too.#dont know whose side dog cousin is on bc shes close to my mom but very close to them. and i know lesbian cousin is on moms side to some#degree. and idgaf what Murderer cousin thinks bc that bitch can and will rot in hell.#so anyway any one we could possibly spend time with this season is either dead or hates us. or lives states away and won't be in til after#and only for a day anyway. and we just dont have the fucking energy to deal with anything
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However, there are only so many puzzles you can do, as my family found out during the height of the pandemic. So it wasn't long before the gang started doing their own things again -- Smiler hopped back on their laptop to start modding Blicblock; Alice got back on the old travel easel and started painting again (first another surreal painting, then a flirty painting), and Victor went out in the rain to practice his Mischief magic -- and immediately learned Burgliate, the spell that lets you steal stuff. XD Welp then! Unsure what to do with him after that, and not wanting him to stay out in the rain (or, accurately, out in the THUNDERSTORM -- as you can see by that picture of the poor fried snorkeler, things were getting dangerous out there!), I had him go inside to use the toilet, then upgrade that and the sink because, hell, we already did the bed. *shrug* It's all Handiness skill! He then went to join Smiler at the kitchen table with some leftover fish for breakfast, and the two shared a few cute flirts as Alice finished up her flirty painting and discovered it was a masterpiece! :) Only a 5K one, though, so I decided she could keep that one to display rather than selling it. :p I was just having her go in and hit the toilet while Victor cleaned up his breakfast dishes --
When who should show up but one Leila Illes, to ask Smiler AGAIN if they wanted to be best friends. O.O WTF -- we established this yesterday, Leila! You're too new a friend to get that label! Smiler sent her packing a little more tersely this time, and she slumped out, all dejected. I can't say I feel too sorry for her, though -- I've never had a Sim who, after getting rejected for best friendship the previous day, and with the negative sentiments still active, showed up the following day to try again! O.o What the hell, game...
ANYWAY -- with Leila having learned a few things about boundaries (we hope), the cuteness continued with Alice getting her breakfast (some nice crumpets) and she and Victor chatting at the table while Smiler finished up their mods. Smiler, feeling peckish themselves at this point, then asked for a drink from Victor, which he was happy to give...
And then I was like "well, it IS their honeymoon" and sent them to woohoo again. XD What, it kept them busy! Much like showering in the rain kept Alice busy. *sigh* I got her dressed again, then -- once Victor and Smiler were done with their woohoo -- sent her in to have a nice makeout with Victor while Smiler tested their Blickblock mods with a game. Victor then settled in for a nap while Alice went outside to dance...
And once Victor's energy was mostly full, I was like "oh screw this -- I kind of wanted them home for Spookfest anyway" and had the gang end the vacation early and head home.
...and then I had to reload the save I had fortunately made right before that decision (right about when Victor went to bed) because I was like "oh shit, I left all their fish and leftovers and stuff in the fridge!" So I quickly grabbed all that and THEN sent them home. *whew* There have been a lot of moments in this game lately that emphasizes the importance of saving at key moments, haven't there? Save often, people! You never know when it'll save you!
#sims 4#the lazy save#victor van dort#alice liddell#smiler always#yeah my family did a looot of puzzles during the worst years of the pandemic#mostly because Mom had gotten Dad one as a Christmas present right before and we all kind of became addicted#we haven't done one in a while though#maybe one day!#but yes some cute flirty times from the gang#Victor doing more upgrading because well why the hell not#and Leila being a bit on the stalkery side#like what the hell I thought for SURE after getting rejected once Sims didn't try again#Lady Smiler told you no YESTERDAY#this system is a liiiittle bit broken I must admit#but then again you can say that about a lot of things in Sims 4#and while the woohoo was as much about giving them something to DO on the miserable rainy day#it DOES make sense for a couple on their honeymoon to woohoo more than once :P#I could have tried for different locations if it had been nicer out#maybe in the future#and yes got back to the house saw the notice saying Smiler had gotten their laptop back#and was like 'shit the stuff in the fridge!'#SAVE OFTEN EVERYONE#queued
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Pets can be destructive, and kids can sometimes be well behaved, but my cat can’t make flamethrowers in the backyard and bite door handles so idk
#emma posts#we might have just been weird kids#maybe iPads lead to less flamethrowers#or more#I would actually like to know now#until I was 14 or 15 all we had was the family computer and for a long time all we cared about on it was#the outdated version of kidpix my mom got because she’s a teacher and they were getting rid of the ones they were replacing#we did have some educational games though#and then YouTube was a thing and then I got a drawing tablet and then smartphone#not in rapid succession#it was one specific door handle. It was some weird metal with a gold paint over it and the paint would crunch when I bit it#all the other doors had metal handles and they were used more often#the stuff I bit was kinda weirdly inconsistent#I wouldn’t bite my dolls but there was this one specific tv remote#I think I only ever chewed on one plastic toy after teething and that’s because it was hollow so it was like those koolaid bottles#otherwise I was affronted at the idea of intentionally damaging my toys like that#door handles we apparently free game I guess#‘I could never chew on my Barbies or let anyone else do it!’ munches on this one Christmas decoration#I would sometimes carry stuffed animals in my mouth like a cat though#but only small ones#beanie babies mostly#the last thing I remember my cat messing up was a charging cable#though he doesn’t like other cords. only charging cables#which is better than the tv cord I guess
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there is no feeling worse in the world than missing your grandma :/
#she died two months before my eighth birthday#and every time i realize i’ve lived well over half my life without her i go a little bit insane bc that just doesn’t feel right#like soooo many of my favorite memories are with her how is it possible she was only in my life for less than eight years#my grandpas on both sides died before i was born so all i’ve ever had is my grandmas#and there’s also the horrible guilt i feel all the time knowing my other grandma is still alive but i rarely ever see her#but when i was a kid she lived an hour and a half away from us and this grandma lived around the corner#so we saw her all the time and every christmas fourth of july etc that whole side of my extended family would all go to her house#she moved into that house when my mom was 2 years old and lived there for the rest of her life so 40 years#and when she went into hospice care her one request was to die in that house surrounded by her kids and grandkids so that’s what happened#my parents bought the house after she died but we lived there for less than 2 years before moving to arizona#they’re both from colorado but they met in arizona and me and my sisters were born here#and the main reason we moved back to colorado in the first place was to be near her#but when we moved again my parents sold the house to our neighbors who had two daughters that my sisters and i grew up with#and they’re still our family friends to this day and we used to go on trips to national parks together every summer#we didn’t see them for maybe five years but then two summers ago their older daughter got married and we went to her wedding#which got us talking about how long it had been since our last trip so we went on another one last summer#this has turned into a tangent but it just makes me so happy that they’re still in our lives#and this great family we’ve known almost my entire life is living in my grandma’s house#she had a pool in her backyard which is super common here in az but not so much in colorado#and she let us invite these girls over all the time to swim so they grew up spending almost as much time in that house as we did#last time we were in colorado we went to have dinner with them and swim and it was like being transported back to my childhood#that house is just so special to me and i felt so blessed to be able to go back there since this family bought it instead of strangers#in a perfect world everything would align in a way that would let me buy it when i’m older and have my own family there#i’ve never had a strong attachment to any other house we’ve lived in but that one will always be my grandma’s house in my mind#i just love and miss her so much she was the most amazing grandma i ever could have asked for#my mom still has a lot of her childhood friends on facebook and whenever she would post pictures of me and my sisters as kids#everyone would comment that i looked exactly like my grandma did when she was a kid and that makes me so so happy#anyway. idk. i just miss her sm she was an angel and i’m so happy she was such a big part of my childhood#lj.txt
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