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socialjusticeinamerica · 6 hours ago
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President Trump said Tuesday that the U.S. would "take over the Gaza Strip" and "own it," continued to promote the idea that the Palestinian people should live elsewhere.
Mr. Trump, whose comments came at a joint news conference with Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu, said the Palestinians in Gaza "should not go through a process of rebuilding" and that they had "lived a miserable existence there." Earlier in the afternoon, during a meeting with Netanyahu in the Oval Office, Mr. Trump said the Palestinians should "resettle permanently" in "nice homes" somewhere else.
"The U.S. will take over the Gaza Strip, and we will do a job with it, too," Mr. Trump said. "We'll own it and be responsible for dismantling all of the dangerous unexploded bombs and other weapons on the site, level the site and get rid of the destroyed buildings — level it out. Create an economic development that will supply unlimited numbers of jobs and housing for the people of the area. Do a real job. Do something different."
"Just can't go back," he continued. "If you go back, it's gonna end up the same way it has for a hundred years."
On whether U.S. troops would be sent to Gaza, the president said, "As far as Gaza is concerned, we'll do what is necessary. If it's necessary, we'll do that."
"We're going to take over that piece," Mr. Trump added. "We're going to develop it, create thousands and thousands of jobs, and it'll be something that the entire Middle East can be very proud of."
The president was asked by a reporter what authority he has to take over a sovereign territory, and he replied that he's studied the matter closely for months.
"I do see a long-term ownership position, and I see it bringing great stability to that part of the Middle East, and maybe the entire Middle East," Mr. Trump said.
The president said his decision about taking over Gaza "was not a decision made lightly," and he claimed he's received praise from other leaders in the Middle East, though he did not identify any by name. Netanyahu said Mr. Trump's team is considering the options.
Leaders of several of the most powerful Arab nations previously said they strongly opposed any suggestion that residents of Gaza be resettled in other countries.
In the past, Mr. Trump has voiced support for a "realistic two-state solution." Gaza, a 139-square-mile strip of land that shares borders with Israel and Egypt, has been fought over for years. Palestinians have been refugees for decades, since Israel gained control of it in the 1967 Six-Day War with Egypt, Jordan and Syria.
Asked who would eventually live in Gaza once it's rebuilt, Mr. Trump said it should be an international place.
"I envision world people living there, the world's people," he said, adding that the residents should be "representatives from all over the world, Palestinians, also." He said it would be "the Riviera of the Middle East."
Netanyahu is the first foreign leader to visit Mr. Trump in his second term.
Mr. Trump opened the news conference by reinforcing his warm relationship with Netanyahu, saying they had forged a successful partnership in his first term. He claimed that the last four years — under former President Joe Biden — had not seen as many successes.
He claimed "the grave damage around the globe that was done, including in the Middle East … the horrors of Oct. 7 would never have happened if I were president."
In the wake of the massacre of Israeli civilians in 2023, however, Netanyahu praised Biden "for his vital support for Israel."
Netanyahu suggested Mr. Trump may be unconventional, but he has good ideas, and they work well together.
"After the jaws drop, people scratch their heads and they say, 'You know, he's right,'" Netanyahu said.
Netanyahu told reporters he found he had something else in common with Mr. Trump, too — he said Iran has tried to kill them both.
Trump, Netanyahu meet in Oval Office before news conference
Seated next to Netanyahu in the Oval Office, Mr. Trump repeatedly said he doesn't think Palestinians want to return to Gaza and said that he thinks Jordan, Egypt and other nations would accept Palestinians, even though they've said they won't.
"They are not gonna want to go back to Gaza," Mr. Trump said, adding that Palestinians would only "end up dying" there, and suggesting Palestinians should have a permanent settlement elsewhere.
"If we can get a beautiful area to resettle people permanently in nice homes and where they can be happy and not be shot, not be killed, not be knifed to death, like what's happening in Gaza," Mr. Trump said. "And right now you have in Gaza a very dangerous situation in terms of explosives all over the place, in terms of tunnels that nobody knows who's in the tunnel. The whole thing is a mess."
The president said other "rich" nations should pay for a new home for Palestinians, although he did not expand on this suggestion.
Netanyahu largely allowed Mr. Trump to speak. One reporter asked the Israeli prime minister whether former President Joe Biden or Mr. Trump is more responsible for the hostage and ceasefire deal.
"I think President Trump added great force and powerful leadership to this effort," Netanyahu replied.
The ceasefire and hostage deal between Israel and Hamas, brokered in part by the U.S., continues to hold so far. Dual citizen Keith Siegel was the first American to be released since the implementation began last month, although other Americans have been released before.
On Sunday, Netanyahu said he would discuss "victory over Hamas" with Mr. Trump, as well as countering Iran and building on diplomatic relationships with Arab nations.
Mr. Trump told reporters on Monday that he has "no guarantees that the peace is going to hold."
The president's meeting with Netanyahu being his first with a foreign leader signals how the Trump White House views the U.S.-Israel relationship.
"Trump is going to continue his support for our great ally, Israel," national security adviser Mike Waltz said on Fox News Tuesday.
Waltz said the U.S. and Israel have "more to go" in terms of returning Americans held hostage. And the national security adviser said the U.S. has to think "realistically" about rebuilding Gaza.
"I would push back on the characterization of cleaning out Gaza," Waltz told reporters Tuesday. "I think President Trump is looking at this from a humanitarian standpoint. You have these people that are sitting with literally thousands of unexploded ordnance and piles of rubble. You know, at some point we have to look realistically. How do you rebuild Gaza? What does that look like? What's the timeline? I think we, a lot of people, were looking at very unrealistic timelines. We're talking 10, 15, years, not the five years. And so that is what, that's what we have to work through. That's part of what we'll work through with Prime Minister Netanyahu."
Netanyahu last met with Mr. Trump in July at his Mar-a-Lago estate in Palm Beach, Florida, while Mr. Trump was still a presidential candidate.
Netanyahu congratulated former President Joe Biden on his win in 2020, something that Mr. Trump long held against him. But the two have worked to repair the relationship in the wake of Hamas' Oct. 7, 2023, terrorist attack on Israel.
One reporter noted their relationship has had its ups and downs.
"I think it's mostly ups," Mr. Trump said Tuesday.
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Trump and Jared and all the prominent Republicans literally said they would commit US troops to expel the Palestinians at gunpoint. You were told right here over and over again. You bashed Biden and Harris and then didn’t bother to vote. All of you who blamed Netanyahu’s war crimes on Biden and Harris are to blame for the coming tragedy. You better hope someone stops him before he carries out this insane promise. It’s going to cost America billions and the American troops sent there will be sitting ducks. And it will all be paid for with your Social Security, Medicare, VA benefits, etc.
If you clowns had voted for Harris none of this bullshit would be taking place.
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taruruchi · 2 days ago
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𝐃𝐚𝐲 2: 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 3
Post-overblot Azul
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I got a sudden vision of an unseen scene that happened in the main story, and in this essay, I will entertain the question:
What happened after Azul's overblot?
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This is mainly reliant on the fact that the overblot students have to recover after their overblot. Because it took a lot out of them, right? So they're stuck in the infirmary for a few days and can't go about their regular duties (If they didn't and I'm remembering wrong, idc they have to stay in the infirmary now bc I say so)
I imagine that after each overblot, the prefect has to bring homework and stuff to whoever just overblotted, like Riddle in Chapter 1, Leona in Chapter 2, etc. because they're the resident Errand Runner
Azul has a bigger workload since he's running Mostro Lounge too. Now, Jade and Floyd and the other Octavinelle students can take over, sure, but it's not like he can just put it aside while he's recovering in the infirmary. He gets restless and bothered that he's not there to look after his business. So the prefect has to bring both his schoolwork and those Mostro Lounge documents he looks over
And this is where I start talking about this in terms of the version in my head, aka the version with Taruchi
The first day after The Incident, Taruchi heads to the infirmary after class to give Azul all his stuff. She's already done this for the previous overblot students
"Hii... How are you doing? Are you doing okay?"
Azul looks up from the papers he's holding—the financial losses of the other day—and finds the prefect peeking from behind the curtains separating the beds
"Prefect? I wasn't expecting you here. I'm doing fine, thank you."
"Just dropping off your stuff. ...Are you working???"
She spots the papers scattered on his bed.
"Ah— Yes, I was calculating the amount of losses Mostro Lounge experienced yesterday."
Taruchi gets closer and looks at all the papers. "...Need any help?"
"I couldn't possibly ask you to do that. It's all right," he declines.
"No, you're not feeling well. You should rest. And I'm decent at math, I'm sure it won't be too hard."
"No, seriously, it's fine."
Taruchi frowns at his insistence to keep working despite needing to recover. "...Fine. Just... don't overwork yourself, okay? You haven't completely recovered yet."
"Sure. Thank you, prefect."
"No problem. I'll, uh, I'll go back to my dorm now. Hope you get well soon."
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She comes back the next day on her second round of "errands."
"Helloo, I'm back." This time she has a small smile on her face as she greets him.
"Ah, hello, prefect." Azul naturally smiles in return.
"What are you doing today?" He's got papers around him again.
"It's for Mostro Lounge again." He rubs his temple as he looks at the papers. "I need to think of a way to make up for our losses."
"Ohh... How are you gonna do that?" she asks curiously, and half as a way to make it less awkward.
He ends up talking about Mostro Lounge for a while and his plans, so she just listens and asks questions. Her mind wanders a bit to the realization that he's very dedicated to and passionate about his business. She tries not to smile.
Then he stops for a bit and inquires of her, "I meant to ask, why are you here? For longer than yesterday, I mean. You dropped off my things already, so did you need my assistance with something?" Was he trying to fish for a deal right now? Even after his lesson about taking advantage of people's problems and luring them into contracts?
"Oh, n-no. I didn't need any help. I was just visiting." No chance to rope her into a deal.
"...I see."
"I'm sorry, do the visits disturb you? I know you should be recovering and resting up..." She's never felt this nervous about her post-overblot infirmary visits before. (Well... Maybe. Leona was pretty intimidating to bring homework to... He kept trying to get her to keep it.)
"Not at all. I don't mind." He gives his charming smile. In his mind, he's just trying to get her to like him and lower her guard so she doesn't hold these errands and visits against him or something. As if he was the one who forced her to do this. (It was Crowley. And partially Grim because he left her alone for the reason of wanting to go back to the dorm early to "do homework.")
"Oh, okay." She checks the time on her phone. "Ahh, I need to go back to my dorm now. Grim's waiting for me and I've actually got homework to do..."
A light bulb lights up in Azul's head. This would be his way of making it up to her. (Making what up to her? His reasoning is the trouble of helping during his overblot and sending over his schoolwork and Mostro Lounge work.)
"I could help you, if you'd like."
She smiles and tries to decline. She just wants to go to her dorm. "Oh, no, it's all right, I can do it by myself—"
"I insist. I offer my services all the time. See this as my way of repaying you for all the trouble I put you through."
Now she felt guilty and couldn't say no. "Really...?" she asks hesitantly. "Are you sure?"
"Absolutely."
"Okay, then..." She sits back down on his bed and takes out her homework.
After an hour or somewhere around that, she packs up. "Huh, I actually got a lot done today." She smiles. "Thank you so much, Azul."
And he smiles back. Only to be polite, of course. "It was no problem. Feel free to see me tomorrow as well."
"All right. Thank you." She keeps smiling and finishes packing up her things. "So I'll go now. See you tomorrow."
"See you tomorrow."
See you tomorrow... Azul found himself smiling at that one phrase, but stopped as soon as he realized it. Why was he smiling anyway?
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teamchasezwrites · 12 hours ago
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There is nothing wrong with that spot that can’t be fixed with a promo. If there even was an issue. Did Damian jump early? Video shows Drew was moving across the ring with Jey already when Damian jumped to eliminate him and save Jey. Did Logan Paul take too long showboating? Was Knight supposed to get a move in on camera but Paul was taking too long and he should have just spun him around and done it? If there even was an issue, it’s everyone’s fault. Moving too early, taking too long, not adjusting while it was happening. But it’s not too serious that a promo on Smackdown can’t fix it if it even needs to be fixed.
People are just pissed because they think Damian is beneath Drew and Drew needs to be fighting Punk… again. Or Seth. Or Roman. We don’t even know the stories heading into WM and everyone thinks it’s over because they get spun up on these “insider” tweets.
Punk has his favor. Drew was starting a bounty hunter bloodline deal. Seth hates Roman and Punk. Roman is never there… Damian is a face on Smackdown with one of the top faces as champion and Roman is also a face now so he’s stuck without really a plan. Maybe they run back how Damian is always in Drew’s way. Long term storytelling… HHH’s way. Go back, Priest is there in Drew’s way.
Everyone can’t be facing Roman. And if they don’t fumble the feud (like they did with Damian and Finn. Which Damian was still gonna be victorious, they just missed with the middle.) it will be just fine and Drew can move on after WM (if he’s even facing Damian)
And just because the transfer portal closed, doesn’t mean Smackdown won’t announce their own last minute transfer like Raw did on their show.
If any of this is even true.
Just a reminder: it’s a TRANSFER window, not a trade. You don’t have to send someone to the other show unless they voluntarily transfer themselves. But I swear to Christ, if Drew is not at my Raw in 2 weeks, I’ll crash TF out.
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savage-rhi · 9 months ago
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🎶Come lie with me, in the grass, and you'll be, in a world full of pure procrastination!🎶
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cobra-creampuff · 10 months ago
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i think a lot of people have never been in a truly desperate situation but think they have, and this causes them to pass really harsh judgment on people who made bad choices when either irrational or having no good choices to pick instead, and i really wish people could get some fucking self-perception and work on their compassion skills and not fucking do that as much anymore
#jack facts#people be banging on about empathy this empathy that#and like sure maybe people have a measurable capacity for it but i can tell you what#that sure as fuck don't mean any fucking one of them ever bothers to make use of it when it matters lol#and i mean on the other hand it's hard to conceptualize how you would feel going through something you've never experienced before#i just wish people would be AWARE of the fact they don't know!#or like that there's a difference between ''i can't afford anything but instant ramen'' and ''i can't get any food or water''#or a difference between being freaked out by spiders and having clinical arachnophobia#or a difference between ''my loved one is sick and i'm really worried about them'' and ''my loved one is dying in front of me''#etc etc etc etc etc#anyway the longer i live the more i'm convinced that empathy is a garbage concept#and actually a more reliable way to act with true compassion is through at least some capacity for relative objectivity#the ability to say ''i don't know how that feels and i cannot understand it through comparison'' and to be able AND WILLING#to take people's self reports on their feelings thought processes or lackthereof in good faith and with sympathy#and also the ability to acknowledge that doing a bad thing for good reasons does not negate the bad thing being bad#but also should and does change what consequences are appropriate and/or most effective#and also like............... things people do in desperation or other irrational states do not represent Who They Are As A Person#or what it's like to hang out with them in a day to day situation#another thing i keep getting more and more aware of is like. if y'all can't even handle an irrational or impulsive choice that does harm#done by an otherwise ''good'' person under short term desperate situations#that they then do their best to reduce the harm of after the situation is over#i can not even imagine how absolutely unforgiving you must be of anyone who has delusions#and i mean real delusions and real psychosis not the hyperbolic babytalk version lol#like i don't think most of you even know what the fuck a delusion even is the way you act about things as simple & straightforward as like#fear. hunger. pain.#absolutely fucking exhausting
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hyrulesfav · 4 months ago
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♟️🐈‍⬛ is so perfect to me because they just. Get. each other. also they come into the relationship with kids who aren't their kids but one of them is basically their kid so they fall asleep watching bluey or blues clues a lot
#♟️ 🖇️ 🐈‍⬛#🐈‍⬛ 🖇️ 🐈‍⬛#grim 'i'm not a kid! i'm basically the same age as the other guys!' of w.akanda#its ok grim i fall victim to kids tv to 😔#anyways#i think. when they get older (maybe way prior to when they get married) elvira presents grim to her Mother and is like 'look at him! you've#accepted him as your son for over fifty years! he has been my son for longer. you should totally let me and leona skip having kids since we#both only agreed on one'#and then her Mother is like 'lmao i love both of you but i am a fertility goddess for a reason so :)'#and boom the twins and then they're done#i dont think they get married until after their kids are grown though#there's def some pressure from his family but hers really dgaf lmao#besides i think after a certain point it gets to where hes spending 85% of his time in the multiverse and its somewhat better over there#(ignoring that it is. in fact. a m.arvel universe.)#he goes back to t.wst one day n gets hit with the 'well well well look what the monkey dragged in' and he immediately responds with 'i dont#want to be here. my gf and her family forced me to leave for my own safety or wtv'#anyways.#🐅 🖇️ 🌬️ 🖇️ 🐍 🖇️ 🐈‍⬛#i love the idea of the lesbians (aave-l) including leona in their relationship despite him being a Man#i think the transition into him being apart of the relationship was as seamless as it was for him n elvira to finally get together#in terms of accepting him i think it was elvira -> aimil -> valentine -> ainya -> leilani (after some time)#(leilani tried to kill him multiple times i just know)#they all go back to t.wst with him one day and someone turns to leona and is like 'wow. you sure have been collecting some lovers'#'actually i haven't. we're more like their (elvira and aimil's) lovers. they've been collecting us like strays' because is he wrong?#i think the only thing that sets them apart is that while aave-l are married in the eyes of the gods. he's not#bc. yh. while his lifespan is extended greatly. its because of radiation exposure#he hasnt died or been reborn/resusitated by any of them and i think they'd rather keep it that way lmao#they also def keep his phantom around for funsies lmao#elvira 'yeah i kinda kept some of their phantoms cause they looked so sad they were gonna disappear :( they've been living with me on#ramshackle grounds n helping out so maybe they could help out here' of w.akanda
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ialwaysknewyouwerepunk · 10 months ago
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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work#blocked it all out#my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer#breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries#they just diagnosed her two weeks ago#so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends#because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well#but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work#on top of my fulltime#which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it#but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this#for the coming four months at least#so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT.#i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes#then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe?#which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week#which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc#i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer#came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry#but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat#bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.”#“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.”#and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually#but seeing her anger made me see my own anger#and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic#i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more#so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise#doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal#and i am not joking#so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back
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eclaire-went-bam · 10 months ago
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hiii:33!! friendly reminder that someone can enjoy a character that has done heinous things and not support said heinous things
usually when a character does Bad Things in a narrative (espec if they're not the protagonist) it is Portrayed As Bad so people who enjoy the character Likely Know They Are Bad
& either way harassing people over enjoying a fictional character is just really childish
if you don't like the character, that is perfectly valid. but there's never any reason to characterise everyone who likes said character as Evil, and/or imply they condone the character's negative actions.
also sometimes i look at internet discourse and it's like people want morally grey characters but then turn around when "morally grey" is not always "i have my own rules but i still make all the right choices !!" some of y'all just need to admit you just like good characters that's fine not everyone is into the spice it's ok to like that good protagonist energy
;;;not saying every character i'm referring to fits in that "morally grey" category, some are just evil villains, but even then i'm sorry 90% of ur stories wouldn't exist without them. they drive the plot.
#not really a rant#being in the hazbin hotel rdr2 and genshin fandoms just rlly makes me question people sometimes#maybe tumblr's fine? idk i've only gotten more active on tumblr suuuper recently. but i've definitely seen some rancid stuff on#**other platforms#fandom#there's also definitely gender bias in this let's not lie to ourselves.#there are some things a character can do that they'd forgive in a man but not a woman and vise-versa#generally speaking people who go “i know she did the same thing but He's So Babygirl” or “he did the same thing but She's Just A Girlboss”#rlly annoy me#it's fine to like one character over another even if they're pretty similar and use those terms to describe them#but ive seen soo many people criticise one character but then suddenly forgive the same crimes from another character on the basis of gender#it's seriously annoying#idrc if a character has done bad things but is more complex like dutch van der linde#or is simply evil just because they can be like the three vee's#just stop. no i don't like them to romanticise their crimes. especially if you put it into a realistic context#shocker !! il dottore enjoyers do not want kids to be experimented on#sometimes i'll even just Mention a character i like and someone will just go “i hate them they're so ugly die die” like bro i know.#r u done now. be normal. i know ur being silly but it's annoying that i can't talk abt anything because y'all gotta make VERY clear that#so&so is a bad person like yea no duh!#anyways oop long tags 💀💀💀#maybe this was a rant after all. i've seen this moral purity with characters both online and in personal friend groups & i care abt my eps#but some of y'all gotta chill
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imagine-nerd · 8 months ago
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The fucking disconnect is so real.
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#theo's thoughts#Story time for the people who love reading tags bc I love sharing things in the tags#So I work at a therapeutic day school and this past school year like four school days before Thanksgiving break I was asked a question#The question was if I would be willing to step up and be a long term sub in a middle school classroom#To me this was less of a question and more of a hey we need someone to do this and you're who the assistant teacher asked for#Which cool yeah fine I'll give it a go I really like that person (the assistant teacher who asked for me) and I trust her judgement on this#I was asked and accepted on Thursday. Friday‚ Monday‚ and Tuesday happen. Then three day Thanksgiving break#When we got back from break I was the teacher and it was rough at first and it sure as hell was never easy but I enjoyed it#My formal teacher observation was my boss basically going like so I see you doing all the things and the basis is there#But it's not being followed through on because of behaviors from the most unmedicated classroom I've seen in all my years working education#And now for the summer they're changing 2/3 staff that were in the room and who even knows who the teacher will be (a new hire? Maybe?)#If there truly is a new hire coming in (fed to the wolves immediately btw what a dick move) but that new hire will be the fourth teacher#These kids have had in a year? A year and a half max. The fourth. After the only thing I've been repeatedly told by admin for months#Is that we need to be stable and consistent because we may be these kids' only reliable source of that consistency and stability?#So you're going to have me come in and tell me I've done such a great job and then tell me you're moving me to 'give me a break'#Trauma informed care my fucking ass. I hope those kids raise fucking hell over it.#The brutal satisfaction of watching your own crops burn and knowing that the invaders will starve is great and all but these are kids!#They're barely just about to be teenagers (11 at the youngest and 14 at the oldest) and this is what you're going to do to them?#Yes they can be complete assholes and are often dicks to one another but they're in our school for a fucking reason? I don't get it.#Then two hours later after being told abt the change‚ the clinical director puts me as one of the three main recipients in an email#Saying that there's going to be a new student starting in that room in the summer and the real icing on the cake?#This all happens on last day before summer break. we're out of session for two weeks now and you're just dropping these changes on us now?#God I'm so fucking tired
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bibiana112 · 2 years ago
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Girl are you okay? Cause you've been looking through the "My lesbian experience with loneliness" tag again
Well the short answer is no :D
#the long answer is I saw one post of someone going 'well now that I'm 28 too maybe I'll try doing the same thing the protag does here''#and nearly cried because 28 is such a ridiculously long time away except not really except it's SO#fucking long and so close to what I was gaslit into believing I would ever have that I'd be lucky to make it to my thirties for no reason#and I never wanted anything different and just wanted to live and had panic attacks when reading but I'd still believe it was inevitable#and now I am suddenly having to come to terms with so much I want from life that I had resigned myself to never having because I couldn't#but how am I meant to do that? it's just hanging over my head now and it feels so stupid and I feel so out of place everywhere#it feels like I'm too bad at being a person to be loved and too angry to even admit I want to be#and too regretful to seek it because I'm scared of trampling over people's boundaries like people have done to me#and like I did too before I grew up and thought my way through having some empathy#why do only boys show any interest in me.... why is every friend I make entirely outside the range of people who could possibly reciprocate#why is it so easy for me to brush crushes aside aren't people supposed to suffer for this stuff#does that prove it's not a romantic crush and it's just that I want to be held and wanted#it feels so wrong to want this after fighting so much just to have fulfilling platonic relationships what's wrong with me#that I still want something else what more could I want this life is so ideal as far as 12 yo me is concerned#...when did my brain start viewing any and all kinds of want or ambition as doomed efforts for me?#I have such a headache all of a sudden#I think... the way I value self preservation has gotten all the way around into being harmful maybe#at least a little#everyone I know is nowhere near the amount of control freak as I am and they just go do things they want to do#have I seen them hurt over the consequences multiple times yes. but . I'm tired of hurting over absence#''did you know wishing you had more extreme and easily verifiable trauma is in itself proof of having undergone trauma'' well yeah but like#fuck why couldn't I be traumatized by anything else that wasn't literally the profession supposed to help you with all the trauma#delete later#like for real I want to delete it rn but I also don't
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tommygotwrittenoff · 1 month ago
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oh i love the idea of eddie getting most of the way through buying a house in texas before realizing the house has buck written all over it
#im so in love with it#eddie looking around the house with the real estate agent and maybe she says something about oh is your husband coming later?#and hes just like oh.#because the house buck helped him find was perfect#but it wasnt perfect for him. it was perfect for both of them.#buck had commented on the kitchen and how it was layed out perfectly#he had mentioned the clawfoot tub in the master bath and how hed always wanted one of those#had pointed out the big windows and how bright the space will always be#he thinks about how theyd looked at the listing and looked through the pictures and how after the real estate had done the#virtual walkthrough with them buck had turned to face eddie with a big smile on his face and had said#its perfect eddie#and now eddie is in el paso in this house that buck loves#hes standing in this house that has buck written all over it and he cant#he cant live here. he cant stay in el paso in this house that will never be a home#the people who are his home arent in it#chris wont ever playfully throw popcorn at him during movie nights#buck wont fall asleep halfway through a movie with eddie taking one look at his snoring form and deciding to fall asleep next to him here#because el paso will always be a faint echo of la#a reminder of something he already has somewhere else#a home. a family.#no matter what he does el paso wont ever feel like home#not if he finds a perfect house. not if he joins the epfd. not if he devotes his life to staying in his sons life the best he can#el paso wont ever feel like home when half of his home is in la waiting for him#and chris to come back#he already has a perfect home. he just needs to bring it all back together#and so eddie takes another look around the house and stops imagining what his furniture will look like in it and makes a decision.#he smiles and says to the agent#well. my husband and i decided we arent ready to leave la. i just wanted to take one last look at this place#but anyway what do you have available for short term rent for two people?#me thinks
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steampoweredskeleton · 2 months ago
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#delete later#as awful as the past couple of weeks have been in terms of intrusive thoughts and random waves of panic and intense emotions and#blankness. there have also been random patches that have been. okay. and that is how i know my medication is working#bc the times ive been like this and not medicated? there has been no reprieve#like although i feel. awful and useless and am internalising my work failures in a non helpful way that im trying to fight#i am having moments of#hey we're okay. they raised an issue in a way that was gentle bc youre a good employee usually. and honestly although you#feel terrible for fucking up. someone you care about very much died a month ago. you have been experiencing a mental health#almost crisis (i refuse to call it a full crisis bc im not self destructing really badly) and quite frankly the fact that you're functioning#at all is. pretty decent. youre trying. i am of course having moments where im convinced that they hate me and want to fire me immediately#but that has no evidence. and the fact that i know it has no evidence is a pretty insane piece of progress#shout out to my therapist from two courses ago who drilled the moral shit into my head.#she genuinly helped me a lot with this.#also was really really hoping for the usual christmas bonus this year bc my finances are tighter than usual but the company had a#lean year so no bonuses for anyone. so dont have the leeway to try out sliding scale therapy for a while. but it is what it is.#this will pass. its just been a rough four months and i havent had a break. ive also been waiting fir thr other shoe to drop at work#and it finally has so i can at least stop torturing myself over maybes. im getting my meds. i can refer myself to nhs depression#therapy. which will be mostly useless and the same as it always is but it tends to help me feel like im trying to progress which is still#helpful in some small way. it will be what it will be. one day at a time and all that jazz#this is also how these things go for me. i lose it slowly over a month or so. have a horrific couple weeks until a day of a genuine#full breakdown. i survive that day and the day after and then slowly start clawing myself up again. ive just had a few breakdown#days this time. what can ya do. is what it is. im sure I'll have another breakdown soon as i can tell im not done crying#and will almost certainly have a breakdown at my parents bc i am not good at hiding the dead eyed look and mum will#definitely clock im being weirder than usual with food and touching things. so there'll be a#anyway nevermind. ill do what i must
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dewgongs · 3 months ago
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im so frustrated like idk why everything has to be a big song and dance like why cant i just get a normal job that employs me what i need to be employed with enough money to sustain me and not completely drain the life out of me but that is too much to ask for
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kirkwallers · 4 months ago
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I get why they didn't do it bc actresses feelings and stuff but I still really wish that there had been some kind of commiserating or voiced understanding between Alison and Hannah when Alison comes back and has pretty obviously gained a lot of weight instead of just pretending it wasn't happening and dressing Ali in baggier and baggier clothes she bullied Hannah into an eating disorder I want some kind of content about that I think it would be interesting
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deanpinterester · 6 months ago
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my very honest opinion is that ian holm did not need to be in that new alien movie
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neo--queen--serenity · 8 months ago
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There’s just something extremely touching about watching Izutsumi work through a wide range of emotions when she sees Marcille cry for the first time.
She’s sleeping on Marcille’s lap when it happens—something she hadn’t willingly done since her human consciousness was subdued in the Golden Country.
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Izutsumi was initially very embarrassed when she remembered showing Marcille such unbridled affection when her monster (cat) side had full control in Melini. But now, shortly after, she did it again without any fuss, seemingly over this embarrassment.
But when she notices Marcille crying—not crying expressive tears over a situation with low stakes, but tears of real sorrow and loss—Izutsumi physically recoils.
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She reacts with the childlike fear and panic that one feels when someone they heavily rely on and trust (like a parent or teacher) shows vulnerability, doubt, or weakness. She lashes out, trying to use words of reproach to get Marcille to stop crying. Or, in childlike terms, to try to force Marcille’s pain go away.
When that doesn’t work, we see her physically struggle as she tries to sit by and wait it out. But Izutsumi can’t do it.
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Marcille’s pain causes her so much intense distress that Izutsumi immediately offers physical affection as a response—something she has not done for anyone up to this point.
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When Senshi told the party about his traumatic backstory, Izutsumi did not touch him. She did support him, tried to offer words of comfort, but she did not embrace him like the others did. Maybe she didn’t know how; maybe she didn’t have a proper example on what comforting someone looked like. But she saw all three of them reach for Senshi, she saw them hold him in their arms, and anchor him as he cried.
This is the first time another party member has cried out of sadness since that moment. It’s possible that she saw how the others helped Senshi, and maybe, subconsciously, she saw that it worked. That it made him feel better.
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She is clearly unused to it, and has her own rollercoaster of emotions as Marcille gratefully accepts the comfort Izutsumi is offering her. But it helps. It helps Marcille immediately, and Izutsumi knows this.
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These acts of vulnerability are foreign to her, and thus make her feel uncomfortable, but she lets Marcille lean on her afterwards anyway. She wanted Marcille to be okay, wanted it so badly, that she accidentally overcame an emotional obstacle she never even knew she had.
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