#maybe I should do some ut au stuff

[shadohood]

A random undead oc. Currently struggling with art ideas a little bit, so I thought that filling the silence with this kind of stuff would be nice. (Commissins are open, I can draw your ocs too)

[crystalmagpie447]

OOOOOH YOU WANNA INFODUMP ABOUT WINGED AU SO BAD OOOOO

OOOOO I DO IDOWANTTO EHEHEHEHE

OK COGUHS

UHM

i am NOTgood at this EHWIJRHUEJ

sorry if its bad or doesnt make sense OK

SO

sun and moon worked regularly in the daycare (Moon did naptime and stuff), and one day, during naptime, moon uses the wire for something, but it malfunctions and he ends up falling from pretty high up, and it probably busts up some mechanisms or coding or something (I think thats how they get the virus? But i havent quite figured that out yet kifjdrhubfr) soo instead of just repairing the track for the wire, management (or whover fixes them) decides that maybe they should just get a long- term solution

instead of having to fix the track and wire over and over again

becauuseee this has probably happened before

so they get wings

Al so because

they figured it would be more appealing to kids and parents

because everyone in this au has wings

everything after this is like

not very well thought out yet so sorry in advance LMAO B ut uhm

sun and moon go back to the daycare and work like normal

they notice that they feel (?) more like

annoyed often

they get snappy and mean idk 💥

they choose to ignore it

one day some accident happens and moon ends up hurting someone (multiple people?)

and he gets decommissioned

(probably does security stuff tho)

sun get s overwhelmed (maybe?)

he cant believe what happened

uhhmm

he blames moon

aand shuts him out completely

EIWJHUEW

Later y/n gets hired as an extra hand for sun

uhh

you find out about moon and try to ask sun about him

but sun basically tells you to mind your business

and that hes not around

nor is he important

AAGRGHUJe

Thats all i got i think

[hxllo-nana]

Thanks for answering my last Ask!

Now to finish the more Asks I had planned (hence the 1/?.).

It is interesting, looking at the stickers again. Phantom is the only one w/o a spot of red, which I think kind of fits them, considering Phantom's kind of well, weird (and dead) status in DR.

Also really interesting Dust Sans and Frisk and Dust Sans and Phantom parallel each other a lot in terms of backgrounds and poses. While Dust Sans and Papyrus don't really as much. Though, that is kind of fitting in a way. Paps and Phantom kind of parallel each other too. Don't know if any of this was intentional, but I still thought it was cool. (Talking about the Dead Ringer stickers again).

It is cool u are still working on the Hazbin Hotel Undertale AU btw! But I understand u have been busy. I am excited for more of that, and ofc, the next episode of Dead Ringer, whenever that ends up being!

(Not mentioning Bonnytale here, because while I am excited for that, I know it is not going to be for awhile. For the reasons u gave. And/or etc. Understandably so).

Also, just wanted to ask, I know it is not super likely, considering how Dead Ringer is, there probably isn't a ton of time to really show them (which, totally understandable), and u do what u want w/ DR ofc; I am curious to see whatever u do, whatever that may be. Even though I have a feeling my heart might get emotionally destroyed in coming episodes. I love darker, horror-y, etc. stuff, but I can also be quite the softie sometimes. It is a funny mix!

Anyways, just wanted to ask if we may see Muffet and/or Grillby (I think Dust Sans left Undyne at Grillby's?? I am not sure, can't completely remember) some/etc. in Dead Ringer? Totally get if we don't though and like, I don't need to show up at all, I am happy with the characters being focused on and stuff already, and there is also always other series's (that I have seen stuff involving the character(s) with those series in some form). I am just curious.

Last thing, just wanted to ask if u have checked out TS!Underswap!? It is a super a great fangame u can find on like Gamejolt. That is a take of Underswap, but more so keeps the OG personalities of swapped characters. But the new roles/role swaps creates really cool twists w/ the characters and the Underground itself (the Underground is very different because of these role swaps, and because they decided to swap the seasons of the areas too, which causes the areas to be quite different too). They also want to expand and/or try to expand on characters and stuff too.

Anyways, it is really cool, with a lot of mysteries actually, actually quite horror-y and stuff too like OG UT (and DR) could be too, routes, choices, fun gameplay, and some really great takes on characters

(like Sans/Crossbones, Chara, and Muffet are so great. Paps, Asgore, Burgerpants, and the bits we see or know about Alphys and Asriel sound fun and/or look cool too. Flowey is very, different, for various reasons, 1. being they are not Asriel, because he is alive, but Flowey is great too. And the Temmie(s) who have swapped places with Flowey are great and sometimes quite terrifying too. Just great takes on characters all around!) and good, fun OC's too.

So yeah, just wanted to know (I know u have been busy though) if u have checked out TS!US! If u haven't, u totally should if u ever get the chance. I get if u don't want to and/or can't though!

Alright, I am done with asking Ass once again (for now). See ya, and I hope u are doing fine! 2/2.

For the stickers

1. Papyrus and Phantom are both in the same picture, being that the scarf is red. Sans does not have red for-

2. Sans and Papyrus are facing one path while Dust is facing the other, both are facing back of Dust. Sans has the same pose as Dust because even tho they are facing different paths t-

3. Grillby and Muffet may get a special appearance, maybe not

I’ve heard of TSUnderswap, i wasn’t ever a fan of the swap one so im not sure if i’ll like this one too. It’s a nice concept tho and there’s some cool things about it, i’ll try to check it out more if i can

i’m doing alr, thanks!

[utnewfoundfamily]

Hii,question for the author! Cold we see a bit of plot, maybe a few posts that lets us see the characters and settings that you made,maybe some doodle comics? I just found your blog, and wanted to ask, but there isnt a starting story yet, just characters. Or is the story somewhere else and im missing something?

Also, I adore how you draw, very cool style!

I’ve waited for MONTHS to be able to make stuff for this world. And my deepest apologies for the delay and lack of said story posted here. Though I have a document for this AU pinned on this account, I feel it is important to share the tale in case anything were to happen to the document. Keeping a record of sorts. With that said, I hope you don’t mind that I indulge you with the plot here in this ask. Better to write it if I am unable to illustrate all the details.

Big thing I want to emphasize is that Frisk doesn’t have the ability to restart. From what is understood on their part, the option has all but vanished. Not that they want to restart in the first place. What they have now is great! Life for them feels, well, real. Not like a video game such as before. They get to make their own decisions about what to do. Some good, some bad, and some dumb. Regardless, they have the freedom to dictate their life. It’s been like that for 8 years and hasn’t changed since. Though the idea of it turning back into a game is a big possibility (or rather inevitable). But thankfully it won’t send them all the way back into the underground. That would be hell if it did.

Another thing, Frisk’s story is about settling down with one thought that they have been trying to convince themselves is wrong and evil. And that thought is that it’s okay to fight back. Because the center point of the story is them going against another human named Vance whose own soul is corrupted and means to do harm to Frisk and any life they may value and cherish. Why? Purely because he’s jealous of what Frisk is. That they, and so many other humans have magic and Vance does not.

Vance is a boy who is obsessed with magic of humans and monsters alike. Especially Frisk’s. They’re the main one who seems to have more going on than so many others in their community. However you see it, the boy is bad news and a bit of a freak. Definitely not a kid you want to be around. But he was the one who pushed Frisk to this new game that he will become aware of and have fun playing in. Frisk won’t though and will be so stressed out.

The main goal of this thing of mine is that no one should ever be blaming Frisk for anything here. They will do whatever they can to make things better. To try see good and seek out the possibility that change is out there for Vance. But he won’t want it and bash the options because it’s not what he wants. We are the viewers of this story. And all Frisk just wants is to live their life and live it with their family. That family being:

Sans

Papyrus

Aster (Gaster)

And the Dreemurrs

They’re all one big family.

This is a lot of info probably, but there is so much more in my document. I’m just paraphrasing what I wrote on their onto here so others can see. Illustrations are in order, but my best option is write the concepts and story all down. I would’ve made this a fanfic, but I’m not too confident in my writing skills. But this is close enough for now cause I do want to draw stuff like this out. Also! Pretty sure this is an obvious sign, yet this an AU that leans more on the kids or teens of UT with many others slowly becoming involved.

Edit: Oh, and thank you for the kind words on my artstyle! Very much appreciated :)

[ozkarrzen]

Cross literally needz a hug like I know that almost every single utmv character, whether classic ut or not, have problems but plz let's give this man a hug he literally lost like his entire family and friends and his entire UNIVERSE

Like literally he needs to be comforted

Epic is a good friend to cross and had always been there for him ig when they were together, they were literally pals and they kick ass together (tho I'd understand if they wouldn't talk about problems because well they don't wanna bring heavy stuff up yeah) and epic literally died at some point so that could be angst more people should expand on

If they do try and comfort each other, Epic would probably offer Cross to fight him like yk fighting your emotions out (could be gay idk), and I feel like that's how Epic can help Cross with his frustrations

Ink was the one who found cross all alone in his like erased universe and they actually became good friends as well since he's technically the only person with cross the entire time if we don't count XChara,, but idk if he's the best person to talk about emotions (however just because he technically doesn't have any doesn't mean he can't express them with his vials)

Ink would probably just be there for Cross, comforting him like any other person would, maybe draw with him and talk to Cross about his goals,, Ink may not be good with this stuff sometimes but he can be a good friend besides what the fandom thinks (I see you ink villainizers.)

Dream would be great at comforting Cross since he's like, the Guardian of positivity and stuff, but his aura might be a problem sometimes. But I feel like even with his Aura, Cross still feels warm and comforted,, like even if Dream has the power to make people happy, doesn't mean he can't like,, manually(?? Idk the word) make people happy on his own.

Dream had been a light in Cross' life, something warm for his cold contrast. Dream would probably invite him to other AUs to make him happy or something,, he could listen to Cross vent while Dream gives him advice and reassuring words.

Idk if this is what you wanted but idk if I'm looking into this too much sorry for the long ass reblog TvT

Edit: This was most likely platonic but people can think of this as romantic ,, and just because I put others here doesn't mean Cross can't comfort himself! He can be independent sometimes! Cross is a complex character on his own.

frothing at the mouth right now (i need someone anyone to talk to me about cross sans hurt/comfort and or whump imliterally begging)

[flarebean]

maybe i should figure out organisation for stuff i want to come back to eventually. not sure how to do that from mobile though. stuff like uh

(hk-ut) quirrel falls down a hole

(hk) to carry a candle au

(hk) it's hollow's turn to be a hero again

(valo) zero/volt friendship stuff

maybe i should also tag my rambles if people want to like... filter it out lmao

making a stab at that. might miss some.

[30 Nov 2022]

starting to tag reblogs as 'reblog' as well, i guess?

[11 Apr 2023]

[messedupessy]

SAY HELLO TO LUCEM AND NOCTEM (͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) ❤

Alright so, these are two boys I been fooling around with for awhile, haven’t worked on them for awhile but I went and finished Noctem, the second boy, I am not even sure if these two are or should even be like a UT au or not, it’s currently up for debate since they are so far from it, but they were supposed to so yeah we shall see xD anyway, these are just their current designs, as I am not too happy with how they look, especially Noctem as it’s not how I want it, while Lucem is pretty much done give or take, but yeah these are not the final designs and will be updated in the future!

Before I go into more details about these two under a cut, because it will probably be long knowing me, so do I want to give a shoutout to @dreemurr-skelememer and @wishingstarinajar, as I was very inspired by two of their boys when it comes to these two, especially when it comes to Lucem, and I wanna give credit where credit is due, so go and give those two some love and a follow as they make amazing stuff and are really great people! ❤

Alright, so. Before I go into details, again, I just want to admit that yes I was slightly inspired by dream/tale, what with the whole one light and one dark brother that are like sort of godly and stuff like that, in fact these two happened all because I was like “what if I made my own take on dream and made him a total shitty bastard.”, which then led me down the road of hey fuck snases I’mma make them only Papyruses because hey we need more so called powerful Papyruses and stuff like that, and things just evolved from there until I ended up here, where it has become nothing like dream/tale but it’s own thing, with the only similarity is that one brother is all light and stuff and the other is dark and stuff, but that’s where the resemblance ends. 

Heck I am not even sure if I should call this a UT au or not, since these two got pretty much nothing to do with the original material in any way or is based on any like au version except for like my style of drawing Papyruses, but that’s something I will have to figure out later on, as currently I am too unsure what I want to do, but now time for what you guys are actually interested in, the actual boys and what the fuck is going on with them, some things below will probably change as I get a better understanding about them and stuff, but for now this is what I got:

Lucem and Noctem are twins, technically identical as if you made Noctem’s bones white and changed his markings he would look identical to Lucem, same height even as Lucem is just wearing heels, they both also go by He/them pronouns as since they are technically some sort of deities they don’t need genders and because I say so, but both go by he most of the time.

They are both some sort of deity, some sort of mythical creature, beings with allot of power, maybe demons, I am not sure what exactly they are supposed to be, but what I do know is that they are kind of like vampires in a way, because yes these boys got fangs, which aren’t showing as Lucem isn’t smiling properly and Noctem’s got his mouth mostly closed, but they are there and they need to feed to survive properly. 

Lucem needs to feed on happiness, on happy, good feelings, while Noctem needs to feed on sad, so called bad feelings, as otherwise they will weaken and die. They are technically immortal as they can’t die by age, but they could probably get killed, but I am unsure about the get killed part at the moment, maybe if they are very weak first, but either way they need to feed on certain emotions to survive. And since they are like mythical kinda beings in a way, and feeding on people’s emotions probably isn’t the best thing to do, so do they live secluded far away from society, haven’t decided how their home looks like or even if they maybe live in some sort of pocket dimension thing, but they live far away from people, and really only go out to feed which they have always been so very careful of doing.

Noctem is very happy with this life, he is a massive loner and enjoys the secluded life, Lucem not so much. As years goes by Lucem slowly but surely kind of loses it, as why should he be locked up and hide when he can do so many things, he can make people so happy as that is also one of their powers, they can make people either so very happy or so very sad, which helps with their feeding, but it’s not really a good thing to do as they can make people overload with either emotion, so much that they will literally die.

Lucem ends up leaving, wanting to be free and literally bathe the world in light, in his light, as he is a arrogant prick who thinks he should pretty much rule the world and everyone should treat him like a god. But he hides that part of himself so very well, his whole thing is that he seems to be this godly priest like man, who is so nice and helps people, when in reality he is such a fucking bastard and don’t give a shit, all he cares about is making everyone happy so he can feed on said happiness, he don’t care if he overloads people, he is a bit of a cult leader kind of guy whose sole mission is to overflood the whole world in this messed up happiness which will feed him and let him be free, he is a bit deranged but hides it well.

I just really wanted to make him into the ultimate bastard, while he appears not to be. His design is also slightly based on that uh swap dream I have seen around? the dream snas with wings and fucked up eyes, as Lucem kinda got the same thing that his eyes when he opens them properly you can see something is so not right with him, he is just seriously messed up and a dick and I love him. He is so not a good person as I wanted to truly make a really bad Papyrus so to speak haha, as there aren’t that many out there pft, so yeah he a piece of shit, manipulative af etc. 

Noctem on the other hand, he is a grumpy man who just wants to live alone in seclusion with his brother, he is very unhappy about the fact Lucem has left him, unhappy about the happy life he had with his twin is ruined all because Lucem couldn’t be sated with the life they had. So he is very, very done with his brothers bullshit, and is also very aghast about the shit he is pulling as he is like ruining the balance of the world kinda deal in a way, as there can’t be too much light, too much happiness, just as there can’t be too much darkness, too much sadness etc, as otherwise things will get fucked up, but Lucem doesn’t give a fuck about that.

So eventually Noctem goes out to get his brother back and that’s like all I got give or take. Haven’t worked on this like properly but will hopefully have something better explained and so on some day, but this will do for now, enjoy!

And feel free to send i asks about them, will try to answer haha xD

[maira-writes-shit]

You look cute

Tanizaki Junichirou x Tachihara Michizou

Tattoo parlor x Flower shop AU, meeting, fluff

Junichirou was a very simple person.

He loved his sister, his friends and his job.

He was a florist for one of the best flower shops in town.

Junichirou was currently working on a arrangement for one of their frequent customers. It was a old man that came by every week or so to get a small arrangement for his wife. They had been together for over 50 years now.

The redhead smiled down at the arrangement he just finished.

Their relationship is so sweet...I wish I could have that...

“Tanizaki! You’re back here, right?“

The man in question turned around to see his best friend Atsushi waving at him from the front of the shop.

The redhead nodded and walked out of the back room to the front the shop.

It wasn’t the biggest size wise and it was stacked with plants but it felt as much as home as the little apartment he and Naomi lived in.

„Aku is taking me out on a date. Could you cover my shift for today? Only if you're finished of course!“

„Sure thing, Atsushi! Don’t worry you’ll be fine!“

“Thanks you’re the best!“ the white haired boy then vanished into the back with a big smile on his face.

The older of the two looked at the closing door with a soft smile.

He had sadly been on the receiving end of most of his coworkers rants about this guy he constantly butted heads with but still somehow thought was kind of cute. It actually hadn't been that long ago when Atsushi had finally mastered the courage to ask Akutagawa out.

Junichirou was happy for him (also maybe because he wouldn't get random 3am calls of Atsushi screaming about said boy anymore...hopefully).

Since it was the late afternoon the shift didn't have many customers.

There was the old man coming to get his arrangement, a young man buying the classic (roses), a bride that came to check up on a few things and a mother and her little daughter who bought a couple of single flowers.

Junichirou helped them all and then sat back just scrolling on his phone.

He was just looking at the clock and realizing he should slowly start to close the shop, when the little bell above the stores door jingled.

The florist looked up to see a man standing slightly awkward in the door.

...a very handsome man.

He was around Junichirou's hight, with red hair some shades darker than Junichirou. The man wore a cropped green jaket and a white V-neck shirt as well as...a band aid on his nose?

Wierd fashion choice...b ut it doese look good on him.

He'd look good in everything.

Jun we don't even know his name!

I'm just saying!

Junichirou shook his head to get rid of his thoughts as he put on a smile again.

"May I help you?"

The man jumped a little but then went up to the desk at which the other redhead was sitting.

"Uh yeah. I think you can." Junicirou chuckled. "And how?"

The man rolled his eyes but his cheeks were tinted a light pink.

"I just need an arrangement for the front window of the place I work at." "Oh so you can say stuff that makes sense!"

Junichirou was usually not like this, especially to customers. He didn't know what it was about this guy that made it so easy for him to tease and joke but if he was honest...he liked it.

The redhead in front of him snorted and raised an eyebrow.

"So now that we've established that-" Junichirou stood up and grabbed his notebook and pen. "-what's the style you're going for?"

"Well it's a tattoo shop-" "The one down the street?" "-Uh yeah. Do you know it?"

The florist tapped his pen on the notebook.

"Yeah my coworkers boyfriend works there..." ,he mumbled as he walked over to some of the flowers in he coner that might be of intrest for the man.

"Oh-um well then if you've been there before you should know what type of aesthetic, I guess, we are going for, right?"

Junichirou hummed.

"'kay so I have some ideas. The thing is just you came very shortly before closing and frankly I have a sister at home that will beat the shit out of me if I'm not back on time so-"

The redhead went into the back to get his bag.

"_don't worry I'll have the arrangement finished tomorrow at noon. I'll just need you to write down your name and if you want it to be brought to the shop of course where the shop is. Please make it fast I can't be late."

The taller man in front of him looked slightly speachless but then seemed to regain his mind because he started writing the information down on the pice of paper JUnichirou had given him.

Tachihara Michizou, huh?

I'll remeber that...

Tachihara seemed to linger for a few seconds too long until he then turned around and walked to the shops door.

"Oh yeah by the way."

JUnichirou looked back up.

"You look cute." ,he winked. "Well see ya sometime, Red!"

JUnichirou just looked at the door closing with his mouth open.

"Wha-what the fuck just happned?!"

Honestly Junichirou was just confused.

He walked the short way to his and Naomi’s apartment without paying attention to anyrhing, nearly getting hit by a car.

He was so distracted that even completely ignored his sister who jumped to hug him the second he opened the door, which wasn’t good.

“Hey! Are you ignoring me?!“

“H-huh? Oh! Sorry Naomi!“

“Something must have happned at work today.“ the redhead could feel his cheeks heating up. „So I’m right!“

“Yeah ok ok you’re right.“ Junichirou walked around his sister into the kitchen, where he opened the cupboard to get out two bowls.

“So tell me!“

„You‘re a noisy one, aren’t you?“ „Hey! Don’t be mean to your adorable little sister!“

The siblings sat down as the water started to boil.

There was a comfortable silence between them even if Junichirou could practically feel Naomi‘s questions floating in the air.

“Ok it has to do with a customer.“ Naomi gave the happy little squeak she always gave when he told her, as she called it, „The tea“ from work.

“So I was just about to close where this guy came in.“ his sister seemed to visibly get even more intrigued.

„He was like really handsome. He was tall, had red hair, intense eyes and I’m pretty sure he wore eyeliner. He had an interesting fashion style and had a bunch of tattoos, because he works at the tattoo parlor Atsushi‘s boyfriend also works at.“

Naomi hummed with a smirk on her lips, as she held her head in her hands.

“Well he walked in last minute and asked for an arrangement for the front of their parlor. And of course I was like: „sure I’ll do it. It’ll be done by tomorrow just give me the name of the place and I’ll deliver it“, right?“ Naomi nodded.

“And everything is fine everything is normal.“ his sister raised an eyebrow. „Ok normal with a little bit more blushing.“

“Anyway! He walks out but just before he leaves he turns around to me and says, and I quote: „You look cute.“ and then he winked at me and left!“

The black haired girl in front of him gasped. „He winked?! No he didn’t!“ „Yes he did!“ „Oh god!“

The water was finally done boiling so Junichirou stood up to get it and finish their dinner.

“Well he seems to like you. Wait- did you get his name?“ „Uh- yeah I did. I need it for the delivery and everything, remember?“ „Yeah yeah. So what is it?“ „Tachihara…Michizou Tachihara.“

Even if Junichirou didn’t like the expression on his sisters face he just ignored it and sat down in front of her with the food.

„Good Morning Jun!“

„AHH Oh god Naomi don’t scare me like that!“

“Yeah yeah whatever. Come on I need to show you something!“

„Wait don’t I need to go to-wait it’s 6am. What the fuck Are you doing awake?“ „Pssst!“

Naomi basically ran through their small apartment dragging a very tried Junichirou behind her.

On the small couch the siblings own sat a girl with red glasses, long brown hair and tried looking green eyes.

Haruno, his sisters girlfriend.

„Good morning Haruno.“ „Good Morning Junichirou“, she said giving him a small smile. They suffered together by the hands of the one, Naomi Tanizaki.

“We found something out. Sit down.“ The black haired girl grabbed to open laptop sitting on the table in front of the couch.

With „we“ she probably mean Haruno, and she was just cuddling her half the time…

“Michizou Tachihara, 22 years of age, Tattoo artist. He’s currently single and a bisexual. He has been working at Port tattoo for about 2 or 3 years, not sure about that one. He’s pretty good friends with someone called Gin Akutagawa, but don’t worry they have a girlfriend.“

“Also before you ask: yes Gin is related to Atsushi‘s boyfriend. They are siblings“, Naomi‘s girlfriend piped up.

Junichirou was just stunned.

“Wha-what? When? How? Did you guys even sleep?!“

“No we did not but that is not important! What’s important is that we now know that he is single and probably attracted to you.“

He had no words.

Junichirou was distracted again.

He was just working on an arrangement for a handsome bisexual guy who told him he looked cute…

What the actual fuck?!

He took a step back.

The arrangement was beautiful, one of his best works he’d say.

A lot of dark blues and purples.

The hyacinths blending beautifully with the cornflowers. Just all in all pretty.

Sure he thought it was kind of embarrassing adding the cornflowers, he knew a lot about flower language after all but most of his customers didn’t really care especially for these types of jobs so the redhead bushed those thoughts to the back of his head.

Junichirou took a deep breath.

Lets do this!

Be confident!

He took the arrangement.

The walk wasn’t going to be long so it was fine for him to just carry it.

“Ok I’m off, Atsushi! See you in a bit!“ „Yeah sure thing, Tani!“

…

The walk to the tattoo parlor was blurr and now he was standing in front of it.

Oh fucking god-

Deep breaths Junichirou

Deep breaths

And he walked in.

“Hello how can I help you?“

The woman at the front was a little older than him, had blond hair that she had in a bun and had warm brown eyes. She looked nice.

“Uh I need to talk to uhm Tachihara?“

She eyed him a little bit visibly inspecting the vase in his hand.

She gave him a smirk.

“Yeah he should be free I’ll tell him.“

“Thank you…“

He had only ever been in here once. He had to wait in the front room as Atsushi and Akutagawa were at each other’s throats agin. Oh how happy he was they were dating now. Less fighting…less.

The place looked nice though.

Even if it had a rather cool color palette with a lot of blues, purples and blacks it still seemed very cozy and the seats were the softest things Junichirou‘s ass had ever touched.

Some of the work by the artist that worked here was displayed on the walls. These people were so goddamm talented.

[zirkkun]

Yo you have every right to be upset about things! You're still a person with your own feelings and deserve to be treated kindly. No one should come at you for making things you enjoy or for misunderstandings. I hope things get better for you even if I wasn't here for when all the drama happened (or maybe I was and just wasn't aware of it? I tend to avoid drama as much as possible tbh)

I didn't really post about it much. I think I answered about 4 asks about it (three of them in the same post because i was sure it was the same anon due to the similar string of seemingly continued messages) and the rest I just deleted as soon as they came in, but I got... A lot. A lot of mean things said too. Kinda hurts when you wanted to make something because you knew this work was highly criticized and wanted to let people give it a second chance only to be shot down by the people you were hoping to defend lol

In short, and a lot of it I missed because I was blocked by a lot of people so my friend sent me screencaps; someone took I believe only the old ask box post I had for ULR, which at the time was called "Underlust Rewrite," and was disgusted at the fact that everything was revamped and "made for kids" (because it's not 18+ explicit content, but as I've said before, it's just cause I'm too scared to be horny on main, and I've literally made a whole different biological system for ULR so I can write the necessary story ""sex scenes"" without it being human-like sex or otherwise uncomfortable or too explicit for me to draw, but I still consider it a mature story overall), so they blocked me instantly here and on twitter and then made a callout post on twitter itself. People were telling me originally to stop calling the AU Underlust, and I didn't really get it at first, because like, what's the difference between my spinoff and, say, Underlust Gold, Swapfell Indigo, TS!Underswap, you know, names that have add-ons from the original title to differentiate it but still connect it to the source. So that's what I said, as well as if I removed the Underlust name, it would be considered stealing to me, because I'd be disconnecting it from the source. But apparently, instead, what had been the concern was that it was just being called "Underlust" and the "Rewrite" aspect was implying I was replacing the original story, which like, had never been my intention and I've made a bunch of things with both the ULR and UL cast together and love the idea of Lust and Ace meeting up and just being a disaster duo of not working together at all. I just adore Underlust like it's in my pinned FAQ, Lust's been in my banner for months now, and he's practically my staple pfp character on every account but here atm.

It took like 3 days for it to actually click what was going on, because once I finally got the chance to have a conversation with someone where they weren't telling me I was the scum of the Earth -- which, honestly, bless the three people I talked to, they were so sweet (which actually included someone from the Japanese side of the fandom whose art I loved too... yeah it got pretty far. Once I sent them a message though it was cleared up quickly and they did post a clarification post about ULR and me, so that was nice to see.) -- I finally got the chance to realize that this was a misunderstanding from the beginning, from both sides, where people coming at me were saying I was doing all of the stuff above and probably more but those stuck the most, while I was confused as to where this information and accusations were coming from and what they were referring to in the first place. They probably never explained it in the anon asks because, well, they probably assumed I knew what I was doing, but when they came at me about something I didn't do with vague context of something I did do, I was very confused, and got really defensive really quickly, and really honestly snapped pretty hard. After my first initial explanation post and people were still trying to tell me to stop ULR/don't call it Underlust/whatever else there was, I just got tired and told people to block me if they didn't like it. But that didn't really stop anyone and honestly made it worse because that's when I started getting really nasty messages. I like... Specifically remember one where someone called me a lowlife and a thief, and that one stuck the most, but I tended to not read through them before deleting them for my own sanity. I actually did this to one of the people who'd later talked to me calmly about it at first too, because I had just woken up, and really didn't want to read an essay lecture on everything everyone's been telling me at the crack of 7am when I was borderline ready to delete my account and start over lol

Some people I do remember were accusing me of trying to censor nsfw content or erase it as well because ULR isn't 18+, and I'm out here on my horny ass like "wh. What are they talking about, where did you get that idea, have you SEEN my ao3 recommended list," /j but in all seriousness I really didn't understand that accusation at all because I've never been against nsfw content in the slightest and lowkey? This is very dumb -- but like, you know how they say when you get hate mail, you know you've made it? Well, for me, my thought has always been, "When there's 18+ fancontent of my OC's, I'll have finally made it." This is... Not a joke, some of my friends think its very weird LMAO oh well. I've been on the internet for far too long at this point -- like, definitely since I was far too young, probably, and being with a family of the next youngest being 12 years older than me, I really dove into stuff pretty quickly I definitely shouldn't have, but hey that's life -- I'm really unfazed by mostly anything now. Hell, me making ULR was honestly half motivated by me wanting to make others more comfortable with this kind of media, discussing sexuality and otherwise sexual-considered topics, without really being embarrassed or bothered by it. Because, people talk about death and killing and whatever other gorey stuff just fine, but the moment sex comes up, people just gasp in awe, y'know? I kind of grew up that way myself but like... ironically, in being more comfortable with my asexuality, I realized that it's honestly not that big of a deal. Sure, we don't need to hear the details of everything. We don't need to hear the details of a murder either. But I will never understand how murder is always the lowest on the "morally wrong list of things to not to" to so many people and that it's fine to mention, but even consider bringing up anything else and it's like, a sin and you're a bad person. Even racism is like, higher up on there for a lot of people, which it's like... this is an issue that needs to be discussed, or it can never be solved. You can't just kick that away and hope it goes away on its own, that's never how it works.

Ah, well, now I've gone off tangent lol. Sorry to make you read a blob of text lmao but having things in a cohesive format of what I've been thinking does feel a bit better. Thank you for the support regardless, and I do want to keep making what I really enjoy, because frankly, I really want to make things that make people take a step back and think for a moment, y'know? Things that invoke like a realization in yourself about something you didn't even know. That's how fiction's always been for me, so I want to give back by making it that way too. ... maybe my horny content is exempt from this however. That's just. Self indulgence LMAO.

Probably helps that I'm actually talking this all out for once, too, since before any of this I tried to keep as much of the situation contained to myself as possible in hopes I could clean it up before it got too bad. That was, in hindsight, probably a terrible idea lol. But I didn't want to be a source of stress for anyone following me or become the new creator-to-defend that like, 50% of people hate and 50% of people love and that you're either on one side or the other and there's no where in between. (I feel like Arin Hanson comes to mind for me every time I think of someone like this.) I know I can't please everyone and I knew internet hate would come eventually, but like, didn't expect it to be over a name or tag choice. I thought that would be a simple enough DM or clearable thing but apparently not, especially since I saw someone a few weeks ago delete their blog over a similar thing (though, the opposite, in a way: posting nsfw in a sfw tag by mistake). It wasn't in the UT fandom so y'all probably weren't following them (tbf I wasn't either, I just witnessed it happen from start to finish), but it was still disheartening.

Anyway, thank you, and sorry to make ya read all of that (if you actually did vahdbs don't blame you if you don't it's a lot of thought dump lmao)💕💕

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A Palette of Emotions - Artist!Taehyung x Teacher!Reader - Chapter 30 - His Last Day and Her Last Chance

Synopsis: Taehyung dreams of being a professional and famous artist one day, but finds that the sea of creativity can be lurking with blood hungry sharks, as well as bland, motionless starfish. Swimming through the sea of opportunities somehow washed him up onto the shore of Bright Star Preschool, as an art teacher. This wasn’t where he expected to be 4 years into his career, but anything to get his big break though, right?

Feat. BTS, TXT, ITZY, Jisoo (BlackPink), Taeyong (NCT)

Genre: Romance, Slow Burn, Love Triangle, Drama, School Setting, Working!AU

Length: approx. 7.4k words

Chapter 30 - His Last Day and Her Last Chance

“Pleasure doing business with you, Mr. Kim. We will see you in the fall.”

“Thank you, Mr. Oh, I appreciate all the help you’ve given me.”

“Of course. I hope you’re ready for this new chapter in your life.”

“I am, Sir.”

Taehyung kept replaying that conversation over and over as he stood in Seokjin’s office. He watched as the man typed away on his computer, silent for a while. Taehyung glanced down at him, hands at his sides as he waited quietly for his boss to say anything. Seokjin glanced up, sighing as he crossed his arms. His lips tugged together in a slight, thin line. Taehyung shifted in his seat, and before he knew it, the older man’s eyes were pointed directly at him.

“So, what you’re telling me is I have to start looking around for a rehire?” He asked. A groan escaped his lips. “You brat. Why did you have to be even more talented than I thought you were when I hired you? I was shooting for having you around at least another 3 or 4 years.” Taehyung laughed a bit.

“Sorry, Mr. Kim. But I won’t be able to handle the travel that I’d have to do to keep both and-.” Seokjin was quick to raise a hand and stop Taehyung before he began rambling senselessly.

“I’m only kidding. You’ve been given quite an opportunity, what kind of boss would I be if I penalized you for taking it?”

“…A bad one?” Taehyung grinned, and both men laughed. “I’ll finish cleaning out my stuff at the end of the day, but I’ll leave up all of the posters and charts and stuff, in case any future art teacher decides they need it.” With a bow of his head, Taehyung turned on his head and exited the room. As he closed the door, a sound of children giggling and cheering entered the hallway. Taehyung turned to see the children making their way inside, with you leading them. A smile was on your face as you walked backward, an art you had mastered long agotoo watch the students easily. As you approached Seokjin’s office, you spun back around when one of the kids shouted: “Mr. Kim is back!”

Immediately, the kids began poking their heads out of line in hopes to see the man. Taehyung smiled, waving to the sea of children as they eagerly began to cheer and greet him.

“You were missed.” You said simply, a small smile forming on your face. “Welcome back, Mr. Kim.”

“Happy to be back.” He said sweetly, his eyes casting right towards you as you smooth ut your skirt. “I missed you…” A moment of silence fell over the hallway, and Taehyung watched your ears tint a bit red, eyes darting towards the wall, the ceiling, basically anywhere that Taehyung was not. “…Guys. You guys…” Taehyung gasped, his ears not far behind as they too felt extremely hot. “I missed you guys.” Quickly, you turned to Hoseok, who was standing behind the line with his arms crossed, watching with what you could only tell was a forced smile.

“Mr. Hobi, can you take the kids inside? I need to ask Mr. Kim a question.”

“Right.” Hoseok quickly hurried towards the front of the line, motioning the children to hurry along. Though they protested, wanting to stay and see Mr. Kim for a few moments longer, one stern look from Hoseok and the students were silent, walking into the classroom without another word from them. With them gone, you quickly turned to Taehyung, who was rubbing his neck shyly.

“…Are you going to tell them when your last day is, or should I?”

“I’ll tell them today.” He spoke. “But I might need you in there to make sure I explain it right…and to take care of any crying kids.” A laugh escaped your lips, and you nodded in agreement. “…I really did miss you.” He said softly. You glanced up at him. “It’ll be a sad day when I have to leave.”

“I know.” You spoke. “…When is that again?” Taehyung chuckled a bit. “Just checking.”

“The middle of next week. My aunt lives within driving distance, so she’s going to help me find an apartment before classes start. That way I’m there and I can settle into the area, maybe find a job, all that fun stuff.”

“Ah.”

“Why?” Suddenly, you squinted your eyes just a bit, looking the confused Taehyung up and down. You pursed your lips together, and it only made Taehyung laugh a bit more. “What?”

“Don’t worry about it…” you said slyly. Taehyung couldn’t help but continue to laugh.

“You look ridiculous.” He said, watching as you headed down the hallway. “What? No response? Is it because I’m right?” Quickly, before entering the room, you turned back to Taehyung and smiled sweetly.

“Just don’t worry about it.” You repeated. Without any further explanation, you slipped behind the door and into your classroom.

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You knew from the moment you woke up that morning that it would be a long day. However, it felt even longer once Taehyung told the students his plans to leave, and his inability to be there for the rest of their time in preschool. Of course, kids began asking frantic questions, some began tearing up at the thought, others just full-out started crying. The three of you did virtually no art during that period, but you didn’t expect to, talking to and calming down handfuls of sobbing children. Before all of you knew it, time for art was done, and you had barely gotten the kids to draw on paper. There ended up being more tears on the papers than color.

As you were lining the students up, wiping the final set of eyes, and soothing the final child, Taehyung was watching by his desk. He looked down at Yuna, who was sniffling.

“Guys, I’m not leaving today.” He repeated once again. “I have so many fun activities for us the next few days.”

“You can’t leave, Mr. Kim. We can’t art if you leave!” Yuna sniffled, only to be met by Hoseok, who handed her a tissue to wipe her red and puffy face. Taehyung smiled, patting the girl’s head. When he looked up, he saw you knelt, talking with Lia, who was clutching a paper in her hand. She was one of the few who hadn’t been crying, though Taehyung could tell how badly she wanted to. After a moment, Lia turned toward Taehyung, her little feet carrying her down the line. Taehyung knelt for the girl, who handed him the picture. When he took it, he saw him and Lia in a scribbled field, the sky a mix of blue and white patches, and Taehyung wearing all gray.

“I made it,” Lia said. Taehyung smiled at her as she pointed to her name, and showed him what she wrote for him.

“Thank you, Lia.” He said gently. The small girl grinned a bit, before being escorted out by Hoseok, holding his hand tightly. Taehyung looked down at the picture once again, smiling a bit as he stood up, slipping it into his bag to bring home with him. “My first souvenir from here, hm?” he hummed to himself.

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The remainder of Taehyung’s time at the preschool was a bit awkward, specifically between the two of you. Each time you passed one another or saw one another, you knew exactly what you wanted to tell him, and he knew exactly what he wanted to ask you. However, every time, you chickened out, figuring that the next day would pose yet another opportunity for you to tell him all of the words that were burning in your chest each day. However, the vicious cycle never ended, and before you knew it, you were hanging streamers and balloons up in the classroom. The kids had made cards, parents brought in treats and gifts, all for Taehyung. It was his last day, spending the remainder of the week packing up to get to the train in a few days. As you finished up the decorations, you looked around, sighing to yourself.

“You think it’s too much?” you asked, rubbing your hands together as you looked at the final product.

“Of course, it is,” Hoseok replied. “But that’s what makes it so fun, don’t you think?” Checking the time, Hoseok turned back to you. “Let’s head outside and wait for the kids.” Nodding your head, you quickly followed Hoseok out the door. As you entered the hallway, you quickly looked towards the door that led into Taehyung’s room. He hadn’t arrived yet, as per Seokjin’s request so you and Hoseok had more than enough time to prepare the room without him knowing of your little plot. Hoseok noticed your eyes wander, and was quick to take your hand. “You have to tell him.”

“I don’t know if I can.” You admitted, the words slipping out of your mouth quicker than you had thought they would, and with a lot more vulnerability. Hoseok smiled, squeezing your hand, before silently leading you out the door to wait for the arriving students.

When Taehyung arrived, late as requested by Seokjin, who sent him a gift card to buy a late breakfast, he arrived with a full belly and an aching heart. If someone had told him on his first day that the idea of leaving this job would cause him any kind of pain, he would have never believed them. However, as he stepped into the school, he had to swallow a lump of sadness trying to force its way up to his throat. He didn’t want to cry, at least, didn’t think he did, but it sure as hell felt that way. Upon entering the hallway, Seokjin stood outside the door, typing away on his phone. Occasionally, his eyes would look up, towards the door, as if he was waiting for Taehyung to arrive. As soon as he saw Taehyung, he grinned and approached him, throwing an arm over his shoulder.

“Taehyung! How are you doing?!” He asked curiously. “Was breakfast good?” Taehyung nodded, smiling softly.

“Yes.”

“Good. C’mere, I need to show you something.” Without any further explanation, Seokjin practically dragged Taehyung towards your room. “Now, close your eyes, okay?” Taehyung sighed, smiling as he followed his boss’s orders, amusement on his face. He had a feeling he knew what was going on here. Seokjin led him forward, and when the door closed behind them, Seokjin said. “Open them.”

When Taehyung opened his eyes, his ears were flooded with a group of children shouting “SURPRISE!!!!” A grin broke out on Taehyung’s face, and he looked around. You and Hoseok were standing by the front of the room, looking at something on the computer, while Yoongi was standing by the table of food, arms crossed as he watched the kids sit eagerly in their seats.

“Wow, this is crazy, guys. It all looks amazing! Did you do this?” The kids nodded in excitement. As Taehyung walked farther into the room, he admired the decorations. When he turned to you, he smiled sweetly. “This is all really sweet. Thanks, guys.”

Hoseok put his hands on Taehyung’s shoulders, a smile beaming on his face. “Of course, Taehyung. We can’t send you off without a proper goodbye!” Quickly, he motioned to one of the tables against the wall, which was filled with snacks. “All of the parents brought snacks and stuff. Today is a party day.”

“Party day!” A few kids shrieked, the idea of a day full of treats and fun filling them with so much excitement, it was as if they had already downed tons of sugar. Taehyung smiled a bit, his chest bubbling with a sense of excitement he hadn’t felt in a long time.

“I’m always down for a party day.” He agreed, grinning at you and Hoseok. “Let’s go.”

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The party day was very nice, and incredibly well needed. You played music, allowed the kids time to eat, and brought them outside for some free time due to the nice weather. Yoongi had grabbed the equipment, and the children ran their energy off with Taehyung, scattered throughout every corner of the field. Hoseok was sitting on the floor, rolling a ball around with some of the kids, who Yoongi was showing a few other kids how to shoot baskets in a small net that had been set up on the field. You were using chalk with Yuna and another small girl, doodling hearts and colorful flowers. As the girls complimented each other’s little doodles, you turned towards Taehyung. The man was eagerly rushing through the field; boys such as Yeonjun, Kai, and Beomgyu chased after him, he grinned, only running faster. The boys screamed as they watched the older man flee, trying to follow him as fast as their little legs could carry them. Kai finally managed to grab Taehyung by the leg, screaming “TAG!” And the other kids roaring in laughter. Taehyung dramatically, as he does, fell to the ground, only to be tackled by several children, all of them screaming and cheering in delight. A smile formed on your face as even more kids hurried to the scene, excited about what was going on, Yuna being one of them.

“Be careful!” You called out. Taehyung sat up, shaking out his hair. When you called his name, he turned towards you a grinned, lifting a hand to signal that your request was heard and would be carried out. Without missing a beat, he scattered the kids out once again. As Yuna scurried back to you, sitting down and grasping a pink piece of chalk, you watched Taehyung get dragged by Yeonjun and Kai towards Yoongi, who was still helping students shoot some baskets. Yoongi tossed the other teacher a ball upon watching him, and both of them began shooting, but at a net that was much higher up, and meant for adults or any passing by teenagers who used the lot after hours. Seokjin had it installed a few years back specifically for that reason.

As each moment passed, you knew it inched close and closer to the end of the day. You kept replaying one sentence in your head over and over, mentally rehearsing it for the moment a part of you was dreading. Well, it was several sentences, rephrased in hopes that one would spark some kind of inspiration deep within your belly. So far, nothing and this had been happening almost all day.

I don’t want this to be the reason you stay, but you deserve to know that I love you. Too passive.

As much as I want you to stay, you should go chase your dreams. But just know, I love you. Too wordy.

I love you, but I don’t want to hold you back from your dreams.

“Perfect.” You mumbled under your breath.

“What’s perfect, Teacher?” Yuna asked, looking up at you. You glanced at the girl, who had stopped her coloring on the sidewalk to glance at you, eyebrow cocked in confusion. A smile graced your lips, pointing to her scribbled rainbow.

“Your picture, Yuna! It’s perfect! I just wished it was on paper so I could hang it up! Can I hang up the piece of sidewalk in our classroom?” Yuna and the other little girl laughed, shaking their heads. As the girls returned to their coloring, you glanced back to Taehyung, you had just shot a free shot into the basket, hearing screams and shouts from the students, and claps from Yoongi. “Yeah, it’s perfect.” You repeated. Now, all you had to do was actually speak up and say it.

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“Bye, Mr. Kim.” A sniffling Yeji called hand in hand with her mother. A majority of kids who had failed to bring presents that morning dropped them off at pick up, Yeji included. The little girl wiped her eyes as she waved from the back of her car, her mother wishing Taehyung well wishes as the duo pulled out and down the street. With the last student gone, Taehyung finally let out a sigh of relief.

“Man, these kids.” Bending down, he scooped up some of his presents, slipping them onto his arms like shopping bags and carrying some under his arms.

“Let me-.” Hoseok began but quickly stopped himself. He glanced at you, watching as you smooth out your skirt, eyes to the floor. “Go clean the room.” He nudged you, and when your attention was on him, he motioned to the remainder of the gifts on the floor.

When you noticed, you quickly knelt to grab the rest. “I’ll help you.” You smiled up at Taehyung. He smiled a bit, and the three of you headed inside, Hoseok breaking away as you passed the messy classroom. As he watched you two head into the art room, he closed the door behind him, pursing his lips together as he looked around the now empty room.

“You made out like a bandit.” You said to Taehyung, setting the presents down on the table. He laughed at the metaphor, nodding his head.

“I did, didn’t I? I’m pretty lucky.” He glanced over at you, watching as you examined the colorful gift bags. “Thank you for everything.” When you turned to him, you watched him slowly approach you.

“No, thank you.” You responded. “I appreciate everything. Even early on.” A chuckle escaped his boxy grin. “It’ll be different without you around.”

“I told Hyung when he hires someone before the new year, I’ll come back in and show them the ropes for the day if my schedule allows it. So, this won’t be the end of me, trust that much.” You nodded. Taehyung shifted a bit, glancing up at the door, which you had been sure to close behind you on the way in. “Jimin told me Namjoon invited you to that company party they’re having.”

“Yeah. I was hesitant at first, but I thought it would be something fun other than sitting home drinking wine.”

“I’m sure it’ll be fun.” You nodded. Taehyung took a moment to examine your features, and it took you only a moment to notice. A shy smirk graced your lips. “What are you looking at?” you asked curiously.

“…I’m sorry.” He said softly. You blinked, the smirk quickly fading away, and confusion taking its place. “You just looked…really sad today. It might be bold of me to assume it’s because I’m leaving, but…every time you looked at me today, you looked really sad. So, I’m sorry you’re feeling that way.”

“Heh. Does the Korean University of Arts provide a class for facial features?” you asked curiously.

“No.” Taehyung smiled. “You just have really pretty features, so I’ve been studying them.” Immediately, you felt your heart speed up, and your eyes widened just a bit. Taehyung smiled a bit. “When I came back from setting up everything and said I missed you guys, I think I missed you the most.”

“Taehyung-.” You sighed softly. “I appreciate that…” Clasping your hands together, you looked down at the floor, then quickly back up to him. “There’s something I want to tell you, but I don’t know how you’re going to take it.” Taehyung was now the one to frown, rubbing his arm.

“You don’t have to say it, if you don’t want to…” he admitted. What? You thought, looking up at him. “You look like you’re about to pass out. It’s okay…don’t worry...” When you looked at Taehyung, you could see the pain in his eyes as he rubbed the back of his neck, licking his bottom lip shyly. Why didn’t he want you to say it? Was he worried what hearing the words aloud would make him think?

It was just like you thought. You could see the pain in his eyes, and it made your heart hurt. You didn’t want him to leave here with anything but joy in his eyes, smiling even after he had long left this place, with only good memories of his final moments as the school art teacher. When his eyes fell back to you, you shivered. “It was a pleasure getting to know you. In every sense of the word.”

“Taehyung-.” You repeated. The taller man was quick to put his hand on your cheek, which stunned you, but you had no intention of stopping him. You instead tilted your cheek into it a bit. “I want to tell you…”

“No, you don’t. You’re worried about what telling me will do. Just know, I appreciate it. I appreciate everything. I’ll let you know when I come back into town, so all of us can get together, okay?” he asked. “Just promise you’ll be really happy and keep working hard. I’ll do the same for you too, okay?”

This isn’t what I wanted to happen. You thought to yourself. You still have time; you need to say it before he leaves. Despite the internal cheer squad in your mind, your lips remained tightly sealed, as if someone or something inside your mouth was holding your lips together with all of its might. Taehyung smiled, stepping back and turning to all of his presents. Scooping them up, he slipped them on his arms once again, sliding a few others in his backpack and slinging that onto his back. You watched silently as he nodded his head to you, heading out the door.

“Would it make a difference?” you asked, turning to him. Taehyung stopped, turning his head to face you. “I’m not saying what I feel is meant to keep you from your dreams, but if I said it out loud, would it make a difference on if you left or not?” Taehyung’s eyes dropped from your gaze the moment he saw tears bubble up into your eyes. The corner of his eye gave him a quick glimpse of your hand raising to wipe them away. “Would it?” you repeated. Taehyung quickly walked up to you, stopped right in front of you, and making you immediately stare up at him.

“…No. I don’t think so.” He said softly. You blinked, feeling your hands drop to your sides. Taehyung gently leaned forward, placing a soft peck right onto your forward. When he pulled back, he offered you a sad smile. “But at the same time…I don’t think I’ll be able to handle myself if I hear you say it out loud.” With that, Taehyung turned back around and headed out the door. You blinked, running a hand through your hair as you looked around the room, feeling a lump form in your throat.

Hoseok saw Taehyung practically sprint out of the hallway. Before Hoseok could get out to see him and say goodbye once again, Taehyung was already out the door. Hoseok stood in the hallway for a moment, confused as to what made him run out so quickly. Then, it hit him. “Oh, no.” Spinning on his heel, Hoseok hurried to the art room. When he entered, he saw you still standing in the same spot, rubbing your cheeks in a desperate attempt to calm yourself. “What happened?” he asked curiously.

“I couldn’t tell him directly.” You said, voice shaky and unsure. “But he said it was ok. Right before he left, I asked if it would even make a difference, you know if he would even stay if I said anything and-.” Hoseok simply walked up to you, pulling you into a tight hug. “He said no, so…maybe I was too late like I thought.” Saying that out loud, you felt your eyes water up to more, and you sniffled into his chest. Hoseok rested his chin on your head, gently rubbing your back as you sobbed into his chest. “I messed up so bad, Hobi…”

“No…no, you didn’t…” he said gently, smiling gently at you. “Everything happens for a reason. It’s okay.” For a moment, the two of you stood in silence, Hoseok gently rubbing your back as he waited for you to calm down. As he watched your body slowly stop crying, he took you by the hands. “Wanna come to my house tonight for dinner so you’re not home alone?” You sighed, nodding your head. “Okay. Let’s go get our stuff.”

Meanwhile, outside, Taehyung was on the train headed home. He had been sitting in silence thus far, hands gripping the gifts that piled on his lap. When the silence became too unbearable, even within a crowded train car, he called Jimin. He was quick to answer.

“Hey! How was your last day?”

“She asked me if her decision would be enough to make me stay here.” Jimin went silent for a moment.

“…What did you say?”

“I told her not to say it out loud. I didn’t want to hear it…I don’t think I want to hear it.” He heard Jimin exhale right as the train began to pull up to Taehyung’s station. Neither one of them spoke for a moment as Taehyung exited onto the platform until Taehyung clarified: “I don’t think I can.”

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“Let me see what you’re wearing tonight,” Bong-Cha asked, leaning forward on her chair. You had been in the bathroom for over an hour preparing, and she was growing impatient. “Come on! The party will be over and done with at this rate.”

“Shut t, Bong-Cha. Don’t rush me.” Sighing, Bong-Cha got up and walked to the bathroom, knocking quickly. “Namjoon will be here any minute and I don’t want to look like I just rolled out of bed.”

“Then you’ll need more than just an hour.” She huffed. Finally, Bong-Cha’s banging was stopped as the doorbell rang through the house. “I’ll get it!” She cheered, hurrying up to the door and flinging it open. You poked your head out of the bathroom door, watching as your sister flung the front door open. “Kim Namjoon?” she asked.

“Yes. You must be Bong-Cha.” Namjoon hummed. “Your sister has told me a lot about you.” Bong-Cha giggled, letting Namjoon in and closing the door behind him. “I’m a bit early. The babysitter came right from school so I figured I’d just head right over.”

“No worries. She’s almost done.” Bong-Cha turned around and saw you slowly step out of the bathroom, closing the door behind you. You were in a simple pair of coral dress pants that hugged your hips, and a tucked-in top that had a fun cream and white pattern on it. Your hair was tugged up in a ponytail, exposing a set of stud earrings. As you lifted your hand to fix your hair, a few silver bracelets jingled together on your wrist.

“Hey.” You smiled. Namjoon stared at you for a moment, silent as he watched you gather your belongings. When you looked back up at him, he coughed into his hand.

“You look nice.” He said gently. A polite smile formed on your lips. “Ready?”

“Yea.” You smiled. Bong-Cha waved the both of you out the door, promising to lock up and leave after gathering up her belongings. Both you and Namjoon headed downstairs, slid into his car, and drove off.

The party was held at a nearby BBQ grill place across from the building. The CEO rented the entire place out to allow for some space and more opportunities to socialize. People gathered to eat, drink, chat, and enjoy the music that was pounding overhead through a set of speakers. As you and Namjoon entered, you immediately felt a chill run down your spine. As you rubbed your arms, Namjoon gently guided you down the hall. “Jimin is here.” He pointed out. “I think he told me he would be near the food most of the night. Let’s go say hi.” As you ventured into the building, you quickly caught sight of Jimin. He was by the food, a drink in his hand as he chatted with a few of his coworkers. He was laughing, grinning, amused by the other people’s jokes and comments. “Jimin!” Namjoon called, and Jimin turned with a grin. Excusing himself from his friends, he hurried over to you. He bowed quickly to his boss, but his attention was on you.

“Hey! Namjoon-Hyung told me you were coming, I’m so happy to see you again!” Jimin grinned. “You look so nice.”

“You too. How are you?” Jimin was quick to engage you in conversation, practically forgetting Namjoon was there after his polite greeting. The man watched in amusement, fixing his glasses as the two of you got comfortable. Slowly, he put a hand on the small of your back, alerting your attention.

“I’m going to get something to drink and find my boss. Do you want anything?”

“Uhm water please.” You smiled sweetly. Namjoon nodded, before heading into a crowd of people, being sure to shake hands and introduce himself to whoever he came across. With you alone with Jimin, he gently took your hands.

“How are you doing?” he asked again, gentler this time. You smiled. “I can tell you’re not your happiest.”

“I should be saying that to you. Your best friend and the only client as a manager is leaving.” Jimin smiled, nodding his head.

“Yeah, that’s true. But he doesn’t have a crush on me. At least, that I’m aware of.” You couldn’t help but laugh, even though hearing Jimin says that sent butterflies through your stomach and into your throat, pressing against the walls as if wanting to come out.

“I don’t think our final meeting went at all the way either of us wanted to.” You admitted. “He said he wouldn’t stay even if I said anything, and that he didn’t think he could even handle hearing it.” Jimin nodded.

“I know. He and I were talking a lot on the drive to the station.” Hearing Jimin says that caused you to bite your lip. “...What?”

“I forgot that today was the day he was leaving.” You said softly. “A part of me wanted to go see him before he left one more time but…I didn’t want to make anything worse.” Jimin smiled.

“He might’ve liked that, though,” Jimin assured. “I don’t think it would’ve made anything worse.” You could only shrug your shoulders in response. Jimin looked over his shoulder, then back to you. “Want something to eat before Namjoon-Hyung comes back with your water?”

“…Okay, yeah.” You smiled softly, following Jimin towards the food table, which was now unoccupied. You both put a few snacks on your plates. As Jimin watched you eat, he thought back to only hours earlier, when he had dropped Taehyung off at the station.

“Let me know when you’re on the train,” Jimin said.

“I’ll try. The service won’t be that great, but I’ll text you when I get to my aunts for sure.” The duo shared a hug in the car, and Taehyung glanced out towards the entrance to the train station. He sat silently in the passenger’s seat, before turning to Jimin. “You’re going to see her at that party tonight, right?”

“Yeah,” Jimin said.

“Make sure Namjoon just…takes care of her, okay? I don’t want to have to come back just to throw some punches at the guy right when we found common ground.” Jimin frowned a bit.

“You don’t have to worry, Taehyung.” He said. “That won’t happen.”

“I know but-.”

“It won’t,” Jimin repeated. Taehyung blinked, licking his lips quickly and running a hand through his hair. “I think you should call her, Taehyung. Let her say what she has to.”

“I don’t want to,” Taehyung admitted. “She’s going to a party with Namjoon, she is obviously uncomfortable talking to me about it. She looked like she was going to cry when I saw her. I didn’t want her to cry…” Taehyung finally opened the door. “It is what it is, I just want her to be happy.” Jimin watched as Taehyung got out of the car. “As I said, I’ll text you later. Have fun tonight.” The familiar boxy grin showed on Taehyung’s face, but Jimin could only see pain. Fixing his mask over his nose, his friend closed the door and disappeared into the train station. After a moment of sitting there, the sound of a car horn honking behind him encouraged Jimin to drive off.

Jimin watched as you put some of the snacks into your mouth, smiling at him. “This is really good. Your boss went all out, hm?”

“Heh, yeah, he’s pretty good with that,” Jimin admitted. As you continued to eat, Jimin looked at you. He knew any minute Namjoon would be back and would whisk your attention away. Despite attending the party as friends, with Taehyung leaving, Namjoon had the opportunity to try and win you over. Would that be a bad thing? No. Would it be what you truly wanted? Also, no. Jimin looked around, catching a glimpse of Namjoon chatting with a few of the higher-ups, laughing as they shared a round of drinks. Quickly, he turned to you. “Are you sure you’re okay with Taehyung just leaving?”

“What?” you asked curiously. “Well….no…but he made up his mind and-.”

“What did you tell him?” Jimin asked. You frowned. “Hm?”

“Nothing. He said he didn’t want me to say it out loud because he didn’t want to hear it. I already said that…So, even if I did tell him, I loved him, he still would have left. I just didn’t want to be selfish. But maybe a part of me should have been…” Jimin sighed. “Maybe I should have fought harder to keep him around. Tell him anyway, or go see him like I wanted to.”

“Maybe so.” Jimin began. You glanced at him. “I have a feeling Taehyung’s thought and your confession got miscommunicated. I have a feeling Taehyung thinks you were about to reject him over Hyung.” You blinked.

“…What?” you asked again.

“He told me when we went on that weekend trip to the school that he didn’t expect something would be here that would have made it hard for him to leave. I think a part of him really wanted to stay here with you, despite everything that’s been happening.”

You were silent, stunned even. “You really believe he thinks I was rejecting him?”

“You told him about the party with Hyung tonight, and he said you looked terrified to talk to him ever since he got the notice about this scholarship. He probably didn’t want to hear it because he wanted to have a bit more time to think he had a chance with you.”

“No. That’s not what I wanted to happen. Oh God, I knew I messed up.” You ran a hand through your hair, pupils darting in every direction. Jimin set his plate on the table, and quickly took your hand, hoping it would calm you down and allow you a moment to think. “…I need to call him.” Right as you pulled out your phone, dialing Taehyung’s number, it went to voicemail. “Wh-?”

“The service isn’t that great, he said we might not hear from him until he gets to his aunt’s house in Seoul.”

“I can’t have him leave thinking that I can’t. I need to tell him.” You looked at Jimin. “What station did you take him to? Do you know what train he’s supposed to be getting on?” Jimin nodded, quick to take out his phone and send you the direction to the station, along with the train number and departure time. “Can I even manage to get a taxi?”

“A taxi?” Both you and Jimin looked up to see Namjoon approach, smiling playfully as he handed you your water. “Are you thinking of ditching me?” Despite his playful chuckle, when you took the water in your hands, he immediately noticed them trembling violently. Glancing back up at you, he could see how red your eyes were from holding back a load of tears. “Hey what’s wrong?”

“I need to get to Taehyung.” You said. “I need to talk to him and he doesn’t have service and I need to before he leaves, I-.” Namjoon glanced at Jimin, who was biting his lower lip, still gripping your hand that didn’t have the water bottle in it.

“I can drive you.” He offered quickly. You looked at him, absolutely shocked. “We can’t have him leave with such a heavy burden on his shoulders. It could affect his inspirational juices while he’s away at school.” Namjoon dug in his pocket, pulling out his keys. “Besides, we just started getting along, I can’t have him dislike me again already.” Gently, he took your hand, leading you out towards his parked car. “Jimin, if the CEO asks, say it was my son, okay? I’ll never hear the end of it if he thinks I took a girl home.” You couldn’t help but stifle a laugh as Namjoon quickly led you out the door of the establishment. Once in the car with the directions in place, he sped off down the street.

The first half of the ride was silent until you turned to Namjoon. Running a hand through your hair, you finally spoke up: “You didn’t have to do this. I could’ve hailed a taxi or…had Hoseok pick me up or something.”

“Nonsense. That would have taken way too long and you’re on a time crunch.” Namjoon offered you a smile. “I’m just sorry if I in any way led to this miscommunication.”

“No.” you gasped. “Of course not. I should have made sure I said it then to avoid this. Maybe things would be different if I had...”

“Better late than never, right?” he chuckled. “I’m sure if you tell him, it’ll just make both of you feel better. Even if he still leaves for school, both of you will have that stress, and any of those negative feelings or thoughts of ‘what if’ lifted off your shoulders. It’ll do you both good.”

“That’s true.” You said softly. Namjoon smiled, reaching out and patting your hand gently, hoping the gesture would send just a little bit of support your way. You smiled. “Thank you, Namjoon,” you said softly. Namjoon nodded.

The both of you continued your drive, silent other than the sounds of the moving car around you. All you could do was stare at the time, wondering how much time you had left. Would the train come early? Would it be late? Should you take out your bus card now so you wouldn’t have to waste time fumbling inside? Could you even find Taehyung in time, much less tell him what you wanted to say? What would his reaction be? What-?

“We’re here,” Namjoon said. You looked up at the entrance to the train station as Namjoon stopped his car. “Want me to come with you?”

“No. Thank you.” You said. “I’ll be back.” Namjoon watched as you practically flew out of the car, hurrying into the station. Namjoon watched until you disappeared, before leaning back in his seat and covering his eyes.

You raced down a few hallways, being stopped by a worker in the station. When they asked what you were doing, you could only ask where you could find the train that Jimin told you Taehyung was expecting to take. Assuming you were a frantic woman late for her ride, they simply pointed you in the right direction. With a nod and a bow, you hurried down as quickly as your legs could carry you. You were hoping, praying for Taehyung to still be on the platform, waiting for his train.

As you were running, Taehyung was sitting on one of the bench chairs, his music playing through his earphones. Every few seconds, when the platform rumbled, he would glance up only to see a train pull up, and individuals shuffle in and out of the train. Taehyung glanced around, before finding comfort in his phone again. He was scrolling through pictures that Hoseok had sent him from their days at the preschool. Some of Taehyung with the students, working on arts and crafts, hanging stuff up in the hallways. As he continued to look through, he came across a collection of photos towards the end of the slideshow. It was from the day the teachers put on a play for the students of “The Moon and the Sun”. Seokjin had been snapping pictures of the performance before his scenes. As he continued to scroll, a video came up. He saw the thumbnail of you before the show beginning, fixing the bun he had put in your hair. He remembered specifically taking Hoseok’s phone to record, with his being in the art room. He was quick to hit play.

“Ready for your acting debut?” Taehyung asked, off-screen. You rolled your eyes.

“When I win an award for my winning performance, I’ll be sure to thank everyone except for you.” Taehyung was heard laughing in the background.

“Awww, really? Come on now, that’s not fair.”

“I’ll be sure to thank you, Taehyungie,” Hoseok said, in that high-pitched voice that Taehyung remembered had every kid hysterical when he used. Both you and Taehyung laughed at the man as he fixed his braided wig, tossing it effortlessly over his shoulder.

“I hate you both. Now turn that off and get in costume before the kids come in.” was your demand, the video was quick to end. A smile formed on Taehyung’s face, and he closed his phone just as another rumble ran through the station. Looking up, he saw his train arrive. People were already gathering to get on, hoping to find a good seat for the trip to Seoul. Taehyung slipped his earbuds out, grabbing the one duffle bag he had brought with him as he waited for some room to safely get on the train. He fixed his mask and started off the platform and towards the train.

You hurried down a flight of stairs just in time to see that the train was arriving any moment if it hadn’t already. Turning the corner, you saw a flood of individuals come out into the main part of the station, right in the direction Taehyung’s train was expected to be. Feeling your heart drop, you hurried as quick as you could pass the people, a string of frantic apologies and excuses falling from your mouth. Just as you managed to make your way through, you saw the train. However, you couldn’t see Taehyung. You knew time was ticking, and you had to make sure he could see you, or at least hear you. Taking a deep breath, you grasped your hands together:

“KIM TAEHYUNG!” You shouted at the top of your lungs.

Just as Taehyung was arriving on the train, the sound of his name hit his ears. His head spun around, eyes scanning for the source of the noise. He couldn’t make it out right away, but that was when he heard: “TAEHYUNG?!” Once more. Being able to isolate the noise, his eyes fell to a circle that had formed towards the bench he was sitting at. People staring at this one person who was screaming throughout the station. His eyes widened just as you and he made eye contact, and he could see how red your eyes were.

“What the-?” Taehyung’s first instinct was to step out onto the platform again, to rush towards you and see what was wrong. However, the train doors closed, blocking his path and trapping him in the train. He stood by the window, watching as you stood there, trying to hurry to the train door. “What’s wrong?” he tried to call through the glass windows.

“I’m sorry!” you shouted. “I love you!” Taehyung raised an eyebrow, unable to hear properly due to all of the noise. Before he could ask for clarification, he was alerted when the train announcement came onto the speakers:

Train departing. Please step back from the platform to ensure your safety. Thank you.

“I love you…” You tried to say again. Just as Taehyung felt the wheels of the train roll away, he saw Namjoon hurry up behind you, quickly pulling you back from the train station. You turned to him visibly shocked, and trying to pull away from him. “Wait, I don’t think he heard me. I don’t want him to leave before he heard me.”

“You need to step back, it isn’t safe.” Taehyung watched as Namjoon practically yanked you back, for your safety, as the train began to fully head out of the station. His eyes remained on you, however, even hurrying past other individuals farther down the train in hopes to see you for just a moment longer. He ignored every shout from passengers he squeezed past.

When the train entered its first tunnel, all sight of you was cut short, and Taehyung was left in absolute darkness.

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[drangues]

Well, I appreciate you not finding me annoying- I just know that dealing with someone with anxiety can be. A Lot. And of course I have, like, ADD on top of that, and a general tendency to overshare because it’s hard for me to tell what the divider is between too much and not enough? Also there an Actual SCP that lets you square up with mental and physical illnesses and disorders alike, it’s great. (Nyanon, 1/10)

Anyways, I’m sorry people have said that about some of your favorites, but I’m glad you like them, anyways! It’s nice to like stuff. That aside, Kyouka just vibing up until she get the Urge to Go is. Hilarious, and would definitely happen. Also you’re right, Atsushi definitely collects old and vintage stuff and tries to restore it a bit and you should say it. Anyways, poor Atsushi is just left struggling to keep up with his adopted baby sis because how did we get here? (Nyanon, 2/10)

Kyouka what??? Kyouka please he is Confused (even though he definitely supports her traditions, like you said- Our boy is just wondered why it came out of nowhere). And those four sound like a good choice for family friends! I feel like Kyouka would get. The ODDEST assortment of gifts from them- Like, Yosano gives her an Entire Emergency Kit and Kouyou just gives her Swords and also pretty clothes. (Nyanon, 3/10)

Of course, Fukuzawa gives her toys for the local strays and some pocket money if she needs it, and Lucy probably gives her a doll or something. Atsushi, of course, fusses over making sure she has Everything, including books, bedding, her broom, and Kyouka did you pack all of your clothes??? And of course, he probably passes her Byakko’s special basket and bed (because that would be One Spoiled Cat) while in tears, like you said, because he doesn’t want her to be alone. (Nyanon, 4/10)

AND DONT WORRY KENJI IS DEFINITELY THE BOY SHE MEETS, I ALSO SHIP IT, THEYRE ADORABLE AND I LOVE THEM. He chatters to her about his life on the farm and how much more busy the city is, and they bond over being in a new place on their own. Poor Atsushi can’t catch a break, and he probably freaks out everyone else by running away. Like, what the fuck are they gonna tell Kyouka when she gets back??? Atsushi where did you go? (Nyanon, 5/10)

Meanwhile Atsushi is frantically trying to Not Be Cursed and it is. A work in progress. It’d be much easier if the wizard he found actually helped instead of being a trolling bastard. Said wizard and his minions (friends) are all taken with the weird cursed maybe-not-an-old-man who’s now their house keeper? Albeit in different ways, of course, but it’s hard not to be when he’s a sweetheart, of a bit anxious. Dazai just wants to know how the fuck he gets Chuuya to listen to him. (Nyanon, 6/10)

Also please consider: Atsushi having black hair at the start, but it ends up a permanent silver with a black streak by the end, because he’s starting to embrace himself. Dazai falling farther and farther in love as the story goes on and not even realizing it, and it’s totally normal to pet someone’s hair and compliment them so much, shut UP Chuuya, you’re a sentient ball a gas, what do you know- Anyways yes I’m taken with this AU, no I don’t mind your tangent. (Nyanon, 7/10)

And it’s just like [Dazai: I’m sorry like you ignore your what now??? // Atsushi: // Dazai: Atsushi-kun please answer me- ] It’d be so chaotic it’s great. Anyways, yeah I could definitely see him not really,, Registering? That everything he once had to do isn’t necessary anymore- It’d definitely be hard to break the habit, given how long it was literally beaten into him. It’s probably the same way when it comes to like, eating and stuff? Given his experiences. (Nyanon, 8/10)

Then he realizes halfway through the day that he can, in fact, eat, and he isn’t used to that? Please help him. But all of that definitely would make him more eager to try new things, once he realized he could! He’ll try everything with anyone who’s willing. Like, he’ll do flower pressing with Kunikida (who thinks they make good bookmarks), or he’ll try collecting things with Dazai (who collects foreign coins, though Atsushi finds that he favors bottle caps). You know what I mean? (Nyanon, 9/10)

But anyways, another Scenario Concept: Please imagine Dazai and Atsushi taking naps together. Like, Atsushi curls up on Dazai’s chest and Will Not Move, and no one has the heart to move him, anyways. Dazai buries his face in Atsushi’s lap and let’s himself fall asleep while Atsushi plays with his hair. I don’t know, I’m tired and can’t think of much right now. I just want fluff. (Nyanon, 10/10)

DW!!! I ALSO SUCK AT KNOWING WHATS OVERSHARING OR NOT AND I LOVE IT WHEN SOMEONES VERY OPEN AND RAMBLES ON A LOT BECAUSE ONE OF MY BIGGEST FEAR IS AWKWARD SILENCES AND DRY CONVOS SO I LOVE THOSE TYPE OF PEOPLE CAUSE THEY ALSO MAKE ME TALK BETTER AND WE JUST HAVE A BETTER CONVO OVERALL

i loVE THEM GIVING HER THE ODDEST GIFTS I BET FUKUZAWA IS THE ONLY ACTUAL NORMAL ONE WHO GIVES HER NORMAL GIFTS meanwhile kunikida (did i say he would be a friend as well??) would give her the C UT E S T stationary items for her studies. 

and chuuya’s curse would definitely be reduced to a flame!! and akutagawas curse,,,hmm,,,maybe that he has poor health??idk if that makes sense- BUT. PLS. I CAME UP WITH A CHUUAKU AU WHERE THEY MANAGE TO FALL IN LOVE AND EVERY NIGHT AKUTAGAWA IS HUDDLED NEAR THE FIREPLACE AND TALKS TO CHUUYA SOFTLY JUST THEM TOGETHER WHEN EVERYBODY ELSE IS ASLEEP AND ATSUSHI PRETENDS NOT TO HEAR THEM HNNN AND WHEN THE CURSE IS BROKEN AND CHUUYA IS NO LONGER BOUND TO DAZAI HE JUST IS SO HAPPY HES FREE AND AKUTAGAWA LOOKS DEFLATED RIGHT BUT THEN HE IMMEDIATELY TACKLES AKUTAGAWA IN A HUG AAAA-

anyways Y E S i totally agree with atsushi having black hair and it turning grey how dare you be so amazing WOW <33 and chuuya would definitely keep on teasing dazai about everything he literally does to atsushi the moment the young(old??) man is out of earshot

flower pressing with kunikida,,,how dare you make me soft i hate you and DAZAI AND ATSUSHI TAKING NAPS TOGETHER AAAA THATS SO CUTE PL S IM CRYING

[chatxkilluaxnoir]

My Online To Do List:

I’m legit so busy in both real life (kind of) and esp. for online stuff.  The stuff I am busy with is mostly fun stuff.  Including the more time-consuming stuff.  Still it does cause me a bit busy.  Like, he is my list of stuff of to do.  I might add more this list, as I think of more stuff and more stuff comes up.  

A long post and to-do list under the read more cut.  I was gonna put the cut further down, but I didn’t really know where would be a good place to put one.  So I am just going to put one here, since it makes sense, and it is a good place to put one.  And that is just what I am going to do.

                                                         Legend:

So this is a legend type thing I have decided to for this to-do list, and I am going to do it for all or most of the sections/parts of this ‘Legend’.  This is to help track my progress of the stuff on this list.

For the Game Section, the ‘Legend’ is:  Haven’t Downloaded/Have Downloaded.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Playing/Not Playing.  Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Not Replaying/Replaying.  Maybe some other ones in the future and some Section/Part specific ones.

For the Fics/Writings Section, the ‘Legend’ is:  Out of the Planning Stages/In the Planning Stages.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Writing/Not Currently Writing.  Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Hasn’t been edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed/Currently being edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed/Has been edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed.

Whatever is bolded, is what is applicable to that section/thing.  So for example if Haven’t Started is bolded, and not Started, that means I haven’t started it yet. And etc.  Alright, that is all there is to the ‘Legend’ for now.  Now on to actually adding this/these to the parts/sections of this list, and on to the actual to-do list itself.                                                             

                           PC Games I Want to Play and/or Finish:

1.  DATING START!  Undertale Sans Dating Sim Visual Novel/Game:  Been meaning to play this, since the demo was so good and it just looked so good in general.  I even was following the countdown to full release super closely, because I wanted to play it right when it came out.  Which I did dip up opening up, just to see if everything was good boot up wise, and I saw the intro.  But then I ended up not playing it, even though I wanted to play it right when it came out, lol.  I got busy with the HxH Big Bang and other stuff.  And I wanted to make sure once I started playing the game, I really got through a lot of it.  

Basically, I wanted to have a decent amount to actually play it once.  But I just couldn’t set aside a lot of time.  However, I am less busy now, and also a bit less busy with my HxH BB.  So I am finally going to get to playing this game, and I am very excited to play it.  I may or may not post stuff about while I play or/& after I finish it.  Will tag spoilers if so.

Haven’t Downloaded/Have Downloaded.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Playing/Not Playing.  Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Not Replaying/Replaying.

2.  Your Turn To Die and  Your Time To Shine: Island Existence!  Visual Novel/Sprite Game/Game/etc.:  I am still in Ch2.  So I got the rest of Ch2 and part of Ch3 to play.  Been meaning to do finish what is released of this currently for awhile, since it is really good.  But my break from it ended up being longer than I thought.  

Anyway, I am going to get back to it and play and finish this soon.  I also just need to outright play ‘Your Time To Shine: Island Existence!’, since I haven’t started that game at all.  Will tag spoilers if I post anything about them.

Your Turn to Die:  Haven’t Downloaded/Have Downloaded.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Playing/Not Playing.  Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Not Replaying/Replaying.

Your Turn to Shine:   Haven’t Downloaded/Have Downloaded.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Playing/Not Playing.  Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Not Replaying/Replaying.

3.  The Witch’s Heart/Witch’s Heart Game/Sprite Game/etc.:  Haven’t even started this yet, and from what I have seen and heard of it on YouTube I am really missing out by doing so.  And honestly, if I don’t play it soon, I am probably going to get even more spoiled about it, hahaha.  So yeah, gotta play this game.  Will tag spoilers if I post anything about it.

Haven’t Downloaded/Have Downloaded.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Playing/Not Playing.  Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Not Replaying/Replaying.

4.  Undertale:  Act to Flirt:  I am about halfway through this.  I kind of what to wait until 0.4 comes out to get more through it, but we will see.  I might not be able to resist finishing up what is already out for this VN.

Haven’t Downloaded/Have Downloaded.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Playing/Not Playing.  Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Not Replaying/Replaying.

5.  TS! Underswap Demo:  I both need to download AND play this.  From stuff I have seen of it, some let’s plays thumbnails, character designs, and etc., it just looks really good, and I should really get to playing it.  From what I have seen of character portrayals in this too, I am also liking them, and I think this is probably one of my favorite versions of Underswap of a/the Swap AU.  I am looking forward to more of it too, whenever that ended up being.

Haven’t Downloaded/Have Downloaded.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Playing/Not Playing.  Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Not Replaying/Replaying.

6.  UT MV (Undertale Multiverse) Bonely Hearts Club VN Demo:  Currently not finished, and is just a Demo. still want to play the demo though.  Which is what is out of the actual game/VN so far.  There will be ? routes and ? dates.  They already say how many of these things, but I forget.  So I will add the number(s) later after I remember them, or look it up.

Haven’t Downloaded/Have Downloaded.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Playing/Not Playing.  Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Not Replaying/Replaying.

7.  Shattered Hope F:  Cabin Confiding (Events):  Haven’t started yet.  But I what to soon, because they say people should watch/play this and the Social Butterfly events, before watching the new batch of episodes; which have started to come out.  Also, it just looks fun, so yeah.

Haven’t Downloaded/Have Downloaded.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Playing/Not Playing.  Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Not Replaying/Replaying.

8.  Some other visual novels, games, demos/chapters, and etc. that I will add later.  Since the games above, are the ones I want to play the most currently.

                         My Planning and Writing of my Fics and etc.:

1.  The Meeting of a God and a Demon:  Just need to do some slight edits.  Nothing major to the story, just fixing some typos/grammar errors I missed, maybe removing/adding some tags, and adding some page dividers (Since I now it is a good idea to add these, and because I also now how to them kind of on AO3) to make reading a bit easier.  So yeah, just some minor edits for this.

Out of the Planning Stages/In the Planning Stages.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Writing/Not Currently Writing. Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Hasn’t been edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed/Currently being edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed/Has been edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed.

2.  Secret Upcoming Fic:  The fic is basically completely beta’ed, just some stuff earlier on in the fic we need to get back to, and just some more beta’ing and editing.  But we have already gone over the whole fic, it just needs a bit more editing, beta’ing, and polishing it up.  

I said I will probably will release this fic this month (or next one), but it looks like releasing it at least this month (February) might not super likely for a couple of reasons.  1.  My beta has been bit busy lately, and so I am just waiting when there less busy and for them to reach out to me again when they are less busy and ready.  And 2.  This fic (or at least a snippet of it.  I am going to release the whole fic after the zine with the snippet of it is released) was originally meant for a TAU Zine.  More specially, TAU Zine ED2:  Demonology and the Occult.  

I thought since I had taken so long to get this fic done and beta’ed, that I was too late to enter it in the zine, but I was wrong, and I was able to sign up for it.  Now I am just waiting for the deadline date(s) for the zine to be posted on the transcendence-zine tumblr.  And because I am waiting for the deadline date, I actually don’t know when the zine itself will release.  And I can’t release the fic until the zine gets released which I don’t know if that will be February or March.  Pretty unlikely to be February though.  So those are the reasons why I am not sure if this fic will be released in March and esp. February.  

I will try for both release of this fic for both months, but like I said, due to needing it be finished beta’ing and due to not knowing when the deadline for this and zine release dates are, I am not sure it will be in February or March and might end up being later.  So like, maybe April or May instead.  Still trying for February or March though, so let’s just *cross our fingers* that I will be able to.

Out of the Planning Stages/In the Planning Stages.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Writing/Not Currently Writing. Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Hasn’t been edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed/Currently being edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed/Has been edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed.

3.  Hunter x Hunter Big Bang 2021 Fic:  I have already started planning this fic out, but I got a lot to do.  I have a few months until when the draft is due, but I have a lot to do for it, and I want to make sure this fic is good as my 1st HxH fic posted online and because this my first time actually entering the HxH BB.  I have read and seen a lot of HxH BB stuff in the past, but I haven’t entered myself, until this year!  So yeah, pretty busy with this.

Out of the Planning Stages/In the Planning Stages.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Writing/Not Currently Writing. Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Hasn’t been edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed/Currently being edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed/Has been edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed.

4.  Planning for and a another TAU (TAU meaning the Gravity Falls AU called Transcendence-AU) Fic:  Got some ideas for a fic, but before I can really get started planning and writing this fic and stuff about it, I am waiting for the transcendence-au tumblr to answer a question/submission of mine.  Depending on the answer, this fic might either need more or less behind-the-scenes stuff and planning.  This fic probably won’t be able for awhile.

Out of the Planning Stages/In the Planning Stages.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Writing/Not Currently Writing.  Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Hasn’t been edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed/Currently being edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed/Has been edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed.

5.  Planning for and another yet again another TAU (TAU meaning the Gravity Falls AU called Transcendence-AU) Fic:  Most likely another God/Goddess/Deity Fic like my Gaia one.  And while I have other stuff planned for Gaia, this fic probably won’t be focused on her, though she might get mentioned.  This fic is much more likely to release before that other fic am planning and talking about for the previous numbered point, 4.  And while I don’t have an estimate date for when this will be released, hopefully it won’t be TOO far off in the future.  This fic should definitely be interesting.

Out of the Planning Stages/In the Planning Stages.  Haven’t Started/Have Started.  Not In Progress/In Progress.  On Break/Currently Writing/Not Currently Writing.  Haven’t Finished/Have Finished.  Hasn’t been edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed/Currently being edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed/Has been edited, proofread, or/& beta’ed.

6.  Maybe/Probably other stuff in the future.  But the above is my current to-do list for my writings and fics.

                                              Miscellaneous Stuff:

1.  Start and get caught up on some fics.

2.  Start and get caught up on some comics.

3.  Watch YouTube Videos.

4.  Some other stuff to write out, that aren’t fics.

5.  Maybe/Probably other stuff in the future.

Hahah, I know this might not seem like a lot (this just my online stuff), but it it is defin. a lot to me, and is gonna keep me busy for awhile.  Which I am happy I have stuff to keep busy, but this is still quite a lot.  Still looking forward start really making way through this to-do list.  

This took me so long to do, lol.  The list itself took long enough, but trying to do the legend stuff, which I originally had spaced differently, but that wasn’t working, so I had to fix it/them to make it/them look good, and that took me even more time.  Finally done for now though.

[confuzzledcomet]

I was sketching and decided to do some random stuff surrounding my AU, Undersurge!

This next information will be directly ripped from my notes taken on my phone, it may be changed as the AU develops-

• Idk if the human would really fight against the monsters in this au as the monsters have no reason to fight them and are busy fighting the Umbri

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• Maybe you fight the Umbri but you still have the choice to resolve things peacefully(pacifist)

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However that leads to conficts as the villagers don't agree with your method (due to these having killed many of them)

• Umbre (plural- umbri) (based off word "Umbra" defined as "the fully shaded inner region of a shadow cast by an opaque object, especially the area on the earth or moon experiencing the total phase of an eclipse")

• The barrier is held up by the magic of the Umbri who were planted by the humans who created the barrier to further ensure their safety against monsters

• The Umbri do not awaken right away, but soon into the construction of the underground when people are settling into their preferred places(the ruins may be finished, IDK yet I need to go back and read some UT stuff again-). Signs of this still remain as you can see the starts of some structures- not many though.

• Most live in tents, easy to construct and take down if needed after years of doing so

(Below section of debated notes by Gaster ↓)

Notes on the Umbri (as those ancient carvings seem to call them):

-Umbri attacks are unpredictable

-They don't seem to attack large groups often, but may do so on occasion (Maybe provoked? Perhaps there's a trigger?)

-The masks and markings seem to deter them as well

-It is recommended have proper attire and company if you leave your base

• Gaster is killed by an Umbre tho

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• Their markings are like- permanent mud masks made from the soil the Umbri rose from mixed with their monster magic-- that was a weird way to explain huh . ,.

• The masks and mud markings (should I give those a name- meh I'm lazy) were both ideas credited to Gaster and have been around for a long while

• Seeing the monster face to face seems to trigger the Umbri more likely to attack, thus why they began wearing masks

• People die = Gaster makes discoveries = a little less people die

• Asgore is their "Leader"

The core is not a factor in this au, I don't know if it'll even exist as I don't really see a point- (or how they'd get to building all that when they're so behind on everything else)

• Umbri turn back into soil when they die

• Asgore never does the whole "declare war against humanity" thing and doesn't try to kill human children that fall- so him and Toriel are still together in this AU~

Gerson is one of the few you hear still call him King

• Chara lived to see the second human to fall, they help Alphys with experiments and provide DT. Asriel never absorbs their soul, he dies right in front of them and they destroy the Umbre that killed him. Chara is DETERMINED to bring Asriel back, they collect his dust (which has mixed bits of the Umbre Chara just killed's remains). In their work with Alphys they decide it couldn't hurt to test the DT on the dust. This is how what I'm just now dubbing "Umbrey" is made. Though, like the first, it took a while to emerge. Chara and Al came back to a broken glass scattered across the floor, what remained of the jar that held the dust. They do not know of Asriel's fate.

• Chara's cause of death is unknown. They were found not far from the base. (Maybe someone did it- I'm not sure yet really-)

• Often when someone dies- either someone was there to confirm the death or they just come upon dust and have to figure out who it was (they hold rollcall in the mornings, just in case- kinda morbid oop)

• Names in case of multiversal shenanigans (only Sans and Paps for now though-)

It's a little rocky of a period mourning the death of their children but they get through it together

• Alphys and Undyne are both busy with their respective work (though Al doesn't really get much done, despite her efforts in research). Though they would like to pursue a relationship if possible, Alphys isn't too sure about it. She doesn't want to get attached and lose someone again.

• Alphys, Sans, and Chara are good friends due to working together in the lab. Though Sans doesn't come around as much due to having a different job(Patrol). The three had friendship necklaces Chara found at the dump(they were out in a group searching for supplies). They were originally gonna give one to Asriel but since it was made for three people they decided to give them to Sans and Alphys instead. Eventually they do make their own matching necklaces with Asriel(cause he wants one too)

• Toriel applys markings to new children (monster and human) when needed.

• Chara is a vengeful ghost with lingering anger from getting killed and intensified feelings on Arsriel's death. They want to kill Umbri cause they're what killed Asy and they don't think positively of humans as they are the reason monsters are trapped underground with these things. Chara still lingers and may be able to recover from their hate towards the world~

* Sans - Splotch / Splot / Splotchy / Spot

• Asgore and Toriel are 100+

* Papyrus - Blemish / Blem / Blemy

• The day I made this note page will be Splotch's birthday since I don't know the exact date I first drew him- July 16

Alphys is 31, Undyne is 30

Sans is 26, Papyrus is 18

When Gaster died Sans was 14 (So Pap would be 6-)

??? Maybe

• Asgore and Toriel take Sans & Pap in after Gaster dies

I might change the timeline or the ages completely--

(So they are basically their adopted children cause I love that concept after seeing Handplates/Mercyplates stuff-)

(That makes the fallen humans, Asriel, Sans, and Pap sorta related by adoption in this au then, huh-)

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That's all- If anyone even bothered to read this mess lol

[starshineandbooks]

Of ghosts and sons

Based almost entirley off of @lovelylogans‘s Gilmore girls AU - AO3 Tumblr

Read THIS on Ao3

Summary: Remus reflects back on his thoughts of his still living loved ones’ lives. Watching his teenager grow into a married man with a kid. 

        Also known as: An excuse to write soft dad! Remus and Son! Roman, and explore how a dead Remus feels about his son marrying an academically smart moron.

Word count: 2596

Pairing: Romantic Moxiety, Romantic Logince, familial lampr

Warnings: Dead character (Remus is a ghost kinda?), mild cursing, a few suggestive lines, Remus being Remus, weird food, sympathtic! Remus

Remus figured he achieved a pretty great death. Oh, sure, he misses things, but now he can float around behind people and be himself with free of judgement, which is, nice. Oddly nice. Don’t get him wrong, he’d had friends, ut, even Virgil and Isidora had been a little weirded out every once in a while.

And, he’s watched Virgil and Isidora, of course he did. They mattered to him. 

Remus is proud of Virgil, finding a good guy, even if he wasn’t a guy Remus would have chosen, to settle down with. Virgil and Patton, Remus think they’re a good match. He’d have loved to make Patton squirm though. Nothing personal, he liked to make everyone squirm. It was fun!

Patton is also fairly interesting, at first Remus just watched him after earth because he was a scandal. Patton, trans, sixteen year old run away, with a baby. Pretty interesting.

Then, Remus got invested. Oops.

Patton was kind, and  a good person. Remus could respect him. Remus isn't so sure that he and Patton would have been friends, but Remus had to admit, Patton was respectable.

Patton Sanders, the kid stood up for himself and his child. Patton befriended Virgil, which is hard enough, then made Virgil love him, which is even harder. Then Virgil fell for Patton romantically, which is a task to make happen. 

Patton raised a smart, ambitious kid. Logan. Remus is fond of Logan, but don’t tell anyone. Of course, Logan is also basically Virgil’s kid, which basically makes Remus Logan’s roundabout uncle in a weird way. 

Logan is smart, wickedly so in fact. The kid goes to Chilton, and is very ambitious. In a cutthroat manner almost. Yet, Logan is genuinely kind, and cares for Remus’ own child.

That’s another thing. Remus has a kid. A biological child he never met.

Isidora had been someone Remus genuinely loved. Not romantically, but he had loved her more than anything else, except maybe Virgil. But that was a different kind of love. 

Isidora, the five foot two latina had been a spitfire of a dancer when Remus knew her. Not much had changed, except, she had Roman not long after Remus died.

And Virgil, bless the man, had fought to be in Roman’s life.

Roman was a lot like his mom, loyal, kind, courageous. Roman was taller than his mother, but just as graceful.

Roman, Remus’ baby, shut up that’s Remus’ baby. His spawn. He’s allowed to be a little sappy.

Roman had grown from an over excited six year old kissing his best-friend-and-first-crush’s skinned knee better into a kind, loyal, selfless teenager who’s a dancer just like his mother.

Remus isn’t stupid. Crazy, inconsiderate, and crass? Sure. But Remus is not and has never been stupid.

He knows that Roman probably is better off for not having him around.

Remus is loud, disruptive, rude, disgusting, and generally the opposite of what is ‘socially acceptable’. Remus even revels in this fact.

But, It’s not always an easy life to lead. And Remus does want Roman to have an easy life where he knows how good he is.

But, on the other hand, he watched Roman struggle with a dad sized cut out hole in his life.

Remus had become something of a myth in Sideshire. Remus, the horror story author recluse, Isidora Prince’s best friend, Roman’s dad, died in a mysterious car crash.

No one really tells Roman much about Remus. So, Roman had a bit of doubt, which is natural.

And Remus is so incredibly proud of Roman. For everything.

Roman had graduated highschool with a solid three point four grade point average. The kid had started college on time and was happy. Roman worked as a dance instructor in the town he attends college in, teaching kids to dance. 

Roman ended up with a supportive boyfriend, Logan. And the two are a good couple, built off of friendship, love, trust, and respect. The stuff of fairytales, even if they do argue a little more than they’d admit.

Remus has learned he can in fact visit dreams, and talk to people that way, he’s had some conversations with Virgil and Isidora that way.

But, Remus thinks it might be time to visit his son. Especially since Virgil and Patton are finally engaged and Roman is thinking about proposing to Logan.

So, that’s how Remus finds himself sitting in Lucy’s diner opposite of his son and his son’s boyfriend. Apparently this is a shared dream between the couple. Works just as well, Remus supposes.

After all, Remus is fairly fond of Logan too.

“Excuse me,” Logan says looking up from his book and where his head had been resting on Roman’s shoulder, “Do we know you? You look very familiar, I regret to say I can not place you however.”

Remus grins wickedly, “You wouldn't I’m a ghost! My corpse is rotting six feet under you twerp!”

Roman looks up, startled, “D-dad?”

Logan tilts his head, “Oh, that makes more sense. Hello Remus. Virgil speaks fondly of you.”

“Dad,” Roman whispers again, grabbing Logan’s arm, “Logan, that’s my dad.”

“I know, I can see dear.” Logan says in an exasperated yet fond voice.

“Hello Roman, you really do have a lot of your mother in you. Izzydory, how is she?”

“Izzy- Mama’s okay, she- she misses you. I miss you- uh- Can I miss you? I never met you.”

“You can miss the idea of someone,” Logan chimes, “And you know very well what Virgil would say about dismissing feelings.”

“Yeah,” Roman nods, “I do.”

Remus hums, turning to Lucy when she comes to take his order, “Can I get a bacon shake with Sardines and coffee grounds?”

Lucy just nods and walks off.

“That’s-” Roman chokes, “That’s gross dad.”

Remus laughs delightedly, “That’s the point!”

“He does things for amusement, not because it is logical.”

“There’s no rhyme or reason to what I do kid, I just do a skiddly boo.” Remus smiles, “So, what’s life like for you in the Bronx kid?”

Roman just stares blankly at his father, “This can't be real, I’ve gotta be dreaming, Lo, darling, I’m dreaming right?”

Logan just sighs, “I had assumed I was, I don’t know Roman, one of us is for sure.”

“You both are, it’s a shared dream,” Remus nods sagely, “You guys could get up to some steamy things since you can share dreams-”

“And as Virgil would say, stop it, fam.” Logan drawls unsure, then signs, shaking his head, “Also, what in the world is that supposed to mean?”

“Oh, I just meant you two could use the dreams to have dream sex-”

“Please stop,” Logan groans, putting his face in his hands and making a distressed sound, “Why are you like this? That is your son.”

“I know!” Remus cheers, “So, Roman, any questions?”

Roman stares at Remus, “I- I had so many, but- I can’t remember them now.”

Logan turns and whispers something to Roman.

Roman nods, “That’s right, thanks specs!”

“What’s right kid?” Remus asks.

“Oh, I’ve just always wondered, am I- Am I doing the right thing? I mean, if you’re really Remus, you’ve not seen me my whole life, like, yeah i”m your kid but, I’m not raised by you. Did- Did I do okay? Have I made you proud at least?”

Logan looks rather upset from the question, Remus notes. If the dead man had to guess, he’d say it’s because Logan doesn't like that Roman doubts himself.

And Remus doesn't like it either.

No, he is not being sentimental, shut the hell your mouth.

Remus tilts his head, “I’ve been watching you Roman. You to Logan, but Ro, kid, mijo, you’ve done well.”

Roman’s face is almost comical to Remus, wide eyes, mouth quirked up, eyebrows drawn up. A twinge of relief in the breath Roman lets out. Remus thinks he looks like an overly excited puppy. But that’s Remus’ over excited puppy.

Logan smiles gently, hidden almost. Remus does think it’s interesting how similar Logan is to Virgil.

“Really?” Roman breathes out, sounding even more like an overly excited puppy.

“I very much doubt him to be lying Roman, your mother has never put up with liars before, I doubt she would have in the father of her child.” Logan says simply, well, simply for the eighteen year old genius.

“Really, kid. You graduated with a good GPA, you got out of Sideshire, you’re a dancer just like your mother, you’re brave, and just, and kind, but don’t tell anyone I said any of this sappyniess. And kid, Roman, you’re doing good.”

“Thank you,” Roman says softly.

“You should not thank him Ro,” Logan scoffs, “He said the truth, it’s not like he offered to walk you down the aisle at your wedding.”

“Our wedding,” Roman says quickly, “My wedding will be ours.”

Logan blinks, flushing steadily, “Uh-”

“Hopefully!” Roman chimes, “I mean to hopefully!”

“God you’re obnoxiously cute, you know that?” Remus rolls hie eyes, “I’m sure you’ll both be married forever to each other and have some sappy loving relationship.”

“Thanks? I think.” Logan sighs, shaking his head.

“Hey, dad?” Roman starts, “Uh, got any life advice?”

“Save time by putting toothpaste in your food, use bottle caps as orange holders, get a toilet seat and use it to put your plate on when you eat! And, don’t try to fight with Izzy unless whatever you're fighting about really matters, because she is a stubborn woman and you’ll be tired by the end of the argument, and probably have lost.”

“Uh-”

“The bit about your mom sounds accurate, but she’s nice and might listen?” Logan sighs, shaking his head.

“How do you use a toilet seat- never mind I don’t want to know.”

Lucy comes back, setting Remus’ abomination of a milk shake down.

Remus thanks her, turning his head to look at Roman.

“God, you really got your mama’s pretty, you know that? I mean, you look like me some, but god.”

“I- You thought mama was pretty?” Roman blinks, “I’d always thought you were gay, they always said-”

“Kid, I’m gay, not blind.” Remus chuckles, “But yeah, your mom’s pretty kid.”

“Yeah,” Roman sighs, she is.”

“You’re about to wake up because of an alarm you set because you, my friend, have an early shift today. I’m proud of you kid, you’re doing good. I’ll talk to you again, later. Okay?”

“Dad?” Roman blinks, “Are you really here?”

“I’m dead, but yeah, I’m here.”

“Thanks dad.”

“I love you kid,” Remus sighs, “Good luck on your test tomorrow!”

Roman blinks startled but fades from the dream, leaving just Logan.

Logan looks at Remus and snorts darkly, “This isn't at all awkward, you know, my boyfriend’s dead dad in Lucy’s diner. Not to mention that you’re Virgil’s best friend.”

“Yeah, probably word that I’m your uncle and your boyfriend’s dad,” Remus snorts, “But I like weird.”

“Uh, uncle?!”

“Yeah, you’re basically Virgil’s kid, meaning that since I’m basically his brother, that I’m basically your uncle!” Remus cackles, “I thought you were the smart one!”

“It depends on the kind of intelligence,” Logan sighs, “I’ll admit I lack some of the more, say, social knowledge. But, I have dad and Roman at least.”

“Yeah, well, you're a good kid to Logan.”

“Thanks.”

“Be good to my baby Logan,” Remus says darkly, “Be good to my baby or I’ll figure out how to ruin your entire life.”

Logan looks up to Remus, “If I were to be bad to Roman, I’d have ruined my life myself. Because, he is my everything, as stupid and sappy as that sounds.”

Remus nods, “Good. You’ll make it through you know you two will make it out together.”

“Good.” Logan hums, tilting his head, “You're an asshole though. You really hurt a lot of the people we both care for.”

“Ballsy,” Remus smirks, “Calling the dead father of your boyfriend that. I knew I liked you!”

“Very few people seem to,” Logan shrugs, “But the whole dying and destroying Ms. Prince and Virgil and leaving Roman to be in the dark is really my only complaint against you.”

“Y’know, I did regret not being able to be there for them, but Roman especially. He’s my baby Logan, I know you don’t have kids, but, there’s just something about them.”

“So I’ve been told.”

“Yeah, well, I should go.”

“Probably so. And Remus?”

“Yeah?”

“If you really can talk to people through dreams, don’t leave Roman alone, he’d like you to talk to him. And, maybe talk to Virgil and Ms.Prince some too.”

“Of course. Later dork. Dork means- You’re gone.”

Remus shakes his head as the dream dissolves around him, a bitter laugh leaving him.

Remus made sure to speak to his loved ones every so often, the first time he visited Isidora after Logan had told him too it had been ten years and she had cried a little when she woke up.

Virgil had insulted Remus the whole dream that Remus had visited the emo music loving man.

Remus watches Virgil and Patton’s wedding, glad to watch the entire thing and see his best friend happy. Remus notices that Roman is the best man for Virgil, but only because Logan was Patton’s best man. The younger couple gave a nice speech that called attention to the fact that this wedding has been a long time in the works.

Virgil and Patton’s first dance is sweet and too sappy for Remus’ taste but okay.

Remus nearly screams when Roman and Logan get engaged, because, like the dorks they are, they propose at the same time.

Logan and Roman got reneged on their fifth anniversary, in the gazebo, under the stars. Remus had proposed first, because this was his plan. But Roman pulled out his own ring and asked Logan.

Because the two are entirely too cute.

Remus gloated to them next time he spoke to them both, he called it after all.

Roman and Logan’s wedding is a year and a half later, over the summer between their junior and senior years in college. 

It’s a bigger affair than Virgil and Patton’s had been, but not the largest wedding.

The whole town came, along with Logan’s grandparents, and a few friends from the boys’ own colleges.

Roman and Logan had stared at each other sappily the whole vow giving, making stupid cow eyes.

But, Remus creamed the loudest cheer out of anyone at that wedding when the two kissed and sealed the deal. He caught Isidora and Virgil looking around, then sharing a glance and a bitter laugh, a mutter of Remus’ name.

Roman and Logan’s first dance, per Roman’s selection, was a stupidly sappy song, for a pair of stupidly sappy new husbands. Husbands, God, Roman was married now. To his highschool sweetheart no less, his small town highschool sweetheart.

Remus would say something arguably rude about the whole sappy ordeal, if it wasn’t Roman’s wedding.

A few years down the line, after Logan and Roman graduate, they buy a house in Sideshire, adopting a kid. And oh, Remus has a grandchild now.

Virgil and Patton went to family dinners on Fridays with Emilie and Richard Sanders, Logan and Roman going as well. And somehow, Remus is glad that his saps have each other.

As much as Remus misses his friends and his family, as much as he wishes he could be there for them in the flesh, he’s proud of them no matter what. Even if they are stupidly sappy.

But, Remus looks forward to reuniting with Isidora and Virgil, and officially meeting the rest. One day, but hopefully, not soon.

[silvysartfulness]

10, 14, 19, 41, 44!

Ahh, thank you very much for the Ask! :D

10.  Is there a fandom you read fic from but don’t write in?

Actually, I haven't really read fanfic in a very, very long time? I do love fanfic, I just haven't been invested enough in any fandom to gather spoons enough to read fiction in a long time. I've mostly lived in my own original storyverse Pangaea for the past three years or so.

I think the last fandom I actually read some fic for was the MCU in the early days of the first Avengers movie? I was relatively into frostiron for a while and helped my wife beta her fics Spiting The Sun and Do Ut Des, as well as reading some other fics I unfortunately can't recall the names of.

14. Go on, who are your BroTPs?

I love Wei Wuxian's and Wen Qing's dynamic! It's so so so rare to see a male-female friendship that isn't romance coded.

Literal bros with amazing dynamic would be Wei Wuxian and Jiang Chen, because who needs their heart anyway.

19. Is there a ship which you wished you could get behind, but you just don’t feel them?

Several, but it's a lot more to do with brain fatigue than aversion to the ships themselves!

I wish I had the energy and focus to read more XiYao, I really do love their chemistry a lot. (I may be on a slippery slope there, we'll see. Maybe I'll point back to this post in another month and laugh hollowly and say ”ahaha, guess I should have seen that obsession coming”. Or not. Who can tell? Not me. I just work here.)

I also... both kind of love and hate SongXiao? Like, I love their dynamic, but there seems to be a very black and white (ba-dum-tsh) view that they're the acceptable pure cinnamon pairing in opposition to the problematic clusterfuck that is XueXiao - and since I'm very much into XueXiao, I daren't look too deeply into SongXiao since there's almost always a very negative vibe regarding Xue Yang and Yi City there. But as two parts of the SongXueXiao disaster that I love, I definitely like them a ton.

SangChen? Is that the shipping name? One of those I can see would be fun, but am just not really feeling it.

To be honest though? I'm a thot for good writing and characterization and if something good enough pops under my nose, I'm very willing to give it a shot, no matter the pairing.

41. List and link to 5 fanfics you are currently reading:

I'm still very new in this fandom (hard to believe it's only been a bit more than a month since I jumped in!) and with my brain getting easily overworked, I actually haven't read all that much?

But let's see if I can scrape together 5 fics I read or have read!

1. Chopping Block. This has got to be one of my fave (Song?)XueXiao fics. The way the characters are handled is beautiful, and there have been several of those gut-punch ”oh.” moments where the hurt is so, so good. (The ”his hands get cold” scene, man. MAN.)

2. Red Azalea. This is another utterly charming (Song?)XueXiao fic, a delightful capricious post-Yi-City dance that will also deliver the occasional devastating emotional backhand.

3. My Erstwhile Dear. Aka the fic that decisively picked up my heart and rubbed it face-down into XiYao to the point I'm even on that slippery slope to start with. I find myself thinking about this fic a lot. Like. I probably get distracted thinking about it on an almost daily basis, hoping it'll update. The format of written letters delivers the hurt in such an elegant way, you just gasp for breath.

4. Rewritten. Found this because you rec'ed it! One of the very few modern au's on my list (nothing against modern au’s as such, just not my favourite trope, especially for this show) and damn. Hngh. One of the best openly SongXueXiao fics I've read. The character dynamics, the characterization, the whirl of the timeline layout and the background plot slowly creeping into view... Fucking masterpiece.

5. I'm not being creepy, I promise, but pretty much anything you've written for this fandom? Like, that is literally the last thing in my open fic tabs? Picking one single one is super-hard, but This Place Could Be Beautiful is the one I have bookmarked to browse your stuff, it actually had me literally tearing up reading it, and that's a very good thing? Lick Your Exit Wounds is another one I've re-read several times. Exposure Therapy for some good lighthearted fun (which, still, had me literally tearing up at the part where WWX just so quietly and resignedly asks if he's done something wrong, damn you) And tbh? I. Cannot. Wait. for the fucked up SongXue roadtrip. I cannot. Like. Its state of non-existence torments me. Torments me.

44. What ship do you feel needs more attention?

All mine, of course. (insert ”those pairings were mine, those other OTPs were other people's”-joke here.) Seriously, I'd love for more well written, messy SongXueXiao. XueXiao is also very, very good. And since it seems I at least glance in its direction these days, why not, more XiYao.

And honestly? I have the largest soft spot for any interaction between Wei Wuxian and Xue Yang. Whether sexy or just snarking off doesn't matter (doing both is a bonus).

They are such absolute parallels, the sassy street kids who climbed their way up and through convergent evolution became founders and inventors in a whole new area of cultivation. Never really fitting in - but unlike, for example, Jin Guangyao, who lives and breathes propriety and etiquette to get to own be part of that society, they both just give the cultivation world a big middle finger and walk their respective single plank bridges into the dark. If not for their opposite stances when it comes to caring about other people, they could have been something amazing together. (The whole ”I suffered so I will make sure no-one else will” vs ”I suffered so why shouldn't they?” approach in action there.)

I’m very weak for this, okay, and my brain often tells me delightful stories where they just snark endlessly at each other and it’s beautiful.

[messedupessy]

HERE THEY ARE AT LAST, MY UNDERLUST BROS AKA VELVET AND BIN YEEHAAW (͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) ❤

Ahhh I finally finished them holy shit kefjkjffwfjk this took a bit longer than I expected but also at the same time went really, really fast xD So yeah, once again I have ended up making my own take on an au so hard that it like barely even resembles the original, because that’s the way I roll! 

And ya all got @insanelyadd to frikking blame because they are the cause for me suddenly getting ideas for this, like I been kind of wanting to try doing my own take on it for awhile because I got no self control but still, Goaty has been nothing but an enabling little sheit ever since this began last week so go send them some love ok UwU ❤

Anyway to the bros a quick little rundown on their personalities, and then a short summary on my take on the au, will post a longer summary with way more details later but going to put it up on ao3 so ya all can more easily read it etc, and will put it in a reblog of this post later when I do.

I also want to mention that similarly like I did with MessedUpTale, so have I tried to keep like allot of original UT personalities etc in my takes on these boys and the rest of the characters in UL, while still making them their own people, but yeah here goes gonna put both the summary and the personalities under a cut bc this post is way too long already

Also suggest ya all open the two ref pics in a different tab so to be able to read what things says properly etc, and also don’t tag this as ship bc this aien’t no shipping here even tho I know this be UL but I don’t ship it so don’t tag it as such thank u UwU ❤

And warning for very suggestive content etc below, and there might also be some triggering stuff maybe so watch urself ye

Ok so here are them personalities ye:

UL Pap aka Velvet:

He is very vain, pretty attention whorish he really, really wants attention and to be popular, which he is since he has gotten pretty famous for making naughty vids on the net with the energy of a youtube let’s player, but yet he is pretty insecure if people like him for him or just like him appearance wise and what he do in them vids, he loves what he do but he still got them insecurities. 

Don’t like the fact that his pupils are different sizes, and he is very keen to please like he is a very big people pleaser while still been confident he is a bit split, as he is confident but yet such a people pleaser who worries if he acts properly like himself he won’t be liked etc.

He is a switch but with a more dom side, but since he is so eager to please so does he not mind at all to take a more subbier role when doing the do. 

UL Snas aka Bin:

A total gremlin, but in the good way, really chill and relaxed, a total prankster and jokester who pretty much never take or do anything seriously, will constantly try to con people for fun for like kisses/hugs and naughtier stuff just to see how far they will let him go with it. He is not depressed and is actually pretty happy overall, only thing in his life he got a little bit problem with is the fact literally no one, except his bro, takes him seriously, which is kind of his own fault but what can he do. 

Is a total pillow princess who prefers to do absolutely nothing, so during boning as long as he don’t really have to do anything he’s game.

Now for the short au summary:

Hundreds of years ago there was a country of wizards, who came up with this great idea of making literal living sex dolls which were called monsters because why the fuck not.

Then shit happened because the people in the country the birth rate began to go down af because everyone just wanted to bang monsters instead of fellow humans, and some humans wanted to give them all proper rights etc since technically monsters were alive etc, tension grew until it just frikking exploded as one wizard did the impossible and made two monsters been able to reproduce which wasn’t supposed to be able to even happen.

So civil war broke out, the resistance for pro monsters were allot smaller and losing af so they sent the still living monsters to a far off island where they locked them up to keep them safe using a magic machine which hides them from humanity. This was not meant to be temporary but since the whole country then went and got razed to the ground af by another country and got completely destroyed so are the monsters now stuck on the island.

3000 years then passes with the monsters making a life on the island where they be evolving and becoming more sentient and actual people and not just dolls, but something strange happens one day where two humans ends up shipwrecked on the island, something that should be impossible etc.

And that’s the quick and short af sunmary of it, keep an eye out for the longer one ye