#marijuana addiction

[8unny9l0ck]

pass it around

[goodbyemaryjane]

10 things I learned from 10 months of sobriety

(in no particular order)

1. Feelings can't hurt me as long as I don't do anything self destructive to make them go away. They'll pass - like clouds blowing over the sky.

2. Everything good that I thought being drunk and high helped me do - socializing at parties, making art, emotional intimacy - I'm actually better at when I'm sober.

3. Getting intoxicated was a shortcut (a maladaptive coping mechanism) to silence my self-criticism and shame.

4. It caused more problems than it solved.

5. What I really needed was to practice self compassion and let myself be vulnerable with others sober. Scary, but the rewards are great.

6. If I satisfy my loneliness by getting drunk and high, I will be too busy with my addiction to seek out real love or accept it when it comes. I feel lonely for a reason; if I just keep numbing the hunger, I'll starve.

7. I have to take all of the energy I may spend wishing for others to change for me and just change myself.

8. Withdrawals were uncomfortable but my fear of them was much worse. When I look back, I felt more joy and relief in the first few days than pain. Like swimming in the ocean: once I stopped struggling and just let the current pull me under and toss me around, trusting that eventually I would be pushed to the surface, I knew I would be alright no matter how strange and sick I felt. It was such a relief to stop fighting what I knew deep down was right and true: that I had to quit today - not tomorrow, not in a week - or I'd be using for the rest of my life.

9. Denial is a powerful and terrifying thing. Nobody is too smart to be an addict. If anything, it makes you better at coming up with excuses.

10. At some point you will be more afraid of staying the same forever than you are of changing.

[cjd-nbr]

Way too much pressure on not smoking… definitely smoking less, enjoying it less. Doing it before activities and going out less. Less quick to do it as soon as I get in. Progress…

Worried about having to go back to work already next week.

I’ve Never smoked before work, or went into work stoned. Which I have always used to play down my addiction/dependence.

But I’m making progress in the meantime… focusing less on the smoking and more on just making sure I’m doing the things I need for myself the basics. Sleep, eat, grooming, connecting with friends and family.

Putting positive energy/action into myself whether I am smoking or not.

I can literally feel myself enjoying the high less. Pausing more. Delaying more.

My behaviors although not all at once or that rapid, are changing. I’ve got to acknowledge that and keep moving.

Things I can continue so work on, more meditation, more prayer, more challenging myself.

But I am so much more optimistic about life than I’ve ever been. I’m proud.

Gotta stay steady. More bumps and triumphs of the mind to come.

[girlofthenight]

Ninna canna obbligatoria !✌🏼

[rosyqueer]

On November 10th, 2023 I reached 90 days in sobriety! I didn’t think I’d reach that because I didn’t think I’d ever be an addict. I watched my mom, part of me hated her for it. Resenting the childhood she made me grow up in. How could I ever do that to myself?

But it was easy. I spent my teenage and early adult years hating myself, struggling to find answers to why I felt the way I did. Why I felt so… wrong. I was barely surviving. I never learned how to be a functioning human. I was thrown out there to do the best I could. I latched on to relationships, filling that void. Part distraction from reality and the other part trying to find the love I never got as a child. The harder I tried and the more disappointments and heartbreaks, the more I just confirmed that there really was something wrong with me. I am the bad one.

That first hit of weed melted me. In my room, alone, at 23. I felt the anxiety of not being a good partner, son, friend, just leave my body. I thought I was using weed to feel better and to be better. In reality I was cutting off and blocking an entire side of myself. Being high made me feel better because I was ignoring everything.

That ignoring was what made my mess. It made me hit my bottom. I woke up after a particularly bad night of using and had enough. There was a tiny sliver of self worth it me, enough to recognize that this wasn’t me. Things could be so much better.

[blissrecovery]

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[raspberry-pudding]

6/3/2024

It's been a very long time since I've posted. I just haven't thought about this account much over the past two-ish months.

I'm in a rough position. I mean, I don't know, I feel like it's rough but I know everything is gonna work out completely fine. Work has made me start smoking 4 joints a day, including smoking throughout my shift now. But I don't have to worry about that anymore because yesterday was my last day there. I've already been able to cut it back down to 2 joints a day, plus some of a bowl at bedtime.

More weed waffling below the cut, as always.

Honestly, I've been so distracted with work that I haven't noticed the negative impacts weed has had on me lately. Which, I don't like because it makes doing it feel more okay to me. If feel likes I'm smoking just to be okay with being alive and I'm sick of feeling that way. Not every day is like this, but the hard ones are.

Sorry if this post sounds a little groggy or weird in language, I've been up awhile and am drinking coffee, but my brain just still isn't here yet. I like writing things out in the morning, though, because it takes me away from accidentally getting stuck on my phone -- which has also been a terrible issue lately. Generally, I can keep myself away from my phone pretty easy because I don't like the notifications or being talked to. But I have been struggling a lot with not going on TikTok and Instagram, and the tendency to go on these apps increases when I'm stoned for sure. I can just zone out on the apps and not even realize what's happening until hours later -- I hate that shit.

I quit my job. Because I started doing a work from home job instead and it was going really great for a month. Until I was told that the company would no longer prioritize relocating me to new projects in the future. So, I could get more work in the future but it sounds unlikely. I quit my job so I could do this one more instead -- it used my degree, it paid well, I thought I was doing really well at it because all my feedback was good. But now, I don't have a job, and while my fiancé and I can live on his check fine, I really liked making money and having my own money to pay for student loans.

My fiancé tells me to look at it all as a blessing in disguise. I'll just say what my job was, why does it matter? I feel so paranoid about someone on here knowing who I am but this blog has literally been nothing but me speaking into the void. I worked at a Starbucks for the past 6 months and at first it was fantastic. I joined a new location and was able to get one on one training before the place opened, so I really got the recipes down and everything. But I stayed about 3 or 4 months longer than I really should have. I loved making drinks, I loved being with my coworkers, but what I didn't love was management and the fact that me and two other girls were always stuck doing everything in that place. I love my coworkers -- but damn, a lot of them did not do a single thing. I didn't even work as much as everyone else and the few days I did work I was carrying the whole weight of the place on my back. Sometimes I got stuck as the only person there and would jump between register, making drinks, making food, and doing prep all at the same time -- I'm so happy we didn't have a drive thru at this location. But I would literally do everything back there, and I think my breaking point was that my manager still acted like what I was doing wasn't enough for her. Not to mention, I'm not a person who has their phone out when they work and I got yelled at for handing someone my phone to watch one video I was talking about while I made the one and only drink order we had. Meanwhile, my coworkers are blatantly on TikTok behind the counter and they don't get anything said to them.

Fuck, this post about recovering from weed just turned into a waffle about my work. But this place is what's made my consumption so awful lately. I forgot the point too -- that maybe this is all a blessing in disguise for me. I was looking for any reason at all to quit. I was busting my ass every day I went in and the manager was starting to treat me like shit more and more -- like I can't do anything right and that I'm a new problem for her to conspire getting rid of. Which, she did with others, conspiring ways to make them quit or get fired and it kept working; and when her attitude with me started changing in this way I knew I was next anyway. I don't even understand why she keeps doing it; someone does something very little that she doesn't like and instead of talking to them, her and the assistant manager just conspire to get rid of them. Until we're short staffed as fuck -- we've been running on 6 employees per day at work when we should have double that because she keeps trying to get rid of people. But then she doesn't wanna hire anyone new because she doesn't want to train them. Well, me and my best friend quit on the same day so now they're so short staffed they have to hire people, because not enough people are there to give days off.

My fiancé has been tired of me coming home for lunch and just breaking down crying and screaming every day. And he's right about how a shitty, minimum wage ass job shouldn't leave me that way. Maybe the purpose of the other job was just to prove that I can find something better and a reason to get away from Starbucks. I really don't know the purpose of any of it right now.

I guess I'm just glad to be away from that place. I'm sad about it because I genuinely liked the work and my coworkers, but I didn't like getting stuck with every part of the job by myself only to get yelled at that I'm still not doing good enough. I guess it's easy to see why I started smoking at work and went up to 4 joints a day.

I really do think now that I'm away from that place, being able to get a handle of how much weed I'm smoking will improve. Like I said, I've already brought it back down to 2 joints a day. I also haven't been enjoying the way weed makes me feel lately, it's more like a headache than anything else. And of course, I think it's a big source of my laziness and procrastination that I used to not have at all before smoking.

I've tried this journey so many times, but I feel really good about this go around. I think I can really do good this time. I've waffled so long today. Thanks for listening.

Iris🪻

[head-post]

US to re-classify marijuana as less dangerous drug

The US Justice Department on Tuesday decided to make marijuana use a lesser federal offence, in a move to remove the drug from the category that includes heroin that could change cannabis policy across the country, US media reported.

Justice Department spokesman Xochitl Hinojosa said in a statement:

“The US Attorney General sent a proposal to the White House to re-classify marijuana.”

It comes after Joe Biden became the first president to initiate federal consideration of the issue in 2022. The issue is seen as a potential vote-winner for Mr Biden, who will face Republican Donald Trump in a difficult rematch in this November’s election, especially among young people who the incumbent Democratic president is trying to win over to his side.

Since 1970, marijuana, along with heroin, ecstasy and LSD, has been classified as a so-called “Schedule I” drug, meaning it has no accepted medical use and a high potential for abuse.

Under the proposal, however, it would be downgraded to a Schedule III drug, along with drugs such as ketamine and painkillers containing codeine, with a moderate to low likelihood of addiction, Ms. Hinojosa said in a statement.

“This is the next step in the formal rescheduling process,” a source familiar with the issue told AFP. The process would still require a long period for public comments and finalisation. Read more HERE

[rantyraven]

I hate myself more than anything right now. how I've let my abuse get in the way of bettering myself. how I've let it kill me and my hobbies. it all could have been so easy and I could be in a much better place had I followed thru with nipping it in April. weed just makes me feel angry and frustrated at myself for all my failures. it makes me feel rotten. I'm forced to live and feel myself dying. 

I can’t be trusted to just “cut down”. it’s impossible for me. I have to quit cold turkey and face the withdrawal.

[weirdlookindog]

[goodbyemaryjane]

I just had a long conversation with someone who feels now like I did more than a year ago -- that she's sick and tired of feeling terrible and smoking to feel normal, but she's scared to quit. I fully recommended it and gave my best advice, and she said it helped - that she wants to quit now! One of the best things about recovering from an addiction like that is being able to be that person who gets it, being someone who understands what another addict is going through when they need it the most. I'm so grateful that I haven't relapsed, and I'll do my best to make sure I never do.

[dundykelevesconte]

the beginning of the terror needs to have a disclaimer that reads something like ⚠️ WARNING‼️ GATEWAY DRUG INTO POLAR EXPLORATION ⚠️

[hotinak]

So prettyyy

[hushedhippie]

Wake & bake, baby🌿

[thrawns-babygirl]

Tw Addiction, drugs

Y'all I'm officially 6 months sober and I can't believe it.

I know a lot of people scoff at the idea of marijuana addiction, saying its not real but it absolutely is. I spent the better part of 5 years stoned literally every single day. Spending hours upon hours smoking joint after joint doing literally nothing else. I would smoke before I did anything and everything, it was my entire personality and it was fucking me up in a really bad way.

I wouldn't go out to friends places unless people were smoking up, I wouldn't leave the house for days at a time unless I was buying more pot, I went to work stoned but no one could tell because I was literally always stoned so so many people literally though that was just how I was.

It was unhealthy and in the end it really fucked me up. It gave me some lasting negative effects on my mental health, it gave me severe paranoia that I still struggle with 6 months on as well as heightened my anxiety to a degree I've never dealt with before.

The withdrawals were intense, dizziness, nausea, vomiting, no appetite, totally unable to sleep for weeks.

I lost friends because so many people I hung out with only cared about smoking and getting high together so they just don't contact me amymore.

Its still hard to ignore the cravings when people bring it up and talk about smoking socially, but its something that im learning to work through and deal with.

I hate how people treat pot addiction as if its a joke or not real because it really truly is. And I am so proud of myself for getting through the last six months. Its been hard, but its been oh so worth it.

So if you're struggling with addiction, just know it is 100% possible to overcome. You can do it. Its hard but it's so insanely rewarding. You can rebuild your life and your social circles. You can become the person you thought you never could be.

I believe in you.

Don't give up.