#man i cant write rn
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I need to chew both of them like a stress toy
#senart#solarballs#i hate them i hate earth (proceeds to draw only them for the rest of the day)#ANYWAY HC#earth changes his clothes a lot but he usually wears tshirts. Or he would just wear same thing until it felt uncomf to be wearing it#its either new outfit every earth day or the same fit for a whole week theres no in between#i have so many thoughts about him man why does my brain always pick these kinds of characters#AND LUNA IM SO SORRY YOUR DESIGN IS SO BLAND 😭😭 ILL DO YOU BETTER NEXT TIME#sigh i totally dont have favorites#i ll write more later man im so hungry rn i cant thinkmn
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Does anyone else get "mother who hates her daughter because she sees all the parts she hates in herself in her daughter" and "daughter hating herself because she's becoming just like her father" vibes within lestat and Claudia? No? Okay....
#iwtv#interview with the vampire tv show#interview with the vampire#iwtv tv#lestat de lioncourt#claudia iwtv#claudia interview with the vampire#i will acknowledge there is parts of himself in her he likes BUT most traits in her that are his he hates guys#anyways does anyone have any fics explorijg this thing between them? i fucking love it man#if i didnt have school work and other writing projects i woukd try to immediately brainstorm a little oneshot polt to showcase this part of#their dymantic that i mention in this post btw. but sadly as mention3d before i cant do that rn....sigh.....
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#mdzs discourse#jiang cheng discourse#if the person i was talking to earlier sees this- don't worry. i am not vaguing about you here#this is someone i blocked as soon as I saw their take#I'd love to have good faith arguments about jc because he's such a messy son of a bitch#but that is currently impossible as the majority of his vocal critics rn are just writing fanfiction and using it as proof he sucks#currently bitching about the person who implied jc manipulated jyl into marrying a man she wanted nothing to do with#inorder to form a political alliance#and used 16 y/o jc's “i just watched my family die” speach and a 20 something y/o him saying “thanks. we'll talk later” as proof#jc antis are the most bad faith critics I've ever seen AND I HAVE BEEN IN THE FE3H FANDOM#i cant believe I've actually found something more headache enducing than the rhea and edelgard discourse
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#Some doodle i made#i feel really shitty rn so yeah#Some mf said my writing was racist and ableist and idk if its true so ??? And some ppl keep complaining abt my interpretations#Man cant i take a break for just ONE day#dadpleasant#unpleasant gradient#infected#lampert#Bive
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(könig x fem!reader ramble ahead)
thinking about how könig is so fucking big he has to take the time to prep you before fucking and that’s apart of the euphoria of the whole thing. Just taking his time making you fall apart with his mouth and fingers again and again and again until you're both slick with sweat and breathing heavy as he watches you through lidded eyes from between your legs where he curls three fingers against your g-spot and you whine. Hours could have passed and you can’t tell because all you can think of is him.
König, König, König.
You’re more than ready for him and he knows it as you beg for his cock but he just lays a trail of wet kisses along your thighs, mumbling “I know, just one more I promise” before pressing his tongue to your clit
#könig x reader#könig x you#könig x fem reader#könig x fem!reader#nobody look at me rn okay#i cant write smut but HES SO!!!HES S O !!!!!#man i should sleep i got work in the morning lmao
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also just for the record. no matter how much utterly stupid shit i say or draw about him, frank actually makes me so deeply sad. this old man should be picking up his grandkids but he cant. i think about him too much and im so sad
#marvel#frank castle#the punisher#this is true for like most of these guys [gestures vaguely to comicbook men] but frank is the one that makes me want to chew on rocks rn. s#like yeah i selfship with him for fun and i like to think about cutesy or funny stuff involving him but the reality is he makes me so sad#ig thats part of why i do it. you make me so sad old man. but youre not real so in some version of not real you can be a little better#not happy but yk better#but like. just. fuck man hes so deeply damaged and hurt it drives me up the wall. my hurt person hurting people#as always i struggle to string words together this isnt news if you know anything about him you know exactly what im getting at#he would have been a wonderful father and husband. the way hes so devoted to them still. always. its killing me#sometimes i see canon moments of him where how just fundamentally deeply broken as a person he is and augh#nothing can help you nothing can make things any better but my god you cannot be left alone in this state#eh maybe thats it. i cant help him i cant make him feel better. but i cant let him be alone like this#i dont think he should have to be alone like this#bleh sorry word vomit. im tired and sleepy. i wrote 4 essays this week. need to write 2 more. going a little bonkers#brain is fried.
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one of Thee funniest tv tropes is "group of people (better if they're not friends) wake up in the same area after being blackout drunk, with it being Wildly obvious that some crazy shit went down & they have to puzzle it out / fix their mess without anyone knowing"
#psych is KILLING it w/ s6ep2 rn#i cant even attempt to eat my tiny cake im cackling too much#especially since its shawn/gus + lassie + woody LIKE CMONNNNNNN#THAT IS SUCH A KILLER GROUP FOR THIS#and its So fucking funny so far already....#the 'woody & lassie slept together' joke... i wheezed! they did it Well ngl#but man. im 7 minutes in and its already my favorite episode#and here i was Attached to the cinnamon festival ep....#so much can happen in 24 hours </3#absolutely unprompted#anyway absolutely iconic quartet of characters i didnt know i needed it but im so glad i have it#the four of them trying to keep their cool in the autopsy room... asdkandjkafkjan TOP TIER#fishtank gun my beloved#one day i hope to write this trope. i hope i do it well#i have many ocs it could work soooooo fucking perfectly with#the idiot squad especially....#and many media-based characters as well!#honestly this trope can work with anyone. well now that i think about.... the less 'on brand' it is the funnier#like the wh crew? who cares if puppets cant get drunk. that shit'd be hilarious#i just know they'd be so fucking insane about it. the weirdest blackout shenanigans ever...
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Y'know this little throwaway gag is so bizarre to me and I know this game is a bit very different to 2 and 3 but look at Matt's reaction when Jack raids the place in 3:
You'd argue he's simply stopping Jack bc he hates this guy and he also hates this job which Could Be True but i highly doubt bc overall despite his virginity and overall cursed vibe, Matt seems to be a good employee, by all means (I mean, Peter literally gave him a vacation instead of firing him in 2, so that says a lot).
Plus, Dave hates this guy as much as he hates him! He literally always calls him creepy and, AND!
This is the only footage you get of the prize corner in 2. Which is also the first game to show Matt and Dave's disdain for one another, Dave being likely more scared of Matt than Matt will ever be of him.
Which is all very curious. 2 does set a drastic change for Matt too with him going from being just strange to outright creepy, so was the old pizza place closing something that actually affected him or was he consistently that creepy all along? And if the later, did he just start hating Dave after that or did they always have beef and they simply had some sort of arrangement (or even higher word from Steven who tended to let Dave do whatever he wanted in general) that let him do so?
#luly talks#dsaf#matt virginia#matthew virginia#<- using both tags bc i didnt realize some call him matthew. ya se los dije el es matias para mi...#dsaf matt#dsaf dave#dave miller#anyway yeah i kinda went from just writing this as a haha silly thing i noticed to wait this is actually kind of bizarre to not mean anythi#cant tell which theory works best imo like the idea of matt being genuinely upset at the old place being destroyed is kinda cool#but also steven just being like a neglectful parent and using his manager power to let dave steal is So fucking funny to me#i will make a post about dave and steven later my sugar is low rn i need food before i die#but they're soooo silly too#also did you guys know i never realized 1 and 2 were just a few months apart from each other? this is because im a very stupid man#you might see me all analytical and shit and go woah luly is so smart i cant read. i cant hold information to save my life either#im an utter and complete dumbass#amen.#also another fun fact both these screenshots were taken from my evil routes which was a coincidence really#well except for 1 that is a non route#but those other two those are matpat baby#also yeah couldnt be bothered to get screenshots for dave and matt's argument KNJHJNGM JN
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uh oh i can feel myself getting bogged down in the perfectionism sauce again... i need to write smth stupid and self indulgent ough
#rimi talks#it also does not help that my head is so FUcking hurty rn but that i slept too much and now i cant sleep more#like now im just bored of sitting here going aw my head hurts :(#why is being in pain sofucking BORING i ask you.#(thinking abt all the fics i could write) man it woudl be so cool if i knew how to write#<- i say this bc im struggling with words rn. which is a problem bc i would like to write rn. bc im bored. however .#like what else can i do with myself!!!!!! my eyes hurt!!!!!!#can't play video game bc moving images hard. can't read book bc eyes hurt. can't do podcast bc audio processing is Shot.#i COULD sit here with my eyes mostly closed and type but i cant THINK good????#which i mean i can still do but its frustrating to constantly feel like i can't think as well as normal. ugh#chronic migraines when i fuckign get you#BUT i guess having a migraine is a great excuse to write something silly and indulgent that doesnt require much planning or thought#so if i can just figure out what that somethign is. that might be a potential boredom cure
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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thinking of gwen and peter, who have been through so much of “spider-man”'s hardships, loneliness and particularly the loss and destruction they bring to their own, other's and loved one’s lives. and miles is excited to be spider-man (ripeter "but after everything, i still love being spider-man. who wouldn't?") so how can EITHER of them tell the kid who changed their lives for the better that his is going to get worse . like they talk to miguel about how to talk to miles !!! they try to keep the truth from miles while also wanting him to trust them regardless, and like every spider, they try (and fail) to do both. and yeah pretty much every meta post has said this already but that trying is what makes them spider-man
#re: shokuto’s ‘But Miles trying to save his dad now that he knows what’s going to happen?’#‘That’s just doing what you can. That’s just being Spider-Man’ post#fundamentally fucking making me worse.#im just baking brownies and being a little sick. maybe im misunderstanding spidey but its my incomprehensible meta post#on my terrible sideblog. SO I CAN SAY WHAT I WANT#atsv spoilers#meta#which . needs a tag on this blog cause im starting to write paragraphs..#atsv#ofc i have said this in like . tags in prev posts before but i want it written out for myself. the blog deserves it . im so sick over atsv#but i cant draw anything rn cause of uni. so meta posts it is!
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i'm going to he so fucking insufferae about theatre btw. just started my job at the theatre, with which i'm already obsessed bc their plays and stuff are just plain brilliant i could go on rants for hours and boy am i gonna know these plays by heart once i've sat through one half a dozen times. AND i joined a theatre class at school. with four other people but. i'm so incredibly motivated. i NEED. anyway it's tumblr y'all know i regularly go full obsessed nerd on things i am a Freak when it comes to these things and BOY is it gonna be Bad with the theatre
#i hope they play shakespeare.......#i gotta write a paper in shakespeare this year anyway so like. thatd be perfect#ANY WAY THE CURRENT PLAY IS DO GOOD#ITS ALL GREY#LIKE LITERALLY THE ACTORS SKIN IS PAINTED IN SHADES OF GREY#THERE IS ZERO COLOUR#AND YOU FORGET AS U DO WITH B&W FILMS#AND THEN#AND THEN. RED MIST. THE INQUISITIR. GLOWING RED IN RED SPOTLIGHTS#U CANT EVEN SEE THE OTHER CHARACTERS ANYMORE#THE INQUISITOR IS SO PROMINENT IN RED THAT ALL GREY MELTS INTO MEANINGLESS BACKGROUND#THE VISUALS ARE SO GOOD I AM CHEWING ON DRYWALL#STUNNING#ALSO I LOVE THAT SCENE WHEN THAT GUY IS SHOT!! ITS SO GOOD!!!!!!!#AND THE ACTOR IS SUCH AN INCREDIBLE CORPSE??? LIKE LEGIT IF I DIDNT KNOW HR WAS ALIVE#I MEAN HES A FZCKIGN GREAT ACTOR THRU THE WHOLE PLAY BUT DAMNNNN#COULDNT SEE HIM BREATHE WHEN WAITING FOR IT. FOR TWENTY WHOLE MINUTES#ALSO JUST THE FACT THAT TEH CGARACTER REALISED HE WAS WRONG#AND GOES UP TO THE KING TO LIE AND TAKE THE BLAME SO HIS FRIEND HAS TIME TO FLEE#AND THE KING JUST. SHOOTS HIM JUST AS HE WANTS TO START HIS MONOLOGUE#THE TEO PEOPLE CRYING OVER THE CORPSE OF THE ONE SINGLE DECENT MAN IN THIS PLAY#(there is also once decent woman but the more i get the play the less convinced i am on her tbh. i support womens wrongs!! bht not the poin#here rn)#AND THEN ITS ALL FOR NOTHIN TOO!! HUS FRIEND WHOM HE DIED FOR WHO F I N A L L Y GOT TWO BRISNCELLS IS STILL GONNA DIE#ITS ALL SO FUTILE#ITS BEAUTIFUL#THE COLOUR CHOICES UGH#THE SCENE COMPOSITION#THE MUSIC#god the music. poor music guy tho. theres so many tricky parts they get wrong again and again
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"I may have said things to you that I invented Pete, but I have never lied to you."
relistening to junoverse, specifically nureyev lore heavy eps, and thinking about how honesty is the biggest thing Nureyev values. thinking about how he doesn't want to lie to Juno, he'd rather not say anything or run away. thinking about how he flits between aliases and how he comes back to being Peter Ransom.
#the penumbra podcast#Perhaps tonight I will finally share smth from the 36 questions au#bc thats what all this is leading up to. thats what my relistening and need for nureyev's nicknames for juno is all for#i wanna put this man in my mouth and shake him around and drop him on the ground and rip him to shreds#i wanna take this lady and throw him in the air and toss em into the dryer and then a jar and shake him around till hes motion sick#sounds violent sorry guys#but all this relistening rn tho to say:#thinking on Peter in 36 questions and how he's been living this elaborate lie for years and its been eating away at him#i plan on diving into this guilt a bit in the fic#i cant wait to write it all up#tpp#the penumbra spoilers#slight spoilers#private eye's keys go jingle jangle#delirious mumblings
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most nights kinda suck. but sometimes youre relaxing in a nice motel and one of the tv channels is playing 9-1-1 episodes <3 and everything feels like it'll be okay for a few hours <3
#rn they got the BANGER prison ep playing#where buddie is held at gunpoint together <3 hostage husbands <3#god and motel beds??? they almost make me wish my bed was on the ground#bc its So So fun to just. gently Toss myself onto it#theres room to stretch.... fun....#man and i have my favorite cheetos too!#and tomorrow its My turn to drive the 9 hours <3#< said with forced cheer through clenched teeth#BEN BARNES AD JUMPSCARE WHAT THE FUCK#sorry. that got me. fuckin. ben barnes....#absolutely unprompted#also im having angsty wh thoughts that i cant Wait to scribble. or write maybe? idk!#when i scribble something fluffy my brain immediately counteracts it with Pain#like the barnaby & wally Playing scribbles!#yeah! what if barnaby accidentally decapitates wally! what then! fun thoughts For Me To Enjoy!#the scene is Very Clear in my head!! its tasty#RAVI NO DONT DO IT#sorry watching the Episode and my boy ravi is about to risk his life#he'll be fine but still. RAVI NOOOOOOO
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Did I really just ... ???
Yeahhhhhhhhhjhjjjhggjjhghhhjjjgghgghhh
Wrote more Tron x reader bs because I can't stop myself.
Actual factual Rinzler smooching will be happening next chapter.
STAY TUNEDDDDDDDDDD
#tron#like it or leave it#i cant understand#im obsessed with this program man#anyways really not actual romance#like bonding & stuff#anyways#i would down load him in my heart if ever given the chance *sobbinggg*#or maybe my fairy pink goth tamagotchi#i would love to carry him around like that omgggggg#you guys#you guyyys#im a bit fucked up & coming off a fever rn#but i think this makes sense#tell me if not#ill fix it if i feel better eventually#or die trying to write rinz smoochin hehehehhhhuhfe
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ive been thinking abt lil dizzy and cg murry this whole week. so i had to getout my thoughts n ideas or else i was gonna splode 0: 0:
#emmy talks#my art!#vast error agere#dismas mersiv#murrit turkin#rawrrr i luv them so cmuh!!! :D :D :D#i cant make my brain write my ideas rn so i had to draw this out man#lil dizzy and murrit cleaning him up after a big fight#n making him feel better grr i loveeee themmmmm!!!!!!#also srry im so bad at backgrounds lol i never draw them sooo#idk this is kinda bad buttt! oh well !!!!#thi is also soooo very messy#but#whutever!! i ened to stop doubting the stuff imake grr!!#🍊
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