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Some quick tips to spotting accounts that are pretending to be a Palestinian needing mutual aid. Please keep in mind that not all of them are scam accounts, and that some may legitimate blogs who just arenât too knowledgeable on how tumblr works. This guide is based around what I go by when checking certain blogs and usually itâs a quick giveaway the blog is a scam.
Please read this post too from my other blog before you tell people donât donate to gfms:
1. You was sent the ask as someone who regularly shares Palestine related content such as regular news updates of posts by other Palestinians who are regularly giving updates. You may also get these asks from sharing a popular post that is from the Palestine tag. If you post often about Palestine, you will always start getting these asks. These askers donât care if you state donât send the asks. They will anyway. Unfortunately minors also get sent asks.
2. The ask has odd formatting such as having odd quotation marks in it or unusual formatting that may indicate itâs been edited and copied from somewhere else. Often the ask is the same thing as the post itself minus a link to a donation site. These asks rarely change so searching it should pull up if itâs been sent to other bloggers and sometimes the asks are edited only to add new phrases to them in time.
3. The account is almost always a few days old or a week old or long depending on how often they have sent asks. Usually some may even be an hour old and reusing a familiar pfp/ask.
4. The blog has a few Palestine related posts or posts from random tags reblogged to pad out length and then no more. They will have no original posts besides the pinned post while occasionally answering asks that they may have received but otherwise nothing else and no further updates given either.
5. They may have a Linktree link that is called âGoFundMeâ as if indicating they have a GoFundMe there. However, they donât. When clicked on, the Linktree actually goes to a PayPal account whose name may not even match the one their supposed name is. Theyâll say itâs a friend, but itâs just the same person not someone else. Youâll see this same name across multiple accounts after a while usually giving away itâs not legitimate even under a different theme.
6. The text used by the blogs are often real stories stolen from legitimate fundraisers and searching parts of it in your preferred search engine should pull up the sources. These sources make no mention of a tumblr account either or donât have the PayPal account associated with them in the info. Scammers often impersonate a real person in need and will ignore you if you show them the source they copied from.
7. Legitimate Palestinians often link to their own GoFundMe posts that their friends have set up or post links to other social platforms they are found on. They will regularly post updates when possible, post sources to support them when necessary, and also generally have some method of verifying their legitimacy. They may often share links to support others as well or give links to charities that have been shown as reliable. They will have more original posts than just a single pinned one and regularly speak to other tumblr accounts beyond just an ask. Please donât bother them with asks about possible scam accounts. There are many guides out there that can do that for you if you search. You may find verified fundraisers too.
8. Scammers donât know anything about Palestine and will often have trouble once you ask them anything beyond the mutual aid post. They donât know the languages decently and you can tell it pretty easily if youâre one who uses it regularly. Whatever the scammers use is often just copied off the site they got the post from. Sometimes the text is just reused from past scams such as asking for insulin that doesnât last long.
9. These scammers can and will use names stolen off real Palestinians to look more legitimate and trustworthy. They change names constantly once one of their PayPal accounts is shut down.
10. If you do see a GoFundMe link on a blog, donât immediately assume itâs a scam just because itâs a relatively new account. Check the post notes to see if anyoneâs verified the account yet or wait a bit as it takes time. You likely can search around to see if anyoneâs posted anything where the blog has been vetted by others. You may also see if the GoFundMe is referred to on other socials or on lists that compile verified and vetted fundraisers.
Please donât let these scams deter you from sending support where it needs to go. Even if you canât donate personally, there are other ways to help. If you are sending money, please make sure that itâs going to where itâs needed and the place itâs sent has been verified accordingly. If you find a blog is a scammer, and have been able to prove it, please make sure to alert anyone sharing the post and report the account.
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giving Jason vs Ak!Jason head
đĽA/n: lmk what yall think of this type of format for a post!!
đĽCw: smut, dirty talk, praise, fluffy aftercare, degradation, use of "slut", blowjob
đĽminors dni
one difference between our usual Jason Todd and Ak!Jason is how rough they are. specifically, how rough they are with you.
when it comes to Jason, he's all about your comfort and pleasure, especially when you're giving him head. he pauses to let you breathe, praises you for taking him so well, and his hand never leaves your face as he strokes your cheek soothingly. he calls you his darling, and pulls out before cumming on your chest.
but Ak!Jason? he's more than willing to be mean. he makes you gag on his cock, relishing in your whimpers and moans as you struggle to take his length. a sly hand pinches your nose as you take him, causing you to gag and struggle to breathe around his thick cock. he mocks you, calling you his pretty little slut and teasing you about how eager you are. he's cumming in your mouth or on your face, theres no in between, and he'll make sure to scoop any of his cum that you don't swallow back into your mouth with his finger.
both agree that aftercare is important, but Jason is much more open and honest about his feelings. after returning the favor with a few more rounds, he's running you a bath and making sure you don't have to lift a finger, changing the sheets and even carrying you back to bed. he's whispering sweet nothings in your ear, cupping your face in his hands and reminding you of how much he loves you. Jason holds you against his chest until you fall asleep, safe and content in his arms.
meanwhile, Ak!Jason is unsure of what to do next after collapsing beside you after a few more rounds. the both of you are exhausted and sticky from sweat and fluids, yet he can tell that you are much more tired than him. he takes the initiative to get a warm, wet towel and wipes you down while your still in your post orgasmic haze. he doesn't brush you off when you cling to him, and he can't deny that he misses the intimacy of your touch. he missed you. while he doesn't say it aloud, his actions scream i love you as he pulls you close. he murmurs, "not a word about this in the morning", and pretends not to notice the soft smile that graces your features as you fall asleep in his embrace.
yes, Jason and Ak!Jason are different in many ways, but both love you unconditionally.
sorry this is unedited and un-proof read i am lazy đ i will probably reblog this in the morning at a more acceptable time of day but i am too fucking lazy to learn how the que thingy works and some of my scheduled posts have been Eatenâ˘ď¸ by tumblr sooooo erm yea suffer. anyways!!! hope u enjoyed!! I AM BEGGINGGG FOR JASON TODD REQUESTS ESP THIRSTS PLSPSKSPKSSOSLPS PLEEASE
#i must admit i cooked w this one#jason todd x reader#jason todd smut#jason todd imagine#jason todd x you#jason todd x y/n#ak!jason todd x reader#ak!jason x reader#ak!jason todd#arkham knight#dc x reader#dc x you#dc smut#dc imagine#ak jason#ak jason x reader#arkham knight x reader#arkham knight x you#arkham knight jason todd#arkham knight imagine#arkham knight smut
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someone new
Synopsis: Post-war!AU. Itâs the quite moments that Touya enjoys the most. Sometimes he still has a hard time believing theyâre real. That you are real.
He has no problems allowing you to remind him of the latter. Â
Word count: 16K
Paring: Dabi x Reader (fem!reader)
Warnings: Mentions of post surgical interventions, Touya has hints of survivors guilt and some suicidal idealization if you squint, Smut and additional warnings listed below and on A03 so Minors or Ageless Blogs please DNI. This is rated 18+
Playlist: Omar Apollo - Evergreen (You Didn't Deserve Me At All)
Authors notes: Written for @shibaraki Komorebi collab! Thanks for having me love! Hope you enjoy!
Title is from Someone New by Hozier
**You can read it on A03 here if the formatting on Tumblr is throwing you off! I cross-post all my works onto my A03 account!
Sometimes Touya wonders how he got here.
Itâs a loaded question and he knows as much. He knows exactly where he is, and heâs painfully aware of the series of events that led him to this moment in time â but he often finds himself struggling to believe it.
A part of him doesnât want to believe it â a gnarled, still-angry part of what remains of his soul is convinced that itâs all part of some elaborate dream â one that will fade away and leave him alone and bitter once more as soon as he opens his eyes.
He falls asleep again and again, trying to prove his theory, but every time he wakes back up, heâs still in the same place:
He wakes up in your sun-lit apartment, more often in your bed, with you â always close by, never too far away.
Itâs where he is even now: nestled into the soft sheets of yourâno, the bed you shared together, even though itâs pushing noon on a Tuesday. Despite his body screaming at him to move, he canât bring himself to get up just yet.
Itâs not like it matters if he stays in bed anyways, he doesnât have anywhere to be. He doesnât have his court mandated therapy appointment until Thursday, and itâs not like he has a nine to five job like most people do. Christ, he canât even leave your apartment building without you or a Pro-hero escort with him. (Who, ninety-five percent of the time ends up being Shoto, since heâs about the only person who wants to deal with him these days aside from you, his mom, and sometimes Fuyumi and Natsuo.)
He rolls over slightly and listens for you, trying to hear the tell-tale tread of your footsteps echoing through the halls, or the sound of you humming a gentle melody under your breath as you do your menial chores around the apartment; before it finally occurs to him that itâs a weekday and youâre at work.
He stifles a groan as he finally pushes himself up, and makes his way towards the bathroom connected to the master bedroom, flicking on the light and shutting the door behind him.
That was his biggest problem these days: not wondering when his next meal would be. Not obsessing over ruining his fatherâs life as he had done his. Not charring himself past the point of no return as a means of exacting vengeance upon the world of Pro Heroâs that had long since turned their backs on him. No. That was all in the past.
For the first time in his life, it was boredom that was getting to him.
That was a joke if he ever fucking heard one.
Looking at himself now itâs hard to believe that he was once a homicidal serial killer, with a rap sheet several miles long.
He looks different now. He fights the urge to snort as he turns away from his reflection in your bathroom mirror while he goes about his business.
Like a snake that sheds itâs skin every couple of years, heâs changed his form once again; though this transformation wasnât up to him. He had no choice in the matter; what happened to him after the war was decided for him. His opinions be damned. (Though, if he thinks about it, he didnât really give All For One and his fucked up scientist permission to piece him back together after he incinerated himself up the first time. The irony almost makes him laugh.)
He forces himself to face his reflection in the mirror as he begins the painstaking task of his skincare routine â burning turquoise eyes staring a little too long at who looks back at him.
The worst of his burn scars are gone, though the shadow of them remains. His two-toned flesh has been concealed by pale, raised skin, but he can still see the lines in his face from his first Escharotomy â a reminder of Dabi; always lingering, never fully gone, even if he wears a different face.
The rest of his body is like that as well. No longer is he marred by wicked burn scars and surgical staples; he is one even skin tone now. He is complete by all accounts, even though he feels anything but whole. The skin grafts arenât perfect â theyâre textured and prone to drying out, and the skin around his eyes always looks bloodshot â but for the first time in years, when he looks in the mirror; the person staring back at him actually looks like Touya.
It's not a perfect visual, but itâs still closer than he ever thought possible.
Truth be told, he still has a difficult time looking at himself in the mirror. Itâs jarring honestly. Heâd gotten so used to seeing the horrific scarring on himself, that seeing his reflection without them makes him feel like heâs staring at someone new.
The skin grafts he received at some point after his barely responsive body was all but dragged off the battle field, still itch sometimes, but he knows itâs all in his head. He canât feel anything. He hasnât been able to feel anything since he was discharged from the hospital he been taken to after he collapsed.
His memories of that time are hazy â he had been doped up on heavy narcotics and other nerve blockers as he was subjected to surgery after surgery in a desperate attempt to fix his scorched body â so much so, that he doesnât know how long he was out for, or how much time passed while he was in recovery.
He remembers Shoto coming to visit him shortly after waking up from the worst of his many surgeries, and explaining that while the doctors had been able to successfully graft new skin onto him, (how his mangled body had been able to withstand another set of skin grafts was beyond him), they hadnât been able to fix his damaged nerve endings, and had opted to cauterize the few that still worked; leaving him completely numb to any and all feeling.
Truthfully, he hadnât cared at the time, he hadnât been able to feel much of anything for years before that, and the little he was still able to feel was nothing but chronic pain, so at the time he has seen the news as a blessing.
And then he met you.
Shortly after that, he found himself cursing the fact that he couldnât feel anything at all.
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He remembers the first time he met you.
After he had been cleared to leave the hospital, he had been taken to a heavily fortified psychiatric ward, eerily similar to the med-bay in Tartarus: all sterile white walls and armed guards. His room hadnât been much better: just a mid-sized white box with a cot and a small window for him to look out of, though there wasnât much of a view outside. He had no idea where the fuck he was anyways.
There he had started his rehabilitation.Â
It was hell. The first few months he spent there, he adamantly refused to speak to any of the doctors or physiatrists who came to work with him. Some were more persistent than others, poking their nose into his past (like he hadnât just aired his dirty laundry out for all of Japan to witness), and those were the ones he got pissed off at the most.
In another life, Dabi would have had no qualms about turning the doctors to ash, just like he had done to everyone else who had annoyed him in the past, only; he wasnât Dabi anymore. He wasnât sure who he was now.
It didnât help he had been hopped up on quirk blockers that canceled out his quirk, otherwise he probably still wouldâve tried to incinerate them. But he couldnât, and for the first time in his life, Touya Todoroki was fucking cold.
Turns out his quirk did a wonderful job of insulating him against the ice he kept hidden inside his chest all along.
He supposed he couldnât blame them for rendering him quirkless while at the facility. Hell, heâd render himself quirkless if he was a staff member, having to deal with someone like him. Footage from the fight with his father and the all-out brawl with Shoto had been leaked to the public, showing his quirkâs true power in all of its devastating glory.
He had been told the aftermath of both fights had done irreversible damage to the surrounding areas, and no one was sure if theyâd be able to fix the carnage he had created.
Good. The bitter, angry part of himself thought when he had been inadvertently told of the news. Suffer like I am.
He had been kept in isolation most of the time as the doctors tried to figure out what to do with him. His family hadnât been allowed to visit him yet, and for that he was grateful â he hadnât been particularly keen on seeing them after his recovery anyways. It was still too soon to face them, and he wasnât ready to deal with the inevitable aftermath of what was to come. In the meantime, he still refused to respond to any of the medical staff who came to try and work with him, outside of sarcastic remarks and biting jabs that made the whitecoats squirm in their seats, much to his enjoyment.
Curiously, during one of the very few times he did speak to one of the doctors responsible for his treatment; he found himself asking about what happened to the rest of the League. Of course, no one would give him any answers aside from the fact they were alive and they were in custody.
He was more relieved than he thought he would be.
More time passed, and he still refused to open up to any of the staff who came to see him, though he had become more vocal with them â aggressively so â to the point he started to notice there was a continuous rotation of people now; it wasnât just the same staff he was used to seeing when he first arrived at the facility.
Turns out, even the professionals were still scared of him â quirk or no quirk, his fiery reputation preceded him.
Eventually, the facility couldnât keep cycling through their therapists, so they had switched tactics. Whether it was out of desperation, or the fact he made so many professionals break down after a session with him, he wasnât sure, but he canât say he regrets his actions, because in the end, he met you.
He remembers the day you met for the first time.
He had been forced out of his little cell and taken to one of the treatment rooms where he spent most of his time outside his own room. He had been shoved in there before he could make a snarky retort, and then⌠he saw you.
You had been sitting on the couch adjacent to the spot where he normally sat during his apptioments. He had been so stunned to see someone new, heâd been rendered silent. Youâd looked up towards him, and for the first time since he arrived, you smiled at him.
âHey.â Youâd greeted him casually. He hadnât responded, still unsure of who you were and what you were doing here instead of the usual staff.
You nodded to the couch across from you. âYou wanna sit?â
He sat.
He fully expected you to introduce yourself, but you hadnât. Youâd just leaned back into the couch you were seated on and crossed your legs, giving him a content smile as you regarded him casually.
A few beats of silence passed. You didnât speak and neither did he. A few minutes passed, then a half hour, and then an hour. Finally, one of the assistants came to bring him back to his room.
He stood up to go but you still didnât say anything. Heâd allowed himself to be taken back without a fuss but, he didnât think anything more about it. The next day it was the same thing. He was taken out of his room back to the same treatment room, and surprisingly, you were already there waiting for him.
You gave him a little grin and nodded to the couch opposite you, and just like the last day, he sat.
Once again, you didnât say anything, which was unusual, since all of the other doctors had always started off the conversation, but you sat in silence across from him â the gentle smile never leaving your face all the while.
A half hour of silence passed before he finally broke. âSo, what exactly is this?â he remembers his voice sounding dry and scratchy after weeks of misuse. âThis the part where you try and butter me so Iâll talk to you?â
Youâd grinned at his remark. âNo.â
âNo? Then what the hell are you doing here? Is this some new technique the therapistâs showed you to try and get me to spill my guts to you? Reverse phycology or some shit?â
âNope. None of that I can assure you. Actually, if Iâm being honest, Iâm not even a doctor.â
That caught his attention.
âThe hell do you mean youâre not a doctor? How the are you in here then?â
âMaybe Iâll tell you later.â
He remembers being completely caught off guard by your answers, but heâd be lying if he said he wasnât the slightest bit intrigued by you. He remembers squinting at you carefully â taking you in â and for the first time, he saw you. Really saw you.
He could tell that you werenât lying to him about not being a doctor. You were dressed casually, though you were still covering up a fair amount of skin â no doubt something they told you to do ahead of time. You looked more alive than the rest of the staff in this place as well.
He was loathed to admit it, but you were pretty.
He remembers you flashing him a knowing grin, clearly able to tell heâs been shamelessly checking you out, and it was enough to make him recede back into his shell; his walls going back up once more, as he rolled his eyes condescendingly at you.
âSo whatâs your angle then?â Heâd asked you. âYouâre not a doctor but you wouldnât be in here with me if you didnât want something from me.â
âWould you believe me if I told you I was simply here to talk?â
That had gotten a laugh out of him. A short breathless laugh, but it was the first one heâd uttered since heâd tried to incinerate himself along with his father. It felt weird leaving his throat, foreign even, and heâd cut himself off as soon as the sound exited his mouth. So, he settled for snickering instead.
âReally now? You want to talk to someone like me? Why do I not believe that?â
You had sighed, and leaned forward so your forearms were supported on your knees, fixing him with a stern gaze. The intensity of it had made him flinch before he remembered who he was. He returned the look best he could, but it hadnât deterred you in the slightest. Instead, you sighed again.
âLook Iâll be honest with you: the staff here filled me in on your situation. I donât know what theyâve told you, but from how it was explained to me; your family wants you back home with them. Theyâve made a bunch of deals with the authorities about getting you out of here and not spending the rest of your life behind bars, but you have to successfully go through rehab first. The reason youâre here is so they can determine that youâre not a threat to society or to yourself, but the staff donât seem to be having much luck getting through to you, and theyâre desperate. They sent out a request to bring in outside help and I applied. They picked me because weâre the same age, and well⌠no one else really wanted to. Turns out most people are pretty scared of you.â
âFucking figures. And youâre telling me youâre not?â
âOf you? No.â
âYouâre shitting me.â
âIâm not. Iâm a little nervous maybe, but Iâm not scared.â
That had made him pause. Heâd swallowed, his mouth suddenly feeling like it was packed with cotton.
âWhyâs that?â heâd finally asked you after a moment.
You had gone quiet, seemingly mulling over his question before you finally responded: âI think you have a lot to say. More than you already have, and more then what people think. To be honest, I want to hear it.â
He had laughed again, but this time it sounded forced, even to him.
âIf you watched my broadcast then you know it all already.â
âOh, trust me, I think the whole world saw your broadcast, not just Japan. No one would shut up about it for weeks. But I think thereâs a lot more to you. I think a part of you wants to talk to someone else â none of that scripted bullshit â and I want to talk to you. Honestly, I think youâre pretty fascinating.â
He had been very tempted as ask you if you had a thing for villains, but he held off.
âYou must be crazy if you find talking to me enjoyable. The other quacks canât even stomach me, let alone stand to be in the same room as me for more than a few minutes. Just how fucked up are you really?â
Youâd grinned and wiggled your eyebrows mischievously at him as you leaned back and spread your arms out along the back of the couch. âThe only way youâre going to find that out is if you agree to talk to me. I donât just give up all my secrets willingly you know.â
It was his turn to go quiet as he thought about your words over and over in his head, taunting him. He hadnât been in any rush to leave the facility and go back to his old house, even if his mother and siblings were waiting for him. On the other hand, this was the most enjoyable conversation heâd had with anyone since coming to this white hellhole they called a hospital.
He figured maybe he would entertain you for a little while. If nothing else it would get you off his back.
You were lucky you were attractive.
The sound of your voice calling out his surname brought him back to the present.
âMr. Todoroki?â
â⌠Fine.â He had finally relented. âWeâll see who you really are, and for fuckâs sake donât call me that. Iâm not my fucking father.â
âWhat do you want me to call you then?â
âDââ he stopped short. Was that his name any more? Did he get to call himself that after everything was said and done? It was the name he had given himself when Touya died all those years ago, but for some reason, saying it now just seemed wrong.
ââŚTouya.â He finally muttered. âJust Touya.â
You had smiled at him and for some stupid reason, it made his heartrate pick up. Just a little.
âOkay then. Touya it is. Itâs nice to meet you.â You extended your left hand, and he had clumsily fumbled around for a moment before shaking your hand. As soon as your hands touched, and he felt the gentle pressure of your hand in his own, he was struck with the realization that this was the closest to human heâd felt in God knows how long. The other doctors that would come in and out of his cell treated him like he was some kind of feral animal, but you had extended your hand to him without any shred of fear or disgust.Â
Once youâd both settled back into your respective couches, heâd shrugged.
âSo, what now then?â
âNow we talk I guess.â
âAbout what?â
âI think thatâs up to you. The people who brought me in here didnât specify what we have to talk about, but I am supposed to tell you that I canât talk to you about the UA students, politics, current or former heroâs, or the League.â
Fuck. It didnât seem like heâd be getting any answers out of you regarding his former group either.
ââŚfine. Ask away, I guess.â
To his surprise, you shook your head. âCanât do that.â
âWhy not?â
âBecause if Iâm the one doing all the asking, then weâre only going to talk about things from my perspective, which isnât the point. The only way this is going to work is if you talk to me first.â
Thatâd had thrown him through a fucking loop. Ever since he had arrived at the ward, all the doctors had done is talk at him, hoping heâd respond eventually. You may not have been a doctor, but you made for a better conversation then any of them ever did.
ââŚWell⌠Where am I supposed to start?â heâd finally asked, feeling like an idiot. To his immense relief, youâd simply shrugged.
Wherever you want. From the beginning maybe? It might be easier that way.â
He remembered swallowing hard. âAlright⌠from the beginning then.â
He remembers pausing and looking up at you, taking you in. âWhat the hell is your name anyways?â
You told him with a smile, and that was how it started.
For the next year, you came to see him almost every day.
He was taken to the same room where you were always waiting for him without fail at the same time every day. Even though at that point, heâd rather choke than admit it; he began to look forward to your visits â finding that they gave him a reprieve from his mundane existence at the mental ward.
He knew the doctors were always listening and recording everything you talked about during the hour you were together, but he found he didnât care as much as you managed to keep the meetings interesting.
True to your word, you wouldnât talk to him about current political events, or any news related to heroes (he knew better then to ask anyways), but you were open to chatting with him about anything that he wished to talk about, even though conversations were often hard for him to start â but you were kind and patient with him, more so than anyone had ever been to him for the majority of his miserable life.
He found himself growing found of you, the little smiles you give him when heâd sit across from you, bringing a hidden grin to his own lips, though he was quick to push it down, never letting his passive façade drop for more the a few seconds, lest his supervising doctors notice and assume shit, as they tended to do.
You may not have been a licensed doctor, but you helped him more than any of the ones who worked at the medical ward did.
There was a gradual shift in your relationship as time passed. Around the six month mark he could feel it, and he was almost positive you could too.
Your conversations had become more fluid, more casual. You were relaxed as you could be around him, and he found himself opening up more and more to you without being prompted. Most times he liked to keep the conversation light, but every so often, heâd tell you bits and pieces about his childhood â before everything had gone to shit. He never bothered telling you about everything that happened after Sekoto; he didnât want to tell you about the years he spent on the streets, or his time in All For Oneâs medical center with the other children turned Nomuâs, and to his immense relief, you never asked him to.
In return for his openness, you rewarded him with tidbits from your own life growing up. You didnât name anyone specific (he couldnât fault you on that one), but youâd tell him about your childhood and some of the adventures youâd had when you were young, well into your teen years.
He learned that you were born an only child to your parents, raised in a caring household. All the idealistic, quaint things that he had wished from his own family. Heâd told you as much one day, prompting you to laugh softly.
âNot always.â Youâd told him quietly. âI had my own pressure on me when I was growing up. My parents and I fought a lot. We rarely saw eye to eye â they didnât agree with a lot of choices I made when I was younger, but it was okay aside from that.â
âStill sounds like your parents were better than mine.â Heâd told you with a bitter smirk. âMy dadâs an abusive asshole, and my momââ
 It was then he realized that he struggled for words to properly describe her. Broken images from his fire fight with Endeavor had come back to him, and he remembered his motherâs fierce determination to try and cool him down â to save him â even as the heat was melting her flesh. She had thrown herself into the fray to try and stop him from ending it all without a second thought for her own safety. Up until very recently, he wouldâve described his mother as weak and submissive, always bending to his fatherâs whims, even though he knew she didnât have much of a choice back then, but now⌠that description didnât seem to fit her anymore.
ââshe used to be a doormat for dear old dad to walk over when I was a kid⌠but sheâs changed. Sheâs a lot stronger than I remember her being.â
âI saw bits and pieces of your fight with⌠him.â Youâd admitted quietly then. âI saw the aftermath. Your mom, your siblings⌠they all ran in to save you.â
Heâd fallen quiet at that, not truly knowing what to say, but when he looked up again, you had offered him a gentle smile. âIâm sorry if this oversteps a boundary but⌠they never forgot about you Touya. Even if it felt like they did, they never stopped thinking about you.â
For once, he remembered being grateful that his tear ducts were permanently sealed shut, because he suddenly found himself in danger of crying. The tell-tale prickling behind his eyes caused his face to scrunch up as he pushed the thought of his mom and siblings down. He had quickly forced his expression to go back to neutral, and prayed that you hadnât noticed the switch, but if you had, you didnât comment on it â another thing he liked so much about you.Â
Instead, you asked him something that caught him off guard.
âHave you seen them? Your family? Since you were placed here?â
âNo. Didnât think they were allowed to come here. Why?â
âI think⌠maybe you should let them come see you â your mom and siblings I mean. Not you know who. I donât think youâd be doing yourself any favours.â
âWhy?â He remembers pressing you. âHave you seen them?â Youâd shook your head.
âNo, Iâve never met them, but I think it might help if you sit down with them and actually talk to them one on one. You must be getting so bored just talking to me day in and day out.â
âNo!â he remembers saying a little too quickly, causing another one of those knowing smirks to creep up your lips. âIâno, youâre fine. I like talking to you.â
âDo you not want to see them?â you had asked him seriously. âIs it too soon? I understand if youâre not ready. Thatâs a decision you have to make on your own. No one can make it for you.â
â⌠Iâll think about it.â
Because in truth: there were things he wanted to say to them, and conversations he wanted to have.
In the end, it was you who finally convinced him to let his family visit. They had been cleared to see him at the faculty a few months prior, but he had always declined a visit from them, not wanting to see them so soon, since the last time they were all together had resulted in him almost melting his mother, Fuyumi and Natsuo.
There had been strict rules set in place for his familyâs visitations: only one person could see him at a time so he wouldnât get overwhelmed. they werenât allowed to talk about outside events with him, and finally, under no circumstance was Endeavor allowed anywhere near the faculty. He was fine with his mother and siblings coming to see him if they wished, but he didnât want his father to be anywhere near him.
He wasnât ready to see him again so soon. Even after his apologies. He wasnât sure if heâd ever be ready to see his father again.
Thankfully the faculty had minimal difficulty honoring his last wish, as it seemed that Enji didnât want to be around him either â or maybe he was purposefully keeping his distance. Either way, the old bastard wasnât around him, and he figured it was for the best.
Once again you had been right; seeing his family again had been as cathartic as it had been terrifying.
There had been tears (from his family â he still was unable to cry), and there had been a lot of long, overdue heart-to-heart conversations with them of things that shouldâve been said long ago.
It had been hard to sit down and listen to each of his family members without feeling the intense urge to get up and run when the guilt became almost unbearable, but he had forced himself to sit through it all for their sakes (and even his own), and soon he found himself scheduling more visits with his family, as well as seeing you for your daily interactions. Â
You never prompted him to tell you how his now daily visits with his family went, but heâd told you anyways â not what was discussed, that would stay with him â but he had told you about his favourite visit. Hilariously, it had been with Shoto; something he never thought heâd ever say.
Heâd told you about how Shoto had brought him lunch from the outside the day before. It wasnât anything special; just piping hot udon noodles with vegetables in pork broth. They had sat down in silence and eaten together, sharing a meal for the first time in their lives. Nothing had been discussed, and yet everything had been said.
It had been nice. Comfortable, even.
He remembered telling you with a soft smile on his face, and you had pointed it out, causing him to scoff and wave you off.
âItâs better food then the shit they feed me in this prison. Seriously, that was the best meal Iâve had in a long time.â
âWell, once youâre cleared to leave, Iâm sure youâll be able to eat all the udon you want with your brother.â Youâd told him as you tucked your feet under you. Heâd shrugged, brushing you off, but you were ever observant, and had called him out on it.
âDo you not want to go back to them once youâre able to leave this place?â
It was a simple question in theory, but it wasnât easy to answer.
Heâd shrugged again. âDonât really know if I can. Not after everything. I wonât go back if heâs there.â
âI donât think theyâd push so hard for you to come back to them if he was.â You reasoned with him gently. âWhere would you want to go, if not there?â
You and your questions. Most of the time they were harmless, but sometimes they really made him think. Unfortunately, he hadnât had an answer for you at that point, and you had quickly switched the conversation topic.
At that point, heâd be lying if he said he was thinking about what heâd do once he was released. Truth be told he hadnât thought about it much at all. To him, it felt like heâd be in the psychiatric ward for the foreseeable future. He had no real plans for what heâd do once he was out. Maybe he would go back to his old house with his family, or maybe heâd try staking out on his own since that was what he was used to, if he was even allowed to go off on his own. He wasnât sure what heâd be able to do once he was let out â but he certainly wouldnât be free, he knew that much.
Maybe heâd try and reconnect with the League â assuming that any of them were even allowed to be released from custody.
It still bothered him on some level that he had no idea about what happened to them after the dust had settled. He had been carted off the battle field before any of them, after his attempt at going nuclear failed, and had been in and out of the hospital and the physiatrist wing ever since.
When he had first arrived, heâd asked the staff about what had happened to the remainder of the League, but they hadnât told him anything aside from the fact they were alive â but he wasnât sure how much of that he believed.
The only one heâd really trusted in the whole building was you. He knew you werenât allowed to talk to him about any villains or heroes, but maybe if he asked you discreetly, youâd be able to tell him something more than what the medical staff had. He didnât want you to get in trouble, but the curiously was eating away at him.Â
Finally, one day he risked it, and asked you if you knew anything about the fates of his former teammates.
You had paused after heâd voiced his question, and went quiet for a moment, seemingly debating on what you could say to him. For a moment you looked like you were almost about to tell him that you couldnât say anything, but the look on his face must have been desperate enough that you cracked.
You had given the cameras in the room an unreadable look before sighing loudly. âI donât know where they are exactly. I never looked into it, and it isnât public knowledge anyways.â You told him gently. âWhat I do know is that theyâre alive, and theyâre in different treatment centers receiving help. I know they were beaten badly and some of your friends almost died â but as far as I know, theyâre doing okay.â
Youâd then sat straight back up on your chair and loudly proclaimed, âIâm pretty sure Iâm allowed to say that much to him, right? Donât take it out on him or me once weâre done here.â
It wasnât the answer he was hoping for, but at least they were alive, and were in similar situations to him. It made him feel slightly less alone.
When the timer beeped shrilly, signaling that your hour was up, you had stood up to leave just as you always did, but before you could say goodbye to him, heâd quickly lunged forward and grabbed your hand, incasing it with his large cold one.
Youâd stared at him in shock, as heâd never made a move to touch you once in the six months, youâd been visiting him, but before any of the guards could rush in and pull him off, heâd let your hand drop, but not before muttering a quiet âthank youâ under his breath to you, before backing off and allowing the armed guard to escort you out of the room.
He distinctly remembers feeling the pressure of your small hand in his own, but he hadnât been able to feel anything else aside from that. He hated it. He suddenly found himself hating that all of the nerves in his body had been severed, rendering him unable to feel anything. He couldnât feel the texture of your skin against his own, or if your hands were cool or warm like his.
He was forced to admit to himself that for the first time since heâd left the hospital; he wanted to feel something again.
He wanted to feel you. But he couldnât, and it aggravated him more than anything.
There was another thing he remembered distinctly about that day as you were leaving him behind: For the first time since you had started your daily interactions with him; you had looked back.
You had looked at him like you were seeing him in a different light.
He didnât see you for a few weeks after that. When he had been pulled from his cell, and into the room where you usually met him, he was instead greeted by several doctors that had overseen his treatment when he first arrived.
He had asked them where you were, and when they refused to answer his question, he had immediately become hostile and threatening. The walls that were slowly starting to lower since he first met you went straight back up, and Touya turned into Dabi once more.
For the first time in roughly seven months, he lashed out (quirk be damned), and was immediately taken back to his room and put on lockdown. He wasnât allowed visitors, and the only times he was allowed to leave his cell was to go back to the same room with the same doctors who poked and prodded him â asking him increasingly invasive questions, until he shut his mouth and refused to speak to them once more. One last act of defiance on his end since he still didnât have use of his quirk.
When it had become apparent to the doctors and specialists that he refused to speak to any of them, they stopped taking him out altogether. He spent countless hours staring out the tiny window in his room, basking in the weak sunlight and taking in the menial views he could see from his window.
He had wondered where you had gone; if you had been forcefully sent away after he had asked about the League. He hoped that wasnât the case â he liked you, probably more then he should if he was honest with himself â and you were just about the only person he could actually carry on a conversation with in this shitty place.
A few more weeks in solitary had him about to snap. He had reached a point where he was about to try and strike a deal with the overseeing doctors about bringing you back if he answered their shitty questions, when one of the armed guards opened up his door and guested for him to follow.
Once again, he had been taken back to the same observation room, but to his pleasant surprise; you were there waiting for him.
You had beamed at him and before he could think about what he was doing, he had crossed the room towards you in three long strides until he was standing directly in front of you. He had begun to lift his hand up towards you, only for his action to halted by a curt bark from the guard who was still standing at the door. You had shaken your head, motioning to the guard you were fine and sent him on his way. As soon as the door had closed, he rounded on you.
âYou left.â
You had nodded, a small, sad smile on your lips. âI did, yes. Not really by choice though.â
âWhy did you go?â
Youâd barked out a laugh. âIâll be honest, the supervisors werenât too happy with me when I told you about the League. I broke one of their rules, so they told me I had to go for a bit.â
Heâd narrowed his eyes, confused. âBut now youâre back.â
Youâd given him a slight smirk. You turned to sit down on your usual spot on the couch, but this time, instead of having him sit across from you, youâd gestured for him to sit beside you, which heâd done so embarrassingly fast.
âYouâre very stubborn.â Youâd told him with a light laugh. âFrom what I was told, you refused to talk to anyone after I left â heard you got downright nasty with some of the staff, and they put you on probation. They called me a few days ago almost begging me to come back. Guess they felt you made the most progress when you were talking to me.â
Youâd given him a look that was hard for him to read. âWhy did you snap at them?â
He figured there was no point in lying to you â youâd find out somehow. âDidnât know where you went. Fuckers wouldnât tell me, and they kept prying into my shit. Didnât want to talk to them so they put me in solitary.â
He remembers you looking sad at his answer. âI heard you were in there for several weeks. Iâm sorry. I didnât want that to happen to you. Not on my account. I didnât⌠I donât want to be the reason your release got delayed.â
For some reason, it bothered him that you blamed yourself for what happened, and he reached out to gently take hold of your wrist. To his surprise, you hadnât stopped him, or made any move to pull your hand away from his, so he allowed himself to rub circles into the back of your hand with his thumb, even though he couldnât feel it.
âNot your fault. Donât worry about when Iâm getting out. Itâs not like it really matters anyways.â
âDo you know why they were pushing you so much?â youâd asked quietly, still not making any more to remove yourself from his hold. Heâd shook his head and youâd simply leaned into him, damn near making him freeze up in surprise at your boldness.
âThey told me that theyâre planning on releasing you soon â with restrictions of course â but they were thinking that youâd be able to leave here sooner than expected. That was before your outburst, but if youâre willing to just hear them out and answer their questions, itâll help speed up the process.â
âThey seriously think that Iâm fit to send out into society again?â he remembers scoffing, hardly believing what he was hearing. âPretty sure the majority of them think Iâm an irredeemable sociopath.â
âTheyâve seen the way you act around me and your interactions with your family. Youâre not perfect, but youâre trying, and sometimes thatâs all you can do.â
âYou do realize I have killed people, right? Iâve maimed countless others. Theyâre⌠not exactly wrong about me.â
Surprisingly, youâd simply rolled your eyes at his statement, acting like heâd just told you the sky was blue. âOf course I know that Touya. Iâm not overlooking what you did. But theyâyour family â are fighting hard to try and get you another chance, a fresh start. They think you deserve it, and theyâre out there right now, day and night, trying to convince others that you deserve a second chance too.â
You had twisted your hand in his so your palms were kissing, fingers laced together, and he could feel his heart pounding in his ears as you gave him that damn smile of yours.
âYouâre right: the past never dies, but that doesnât mean that it has to be your future as well.â
That simple statement had stunned him. For the first time in a long time, he hadnât had anything to say in response to you.
He remembers fighting an internal battle in himself, trying to find something to say to rebuttal what you were telling him. A part of him understood why his family was fighting for his uncertain future outside the psychiatric ward, but on the other hand⌠he didnât necessarily believe that he deserved it.
What kind of life would he be able to have even if he was allowed to be released? He had never planned on living this long, as morbid as that was. His original goal had been to go out in a fiery hell-blaze with his bastard of a father, but clearly that hadnât happened. He was known a global terrorist, the right-hand to the symbol of fear. His quirk was legendary for all the wrong reasons. How could he possibly be allowed to live on the outside? There was no way the rest of Japan wanted him released, let alone wandering around. What kind of future could he possibly be allowed to dream about? Did he even dare to think about it? Heâd be lying if he said he hadnât thought about what he might do if he was ever allowed out of the ward from time to time, but now that his impending release seemed like more of a possibility; he was starting to think maybe it was better for everyone â and maybe even himself â if he stayed locked away.
Thankfully, you and your perspective nature had picked up his internal struggle. Youâd leaned into him and taken his hand in both of your own, allowing him to breathe again.
âWhat do you want Touya?â
What did he want? Christ he wasnât sure.
âI⌠donât know. Honestly: I never planned on living this long from the get go. Everything has always been decided for me. I kinda figured that this would be the same.â He had admitted quietly, the gentle pressure of your hands on his own, grounding his rapid thoughts.
âDo you think youâre ready to leave soon?â Youâd asked him gently, prompting him to laugh, a bitter, ugly thing, but you hadnât flinched.
âNo.â heâd admitted after a moment, scrunching up his nose. âDunno if thereâs much of a point. Iâll never be free. No matter where I go, Iâll always be a prisoner. What kind of life could I even have outside of here? I donât know how to live any other way aside from how Iâve been living since I escaped that damnââ heâd cut himself off last minute, reminding himself that you didnât know about All For Oneâs hellish medical facility he had woken up in, and he had no plans on telling you about that.
âI justâŚâ he remembered breathing out hard through his nose as he tried to collect his thoughts, focusing on the faint heat he swore he could feel emanating off your hands and leaching into his cold skin. âI donât know what Iâm supposed to do if they decide to let me out. Dunno if I can go back to the old house after everything that happened, and Iâm not sure if I could bring myself to live with my mom or my siblings after⌠well, you saw bits of what happened on TV already.â
He hadnât needed to say it for you to know that he felt a tremendous amount of guilt towards his mother and siblings â especially Fuyumi and Natsuo â for nearly charring them in the heat of battle. He may have held onto so much resentment and anger towards his family for his mistreatment as a child, but he was also self-aware enough to know that it hadnât been their faults, and they had tried to help him in the only ways they knew how.
You had been quiet as you let him vent to you. You hadnât said anything for a while afterwards as you mulled over what heâd told you. Finally, you had nudged his shoulder with your own.
âI think that everything you just told me is proof enough that you deserve a chance to have a life outside of these walls.â You admitted. âWhat you said isnât something an âirredeemable sociopathâ would say. Thatâs something a self-aware person says. Youâre not perfect Touya, but Christ if youâre not trying. I can see it, your mom, sister and brothers see it, and I think a lot of your other doctors are starting to see it too. I think thereâs a point, even if you donât think there is.â
In that moment heâd been convinced that if he could cry, he wouldâve been.
âYeah? Well, thank you sweetheart.â Heâd muttered into your hair, fighting hard with himself to try and keep his voice steady. âI have no fucking idea why youâre so nice to me, but itâs⌠yeah.â
âI think someone needs to treat you like a normal human being, because I donât think anyone did for a long time.â Youâd looked up at him pointedly, but heâd seen traces of something else in your eyes when youâd asked him, âDid they?â
A simple flat look from him had been answer enough for you, and prompted you to squeeze his hand. âDidnât think so.â
Youâd both lapsed into a comfortable silence aside from the steady ticking of the clock, and heâd known without looking up that your time with him was coming to an end. Now, he was dreading it more then he normally wouldâve been. Youâd spoken up again, but what came out of your mouth next, had shocked him.
âWhen youâre released⌠If youâre still unsure of where you want to go afterwards⌠I could⌠if you can clear it with the people overseeing your progress once youâre cleared to leave⌠Maybe⌠you could come stay with me.â
He remembered staring down at you, shocked. âIs that even allowed?â
Youâd shrugged in response. âIâm not sure. I think youâre going to have to initially stay with your family for a while, but if youâre really having a difficult time staying there⌠maybe I could work something out with your family, as long as itâs approved. Itâll probably take a while, but I can try.â
He had a difficult time allowing what you were implying to sink in. How? How could you be so trusting? To even suggest the idea of someone like him staying with you? Forget if it was even possible or not, the fact youâd even offered in the first place was mind-blowing. Before he could think about what he was saying, heâd voiced his thoughts to you:
âIâm sure your parents would be thrilled, you bringing a villain back to your home.â
Youâd simply given him a small smile. âIâm sure they wouldnât like it⌠if they were around that is.â
âOh. They not in the country, orââ
âWeâll go with that.â
Ah. Seemed like he wasnât the only one with secrets. That was fair, you were allowed to have your own. He wouldnât pry.
âSorry.â
âYou have nothing to apologize for. You didnât know.â
Youâd both fallen back into the same silence from before. You were still leaning on him, his hand trapped in your smaller one, yet heâd made no move to remove it from your grasp. Honestly, he was shocked the guards from before hadnât barged into the room and forced him away from you. The close proximity must have been violating a rule of some kind, and yet no one had made any move to separate the two of you, Maybe the medical staff really had been as desperate as youâd claimed, and were willing to let some things slide. Either way, he wasnât complaining.
âYouâre a lot colder than I thought youâd be⌠with your quirk being what it is and all.â
Heâd glanced down at you, only to see you staring down at your intertwined hands. Youâd squeezed the appendage again, prompting him to respond.
âItâs the quirk suppressors. Havenât been able to use my quirk since before I got here. The quacks made it so Iâm hopped up on suppressors around the clock, just in case. Turns out Iâm pretty fucking cold without my flames. Must be from the ice side, but I canât use that either.â
âWell, maybe if you keep being nice, you wonât have to be on them indefinitely.â You had tried to give him a hopeful smile, but he knew what the likelihood of that happening was, and you must have too, since you didnât say anything else on the matter.
The timer had sounded then, signaling the visit was over. Before the guard could come to collect you, heâd quickly pulled his arm out of your grasp, and had wrapped it around you tightly, much to your initial surprise. Heâd begrudgingly let you go so he could help you stand, sending the guard at the door a pointed look as heâd seen him casting an unsure look between himself and you. You hadnât been the least bit bothered by the anxious glances the guard was trying to send you as you stood slowly and sent him one of your little smiles heâd come to expect from you.
âYouâre coming back?â heâd blurted out before he could stop himself.
âIâll see you tomorrow. Same time.â Youâd told him confidently as youâd turned to leave, brushing your knuckles against his. âDonât worry Touya. Iâm not going anywhere.â
For the first time since someone had promised him anything in a very long time, heâd believed you.
In the end, youâd kept your promise.
It had taken close to another year before he was allowed to leave the psychiatric facility (some minor setbacks had pushed his initial release date back), but you had come to see him almost every day at the same time.
Over that time, youâd grown exceptionally close to each other, even more so from when youâd first started visiting him initially. It was almost impossible for him not to grow attached to you â you were his constant source of company, his companion. You were the one person he could tell anything to and not have to worry about being scrutinized for his thoughts. You were his safe space â something heâd never thought heâd ever say about someone else â and once heâd worked out how he saw you; it had been game over. Heâd fallen for you fast and hard before heâd realized it, and by the time he did, itâd had been too late. He was hopelessly and utterly drawn to you, like a moth to a flame.
Surprisingly, youâd felt the same as him.
Youâd openly admitted it to him one day near the end of his stay at the ward â even at the cost of possibly being prevented from seeing him again, since both of you knew you were crossing boundaries you hadnât been meant to cross. Heâd warned you as such, heart pounding in his ears at your confession, but youâd told him that heâd deserved to know with a simple shrug.
âBesides; if you keep up the good behavior and donât have any more outbursts, youâll be out before the end of the year anyways. Even if they donât let me back after this â you can find me on the outside.â Youâd told him matter-of-factly, boldly taking his hand in your own, before sending a shit-eating grin to the cameras set up around the room â knowing the doctors were monitoring every move.
He'd been certain that he couldâve kissed you right there and then.
Surprisingly, the medical staff had allowed you to continue coming back, even though it was apparent both of you cared for each other in ways that crossed professional boundaries. As much as the doctors were against how close the two of you had become, they couldnât deny how far he had progressed since meeting you. He had gone from being the bitter, angry husk of a man, to someone who was still, and would always be forever scorned by the past, but overall, in a better place mentally.
Not too long after heâd sorted out his own feelings for you, heâd made you a surprising request:
He wanted you to meet his mother and siblings.
The meet up had taken almost a month of careful planning on the medical staffâs end, and had initially been met with some hesitation on both sides, but eventually you had agreed to it, and youâd sat down with him and the members of his family who he kept in contact with.
His father hadnât been invited for obvious reasons.
The medical staff had allowed him out of his normal room so he could meet with you and his mother and siblings in one of the spacious sitting rooms normally reserved for guests. A row of floor to ceiling windows lined the far wall, allowing him to get a view of the outside gardens. He remembered the outside weather was slightly overcast that day but warm rays of sunshine would occasionally stream through the gray clouds, as you and his family slowly met with one another under his watchful gaze.
His mother had taken to you almost immediately, as well as Natsuo â both seemingly happy heâd bonded with someone who was relatively normal â Fuyumi and Shoto had taken a little more convincing. Shoto was more curious of you, while Fuyumi had been downright distrustful. Sheâd asked you right off the bat what your intensions were with him, but heâd seen right through her: she was concerned that you were somehow affiliated with the now disbanded League, or maybe even the Paranormal Liberation Front.
Thankfully, you werenât so easily put off by her upfront questioning. You had been calm, almost amused, as you answered her questions; reassuring her that you were in no way affiliated with any criminal organizations, and how you were someone whoâd been presented with an opportunity to help with his rehabilitation, and had taken a leap of faith when no one else would.
âWhy though?â he remembered his sister pressing you. âWhy would you want to help him even after knowing everything heâs done?â
You and him had shared a look then, and heâd known what you were thinking before you said anything.
âI guess I wanted to understand why things went so wrong.â Youâd told her honestly, your shoulder brushing with his as you spoke. âI wanted to get his side of the story â the unscripted one. When the chance to talk to him in person came up, I took it. Everyone deserves to have their story told, and I wanted to hear his.â
âYouâre a lot closer than just a support person to him.â Fuyumi had countered, making him bite the inside of his cheek to keep himself from snapping at her to back off with her invasive questioning, knowing that heâd only land himself in trouble with the medical staff overseeing their visit if he had any outbursts.
To your credit, youâd simply shrugged, totally unbothered by her statement. âYeah, well, that tends to happen when you see someone basically every day for over a year. Same time, same place. For as clueless as he is at normal relationships, your brother can be pretty charming when he wants to be.â
Heâd been pretty sure the only reason you were outright lying to his sister was to try and make him look better in her eyes, but he almost hadnât been able to stop the laugh that threatened to escape past his lips. Almost.
His sister had almost deflated then. Whether it was from disappointment in being unable to shake you, or relief, sheâd simply nodded; finally accepting your answers.
âWell⌠if heâs happy⌠then thatâs all any of us really need, I guess.â
The rest of the visitation had gone incredibly well, not that he was complaining. Plans for future meetings had been put in place, and from there, you and him had gotten into a semi-regular routine of seeing his mother and siblings, or whoever was available to come.
He never wanted to admit it to you, but the visitations you helped arrange with his family made his transition from the psychiatric hospital to his eventually moving into his motherâs new house after heâd been cleared for release, far smoother than he thought it wouldâve been.
Eventually though, he was proven right about his earlier assumptions on living with his family â or rather â his mother and his siblings, again after so long:
He couldnât do it. It felt almost wrong.
Heâd felt like a ghost, wandering up and down the halls, looking at the pictures that lined the hallways of his motherâs house; comprised largely of his younger siblings. Heâd watched as they had slowly grown up in each one, filling him with sense of melancholy. Â
Heâd missed the opportunity to watch them grow up. Theyâd done that without him. That was time he couldnât get back â memories that werenât there.
Heâd felt isolated, and no amount of comfort or reassurance from his mother could change that deep-rooted feeling in him. Not even Natsuoâs constant presence in the home made him feel better, much to his younger brotherâs disappointment, though thankfully he understood.Â
Heâd lasted two months before heâd finally cracked and called your number which youâd given him immediately after he was released. Youâd both stayed in contact, texting every day (under strict monetization from police tech sectors), but you hadnât been able to see him in person since heâd gotten out, as youâd both agreed that it would be better if he focused on trying to settle into his new home. Heâd missed you terribly during that period â not used to not seeing you for such a long period of time.
He'd called you in the dead of night, and asked if your offer to have him come stay with you was still open. From there, youâd gotten in contact with the authorities in charge of his release to try and gain permission for him to come live with you, while he had the difficult task of trying to explain to his family why he couldnât stay with them any longer than heâd already had.
As expected, youâd been met with resistance on both sides, but eventually his overseers had come to an agreement: he would be allowed to live with you, but he always had to have a tracking monitor on at all times, he had to be on constant quirk suppressors, he couldnât leave your building without you and a Pro hero escort of some kind, and finally, he had to attend mandatory therapy sessions at least once a week, as well as call his probation officer weekly and give them updates about what he was doing. If he failed to meet any of the rules set out for him; heâd earn himself a one-way ticket to Tartarus, no questions asked.
As much as heâd wanted to argue some of what they wanted from him, heâd agreed to their stipulations, knowing full-well unless he agreed to their terms, heâd be stuck at his motherâs for the rest of his life, and while he didnât hate living with her and his siblings, it was too awkward for him to try and face them every day, knowing his past atrocities towards the rest of the country and even them, would continue to haunt him for the rest of his days.
He couldnât pretend that he was still the same person he was when heâd burned up at the tender age of thirteen. He was different, older, harder. Things would never be able to go back to what theyâd once been, and honestly: he didnât want them to. He couldnât go back to living with them after such a long time apart, because he had no idea how to co-exist with them normally.
Thankfully, as much as he knew it hurt his mother to hear him express his innermost thoughts, she seemed to understand how he felt the most, and had simply told him that he was always welcome in her home, and she still wanted him to come stay with her from time to time.
âYouâre my son Touya. No matter how old you get or no matter what you do, youâll always be my baby.â Sheâd told him gently just before heâd left her house, wrapping him into a tight hug.
Sometimes he found himself grateful he couldnât cry anymore. Heâd just wished this side of his mother had been more prominent over ten years ago. Maybe things wouldâve turned out differently if it had.
Heâd seen you then for the first time in several months when youâd come to pick him up. Heâd managed to keep himself calm while you spoke to his mother, but secretly he was elated to see you again after months apart. His excitement over seeing you again had probably shown on his face, since youâd made it a point to keep yourself close to him as his brothers had moved his important possessions into your car.
It was as you were talking to his mother; heâd learned that you had moved to a new apartment building some weeks ago, following the news that one of Japanâs former most wanted was coming to stay with you. Naturally, the people in your old building hadnât been pleased, so youâd forced to switch buildings to an apartment located near several hero agencies, where the residents hadnât been as concerned about an ex-super villain moving in, due to the multitude of patrolling heroes in the area. The change had been frustrating for you, but it was the only way heâd be able to stay with you without anyone kicking up too much of a fuss.
Eventually youâd both been on your way back to your apartment with Shoto in tow to help with moving his things into your apartment. Your new place wasnât massive, but it had two bedrooms and a decently sized living room and kitchen. Shoto had helped him set his things up in the spare bedroom before departing, but not before giving you his number with instructions to call him if you ever needed help.
As soon as the door had shut, heâd been on you.
Heâd slammed you up against the door, causing a started yelp to escape your lips, as he grinned down at you wolfishly.
âWhatâs the matter sweetheart? Nervous? Itâs not like we havenât been this close before.â
Youâd turned beet red as you shyly traced your fingers up his chest. âNo, but we certainly havenât done this.â
Heâd grinned as he dipped his head down so you and him were eye to eye. âTell me no then. Tell me you donât want this, that you donât feel the same as me.â
Heâd listened to your breath hitch, watching with delight as the flush deepened on your cheeks. âYou wanted me to talk right? To be open with you about how Iâm feeling? Well, I want you, and I think you want me too.â Â
Youâd looked up at him through your lashes, reaching up to lace your hand around his neck. âI do.â Youâd told him gently, and your simple admission had made up his mind.
âFuck.â Heâd muttered, just before heâd dipped down and captured your lips with his.
The effect had been instantiations. His lips molded with yours, breathing in your air, as his hand cupped your cheek, long fingers curling around the back of your neck to keep you close to him.
Youâd slowly peeled yourself off the door and grabbed at the collar of his shirt, pulling him with you further into the apartment, and into your bedroom. Youâd managed to slam your door shut, just before heâd pushed you onto your bed â his lips never leaving yours as he pressed you further into the mattress.
He couldnât keep his hands off you as you helped him take your clothes off. He could touch you, really touch you the way heâd wanted to for so long now. Nothing was there to hold him back, no cameras, no guards, no medical staff dictating his every move. It was just you and him.
Heâd almost froze when heâd seen youâd laid out bare beneath him, soft and glowing against the pale sunshine streaming in from your bedroom window, warming your frame. Youâd beamed up at him, tracing your hands up his arms.
âYou can touch me.â Youâd told him gently. âI trust you. Just be gentle.â
Gentle. Now that was a word he was certain he didnât have in his vocabulary â but for you, heâd try.
Heâd traced your curves gently, listening intently as your breath hitched, or how a small moan would escape past your lips when he touched a particularly sensitive area. Finally, youâd reached up to tug at the hem of his shirt, but heâd grabbed at your hands, making you pause.
âItâs not⌠Iâm not⌠the scars⌠arenât much better under there.â Heâd tried to warn you. Youâd given him a gentle smile, cupping his cheeks with your hands.
âI donât mind Touya. You know I donât care about all that.â Youâd smoothed your thumbs over the raised skin of his face. âI love you for you. Regardless of what you look like.â
Love. You⌠you loved him, didnât you? Even after everything heâd done while he was an active criminal â youâd somehow grown to love him, while most of the world hated him.
He didnât necessarily think he was deserving of your love, but hell if he was ever going to point that out to you. Heâd almost been tempted to ask you if you were a little bit crazy yourself, but youâd even told him when you had first met that heâd have to find that out for himself.
Maybe you were â just a little bit â but that suited him fine.
A normal girl would never have been able to handle him anyways.
Heâd allowed you to help him out of his clothes then, and to your credit, you hadnât batted an eye at the less than perfect skin covering his body. He may not have been held together by surgical staples anymore, and his body may not have been a mess of burnt patchwork skin like it used to be, but the new skin grafts were raised and patchy â never fully settling properly. It wasnât often that he got self-conscience about how he looked, but you were different.
You had run your hands up and down the length of his body and marveled him like he was some work of art. He didnât think he was, but you clearly saw him differently. Youâd kissed his marred skin, and if heâd been able to cry, he would have.
You had pulled him down onto your bed and climbed on top of him, much to his surprise. Heâd tried to prop himself up, only for you to gently push him back down onto your mattress, giving him a knowing smile all the while.
âLet me take care of you.â Youâd whispered to him softly. âWeâll go slow. Gentle. Itâs just me and you now.â
It wasnât like heâd never fucked someone before, but it had been a while, and it was just that: heâd fucked, never loved. He wasnât sure if he knew any other way when it came to sex, but he knew that he didnât want to be rough with you like heâd been with his past flings, and so he had relinquished control to you.
He had allowed himself to relax into the mattress as youâd hovered above him, lining him up with your entrance. He was already painfully hard, his body reacting to yours as soon as heâd kissed you. Youâd bent down to kiss his throat, relishing how heâd let out a shuddering breath as youâd sunk down onto him. Heâd cursed as your tight heat had enveloped him, leaving him boneless and shaking.
Heâd brought your face down to his to kiss you as you started moving, moaning as you slowly moved up and down on his shaft. Youâd knocked the breath out of his lungs as you whimpered against his lips, still moving your hips against his own.
âShit.â Heâd growled as heâd reached up to wrap an arm around your hips. âFuck baby. You feel so good. Youâre so good for me.â
âYou feel so good.â Youâd sobbed. âI want you â want to make you feel good.â
âYou do. Fuck you do. I want you. I need you.â Heâd grunted as he planted his feet into your bed, pistoning his hips up into your body.
âFuck.â Youâd cried out, as you continued to bounce on his cock. âTouya!â
âIâm here. Fuck Iâm here, with you. I love you.â
Heâd remembered your eyes blowing wide at his confession, just before your body had stiffened up, and your mouth had opened up into a silent scream, as your orgasm had ripped through you â your end triggering his own.
Youâd both stayed there for a moment, trying to regain your breath, before youâd slowly separated yourself from him. He hadnât let you go far â pulling you down to lay beside him, and wrapping himself around you as you nestled into the broad expanse of his chest.
âStay.â He had rasped as he held you close to him, curling around your smaller frame protectively. Heâd known what he was saying was nonsensical â he was in your apartment, you werenât going anywhere, not really â but thankfully, you seemed to understand what he was trying to say without him outright telling you. âDonât go.â
âIâm not going anywhere Touya.â Youâd breathed, placing a kiss on the side of his temple. âYouâre home now. With me.â
That simple sentence had brought him more comfort than heâd experienced in recent memory. Heâd passed out sometime after with you still nude and curled into him, sharing in his warmth.
That had been the best sleep heâd had in years.
After that, heâd fallen into a steady routine of normalcy with you. Youâd go to work, while heâd keep himself entertained during the day. Normally, heâd open up the windows in your living room and perch himself on the couch near them, soaking up the feeling of gentle sunbeams on his face, and watching the outside world go by as he waited for you to return later in the evening. You had set up therapy appointments for him every Thursday, and either you or Shoto would take him depending on your schedules. Life settled down, and the outside world continued on around him, even though his world now consisted of your apartment and what he could see outside from your windows.
It wasnât a coincidence that three pro heroes moved into the building roughly a month after he had moved the last of his menial things into your apartment.
He couldnât say that he was surprised by the less then subtle way the newly reformed hero commission chose to keep an annoyingly close watch on him, but he was still allowed some freedoms with you, so he figured he could keep his jabs to himself for the time being.Â
All and all, life with you was simple easy. For the first time in his life, he could say he was appreciating the little things he never couldâve before his life had turned into a living hell.
For the first time in a very long time, he had hope â something heâd never allowed himself to have before, because what had been the point? He had fully planned on taking himself out in the final fight against Endeavor⌠but life was strange, and it turned out that it had different plans for him.
While he couldnât be sure what those plans were yet, they had brought you to him, and that was enough.
He had you, and in the end, thatâs all that really matteredâ
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The sound of one of his skin care products hitting the floor snaps him out of his reprieve. He blinks, and once again, he is standing in your bathroom with the sink running, halfway through the skin maintenance routine that you forced on him once he came to live with you.Â
He swears under his breath as he bends down to retrieve the plastic tube with his right arm, only to freeze as he suddenly remembers:
His right arm is gone. He tore it clean off in the brawl against his dad.
He finds it surprising how often he forgets he doesnât have both his hands anymore. Half the time he swears that his right arm is still intact because he can feel the damn thing, only to look down and see itâs still gone from mid bicep down. You once called it a âphantom limbâ and he thinks you might be onto something with how often heâll go to do something with his right, only to remind himself the arm doesnât exist anymore.
It doesnât bother him as much as he thought it would. Natsuo had offered to set him up an appointment to get him fitted for a prosthetic, but he hadnât made up his mind on it yet â finding most things pretty manageable even with the lack of his right arm â but he does have days where he wishes he had all of his limbs, and there are certain tasks were having two hands would be more useful than one.
His extensive skin care routine is one of those tasks.
Hilariously, it was one of the conditions of him coming to stay with you initially: for the first time in his life, he was being forced to look after himself.
He had protested initially when you had come back home one day with a plethora of different specialty products for sensitive skin â not seeing the point â but you had insisted that he use them to take care of the newer skin grafts, telling him that if he wanted to continue to stay with you, heâd have to start properly taking care of himself, or you would do it for him.
He had begrudgingly accepted, and he gradually incorporated it into his daily routine. Realistically, he knew he didnât have much to complain about: he didnât have many responsibilities as it was, and you had promised him if he kept up with it, you wouldnât tell his parole officer that you werenât forcing him take his quirk suppressor medication â one of the conditions of his release.
He grins inwardly to himself as he turns the sink off and pats his face dry. You hadnât seen the need to enforce that particular rule, seeing how you were quite confident he wasnât going to burn down your apartment building, and he didnât have any plans to â lest he be forced to return back to his motherâs home.
Besides, after spending over a year feeling unnaturally cold without his quirk, he was in no rush to return to the weak, powerless state the psychiatric ward had left him in. Even if he couldnât use his quirk to itâs full, destructive potential like he used to, just knowing that he still had use of his quirk intact was a comfort to him.
He makes his way out of the bathroom, flicking the light off behind him and, pads over to his side of your shared closet, stripping out of his sleep clothes and pulling on a loose shirt and baggy sweats, before heading out into the small living room.
If his younger self could see how he lives now, heâs sure he wouldâve turned his nose up in disgust before calling him a sell-out, and a gnarled part of him still thinks that to some level, however; when he thinks back to how he used to live on the streets for close to a decade, heâll take the easy, comfy life-style you allow him to live in your home in a heart-beat.
He used to wonder about where he would get his next meal â now his biggest inconvenience is that heâs bored whenever youâre not at home. How the times change.
He turns on the T.V. and sets it to a low volume as he moves into the kitchen and opens the fridge, pulling out a few miscellaneous items and setting them on the counter, before getting to work on prepping the food.
He doesnât eat much, even now his metabolism is still messed up from the years of cumulative damage his body sustained, but he found himself making food for you when he first moved into your apartment as a way to keep himself occupied while you were at work. Most of his cooking attempts consist of cup noodles, and whatever else was easy to make, but every once in a while, heâd put a bit more effort into what he made, so long as you had the ingredients for it.
He curses to himself as he painstakingly prepares an easy meal of miso soup and yaki, his lack of a right arm slowing down his progress. Eventually he finishes his meal prep and puts his creation away as he waits for you to come home, moving to his usual spot by the window on your living room couch, before sitting down and indulging in some mindless reality T.V. show.
He watches the show absentmindedly, barely paying attention to whatâs playing on the screen as he basks in the warm sunlight streaming in from outside. He glances over to his left to see his reflection staring back at him from a hanging mirror across the room, and has to fight the urge to flinch at whatâs staring back at him.
Even after all of the love and tenderness you allowed him to experience while living with you, he still looked rough, and there were days where he felt it more than others. He may not have been able to feel pain in the normal sense, but his body aches constantly and there are additional issues he deals with daily.Â
Heâs painfully aware that he probably doesnât have a lot of time on the earth. Heâs in his late twenties, too damn early to be faced with his own mortality, but he knows thereâs no use in trying to dance around the subject. With his body being what it is, heâd be surprised if he made it to fifty, but he knows better than to voice that out loud. The one-time he had confessed his inner thoughts to you, you had damn near burst into tears, and he found that he couldnât stand to see you like that, so he keeps his morbid thoughts to himself.
The sound of the apartment door opening snaps him out of his depressing reprieve. He looks up, only to see you closing the door to the apartment, hanging your keys up and kicking your shoes off. Â He gets up off the couch and pads over to you, greeting you with a little smile.
âYouâre home early.â
You turn around to face him, smiling. âYeah, I finished early today. Figured Iâd come back and see what you were up to.â
He snorts as he takes your bag from you, setting it down on the small bench you had set up near your front door. âNot much, you know that. Sânot like I can leave the building without you or Shoto escorting me.â
You roll your eyes, gracing him with a teasing smile. âHow is he anyways? You talked to your family at all recently?â
He shrugs. âNot really. You know my phone usage is heavily monitored anyways.â
âI told them that â your mom reached out to me recently â she was hoping to meet up with you for lunch soon, and she hadnât heard from you in a bit.â
âAh. I donât look at my phone very often. Tell her that Iâm down. Iâll reach out at some point.â He nods towards the kitchen. âI made dinner.â
You beam at him. âYou didnât have to do that.â You lean in to press a kiss to the rough skin of his cheek, and he feels his heart speed up in his chest. Even though the physical affection you gave him isnât anything new, itâs still amazing how much of an effect you had on him.
The fire that he keeps buried in his chest flares to life as you turned away from him briefly, but he doesnât let you go far. He snakes an arm around your middle, pulling you back to him, causing you to look up at him.
âIâve missed you.â He mumbles quietly into your hair. You simply wrap your arms around his torso and snuggle into his chest.
âMissed you too.â You tell him quietly. He swallowed thickly, as he allowed his hand to splay further down your back.
âI really missed you; I mean.â
You smile up at him gently, wiggling your eyebrows. âDid you now?â
âMmmm.â
His hummed response causes your grin to grow wider. âWanna show me?â
He doesnât humor you with a response â instead opting to take you by the hand and lead you towards your shared bedroom with teasing grin of his own. He allows you to kick the door closed behind you, before dipping down to bite on the skin of your neck, causing a giggle to escape your lips as his hands wander up and down your frame.
âOff.â He grunts, tugging on your clothes. You smirk at his demand, pulling at the hairs at the nape of his neck to get him to look at you.
âI think you could ask me a bit nicer, right?â
He rolls his eyes at you. âPlease.â
âThatâs better.â You smile sweetly at him, separating yourself from him long enough to shimmy out of your pants and strip out of your shirt, leaving you in your bra and panties before him.
He kisses the back of his teeth as he closes the distance between you, wrapping a muscular arm around you as he captures your lips with his rough ones. He feels you sigh into the kiss as you wrap your arms around his neck.
It wasnât often that he initiated physical contact like this â he not shy by any means, but heâs not used to having such close relations with another person. Heâd been a loner for such a long time after escaping the hospital, and any physical contact he somehow managed to receive from woman heâd met in sketchy bars during those miserable years had never been meaningful or fulfilling. He wasnât used to being wanted.
But you wanted him, and you werenât shy about letting him know just that.
He had no problems letting you remind him of the latter.
He feels your hands travel down from around his neck to the bottom of his shirt, tugging on it. âOff please.â You murmur against his lips, and he separates from you long enough to yank his shirt off, before coming back to embrace your soft body with his own hot one.
He presses you back against the bed, gently pushing you down to lay on the mattress as he hovered above you. He dips back down to seal his lips with yours, as he feels your fingertips trail down the rough skin of his stomach until they reached the waistband of his sweats. He smirks as he feels you undo the drawstrings and push them down his slender hips, pushing them down low enough for his cock to spring free.
âSeems like youâre just as eager as me.â He sniggers as he sits up long enough to shuck them off, giving you a moment to unhook your bra and toss it across the room.
You donât humor him with a response as you sit up to stroke his cock, causing him to hiss as your fingers wrap around his shaft. He lets you have your way for a moment before gently pushing you back down onto the mattress, causing you to look up at him quizzically as he shakes his head.
âNot today babe, let me do the work.â
He feels his heart pound in his ribcage, as a look of realization passes over your pretty features. A smile pulls at your lips as you open your arms and beckons him down to you, which he eagerly accepts. He nips and kisses the skin of your neck as he makes quick work of your panties, causing you to moan softly as he runs his fingers up the length of your dripping slit.
âGod.â He groans as he attacks your lips again. âSo, fucking wet for me. You want me, right?â
âYes Touya.â You breathe against his lips, allowing your fingers to trace patterns into the scarred expanse of his back. âAlways. Always you.â
He feels his destroyed tear ducts sting slightly at the sincerity of your confession. Even though youâve assured him you only want him countless times before, it was something he never quite got used to hearing.
The entirety of his life before you was spent in fire and hardship. Kindness was something foreign to him, and being allowed to be vulnerable with another person was something he never even considered. He never thought heâd live long enough to be able to do so regardless â accepting that he destined to spend what was left of his life alone â and so the thought had never crossed his mind.
But he wasnât alone. Not anymore. Not since you had unexpectedly come into his life.
He had you. Body, mind and soul, he belonged to you. He knew there was no way he would ever have the words to tell you that, so he hoped that he could convey his message clearly enough by showing you just how much you meant to him.
He taps your leg, getting you to wrap your legs around his lean waist, as he lines himself up with your opening. You thread your fingers through his soft white spikes as he slowly begins to push himself into your pussy, causing you to whimper as he begins to stretch your walls out.
âFuck, youâre tight.â He growls as he bullies his way into your tight heat. âYouâre perfect for me. Just you â youâre the only one I want.â
âMe too.â You gasp as you dig your nails into his shoulder to ground yourself. âIâm so glad I got to meet you. S-so glad youâre here with meââ
Your eyes open impossibly, as he suddenly snaps his hips forward and drives himself home deep inside your walls, causing you both to moan. He barely gives you any time to recover before he starts moving. He fists his hand in the sheets beside your head as he focuses his energy into keeping his thrusts deep and strong, just how he knows you like it.
He grins down at you almost sadistically, watching as your eyes roll back from the force of his thrusts. âSâmatter? Donât tell me youâre giving up already?â
âN-no.â you moan as he gives you a particularly hard thrust. âI justâoh, fuck!â you wail as you feel him hit a practically sensitive spot inside you, causing him to grin wickedly.
âEyes on me gorgeous.â
âYouâre mean.â You huff, but center your attention on him regardless, causing him to chuckle, and reward you with another harsh thrust.
âI know.â He practically purrs as he shifts his weight to his knees. He grabs the meat of your hip, and starts pounding you harder than before, making you keen and fist your hands into the sheets as his pelvis brushes up against your clit deliciously.
âFuck, Touya! Iâm gonnaâIâm gonna cum!â you cry out, warning him of your impending release, but it only makes him double down and fuck you harder, determined to see you climax before him.
âYeah? Well, go ahead sweetheart: come on this cock. Câmon, câmon; I know youâre going to, I can feel you squeezing me just right, so do it. Let go for me pretty girl, just let go.â
He feels your walls convulse around him and your back arches slightly off the bed as you climax with a desperate cry at his words. The sight of you coming undone beneath him is so hot it does him in a few strokes later, spilling deep inside your walls with a feral growl of his own.
You both stay like that for a few minutes, fighting to catch your breaths, before you unlock your legs from around his waist, allowing him to pull out of you. He pulls back to grin at the combination of your fluids that leak out from in between your legs, and you roll your eyes. He makes a move to the bathroom to grab you a towel, only for you to shake your head.
âLater.â You murmur, as you pat the spot on the bed next to you. âCome lie with me for a few minutes.â
He laughs quietly at your antics, but obliges your request, and climbs over you to collapse into the vacant space on the bed next to you, and you donât hesitate to move over to him.Â
âGod, you can be relentless sometimes.â You pant as you curl up into his side. He simply snorts at your assessment as he drapes his arm around you protectively.
âMaybe. I am a villain after all sweetheart.â
âYou were.â You manage to grumble as you make yourself comfortable, eventually settling on resting your head on his chest so you can hear his heartbeat. âYouâre not now.â
âYeah, well. Attitude never changed. Surprised you put up with me for as long as you did.â
âYou werenât so bad.â You murmur softly, tracing shapes into the rough skin of his stomach. âIf I thought you were, I wouldnât have come back after we first met.â
âWhy did you come back after the first time anyways? I canât remember if you ever told me.â He suddenly raises his head so heâs looking at you. You meet his blazing turquoise irises with a calm gaze of your own and wink at him teasingly.
âIâm crazy remember?â
âMust be, if you came to see one of Japanâs most wanted almost every day for damn near two years straight. But seriously, why?â
Youâre quiet for a moment before you answer him. When you do, you shift your head slightly on his chest so you can see his face better.
âI suppose itâs because all your rage⌠all your anger towards the injustice of everything youâd gone through up until that point⌠it reminded me of myself, in a way.â You admit softly, causing him to quirk a snowy brow at your confession.
âI couldnât stop thinking about all the things you said on your initial broadcastâ" you continue on before he can ask. ââlike how there were a lot of shitty things about hero society you werenât wrong about. Honestly, for a long time there, I felt just as pissed off with some of those so-called âProâsâ as you. Some of them were only doing it for the money and fame, you could tell.â You exhale through your nose.
âBut, on the other hand, there were so many good things happening to change those problems that you didnât see because you were on the outsider.â You fall silent for a moment before adding:
âYou just seemed so hurt, so raw with everything you were saying. I told myself there and then, if I ever got the opportunity to meet you, Iâd show you not everything is as bad as it seemed. Never thought Iâd get the chance honestly, and yet, one day, the opportunity to meet you face to face practically dropped into my lap. How could I not take the offer?â
âWas I what youâd thought Iâd be?â he finds himself asking you, not completely sure if he wants to know the answer. You simply send him one of your glowing smiles that sends tingles down to his stomach.
âNo, you were better.â
He snorts, shifting his arm so heâs tracing his warm fingertips up and down your nude body. âYou donât have to lie to me.â
âIâm serious. Even now, youâre doing so much better with handling everything then I thought you would. Youâre resilient, and you adapt when you need to, but youâve definitely changed⌠in a good way. Youâre not as hateful anymore⌠youâre calmer, more accepting.â
âYeah well, the shrinks have you to thank for that. Far as Iâm concerned, they donât do anything. I just see them so I can stay with you.â He grumbles, prompting you to giggle, before shifting you so youâre lying on your sides, facing each other.
He tucks a loose strand of hair behind your ear, inwardly softening as he watches you lean into his warm touch, before dropping his hand back down in between your bodies.
âI know Iâm not very good at these sorts of things, but⌠you know I love you, right?â
Heâs hopeful that you understand. He doesnât say it often to you, and he knows he probably should, but even after all the time heâs spent with you, that involves you showing him what a healthy relationship looks like, itâs still not an easy thing for him to say. Hell, he has a hard enough time saying it to his own mother, let alone anyone else.
Heâll probably always have a difficult time admitting it. Love is an emotion heâs never had a good understanding of, seeing how it was so sked for him a s a child. Even now, the concept is a foreign one for him to understand, but thankfully, you seem to be more aware of this than anyone else.
You find his hand with one of your own and lace your fingers together, squeezing it tightly.
âI know Touya. Iâve always known.â
FIN
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Welcome to the fifth annual installment of Visions of Temptation, a multifandom kinktober prompt list/creation challenge! âşUnder the cut you will find both lists written down in blank format. Youâll also find a short explanation of some of the lesser-known kinks.
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âş Unlike most of my challenges, this one won't have a masterlist featuring the works created for it, meaning that it won't have a deadline either - feel free to complete it at your own pace.
âş About credit: Make sure to mention the challenge itself and its creator. Iâd be happy to see your works, so please tag me when using my list here on tumblr! Posting to other sites is fine, as long as you credit me :) Â
âşIn order for us to find each other's works and appreciate them, please make sure to use the tag " #visions of temptation 2024 " !
âşDon't hesitate to reach out if you have a question! My askbox is always open!
âşRemember to have fun and not stress over this really long challenge! â¤
targeted fandoms: Ikeseries (Ikemen Villains; Ikemen Prince; Ikemen Vampire; Ikemen Sengoku + other cybird games); Love and Deepspace; Tears of Themis; Obey me!; Mr. Love: Queen's Choice; Count of Darkness; Voltage games; Mystic Messenger; Lovebrush Chronicles; Light and Night + all other mobile/console otome you can think of. Remember, this is just the focus of the challenge - you can write for any fandom at all!
Depending on how much free time i've got on my hands, I'll also be checking out your works and reblogging them on my main blog, @kissmetwicekissmedeadly - under the tag "#vot '24 reblogs" :)
If you're wondering if I'm taking requests for my challenge, make sure to check my blog beforehand. At the moment of posting this, requests are closed - but that might change in the future.
âââ PROMPTS
⺠both lists in blank format + handy explanation of some of the kinks under the cut.
Happy creating, everyone and may you have a great October! â¤
KINK LIST:
 Porn Actors AU  |  Anonymous Sex/One-night Stand
 Gloryholes  | Handjobs/Fingering
 Phone sex  | Guided TouchingÂ
 Orgasm Control |  Bondage/Shibari
 Make up Sex  |  Mirror Sex
 Feather Play  | Coming Untouched
 Sensory Deprivation  |  Sex Toys/Object Insertion
 Workplace Sex  | Sex in a VehicleÂ
 Choking/Breath play  | Dacryphilia
 Accidental Stimulation  | Body Part WorshipÂ
 Wet Dreams  | Sexual Fantasy
 First Times  | Role Reversal
 Fetish Clothing & Accessories |  Striptease
 Bathroom sex  |  Outdoor/Public sex
 Discipline & Punishment | Degradation/Praise KinkÂ
 Nipple Orgasms  | Lactation/Pregnant sexÂ
 Blade/Gun Play  | Spanking/Impact playÂ
 Intoxication/Hypnosis/Aphrodisiacs  |  Dry Humping
 Watersports  | BeggingÂ
 Food Play  |  Come Play
 Anal Sex/Pegging |  Size Difference
 Omegaverse/Breeding  | PetplayÂ
 Massages  | Temperature PlayÂ
 Facesitting  |  Deepthroating
 Voyeurism/Exhibitionism  | Getting CaughtÂ
 Spitroasting  | Double PenetrationÂ
 Casual Sex/FWB | Switching PartnersÂ
 Biting/Marking  | Jealousy/PossessivenessÂ
 Sex Games/Dares  | Trying New Positions    Â
 Cockwarming/Somnophilia  | Foreplay/Aftercare focus
Non-human characters/traits |Â Sexual RoleplayÂ
DIALOGUE LIST:
 "I have no plans of stopping anytime soon."
"You have to say it. Use your words."
"See this? It's going to go inside you."
"Hush now. I'm only trying to help you."
"Let's see how long you can last."
"You know what happens when you do that."
"Maybe I should be punished?"
"Look at you, you're taking it so well."
 "We can go, or we can stay here and fuck."
"And here I thought you were an innocent one."
"Go on, put it in yourself."
"Where do you want me to cum?"
"Don't tease now. Be nice."
"I want to watch you come just from this."
"Beg me to be gentle."
"You thought you could get away with seducing me?"
"One more orgasm and I'll untie you."
"You look good like that. Thoroughly loved."
"I thought this is what you wanted?"
"I love that you're only making this erotic face for me."
"Poor thing, you're barely standing on your legs."
"Here, bite into this. Since you can't stay quiet."
"That's it, you're doing such a good job."
"I can't stand a second more of not being inside you."
"Did the risk turn you on so much?"
"Oh, you'll regret letting me know that you like this."
"Come here. I'll make it all better."
"You're breathtaking. It makes me desire you so much."
"Seems like we can't keep our hands to ourselves."
"You feel so good. I don't ever want to stop."
"I've got much more in store for you."
some prompts explained...
Gloryholes - A person inserting their sexual organ through a hole in the wall with the intention to be pleasured from the other side.
Anonymous sex - Here's an idea: masquerade balls.
Orgasm Control - Can include Edging, Forced Orgasms, Orgasm denial.
Make up sex - Sex after an argument.
Mirror sex - Sex in front of a mirror.
Sensory Deprivation - Blocking stimuli from one or more of the senses. Example - Blindfolds.
Dacryphilia - Being turned on by your partner crying during sex.
Sexual Fantasy - Sharing/being made to share about a sexual fantasy, masturbating to a sexual fantasy, or helping your partner live out a sexual fantasy.
Role reversal - Swapping the giving and receiving role during intercourse.
Voyeurism - secretly watching someone participate in sexual activities or do something private and intimate like taking off their clothes.
Watersports - Everything involving pee. Holding it in, Golden showers, etc.
Come play - Anything to do with a partner's cum, for example Come marking.
Spitroasting - A three-way sex act in which a person is penetrated orally and anally/vaginally at the same time.
Omegaverse - A kink-trope-universe build around a hierarchy of biological roles: alphas>betas>omegas.
Somnophilia - Intercourse while a sexual partner is asleep.
FWB - Friends with benefits.
Switching partners - Two or more couples having intercourse at the same time, swapping/switching their partners.
Impact play - Slapping a sexual partner, could be across the face or on their rear.
Sexual roleplay - doctor/patient play, boss/employee play, all kinds of play pretend.
Hope these could be of help! Remember, you can always come ask if something's unclear. Once again, happy creating! â¤
#ikemen villains#ikevil#ikemen prince#ikepri#ikemen vampire#ikevamp#ikemen sengoku#ikesen#love and deepspace#lads#otome#otome games#tears of themis#lovebrush chronicles#tot#mystic messenger#obey me!#obey me shall we date#ikemen series#ikeseries#court of darkness#light and night#voltage games#kinktober#kinktober 2024#writing challenge#writing prompts
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Fan-translation Plagiarism for DM Vol.1
I've noticed similarities between a Death Mark manga translation that is currently being worked on by @lamentations-lighthouse (aris on Discord) and a translation done by @kasmis, posted on Tumblr in 2022.
Enough similarities that I suspect kasmis' existing translation has been lifted directly in parts of their translation. I spoke with kasmis about it and sheâs aware of the situation and shared some more info from her side.
You can view kasmis' original translation here. On the first page, you can see the disclaimer about working with an existing scanlation group with plans to publicly list the final version on an ad-free manga sharing site (added once she was made aware of the situation). I wonât go over all similarities, but this second translation in question is available on a public Discord and can be compared there. I wanted to point out three instances that I think are particularly noticeable, but I encourage anyone who is curious to look for themselves.
Pictures & Evidence under the cut.
1st comparison: translation notes
The translation notes shared between the two versions regarding the way characters speak is similar both in content and flow. They also both come at the end of Chapter 2.
kasmis' translation:
other translation:
I think this is also worth mentioning considering a comment made by lamentations-lighthouse in their Discord where they make a very blatant error determining who is speaking during a panel in a Vol 2 extra, when they spent an entire translatorâs note going over how the characters talk. They incorrectly assume Banshee is the speaker, when itâs obvious with a working knowledge of Japanese that the speaker is female and likely Yasuoka, the only woman in the panel (again, aris is lamentations-lighthouse, Kiu is the current editor who is not on Tumblr):
2nd comparison: "guess we're in the same boat"
One of the lines from Chapter 2 is lifted directly from kasmis' translation. This isn't a matter of translating the same material and coming to a similar conclusion, as the original Japanese line is completely different.
In the bottom left corner, Mashita uses the expression "č
šăăăă" when talking about the Mark. His line (very) literally translated would be something like "Looks like I should prepare for the worst, too"
kasmis has gone on record with me saying she took some creative liberty when translating this bubble, using it as a callback to a line of his from the actual game (the scene from the car ride back to the mansion where they're having this same conversation). Additionally, she was very clear in stating this change was purposefully made to act as an indicator of if someone was using her translation without her permission, as a translation not referencing hers would likely translate it differently. In her words: itâs a phrase that doesnât get spit out neatly when put through machine translation, but also is easily understandable to anyone using a dictionary for reference. The term for âbeing in the same boatâ as someone is entirely different (ä¸éŁćç) and is not a logical conclusion when going solely based off the text. Here is a link to the site in the second screenshot showing an explanation of this phrase by native Japanese speakers offering English advice. The phrase has the same translation when entered into a Japanese dictionary as well.
kasmis initially didn't translate the line such a way either. Here is a comparison from her first draft (which was copy-pasted from her individual chapter translations she did back in early 2021) and the eventual change later that same year. The part in question is underlined:
Here's the comparison between the most recent version of her translation and the other translation:
Even if this group were employing a similar strategy, the chances of the "indicator" line being exactly the same is hard to believe.
3rd comparison: XX/XX/199X
This observation is somewhat minor, but the date format used throughout Chapter 2 is the exact same one used by kasmis in her translation, just with the order switched around. In the raws, the dates are written as "O (Month) X (Day)," aka censored placeholders for month and day, with no mention of the year. kasmis stated she decided to use the 199X/XX/XX format to better relay some of the info from the game (the year 199X being mentioned in the diary seen after the final confrontation). While this team may be doing the same, it's odd how it's exactly the same.
Raws for comparison:
kasmis' translation:
other translation:
Public Bashing of kasmis and Proof of Knowledge of Her Translation
kasmis was contacted by @buffaloborgine about using her translation in their project, but she stated she was working with a separate group and that she did not give them permission to use any of her translation in their own project. This user is currently working on a translation of Volume 2 of the manga. For transparency, in the 3 day gap between messages seen below, buffaloborgine joined lamentations-lighthouse and Kiuâs group, so the relationship was not established initially. buffaloborgine did not disclose however they were collaborating/in contact with lamentations-lighthouse, when in fact both are now moderators in the discord where the new translation is being uploaded. kasmis followed up with buffaloborgine once she was made aware of this connection. Below are her initial answer to the offer (note dates) and the follow-up messages (screenshots taken on 4/24):
buffaloborgine discussed their conversation in the Discord server (screenshots taken on 4/24):
They later followed up complaining about kasmisâ reply publicly in the Discord while omitting similar relevant details (screenshots taken on 4/24):
Again, note that kasmisâ reply was only 3 days after this initial explanation, not 1-2 weeks as they originally stated. Though this gap doesn't really need an explanation in my opinion, kasmis agreed to allow me to share that she was in fact in preparation for a medical procedure and was not available to answer messages at the time. She sent her follow up message regarding lamentations-lighthouse's translation because I informed her of buffaloborgine's presence in the Discord server.
The messages from buffaloborgine to kasmis also appear to show the team had direct knowledge of her existing translation, as the editor in question is Kiu. At no point did any individual besides buffaloborgine reach out to her about potentially collaborating or using her translation in any way. aris/lamentations-lighthouse claimed to have no knowledge of the translation and similarly shamed kasmis in their public (reiterating this fact) Discord, where all of these messages are available to anyone who joins (screenshot taken on 4/24):
For this reason kasmis decided not to reach out to lamentations-lighthouse directly as they already publicly denied knowing anything about her translation.
I think itâs also worth pointing out, since the SH Reddit has been mentioned, that kasmis shared her translation there as well last year. The comment can be found here. As a relatively inactive subreddit, this post and her comment are not hard to find.
If anyone mentioned in this post wants to go on record in response, something as simple as posting the version history from their working draft (as seen in kasmisâ Google Docs screenshots, for example) to show that they aren't simply modifying her existing translation could help clear up any confusion. lamentations-lighthouse stated in the Discord that they use Google Docs to communicate with their editor, so showing their process should be fairly simple (screenshot taken on 4/23):
Disclaimer: kasmis and I are friends and she provided input and helped write parts of this post. This post is not meant to be an outright accusation, nor is it implying that lamentations-lighthouseâs translation is a one-to-one copy of kasmisâ. I wanted to draw attention to the similarities between the two translations, kasmisâ experience, and the available information we have. All screenshots and images shared here are unedited besides cropping, redacting the information from third parties, and marking relevant points. Time stamps marked as âtodayâ have the associated date attached to them in the description. The relevant Discord server is publicly available at the time of posting and all conversations screenshotted are available in public channels.
#death mark#spirit hunter death mark#death mark 2#shibito magire#kazuo yashiki#satoru mashita#spirit hunter series#shiin#death mark manga#hanahiko death mark
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LBFAD is the most inspiring series I have ever watched and here is whyâŚ
Although Love Between Fairy and Devil (LBFAD) only caught my eye on Netflix in December 2023, Iâm so glad it did and that I didnât miss out on this stunning and thought-provoking masterpiece. It is the most inspiring series I have ever watched for many reasons. Aesthetically, I found the beautiful 4K production quality as enjoyable as high-budget productions such as Lord of the Rings and Game of Thrones. I frequently felt the need to pause and admire the well-designed sets, and exquisitely detailed costumes of even minor characters. The acting is superb across the board, and the leads act and respond very naturally to each other. The long hair of male characters is especially well-done, falling naturally with subtle highlights and looks real. All these details breathe life into this fantasy world and make it very realistic.
Every line of each song from the phenomenal OST is brimming with hidden meanings related to the series, adding lots of additional context! The artwork created for the opening and ending sequences is also full of meaning (minor spoilers ahead). Take, for example, the last picture where the OTP are sitting on a boat in the Oblivion River, the junction between their two tribes, the male lead has removed his crown and hence his responsibilities at least for the moment, and they are watching the sunrise together for the rest of eternity after the close of the series (sigh!)
Every single character of note in the series goes through profound character growth, the only exception being the abstract ultimate villain Taisui. Even the secondary villains and dictator of Shuiyuntian have grown and changed their perceptions by the end. It made me believe that anyone is capable of opening their minds and bettering themselves. Both lead and side characters are repeatedly faced with overwhelmingly bleak choices and heartbreaking challenges, especially in the last ten episodes. Yet every time, they show courage, sacrifice and selfless love that is amazing and very inspiring.
It is rare to find this kind of poignance in any production. I used to find Game of Thrones inspiring due to Daenerys freeing the world of slaveryâŚuntil Season 8 happened. LBFAD tops Game of Thrones in this regard by freeing two distinct realms from conflict. The actions of the OTP break through a hundred millenia of mutual hatred and relentless conflict between their people with no end in sight, to create a new dawn of lasting peace. LBFAD reminds me of Lord of the Rings in terms of its cinematographic beauty and themes of never losing hope and prevailing over overwhelming odds. However, the stronger focus of LBFAD on the lead coupleâs development and on creating multidimensional villains and side characters made it, for me, more engaging to watch.
The world-building and depth of characters has many layers in LBFAD, to the extent that much of the context was clear to me only in retrospect on rewatching the series and on deep reflection. The fast pace of the series also means that a lot of action occurs off-screen in between scenes. There are no filler scenes, there is no room for them. Every scene adds new plot twists and depth to characters, making the series highly addictive.
I am not a native mandarin speaker, and came to realise how beautiful the language is only on encountering LBFAD and its OST. It inspired me to learn mandarin, which makes rewatching the series highly enjoyable as I am able to pick up new nuances. Iâm embarrassed to be late to watch LBFAD after its release in August 2022, but have thoroughly enjoyed the posts on Tumblr from fellow fans, including enthralling artwork, meta and links to fanfiction. It has encouraged me to post on Tumblr myself. I have started to post my interpretations of artwork, mandarin names, xianxia concepts, and story-format reflections on each episode. I am thrilled to be a part of this wonderful community!
Links to some of my other LBFAD articles:
Character Names in LBFAD - Meaning and Significance
Location Names in LBFAD - Meaning and Significance
LBFAD Opening Artwork - Hidden Meanings
Here is a link to my episode 1 review (contains spoilers). All of my LBFAD articles and episode reviews can be viewed with the tag #lbfad reflections (hyperlinked) and the table of contents to these is here.
#lbfad#love between fairy and devil#canglan jue#clj#dongfang qingcang#dfqc#xiao lanhua#xlh#cdrama#cang lan jue#lbfad meta#lbfd#cdramasource#asiandramasource#asiandramanet#dylan wang#wang hedi#yu shuxin#esther yu#lbfad reflections
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ok i've seen some posts about the tumblr alternative cohost but none that were actually helpful so!
(disclaimer: i am very new to this website. users who have been there longer can and should chime in with additions and/or corrections)
Cohost Introduction Post
What is cohost?
Cohost is a fledgling website that is essentially a tumblr clone, but with its own culture and site-specific features. It is also very much a work in progress. You are encouraged to talk in the cohost forum to suggest changes for devs, report bugs, and upvote other people's suggestions. This website WILL grow and change over time. And as such, I do not know if/when the information I share here will be outdated. Edit: To answer an ask I received, anyone can join cohost without an invite. It used to be invite-only. It is not this way anymore.
Is "adult content" allowed there?
Yes. Cohost is not on the app store, meaning that it is not subject to Apple's specifications. You can post illustrations, writing, and photographs (cohost does not support any video formats at this time, just gifs). Cohost has an elaborate filtering and trigger warning system (moreso than tumblr), and you can disable adult content for your entire account or for individual tags. I actually don't engage with the adult content at all on there. Visual CSEM (both real and fictional) is specifically forbidden (although frankly I think the guidelines could be stricter wrt written content. Still, does seem to handle this better than AO3 does, going as far to say that written content about real minors is forbidden.)
How are minors protected?
The minimum age to join cohost is 16, and requires proof of parental permission to join. Users who are under 18 are automatically age-gated and cannot view adult content.
If cohost isn't on the app store, how is it used?
You can, of course, use cohost on a computer, but it is designed with mobile in mind. Opening the website on any IOS browser, clicking "share", and then "add to home screen" will install an app for you to use. The same can be done on an android. There is a guide here.
How does cohost work?
First, you create an account. Then you wait for approximately two days (read: weekdays) for the account to be activated. This is done to prevent spam bots. In the meantime, edit your profile. List some interests, your pronouns, your other social media links. Give yourself an icon. Note: icon and banner file sizes are small. You may need to shrink and compress images.
After the two days are up, make your first post! Write a basic introduction (with what you feel comfortable you feel sharing) and list some interests you like, maybe some hobbies, media, etc. And then tag this post with "#welcome to cohost". This will let existing members know that someone new has joined, and they may initiate conversation and/or follow you.
Next, go to the search and type in "The Cohost Global Feed" and click on the tag. Bookmark this tag. This is essentially one giant community space where you can find random users. (There is currently some discourse on the website as to whether this tag existing is a "bad thing" or not because "cohost isn't supposed to have a global tag". Just ignore that lol). Next, go back to search and type in things you like. TV shows, maybe. Video games. Music. Anything. See if people have posted in the tags. Follow them. Comment on their stuff. Click "like" to bookmark the post if you want to.
Most crucially, make sure that you bookmark the actual tag so you can look in that tag again later without having to manually type it each and every time. Also, you get a feed called "bookmarked tags" which allows you to scroll through all of them at once, which replaces the "for you" feature other websites have.
You can "share" a post (called "rebug" in user slang) which serves the same purpose as a reblog on tumblr. In a rebug, you can add your own tags or comment in the body of the post. Cohost users do not talk in tags as much as tumblr users - they tend to prefer to speak in the body of a rebug, or in the comment section (replies). At this time, you cannot view all reblogs. But you can view all comments in the comment section. Any post that is rebugged will preserve the tags of the OP, with any additional tags added being attributed to you. Rebugs are named after the website mascot Eggbug, a purple bee-like insect.
Posts are called "chosts" - and shitposting is called "shitchosting." Two examples of global shitposting tags are "#css crimes" - which is when a person does goofy things with the HTML/CSS editor to make colorful text, fake chat windows, and such - and "#shitchosting" which is a general shitposting tag. I've also seen people use tags like "#random".
If a post makes you laugh, check out the OP's profile. See if they post frequently, and if you have any common interests. If you realize you want to block or mute someone instead, you can.
You can send asks just like on tumblr, but your inbox must be manually opened first. So remember to do that.
How do I look at my own blog?
This is one of my gripes about the UI. You would think, intuitively, you would click here (at the top of the screen). But you would be wrong!
It is ACTUALLY under the sidebar menu, called "Profile." And I'm not the only one to to complain about this. (To get back to your dashboard, by the way, you click on the cohost logo.)
Are there sideblogs?
Yes! Each sidepage (sideblog) has its OWN set of likes AND followed pages (blogs). This allows you to easily switch between multiple sets of dashboards. A lot of users use this to have a SFW dashboard and an adult content dashboard. But it works like tumblr, too. You can have a side page/dashboard for whatever you'd like. Maybe one of your pages is for programming. Maybe another is for photography. You switch between your pages by clicking the arrow next to your icon/username at the top of the screen. ("Ohhhhh.... THAT'S what that's for.")
What's the userbase on there like?
Mostly programmers. Trans people. Furry artists. Plural systems. Furry trans plural programmers. Certainly a lot of shitposters. The website is trans-run and, as such, has zero tolerance for TERFs. Everyone seems pretty friendly from what I can tell. And there's very much a culture of "follow someone randomly based on their vibes" that doesn't happen as much on tumblr. Tumblr is more like "I really like this TV show, I'm going to follow 40 blogs about just this interest." Because the cohost community is so much smaller, there is a lot less content overall, especially fandom content. You can't follow 40 fandom pages because your fandom tag has a total of 3 posts, all made by one person approximately a year ago (well. for me anyway).
Cohost, then, actually has much more in common with real-life socialization. You seek out people with interests that may be very different from your own, and to find a common interest is very exciting! Unlike tumblr, you are encouraged to tag as much as possible. This allows your posts to be seen, to find common interests. And, of course, don't forget to look in "#Welcome To Cohost" too! You may find some new friends there.
What file formats can I post in?
Currently, I am aware of basic image formats working (like jpeg, png) animated gifs, and mp3s. You currently cannot upload videos to cohost. I believe the reason is not related to server costs, but rather as a way to curb the uploading of copyrighted content.
How does cohost make money?
There are no ads, and yet, as far as I am aware, cohost is operating comfortably. There is, however, an entirely optional "cohost plus" that is $5 USD a month. Currently, there are a few perks, but not enough to convince me.
What if I think something about cohost should change?
Cohost has a forum where users can submit ideas for features and other users can discuss/upvote those ideas.
Here is a list of posts made for newcomers to read:
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* don't look now, but i lost my shoe.
(Undertale Sans x Reader)
Chapter One: * what's with these homies, dissin' my girl?
[Index | Next]
Notice:
(This story is nearly 5 years old, and though it doesn't show my best work, I decided to post it, just because I stopped it at chapter 18, when there were only 2 more chapters left to finish it. So... I'm gonna give it another shot â making minor edits to make the plot less dramatic and angsty, lol.)
(***Also, since Tumblr has a more limited format: italic texts are from you, the reader, and bold texts are from others.)
⢠⢠⢠⢠â˘
You've changed.
The best thing your boss did was to give you that warning.
You shouldn't keep working for the law if you're just gonna be a traitor.
How am I a traitor?
You work 9 to 5, sometimes 8 to 6, for the benefit of monsters.
Now, all of a sudden, our sex life goes down the drain.
I haven't slept with you since you got that promotion, and that was two whole months ago.
I'm supposed to be your husband, but you've left me in the dry.
I'm tired.
And I refuse to sleep with someone who won't support me in my new job.
Or should I remind you said I wasn't a real detective?
That my degree's 'worth shit', simply because of the field I'm working in these days?
               The rest is an ongoing, fruitless conversation you can't bother yourself with.
               Through reading those texts for what has to be the twentieth time today, you sigh, hiccup, and close your eyes tight, lifting your face slightly to avoid letting tears fall.Â
               Barely two hours are left until he comes home to drop off your child, and the mere thought that you have to sleep with him five hours after that makes your stomach twist and churn. You don't want to imagine him naked: panting, heavy, and on top of you again, doing whatever he pleases with little regards to your own limits. Nausea takes over â violent, making you open your eyes and suppress a gag.
               You really, really don't want anything to do with him anymore.
               Yet, he insists you should remain married until your child reaches their eighteenth birthday.
               âAt least wait until they're grown up,â he said. âCuz what's six more years? Be honest with me.â Then, he chuckled. âAs ugly as you frown when you see me, I doubt you hate me that much.â
               That had been a year ago.
               Would you really have to wait five more years until your freedom?
               The thought sends chills down your spine.
               While he was a good father, that adjective didn't really fit next to husband.Â
               At the beginning of your marriage, yes â he was the best spouse you could ask for.
               Now?
               You'd rather eat drywall than have to spend a single second near him â without your child around, of course.
               With your newest agreement, it felt more as if your husband were a client, his payment being not making your life hell, and your service what he claimed was something a wife should be willing to give twenty-four seven.
               You shake your head and search for a distraction amongst the people surrounding the bar, aware you can only end up worse if you continue to dwell on the subject. The air presses down on you hot and heavy, a feeling that only increases the more time you stay seated without doing anything for your growing aches. Your sole companion is your mind when you realize you're too overcome with emotions to talk to someone without scaring them off. Chatter drowns out coherent thinking and sensory overload begins to show by how difficult breathing becomes. Seeking an escape route, you hold the bartender back with a raised hand and an 'excuse me'. Then, you ask him for some bottled water â the only kind he could touch willingly. Small embers flutter around the air as he turns around, leaving you alone with burning cheeks and a pounding headache.Â
               Groaning, you pinch the bridge of your nose and blink through your blurry vision. Then, you adjust your glasses â despite knowing the excess shots have pretty much screwed you over already. The hour marked on your phone surfaces a sigh. How fast time seems to be going makes you notice you currently only have around an hour left before your husband arrives with your child. They would be staying with you while he went off to work, and the least you wanted was to look washed up for his arrival.
               "need somethin' else, pal?"
               You jolt at the new voice, deep and hearty.
               Reluctantly, you cast your gaze up to see a skeleton monster standing behind the counter, now glossy with polish. His face is tough to make out with the blurriness, yet you can tell he's looking at you. From the way he stands behind the counter and the stuffy look his suit gives off with its pristine and exaggerated formality, you figure he's a new employee. His newbie appearance doesn't erase the warm and welcoming aura most bartenders appear to carry by default, however. Instead, it makes his smile and words more genuine in his approach.
               It takes you a while to respond aside from shaking your head â mind hazy and disoriented. You thank him and sweep the water bottle off the counter, then turn the lid open, breathe in deep, and take a series of long, greedy gulps. Finally, you set it back down, more than half of it already gone.
               One more screw up, and you were out of your job at the law department for good.
               It doesn't help that you're currently hanging out at a place strictly and utterly forbidden by your boss: a hole-in-the-wall bar and grill establishment open to all, kept family-friendly during the day and becoming more daring during the night. It has been long since you ever drank alcohol of any sort, and it's beginning to show. You can hardly sit without tumbling pitifully to the side.
               âhey.â
               You're snapped back toward reality through the feeling of someone resting their arms over the counter, facing you and waiting for your return.Â
               You frown and look up from the water bottle to see the same skeleton â his previous stuffy appearance appearing more natural now that he's taken off his tie and left two of the shirt's buttons unfastened.
               "iâm no expert on humans, but you look like you could use someone to talk to."
               You feel hazy again.
               And whether due to the drinks or the heat, you're not too certain of.
               But â right now â you're positive about one thing.Â
               âU- UmâŚâ
               As you wipe a tear off your cheek and burst out half a sob and half a laugh, you realize you really could use someone to talk to.
               âThank you.â
#sans x reader#reader insert#undertale fanfiction#ao3 fanfic#weezer reference#female reader#chubby reader#detective reader#long fic#weekly updates#undertale x reader#sans undertale#classic sans#angst and fluff#slow burn
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Social media comparison
Alright. I've tried different new/alternative platforms lately in hope to find something I really liked, and there are very promising ones. I didn't try everything, of course, but this is a kind of overview of my journey so far? Or just my thoughts on the matter.
I've tried Pillowfort, Bluesky, Mastodon (didn't last long enough to have much of an opinion, it simply didn't click), Dreamwidth and Cohost (as of today, can't post there yet).
My comparison under the cut:
âş I appreciate that they're algorithm free, whether it's because they truly believe in an Internet rid of the most invasive of them or because it's too expensive to implement on a brand new platform or some other reason. Only the future can tell, but for now it's nice.
âş Pillowfort: beside the post formatting that I find extremely comfortable, my favourite thing is probably communities. I feel like this is the strongest "pro" in favor of Pillowfort because this is where they truly distinguish themselves from other social media.
Communities, in a way, remind me of forums. They're however easier to take in hand since you don't have to deal with as many options and choices. In my opinion, communities on Pillowfort are a bit lacking in functionalities though. I think more tools to easily organize them would help, like a widget or something to link stuff so you can create and animate events within said communities.
(I also feel like Pillowfort would gain from not being dark blue. We have more than enough dark blue websites, and it doesn't go well with the warmth invoked by its name in my opinion, but that's a minor detail and just a matter of taste.)
âş Bluesky: basically Twitter but better. No algorithm, for a start. The curated feeds are nice. They're a bit like communities on Pillowfort since they can be moderated but from a non-mod user, it's even easier to post in them: you just have to use the right keyword for your post to appear there. Well, if the mod left it open to all rather than chose to vet who can or cannot post in it. Lots of flexibility and control over your timeline overall.
I don't like the 300 characters limit, however. Never liked it with Twitter either. It's not really conductive to conversations, and the general design tends to make the website feel rather impersonal. It's really more like parallel talking than community building.
Overall I think it's a good tool to promote your (visual) art or website, etc. but not great for hosting conversations past commenting briefly what others are doing. I mean, you can make threads but it'll never be as good as Pillowfort or Tumblr for this.
âş Dreamwidth: I'll start with saying that Dreamwidth isn't a social media, it's a journaling platform and I haven't used it much yet. Had in plan to post my headcanons about my muses there and stuff like that so I did spend some time trying to figure out how it works.
First, there is a lot of options to let you have complete control over who can see what. Like, a lot.
You can entirely personalize what your journal will look like. It's a bit easier than having your own websiteâsince I reblogged a post about that yesterdayâbecause you don't start from 0, so it might be a good option if you don't feel comfortable jumping into Notepad++ to start coding. You can just change a thing here and there, or nothing at all, or almost everything. It's pretty old school though, so for those completely unfamiliar with early/pre-web 2.0, it might not look very appealing at first. However, I'd say don't let that stop you! If anything, it's a good opportunity to learn a bit of code without pressure.
You can also create communities, which as you might have guessed is very important to me. When creating one, you can set up whether everyone can join, everyone can ask to join but has to be approved by a community admin or to limit the access to those you have personally invited. Like for your own journal, communities are completely customizable, and Dreamwidth allows adult content.
I'm not sure you can top DW communities in terms of functionalitiesâaside from making a forumâbut it's not as intuitive as Pillowfort (though in exchange you get more customization). You're also more limited regarding image hosting (see here). That said, hosting services exist, many are free, and that's without mentioning that you can post on Twitter and the like and use the picture link in your DW posts. I don't think many will only use Dreamwidth anyway.
âş Cohost: I was expecting nothing when I registered earlier today, but this is an overall good surprise: it's Tumblr, but better.
More control of what you see. More user-friendly UI. It's not fucking blue. Adult content allowed. You can change your main blog page and make it private.
The only two downsides I'd mention here would be that you can't customize your blog page appearance and you have to wait for one or two days before being able to post. Although if it means less bots, I'd rather wait.
And this ends my rather non-exhaustive tour of the social media/blogging/journaling platforms. If you catch any mistakes let me know. I didn't dive deep, this was just me sharing my thoughts.
(As far as I know, they all allow adult content and give you tools to not see it if you don't want to.)
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Aaaand that wraps up Chapter 1! Hope you all enjoyed! Chapter 2 will be coming soon!
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Thank you all SO MUCH for the positive feedback on TTAS! It makes me so happy that you all are enjoying the story so far. Iâve been wanting to share this story for some time, and Iâm so proud that Iâve stuck with it!
I talk about more updates under the fold. If you donât care about minor changes to the format and style of the comic, you can skip.
The most important takeaway is that the comic will be staying on an every other week schedule. More details about that below!
I mentioned at the beginning of this comic that Iâd be working to figure out what exactly works for me vs what doesnât.
This comic is a learning experience. Iâve never stuck with a comic long enough to understand what all it takes. I greatly appreciate your patience!
That being said, something was learned from Chapter 1 - being that pages take a lot longer when there are more characters to draw. (Big shock, right?)
So starting in Chapter 2, the pages will not contain my drastic shading styles. Iâve already experimented with this in the last scene and it just makes my life a whole lot easier. Coloring everyone is already a lot of work, and it would mean stretching the already lengthy posting schedule.
They will still be colored, and I might use shading for dramatic effect, but it will not be something I do for every panel in every page. I hope you all understand.
Iâm also going to be changing the text. I really wanted the text in the comic to stand out, but Iâm not sure if my reasoning was due to stubbornness or just wanting to do something different. I played with this in the last scene as well, and I think it looks much better. Hopefully youâll agree.
Last thing - because of how busy Iâve become, TTAS will stay on its current posting schedule of every other week. Unfortunately, with how much longer it takes, plus many other responsibilities that have fallen into my lap, I donât realistically see myself posting every week. I really hate to say that, cuz I know it will stretch the life of the comic a lot, but I know this is whatâs best for me so I donât burn out or have to take constant hiatuses.
Itâs possible that I might post more frequently in the future if my schedule frees up or for specific chapters. Weâll see!
In the meantime, you can go check out the ask blog @ask-pmd-ttas-gang on Tumblr! Iâm going to post additional art stuff there, answer questions for the characters and artist, and reblog any fanart I see!
Okay, that was a lot of updates, but I hope you all will stick around to check out Pandoraâs story. Cuz let me tell you - this is just the beginning! We have a long way to go. :)
- Ash
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previous anon gets offended that white American dudes are behind a lot of the most popular films in a world that's kind of ruled by American pop culture, which is definitely not fantastic despite being the current state of things, but then they immediately jump to calling women "females". Be the change you want to see in the world and start requesting films made by women, POC, and other minorities, there are plenty of popular amd acclaimed films made by people who are not white American men. It's very reasonable to expect the owner of the blog to go through IMDB and Letterboxd's top films first.
Yeah, the use of the word "females" definitely rubs me the wrong way but some people just have a different opinion on that.
A lot of people seem to view this blog as primarily one for recommending movies and, while I don't have a problem with people using this blog to find new movies to watch or submitting movies simply because they want to promote their favorites to a new audience, I do think it's important to remind folks that this blog was created with the goal of seeing how popular well-known and/or critically acclaimed movies are to the Tumblr user base. Obviously this is going to result in a large number of posts about movies directed by white, American men because, for a variety of reasons, those are the films that tend to receive the most amount of publicity and critical acclaim. Heck, the reason that I chose to start with the IMDB list first instead of any other "top films of all time" list is because the IMDB list is widely looked upon as a sort of "entry level" list, AKA the list people start with when they're only just getting into movies and haven't done a whole lot of research into films outside of what has received mainstream success.
If I were making a blog with the specific intent of recommending more obscure films or films by marginalized directors then it would be in an entirely different format than this one and frankly would not involve using any sort of "top films of all time" list as films on those lists have already garnered a decent amount of publicity.
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Hi hi! Requests Are : ON HIATUS!
I'm Sanemisstalker! I'm 20, and a (predominantly) KNY (Demon Slayer) smut blog.
To interact with my content, you must be 18+, as the majority of my writing is kink related in some way! I'm fully supportive of minors having safe spaces in online fandoms- but I cannot be that space provider.
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What Do I Do?
I am specifically a kink/fetish oriented writer who really likes to focus on character! (Aren't we all?)
I write more bizarre/extreme sexual fantasies people might have with certain characters while, hopefully, not butchering said characters in the process.
Some sexual practices are better practiced fictionally or solo, and I've always been interested in providing said fiction. If it keeps you horny and safe, I've done my job!
I love all the hashira and upper moons, but I have some particular soft spots for Sanemi, Douma, and Shinobu. I'm always most excited to write about them!
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MASTERLIST
W.I.P - I only tag my personal works! anything I've written for a character will be tagged as #(character name) smut. I'm adjusting to the tumblr app format, so please give me time to make a proper masterlist.
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ASKS/INBOX
Rules :
-You must be 18+ to submit an ask.
-Anything goes. If I'm not comfortable, i will simply ignore/delete the ask! You will not be posted, as I have no grounds to clown you when i'm writing KNY porn in my free time.
What won't I write?
âI won't write for Tanjiro's Crew, Genya, or Muichiro. No judgement, they're just not my favourites.
âRace Specific asks - As a white person, I do not have the background to accurately portay a sexual situation regarding traits exclusive to POC.
However, my stories intentionally do not mention anything referring to skin tone or imply any ethnic background aside from the setting they are placed in. (If they do, please tell me so I can change it immediately.)
âIncest, this is just a personal thing. I have no judgement, just an unpleasant past with the subject. If I mention a character having a thing for this, It will likely not be elaborated on.
âScat, once again, no judgement, It's just one of my hard limits. It's hard to romanticize for me personally, and my writing wouldn't have my heart behind it.
âCharacters being parents- I am not fond of pregnancy, and would much rather just write about fucking with no long term consequences.
âThis is subject to change, and can be updated accordinglyâ
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Content Warnings
Any posts I make will usually have a CW/TW explicitly before the writing. It will usually be in Bold, or a different color from the rest of the post to identify it.
CW// ->
I tag based on what I know to be common triggers, and will not tag for certain triggers such given their existence is implied by the setting/story in general.
For ex. I will not tag a post about demon slayer with 'blade use', as it's directly implied by the setting of demon slayer that there will be blades present in some capacity. I will not tag 'cum swapping with the hashira' with -gratuitous cum- etc. etc.
However, I will always tag for SA, which will be reffered to as Non-con/Dub-con, and for Gore, regardless of how lightly either is treated. If you believe I missed an important trigger, please let me know. I write in a flurry, and do not spell check nor proof read.
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W.I.P
#demon slayer x reader#demon slayer smut#upper moon smut#upper moons x reader#hashira x reader#sanemi smut#douma smut#shinobu smut#douma x shinobu#shinobu x sanemi
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remakin my pinned post bc i love spending hours on fun formats. anyways
â¸â¸ââďšit's me! ââ¸â¸
mark/vinny â he/him â minor (strictly 18+ only blogs block me)
hello all! here i post about all things daydreaming-related, as well as some self insert stuff since there is big overlap there for me.
i have mainly fictparacosms (paracosms of existing fictional media). i'm kinda shy about them so i don't discuss them as much but please be respectful when i do. they do not always line up with canon and i just want to be happy and have a fun time.
â¤ď¸ this blog is a safe space for all madders/iders and whatever you daydream about. even if it's considered really dark nasty shit, and even if it's willingly! fiction is fiction my friends. â¤ď¸
feel free to send asks about my paracosms or about yours! tumblr is buggy and i am chronically ill so i may not get to it right away, but rest easy knowing each ask is treasured in my heart <3 i'm shy but i want to interact with you all.
i make big use of the block button if i don't like your vibes or even if we just don't agree about stuff. unfortunately my block barrier from my main doesn't extend to sideblogs and i have to block separately from here, which i sometimes forget to do. so blanket statement for all my blogs and socials:
đŤ TERFS AND ZIONISTS/PRO-ISRAEL PEOPLE GTFO đŤ
and hey! if you can spare some money check out the #donations tag on my main for vetted palestinian GFMs! đľđ¸â¤ď¸
if you want to see more of my silly self talking about other random things, my main is @thecrimeofmans-laughter!
below are paracosms & tags!
paracosms âď¸âââ§âË*đŚš
these fluctuate in and out of how relevant they are to me, especially because god cursed my interests to wholly take over my life and then suddenly evaporate like sweat. this is also why i have random mini paracosms that only come out of hibernation if my hyperfixation does too! lmao
âââ-> ORIGINAL
â queerer things still â five teens learn of the magical secret realms on earth and travel through them to uncover the main para (enya liao)'s mysterious past. all of them have magical powers and all of them have emotional baggage that they are eventually forced to deal with by fighting monsters that target their greatest weaknesses. everything is weird and also everything is queer (hence the name).
âââ-> FICTPARACOSMS
â arrows of shield â big crossover between marvel's agents of shield and the cw's arrowverse. at the center of it all is me, because i am awesome. the only other teenagers (and original paras) are cicero (an entity meant to deal with all emotional and physical pains) and jessop jiang (a boy from the typical 60s american suburb who accidentally killed his mother).
â the super happy life of akemi Ĺtani â a blanket paracosm for all daydreams involving any of koei's musou warriors games (that i have played, which is dw8, sw2, 4, 4ii, and 5, and wo4). the name is from one of my two samurai warriors ocs, as she has a very normal, happy life with her dad and sister that is absolutely not besieged by period-typical war. (also my icon on this blog is of nĹ, who is a character from sw5! she's in her dlc outfit. i love her)
â yttd paracosm 2 â i don't have a name for this one yet shhh. anyway have you ever theorized that shunsuke hayasaka is sue miley's mysterious fiancĂŠ and then made a yttd sona that has become separate from you and is also their adopted child and is also dating ranmaru kageyama and then spent way too much time rewriting the lore of the game to fit this change? that's what this is. (my first yttd paracosm is asunaroland which isn't as major anymore but yeah. i have 2 of these fuckers)
tags i'll use ËËË â
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i love using tags i love organizing i love formatting i love archiving ďźź(^â˝^ďź )ă âăž(*´â˝ď˝)ďž ~(â§ââŚ)/ďžďžďž
my original posts -> #mark stops daydreaming for a sec.txt
answering asks -> #mark answers asks, #ask game answers | feel free to send in something from my ask game!
vents about madd -> #madd vent, #intrusive daydreaming | all of these are ok to rb
positivity about daydreaming -> #positivity <3
my art -> #martk | other art is on my toyhouse and instagram! | want me to draw your paras? commission me!
useful madd-related things -> #useful
anything not daydreaming-related, for whatever reason -> #not madd
...and probably other tags i'm forgetting! yayyy!!
all paracosms and paras are tagged #like this* to avoid anything (like fictpara stuff) showing up in big public tags because i am Scared
dividers: animatedglittergraphics-n-more
#EDIT: you rebloggers didn't tell me that i wrote 7 clouds in the image descriptions when there are 9???? đ help me lord i am tired today#mark stops daydreaming for a sec.txt#maladaptive daydreaming#immersive daydreaming#madd#don't mind me sometimes the goblin in my brain that really likes searching through aesthetic dividers and pretty text formats takes over
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things iâve heard english majors say pt. 17
-not capitalizing Iâs in poetry was a moment in tumblr history but that moment is gone and we donât have to do that anymoreÂ
-have you ever killed off a main character in any of your stories?
Like physically?
-Iâm almost done with this stupid discussion post and then Iâm gonna go for a stupid walk before I make any more stupid decisions about my stupid life
-I read over 55 poems for the lit mag and I read 46 pages of an 18th century diary for my American revolution class and yet the most productive thing Iâve done today is adding âScarboroughâ to my list of name for future pets
-whatâs my specialty? Prose-poetry nonfiction vignettes about the generation z experienceÂ
What the fuck?Â
-go to class, just donât run into a guy who you ask to be the father of your children on the way thereÂ
-weâre running on poet time, so the event is gonna go late for sure
-killing off a main character is so original that itâs unoriginal. Living people can make you cry too, John Green and Suzzanne Collins and me
-Iâm all concept, no practicality
-someone pry the word slay from my cold dead hands
-I donât know why I like poems that are, like, gross
-not to be a prude but I would have liked the poem more if it was in a more traditional format
-most shitty poetry of this era can be traced back to the grip that milk and honey had on us for a good year there
-this piece looks like it was mauled by a thesaurus
-donât look at me using slash marks in a poem itâs a stylist choice and it isnât cliche yet
-I can hardly keep living at all, in any condition
-Iâve been at college for two and a half years, I know how to bullshit for 10 pages
-I changed what I was going to read six or seven times since we started this open micâ
*deafening* MOOD
-ugh, is it really necessary to submit portfolios for job positions with literary magazines?Â
Everyone: YES
-yeah, Buzzfeed used to be into deep long-form journalism. And now itâs not.Â
-hey, thereâs no mirrors in your apartment
Well duhÂ
-honey, Iâm an English major with minors in political science and American studies, critiquing the American Dream is what I doÂ
-English majors love to read right thatâs what we all say even though we donâtÂ
-I should really go get a green-colored juice so I eat a vegetableÂ
-the idea of a very hungry spider patrolling our house is terrifying but also like. Kind of on brand for us
-I titled my creative nonfiction collection âThe Hauntings and Homelands of One-Cent Treasuresâ and I need you to be proud of me that I came up with a title at all
Thatâs literally so sexyÂ
-if you tell the teacher that itâs my turn to talk, I will kill myself in front of you
Donât do that, then Iâd have to write a poem about you
Youâre welcome
-donât you get free tuition if your roommate kills themselves?
Is that written down somewhere?
-are we all just unstable then?
Weâre creative writing majors, thereâs some sort of preamble there to not be okay
-an undergrad never asks for permission. We walk into rooms and say we should be here
#college#college student#still tagging this as shit i've heard high schoolers say#college life#college humor#college memes#college problems#school memes#school humor#student humor#student life#studyblr#gen z humor#gen z problems#gen z life#writer problems#writing#writing prompt#english majors
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Rapture: Before we begin.
We are about to start a long and involved process: I am about to start (tomorrow) posting OH GOD THE RAPTURE IS BURNING's final draft. As this story was first written here on this very tumblr, I have some experience with how to do this and what can go wrong.
Every day, with one single exception (May 22nd), I will post a chapter of the story (on both this tumblr and my Website). Each chapter is called a "log" (this story is also known as The Rapture Logs) and is titled with the day that it takes place. As the narrative persists from May 21st, 2011, to October 21st (and then a bit extra), I have elected to post the story now in the same way. The May 21st log will be posted on May 21st, the June 19th log will be posted on June 19th, et cetera.
As I much prefer to keep my hands on the 'product' even during delivery (there are many opportunities for something to go wrong), I do not plan on Scheduling any of these posts and will post them directly, myself, each day. I do not expect to adhere to a reliable schedule, so the exact time that a log is released may change per day. However, I may get into a rhythm. Can't promise anything. (If you want to.. what is it, Subscribe to my tumblr, make it so you get Notifications when I post? That may be a good idea. Up to you.)
After having done some testing, the exact method I use to bring these logs to tumblr this time causes some finicky formatting errors that tumblr does not allow me to fix. I've tried, many times, and they keep resetting. However, these errors are (so far) minor. When there is a long consecutive string of bolded or italicized text, for instance, you may see the bold/italics end before it should. If you see that kind of thing, I am 99% sure it is unintentional, and I am aware of it, and I am sorry. Hopefully it shouldn't be that distracting.
There are some... other missing features that the Website will have and the tumblr will not. So. The Website is the best way to read. And the tumblr will be here as a supplement, in case for some people it is just easier to stay on tumblr.
I am including links, at the bottom of each log, to the tumblr Table of Contents, and to the Next and Previous Logs. If you are following this release daily, the "Next" button will not function at first. Because the next log will not have been posted yet. Makes sense, but wanted to be clear.
Art will be included within the logs. Not every log. Not even many logs. But there will be art. And on those days, I will also post the art in a separate post after the log, giving full credit to the artist. There may be one exception I can think of, where the art is of a fundamental spoiler, and I'll.... figure something out for that event.
These logs are going to get long. They are not predictable. I mean, anything is predictable, and Rapture is easily long enough that you will start to engage with trying to predict it. But my point here is: Each day, ask your innermost heart, "Do I feel like reading this?" It is okay if the answer is "Not today." I do not require a certain number of Likes, Comments, and/or Subscribes before I post the remainder of the story. And this is not a Limited Release; Rapture will be available forever. I would like readers, of all stripes and sorts, including daily ones. But I also would like some spaghetti bolognese. Today might not be a spaghetti bolognese day, and I've made peace with that uncertainty. .....so, yeah, feel free to catch up with the story later if you must.
Now, let me remind you of the Trigger Warning that I had posted at the beginning of May.
Trigger Warnings: Sex, Gods, and Rock & Roll. (violence, to others and to the self. some swear words. teenage angst, cringe. death. insects. surrealism. symbolism. unpredictability of what will be explained and what wonât. sexual acts with dubious consentâ you will be able to skip that part. religious iconography. and so much prog rock.)
The only joke in there is the word "some" before "swear words." I promise you, this story is not for everyone. I do not say that to brag; I say that to convey some of the responses I have gotten from previous drafts. I have accounted for one skip in the entire story, and it's pretty early on. Rapture hits the dubious consent theme in its least comfortable form early and then lays off of it. Being honest with you, earlier drafts did have more of it, and I cut out almost all of it, but I did not remove that early instance, even after eight big opportunities to do so. I deeply believe it is doing something beyond just shock. And so, if you choose to skip it, I have at least included a safe recap at the point where skippers resume.
That should be all the essential stuff. Now for some quick bits:
This story makes use of emoticons, including a couple that are not common. Keep in mind that every emoticon has eyes and a mouth. For instance: the .w. face is related to the owo face, but using the eyes from the ._. face. What .w. means is a sort of humble happiness, an "Aw, shucks!" (The < in <:D is intended as eyebrows, not a party hat.)
This story uses some real names, of people and places. The places are just... places. The people names are only used where permission was granted, and I explicitly only use them for the sake of aesthetic, personally enjoying the way a name looks or sounds. All the events and opinions portrayed are fictitious.
There is a caveat in the case of the main protagonist and narrator. He is a riddle of a self-insert, a caricatured snapshot in time of the author at 16. Think what you will about the merits of a self-insert. I promise you, every expectation you have has been taken care of. I promise you, I know what I am doing here.
Okay. That's a lot of words.
Honestly there's probably even more stuff I should say? But I don't want to overexplain this. Chances are, you're actually gonna be totally fine??? Chances are, Rapture in its final draft is totally readable, and not even all that shocking, and all this preparation is making it sound like it's gonna be way worse than it really is. That's the best-case scenario here. I'd rather be prepared.
So. So look. We are on tumblr. You have the ability to send me Asks. Ask me anything. Please, ask me anything. You want the best way to read? You want clarity on what the heck I was thinking when I wrote a weird opinion of Jordan's? You want to know when the story will get good? Ask me.
'Cause, starting tomorrow until the story's done, I'm only going to be posting about Rapture. I'm going full Rapture Mode. I will only reblog posts relevant to Rapture. I will only post links to the Website, or anything relevant to the story.
Right now, as of May 20th, I am still in the process of rewriting later sections of the story. I have hit some slowdown as there were some logs that took multiple days, but I am still over two months ahead of where you'll be, so there's a bit of buffer. I should be done around August? So you're watching me do a public performance here too. Trying to outrun my own story and finish it before the present catches up with me. We'll see. God, we'll see.
God, I hope my new readers are ready. Rapture was once called a "butchery of epistolary literature," are you ready to see what spawned that insult?
Am I ready to expose myself to the world once again?
Let's!!! Let's do this thing!!!
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9TEEN + HE/THEY/IT + BI + POC
lover of OC x CC â dilf extraordinaire
currently a wip!!!
fanfic acc. ocs. plot masterlist. psd.
INTRO !!
Hai! I'm Reese (or Splat), and this is my rp account. I've been roleplaying for six years, mostly on amino, and have decided to relocate to Tumblr. I do both fandom and OC, though ocs are preferred. My main pairings are m/m and m/other, but I'm open to everything! Discord is where I rp on, as it keeps everything organized in servers. You can reach out to me on here or Discord (my user is @/splatnyah)!!
Roleplay isn't the only form of writing I do! Fanfiction is another form I really enjoy, along with original works. My fanfic acc is @splatfics, I post any sort of fandom writing over on there. My original works will all stay on here!
OCS !!
I have a bunch of different OCs; however, they're still kept on Amino. Currently, I'm working on making them new bios in either a PDF or doc format. They'll eventually be linked on here, along with a masterlist, too :) My characters can work both in their original universes and in some fandoms.
PREFERENCES !!
I don't have many rules, generally I'm a pretty easy-going person. My rp style can change depending on the situation. It'll go from lazy lit (around 200-300 words) to novella (800+). Your OC does not need an extremely detailed wiki or bio, just some basic information and FC will do! Speaking of face claims, I accept any type other than AI or gacha. My OCs use a mix of drawn and realistic. Please don't ask me to use a different one. My preferred genres are romance, slice of life, fantasy and mystery. Smut and NSFW is 100% allowed!! Let me know if you'd like to include it and how much.
WONT DO !!
There are a few things that I will not do. Anything involving incest or minor/adult is out of the question. Do not come and ask me for anything like that. Zoophillia is also not allowed (this also includes mermaids because they make me uncomfortable, sorry). CNC, rape, or sexual assult can't be included.
FANDOMS !!
JoJo's Bizarre Adventure đ
One Piece đ
Black Butler
Dungeon Meshi
Stardew Valley đ
Ace Attorney
Dexter
My Hero Academia
Golden Kamuy
What We Do in the Shadows đ
Succession đ
Hannibal
Metalocalypse đ
Disco Elysium
The Venture Bros.
Scott Pilgrim
The Producers
Detroit: Become Human đ
Interview with the Vampire
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