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#this isn't the yandere fantasy i was looking for#i at least wanted him to be hot#or interesting#not some ugly loser ass misogynistic homophobe with no money#basically theres this weird dude that I see all the time at the dispensary I frequent#and I was just warned by the owners that for the past couple of weeks that he keeps asking them about me whenever im not there#and bringing me up to other customers (who I haven't met)#and telling them about me and talking about me when I'm not there#and I'm apparently the only person he does that about/to#and he keeps lying to me about things like living on his own#and having a job#and having siblings??#like just lying about anything and everything for no reason#unfortunately he does know where I live because he had to pick something up from me at some point#so I'm going to have to try and resolve it very carefully#hoping to confront him today#vent post#personal#honestly its not that deep I find it more funny then anything else#but it just seems ironic considering I just made this blog a few days ago and just wrote my first yandere fanfic#makes me feel like i manifested it#the monkeys paw sure did fuck me over on this one
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I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#today was….not good#and at one point i had a moment#where i was just unbearably SAD and LONELY because i didn’t have anyone to call or talk to about it#but im still really hopeful it will happen some day#because all i want in this world is to feel secure#and for others to feel secure around me#and for everyone to feel secure around people they love#because it’s so painful and scary when you don’t#but one day im going to be warm and happy in someone’s arms and will barely remember this at all#im manifesting it#im completely okay btw things just got a little rough#and in the incredibly stressful and dramatic times i was experiencing my brain STILL had to be gay#im gay and i like sleeping#also yeah i said i wouldnt post after midnight again like two days ago but whatever#im sad and want to yearn on the internet we can make an exception tonight
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I need Vaggie and Husk to be friends SO badly. I just think they have potential like they could possibly be one of the best duos if given a chance. I actually have so many thoughts on this so hear me out:
There's so much potential JUST because of their relationships with Charlie and Angel (Charlie and Angel are siblings but we don't need to get into that right now)
But seriously short grumpy characters with wings and their extroverted beanpole partner is killing me
So basically I can see them both ranting about what their partners are doing on a daily basis but it always ends with "I love them SO much" "Cheers I'll drink to that"
I have a feeling Charlie and Angel are both the kind of people to leave lipstick marks on their partners and just not tell them so Husk and Vaggie have to check each other out real quick before going anywhere. I mean no questions asked just one of them standing in front of the other with their arms and legs spread out until the other one gives them a thumbs up or a rag to clean it off with.
I also think it would be funny if Husk was the first person to know Vaggie was an angel he just didn't mention it. He says so himself that the residents of the hotel will spill their secrets when they get drunk so Vaggie definitely got drunk and let it slip that she was an angel but didn't remember it by morning. Husk's motto is basically "That's none of my business" so he just doesn't say anything.
Also continuing with the "that's none of my business" thing, Vaggie absolutely agrees with that sentiment as long as it doesn't hurt Charlie or the hotel. Neither of them like people digging into their business and having Alastor in their lives means someone is ALWAYS digging so it's nice to be with someone who just does not care.
Oh and they both shit on Alastor 24/7 so good for them
PREENING EACH OTHER!!! By the time Vaggie gets her wings back they're close enough for this. Husk hates his wings and is shit at taking care of them but Vaggie really wants this to happen. She does miss some things about the exorcists and that's one of them. Of course she would never say that out loud but Husk gets it and they do it anyway.
Vaggie would start flying ALL THE TIME after getting her wings like she has so much time to catch up on. Angel knows that her and Husk are good friends and that Husk hates his form so he'll get Vaggie to convince Husk to fly with her. It takes a little bit but they have fun and Charlie is really proud of her so it's worth it.
They can literally sit in comfortable silence for hours and not get bored
They bicker all the time about everything like they'll say the meanest shit but they're besties and they're joking so it's fine
They are so down to kill Valentino at any time. They have multiple plans, they have lists, they're really creative about it too.
They'll just sit, people watch, and judge strangers together
They're so judgemental but also the least judgmental??? They'd be like "Why would you do that you dumbass" but also actually listen to what's being said and try to find a reasonable solution for each other
Double dates that Vaggie and Husk don't actually want to go on but unfortunately Charlie and Angel are convincing (they have a really good time)
They were both stripped from their occupations (overlord/angel). They miss it sometimes and they feel bad about it because they were both terrible people during those times. When they get like this they always seek each other's company. Sometimes they actually talk about it, sometimes they change the subject to something completely different, sometimes they have a drink and sit in silence. Either way they only acknowledge it with each other.
Husk teaches Vaggie how to make drinks. It's calming for him (even though it's annoying that he's technically being forced to do it) so he thought she might like it. She does and is actually really good at it. When they get more residents she'll help him out behind the bar.
Sometimes they'll sing together. They sound amazing and their partners love it. Husk also tries to teach Vaggie how to play saxophone it does not go as good as bartending did
They're the only ones in the hotel that can speak Spanish so yes they do use that to their advantage
Are both so tired all the time. They just deserve a stress free nap. They end up curled up together asleep and are found by Angel in the middle of the night. He takes a picture and immediately sends it to Charlie. Charlie and Angel manage to keep the picture but are not allowed to show anyone or ever mention it again.
They would never actually admit to being friends even though they're best friends and one of the few people the other can actually stand being around
JUST HUSK AND VAGGIE BEING BEST FRIENDS YOU GUYS
#oh jeez this is a long one#Hazbin Hotel#huskerdust#charlie hazbin hotel#chaggie#husk hazbin hotel#vaggie hazbin hotel#angel dust hazbin hotel#why isn't there any content of them being friends#I need this so bad#seriously what demon do I have to make a deal with to make this happen#I feel like they interact the least but why#the potential#I'm manifesting so hard vivziepop herself fears my power#I can't be alone in this please guys#what is wrong with me#the Huskerdust fanfic I was reading just updated this is fate#Am I posting too much???#I feel like I'm posting too much
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hey. hey. you there. religious jew who wants to do so well because you truly do love g-d and you see His presence everywhere and you have faith in Him and He gives you everything. yes, you. if you're not a religious jew you can read this too this just isn't geared towards you.
ok now that i have your attention read this: g-d knows you. He made your body and your soul and He understands it fully. there's gonna be some times where you can't commit to something, where you can't fulfill that mitzvah. maybe you've got an amazing new job that will pay the rent and the bills youve been struggling with for months but you need to work shabbat. maybe you cant say prayers or blessings in public bc you dont feel safe to speak hebrew outside of your own home. maybe you struggle to keep up a routine and have a hard time with daily mitzvot. whatever it is i promise Hashem does not hate you and does not see you as a failure.
i definitely understand being a perfectionist and wanting to go all out. to show that you are fully devoted and that you appreciate Him at every point in your life. also lets be real sometimes you just wanna prove to yourself that you can do all these little things and that you have the discipline to do it. or you wanna impress someone else you admire. that's completely normal and those emotions are part of what makes us human (however those can be signs of underlying mental health issues so pls talk to someone if you need!). anyway, Hashem doesnt mind that we can't do it all all the time. sometimes we can't do it all ever. He knows that something is always better than nothing. we were given the gift of life, of food, of being jewish, of the torah, of everything else by g-d and we can express our gratefulness for that in so many ways and they are all important.
g-d is not that shitty teacher you had in middle school who judged you in front of the class every time your essay wasnt an A+. He created everything and gave us the joy of life and is here to guide us through us. He made us human with all of our possible emotions because that is what we are meant to be. we are meant to be flawed and without that we wouldnt even be people anymore. you're gonna have shitty days, weeks, months, even years and He understands that and even if you can only do tiny things it still matters.
#jewish#jumblr#also yes i talk about wanting to fight g-d regularly but i do love Him and i do have faith in Him and His creation#plus i have faith in humanity and i think humans are pretty cool#that includes you!!#i think anxiety and insecurities are so common in jewish ppl#and for religious jews that can manifest in feeling like we arent doing enough for g-d#makes me sad a lot of us feel that way but i get its hard to break those thought patterns
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to me billdip is the most compelling when Dipper is still a teenager and bill's human form is a middle aged man or something. maybe he manifests and looks like he's in his 30's...maybe he manifests and looks like he's Ford's age...either way, i love love the idea of bill physically demonstrating the power imbalance between them. bill having the capability to look like he's Dipper's age but refusing to even consider that as an option bc he wants everyone to see that he is 100% in control of Dipper
#cyber.com#billdip#does this make any sense...also warning for super long tags:#just this idea of Bill wanting everyone 2 see how much of a freak Dipper is for wanting to be in a relationship w him.#even if they're not around ppl who know Bill as a alien/demon thing that tried to take over the world--Bill still wants to demonstrate#to //everyone// that Dipper is a Victim and being manipulated and also in denial about it. but it's crystal clear to everyone else.#PLUS! the shame that Dipper would feel. the knowing looks he'd get from strangers...Dipper being like no i'm super brave & mature & this is#a CONSENSUAL! relationship. no one understands me. i love him. he loves me. i'm scared of even saying no to him bc of the threat he poses#to my family and also the entire world but that's just how he is! this is normal probably.#and years later him looking back and going. ohhhhh. yeah i had zero control in that relationship and was mostly just used as a decorative#doll that had no agency.#well! i just think that billdip is incredibly fucked up & instead of making them the same age everyone should lean into how fucked up it is#and make it even more fucked up. if u ask me.#ALSO. bill manifesting himself and looking like he's the same age as Ford? while being in a relationship w Dipper? 😵💫😵💫😵💫#punishing Ford for leaving him by making Ford watch Bill & Dipper's blossoming relationship.#fucked up! (i'm writing this w one hand btw. who said that)
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"they're not talking" right so for the first one or two eps, there's the possibility that even though they might be compelled to work as a team, they will still likely be really angry with each other, and act like strangers, or just simply like they cant stand each other. like yeah the unconditional love is unassailable and all, but the tragedy is that at the start of s3 they might actually end up treating each other - projecting that anger and guilt and longing - exactly as they were meant to since the beginning. we've never truly seen them be adversaries in anything but name, and the prospect that s3 might pose what would have happened if they'd never shared all those experiences - and fallen in love along the way - is utterly horrific
#good omens#idk if this makes sense but it's like. yeah they'll sort it out ofc they will. but for like the first couple of eps?#they might treat the other like they would have done if they'd never realised they have common ground and liked each other#im all for a 'what if/alt reality' scenario but this makes me feel ill#s3 narrative spec#bc if i manifest this im going to be so upset
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I got silly
Design: @marblegroves
Link to download the guy
#gemcyt#you have NO IDEA how this guy helped me to spark some insp to work on other skins I need to make rn#he's such a fun design#<3#and I really like this AU#I fell out of the loop with SU but I can agree gems and fusions are incredible fun to explore character relationships and feels#like. how it manifests physically and stuff#woah#their brain
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY NENE 🐠💚
#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#nene kusanagi#Le fishe.#noposts for like 2 weeks sory i havent really been drawing other than trying to finish my last comms lined up. worlds slowest drawer#actually i forgot to post one of the finished comms here...? i feel embarassed postingthem. maybe later#MY BAAACK HUUUUUUURTS#MY FRIDGE BROOOOOKE#LOATHESOME . JICE#um but i rethreaded my sewing machine and fixed it a bit and found out it came with a twin needle...!! waow ! so cool!#its a hand me down form a very nice old lady it gave up on me like 10 hours before i left for a con i crode#i hotglued SO much of my daibanana cosplay together. help. i dont have an iron though so not doing much with it yet#am gonna make my first project sekai cosplay... heheh.....#Dont tell wnyone. I love talking in my tags OMG ACTUALLY#MANIFEST FOR MEEEE. alos OHH MY GOD NO SEKE NO FIND IS MAKING ME EPXLODE I CANT PULL AUUUGUH SAAAKIIIIIIIIII AAAAUGH#emu. cgo rmu... im sorry. emu is lim saki os forever
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#not to complain ab the same stuff i always complain ab#but my artblock is soooo bad . its so bad and frustrating and limiting and demotivating#because instead of being able to draw whatever whenever i feel like im chained to random bursts of inspiration#that i cant manifest just by willing it so yk. and imlike why…#so many ppl who draw whether for their job or for their hobby seem to be able to do it whenever#and its like yeah i could put pen to paper rn but theres such a mental disconnect that its not enjoyable anymore#dude its so whateverr😭😭 like its so made up and ik its just a psychological thing but it feels so physically .Hard#rrrgwgqq#like i try to maintain the habit by drawing stuff out even w no end in mind#but that also stresses me out bc its likeIDKK idk#silly tbh#seeing all of this art arnd me all the time > online and stuff is so nice and inpsiring#and it makes me want to do that too but i legitcannot . like i am being squished by a boulder and my hands are chained to 30lb weights#whatfreakign ever dude .like whateverrr#i want to grind my brain 2 a pulp . honestly🙌#like what do u mean u cant u literally just do it.but im the one exception to that
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You know, these past two episodes I was thinking to myself, Su Yin is almost perfect in every way, simply the ideal devoted, protective, loyal, dedicated sworn brother, call him Da-ge indeed!!!, but my one piece of constructive criticism is that he needs to learn how to give real hugs - he does a lot of manful shoulder clasping, but Xiaobao is a shivering chihuahua desperately in need of cuddles and body heat, you gotta HUG THAT BOY - but now I see that Su Yin's hugs are simply reserved for his horrible little gremlin of an imperial cousinwife.
#myatb#myatb spoilers#meet you at the blossom#lol jinbao zhaocai and su yin are all canonically part of xiaobao's nuclear family...#and all of them get horrible boyfs of their very own!#no sibling rivalry needed! husband destroyers for all#(zhaocai i'm manifesting this for you offscreen dw you're still included)#shaoyu thinks he's in a palace drama and xiaobao is the lowly concubine he can trample all over to his indomitable empress#baby you're not empress yet. wait for emperor your cousin to marry you first... or i guess to become emperor yourself if that ever happens#anyway i am making a micro post instead of trying to capture all the things i've been loving about these episodes#but i REALLY REALLY LOVE THIS SHOW!!!#i hate when the episodes end! give me more right now!!!#jinbao is number one at serving!!! of course random men would immediately want to possess him - he gets it!!!!#and ep7 but xiaobao is obvi very preoccupied by his whump but relieved madam jin at least is still thinking of her daughter as family#and i appreciate that su yin despite being so obvi in love w/ xiaobao isn't actually interested in forcing him to not feel what he feels#for huaien. he just wants him to be well. will he be angry when xiaobao hops right back into this guy's arms in a few weeks? idk!#but for right now it's nice to see him nonjudgmentally assuring him he doesn't have to magically stop feeling things for this guy#oh and xiaobao like 'i will be good from now on. i will just sit depressed in my room.' OWWIE#and practicing looking cheerful for his mom and dad in the mirror. OWWIE OWWIE!!!#dear diary
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(Forgot what the name of the order/church Helsknight is a part of) but being part of that while AFAB must be absolutely wild every month. I can just imagine a knight lying on the floor in absolute agony with a hot watter bottle over their stomach like "hels yeah, my sain't must love me right now"
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"Saint of Blood and Steel," they pray miserably, laying face down on the floor, curled around a hot pad, "if I dedicate this next 5-10 day period to you, could you pretty please make the cramps stop? I am literally actually begging--"
#rns asks#hels worldbuilding#rns worldbuilding#saint of blood and steel#tw periods#this is so funny to me#but also?? makes sense??#i know there is herb craft / witchcraft which uses menstrual blood as a ritual item#i feel like a Blood and Steel Saint would have some interesting rituals specific to that kind of bleeding#maybe something to do with manifesting power or a specific act of service#gonna have to incorporate that into my worldbuilding somewhere#not enough is done with monthly cycle blood tbh i feel like people get icked out by it too quick
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there's a scientology centre right next to my uni campus and my best friend and i always joke that one day we should go inside but i kind of deeped today that the reason i never have is because i know for a fact id be so susceptible to getting roped into a cult
#like i feel it when i listen to manifestation coaches on youtube. it makes me so uncomfortable#<- hence why i actively avoid manifestation coaches/life coaches on social media etc#♡alizeh talks♡
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Going to post this small snippet spoiler for another SMG4 animatic I’m cooking up for viewing pleasure (and also simply because these characters are slowly seeping into my subconscious. As we speak Mr. Puzzles is directing my actions so that I can push his name into stardom with “gloriously animated content” HE’S KEEPING ME HOSTAGE HELP /J)
IT’S NOT FINISHED IT’S A POTENTIAL WORK IN PROGRESS
I love musicals and Mr. Puzzles strikes me as a theater nerd so I figured Hairspray (song being Welcome to the 60’s) was a good fit, plus wouldn’t it be fun to see Meggy try and help him along to start a redemption arch? Like how could they not carry a bit of sentimentality over the time spent together? I feel like her resilient passive aggressive energy pairs well with how he can be stubborn sometimes too…she can give him the push (or more like a well-intentioned shove) he needs to get his act together and give it another try! Because a part of me feels like he would want to regress into unhealthy past habits after facing so many defeats at the hands of SMG4 crew; shut himself in solitude and stare at a screen. So think the animatic would start with that scene and then lead into the musical number :D
#guys I’ll fill you in on a secret….this animation was initially started on September 2nd#I worked on this long before the ‘how old are you’ animation I’ve released#it’s just that I’m juggling a lot of things at the moment and kinda switch up projects continuously jskjsksp#GUY I’m buzzing with animation ideas like it’s not even funny the workload I’m giving myself here#currently my brain is set on animating Mr. Puzzles to Jonathan Young’s rendition of Shiny#BUT ALSO today I started to get the itch to animate the SMG4 cast singing that one Avenue Q song It Sucks To Be Me#like Mr. Puzzles & Meggy start it off but then encounter SMG3 & SMG4 as bickering roommates#maybe it can even be a reference to ‘SMG4 & SMG3 come up with an episode’#like they walk into the room as the two are arguing over what the show would look like#and then they sing the Avenue Q lyrics too#…..can you tell I’m going insane because I’m GOING INSANE#If I don’t post updates on at least one of these project ideas by next month then feel free to steal the concept from me and make it youself#because I don’t know HOW I’m going to manage to make this all a reality#but I’M DEAD SET ON TRYING RAAAA#Must. Make. Fan. Content. Must manifest my impulsive ideas MAKE ART#hplonesome art#wip#work in progress animatic#smg4 fananimatic#smg4 fan animation
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Maybe manifesting for your favorite character to appear in the gacha game you've been addicted by writing them in a fanfic actually works! 🤯
Excerpt taken from "the home that awaits us".
#can you tell that i am still reeling from how we finally got kabu in pokemas. and that he's voiced by THE kazuhiko inoue 😭😭😭#i flung kabu into my hbslv pasio series fic because (1) he's my favorite galar ossan (2) it's just for funsies#I DID NAWTTTT MEAN TO MANIFEST HIM INTO THE GAME but in the end... it's good for me (and my pasio fic series) lmaoooo 😭🤚#i wished we could've seen how kabu would react with the kids he taught too :( my heart melted when i saw that he guided lillie and gladion!!#all the reason for me to make a kabu cameo in my future hbslv fic 👍 one parental figure (lance) isn't enough i need to add kabu ojisan too!#i'm still pretty stressed and i think that's causing my writing block too but like. in the mean time? (writes down my kabu fic ideas)#mayhaps a training day for their fire-type mons would be nice... or hbslv bumping into kabu in a hoenn specialty restaurant 🥺❤️🔥#anyway WAUGHHHHH i am *not* gonna waste this lore i made!!! i love making connecting fics so i WILL commit to the lore i've made!!!#also if you've read this far: please pray for me because kabu's banner drops during my birthday 😭 i have kinda enough gems for him 😭#i feel like pokemas picking kazuhiko inoue to voice kabu is an attack to me. they just made this fiery ossan 1000x hotter with that voice 😭#gym leader kabu#rival silver#trainer ethan#pokemon#pokemas#pokemon masters ex#pmex#pokemon masters ex spoilers#pmex spoilers#pokemas spoilers#galar#johto#preciousmetalshipping#huntershipping#ethan x silver
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.anyway ,, qcharlie's entire thing is loving devotion in its most raw fucked up form. codefippa could stab him in the heart and he would kneel down thinking she is knighting him for his service. everything he does is for her. that includes getting better (promising juanaflippa he would get his "rash" checked out during the day of the dead stream because she seemed worried) and getting worse (his entire talk with cellbit. the parallels of his code and the knife). he loves so strongly that it consumes him, quite literally. the loss and grief from his love consumed charlie so he created gegg as a last resort when nobody else would let him throw himself away in their name (foolish rejected the marriage, and mariana wouldn't log on. he was still staying by flippas grave day in and day out. charlie would be doing the same if flippas final words to him turned out different, but in his mind he needs to make it up to her. he needs to stay exiled. he cant return until he's paid the price and attoned for his misclick.) gegg was meant to be quackity's son and even then quackity wanted nothing to do with him. gegg was elquackity's kid more than anything and when gegg died elq was the only person charlie checked on. actually after geggdeath charlie nearly broke the cycle and found his hope again in the other eggs!! he met richarlyson and tallulah properly on his birthday and was given codeflippa as a gift at the very end. he is genuinely letting himself get consumed by the code just to keep her in his life <3 it's fucked up and bloody, pure raw grief and love at the same time manifesting as decay and rot through the code <3 <3 <3 i literally hate him so much it's insane <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍#qsmp#letting this out of the drafts. be gentle and nice to it im so sorry its very unfinished and ranty but like#nobody understands whats going on with him and i feel insane#guys the throwing himself away thing has been there since the beginning.#the code is just a new manifestation because of codeflippa and the whole decay and grief shit hes got going on#also im saying devotion because mariana is a god ;D take that as you will i guess ^_^
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Maybe I’m okay with it if Hirano never traditionally “loves” Kagi. Or anyone. Maybe it never will turn into the same kind of love Kagi feels. Kagi is nevertheless such a source of inspiration and strength and comfort to Hirano. Even if he never feels a desire to touch or get married or whatever. Maybe he does it because Kagi asks and he loves making Kagi happy most of all. He wouldn’t seek it if not asked. But Kagi is always asking. And he knows it makes Kagi happy. Does anyone see the vision. Do you understand. Maybe kagi will be okay with it if Hirano never “loves” him the same way Kagi loves him. Because he knows how Hirano works and he knows how Hirano cares. And he knows he is unique to Hirano. He knows Hirano wouldn’t do these things with anyone else. And that’s still love in its own way.
#every day I convince myself more and more of aroace-spec Hirano#or maybe the perceived slow-burn is getting to me#it’s like. I kind of keep forgetting that there is still going to be more relationship and character development#but also. At this point in time at least they are so queerplatonic to me#AND it all wraps back around to the theme of different kinds of love#we do not love each other in the same ways. but that’s what makes it special#also a queerplatonic relationship answers all the weird limbo relationship stuff they have goin on in future ssmy chapters#idk. anyways. maybe im crazy#also all comes back to How do you quantify being someone’s most important person#Kagi WILL be the most important person to Kagi. it’s just a question of how that manifests#at this point I can’t imagine it manifesting in Hirano necessarily wanting to touch Kagi or saying things like I love you#it’s simply. laughter and happiness and comfort#they are already old together. do you get it#I never feel like I’m properly able to explain the feelings I have. whatever#surely someone gets it#sunnfish.kghr#Hirano to kagiura#Hirano and kagiura
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