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#this isn't the yandere fantasy i was looking for#i at least wanted him to be hot#or interesting#not some ugly loser ass misogynistic homophobe with no money#basically theres this weird dude that I see all the time at the dispensary I frequent#and I was just warned by the owners that for the past couple of weeks that he keeps asking them about me whenever im not there#and bringing me up to other customers (who I haven't met)#and telling them about me and talking about me when I'm not there#and I'm apparently the only person he does that about/to#and he keeps lying to me about things like living on his own#and having a job#and having siblings??#like just lying about anything and everything for no reason#unfortunately he does know where I live because he had to pick something up from me at some point#so I'm going to have to try and resolve it very carefully#hoping to confront him today#vent post#personal#honestly its not that deep I find it more funny then anything else#but it just seems ironic considering I just made this blog a few days ago and just wrote my first yandere fanfic#makes me feel like i manifested it#the monkeys paw sure did fuck me over on this one
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sin eater
#sorry its been a minute!!! the horrors. you understand.#anyways yall ready for another gloom tag essay because here we go!!!#im constantly thinking about the ramifications of uzi literally eating cyn and her now being apart of her.#specifically how it impacts uzi mentally. like dgmw i LOVE the silly cyntail shenanigans in fanart (ive also contributed to this) however#when i really think about it in relation to uzi's arc i go crazy insane#uzi is a character who is grasping for control after a lifetime of not having it.#she has no control over how her peers treat her. she has no control over khan neglecting her for reasons that arent her fault.#she quite literally has no control over the solver taking her over and making her do monstrous things against her will#which solidifies her feelings of being a freak monster who everyone was right to outcast and mistreat.#because im Unwell i interpret her calling herself god as a way to convince herself of having control- and to lock away feelings of impurity#if anyone is in control- if anyone is loved and cherished despite any and all wrong doings- its a god.#and that all comes to a head when she eats the heart of cyn thereby destroying the AS- a literal manifestation of a corrupted god- for good#finally taking back control from the entity that had been terrorizing and traumatizing both her and her loved ones. but did she really?#cyn is apart of her now. powerless sure- but that doesnt take away the horrors she wrought previously#and even so- has uzi ever stopped being just a host? do you think shes terrified of cyn regaining power out of the blue?#do you think uzi ever stops feeling like a monster?#“sin eating” was a thing that happened where someone would consume ritual foods to take on the sins of a recently deceased person#thus absolving said deceased person of any sins and putting them onto the sin eater. being a sin eater ensured eternal damnation.#and i just think about that a lot. when applying that (symbolically ofc(somewhat literally. she very much is a cyn eater)) to what uzi did.#“gloom you're reading way too much into this” THE LITTLE GOTH ROBOT. MAKES ME INSANE IN THE HEAD. OK!!!!!#gloom.art#murder drones#murder drones fanart#murder drones uzi#uzi murder drones#uzi doorman#uzi md#md uzi#uzi fanart
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I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#today was….not good#and at one point i had a moment#where i was just unbearably SAD and LONELY because i didn’t have anyone to call or talk to about it#but im still really hopeful it will happen some day#because all i want in this world is to feel secure#and for others to feel secure around me#and for everyone to feel secure around people they love#because it’s so painful and scary when you don’t#but one day im going to be warm and happy in someone’s arms and will barely remember this at all#im manifesting it#im completely okay btw things just got a little rough#and in the incredibly stressful and dramatic times i was experiencing my brain STILL had to be gay#im gay and i like sleeping#also yeah i said i wouldnt post after midnight again like two days ago but whatever#im sad and want to yearn on the internet we can make an exception tonight
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I need Vaggie and Husk to be friends SO badly. I just think they have potential like they could possibly be one of the best duos if given a chance. I actually have so many thoughts on this so hear me out:
There's so much potential JUST because of their relationships with Charlie and Angel (Charlie and Angel are siblings but we don't need to get into that right now)
But seriously short grumpy characters with wings and their extroverted beanpole partner is killing me
So basically I can see them both ranting about what their partners are doing on a daily basis but it always ends with "I love them SO much" "Cheers I'll drink to that"
I have a feeling Charlie and Angel are both the kind of people to leave lipstick marks on their partners and just not tell them so Husk and Vaggie have to check each other out real quick before going anywhere. I mean no questions asked just one of them standing in front of the other with their arms and legs spread out until the other one gives them a thumbs up or a rag to clean it off with.
I also think it would be funny if Husk was the first person to know Vaggie was an angel he just didn't mention it. He says so himself that the residents of the hotel will spill their secrets when they get drunk so Vaggie definitely got drunk and let it slip that she was an angel but didn't remember it by morning. Husk's motto is basically "That's none of my business" so he just doesn't say anything.
Also continuing with the "that's none of my business" thing, Vaggie absolutely agrees with that sentiment as long as it doesn't hurt Charlie or the hotel. Neither of them like people digging into their business and having Alastor in their lives means someone is ALWAYS digging so it's nice to be with someone who just does not care.
Oh and they both shit on Alastor 24/7 so good for them
PREENING EACH OTHER!!! By the time Vaggie gets her wings back they're close enough for this. Husk hates his wings and is shit at taking care of them but Vaggie really wants this to happen. She does miss some things about the exorcists and that's one of them. Of course she would never say that out loud but Husk gets it and they do it anyway.
Vaggie would start flying ALL THE TIME after getting her wings like she has so much time to catch up on. Angel knows that her and Husk are good friends and that Husk hates his form so he'll get Vaggie to convince Husk to fly with her. It takes a little bit but they have fun and Charlie is really proud of her so it's worth it.
They can literally sit in comfortable silence for hours and not get bored
They bicker all the time about everything like they'll say the meanest shit but they're besties and they're joking so it's fine
They are so down to kill Valentino at any time. They have multiple plans, they have lists, they're really creative about it too.
They'll just sit, people watch, and judge strangers together
They're so judgemental but also the least judgmental??? They'd be like "Why would you do that you dumbass" but also actually listen to what's being said and try to find a reasonable solution for each other
Double dates that Vaggie and Husk don't actually want to go on but unfortunately Charlie and Angel are convincing (they have a really good time)
They were both stripped from their occupations (overlord/angel). They miss it sometimes and they feel bad about it because they were both terrible people during those times. When they get like this they always seek each other's company. Sometimes they actually talk about it, sometimes they change the subject to something completely different, sometimes they have a drink and sit in silence. Either way they only acknowledge it with each other.
Husk teaches Vaggie how to make drinks. It's calming for him (even though it's annoying that he's technically being forced to do it) so he thought she might like it. She does and is actually really good at it. When they get more residents she'll help him out behind the bar.
Sometimes they'll sing together. They sound amazing and their partners love it. Husk also tries to teach Vaggie how to play saxophone it does not go as good as bartending did
They're the only ones in the hotel that can speak Spanish so yes they do use that to their advantage
Are both so tired all the time. They just deserve a stress free nap. They end up curled up together asleep and are found by Angel in the middle of the night. He takes a picture and immediately sends it to Charlie. Charlie and Angel manage to keep the picture but are not allowed to show anyone or ever mention it again.
They would never actually admit to being friends even though they're best friends and one of the few people the other can actually stand being around
JUST HUSK AND VAGGIE BEING BEST FRIENDS YOU GUYS
#oh jeez this is a long one#Hazbin Hotel#huskerdust#charlie hazbin hotel#chaggie#husk hazbin hotel#vaggie hazbin hotel#angel dust hazbin hotel#why isn't there any content of them being friends#I need this so bad#seriously what demon do I have to make a deal with to make this happen#I feel like they interact the least but why#the potential#I'm manifesting so hard vivziepop herself fears my power#I can't be alone in this please guys#what is wrong with me#the Huskerdust fanfic I was reading just updated this is fate#Am I posting too much???#I feel like I'm posting too much
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hey. hey. you there. religious jew who wants to do so well because you truly do love g-d and you see His presence everywhere and you have faith in Him and He gives you everything. yes, you. if you're not a religious jew you can read this too this just isn't geared towards you.
ok now that i have your attention read this: g-d knows you. He made your body and your soul and He understands it fully. there's gonna be some times where you can't commit to something, where you can't fulfill that mitzvah. maybe you've got an amazing new job that will pay the rent and the bills youve been struggling with for months but you need to work shabbat. maybe you cant say prayers or blessings in public bc you dont feel safe to speak hebrew outside of your own home. maybe you struggle to keep up a routine and have a hard time with daily mitzvot. whatever it is i promise Hashem does not hate you and does not see you as a failure.
i definitely understand being a perfectionist and wanting to go all out. to show that you are fully devoted and that you appreciate Him at every point in your life. also lets be real sometimes you just wanna prove to yourself that you can do all these little things and that you have the discipline to do it. or you wanna impress someone else you admire. that's completely normal and those emotions are part of what makes us human (however those can be signs of underlying mental health issues so pls talk to someone if you need!). anyway, Hashem doesnt mind that we can't do it all all the time. sometimes we can't do it all ever. He knows that something is always better than nothing. we were given the gift of life, of food, of being jewish, of the torah, of everything else by g-d and we can express our gratefulness for that in so many ways and they are all important.
g-d is not that shitty teacher you had in middle school who judged you in front of the class every time your essay wasnt an A+. He created everything and gave us the joy of life and is here to guide us through us. He made us human with all of our possible emotions because that is what we are meant to be. we are meant to be flawed and without that we wouldnt even be people anymore. you're gonna have shitty days, weeks, months, even years and He understands that and even if you can only do tiny things it still matters.
#jewish#jumblr#also yes i talk about wanting to fight g-d regularly but i do love Him and i do have faith in Him and His creation#plus i have faith in humanity and i think humans are pretty cool#that includes you!!#i think anxiety and insecurities are so common in jewish ppl#and for religious jews that can manifest in feeling like we arent doing enough for g-d#makes me sad a lot of us feel that way but i get its hard to break those thought patterns
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Charles Rowland is in love with Edwin Payne Charles Rowland is in love with Edwin Payne Charles Rowland is in love with Edwin Payne Charles Rowland is in love with Edwin Payne Charles Rowland is in love with Edwin Payne Charles Rowland is in love with Edwin Payne Charles Rowland is-
#i'm manifesting trust#I know I'm delusional but just#HEAR ME OUT FOR A SECOND#if there were to be a second season#I am a firm believer in the 'charles has a bi awakening' arc#listen I understand that there most likely will NOT be a second season and even if there was that would be unlikely but just HOLD ON OKAY#if there is not a second season I will simply#make it up. in my head#...#tada. magic#yeah so this post is mostly about me staring at Charles wide-eyed and somewhat (very) angrily#as he tells Edwin 'cant say I feel the same way'#I smell a fucking LIAR#charles rowland please if I could talk to you for five minutes. please.#let me explain the concept of 'this is not what most heterosexual men do'#and YES there is also the factor of male friendships being heavily emotionally stunted due to societal norms and whatnot but honestly#look me in the eyes#look me.#IN THE EYES#and tell me#that charles rowland is a fucking heterosexual#you cant do it. you cant#these tags went in several directions I was not expecting so uh. yeah.#hello#dead boy detectives#save dead boy detectives#dbda#charles rowland#edwin payne#payneland
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had such a terribly awful day from start to finish yesterday but i am snuggling my sugu plushie and drinking warm milk like a domesticated cat and the sun is shining ……. today will be a little better
#manifesting 👽 manifesting 👽 ….#. alien was the closest i could get to like . antenna signals#idk#my mind is still a mess and i still feel like an unlovable wreck but like#i know itll pass . and thats enough for now#i think i need to unlearn whatever makes me feel so . annoying and awful when i show the slightest hint of venting on dash#bc internalizing that always just makes me feel worse. and my brain tricks me into thinking no one cares or comparing myself to other -#people and the comfort they receive …. that needs to end lmao#like actually#i will not make myself or other people feel miserable just bc im in pms hell . thats not happening#:’) i am trying to be . i dont know. emotionally put together even when ive been crying nonstop since last night pdjdkdj#and i am proud of myself for that despite it all#at the end of the day i have warm milk and my sugu and that is enough#ari noises ✩#cw vent#…… using that tag still makes me feel ashamed but ill work on it lmao#anyway good morning dash . i hope the sun peeks out for you today; or that the moonlight is kissing your skin very softly
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"they're not talking" right so for the first one or two eps, there's the possibility that even though they might be compelled to work as a team, they will still likely be really angry with each other, and act like strangers, or just simply like they cant stand each other. like yeah the unconditional love is unassailable and all, but the tragedy is that at the start of s3 they might actually end up treating each other - projecting that anger and guilt and longing - exactly as they were meant to since the beginning. we've never truly seen them be adversaries in anything but name, and the prospect that s3 might pose what would have happened if they'd never shared all those experiences - and fallen in love along the way - is utterly horrific
#good omens#idk if this makes sense but it's like. yeah they'll sort it out ofc they will. but for like the first couple of eps?#they might treat the other like they would have done if they'd never realised they have common ground and liked each other#im all for a 'what if/alt reality' scenario but this makes me feel ill#s3 narrative spec#bc if i manifest this im going to be so upset
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I got silly
Design: @marblegroves
Link to download the guy
#gemcyt#you have NO IDEA how this guy helped me to spark some insp to work on other skins I need to make rn#he's such a fun design#<3#and I really like this AU#I fell out of the loop with SU but I can agree gems and fusions are incredible fun to explore character relationships and feels#like. how it manifests physically and stuff#woah#their brain
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY NENE 🐠💚
#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#nene kusanagi#Le fishe.#noposts for like 2 weeks sory i havent really been drawing other than trying to finish my last comms lined up. worlds slowest drawer#actually i forgot to post one of the finished comms here...? i feel embarassed postingthem. maybe later#MY BAAACK HUUUUUUURTS#MY FRIDGE BROOOOOKE#LOATHESOME . JICE#um but i rethreaded my sewing machine and fixed it a bit and found out it came with a twin needle...!! waow ! so cool!#its a hand me down form a very nice old lady it gave up on me like 10 hours before i left for a con i crode#i hotglued SO much of my daibanana cosplay together. help. i dont have an iron though so not doing much with it yet#am gonna make my first project sekai cosplay... heheh.....#Dont tell wnyone. I love talking in my tags OMG ACTUALLY#MANIFEST FOR MEEEE. alos OHH MY GOD NO SEKE NO FIND IS MAKING ME EPXLODE I CANT PULL AUUUGUH SAAAKIIIIIIIIII AAAAUGH#emu. cgo rmu... im sorry. emu is lim saki os forever
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#not to complain ab the same stuff i always complain ab#but my artblock is soooo bad . its so bad and frustrating and limiting and demotivating#because instead of being able to draw whatever whenever i feel like im chained to random bursts of inspiration#that i cant manifest just by willing it so yk. and imlike why…#so many ppl who draw whether for their job or for their hobby seem to be able to do it whenever#and its like yeah i could put pen to paper rn but theres such a mental disconnect that its not enjoyable anymore#dude its so whateverr😭😭 like its so made up and ik its just a psychological thing but it feels so physically .Hard#rrrgwgqq#like i try to maintain the habit by drawing stuff out even w no end in mind#but that also stresses me out bc its likeIDKK idk#silly tbh#seeing all of this art arnd me all the time > online and stuff is so nice and inpsiring#and it makes me want to do that too but i legitcannot . like i am being squished by a boulder and my hands are chained to 30lb weights#whatfreakign ever dude .like whateverrr#i want to grind my brain 2 a pulp . honestly🙌#like what do u mean u cant u literally just do it.but im the one exception to that
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Considering Betelgeuse is a shapeshifter, it'd be cool if he has a scene in BJ3 where he looks like he did when he was alive, but all cleaned up and handsome. He doesn't have to come back to life; he can just make himself look like he is, for a scene or two. He can turn into a creepy snake and into something like an amusement park attraction 😂 Making himself look like a gorgeous, living man, should be a walk in the park for this Trickster Demon. Like, think about the possibilities lol. He could use a disguise to get something he wants; or he could try to get closer to Lydia without her knowing it's him (okay this one is kinda evil, so eventually he'd have to drop the act and come clean. Hey, great moment for character development, admitting he's done wrong lol. Unless, plot twist! Lydia always knew, sort of like how Jasmine knew Prince Ali was actually Aladdin 😜 But I digress).
I want to see him with his luscious blond hair in full color ✨. The black and white wasn't flattering; just look at the photo below: he looked gorgeous in full color.
Let us see him trying his best to woo Lydia, doing whatever he can to win her over. Imagine he makes himself look alive, all gorgeous, and gets rid of all the bugs and, well, rotting corpse filth 😅, as part of his efforts to convince Lydia to give him a chance. And then surprise: Lydia prefers the filthy, sleazebag, bug-ridden Betelgeuse 🤭.
Listen, I think he is gorgeous as is. Bugs and all. Obviously. Part of the character's appeal is his iconic Beetlejuice look. But let me see him in full color, wearing a cravat and everything, with his light and fluffy blonde hair falling over his shoulders like in this bts photo:

✨ Give him to me in full color. ✨
Also get your hand off there, Mr. Burton 😂 Sorry, the photo's angle makes it look kinda wrong. Oops.
I was inspired to write this post after seeing this lovely fanart by @nickbn26
This particular screenshot was originally posted by @beetlejuice-fan-zone , cropped by me to show Beej in more detail. Gorgeous Michael Keaton as alive!Betelgeuse.
#I hope you don't mind me tagging you!#Beetlejuice#Betelgeuse#Beetlejuice 3 hopes#Manifesting#Bonus points if Astrid is coaching him to win her mom over and she suggest he should clean himself up 😂#Then it turns out Lydia doesn't like that alive-looking Beej#part of what makes him interesting to her is that he is other than human#sort of how like she feels “other” herself get it?#Oh I love that tbh#Manifesting for Beetlejuice 3#BJ3 hopes#Beetlejuice x Lydia#Beetlebabes#Michael Keaton as Beetlejuice#Betelgeuse x Lydia#alive!Beetlejuice#alive!Betelgeuse
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i love that jiro and saburo have the same finger tapping habit when they’re thinking 😭😭😭😭😭
#vee queued to fill the void#hypdream’s the dream#i feel like ichiro should too just to round it off lol#like one of his default poses is to cross his arms the hand that’s tucked away can hide his finger tapping lol#saburo tapping his finger at the speed of sound whenever he’s irritated or concerned makes me inordinately happy for some reason LOL#it might be weird to say but i like saburo’s anxiety and the ways it manifests lol#he was also really cool in the story lol failing tech???? deadass right up his alley!!!!!!
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I keep imagining lucanis getting an accidental faceful of arterial spray during a job that didn't go so much awry as just slightly awkwardly right at the end, and having to get hosed down outside before coming home to the lighthouse. emotionally I feel the cartoonish blood splatters of dragon ages past and lucanis' resulting deep sleep-deprived peevishness in this chili's tonight
#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#rye is like '...there's a way to deal with this really quickly and conveniently. but from -- a certain point of view. it might perhaps.#a little bit. count as something not *quite* unlike. blood magic. for the uninitiated. if one were feeling uncharitable and judgemental.#but like. only if everyone's ready to get real chill about a lot of things real quick of course. emmrich back me up here'#lucanis standing there all ben affleck smoking meme dripping rivers of blood onto the ground ready to tank the eyeball itches:#I need a snack and to cuddle up to you and have a nap more than I need air right now. fucking go for it#~*mortalitasi bae privileges*~#rye is only making the blood dry up and flake off like ash btw lol. the nevarran urge to point out that there's blood magic#and there's yanno *blood magic*. unless the chantry asks about it. then it's sparkling deep culturally significant death rites#(and also cleaning up after them. you've gotta admit it's practical. I don't have to tell you there's a lot of blood in a person)#manifest lucanis peacefully snoozing in rook's arms post some grisly murders with me it's what he deserves
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Is there a more specific term than "agnostic" for me cause I feel like that implies "I believe in a deity/deities/spiritual relationship, I just don't exactly know which one or how"
My belief is less "I don't know" and more "I think there's the possibility of something out there it's just that it's none of my business." Like if we found out Zeus, Jesus Christ, and Ra are actually best buddies and go to trivia every Thursday and that the Rapture was supposed to happen 50 years ago and got cancelled or some shit and it's like..I answer phone calls at a front desk man idk what you want me to do with that info
#this probably is just 'agnostic' Id just like to feel special <3#I make minimum wage and you want me to worry about if there's a heaven or hell???#bro I don't care about purgatory I'm on the phone with my health insurance#It is flat out None Of My Business what's going on outside of this physical plane and I do not plan on changing that#It's the same way I feel about ghosts#Were my childhood homes haunted? Probably!#Am I gonna fuck around and find out? Absolutely fucking not!#What they get up to is none of my business. I'm gonna keep acting like they aren't there unless they need help and make it obvious#and even then I'm not doing more shit than like opening a window#I'm not gonna fuck around and accidentally anger some higher power or ghost cause I'm scared of uncertainty#I've got an exam due today like idk man what freaky shit higher powers do is their business I'm not tryna intrude on shit#Im also into the idea that the belief in a higher power creates them#Like even if there's no physical manifestation they've influenced your train of thought so much they might as well be#ex christian#religious trauma
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there's a scientology centre right next to my uni campus and my best friend and i always joke that one day we should go inside but i kind of deeped today that the reason i never have is because i know for a fact id be so susceptible to getting roped into a cult
#like i feel it when i listen to manifestation coaches on youtube. it makes me so uncomfortable#<- hence why i actively avoid manifestation coaches/life coaches on social media etc#♡alizeh talks♡
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