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i agree with xiaojun is handsome but his visual definitely is not versatile, he can't carry every hairstyle, he looks like a random dude in short hair, also his chin really really looks so bad in close and his cheeks looks so damaged, i love his visual in photos but in irl he is lack of a lot of aura, i liked yangyang more if we be honest. yangyang places second in wayv I'm confused between him and ten both really has aura more than hendery or xiaojun.
see i've never seen them in person, so maybe xj just looks better on camera in comparison to in person. i'll take ur word for it (🙏🙏 pls come to the us wayv pls pls pls)
xj's face just has a shit ton of angles, that it's so jarringly obvious in comparison to other members with more softer features. i feel like everytime i introduce someone to wayv or see comments online the first thing they ask is "who's that guy" like even if they don't find him that attractive visually, his visual does stand out esp among the group. (his god damn eyebrows. spare me some. give me some xj i need thicker eyebrows.)
he's literally mogging me in this pic fr fr. and even if you look here, although i feel like ww and yangyang also have angular features, they still have more softer features like winwin and yangyang's eyes are more relaxed than xj's.
ALSO THE SHORT HAIR COMMENT IS SO FUNNY I THINK HE LOOKS SM BETTER WITH LONGER HAIR. like why were they giving him the coconut bowlcut. sm stylists lemme talk. i just wanna talk. plEASE
obviously this is all based on personal taste and preference too, i know people say "face card" but really every idol has a face card lol or they would just solely be a singer or dancer rather than an idol. (they can still have face cards though, it's just the norm for idols yknow)
but i've never considered yy's or hendery's visuals that much because i don't find them as attractive as i do ww lol. even xj and ten, i'm very loyal 💪💪 wayv only nct subunit where i got no bias wreckers cause ww just tops all.
#can't say the same about dream though...#lowkey attached to them all#if wayv tours in the us i'd def try to go see them#even if ww isnt there i'll just have to cope ugh#need to see moonwalk live#action figure would be cool too#❓: asks#anon
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didn't say anything bc i was at work til 5pm and then i had to go grocery shopping + make dinner but i've been listening to short n sweet on loop all day and i'm fucking obsessed SABRINA DID IT AGAIN!!!!
#to be fair i've been screaming about it on twt#made a thread reacting to it and everything..#but im afraid only some ppl get the privilege to read me there.. where im at my most annoying.. (fra and rowan)#although to be fair i wouldn't mind giving my twt to most of my mutuals#i just never bring it up bc i usually tweet in spanish or a weird mix of spanish and english#ANYWAYS#idk if it's my fav album of hers#bc eics is insanely good#and im vvvv attached to singular act i#and lowkey to evolution too..................#(it's mostly the nostalgia)#but it's definitely a close second#i had high expectations bc it's sabrina the love of my life my fav singer in the world#but she still surpassed them all#THE pop princess <3#sabrina carpenter <3
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no girl tell us what you think about jegulily!! im so here for it (tone is weird but I mean that genuinely, I don't ship them so I'm not here to be weird)
dw bae ur tone is fine ! (i’ve been waiting for an ask like this 💀) i think jegulily is... yeah its…. like usually as long as its legal idgaf as long as shippers portray their characters right but regulus fans are literally incapable 😭🙏 WHY WOULD U PAIR A MUGGLEBORN AND A BLOOD SUPREMACIST IM SO DONE WITH DIS FANDOMMMM!! that actually goes for a lot of lily ships like bartylily as well (no clue where that came from either but it’s equally as stupid lmfao).
and jegulily just feels like shoving in lily because people feel bad for ditching her, or shoving in regulus because some people like jily and jegulus and want them (for some reason) to coincide even though it makes zeroooo sense for it to. like, idk if i said this with jegulus before (i yap sm on this account i forget what i say), but like it, jegulily can be done well if a realistic dynamic is taken into account, but the marauders fandom is allergic to nuance and so just chalks up everything regulus does and believes to his neglectful homelife. hes not all-bad, sure, i do feel bad for him, but im nowhere close to shipping him with a woman whos part of the people hes trying to eradicate, or with her man who purposefully went against all pureblood tradition (which is such a large part of james’ character— he is a pureblood that chooses to be seperate from that culture hellooooo plz wake uppppp).
marauders fandom has a chronic “i can fix him” mentality when it comes to wizard neo nazis, i have never understood it. but thats a topic for another day.
jegulily should be filled with envy, toxicity and prejudice stop nerfing it to be some fluffy feel-good polyamorous stable marriage where they raise harry together. yall are looking over the potential. this ship has blood and guts in it plz act like it or else idk what to say 😭 if it doesnt end with at least one of them getting murdered i dont want it.
#imho it just feels willfully ignorant of all three characters to ship them#this goes with most the regulus ships tbh except like bartylus. bcuz barty is just terrible too LOL#just characterise ur characters right people. not to majority fanon interpretation but to who they are CANONLY#you may think its less fun but to me. that’s honestly what makes those three so appealing#+its generally important to understand the media u consume. and yes. that means harry potter as a book series if ur in the marauders fandom#u are not seperate from the hp books if u are attached to its characters (no matter how far youve spun their personalities away)#on a seperate note people are allowed to ship what they want and im being lowkey serious when i say im not gonna find someone weird if they-#-ship something as long as its legal#maybe some jegulily people follow me so let me just say i dont hate the shippers i just heavily dislike the ship 😭#worse than jegulus but somehow less annoying idk how to explain it#harry potter#hp#marauders#marauders era#anti jegulus#anti jegulily#lily evans#jily#pro jily#james potter#lily potter#regulus black#anti regulus black#the marauders era#the marauders#ask#anon#rewriting#tyyyy anon for the ask i luv to yap 🫶🫶
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What better way to practice new prosthetics then to piss of the bitch that got you to need them in the first place!
In other news, my pirate ocs Gali and Ido (with a third Meridi not present) who are the two sides of the fulmini cult escapees :P
A bit of backstory under the cut since they're the only fuckers I have WITH a backstory! Which btw does detail cult shit so :P big fat warning for that-
The inciting incident on Petropia that introduced it's modern underground population to the surface named the Surface Craze was in all due part because of fulmini interference at the behest of the High Override, who saw what was initially just a planet entirely made of quartz-like crystal the Override Fleet could use as a power source. Having instead found that the planet was not only populated but by a species of the living variant of that same quartz-like material - electrical properties and all - but that additionally they can regenerate their crystalline body so long as they have the energy to pull from.
Seeing this as a solution to the fulmini's energy crisis - a perpetual machine at it's finest - the High Override sought to heh... acquire some petrosapiens for themselves. To their collective benefit, a community of petrosapiens had found their faith and world shattered, previously having been extremely devoted to the Sugi religion (derived from the ancient texts of Thuugi back when their tongues were long enough to be bitten off). Instead of needing to drag away dissenters who fought tooth and nail against the invaders, this community had already shifted their faith onto the false prophet of the High Override, which already had them fall into the Coupled Override head over heels.
The cult has now expanded it's pool of prey, and like the unwilling fulmini who gives the High Override their tithe (their minds, their central colony), the petrosapien cultists pay with their arms.
50 years (or the closest equivalent) into this arrangement, 50 years Petropia spent experiencing the surface for the first time in generations, Ido was born into the cult far away from the planet she should have known as home. Any doctor worth their salt had enough brains and stubbornness to not fall into faith-based trust of the Coupled Override, so between the lack of those and the remainder pseudoscience physicians left to echo chamber themselves, when Ido began developing Excessive Compression Disorder (ECD, a nerve-equivalent disorder that causes tension fractures throughout a petrosapien's crystalline structure) despite the rather obvious visible signed she went undiagnosed and improperly treated. At the age of 200 - a petrosapien's coming of age, and 50 years after Petropia's destruction - it was Ido's time to pay her tithe and begin her offerings to the High Override.
Gali - her sacrifricant - was to sever her arms below the elbow, as was procedure. What wasn't was the near explosive response from external pressure, or the last compressive force needed to completely shatter what had already started to break.
Cutting people's arms off is technically already a violent act however, though the lower arms survived the procedure as expected, the elbow and even upper arm had scattered shards of glass-fragile crystal in a visceral radius and physically severed through the sacrificant's central colony; then Gali was abruptly severed from the High Override after they felt as if a limb began necrotising. Sacrificants nor executioners really need an active memory to do their jobs, so Gali didn't need to have memory for however long their colony was one with the High Override's. Forcefully amputated from the larger system like an infection without any of the memories of being apart of said system however, kind of rewinds a colony back to the people they remember being long before any interference.
While Ido was caught staring wide-eyed, fearful, and newly lacking the limbs she thought she could regenerate easily - her arms try and try but they shatter like glass, crumble like sand, and she violently shudders like gravel grinding into each other - Gali regained access of their long unused senses and found a sea of hostile enemy combatants staring back. With all the training of a military general with none of the present self-awareness to realise they were the cause of the currently very panicky rock's lack of arms, Gali almost like a flick of a switch reverted to the many rules of engagement regardless of the fact that they were sporting exposed central colony that may or may not have been another's with their own collection of memories.
Seeing to rescue someone who had all their rights to fear them, Gali and Ido fled to the stars.
With a few language barriers mixed with someones learning they haven't spoken much longer then anyone thought they did, discovering how planets that were meant to be each other's home have been destroyed and irrecoverable, and learning the before and after to the horror story that is the High Override and their cultist network of external nerves and collective colony, Gali and Ido may or may not have gotten arrested :P
And they probably would have been tried for crimes neither of them could particularly understand not having learnt any of the common universal languages, up until the point the prison ship was raided by a collective of pirates only working together for equal cuts of the profits (the Plumbers used a prison ship to transport the Annihilargh while they still thought it to be a threat, what's to say they wouldn't simultaneaously transport prisoners - aka, the fucking point - with some high sought-after McGuffin). The pair would meet Meridi, a galvan with a penchant for mechanics and especially the kind that deceives an observer like - for instance - an android suit.
Meridi isn't here but gist is, she pilots both her own ship and an android resembling a human, and spies a pretty prize of walking talking taydenite. Instead of scoring a deal, she takes into consideration (perhaps with a cold calculation rather than a warm sympathy) the condition of ECD affected crystals and how much effort it would take to actually refine it and deems turning Ido into pocket change isn't worth it. In fact, further taking note of the explosive volatile footwork of crystallokinesis with the additional muscle of a fulmini veteran, actively helping Ido (and Gali by proxy) would potentially turn out more of a profit.
Gali isn't in dire need for hiding, but Ido uses shadow and a human-mouth jaw mask as tools to conceal what price her skin costs, while Meridi attempts to make prosthetics for a species that doesn't have nerves that also takes into account the unstable electrical currents produced by the compression of crystalline motor functions.
A bit of a tangent in a very long not-even-bothering-to-summarize backstory, I want to talk about petrosapien prosthetics, at least ones that can have 'motors' like Ido's arms (not like Chio's leg). With no external muscles to help strap in and extend the remnant of tendons humans have running through limbs, petrosapien exoskeletons do not offer the same interconnectivity and do not have easy ways to extend what had been cut off. Myoelectric limbs again by human standards also do not fit petrosapien nervous systems either, especially since the only nerves they have are in their equivalent of the central nervous system which also interacts with internal organs, the peripheral nervous system of a petrosapien operates with the highly structured yet individually unique non-standardised crystalline formations and compression. What Meridi does however is take material from Ido's crystal to create the joints in a conductive copper rod prosthetic (insulated in rubber to prevent harm to others), where Ido's compression triggers electricity to run down to remotely compress the crystal joints, which compress under the pressures of electricity and send the signal to be compressed again until motility is achieved.
And that is a lot of context :P woops- I either make no backstory or I make this convoluted piece of moving puzzle pieces, the duality of man I suppose :P
#gali#ido#fulmini#petrosapien#ido is hiding the fact she's a petrosapien in the same way tetrax hides the fact he's a petrosapien :P#oc#ben 10 oc#ben 10#fanart#cult#cult mention#the cult details are under the cut but they are mentioned to be ex-cultists in the caption#so it turns out i did end up using something from that mega collection of images#lowkey (highkey actually) i was inspired to give ido a human-mouth mask from that one cover of thunderstruck#thunderstruck guzheng cover by moyun i believe- i do hope it's not like a facial corrective mask and i'm taking that and using it wrong#but moyun covers her face in all videos so forgive me if i'm completely enamoured with the mask design#gotta be honest with you- i made the concept of ido (pirate petrosapien) based on that mask alone#before i had settled on other half of an ex-cult duo#let alone bringing another older actually a pirate character to create another fucking trio#gali as a fulmini uses plural they/them by default but ido with her fulmus/petropian pidgin accidentally single pronouned gali as she/her#gali doesn't mind it she'll just say it's the plural she/her and they'll nod like it makes sense#(anything can make sense when you're one of two people actively speaking a pidgin language out of necessity)#it's not because gali has 'hair' those are the equivalent of exposed nerves (a fun prank to play on your friend *immense pain*)#but those are parts of other's central colonies with their own memory overriden or not#gali mayy or may not have the fulmini equivalent of a dissociative disorder (more osdd than did if anything)#but the functional equivalent in fulmini biology is quite literally caused by having someone else's brain attached to you#more akin to a male anglerfish than childhood neuroplasticity developing coping mechanisms#and introducing excessive compression disorder! a petrosapien chronic illness! yipippie!!!#i know functionally ecd (or this fictional version if humans have their own ecd acronym taken) isn't a problem real people face#but even in a fictional setting i want to be respectful and hopefully it was?
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AHHH THE JOURNAL IS FROZEN, THAT'S SO COOL (Ba dum tss)
Seriously tho, would not have guessed this would affect the gadgets/tools that's super interesting.
#Idk why but this just really struck me#do you think they're all really attached to their gadets?#like they use them to help themselves and their friends/customers#their jobs are lowkey reliant on the tools sometimes#enter angst centered around moments like this where the tools go missing or break#like would Smitty be annoyed that his notebook goes missing or PANIC?#(does he also write feelings in there... but thats an idea for another post)#I feel like the drumsticks are probably the worst to break#because not only can Rich not use the gadget for an idea emergency but he can't play music with the gang#:(((((#I also feel like without his sticks he'd feel like less of a leader#idk why#like he's lacking and feels inadequate with all of his friends having stuff that can help#help solve the problem that HE'S having#but he can't do much to help and he gets all bumed about it#okay you know what screw it#im writing a story about this#alsooo why have we all gotten into the gadgets all of a sudden haha#not that I'm complaining#this is fun#moverblr#imagination movers
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regular customers came in today and said they missed me when i was on my week off esp their kids 😭
#they always tease me when they come in literally abt everything but im attached to them all lowkey sjdnsnd#their kids are teens so they’re prolly annoying but they’re funny in public FNSNFNSNND#like my colleague was useless helping them when they came in apparently but i know how to do my job as well as be their friend thankfully#mrow.org
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k I'm just going to talk about my friend rn cause I feel sentimental and have no one to talk to about this
They're genuinely such a lovely person guys like holy shit, they work so hard and are so intelligent and so compassionate and really fucking funny. They are so understanding and kind and they reassure me when I'm having panick-y days and we get on so well and have all these weird as shit inside jokes and literally just being with them makes me feel happier and calmer (and I hope that I make them feel at least a fraction of that (I think I worded this oddly sorry)).
I love them so much and I just want them to be happy and to see themself the way I see them. And like yh I'm terrified that they'll get bored of me and leave but like even then I'm not as worried cause I'm so glad I even got to be friends with them. I trust them so much and just, aaaaah. They are literally my favourite person.
#de parvo cuniculo saucio#like seriously how can one person be so kind and so funny and so smart#lowkey praying they never find this cause I'm pretty sure I'm not really that important to them (obvi we're friends but like I get attached#to people really fast so they probably don't care about me as much) and I would have a lot of explaining to do lol#I love them#they know me so well it's actually scary#I accidentally spilt coffee on them and was cleaning it up etc and they looked at me and went#I know you're going to overthink this - don't - it's all fine#I still overthought it a bit but like#yk#btw they were fine and their jeans didn't even stain lol#I'm going to latin camp with them and I'm actually so excited - nervous but excited#i love my friend so much <333#friends#friendship#I truly don't deserve them
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i just want school to be over already. im so burnt out from everything. i worked full time over spring break and have a speech due the first day back and i couldnt even enjoy the break bc ive just been stressed about it the whole time. then 2 papers due next month and finals coming up. juggling school, work, and family/friends feels impossible. like, you just cant give 100% to all while still giving 100% to yourself and it takes its toll after awhile.
#second semester senioritis is no joke </3#i already have all the credits i need to graduate but my speech class is the one important one#like im taking it now so i wont have to take it in Real College#and missing a speech would = failing#and i already got a 75 on one of them which still pisses me off#bc i didnt realize that the video didnt attach bc my father almost DIED and was in the hospital so i wasnt checking canvas for a few days#the only reason she even took it was bc youtube had the timestamp of when it was posted#still took late points off but whatever#anyways sorry to get so real and personal on the silly little mermaid blog but i just need to get it out and im also procrastinating writin#this speech lol#and i think i lowkey have a phone addiction??#soo#i really need to get my shit together#but theres no time!!!#god and im so tired all the time bc i get home late for working then wake up early for school :(#im like a sim whose fun meter is red#cleo-serotonin lore#vent#i just have 0 motivation#anxiety fuels me#oh and this burnt out feeling is really concerning me for when i get to Real College#bc if im already feeling this way now;; how am i gonna feel when the classes are even harder and i have to take more of them?#if i had a passion or even knew what i wanted to study it wouldnt be an issue#but alas#mermaid isnt a major
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i don't drink but i'd love to crack one open with the whole trigun crew
#i'd go to a bar with them#nightow made them so endearing i've really grown attached everyone ;-;#trigun#the 98 anime lowkey feels like a coming of age thing but for 20-something year olds#or maybe that's just me#something about watching the insurance girls navigate the dangers of their job#and all the people vash meets along the way#god i NEED to start that newsletter
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NO BECAUSE LIVE ACTION CLICKERS ARE SCARY AF?????
#the last of us spoilers#tlou spoilers#this episode!!!!#that scene where they were in the capitol and the fungus went into the guy's nails????#disgusting. loved it.#also i know that this is controversial but i actually didn't mind them changing tess's sacrifice#bc seriously#it makes more sense that the infected went after them#instead of fedra#but maybe that's just me#also the kiss?#i feel like there's a meaning behind it#like become infected is noncon and the kiss was lowkey the visualization of that or sumn#man idk#anyway i enjoyed this episode#i knew tess was going to die and yet i still let myself get attached to her all over again!!!#the last of us hbo#tlou hbo#the last of us series
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Okay I think I actually love the Brazilian dub of toh (<- I do not speak Portuguese)
#ramblings of a lunatic#the owl house#i can't comment on how well things are translated BUT i do know that i love the voice acting for it#the only one I'd say is so-so so far is hunter (I'm just attached to Zeno. tho i do love his latin american VA patricio lago!)#but also i haven't heard much of him yet#BUT WILLOW LUZ AND GUS ARE ALL ON POINT??? not in terms of voice matching but in terms of character energy#lowkey appreciated them not going for as much of a generic high pitched mean girl voice for boscha#as much as i like eden reigel in the og version this version feels like a girl who is good at sports and bullies you abt it#haven't seen Darius' tho (I'm watch asias and switched dubs part way through)#watching in different dubs is fun though!!! it's not as fun as the spanish dub where I can actually catch every other word or two#but it's also more fun bc it makes the episode feel fresher for me. which is nice since I've seen this show like. 4 times lol#anyway! ya learn something new everyday#i think i might watch king's tide in the Japanese dub someday tho bc belos va reminds me of the fuckin. badguy in pretty cure#and that's so funny to me. that's so funny
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I haven’t read the weekend yet, but I’m definitely excited to read it. I saw one of you post and I agreed I feel like fanfics are phasing out here on tumblr because of the boys are enlisting. Like there were so many good writers that are no longer on here anymore. So many stories disappeared along with them that I would love to read again. You guys made this place fun and it’s a comfort zone. I’m scared and sad that once all the boys are gone, you guys would leave this place too. I just want to let you know that you guys are so talented, down to earth, easy to talk to, and make this place a comfort zone for us. I know this isn’t their page but thank you to @mercurygguk @kpopfanfictrash and of course you @chryblossomjjk
omg hi friend! i totally get what you mean! there’s such a sense of community on here that when people leave it genuinely feels like you’ve lost a friend! even if it’s someone you don’t interact with much like you just get used to their presence and when they’re not here it just feels… weird and sad.
and thank you so much! you guys have made this place so fun and enjoyable for me aswell. i adore this community fr!
#anon#i dont see myself leaving anytime soon!#and even if i did i would leave my stories up#just bc i have such an attachment to them and the experiences on here !!#ngl though#i think i might take a break from writing for a bit!#i dont like the direction this platform has gone in!#not the readers or moots or the community#like actual tumblr itself !#every fic drop since practice pt 3 has gotten suppressed#and this last fic drop was lowkey kind of heartbreaking lol#like to put sm work into something and then for the platform to just shadowban it really sucks#and it’s not even an engagement thing it’s just like#killed all of the visibility#and i was SAUR proud of this fic lol#so im feeling a bit demotivated:/#i wish i wasnt but#idk#im sure ill feel better in a few weeks or so and find motivation again but yeah#i dont want to leave here#ive grown too in love with all of u lol#like i would miss you too much fr#you guys are my friends genuinely#and I ENCOURAGE EVERYONE READING#IF YOURE DEBATING MAKING FANFIC#PLS DO !#we would love to have u !! 💗#and i would love to see this community boom again for sure!!#also stan cami best writer lol !!!
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ok so today I had one of the most fascinating and enlightening discussions maybe of my life and I need to share bc it blew my MIND (warning: long)
here's the context. there is a friend I have. they are a pretty good friend of mine that I've known for many years now and I appreciate them as a person very much. lately I have noticed that they've been texting me fairly frequently. which, from my point of view, is once every couple of days. not because they had something specific to say, but just saying hello or asking how my day was.
I'm sure this was well-intentioned, but this was starting to get a tiny bit grating for me. we just met up in person literally two days ago! and you had texted me not long before that, too! nothing new has happened since then! my day has been quite boring, actually! I thought, in my mind, as I swiped away the notification—and immediately felt like an awful friend.
I knew from past experience that responding to the message would invite an immediate and not easily escapable conversation that, due to my poor multitasking skills, would distract me from work or require me to context switch away from whatever else it was I was doing at the moment—cooking, doing chores, watching TV—and worse, amount to little more than idle chit-chat about the same boring quotidian complaints as usual. I am not one of those people who thinks they're above small talk or don't see its social value, but I found myself thinking, am I the one who is being not normal here in not enjoying having this specific kind of interaction MULTIPLE times a week with the SAME person?
so recently, I've been finding myself routinely avoiding opening this particular friend's messages for fear of hurting their feelings if they saw that I had left them on read for a prolonged period of time. I had even gone so far as to avoid posting in a group chat in which we're both participants so that they don't realize that I have, in fact, been online, just not responding to them, specifically. my hope was that after enough slow responses, this friend would eventually get the hint and give up on trying to maintain a steady steam of conversation, but somehow this has not worked so far.
this was starting to weigh on my conscience. I realized that I will have to eventually fight my conflict-avoidant tendencies and just confront this friend directly, for the sake of both my sanity and our friendship. but how to do this gently? tactfully? without implying that I don't value their friendship or that I perceive them as needy or annoying? that was the tricky question. because I know that my friend isn't doing anything wrong! if anything it is probably me that is weird and antisocial and I probably just need to work on my social skills!
but not wanting to feel like a total asshole and hoping to go in with an informed and reasonable mindset (knowing full well that my understanding of social norms isn't always the keenest), I asked a different group chat for their opinion, hoping to gain some perspective on what boundaries they generally considered normal and acceptable to exercise. I phrased my question thusly:
how many friends* would you say you have where you text on a regular basis (say, multiple times a week) 1:1 just to say hi, about nothing in particular *explicitly a friend, not a family member or SO
y'all. the responses were eye-opening.
there were four people who participated in this discussion, all four of whom were in different camps and had wildly different experiences:
0, and assumed most others were the same
0, but assumed most others were not the same
multiple, and assumed most others were the same
multiple, but assumed most others were not the same
1 was me; in retrospect, I am realizing that because I had assumed that these kinds of interactions were not typical, I had interpreted my friend's gesture as something much more significant than it probably was in their mind, which is to say something that they just happen to do with everyone they know and like—which created a sort of pressure in my mind not to let them down and caused a sense of intense anxiety when I found myself struggling to reciprocate. I am absolutely floored at the revelation that it is apparently normal and common for people to have MULTIPLE friends (not even partners!!! or family!!!) that they are talking to on a constant ongoing basis at any given time, and at the possibility that I was treating my friend's feelings with kid gloves when it REALLY wasn't that hashtag deep for them.
2 clarified that they never initiate these kinds of chats, but when others initiate with them, they're fairly comfortable with simply letting these kinds of pings go unanswered, assuming the other person will just move on to someone else without taking it personally.
3 confessed to me that they once tried to do something similar with me, and eventually gave up, but had felt a bit hurt and rejected at my lack of enthusiasm, because they assumed that I was doing this with other people, just not them specifically. they sympathized very strongly with my friend.
4 also recalled that they had at one point tried something similar with me, but sort of got that I wasn't one of those people who would be receptive to this style of communication and wasn't particularly bothered by this, agreeing with 2 that the expectation is not that the recipient HAS to respond, and that my friend should probably pay closer attention to the face-saving social cues I was sending by not responding or responding slowly.
but yeah, the takeaway from this conversation is that people's preferences and experiences and expectations when it comes to digital communication are WILDLY varied, and because both communication technology and the social conventions surrounding them are changing CONSTANTLY (just a few examples: are read receipts good or bad? what about typing indicators? online status? are emoji reacts or gifs/stickers an acceptable substitute for an actual reply? group chats vs. 1:1 DMs? synchronicity and formality of various communication methods like email and chat and video? are phone calls are still socially acceptable?) there are either no agreed-on norms or different camps of people have vastly different understandings of what the norms are
among the other highlights/a-ha moments of this discussion:
Friend 4 asked another friend who is even MORE extraverted than they are what their # was and they reported somewhere in the ballpark of 20-40 people in any given week which is absolutely buckwild to me (importantly, all four of us in the original group happen to be software engineers, a class of people notorious for their lack of sociability, so I have no confidence that I have captured a representative sample size even within this particular group—the numbers both 3 and 4 gave were still both in the single digits, though they are definitely the warmest and friendliest of the bunch)
I realized that one difference between me and 3/4 was that we fulfill our social needs quite differently? specifically, I mostly connect with friends over group chats, of which I have a handful that are quite chatty and at least one or two that I'm actively posting in on any given day. I also typically have at least one, often multiple, real-life social plans every week! I am, in fact, very satisfied with my social life, to the point where it is almost maxing out my social quota (especially recently now that I've started dating someone)! but anyway—I find group chats to be my ideal form of day-to-day communication because there's less urgency and pressure for any individual person to contribute if they're not feeling up for it, and ALSO in the case of group chats where at least one member is a straight man (which is the majority of them for me, and I call out straight men only because they are the only demographic I have historically had this issue with) there is less room for platonic interactions to be undesirably misinterpreted as romantic
3/4 expressed that they prefer 1:1 conversations because they feel more personal and they can be more vulnerable about sensitive topics, which I would generally agree with—though in several of my group chats, I personally do feel comfortable enough with all the members to share things about myself with the entire group just by virtue of having known everyone for a long time and having built group camaraderie, but they seemed to not be comfortable with this without having previously established a consistent 1:1 pattern of day-to-day communication (or maybe they meant they were uncomfortable with the group forum itself, even if they were cool with sharing with everyone individually)?
they also expressed that for them, frequent unsolicited checkins and 1:1 attention from a friend would feel exciting/flattering/validating for them, whereas for me it would feel overwhelming, especially if we weren't THAT close
I do use 1:1 DMs also, but for a very different set of use cases: 1) if I haven't caught up with someone in a while (read: weeks or months), in which case we'll often just not text super long and make plans to call or meet in person instead, or 2) if I have something specific to say, like "here's this meme/song/piece of news I think you'd like to see" or "I need advice on X" or "guess what happened that made me think of you" or "I heard X happened, are you OK?"
I found that whereas I have a very clear distinction between communication preferences with a friend (someone I talk to on a regular basis but don't have a constant line of individual communication with) vs. a significant other (more or less willing to do this, unless they preferred not to), such a boundary between a platonic and romantic relationship does NOT exist for all people which boggled my mind
but yes anyway. I am learning so much about the way people view socializing in the digital age and I am so curious to know more and I kind of wish more people talked about this more openly (specifically among friends! because in my experience this is something that is fairly common to sort out explicitly in a romantic context) because I think this is probably the kind of thing that no one talks about because people are either afraid of potentially hurting feelings or everyone is just kind of assuming by default that their takes are universal without realizing that no actually, many people have strong opinions on this that are the polar opposite of theirs
but my gut feeling is that there is a lot of completely unnecessary friction that could just be resolved if only we could agree that it's cool to be more upfront about what our communication preferences are without worrying about that being taken extremely personally by the other party? bc idk, every single person I talked to about this today was like holy shit this was a whole fucking revelation actually, I can't believe I hadn't thought about this before thank you for bringing this up
#cam thoughts#I still have to talk to original friend#but am thinking maybe doing this next time I see them in person bc I find it so much easier to convey tone not when typing#bc there is an external factor that I suspect may have to do with why they're suddenly reaching out so frequently and I want to be sensitiv#but now I want to know the answer to this question for literally everyone I know. Im SO curious what is actually objectively normal/typical#but my gut tells me that this is like#inherently a delicate question to ask bc it can really make it uncomfortably clear if 2 ppl are not on the same page re:their friendship#also I realized that most of this group are specifically SWEs who have worked ON a chat application in the past.#so of COURSE we all have super strong opinions about literally all of this which is hilarious#also I didn't want to say it but have I definitely been thinking *meme voice* is this attachment theory? this whole time? lowkey mayhaps.#also also if you're reading this and I ever left you on read please do know that I do feel bad about it and I am sorry#final postscript I do not mean to suggest that I never want to be reached out to or checked in on. just. my capacity for social threads#is extremely low so please don't take it personally if I cannot prioritize your message right away or scale back chatting to a slower pace#tl;dr everyone is normal and fine and just different and the sooner we realize this the healthier our digital social lives will become.
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Feels like a day to go home methinks 😌😌
#i need a solid shower and de-furred clothing#and i need a bathroom with some privacy. not one attached to the *kitchen* of all rooms#what i need most is my fucking bed#i lowkey think airbeds are a trigger after all these years of being in horrifically uncomfortable situations with them#but i need a shower and some mouthwash and a good hairbrush#but yee everyones feeling a lil touchy rn so its time to go now probably
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this game is such blue lions propaganda and i just dont caaaaaare
#like.. dimitri is fine i guess. my perception of him has been skewed due to how many ppl suck his dick and hate on edie#so in response i very much dislike and am annoyed by him#dedue is good. theres nothing abt him for me to dislike#sylvain annoys me lowkey. and felix is fine i guess i actually like him a bit#ashe is sort of just. idk. there. once again no reason for me to dislike him#annette is cute and all but im no tlike really attached to her#thats the thing. i dont feel attached to like any of them#ingrid... god. i wouldve rly liked ingrid if she werent written to be disgustingly racist and shit.#like i understand why she is the way she is but like ... girl cmon#mercedes is my GIRLLLL THOUGH I LOVE HER SO MUCH#anyway things that would get me killed if i had a bigger presence on here lmao#i just loooov ebeing different an dnot like other girls#mine#text#my FE tag#FE#FE3H#my thoughts
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hmmm maybe i should go through my following again lol
#mine.txt#following too many ppl again not a big fan#gonna have to narrow down who i wanna follow and who i dont#sad to say but i think im gonna have to unfollow a lot of hc ppl since my dash is mostly that rn#and i dont wanna get sick of it the way i did with the life series (except last life my beloved <3)#should probs also unfollow all the minors lol (or at least those below 16)#like i love that theyre here but for personal reasons it lowkey freaks me out seeing such young active fandom ppl#should probs also unfollow the ppl whose fandoms im not even in and who i dont even have any kind of attachment to lol#like i dont even remember why i followed half the ppl in my list#also ppl who i know for sure are gonna be rbed by a lot of ppl#cause like im gonna see them anyway lol
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