#low mood

[bodhrancomedy]

Catch me desperately googling “where is my local aquarium and do they let me pet the rays” at 10:30pm.

Previous google searches include, “Does Pets At Home let you hold the gerbils”, “What animals do Zoos let you touch” and “Nearest cats please.”

[nicistrying]

Saturday 4th January

Slept like trash last night, I was so anxious I just couldn't fall asleep and ended up staying up far too late window shopping for clothes I don't need.

Matt woke me up with a cup of tea in bed, and tbh I woke up feeling just shit. Not even sad or anxious just apathetic & depressed. I'm not enjoying my moods fucking me up so much lately but I know Christmas time is just triggering for my nervous system. I visited my friend and her baby this morning and she said she noticed I've been really down lately too but we agreed hopefully going back to work and having a routine will help. So I drove over there and spent some time with her and my godson which was nice. I still felt gross but I got to see sweet baby Teddy and he is the happiest baby I've ever known so it's hard not to smile around him. Proud of myself for getting dressed and going out even though I didn't want to at all

Came home and collapsed on the couch just feeling numb. Had some avocado on toast and leftover veggie nugs from last night for lunch, and an apple. Matt has gone over to his parents' for his brother's fiancé's bday meal, I don't want to go see them all so I'm not.

Still feeling a bit fragile buf my plan for the evening is to watch the last 10 minutes of my episode of Inventing Anna, run a bath and do some exercise just while the bath is running. I find that helps me do something rather than nothing when I'm feeling shit bc there's a time frame. As long as I'm doing something for those 20 minutes the bath is running, I did a workout. Aiming for a little core and upper body action today. I want to beat myself up for not taking the new year seriously or whatever but like. I'm having a depression episode how can I expect myself to bang out a great workout. Literally any movement at all is a win. Idk if I'm being too soft on myself and not ambitious enough but for now it's what I can manage

[wellthatsunfortunate444]

oh she cries herself to sleep every night for a month straight and breaks down every time shes alone? no biggie.

shes isolating herself and staying in bed all morning? nah whatever.

she drew a single drop of blood? let me tell her im here for her so it seems like i care 🥹

[justanotherbipolarmum]

Ever feel so flat that you can't even string a sentence together, the tone of your voice sounds so dead. Like there's no personality left.

[lonelyandlostintime]

Being stupid enough to think anyone would actually miss or care if you were gone as if you aren’t everyone’s second or third option… everyone has their person I don’t need to be here for anyone

[diamondshapedcat]

SZPD is just the worst

SZPD is that feeling in your heart where you know that there should be something there, some part of you that makes all the socialising decisions and brings all the energy needed to make connections and it's not there. You don't know what it's supposed to be or how it works, you just know that there's a hole that can't be filled.

And the worst part is that you can't talk about it because no one understands. There's a bar that's so low that most people can jump over without realising that it exists and people with szpd can't get past it. Ask any psychologist and they will say one of two things: I haven't heard of that before or I can't help you because I don't know how to. There is no cure, there is no treatment. Hell there isn't any real research being done because it's so rare.

To interact with the world it feels like you need at least some skill in making social connections and if you can't make that happen it feels like you don't belong anywhere and you don't really count as human.

I know that human connections are one of the most important things in this world so why don't I care about them?

[well-thats-unfortunate-444]

not to keep talking about the same thing over and over, but fuck it this is my blog

ive convinced myself that anytime im sad or not particularly mentally well, its just bc of period hormones?

i was researching the effects of hormones on mood at varying stages of the cycle, and realised that the day i logged in my mood tracker as the start of me feeling shit was actually during the phase "typically associated with better moods"

maybe my brain will stop calling me a fucking liar now oml

[poetic-echoes]

It's not the bruises on the body that hurt. It is the wounds of the mind and the scars on the mind.

Aisha Mirza

[shiningmystic]

A list of methods to lift low mood:

Disclaimer: if you know what is keeping you in a low mood such as clinical depression and anxiety you can still use these methods to ease pain but do not expect them to work immediately or at all. When I was small and sad I wished I had a list of what to do when I was suffering because obviously, I didn't want to feel the pain I was feeling. Just know you are worthy of reaching peace and happiness and if these worked for me it will help some of you. These are just methods to try out, nothing more. I also need to state I am not a therapist, but I have done my research and worked closely with my therapist for my depression. Here's to little me :)

Talk to someone - preferably with a loved one or someone you know you can talk about your interests with. We naturally lighten up when another is engaged with us, this brings up mood significantly. If your feeling a little wild maybe go outside to a public place and talk to someone.

Read a book - escape is good when we dwell on heavy thoughts, sometimes being sucked into a world can be a good release from the pressure of reality. Try to ask yourself if your low mood is from something you’re avoiding, if not then proceed with reading or even doing one of your hobbies to get your mind off things.

Take a walk-through nature - when we have a low mood day, we want minimal effort practices to lift us up, so this suggestion is more for people who aren’t too depressed or anxious. Do not feel shame for your low tolerance days it’s actually normal for everyday to be a bit different with your window of tolerance. Nature brings us back to earth and does lift our moods naturally.

Exercise - again depressed people I get if you ignore this one too but if you can go take a walk or stretch it will pump your blood and release endorphins; natural healing of the mental/emotional and physical body. If you feel worse after a workout it’s just your body releasing the extra emotions. I personally take a shower after and it feels heavenly.

Listen to your favorite music - music speaks to a certain part within us that makes us feel emotions. Music is powerful tool so don’t doubt its power when you are in a shit mood. Come back to yourself and just focus on the music. Do you dance? do you feel compelled to sing along? Do you see a scene in your head? Enjoy what it brings to your mind. I do think singing happy songs or sad songs alike help but i prefer to listen to motivational and soothing music as someone who has complex ptsd.

Watch a comfort show - preferably a show you have watched before and know what will happen. I do this a lot with a few shows but this helps me have background noise and also laugh when I’m down. Preferably not shows that remind you of your life either, that can trigger your low mood more if that’s what is bringing you down.

Journaling or talking out your feelings - this is like number one but it’s also quite healing to scribble in a journal and to really release what is trapped in your skull; sometimes it feels like chaos up there so journaling will help calm things down and bring it into perspective. It would work better if you can have a listening ear from someone you trust so, if you're willing, always try to communicate what you're feeling and why. This also helps you identify what is bothering you. if you want to try and take it a step further; after you go journal or talk out your feelings go for a run, dance, something active to let your body know you are out of the "danger" and free to release the stress. I already have a post about releasing emotions here.

Meditation - When I'm depressed, I have intense brain fog so don't feel bad if you can't do this one for any reason. Clinically though it does help the brain relax and function better then when you are stuck in a loop of judgments towards yourself. Meditation is meant to cultivate a space of observations and not judgments. for example, when we sit down and meditate, we may have a very anxious thought arise. Our instinct and pattern is to avoid anxious and scary thoughts so our judgments of past experiences/thoughts crop up and we do not want to see that. If we can just observe and not judge, that is meditation. you observe that you feel terrible of what you are feeling and letting the memory/thought pass as an observer. There are times I can't be the observer of my thoughts so in those moments I end the session and acknowledge that it was hard today. I tell myself that its ok to try again later or tomorrow.

Give yourself some grace - most of the time when we are in a low mood we are hard on ourselves and giving yourself space and understanding that all emotions are valid, even unreasonable ones/what you may think is unreasonable, sets you on a path to understand yourself and to know your limits. Re-evaluate why you are in a low mood and understand that it is normal. If you know you have more stress and constantly battling with low mood (especially for more then 2 weeks and you have tried methods before to help yourself) please go to a doctor to see if it is serious; I want you all safe.

Make a schedule for the day - I struggle with this the most because I grew up being forced into a schedule and just didn’t understand until now how helpful it is for a brain that already is dealing with a lot on its plate. The reason is the brain makes pathways for our habits, so it does not have to use as much energy every time it has to repeat an action. If we are constantly on a different schedule, that forces the brain to be on its toes and may stress you out more/forces your brain to use more energy that you may not have. Usually, I get too lazy and fall back into an old patterns because I keep missing my schedule. Schedules will help you when you establish new habits and make them apart of your life. Obviously not every part of your day should be scheduled but I hope you can see from my explanation why it’s better because biologically we like schedules. as an example, the day and night cycles and our cardiac rhythm are patterns we need to have, or sleep doesn't feel satisfying. Sleep 100% affects your mood.

Do one thing on your list of things to do today - if you are avoiding a certain task and it's making you freak out how about you just do one small step? ask for some help if need be. or maybe if it is not dire task that you have to do now make a list of things you want to finish today but only focus on finishing one. Just one thing on the list will make it feel less overwhelming and if you're feeling up for it, do the next easy thing on the list. this will lift your mood from completing a task and may even give you more motivation to keep going. sometimes it is good to push ourselves but other times it's good to listen to your body and energy levels.

Make sure you get enough sun/vitamin D - simple yet effective. I know many people who may not get enough sun especially where I live. I take vitamin D supplements and have a sun lamp like a plant hehe. Make sure you are not vitamin D deficient and check with your doctor to see if they are low.

I hope these methods assist you on your low days or with your depression. Keep believing in yourself, it is possible to feel better! Love you <3

-ShiningMystic

[i-will-slowly-heal]

When you don't feel like you can say how you feel so you come to Tumblr to find people as fucked up as you. You know shits bad

[nicistrying]

Sun 8th Sep

Nothing really to report, I just want to put my thoughts and feelings into the void to look back on later.

Woke up this morning feeling better than yesterday. Lay cuddling Maggie, went downstairs and watched the last episode of Bly Manor with a cup of tea. Did some housework. Got a little moody while doing it bc I remembered shitty comments my sister in law makes about the house a lot when we see her. I just think she's so fucking rude, we have a black long haired dog how are we going to have a spotless house. I clean it every fucking weekend but it literally lasts 10 minutes and everything is dirty again either from the man or the dog I live with. Anyway put my earphones in to drown out those thoughts, had a sing and dance while hoovering. Got dressed to go out to visit a load of family and got sad and overwhelmed. My mam told my nanna I would go visit her today too so we had 4 visits to do instead of 3 which would already have been tiring. So we visited step-grandma who is a pain in the arse like EVERYTHING is a drama with her she's so negative and it's exhausting (ik I can't talk atm I'm no better). Then Nanna Mary which did cheer me up a lot to be fair. She told us about her trip out to the museum with the blind society she goes out with 🥹 she's my hero. She's not blind or even partially blind, she just goes along for fun with her friend who is partially sighted. Then we went to Matt's parents' and that went pretty much how we expected it to. They were okay, it was just hard work. Then we went to see my mams and had a nice little catch up with them.

When we finally got home I was so exhausted I just crawled into bed. Had a cuddle with Maggie and got a bit sad, because I was lying in bed at 6pm duh. In hindsight I could have stretched or even just watched tv and I probably would have felt better but I just felt exposed downstairs and wanted to hide in my duvet. But I just keep thinking I still haven't had a 'day off' since before our honeymoon. Not one day where I haven't had to work, or visit someone, or go somewhere or do something. For like 3 weeks at least, and before that was the wedding. So yeah I think I'm just really tired and overwhelmed and I think that's okay. I just have to push through the work week and try to take care of myself gently, and next weekend I can relax. Matt is working all weekend so he'll have the car so I won't physically be able to go out to visit anyone lol. Anyway that's what's happening. Yo-yoing between 'I feel quite depressed and overwhelmed and shit so I must be lazy and shit' to 'it's okay that I feel shit and I just need to be nice to myself through it and try to do some things that will help'. I feel like I'm walking a veeeery thin line 😂

[averyroundsquare]

Beginning to hate everyone.

Getting irritable and disliking everybody.

Not sure what the problem is.

I know it’s depression creeping back in.

Tired of everybody being fake.

Tired of how the system is set up.

Tired of how selfish people are.

Tired of feeling like I don’t belong.

[wellthatsunfortunate444]

i try to remind myself that just because im struggling, doesn't mean anyone deserves to be mistreated by me.

[self-motivationmedia]

We experience emotions, we are not emotions. One experiences anger but one is not anger. Allow yourself to experience the range of emotions, as humans we are meant to. ~ In Awe

[wthvansss]

Feeling Down ?

Feeling down, in psychology, refers to a state of low mood or sadness often accompanied by a lack of interest or pleasure in activities, changes in appetite or sleep patterns, fatigue, and negative thinking. This condition may be transient or prolonged and can impact various aspects of an individual's life, including their social, occupational, and personal functioning.

Reference:

Book: "Abnormal Psychology" by Barlow & Durand (2018).

Picture and caption:- Vanshika

[cursedcadaver]

being suicidal isn't always making plans and attempts to end your life.

it's also laying in bed, staring at nothing, with your brain screaming at you that everything would be better if your were dead and your mind playing images and ideas on never ending loops to push you over the edge.