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YO, I'm literally stuck between there's no way Will could ever love Hannibal in a healthy way, nor should he. LMAO. and... but I want Hannibal's love to be reciprocated. 😭😭😭
#Hannibal#hannigram#LIKE#lmao my boy tried to kill Will MULTIPLE times#manipulated him and isolated him from people he cared about or is cared about#nearly killed his wife cause she got in the way of Will's attentions for him#plus Will not likely ever going down the dark path that Hannibal does#unless it's by the mere constant persuasion of Hannibal's manipulations#BUT...#lmao I also somehow feel bad for Hannibal when Will doesn't return the feelings LMAO Which is not right xD#Im starting to realize that for me I like ships with passion#and their actions have little to say in the matter#and their relationship is SO passionate#love and hate Id figure#but also Will does seem to have a fondness for him at times? is it merely because he couldn't get away?#or since he keeps getting dragged back in?#this show is honestly the most thought provoking content Ive had in ages#Mongoose Under the Floorboards#I need to read some AUs with no cannibal hannibal lmao
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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#Adventure Time#Jake the Dog#lady rainicorn#Do They Have a Ship Name? Idk#ANYWAYS Im Trynna Figure Out How to Draw Adventure Time Characters#Its Been a While SInce I Had to Finagle a New Art Style Cuz I Kinda Have Obejct Shows Down Pat#Its an Interesting Thing to Try N Suss Out Cuz the Adventure Time Characters Have a LOOK to Them#For Lady I Drew From the MLP Kirin and Also Wanted Her to Look More Dragony#Maybe If I Spent More Time Id Try N Render Her Snout to Make It Scaly? Idk#Jake's a Dog. I Drew Him Like a Dog#Everypony Clap#Dreamy Art#Im Gettin More Into Adventure Time Im Praying to Every Loving God Out There That Im Allowed to Leave Cuz Dawg I Hate It Here
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Thinking about how the Tower & the Adversary routes are connected through the Fury, and how you kind of get there by turning one into the other, and how horrified they are by what they become. Tower is about subjugation - she outright says she does not believe the two of you are on equal footing. You get the Fury from her when you assert your independence and fight back, forcing her to take you seriously as a threat and defend herself. Adversary is all about an equal fight - she prides herself on her strength, but also admires yours. You access the Fury through her by refusing to fight, watching her beat you to a pulp and become disgusted by what she does to you. IDK it is interesting how the Tower & Adversary parallel one another, and how you end up with the Fury in each route by doing what their sister route would have wanted you to do.
#i have no idea if the last sentence makes sense here lol#slay the princess#stp#the adversary#the tower#the fury#ive just been thinking about these guys a lot#in part just bc fury is a fascinating route to me (im very glad she's getting expanded upon)#& while tower's probably my least favorite route i still think about her a lot. i have a lot of thoughts about tower#but also 'sacrifice the yourself' has me thinking about how the princesses might feel about each other#& while i kinda concluded tower would dismiss all of the other vessels as 'insults' to her existence#i kind of started thinking about how much adversary (who loves an equal fight) would HATE playing the tower route lmao#idk it's a shame these guys get less attention compared to the 'nicer' princesses bc the ways they connect are really interesting#honestly im also curious about apotheosis bc id like to see her turn around how some ppl feel about tower#actually final addition to these long tags -#i think part of the tower hate comes from how frustrating it can be to play#(my first time through i was struggling to figure out what to do bc of the options being taken away)#and partially bc broken is a lot of ppl's least favorite voice#but *I* didn't mind broken. he got a few laughs out of me#my least favorite voice is cold
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Im going to be insane on saturday ill never shut up
#many rambles in tags btw#struda rambles#ive been in such an art slump as of late#id hate to think burnout is hitting me but to be fair i went for over a whole year where i was in a state of constantly putting out art#i kinda figured it hit me sooner or later#i think the timing of both school starting up and the ontent drought hasnt really helped though#still i really hope s10 can spark things up a little again#get me back to drawing#(though to be fair rn when i get free time i tend to hop on artimator smp bc i love my friends)#just some thoughts and rambles#*content#i misspelled it earlier but im on mobile rn and dont feel like fixing it
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out of all of ur ocs I’m still Wyatt’s #1 fan,,, holds all of my nonexistent wyatt merch…. But all of ur ocs are so great and I e loved seeing ur art evolve over the like. oh my god it’s been like a decade almost NDKENDOROANDOE scary
wyatt u will always be famous and the original fan favorite... honestly i wish i cld control what my brain fixated on bc i do want to bring her back for a bit since her and talon are the same breed of person (they're both cats.) and they wld have some good interactions! ive thought of two good ones and a text post one inspired one and i wanna see if i can be motivated to doodle em soon if at all lolll ^_^ havent drawn her in a while so im rusty but:
(also thank u for sticking around ^_^)
#skunk mail#Anonymous#a doodley#i dont know how to develop and have ocs without imagining interacting with them so its hard...#i feel like i exhausted the whole main group and only al survived and even he's kinda frozen in time since he's my support#i worry one day talon will suffer the same fate where ill just fully run thru the tape and not be able to rewind it !#idk if that makes sense. idk how normal ppl develop and have ocs without personal fixation...#and this is also that they kinda never fully develop or have an end or resolution...aroo...idk how to write#OK sorry no one asked LEL#i feel so bad bc idk....id hate if i was invested in someones oc and they were abandoned forever....! i need to figure out how to be normal#oc artist....esp since ocs are all i have and i wont ever make a comic with em or anything#anyway. my only straight oc i love uuuu
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been slowly getting back into drawing toh again so here's some willow and luz I drew last night on my phone with a finger
#toh#toh fanart#lilac art#luz noceda#willow park#just trying to figure out how to draw these guys again#im trying something new with Luz because i hate drawing her stupid lip thing it drives me insane#and willow is fun. i like drawing her :]#image id in alt text#oh squishy baby luz i love you so…#lilac doodle
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tagged by @jesuisici33 @thewolvesof1998 @daffi-990 @jamespearce9-1-1 @lover-of-mine @hippolotamus @disasterbuckdiaz 💖💖
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It’s a good few weeks, and it feels like everyone’s back on track, settling into their lives again, figuring everything out one day at a time. Buck’s happy. He has his awesome girlfriend, his best friend seems finally more at ease, even if the divorce is adding some stress, and his other best friend is happier than ever with his mom around. Everything’s finally starting to go great.
And then it all gets disrupted again.
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#the alive shannon fic#last line tag#buddie wip#buddie fic#wikiangela writes#my writing#fic snippet#clearly struggling to segue into the bombing lmao#my wips#skipped wip wednesday so have a lil line haha#thought id have the bombing written already but need to start getting ready for work so i guess writing's done for today lmao#i might be a little absent from the writing games in the next few weeks bc im just so exhausted lately lol#this scene I'm writing is so disjointed and out of order rn and i hate it i need to find more time to write it properly haha#but pls keep tagging me i love reading y'alls wonderful snippets!!#also what do we think shannon's job could be bc im trying to figure it out and have no clue lol#(also i have to actively remind myself of ali's existence and i can't wait until the break up so i don't have to anymore lmao)
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im feeling a little better today so i scribbled myself if i were in twst
#i forgot to label my loving trustworthy eyes. blinking so cutely at u. do u want to hear me talk At you about the housing market#me with my unstoppable brainrot over diasomnia: so anyways i am sooooooo deeply octavinelle to my core. i hate it here <3#its the Everything abt me. fun fact! i figured out when i was 7 that i could do whatever i wanted if i was willing to accept the price of th#e punishment for an action. it was a fair transaction! and thus started my whole life where i do anything i want without worry! wooooo!!!#thank u octavinelle for embracing my silly life-hack of a transactional mindset!! so fucked up!!#also bought a house at 21 and i know EXACTLY how the slippery slope to being a landlord would work soooo. sighs. i know too much#pls. i want to say id pull a rook hunt and switch dorms but i rly dont know if i would. the outfit is so snazzy. and i wouldnt get into dias#omnia so whatd be the point lmao#okay thats enough rambling lmao#hush catriona#for good measure <3#twisted wonderland
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Interpol Alder AU? Do elaborate I don't think I've actually heard this one yet!
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:∆ i only really mentioned it offhandedly one time but basically it's an au where alder is a part of interpol actively investigating team plasma for cult activites/pkm mistreatment/theft. once they find and raid plasma's castle imagine their surprise to find that plasma is also harboring children
so alder takes in n and his sisters, since, being witnesses, victims, and orphans, there isn't exactly a way to place them in a civilians home, at least in the meantime
hell. you could get kinda (more) morbid with the idea. in pokespe when nates parents are murdered(? it's like. unclear what exactly happened to them but im fairly sure the implication is that they were both killed), instead of just placing the poor kid into an orphanage or foster home, interpol takes him for their own because they have interest in his "abilities" (read: lack of emotion due to severe trauma) and basically build him into a child soldier. i really wouldn't put it past them to try and do the same with n once they find out he can talk to pokemon. so it might be an interesting plot thread if alder has to keep n's ability a secret from his job, or better yet, has to actively fight against them once the truth comes out and they decide n would be better off as one of their soldiers rather than being allowed to live the life of a normal kid
#death mention cw#abuse mention cw#i am so sorry to say this but i am. a little on the fence of the inclusion of annie and connie because#not only would it make the story much harder for me to write to have 3 kids instead of 1#but also i just dont have As many thoughts on what exactly to do with them#which makes me feel bad because i do love them and the fandom already neglects them ENOUGH i dont wanna add to that#but idk id hate to just have them sitting in the bg of the whole story so i may figure out a way to write them out... idk yet tho#im sorry women#💌 anon
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just watched 21 jump street and looked up the cast bc thats what i do when i watch movies and found out that there was a tv show also named 21 jump street that the movie was a kinda sorta but not really sequel to the show and that the random cameo with johnny depp at the end was in fact not a random famous comedic actor cameo at all bc he was like the main character in the original tv show and that led me down a weird rabbit hole (incoming pun not intended) and learned about the other cops in that show one of them being Judy Hoffs which if youre like me ur former disney brain immediately connected that to Judy Hopps from zootopia and looked it up to see if it was intentional and apparently the name (and job) similarities were not supposed to be a reference on the zootopia team's part and its "just a play on how rabbits jump" and they were "unaware of the 21 jump street character when naming judy" which i think is some pretty big bullshit because theres no way a character who's first name is Judy and last name is hopps (spelled with two P's the way hoFFs is spelled) and just so happens to also be a young and brand new cop is just a crazy random coincidence
#no paragraph breaks bc this is how my brain works when im in lore deepdive mode#no ones gonna read this but whatever#anyway i didnt think id like 21 jump street the movie bc i usually hate 2010s R- comedy movies#and like anything jonah hill is in HAHA#but i figured ive gone long enough not knowing its references and also i felt like doing a channing tatum binge#bUt i actually giggled at a few jokes i hate to say#most of them were on channings part hes pretty funny. cant stand jonah hill tho sorry not sorry#also they look nothing alike but the amount of times i mix up tom hardy and channing tatum in my head is fucking crazy#anyway#kats movie rants#also i'll bring this up in everything thats relevant but i fucking love Zootopia ive seen it so many times#ive read and watched so many concept videos of the movie in preproduction and making ofs and docu's of that movie omfg#also yes i love nick wilde no not like that hes just silly goofy okay i just love suave sarcastic (fox) characters i swear#every time i remember how the movie plot was supposed to go (shock collars) another little piece of me dies inside because#goddamn its such a good and heartwrenching concept and i still wanna see it on the big screen SO BAD#especially all the test animations and storyboards they already did for that plot line OUGH IT LOOKED SO GOOD#and the fact that the supposed building that nick owned in the concept can be seen (delapadated) in the bkrd of the movie in a scene too BR#god i cant stop talking about it now oh god i unleashed my own beast i need to stop im stopping okay goodnight#yeah so if u cant tell i really love zootopia HAHA
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with your help we can make angle a tumblr sexy man
#Im trying to figure out how to draw them but it's not going well... the program hates me id love suggestions for free drawing programs#On the computer :b I have negative money#:3#me :3#tadc angel#angle tadc#the amazing digital circus#Tadc
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Fuck you people who don't like Erin! Share this post if you love Erin! Fuck yourself if you don't love Erin! Or whatever
#of course everyone is entitled to their own opinion but like#how could you hate her? if you have reasons ill hear them but like i just don't see any reason anyone could hate her#she means so much to me#id never heard a character straight up say they were selectively mute before her#and like sure it's maybe not 100% accurate ('i chose not to' isnt right cause we cant really choose but i figured it was just what like#doctors told her cause unfortunately it's just like that sometimes)#but it's the only representation ive ever seen and i fucking love it#anyways ah sorry#the devil in me#erin keenan
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honestly the only thing keeping me afloat is obsessively budgeting and planning for the future and it's the only thing bringing me peace. I am so extremely focused and I never have had an issue with procrastinating and I wake up early and am at my job or school early. like I loveeee to fill my planner with what I need to do and categorize all of those things. I love lists and organizers and being places early and getting shit done that needs to be done. I love being productive !! I am an extremely hard worker!! and I'm fast at it too. these r the things I actually do like about myself and think I am good at. it is my type A personality and need for structure and discipline
#barks#i was raised to be this way also#bc my mom has adhd and cant keep her head on straight so i adapted to be the opposite of that#i get shit done quickly amd correctly and that is something i love about myself#I'm very work oriented too sorry i also hate capitalism but i love feeling productive and accomplished at the end of the day#i am career minded and i like to provide i think that's y id make a good father figure lol#so i dont TOTALLY hate myself
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99% just my autism speaking here but something ive been noticing lately that im sorta kinda 😶 about is when ppl are like "I think you'll like this" but not bc they ACTUALLY think you'll like it, rather they just got into it and want you to also get into it so "I think you'll like this" is a nice personal hook. i love chill stuff as much as any other person ofc but given i don't divulge that EVER, what makes you think my berserk reading, made in abyss watching, drakengard playing ass would like YURU CAMP????
#gu6chan's musings#am i just taking the phrase too literally???? like i appreciate the thought but also.... what agitates me is the fact theres not any#when i say something among the lines of 'i think YOU'LL like this' or 'This made me think of you' like#its bc i think of THAT PERSON IN PARTICULAR or think THAT PERSON IN PARTICULAR would like it#again it's probably just autism brain taking figures of speech too literally but i HATE it bc it just makes me feel like#all the times i shared my interests meant nothinggggg typically i just ask 'neat; what makes you think ill like it?' and ppl start stumbling#and im like :(#whats rlly funny in this case is not only the fact i had only ever established my love of dark fantasy and mystery to this person#but they also flatout asked 'youre not really into modern media much are you' to which the answer was 'not much lol'#and i said the reasons i dont care for 'cute girls doing cute things' anime (re: k-on) is bc if i have the time to watch it then i at LEAST#wanna spend it watching a series that's???? not 'the point of it is to relax :)'??? i can sleep for that#anyways like 2 days later they said they said they think id REALLY like this new anime they've been watching lately and I was like 'oh?'#and it was yuru camp.... and internally i was like 'are you fucking kidding me' but on the outside i was like 'oh sweet what makes you think#id like it? id love some new media recommendations especially if they're newer shows bc ive been having SO MUCH TROUBLE trying to find#something interesting that isn't from 2008'#and they sent me a picture of the most generic anime girl ever and they're like 'it has really cute girls' and then i just wanted to kms#like.... this isn't bc you thought id like it; is it.....#wanted to die internally but i played it cool and was like 'oh no; i appreciate it thoughtfulness and all but i don't think this is for me'#also the time where someone recommended signalis to me and i was like 'oh?' and they were like 'YEAH its SO good the people who made it#were even INSPIRED off of Nier' KNOWING FULL WELL I DIDN'T LIKE IT AND THE AMOUNT MY ENTHUSIASM JUST DIED... i was like#'oh. well that will be a pass then' and they tried backpedaling like 'well it's not SUPER inspired; i didn't know you HATED nier :(' like#my past 15 posts on my twitter werent me realising that the game was absolute garbage and calling it the most regretful thing ive ever spent#money on during my attempted playthrough 😭 i was like 'thanks; but I'll pass' to which they then responded by promptly sending me#signalis memes i had absolutely no idea how to respond to WITHOUT making it seem like i was super annoyed so i was just kinda 😶 and didn't#reply and they were like 'sorry :(' and i was like 'haha it's okay! i just have absolutely no idea how to respond to this joke i dont#understand at ALL'#was probably one of the more awkward interactions ive ever had but genuinely speaking i was so INTERESTED until they brought up that it was#inspired by nier i literally psychically felt all the enthusiasm leaving my body from 'damn; i might actually have to look into this' to#'oh well that's a bullet dodged' did not trust the backtracking either....
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hi
#i came across his old ref and turns out the clothes i have envisioned for him here are the same as in the old ref. classic#these past days ive just been staring at that concept ref i posted earlier bc i wanna Have His Ref Drawn but i dont wanna draw his ref. eug#i also kinda funnily enough.. hm how do i explain this#im happy with how i made him meaty n stuff as a literal fur coat and id love to render/paint those parts so much#but hes more on the human part of the anthro spectrum and doesnt really.. not wear clothes usually.#best i can imagine is him wearing just bottom half clothing but i associate that with those stereotypical hyper muscular men that i hate#i guess its gonna be more of a 'he looks like this underneath. super cool eh? he just doesnt show it :)' kinda thing#since he has kind of a more serious personality.. in my mind him without clothes looks silly. wyd my guy#maybe ill ask him to crack my head open and figure out why i manage to come up with these annoying details. yes thatll do#besides the design i dont really know how to flesh him out. genuinely. no pun intended#the only things i know for certain is that he's daron's dad and he's a slasher guy. thats it#its tied to me struggling with what direction i wanna take the custom species with biology and psychology. its so complicated#wips
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