#lots of repression. maybe
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ouu. elaborating on my idea from earlier a bit more
#i think to fit my vision i want her to be kind of similar to a ferryman. i was reading stuff abt them again and it says that#ferrymen wander hell without a purpose now that mankind is extinct. and i kind of think itd be neat if she was like.#a former ferryman. sort of. being that ferrymen were beings of blind faith when they were alive i like to think maybe shes a bit..#different. she'll never indulge in herself or her own interests and never did either when she was alive and wouldnt even try with or withou#flesh. but she instead supplies others and dresses them and gives them means to indulge in little joys themselves.#unable to indulge but always plagued by little ideas in her mind. where will her clients go with her garments? what fun will they have?#she can only imagine. but never touch. not just because of what shes taught herself or faith but because it feels like doing so would break#such a delicate norm or routine she has made for herself. itd feel like a crime not just because of guilt but because itd feel unusual.#lots of repression. maybe#i dont know man i want a blue skeleton in lingerie ok! yea#.txt#I PONDER MY ORB#hope that shit makes sense im not a ferryman expert
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what's so refreshing about will as a character is that he doesn't throw a denial tantrum about it at any point like most characters with Darkness Within Them do. he's not a moral paragon, his angst and secretkeeping don't get annoying at any point. and i think it's because there's no contrast between who will Really Is, which is Good and True, and the dark king as his shadow or his dark self.
will is the dark king. he behaves like the dark king. he lies and he manipulates and he's a "sneak" and he's scaringly charming and he's possessive over james and a ton of other messed up shit and he tells himself it's for a good reason, and maybe it is!! and will is clearly you know. a Good Person. while his methods are sneaky, he does not actually do anything wrong. but those are his methods still, and they are cool moments and badass and also kind of eerie.
with the way he's written, i would argue will doesn't have or even need a corruption arc, he's just like that from the get-go and he's not gonna change. and i don't mean he was born evil or whatever other bullshit i mean that he was born a full person, including the dark king and will both, and there's complexity, but no clear line separates them.
#it's fascinating truly#i'm really glad we get a more full view of his psyche in dark heir even if there's a lot of stuff he's repressing#dark rise#dark heir#dark heir spoilers#will kempen#and maybe. i won't even agree with this by the time the 3rd book comes out#and that's rlly frustrating bc i hate not having the full picture of anything before i have an opinion#but that's part of the fun of it i guess
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oops i wrote a Payneland first kiss ft. the aftermath of a probably horrible case, Charles being a little bit hysterical, and Edwin being a gentle little bitch Charles is happy to see him. He really, really is. He’s so chuffed it feels like his whole body is fizzing with energy and his head is pounding with something that might be pain or might be relief. And his grip on Edwin’s shoulders is only half meant to keep himself upright. It’s also because Edwin is properly, actually here in front of him, as solid as anything gets beneath Charles’ fingers these days.
He doesn’t think he’s stopped grinning since Edwin hauled him upright.
“Edwin,” he says, and can’t quite piece together anything better than, “you bloody genius!”
And then Charles surges forward and kisses him. He’s aiming for Edwin’s cheek but he’s a little giddy and his eyesight is still a bit blurry and he ends up with his lips pressed to the corner of Edwin’s mouth.
He feels more than he sees when Edwin startles at the contact, but doesn’t think he has it in him right now to pull back for a talk or a scolding or, god forbid, a lecture on impetuous behaviour. So, he tightens his hands around Edwin’s shoulders and tugs him in a little ways, until their foreheads are pressed together. Edwin blinks a few times and Charles feels his eyelashes flutter against his own cheek.
“You did it!”. He can hardly believe the words as he speaks them and he keeps kind of laughing in little bursts of uncontrollable giggles. “I thought I was going to - that you were - I can’t even really -”
Edwin, who has been relaxing against him by careful degrees, finally jolts into action and brings an arm up around Charles’ shoulders.
“It’s alright,” he says, which Charles thinks is pretty thick for someone as smart as Edwin because of course he’s alright! Edwin just single-handedly swooped in and saved the day and dredged Charles up from the bottom of a literal and metaphorical hole and now he’s got his arm around Charles, close enough that each of his unnecessary breaths stirs the curls around Charles’ ear. He’s a lot fucking more than alright.
Edwin’s hand starts to rub little circles between his shoulder blades. It feels nice.
“Mate,” he tries again. “You are…” but he doesn’t quite know what Edwin is other than the most important person in the world and, anyway, he can’t finish the sentence because Edwin cuts him off in a tone that Charles still thinks is far too serious for the situation.
“Charles, you seem a touch, well.” A slight pause. “For lack of a better word, hysterical.”
Is he hysterical? Charles doesn’t think so, but then again he’s never been great at thinking things through properly at the best of times.
“Also, I must ask.” Charles’s eyes are only centimeters away from Edwin’s, and he watches Edwin squeeze his close. Eyelashes flutter together. “Did you mean to kiss me?”
Charles blinks once.
“Uh,” he says. “Yeah, mate.”
The hand on his back tightens, fingers gripping the fabric of his polo and that feels pretty good too, like Edwin is clinging to him with all the same desperation swirling up inside Charles. Like maybe he’s something solid even when he feels as insubstantial as ghosts can get.
“Well,” Edwin says, finally, with a posh little sniff like he’s right fucking pleased with himself. “That is good to know.”
Charles collapses against him, eventually, when he finally starts breathing steadier and the heavy weight of exhaustion settles over his shoulders. When the giddy adrenaline leaves him feeling a little more cracked open than he’d like. Edwin just gathers him close with the same possessive gesture as his hand.
There’s a soft brush of lips against his temple. He smiles into the collar of Edwin’s coat and lets himself drift, warm and soft and held together
#dbda#paineland#payneland#dead boy detectives#charles x edwin#i have a lot of feelings about romance being a non hierarchical thing#like they are ALREADY each other's person and the fact that they want to kiss doesn't make it more or better suddenly?#and i wanted to represent that somehow in my take on a first kiss#like charles would think through his trauma and his repressed bisexuality and stuff and be like oh whoops i no homoed myself#but i also think they're already together in whatever way they want to be#lol ranting in le tags guys maybe im hysterical too LOL#put this here rather than ao3 bc tis short
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People making fun of tone tags really fucked me up. For awhile it felt like everyone i knew and follow was using them and even though *some* people were kind of annoying about them it really did help me pick up tone and intent over text
But since everyone kind of threw a fit and decided “uhmm tone tags actually ARENT helpful and are MORE confusing than just using your words!” I feel like I have a much harder time trying to intuit intent over text than ever before (from people I don’t know very very well).
Like i feel like the point of people complaining was that “hey tone tags arent all that helpful for some people, so let’s be more clear about what we’re talking about, be less overly-friendly towards people we don’t know, and if anything just state our intent” but that didn’t happen!
And now it’s really got me thinking that I might have autism because this along with a lot of other shit going on in my life I’m starting to realize I may have an issue I have been simply chalking up to undiagnosed ADHD for over 15 years.
#the doctor is in#also not gonna lie since moving in with my autistic partnerand away from family i think maybe i had been repressing a lot of shit!!!#that may indicate i have autism!!!#not plague#i even have problems picking up on sarcasm and jokes from people i follow that are autistic for christ sake!
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literally the easiest way to make someone care about a character and make them feel well-rounded beyond basic traits like personality, sexuality, ethnicity, etc, is to give them an actual character arc, and it’s shocking how many people do not seem to fully realize this
you cannot just cram a bunch of tropes. tropes are not the main event, they are tools to tell the story you wish to tell. emotional impact comes from the lead up, so you can’t just jump ahead and expect the payoff to work. “I want this character to just ___ already!” but they’re not there yet. that’s where the arc comes in - how do they get there?
and! most importantly, and this is something I really want people to think about when writing - the most important relationship your character should have, always, is with the world and society around them. defining your character purely through their interactions with other characters are, I find, how a lot of female characters end up feeling flat or not engaging with the themes as much as the male characters, and also how queer and non-white characters wind up as devices for other characters’ development instead of being more fleshed out
#storyrambles#sorry maybe this comes across a bit passive-aggressive but agh fandom drives me crazy sometimes#I’ve seen some stuff concerning dbda and it’s just#‘why didn’t Edwin just sleep with the cat king’ oh my god. did you watch the show. his repression is literally the crux of his arc#‘I’m fixing the end of the show so that they end up together!’ but they’re not there yet. there’s nothing to fix?#‘they better ___ in season 2 or im gonna be mad about it’ how about we let the story play out. how about we calm down and enjoy the story.#‘I need ___ to kiss right now!!!’ do you even enjoy the story. do you even enjoy these characters.#what is their arc. tell me right now. because I don’t think you actually know.#and I’ve seen lots of posts kind of like this but it’s wild with this show in particular because it’s canonically a queer show#so there is no fear of being led along or of no payoff. what are you freaking out about???#gah. sorry. it just frustrates me.#the most interesting character dynamic will always be - to me anyways - the way they interact with the world around them#and the way society has shaped them and they shape society in turn#and relationships with other characters are reflections of the mentality they have received and adapted from society#just like in real life lol#random thoughts
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Wait does starstruck have like a harem or something with how many people she's shipped with???
yeah! she's ✨everyone's girlfriend!✨ no oc or canon character is safe from those big shiny eyes of hers!
i've actually always said this: that if 'dating' as we know it existed in her environment, she'd be the sort to accidentally be dating everybody. as it stands, she's just very polya and has a lot of love and clingy anxiety to give! she's small, but there's plenty of her to go around!
i feel like the tourney in particular is a bit of a scott pilgrim vs the 7 deadly exes situation. except it's just... starstruck vs the 7 knights she didn't realise she'd started dating 😂
#when you're an emotionally intelligent unconditional lover dropped into a vat of chronically repressed + touch starved folks#it just kinda works out.#i will say that a lot of these- especially OCs- are totally outside her canon timeline!! she has at least one canon “ship” but it's.. uh.#of all the OC ships jstruck is the primary one tho!! it's the realest To Me. insane amount of content. truly nuts. decades of story somehow#other good contenders are meteorstruck (real to me) and stell (non romo but she's their personal annoyance) and maybe redacted/redacted#my art#asks#🎀💖#others ocs#jstruck#starstruck dee#galacta knight#i'm tagging him but i want to be clear that the guy in this picture is moonverc3x's JAU galacta specifically#from J's timeline. not the galacta knight who is canon to *starstruck's* timeline. you can tell when it's my guy. you'll know.#is this#cw suggestive#because of the meme wording? just in case. i'll use it just in case.
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two fics in as many days, everyone say thank you prednisone! i just put up the last chapter of the princess AU lumity fic.
#this fic ended up with a LOT of outtakes too so. maybe some snippets will make their way to tumblr eventually#but in the meantime. enjoy! the conclusion!#toh#princess luz au#lumity#shitty idiot repression gang#horrible mindscape trauma pals#and who is that other witch#my writing
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Here to share Hien thoughts today.
One thing that defines her is that she’s very capable. She’s the highest ranking in the squad after Maizuru so her confidence is in part because she does have that senior coworker &/ leader authority to her, confidence which is very much earned.
If I had to dig deeper at her beyond just what we’re shown I’d go with the angle that… She was born into the Nakamoto household and being a ninja servant, she grew up there, she doesn’t know anything else beyond the job, and it’s a job she does well, traines to get there. She’s here to do her work and she’s content with her life being how it is, not that she knows anything else. I don’t think she’d be self-aware about it all? Both because this really is pretty normal for Wa and it’s her normal, and because, while she doesn’t fold her spine or care for things like cosmetics, she does mold her attitude to be both capable and respectable. Her home, the Nakamoto household, is simultaneously a professional setting, it’s a 24/7 thing.
She’s critical of others, including her superiors and she doesn’t shy from it. Everyone shittalks Toshiro’s father regardless, but she also gets reprimanded by Maizuru for seeing Toshiro as vaguely unreliable, again likely influenced by their history as childhood friends, sasses Maizuru when she goes off into an anecdote again, etc. Even as a kid with Toshiro, doubtlessly after starting her ninja training already considering that Toshiro started his at ~5yo, she told him it was unbecoming of him to cry. She’s the one both with the job and the will to keep others in check, like when it comes to Izutsumi not doing her tasks, etc etc.
Her childhood friend relationship with Toshiro only grew more professional with time, to her surprise but seems to be more about the thought of it rather than it affecting her emotionally. With the way her extra comic lays it out, it seems she expected to become Toshiro’s mistress because of history repeating itself, in a "it is what it is" way more than anything, which is in line with the reading that she’s more go-with-the-flow and "anything that I’m tasked with I’ll accomplish, as a matter of course". She’s not really social, and keeps herself ready to act at beck and call. She’s not uptight but she’s hard-working. So yeah like, taking pride in your skills but also keeping your identity mostly molded for efficiency. She doesn’t really think about it all, she just is and she’s fine with things as they are, going from one task to the next.
I think it’d be neat to look at her relationship with her parents… They’re both servants at the Nakamotos’, so while maybe busy like Maizuru was at times while raising Toshiro but still taking the time to cook for him (which, parents that prioritize work over her would make sense with how she became how she is), I wonder what their relationship was like, how much time they spent together, how Hien feels like towards them… I assume they’re a part in molding what her definition of normal is, after all if they are longstanding servants of the Nakamotos she has that much less reason to question such a life. But like… Have they ever had hard-hitting discussions, or is she pretty distant even with them? Did they push her into working harder, or were more hands-off? Does Hien maybe want to earn recognition by being capable? Hien has a younger sister that she gets along "so-so" with…
Hien’s younger sister seems to smile more, be more social and a bit nonchalant, such and such. Could be a point of tension that points to the "so-so", that they’re dissimilar/Hien thinks she doesn’t behave right or takes things too lightly, that she’s "unreliable" maybe. Or it could also point to some difference in how they grew up… Like oh I bet there could be tasty angst with mertocracy and siblings favoritism with her family thrown in there… Having to earn the love, earn your keep, earn your spot in the hierarchy (in work and family both)
To me she shines best as a foil, like to Beni, but like. She’s got neat stuff going on If you’re wondering where I took half of what I referenced from I recommend looking at my masterpost on the Nakamoto party, info and extras are compiled
#Dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#Hien#Meta#character analysis#fumi rambles#Working on a lot of different things on top of my actual work so things r slower than i’d like lately… Have this Discord ramble as apology#Meanwhile Beni’s attitude is very subservient and submissive. It’s interesting how little and how much difference they have simultaneously#On that front. Like you can’t really say Hien isn’t like a bodyguard ornament in the bg even if she shows more personality#Hienbeni fic will get finished one day I prommy#We’ve never seen Hien stressed which I think is a feat. Teach me your ways (probably repression)#Hien girlboss compilation#Ok Hien sister jealousy plot where she doesn’t know where the anger is coming from so she assumes it’s out of principle bc h slacks off#Hienbeni repressed anger power couple truly#So hmmm 3w2 enneagram Hien…? Beni I was thinking either 8w9 or 6w5… Maybe smth that becomes an 8 when stressed#You have to be pretty ballsy to specialize in explosives
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[ID: Two drawings of Enjolras and Grantaire from Les Miserables. They are both of the pair, asleep in bed, spooning. But the first has Enjolras as little spoon, and the second has Grantaire as little spoon. End ID.]
usually i can instinctively instantly tell which of my blorbos is which spoon…. but i cant decide w enjoltaire what is going onnn….
#maybe ill knwo by the time ive finished the brick#okay bcuz the thing is usually my go-to logic for spooning is#little spoon shld be whoever is most repressed and/or acts as protector and/or generally just needs to be shown that they can b#protected and can b treated gently#which obviously. wld lead to enj as little spoon.#but the thing abt it grantaire is me so he must be little spoon#also like. r certainly needs to feel loved and be shown he is worthy of love#also also. then when it comes to the question of big spoon#r wld love to feel like he can protect e. like. thats the dream thats ideal#but i think in the world e ends up loving grantaire back (aka the world where they spoon) he wld be eager to show r he does in fact#love him ardently . he commits to things a lot ykw#anyway. silly silly#on my own.#on my art.#les mis#exr#enjoltaire#les miserables#enjolras#grantaire#les mis fanart
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thinking about an AU where Andrew’s memory starts to fade. just a touch—not to the levels of amnesia or anything like that, but in the sense that remembering everything in crystal-clear, high-def surround sound replay is no longer a coping mechanism his body relies on. the pattern recognition and hyper-vigilance becoming unnecessary as his life tones down, as he settles into something quiet, if not peaceful. that twinge of despair when his brain flicks back to pull a memory and apply it to a situation, only to find it blurry and half-remembered. realizing the vast majority of his childhood became a blur sometime in the past few months. it would change so much for him, i think, but it would open up space for him to grow into later…
#aftg#andrew minyard#i have a lot of thoughts about his memory being a critical coping mechanism for him#brains do weird shit to protect u#mine prefers to vanish whole swathes of time from existence rather than let the trauma out#but andrew’s did the opposite—sat in it until he Knew before he knew that someone wasn’t right#and kind of like how those repressed memories pop up sometimes while healing#i think it’d be interesting if andrew’s brain started letting things go#it’d be stressful. but maybe not the worst
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RIP Tim Drake, you would have loved Pink Pony Club by Chappell Roan
#Okay ramble notes now#Pink Pony Club (in my professional opinion) is about being accepted and unapologetically queer#and I think that for a long time Tim would have tried to repress his queerness#Because jack drake is giving homophobia#And idk I think he’d start experimenting with his gender and sexuality a lot more after he first came out as bi#Start feeling more comfortable in his own queerness yk?#Idk maybe I’m projecting#Tim drake#tim drake headcanon#pink pony club#chappell roan
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i can’t be the only person who never thought izzy was homphobic
#like maybe a little bit of internalized homophobia#but i think even that could just be chalked up to a lot of emotional repression#HE’S NOT HOMOPHOBIC AND NEVER HAS BEEN#people read into it too much#or maybe im just bad at reading into things#but still when was he ever REALLY homophobic???#ofmd#our flag means death#izzy hands
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ohhhhhhhhh “sea of thy soul” = personal unconscious, “sea of souls” = collective unconscious. hey guys did you know that persona is kinda jungian
#this is maybe a very obvious statement but a lot of persona makes a lot more sense when you start learning abt jungian psychology#i say learning but i just mean mr edogawa’s tv classroom for the most part lol#it is very informative though#and it’s incredibly interesting to hear about The Themes Of The Game from the game’s mouth#i’m not certain why i thought this but prior to actually playing the game myself i thought p4 was really ‘true self’-y#like that it implied that there was an immutable ‘true self’ and that personas and/or shadows WERE that#but it very much doesn’t. like at every turn#i guess i took ‘i am a shadow; the true self’ at face value…#rambles#p4g posting#rather than an immutable singular truth; ‘true self’ seems to be the knowledge of oneself. like the shadow and persona and shit#more as in the concepts than the guys. as well like personal growth a la slinks#like. holistically. the shadow and persona are but fractions of the self#the shadow what’s repressed and the persona how you face the world. neither are the entirety of nor separate from the self#that’s how i’ve come to understand it anyway#i’ll probably have some more solid thoughts once i see all the tv classrooms and finish the game
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man. after getting the ending where you ride off with meryl i find out that i missed out on the homoerotic otacon ending
#metal gear solid#man maybe i'm just gay but also i'm reading a LOT of repressed bisexual subtext in this game#especially with snake and grey fox. like they had to have a moaning punching fight. they had to.#when you go to shoot grey fox but snake says 'i can't do it'. the whole thing about how men like them only understand the world#in the context of battle. so to understand eachother they have to fight.#but grey fox wants snake to escape it. so he dies. to show snake what the end of that road looks like. to save snakes life#that's gay as fucking hell man.#also i dunno its grey fox or gray fox no clue#anyway (turns on metal gear solid 2) huh... metal gear.... (said in the voice)
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Do you have a theory to explain why Sammy is not talking to her parents? Was thinking abt it and can't remember if the show gave us info abt that...
UGHHH THAT'S THE THING I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA. that's why i'm so interested in learning more about it in s2! i've seen some theories floating around about how it might have to do with sammy smuggling bumpy onto her ranch (or her general involvement with the dinosaurs)? but i'm really not sure.
what i CAN be sure of is that it's not because they suddenly dissaproved of sammy's relationship with yaz. sammy coming out was one of the very first things she did when she reunited with her dad after nublar, and there was no indication of tension or strife between sammy and her family in JWCC's epilogue (and if there was ever a time for that to come up it would be then, considering yaz was visiting sammy in texas at the time).
#not that i saw a lot of people taking speculations of homophobia very seriously#especially not recently#but it's literally the only theory i can definitively say “no” to#everything else seems to be up in the air!!#and i'm soooo excited to see what's coming#honestly if anyone in the n5 is hiding anything i think it might be sammy#not because of her history with mantah corp#or that i believe she'd do anything morally dubious as a means to an ends#but she has a bad habit of repressing things#and she hasn't been entirely open about her family drama yet#then again maybe the article was just poorly worded and all the secrets it was alluding to would be coming from brooklynn's end#answered#louie-inc#jwct spoilers#(only for the discussion in the tags)
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wip and if ppl's clothes turn pink when theyre in love
#witch hat tag#orufrey#once again yes i know i draw a lot its the autisms. i was depressed for a week lately and didnt draw dont question it.#not like i also did the things i should have done today... btw the wip is for when i'm better at colouring.#sorry about the emotional whiplash of garuato..as if it's my fault.................watched the distraught comments & priv qrts roll in 2day#sorry orufrey are more pink than the other adults in love. doesn't mean they're “more in love”...just that they're...120% in love..........#maybe it's like that hanahaki trope thing which isnt really for me but like if the more you dont put a name to it the pinker you get#atuarto is able to slowly repress it. :/ but orufrey dont even know why they're pink they cant even work it out.#yeah go do the laundry you gay ass..not gonna change a thing
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