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the best part about living with pets and also another human is getting to hear them speaking to each other in the next room. truly a top tier perk of being alive
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Ok I'm going on a diet for like the 700th time in my life and I'm telling myself this time it's gonna work and the results are gonna last.
I've been really good this first day, been counting my calories and making sure I don't overeat and I'm well within my calorie budget so good job me!
#I managed to lose a ton of weight last year and then put it all back on when I stopped counting calories.#You have to stick with it!#My problem is portion control#I eat good food but just way too much of it#Actually I've done pretty well cutting out biscuits chocolate and cake and ice cream but I'm a potato chips fiend#I have potato chips hidden in every corner of the kitchen i just adore potatoes and salty oily flavour đ
#Anyway good luck me
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new charms !





#i want to put all three of these in the same necklace and the clay is rlly light so weight isn an issue i just worry abt losing or breaking#the necklace and immediately losing my three favorite charms that ive made#hmm i guess new is misleading since i'd posted it before in pretty much this form#tried to improve some of the wiring but i wont take it apart i like her like this#sharp :)) yeowchie#ignore the weird lighting and background im in the kitchen and theyre on a placemat
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Im on a romance anime addiction rn and like just finished one and OMFG IM GONNA CRY THEY WERE SO FUCKING IN LOVE BRO THEY WERE IN LOVVVEEEE
I canât fucking believe i almost stayed up all night on a work night to watch Cherry Magic! Thirty Years of Virginity Can Make You a Wizard?! A solid 8/10, some parts kinda wanna make me kill myself and some characters got on my nerves, at one point completely dropped till the end, but i felt the pacing was good and didnât feel super rushed till kinda the end like we could have used another episode or two
Still looking for good wlw anime cause I ALMOST ACCIDENTALLY SUGGESTED WATCHING CITRUS BUT WHEN I READ A SYNOPSIS I LEGIT SCREAMED LIKE NOOOOOO NOOOOOOOO NOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I just want girls who are in love bro and if its doomed so be it man
#localgardenweed#the weed is rambling#imagine me in bed at 2 AM whisper yelling at anicrush cause the video kept buffering and losing my shit i just had to quit for the night#im like begging god to show me good yuri doomed yuri just women who are in LOVVVEEE#Ive been digging thru the scraps like i have not cared for bnha but when i saw that sliver of doomed yuri#( iykyk )#I ATE THAT SHIT UP I WAS EATING IT UP AND CRIED OVER IT#I HAVENT WATCHED SINCE LIKE 2017#I WAS A FAN FOR LESS THAN A YEAR#I DID NOT GIVE A SHIT BUT AS SOON AS I SAW THE DOOMED YURI I FLEW TO IT LIKE A MOTH TO A FLAME DAWG#also spoilers but i felt so bad and had to contemplate when i was fully convinced they would show at least their thoughts and dialogue#while they were freaking it not cause âoh mah gosh!!! gay yaoi boys so sugoi!!!â like cause IDK IT HAD SOME DRAMATIC WEIGHT!????#IDK???? WAS TGAT BAD OF ME TO THINK???? IDK#Like i did mot wanna see their cock and balls but like WDYM WE SKIPPED OVER THAT I TOTALLY THOUGHT WE WOULD AT LEAST HEAR THEIR CONVERSATION#IDK I EXPECTED A LITTLE MORE AND NOT A TIMESKIP TO MORNING#also know i was in the kitchen cooking while i was watching that episode and like was like half screaming âARE THEY FREAKING???â#THEYâRE FREAKING. I CANTâT BELIEVE THEY ARE FREAKING RN. I DONT WANNA SEE THAT EW THEY ARE KISSING#THEY ARE MAKING OUT OH GODâ#weird that i completely was gonna be find hearing them bang than watching them kiss#idk what i was expecting but like idk. i was still happy they got to freak it and be in love and shit very happy for them#i think i just wanted to hear them affirm their love and be close and like tell eachother how much they meant idk idk jsut sweet lovey dovey#there was thematic weight to the sex okay#anyway please drop more queer anime please pretty please I LOVE GAY PEOPLE!!! i wish they were real tbh#thats a joke btw if it wasnât obvious like. look at me.
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At Home Weight Loss Remedy

WHAT YOU NEED:
-a cup (duh)
-salt
-(OPTIONAL) lemon
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first of all, let me explain this drink to you and what this does. Before you think its not safe, I'm letting you know that I made and tried this recipe and I'm all good. basically, this drink will help you lose weight by well, pooping.
HOW TO MAKE:
take your cup and fill it with warm water.(take enough to take 3 big gulps) then take salt (any kind, even table salt) and shake it into the water 4 times. after you have done that, take your lemon and squeeze a little bit into there, then mix it with ta spoon or shake the cup around. it is gonna taste gross at first, but remember what you are doing this for. after drinking, wait about 1-3 hours. you may notice that right after you drink it your stomach will feel a bit weird, but do not mind it, you are not going to vomit. do this daily for a week, and tell me if it worked. (I lost 7kg in a week)
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Roommate fuckin psycho and so I did a lil Irish goodbye packed up everything while she was at work and since the fucker refused to put a cent towards anything I took everything I paid for there isnât so much as a paper plate left in that kitchen I took my tv back that sheâd do nothing but sit and watch all day I picked her lock to get back all my shit she stole and the dishes she hoarded and took back my pc that costed thousands of dollars that she insisted she needed then proceeded to call worthless since it was supposed to pay for my rent but she lied about rent too and like cmon you really think I wouldnât be able to pick a lock to get my $5k computer back that you refused to put a cent towards and instead tried lying about rent and calling an expensive ass set up worthless so you wouldnât have to pay and now she can be fucked trying to refill that kitchen and pay both halves of rent herself
#refused to get me on the lease and ate hundreds of dollars of my food in a matter of hours#insists sheâs poor despite having 3 seperate incomes meanwhile I Actually canât afford to eat to the point Iâm losing weight#disgusting fucking pig too sheâs left literal human shit on the shower floor#that kitchen is completely empty since I paid for everything#every plate bowl cup pot pan utensil rag EVERYTHING#majority of food is gone too I took everything I paid for#just wish I coulda seen her face walking into an empty apartment#she wants to act all innocent and like there isnât consequences to her actions#good luck paying rent now especially since you refused to get me on the lease so I have zero legal obligation#and you never paid a cent for that computer didnât even let me wipe my stuff from it she took it when I was in the fucking psych ward#so again nothing she can even do#I hope the bitch rots <3#there is not enough time or words to even begin to say everything that bitch tried to pull#ghost rambles#she makes a fuck ton of money too but insists sheâs poor#even tried saying I should buy her groceries with the food stamps Iâm applying for#the food stamps I need and qualify for as an emergency because I make so little money Iâm quite literally starving#she doesnât have any money cause the bitch is an alcoholic drug addict#and yk what normally thatâs not something to hold against someone im not doin great in that department either#but when she excuses the disgusting shit she does by saying oh she relapsed sheâs in a bad place itâs not her fault#bitch I literally overdosed a month ago I had to be given cpr and stay in a psych ward#but Iâm not stealing thousands from people living in poverty#Iâm not leaving human shit on the shower floor and refusing to clean it or anything for that matter#sheâs a selfish asshole and I hope being truly left with nothing she really sees what not being able to afford to eat is actually like#and she tried blaming me and saying I have no right to be upset she stole food or destroyed my things#but that food is expensive as fuck cause I have so many dietary restrictions for my own health and safety#bitch ate over $100 of food in a single night the night after I just bought it#and I ration that food to last a month but yea im dramatic when ur the one three times my size with three times the money#and Iâm fucking malnourished and passing out from starvation cause your own food wasnât good enough you needed to steal from the person#who already wasnât getting enough calories
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Iâm just scared of food now I guess
#leaning over my kitchen sink spitting out 50% of the food I put in my mouth#when I said I wanted to lose weight I didnât mean that I wanted to develop a phobia of food wtf#my follow up appointment got moved up to this Thursday and I know they want to do a manometry test#they want to put a tube down my throat while Iâm still awake Iâm going to freak the fuck out#i hate this so much#I just want to be normal Iâm so hungry but Iâm so scared
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The complete ketogenic diet for beginners ( weight loos solution)
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The simple, easy, and friendly way to start the ketogenic diet and lifestyle.
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screaming, tearing my hair out, sobbing face down on my bed
#so my ex-boyfriend left the temp housing place without cleaning up at all. The thing is we were still together when he left.#We broke up after he was gone and before I came back to the house. The sink is overflowing with dishes and he left stuff here even though he#moved over an hour away. The other person that was staying here also left all the dishes dirty. Its the temp housings community dishes so I#cant cook or eat now and I CANT DO DISHES RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I STILL ALMOST PASS OUT WHEN IM STANDING FOR TOO LONG?#which he knew about before he left the place. and so did the other person staying here because she was my cousin.#I'm disgusted by people. And I'm so hurt? We were going to stay together and he did that to me. And I know he wasnt planning on leaving me.#Because he left two items very important to him sitting on our bed.#One being his ushanka that he got while living in russia with his grandpas soviet pin still on it.#And two the blanket his children were wrapped in as babies.#He left so much stuff here when I asked him to take everything. But he made sure to take the food that was his/what he thought should be his#Im pretty sure that he took my only HDMI cord too and I dont know what else.#I still have all of his other stuff in a storage unit. I plan to give it back but unless he gives me atleast a day of notice I cant.#Im going to have to call my mom to ask her to help me clean this all up. I physically cant do it And I'm calling the housing department tmrw#I gotta tell them that they gotta make sure that people actually follow the contract because i cant fucking eat until my mom comes to help#Theres cameras in all the common areas including the kitchen that run 24/7 so why havent they done anything. The other person that lived#here already moved out and it was all recorded. I gotta put in a complaint or something. This is why I'm losing a dangerous amount of weight#because I cant eat especially since i had an abortion 2 weeks ago thats given me so many health issues#I couldnt walk or move for days without my vision going black and i had such severe pain I was in and out of the doctors office and the ER#Not to mention I couldnt breathe when I was standing/walking too. And then he just left everything for me to deal with.#and yes again WE WERE STILL TOGETHER WHEN HE LEFT#im so tired and hungry man this is fucking terrible.#tag vent#vent in tags#vent
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Everyone thinks I have an eating disorder when I donâtâŚitâs annoying
#rants n rambles#I keep losing weight but whoâs fault is that?#mine.#Iâm so lazy that I spend all day sleeping or in bed doing literally nothing and then I spend hours walking around not eating because thereâs#either nothing that I want or Im too lazy to cook or the kitchen isnât clean and it ruins my appetite#but the doctor gave me this pape thatâll help and told me to slight cut back on my water intake which makes sense#I wanted vitamins but honestly itâd make more sense for me to eat more meat#I need more protein so Iâll try and eat more beans and chicken since thatâs the only thing I have#itâs okay I can make the best out everything#i really didnât want this to happen (doctorâs appointment) but I need to get out of the house and I needed to hear that Iâm relatively#healthy. however I AM praying for a heart murmur to be found ^_~*
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The Midnight Misunderstanding
Pairing: Frontman/Hwang In-Ho x Pregnant!Wife!Reader
Summary: You give in to your late-night pregnancy cravings and slip out quietly, leaving your husband, Hwang In-ho, to wake up in a frenzy when he finds you missing.
Warnings: Angst, Fear of losing someone, grief, pregnancy, cravings, gun, slight fluff, soft-Inho.
Late into the night, you stretch quietly in bed, your mind drifting through sleepy fog and growing sharper with an insistent craving. Turning to your side, you see your husband, Hwang In-ho, sleeping peacefully beside you. The chill of the night air sends shivers down your spine, but the thought of satisfying your craving warms you with determination. The clock reads 2:47 AM.
Knowing how hard In-ho has been working and how much rest he needs, you decide to slip out discreetly, believing you can make it back before he even notices. You pull on a warm coat, gather your essentials, and tiptoe out the door, careful to close it softly behind you.
Hours seem to pass in what feels like minutes. In-ho stirs awake, reaching out to find your side of the bed cold and empty. He blinks groggily, thinking you might be in another room. "Y/N?" he calls softly, expecting a quick reply or the distant hum of your voice.
When no response comes, he rises slowly, the initial calm giving way to a creeping unease. He checks the adjoining bathroom, then the kitchen, and each empty room sends another pang of worry coursing through him. The house feels eerily quiet, and with each step, the calm facade he tried to maintain begins to crack.
As he makes his way through the silent hallways and finds no sign of you anywhere, panic floods through him instantly. Memories of losing his first wife surge into his mind, and the dread of facing the same heart-wrenching loss with you engulfs him like a tidal wave.
Terror grips his chest as he moves more frantically now. "Yeobo?" he calls out again, his voice slicing through the silence like a knife, but only the echo of his own voice answers him back. His heart races uncontrollably as he grabs his phone, his hands shaking with a mix of fear and urgency.
"I can't find my wife," he says, his voice quivering as he speaks to his guards. "Search the building immediately," he commands, his tone rigid and leaving no room for delay. The icy fingers of fear grip his heart, the stakes now higher than ever with the thought of losing you and the babyâhis entire world teetering on the brink of uncertainty.
As he listens to the hurried replies of his guards springing into action, he pulls open the drawer beside his bed and grabs his gun, the cold weight of the metal feeling reassuring in his hand. The transformation is swiftâhis usual calm demeanor gives way to the steely resolve of the Front Man.
He methodically sweeps through the apartment, each shadow and creak heightening his anxiety. Has something sinister befallen you? Could Gi-hun, that determined Player 456, have somehow found you? The uncertainty gnaws at him, each tick of the clock echoing louder in the eerily quiet apartment. His thoughts race wildly, the sense of impending dread building with each passing second.
Just as his mind threatens to overwhelm him, the soft click of the door breaks the silence. He pivots sharply, raising his gun, only to freeze as you step back inside with a small stack of snacks and an apologetic smile. The weight of the moment crashes over him, the relief almost too much to bear.
"In-ho," you start, but the torrent of emotions inside him is already surging to the surface. He lowers the gun, his hands trembling.
"Where were you?" His voice is a mix of anger, relief, and lingering fear. He steps forward, his eyes scanning you from head to toe, ensuring you're really there and unharmed.
"I... I couldnât sleep," you say softly, holding up the snacks as a peace offering. "I thought some comfort food might help. Iâm sorry if I worried you."
He releases a breath he didnât realize he was holding, the tension in his shoulders slowly fading. He pulls you into a fierce embrace, holding you as if you might disappear if he let go. The feel of you, warm and real in his arms, does more to calm his racing heart than anything else.
"I thought..." his voice breaks, unable to finish the sentence. The memories of his first loss are still too raw, the pain too fresh.
You pull back slightly and cup his face in your hands, your eyes filled with understanding and love. "I'm here. Iâm not going anywhere," you reassure him, gently stroking his cheek.
He leans into your touch, closing his eyes for a moment to gather his thoughts. When he opens them, there's a new resolve mirrored in their depths. "Next time, wake me," he pleads softly. "I can't... I won't lose you and the baby. You both mean everything to me."
You nod, your heart aching for the pain heâs been through. "I promise," you whisper, and he takes a deep breath, slowly finding his composure again.
With his arm protectively around you, he leads you back to the bedroom. The soft glow of the bedside lamp casts a warm, reassuring light on your path.Â
With measured steps, he walks over to the dresser and slides the gun back into the drawer, locking it firmly to ensure itâs secure. The sight of him putting the weapon away brings a greater sense of calm to both of you.
As you reach the bed, he gently guides you to sit on the edge before kneeling in front of you.
His eyes soften as he places his hands on your growing belly, the life inside a beacon of hope amidst his fears. He leans in, tenderly kissing your pregnant belly, a silent vow of protection and love to both you and the unborn child.
"Weâre in this together," he murmurs, his lips lingering on your skin. You smile down at him, your hand resting on his head.
Under the covers, he keeps you close, one arm wrapped protectively around you, his hand resting gently on your stomach. The snacks are forgotten on the bedside table as sleep finally takes over, but this time, itâs a peaceful sleep, secure in the knowledge that youâre safe and by his side.
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How To Prepare A Classic Lobster đŚ Thermidor.
Lobster Thermidor
16 ingredients
Seafood
⢠2 1 pound) whole cooked lobsters, whole cooked
Produce
⢠4 oz Cremini mushrooms
⢠1 large clove Garlic
⢠1 Lemon, small
⢠4 sprigs Parsley, fresh
⢠1 Shallot, medium
⢠1 sprig Tarragon, fresh
Refrigerated
⢠2 Egg yolks, large
Condiments
⢠1/2 tsp Dijon mustard
Baking & Spices
⢠1 tbsp All-purpose flour
⢠1/4 tsp Cayenne pepper
⢠1/4 tsp Kosher salt
Dairy
⢠2 tbsp Butter, unsalted
⢠2 oz Gruyere cheese
⢠1/2 cup Heavy cream
Beer, Wine & Liquor
⢠1/4 cup Cognac
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Endocrinologist appointment tomorrow.
Hopefully he can fix me đ¤đ¤đ¤
#personal#wish me luck#i wasn't able to get up this whole weekend#i want to say it's depression but i was productively when it comes to writing#i cannot explain to you just how tired i am#like physically#and i got these chest pain this whole weekend#not even my magical sandwich fixed me#my mom says i just need to get up and go for a walk but i feel like I'm going to faint if i like go to the kitchen#i just wish i knew what was wrong with me#sorry for being depressing#but you're use to it on my blog#he'll probably tell me to lose weight and get some exercise and he'll probably be right
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Angel
PART 5 OF KINKTOBER | MAIN MASTERLIST
Single Dad!Spencer x Nanny!Reader Spencer likes having you around to look after his daughter, in fact, he likes you a bit too much.
content: (18+) 5.4k, breeding kink, fingering, fem oral, unprotected p in v sex, creampie, overstimulation, d/s dynamic but he still tries to be a gentleman although reader doesnât want him to, mutual pining, body worship with slight religious metaphors bc heâs down so bad, and of course sweet aftercare a/n: 1) i know the gif isnât spencer but i just had to; 2) i changed the title from the original plan bc i was listening to angel baby while writing this; 3) if i have the chance to describe his happy trail and tummy i will in a heartbeat; 4) this fic is basically the epitome of D-I-L-F!
âI want you to understand,â he mutters against your skin, kissing the sensitive spot just below your ear, âthat Iâm not trying to take advantage of you.â
A hand creeps up the back of his neck. âWhat if I want you to?â
âIâm serious.â
âI am serious. Iâm not the one hesitating.â
His hand glides slowly up your side, fingertips barely ghosting over your skin, and a soft, shaky breath escapes his lips. âIâm trying to be responsible."
âI think weâre past being responsible,â you counter as his fingers trace your waist. âWhat are you so worried about, anyway? Youâre not forcing me into anything.â
âI want to make sure you donât feel likeââ his fingers twitch, lingering over your bare skin, ââlike Iâm taking advantage of the situation.â
âIâm literally naked under you,â you remind him. âIf anyoneâs taking advantage here, itâs me.â
His forehead drops to your shoulder, and you feel the slow rise and fall of his chest as he exhales. âYouâre making this really hard, you know that?â
âThatâs kind of the point.â
And itâs true, Spencer realizes with a rush of heat, because heâs incredibly hard, the heavy length of his cock pressed against your stomach while he braces his weight above you. His lungs tighten, squeezing around breaths that feel too thick to swallow as his teeth graze his lower lip. It takes everything in him to keep from losing himself when his mind is already slipping.
How could he have ever imagined it would go this far?
Spencer canât quite make sense of how this quiet, unassuming crush that crept in the first time he saw you with his daughter has led to this. It wasnât anything grand or sudden, just this slow bloom that unfurled every time he caught you reading to Violet or laughing with her over some little joke in the living room. There was just something about the way you slipped so easily into his life, fitting into the spaces he hadnât realized were empty until you filled them.
Heâd never let himself imagine it would go beyond that. Heâd convinced himself those feelings for you were just something heâd have to live with quietly, a small ache that would fade with time. But somehow, despite his best efforts to keep it hidden, youâd found your way to him. And against all his expectations, you liked him back. You like him enough that youâre now wearing nothing but a smile.
Flushed skin kissed by the moonlight spilling through the window.
Innocent eyes touched with a hint temptation.
It all feels like some sort of surreal dream.
The moment that led to this replays in his mind, clear as daylight even if it happened well past midnight. Heâd gotten home somewhere between too late and way too late, running on nothing but caffeine and sugar, and there you were, leaning casually against the kitchen counter like it was the most natural thing in the world.
You started talking about your day with Violet, recounting how youâd taken her to the park, read her favorite book before bed, and how sheâd peppered you with endless questions about why the sky changes colors when the day changes into night. But something was different in your voice, a softness to the way you said his name, and your gaze lingered on him just a beat longer than usual. It wasnât anything obvious, nothing he could point to and say thatâs it, but he felt it. An almost imperceptible shift in the air.
Before he knew it, he had crossed the room and kissed you. He shouldâve thought it through or paused to consider the consequences, but the way you responded made it clear youâd been waiting just as long for his attention.
His shoulders fall with a quiet exhale.
âThis could get complicated,â he continues, as if reminding you (and maybe himself) that thereâs a line between employee and employer that heâs about to cross. A line that could change everything between you both once itâs blurred. âWe should think about what this means.â
âWeâve had plenty of time to think. If you wanted to stop, you wouldâve done it already.â
âI donât think you understand what Iâm trying to say.â
âThen please enlighten me.â
Instead of answering right away, he leans in, his lips finding the curve of your neck. His breath is warm against your skin, and then heâs gently pulling the tender flesh between his lips that draws a sudden moan from your throat. The sound seems to fuel him, and before you can even register whatâs happening, his fingers are already slipping lower, exploring the soft space between your thighs.
âWhat if I want more than this?â His fingers inch closer, teasingly brushing against your heat with a slowness that borders on torment. âWhat if I want everything?â
Your hips buck against his hand. âEverything?â
âEverything,â he confirms. âNot just tonight.â
The words send a ripple of electricity that blooms deep in your core. When his fingers finally slip between your folds, a sharp gasp escapes your lips before you can hold it back.
âYou⌠you mean you want⌠more than this? More than just us⌠here?â
âYes,â he replies, his voice catching like gravel in his throat as his fingers trace over the slickness heâs found. âDoes that scare you?â
For a moment, words fail you. The slow, coaxing rhythm of his fingers pulls you deeper into a haze where coherent thoughts are hard to grasp. Thereâs a pause, a heartbeat where he stops. Waiting.
âNo,â you confess, the truth slipping out more easily than you expected. âIt doesnât.â
He pulls back just enough to meet your eyes. âIt doesnât?â
Your lungs expand, filling with a rush of oxygen and a nervous flutter that lands somewhere in the pit of your stomach. âI think this is the right time to tell you Iâve had a crush on you for a while.â
Spencer stays motionless for a beat. Then something shiftsâhis gaze softens, and a small, almost incredulous smile curves his lips. âYou have a crush on me?â
âYeah.â
âAs in⌠you have feelings for me?â
âMm-hmm.â
âSo youâre not just⌠turned on right now?â
âWell, that too,â you admit with a grin, your fingers brushing the back of his neck. âBut itâs more than that. I really like you.â
His smile widens, and his fingers begin to move again, circling your clit with just the right pressure to pull a sharp intake of breath from you. Itâs as though your confession is a final green light heâd been waiting for. âWhy didnât you say anything?â
Your teeth catch your lip, struggling to hold back fragments of breath. âI thought it was obvious,â you manage between heavy exhales. âWhy do you think I always stay late?"
"To avoid traffic?"
You huff. "I tried to be around you as much as possible, Spencer."
His fingers toy at the edge of your entrance, tracing the slick, warm wetness that clings to his skin as a quiet hum rumbles in his chest. âYou know Iâm not always the best at picking up social cues.â
âYouâre a profiler.â Your breath catches halfway between a gasp and a sigh when he slides a finger in. âYou're supposed to notice everything."
He lets your words settle, eyes narrowing slightly as he turns them over in his mind.
âI guess I was too focused on trying not to cross any lines to see the ones you were trying to draw."
A soft moan escapes your lips as another finger slides in.
âI'm⌠glad you finally caught on."
"I'm catching on now.â
His eyes drop to the way your body greedily takes his fingers. The sight alone sends a rush of heat straight to his gut like a line of fire winding up through his chest and spreading into his limbs. Youâre dripping, the slick sound of your arousal nearly derails him as he continues to watch the wetness coat his fingers with every slow thrust.
âSince when have you had this crush?â He asks curiously.
Thereâs a beat of silence, only punctuated by the soft, breathy noises escaping you. When he finally looks up, he catches the way your face scrunches in pleasure, brows furrowed and eyes barely open, and he canât help but find it almost unbearably adorable. The corners of his lips twitch with a quiet laugh before he leans in, pressing the softest itâs okay, you can tell me kiss against your lips.
âSince when?â
You blink your eyes open at his question, and thereâs a flush of embarrassment in your cheeks.
âSinceââ you start, but your voice catches when he curls his fingers slightly, and you bite down on your lip to keep from moaning. He raises an eyebrow, the corner of his mouth quirking up in a barely-contained grin.
âSince?â he prompts again.
You swallow the lump tightening in your throat. âSince you interviewed me for the job."
He absorbs your words. "Thatâs⌠more than a while."
"It was innocent at the time," you confess, trying to regain some control over your thoughts. "Just a silly little crush."
His pace quickens, fingers plunging deeper, and whatever sense of composure you had left is slipping away piece by piece. âWhat changed?â
Desperation claws at you with every passing second, your hips moving against his hand as you scramble to gather your thoughts. But the way his fingers are mapping every sensitive spot makes it nearly impossible to articulate anything coherent. He doesnât miss the way your breath stutters, or how your words break apart into fragmented attempts to answer.
âI-Iââ you stammer, wincing as the words catch in your throat before you finally manage to continue, âI probably shouldnât sayâŚâ
âWhy not?â
âItâs embarrassing."
He lets out a soft laugh. âTell me anyway,â he urges. âI want to hear it.â
You fall quiet again, and the only sounds that fill the space between you is the ragged pull of your breaths and the slick rhythm of his fingers pumping lazily inside you. The words sit heavy on your tongue, threatening to disappear if you donât say them quickly enough.
"Remember when⌠you taught Violet how to⌠ride her bike?â
He tilts his head slightly. Thereâs a furrow in his brow as he searches your face. âYouâre going to have to be more specific, there were a lot of lessons.â
âThe very first time.â
âAh,â he muses. âAround June, then.â
You nod. âWhen I⌠saw you with her that day, I-I⌠I got curious.â
His fingers falter, just slightly, the subtle pause enough to show that youâve grabbed his attention. âCurious?â
âYeah,â you whisper. âYou were so adorable with her⌠and I started thinking about what it would be like⌠to have your kids.â
If there was ever a moment to leave him utterly speechless, this was it. His brain seems to stall, the gears grinding to a halt as the reality of what youâve said settles in. Heâs spent so much time trying to be the one holding it all together, but now? Now all he could picture was you holding a babyâhis babyâand the thought sent his mind reeling, knocking him off balance in a way he didnât expect.
âYou⌠thought about that?â
Your fingers trails his shoulder before slipping up into his hair, curling gently at the nape of his neck. âIt crossed my mind more than once.â
âThatâsââ wow. He leans his forehead against yours. âNot embarrassing. At all.â
âReally?â
âThatâs probably the hottest thing I've ever heard in my life.â
You let out a soft chuckle, gently pulling on his curls before drawing his bottom lip into a gentle suck. âItâs never been innocent since then.â
Goosebumps rises along his skin, and the heat pooling low in his stomach tightens as he grows impossibly harder. âYeah?â
âIâve wanted you to fuck me for a long time.â
His jaw clenches.
Heâs so close to completely losing it.
âYou shouldnât say things like that,â he mutters, pressing his fingers deeper inside you.
âWhy.. why not?â
âBecause I might give you exactly what you want.â When he feels you clench around him, he huffs in amusement. âOh, you like that, donât you?â
Thereâs a tender spot he finds deep inside, one that feels achingly sensitive, and your mouth falls open, a soundless gasp escaping before you can catch it.
âYou really mean it,â he says, more a realization than a question, as he watches your body go pliant beneath his touch.
âI do,â you manage to say.
âYou want me that way?â
You nod frantically. âWant your cum in me.â
The second those words leave your lips, his groan rumbles through his chest, and you swallow it down as his mouth crashes into yours. The kiss is messy, teeth clashing and tongues tangling in a chaotic rhythm thatâs both desperate and needy. When he finally pulls away, youâre left panting, your lips swollen, his forehead resting against yours.
âNever wouldâve guessed you had such a dirty mouth."
"There's a lot of thing you don't know about me."
His breath brushes against your lips as he whispers, âIâm starting to figure that out.â
When he slowly withdraws his fingers, you canât help the soft whimper that escapes your throat. Your eyes follow his every move as he sits up and settles between your thighs. Youâve always thought Spencer was an attractive man, and youâd be lying if you said you hadnât admired the way his shirts fit just snug enough to hint at what was underneath. But seeing him naked like this? That was a whole new level of breathtaking.
Your gaze trails down his frame, landing on the soft curve of his stomach, something you'd secretly adored every time it pressed against his dress shirts. It was even more captivating without anything hiding it now, especially with the trail of dark hair leading down. Soft, scattered strands, drawing your eyes right to the place where you canât help but stare.
He gives himself a slow pump. Once. Twice. And then, finally, you feel the firm pressure of his tip pressing between your folds.
âAre you sure?â he asks, the head of his cock sliding over your sensitive skin. âThere's a condom in my drawer."
Your body tenses at the thought of him pulling back, and without thinking, your hand reaches between the two of you, wrapping around his cock before he can pull away. âWhen was the last time you got tested?â
He exhales sharply. âA few months ago,â he mutters, hips twitching against your grip despite himself. âIf there was any risk, I wouldnât even consider this without telling you.â
âI got tested last month,â you assure him quickly. âWeâre both safe.â
He nods absentmindedly. âWe can⌠still grab the condom if you wantâŚâ
âSpencer,â you interrupt, gently brushing the bead of precum that had formed at his tip. âI thought I made it clear I want you to cum inside me.â
He can only stare as your delicate finger trails along the thick vein. It feels like all the oxygen heâs desperately clinging to has been sucked from his lungs.
âI know you said you donât want to take advantage of meâŚâ you continue, guiding him right to your entrance. âBut I really want you to.â
He finally lets out a low, gruff sound, something between a growl and a sigh as he slowly pushes himself in. His eyes are locked on the sight of your walls stretching to accommodate his size, watching as your body struggles to take him.
"You should stop talking like that," he rasps through gritted teeth. "Iâm barely holding it together."
"Here's another thing you should know about me.â
He ruts gently into you. A push. A pull.
A heartbeat in between.
âI really like it rough."
Thatâs all it takes.
He slams his hips into yours.
Intense doesnât even begin to describe what he feels. Itâs more like a surge, a rush of heat and desperation that floods every inch of him the same time you cry out. His throat tightens, constricting around breaths he canât seem to catch as he resorts to inhaling sharply through his nose.
âJesus⌠you feel soââ His words falter, his voice rough and breathless as his fingers figs into your skin. His chest rises and falls with each labored breaths, and his eyes squeezes shut for a moment.
Tight. Warm. Wet. Thatâs exactly how you feel.
"Perfect." His large hands grips your waist. âYouâre perfect.â
You mewl at his words, the sound spilling from your lips before you can stop it, and the soft, needy noise is enough to make his eyes flicker open. He begins to pull back, just enough to make you whimper from the sudden loss of contact, but before you can catch your breath, he snaps his hips forward with a rough, powerful thrust.
Your hands fly to his arms, holding onto him tightly. "Spencer⌠PleaseâŚâ
He lets out a sigh.
No man is immune to that tone of desperation, least of all Spencer. Not when youâre offering yourself to him like something out of a dream. Not when your eyes lock onto his with a look that belongs more to an angelâif angels could be so helpless and desperate. Because what angel pleads with every breath for more?
What angel cries out as he holds your hips firmly in place and thrusts with a force that drives you to the brink of sanity?
Heâs mesmerized. His eyes track the way your breasts bounce with each snap of his hips. Thereâs something almost greedy in the way his gaze roams over you, but itâs when he locks onto where your bodies meet that he really loses himself. A glossy ring coats his cock each time he pulls out, and when he pushes back in, the friction between your bodies creates a lewd, wet sound that fills the room.
He laughs. Not out of mockery, but out of sheer delight.
Youâre an angel wrapped in sin.
âI canâtâoh god, right thereââ Your nails leave little crescents moon on his skin. âYouâre so⌠so deep.â
Youâre really testing his limits, and Spencer knows heâs very far from a violent man, but right now, the temptation to cover your mouth with his hand is becoming dangerously real. Although with the way youâre writhing beneath him, rolling your hips to meet his thrusts, heâs sure youâd probably enjoy it.
âSpencerâŚâ
His balls slaps your ass as he slams into you.
âO-Ohâfuck, Iâm gonna cum.â
He squeezes your waist tightly. âAlready?â
âNgh.â
Your grip loosens on his arm, and before he can fully process whatâs happening, your fingers dance along your clit. It takes all his willpower not to spill into you right then and there when he feels you tighten around him in response. But he holds on, because he needs you to cum first. He needs to feel your velvety walls flutter along the rigid veins of his cock, needs to watch the way your body tenses with pleasure.
He needs to feel it more than once.
He lets you have your first orgasm. Although letting seems like the wrong word. Thereâs nothing passive about it. Heâs making you cum, driving you to it with each calculated thrust. Youâre toying with your clit, rubbing in frantic circles just like you do whenever you touch yourself with the thought of him, but this time, itâs even more intense. This time, heâs inside you. And this time, it takes only a few moments for the tension to snap.
You clamp down on him. Hard. So hard that his movement falters for a second, but he quickly recovers, thrusting into you with a relentless rhythm. Just as you start to catch your breath, he pulls out, and youâre left in that delicious, dizzy haze, but your mind is even more disoriented when his face suddenly lowers between your thighs.
âOh, youâre gonnaââ you moan as his shoulders nudge your legs apart, opening you wider for him. âSpencer, you donât have toââ
Before you can finish, before you even take another breath, the tip of his tongue flicks out.
âI want to.â
And he means it. He dives in with a hunger that leaves no room for doubt. His tongue starts firm and flat, pressing against you before dragging slowly upward, gathering your slickness in one deliberate sweep. Then he changes rhythm, the broad strokes shifting into something more focused, alternating between gentle flicks and deep, hungry pulls, and itâs doing things to you that no amount of late-night fantasies could have prepared you for.
Your head is all over the place that you reach out blindly, trying to find something solid, but the air merely glides over your skin. You stretch for the edge of the bed, fingertips just skimming the surface before your arms flail helplessly in the empty space. He notices your struggle almost immediately, and without missing a beat, he pulls back, lifting your legs to rest on his shoulders.
âHere,â he says, reaching out his arms toward you. âGive me your hands.â
Gladly. The second your fingers lock with his, a sense of grounding floods you, though it does nothing to ease the intensity of what heâs doing. If anything, it sharpens. You can feel the muscles in his shoulders flex under your thighs as he positions himself. And sure, your legs somehow feel weightless, like theyâre floating in the air, but the rest of you?
Youâre a mess of nerve endings on fire.
Itâs impossible to think clearly when every cell in your body is buzzing. Your thoughts scatter the second his mouth moves in that devastating way, driving you out of your mind. You try to hold on to some semblance of control, but who are you kidding? He has officially turned you into a puddle of desperate, needy nerves, and you donât even care.
It doesnât take long before that coil snaps, and when it does, your entire body trembles. Itâs always the second orgasm. The first is a tease, a little warm-up. The second one is the worstâor the best, depending on how you look at it. It doesnât just tug at your edges, it tears right through, leaving you gasping and shaking and completely undone like every part of you has been pulled apart and put back together very wrong.
His mouth is glazed with your slick when he finally pulls away. âGood?â
You can barely feel your legs.
âSpeechless,â is your answer.
His nose twitches in amusement as his hand leaves yours only for them to slide down your body, gently coaxing your legs to wrap around his waist. âContinue?â
âPlease.â
A palm slips down your thigh. âDid you mean what you said earlier?â
You swipe your tongue across your bottom lip as he hovers above you. âAbout what?â
âAbout taking advantage of you.â
You huff out a sigh. âI wouldnât have said it if I didnât mean it.â
âSay it again,â he urges, guiding his cock smoothly along your folds before your whines travel into his ears. Ah, there it is. This is the sound that would greet him in heaven, if such a place existed for someone like him. Men whoâve taken lives to save others. Men who carry too many regrets to count. Spencer knows heâs not the kind of person heaven was built for, but if it were, heâs certain it would sound exactly like the breathy moan that escapes your lips.
And heâs tasted the afterlife, once, when he was youngerâdrifting somewhere between consciousness and oblivion with a ghost of a needle stuck in his arm. But nothing about that brush with death was like this. This feels like heâs been pulled back into something he didnât believe he deserved.
âSay it again.â
Heâs pleading now. It sounds awfully like a prayer.
âI want you to take advantage of me,â you say, the words spilling from your lips like a soft, sinful confession, music to his ears. An angel. âI want all of it.â
He takes your hands again. âSo you wonât be mad if I get a little rough?â
âIâd be disappointed if you didnât.â
Thatâs all he needs. He gently pushes your hands above your head, pinning them to the mattress, his fingers lacing through yours as his weight presses you into the bed. Thereâs a sudden rushâlike a switch has flipped that it knocks the breath out of you. Your heart skips a beat, but not from nerves. No, this is anticipation, excitement.
You test his hold on you, just to see what happens, but his grip stays firm, almost daring you to resist.
âYou asked for this,â he warns as he shifts his hips, aligning himself right to your entrance.
You shake your head. âI begged for this.â
He laughs, a flash of teeth in the dim light. âYeah,â he breathes, his grip tightening as he presses deeper, âyou did.â
A breathless whine escapes your lips as he fills you.
Angel, angel, angel.
He looks at you with a kind of reverence that borders on worship, though his movements are anything but saintly. Thereâs nothing gentle or innocent about the way heâs taking you, and thereâs a quiet madness in the way you respond. Making love would be too tame, too soft for what this is. But fucking seems too crude, too disconnected for the way your eyes meet his, for the way you say his name like a prayer and a demand all at once.
The moment your voice breaks, breathless and needy, something inside him snaps. He feels the tightness coiling in his gut, and once it starts, thereâs no stopping it. The pressure is mounting, and with every hard thrust it becomes harder to hold back. He knows he should slow down, give you a moment to catch your breath, but he canâtâhis body wonât let him.
His fingers tighten around yours. Heâs moving with a single-minded intensity now, pushing you flat against the mattress, your body pliant beneath him. The bed creaks every time he moves and your legs wrap tighter around his hips as you squeeze your eyes shut.
Spencer leans down, brushing his lips against yours, so close but never quite closing the distance, like even the simplest kiss would shatter him too soon. Instead, he rests his forehead on top of yours and whispers, âlâm sorry, Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry,â over and over, like heâs stuck on some endless loop. Itâs not a real apology, not for anything heâs done, but for how much he needs you and how heâs afraid of breaking you with how much he canât hold back.
Heâs so close and he knows heâs not going to last much longer.
âIâmââ He groans as he feels the tension in his body snap, the wave building up in his spine and crashing down with brutal intensity. âIâfuckâI canât hold itââ
Youâre barely coherent yourself, but your voice comes out strong. A little breathless.
âInside,â you gasp, your legs tightening around his waist. âI want it inside.â
Your words push him over the edge. He shudders, hips stuttering as he buries himself as deep as he can the moment the last thread of his restraint snaps. He can feel it, the way he pulses inside you, filling you completely. Every thrust is accompanied by a harsh groan as his release paints your walls, and the sound of your soft, desperate whines only pushes him deeper into the overwhelming pleasure.
When it finally becomes too much, he carefully pulls out. But the intensity is still coursing through his veins, and heâs too addicted to the sound of your sound, too drawn to the way your body trembles beneath him.
His hand drifts from your wrist almost on instinct, tracing its way down between your legs. He doesnât need to see the mess heâs madeâhe can feel it. Thereâs a fleeting moment where he pauses, almost in awe, before his fingers brush over your clit, and your hips jerk in response. Heâs not even sure if heâs teasing you or himself at this point, but heâs too far gone to care.
He slides two fingers inside you.
Your back arches instantly, your nipples brushing against his chest, and you gasp, fully aware of what heâs trying to do. âOh⌠IâI canâtâŚâ
He shakes his head. âYou can,â he reassures you, watching in fascination as he pushes the white liquid of his release deeper into you. His gaze snaps back to yours. âI think you can give me one more.â
Your body trembles, and you canât hold back the soft, broken cry that escapes your lips.
âSpencerâŚâ
He loosens his grip on your hand, guiding it gently to rest around his neck. âPlease,â he begs, his lips brushing your skin, âfor me?â
The way he says it makes it impossible for you to deny him. And he knows it. He feels it in the way your nails dig into the back of his neck, pulling him closer as the tension inside you builds again. His fingers work faster, more desperate now, curling inside you just the way you like.
Heâs watching, waiting, and when you finally cum again, itâs like witnessing something so divine. Your body shakes beneath him, a violent, beautiful quake that feels like itâs pulling him into its orbit. Heâs unable to tear his eyes away as your head tilts back, lips parting with a choked moan thatâs as delicate as it is devastating like an angelâs breath caught on the edge of rapture.
If angels looked this breathtaking in heaven, no wonder people were willing to risk damnation.
Spencer smiles wryly to himself.
Since when did he become so religious?
Another strangled moan escapes your lips. When your orgasm finally subsides, your chest heaves as you try to catch your breath, and with what little strength you have left, you reach up and yank weakly at his mop of brown curls.
ââŚno more.â
He smiles softly, leaning down to press a gentle kiss to your temple. âNo more,â he agrees, pulling his fingers from you carefully.
Without saying a word, he slips off the bed and disappears from the room, only to come back with a damp towel in his hand. You expect him to hand it over to you, but youâre surprised when he kneels at the edge of the bed, gently spreading your legs apart.
Your skin tingles under his gaze as he stares at the mess between your thighs.
âThat wasâŚâ he starts as he begins to wipe the towel over you. ââŚvery reckless of us.â
With a small, tired smile, you mutter, âYou donât seem too bothered by it.â
He glances up at you. âIâm not,â he admits, finishing his cleanup and setting the towel aside. âBut that doesnât mean I shouldnât at least pretend to be responsible.â
You reach for him as he climbs back into bed. âWould it make you feel better if I told you Iâm on birth control?â
He exhales a breath he didnât even realize he was holding, his body visibly relaxing as he lets out a quiet laugh. âIt definitely helps,â he says, tucking you under his chin, âbut Iâm still going to try to be more careful next time.â
Your grin is as wide as the warmth spreading through your chest. âNext time?â
He smiles softly. âI meant what I said earlier.â
âWhich part? You said a lot of things.â
âYou know what I mean,â he insists.
âI know. But I want to hear it again.â
The tip of his nose brushes yours. âI want everything.â
âEverything?â
âEvery single part of you.â
You take a deep breath. A whiff of his sweat and the faintest trace of soap clings around your senses until you release a happy sigh. âDo you think Violet will be okay with this? With us?â
His hand slips to the back of your neck, fingers threading through your hair as he tilts his head to look at you. âShe already loves you,â he reassures you. âSheâs more adaptable than you think. And she trusts you.â
âBut... what if it changes things for her?â
âIt will change things,â he admits. âBut all the changes will be good ones."
You mull over his words. âYou think so?â
âI know so, because you make her happy. You make both of us happy, anââ
He stops, his lips just barely parted as he catches himself.
He almost said it. He almost called you angel.
âWhat?â
He shakes his head slightly, a faint embarrassed smile tugging at the corner of his mouth.
"Iâm just really happy,â he explains, his fingers absentmindedly brushing a stray lock of hair away from your face. Thereâs a curious look in your eyes, but instead of pressing him, you bury yourself into his neck, which heâs quietly grateful for because heâs not sure he could have explained himself without sounding like a total sap.
And maybe he is a sap, but even heâs aware that words like that shouldnât be thrown around too soon, especially after just one night. Not before things settle in, before everything feels a little less like a dream and more like reality.
But he thinks about it. Oh, he thinks about it. The word stubbornly lingers at the edge of his mind heâs keeping for another time. He imagines letting it slip on some quiet morning, when youâre half-asleep and bundled in his shirt, golden sunlight filtering through the window to cast a warm glow across your skin. Or maybe when you meet him at the door after a long day, and Violet runs up, chattering away while you smile at him with that look that feels like coming home.
He can picture it falling easily from his lips someday, maybe even in a future where youâre holding the baby you had wondered about having with him and heâs standing there, watching you like someone who canât quite believe his luck.
Heâll say it with a kind of certainty then. Not as a prayer, not as some lofty declaration of divine grace.
And when that moment comes, without hesitation, heâll finally call you his angel.
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