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It doesnât exactly come as a surprise to Buck because his gaydar had been going off since the moment that they first met. Or well, it became clearer the moment that Eddie grabbed ahold of his shirt and held him up against a wall in anger. Yet thereâs something about the way that Eddie says it so nonchalantly that makes everything inside of Buck tingle with an urge to just lean in and kiss him.
But he keeps his cool and twiddles his thumbs, barely glancing at Eddie.
âOh, I-⌠I didnât realizeâ Buck says, gently biting his lip.
âYeah you did, Buck. I also donât really try to hide it. Everyone knows around here. Or well, most people. The army has a âdonât ask, donât tellâ mentality, so thatâs usually what happens. People donât ask and I donât tell. But I donât mind people knowing. Although Iâve had to deal with my fair share of bigots during the yearsâ
Buck chuckles a bit dryly and finally gets the courage to look at Eddie, before he says, âtell me about it. Itâs not easy being into men in an environment where youâre told to push everything down and aside until it eats you upâ
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#buddie#evan buckley#eddie diaz#911 on abc#buddie wip#oliver stark#buddie fic#evan buck buckley#edmundo diaz#soldier!eddie x war correspondent!buck#fic title: the sun behind the storm (can you feel my heart?)#make me write#look im alive people!
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Five billion octopath 2 scribbles i feel sick
#i know what you are wouldve made more sense w temenos i just really wNted to draw castti <\3 west continent crew my beloved#this isnt chronological at all. besides the first ones thats the first octopath i ever drew#like seconds after i finished castti and hikaris first chapter.#infected my brain so quickly i feel like a new person#i could write an essay on my octopath thoughts and rambling omfg.play octopath#art tag#octopath traveler 2#oh my god theyre all here ok#castti florenz#hikari ku#agnea bristarni#partitio yellowil#thronĂŠ anguis#osvald v. vanstein#temenos mistral#ochette#dolcinaea luciel#veronica octopath#she didnt get a last name.SAD#i have more of these by the way.so many#ORIS HERE I GORGOT#ori octopath#i love ori. if i had to sacrifice myself but remembered how nice paritio was last minute i would also change my mind#oh ym god elenas here too#elena vanstien#shout out to you know how getting added to cotc im so happy.im scared if i say his name thisll show up in his tag and he isnt even here#he looks beautiful. and alive. awesome#the cotc artstyle is soooo pretty i saw castti and felt emotional#anyway. ot2. this is where ive been the past few months.#oh castti can inquire people. i know what you are does make sense for her heh
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Cale "I'm keeping all the extremely powerful bad guys we worked so hard to defeat alive in case I need them later" Henituse VS Han "I'm snapping a small fry's neck on a whim cause he looked at my brother wrong" Yoojin
#i appreciate the thought Cale but you gotta kill some of them#this is stressing me out what if thwy escape!!#look at Yoojin do you see Yoojin keep people alive#then again Yoojin doesnt torture them#Cale goes a bit hard with torture doesn't he#im at chapter 411 please no spoilers#reading lout of the count's family#locf#tocf#tcf#cale henituse#han yoojin#kim roksu#sctir#the s classes that i raised#the s ranks that i raised
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New Leokumi content in the lords year of 2024?? It's more likely than you think! (x)
#I gotta say its been so so nice to go back to something I was passionate about as a teen#its hard to describe#a sense of coming home almost#'Hey I know you and hey I can see my younger self in the way I react to this and that'#fates? People would stone you if you said you liked that thing ten years back#now im an adult and I write 160k words about leokumi#idk dude#being an adult is difficult but being unapologetic and knowing you have every right to do so is just so cathartic#Hah never thought id go back to fates one day and be nostalgic would you look at that#im glad im alive actually#leokumi#fire emblem#fe#fire emblem takumi#fire emblem leo#fire emblem fates#fire emblem if#fire emblem fanfiction#fire emblem camilla#look she deserves the tag FEH loves her for her#Personality#my art
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staff logging on to tumblr dot com today
#staff sweetie i Promise you an algorithm would kill this webbed site#changing the way reblogs look/work would Absolutely kill this webbed site too#this is a Blogging Platform i dont want it to be like tiktok or twitter jesus#if you NEED to change something literally listen to the the Tumblr Users you pretend you cant hear#if money is what you need make your userbase Happy and you should be fine#the shop is fine blaze posts are fine ad free subscriptions are fine but dont get rid of shit that Works For You in favor of making money#someone really laced up their clown boots today im. so tired staff please dont#tumblr staff#EDIT: staff updated their original post to say we were all misunderstanding but#that doesnt stop the post from being stupid#the whole post was worded for Investors and then presented to the userbase#if you say 'we have big changes planned!' and dont put in the 'as options' its Your Fault that people read it as 'were changing everything'#staff isnt stupid. they know how they Should have worded it better than what they did#so yeah. someone Did lace up their clown boots before they hit post#edit pt 2 lol for the record i dont think tumblr would actually go through with all their changes in that post#they know how the userbase is and there are A Lot of us#i just dont like how? idk. condescending? the post sounded#and out of every place on the internet being being burned alive in the name of money#tumblr is the one place i know enough about to be Actually mad at lol#ive really liked some stuff staff has done in recent years#but talking to your userbase that way wasnt one
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Hi hi!! I accidentally spent way too long on this, but the animatic was so good it FUELLED me... Here's a screenshot redraw as a lil gift :] Sorry grian isn't very birby lol
OH HE IS VERY BIRBY WHAT DO YOU MEANNN AHHH I wish i could draw bruises and stuff like you, I totally skimped out on that but ahh this is sick!!! Oh it's so lovely and oh it hurts so much haha. Thank you so much, it's such an honor for my work to inspire anyone, this is so cool!!! AHHHYH your art is so pretty!! I love the colors and Grian's face says it all hnggg
#desert duo#scarian#trafficshipping#OH ITS SO GOOD OHHH IM SO HONORED I CANT TELL YOU HOW HONORED I AM AHHH what a day to be alive...#this is so cool whoa...#idk if I should tag anything else lol I dont usually tag mc individuals for ship art I dont know!! I get so conscious about tagging lol but#I hope people see this. Please look. Please look at the Scarian..
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Hello guys! Whats it like being giant supercomputer AI? Do you feel really big all the time?
#rain world#rain world askblog#looks to the moon#five pebbles#HI IM STILL ALIVE#college has officially begun but i will still be making updates#it just will probably take a while like this one has. also sorry i know its a bit long but i wanted to have them both give a response#also RUFFLES POST IS NEXT I PROMISE#i was going to do everything in the order i got it but so many people are wondering where ruffles is so ruffles wins by popular vote XD
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b4 death B) - angel w a little hat below cut <3
tried to stick to their death dates a bit but. idk i only googled for like 5 mins. also i wanted those old news print colours đ
#alastor#niffty#angel dust#hazbin hotel#fanart#i wanted to like. idk not necessarily match their designs but what i think they'd have looked like when alive#a lot of people give angel heterochromia which i dig but i like the idea he's got the same thing as david bowie - 2 different sized pupils#i wanted 2 make niffty deranged but also sweet bc i love her dearly but i do think she killed people#alastor i tried to like give him a cab calloway vibe like charming but then also his scary little smile#Had to give Al the little glasses chain for extra cuntitude#angel i think was strange to make bc. he's the least human out of these 3 to me. so he could've looked like anything.#you can pry him being a bleach blonde out of my cold dead hands tho this man has dark hair naturally#needed him to look Fruity. but only a little. the amount of times i'd give him makeup then had to force myself to remove it#i love talking abt visual headcanons im so shit at writing to so you'll have to put up w drawings just so i can ramble abt them in the note#human niffty#human alastor#human angel dust#.ctf
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Okayyyyy yeah also let's talk about Tammy. I didn't know how I felt about her for awhile because she did very much feel like the Disposable Black Girlfriend, but I'm seeing people saying she's an "abuser" or God forbid "just as bad as Kevin" and that's just. Not at all true.
Yes, Tammy is controlling. She doesn't seem to really like Patty for who she is, and kind of seems to want to change her into someone else instead. HOWEVER, I think we need to look at the whole character to understand WHY she's like that. I don't think she's controlling Patty for personal gain or for the sake of manipulating her. I think she's lonely and desperate for companionship, which leads to her ignoring/pushing past the obvious incompatibility in her relationship with Patty.
Here's what we know about Tammy:
1. She seems to be the only black person in the Worcester social circle. She also mentions frequently how she's surrounded entirely by white men at work.
2. She is also the only openly lgbt person in the area, other than Patty, who is still not exactly out and proud.
3. She describes her entire job as "making excuses for" and "cleaning up after" the men at her job, particularly her partner (whose name I am unfortunately forgetting, does anyone remember?), who even had her plant evidence for him on at least one occasion.
4. Despite being very competent and good at her job, the white men around her keep failing upwards (she mentions a few times that people beneath her keep getting promoted) while she remains stagnant in her career. There doesn't seem to be any explanation for this other than the fact that she is a black lesbian in an extremely white, conservative community.
Basically, Tammy seems like someone who has been taught (like many black women) that she will have to work much harder than everyone else to get ahead in any capacity. She is also likely very, very lonely. She doesn't seem to have any friends outside of work, which isn't surprising given the above. It seems like she doesn't exactly have a ton of prospects, dating-wise, other than Patty. In my opinion, it's really no wonder that she clung to Patty so desperately and immediately and tried to forcibly mold her into someone who could be compatible. She's tough, smart, organized, direct, manipulative, no-nonsense and controlling because, well, she had to be. And she ends up trying to "rein in" Patty because, in her mind, what's the other option? She ends up alone, surrounded by men who force her to cover for their antics and don't care if she lives or dies.
I'm not saying her behavior is healthy. But it comes from an entirely different place than Kevin's abuse, or Chuck's, or even Neil's. And it's also not uncommon. In real life, I know many queer women (specifically small-town lesbians) who end up in relationship dynamics just like that over and over again because they start dating someone who doesn't quite fit, and they compensate for it by trying to force a connection instead of accepting loneliness and isolation. I have a lot of sympathy for Tammy. And I wish the show had taken more care to establish the abuse she faced from her coworkers off-camera.
#tammy ridgeway#kevin can fuck himself#kevin can f himself#patty oconnor#basically i think tammys story is about the perils of girlbossdom for black queer women#and theres a lot to be said about the fact that she chose to be a cop. we dont know anything about her home life or childhood or anything#other than that she grew up in worchester (?) which i think she mentions one time#but like the black lesbian cop trope is so overplayed due to sitcoms fundamentally not understanding why 'diversity' is important#and like im sure her character was meant to kind of lampshade that phemonenon#but i think its so interesting to look at characters like that and ask WHY they ended up in that position#in tammys case i think it was definitely trying to 'rise above her stature' and basically force people to actually respect her#not that it worked of course. it never does#and she had to become a tool of the oppressor in the process#ill talk about sam later because hes also a really interesting case study on race in sitcoms and the way poc are framed#but these are my thoughts for now. this show has gotten my analysis brain buzzing again and i feel alive for the first time in months
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ive completely forgotten what i had for them in my head so you're welcome to give your interpretations....
#this was so cool in my head too it came out so so wonky#well since im sleep deprived but. anywho theyre so silly#tsuna tyl is so cool to me. if i had to give a good example he'll be somewhat like yamamoto#the kind that plays dumb and is nice and all but knows more than what he looks like. since he's already silly people would think nothing-#changed until he pulls out his plans for a new underground base just to keep reborn alive. future arc youre truly one of a kind#never getting over that tbh#katekyo hitman reborn#sawada tsunayoshi#r27#reborn
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(8/6/22 -> 10/9/24) HIS NAME IS HIWAY ROBBERY AND HE LOVES ME!!!!
got to one of my favorite episodes in my listenthrough with pals - wanted to redraw art i did when it first came out for the occasion c:
#scribbles#find us alive#fua podcast#agent love#officer raddagher#dr lancaster#dr klein#dr harley#nari love#ingrid raddagher#orion lancaster#beatrix klein#edmund harley#rainbowcore#animecore#its crazy i still really LIKE the original - its one of my old fua arts i still link people lol - but getting a tangible look at#how my stuff has improved is utterly bananas#originally for the redraw i was gonna go for complete style replication and do it in higurashi style#and you can still tell the inspo there ofc - but my computer crashed#and my progress was gone so i decided fuck it and played more loose with it the second go around#glad i did it looks really really nice. im quite proud
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at first getting diagnosed with cptsd was like, "yay my trauma has been validated (it always was valid)!" and i really thought that was going to be it, but then i started to do research as i do whenever i realize i have something and learned that!! the way i experience socialization is!! quite horrid actually!!
#i have had this stupid fucking rule for myself for years since i was little#''dont speak unless you're spoken to or else something bad will happen. nobody wants to hear what you have to say unless they ask''#I TELL MYSELF THAT ALL THE TIME????#AND I DIDNT REALIZE IT WASNT NORMAL#thats not something that healthy people think to themselves whenever they want to talk to people. they just talk to them#they dont tell themselves not to speak to people for fear of what may happen to them jesus christ spacie#i get so scared when i message anybody ANYTHING#bc everything and anything i wanna talk about feels so stupid why would anyone give a shit#staring at a funny joke i want to send someone for 30 fucking minutes before deleting it b/c my brain is like ''errmm who cares?''#''also they're going to yell at you for wasting their time!!!''#i sent my friend a meme once and had a panic attack (or maybe a flashback?? im still trying to figure out what they are) immediately after#this shit sucks dude. it sucks#at least im processing what happened to me. thats why it hurts so bad rn its been stockpiled for like.#2 decades#im not looking for any sympathy here im just putting it out there#so that anybody who feels the same way i do know they're not alone#ive been struggling everyday for like 2 months now (actually DEFINITELY longer)#it will get better. things just need to be taken one step at a time#i have gotten thru my worst days i have a 100% success rate#how many days have i been alive#7930#lightwork#lets keep it goin#vent#trauma tw#trauma mention#wrote this post thru a flashback btw!! dealing with them is getting easier#before i would be unable to function for days at a time!!!#with one of the most recent ones i had i was so in the thick of it i avoided everyone i knew for a week cuz i was convinced#i was an evil unlovable freak that only wanted to hurt people
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Why do people keep saying they want Agatha to adopt Billy or that Billy is a motherless child or that Agatha is Billy's new mom.... Y'all he says Rebecca is his mom, canonically in the show. Agatha isn't his mom.
#agatha all along#agatha harkness#william kaplan#rebecca kaplan#billy maximoff#Agatha isnt his mome hes has enough moms hes got Rebecca and maybe Wanda in the future. for THREE YEARS Rebecca was his mom#put some respect on her name#i cant believe i have to keep saying this#agatha isnt his mom. billy isnt a replacement nicky. agatha cares for billy yes but why does that have to be she his mom now?#i love my nieces ans nephews are they my children? no. im their aunt. id still help them need be. agatha has no parental power over billy#i see her as more aunt figure or mentor. why does she have to be his mom? he has enough moms? i thought we settled on Fun Aunt Agatha?#a coven is a non traditional family unit why do we have to put them in traditional family boxes?#hell the whole kaplan-maximoff-shepherd dynamic isnt traditional its messy and complicated. why would you want to water it down?#...........#i saw someone on tiktok say they want Agatha to Adopt Billy....how. would that work? he has two. perfectly alive and loving parents at home?#he loves them? he talks about them? he calls them his mom and dad? he spent 3 years with them? they're not abusive or horrible people!#why would he leave them? again HE LOVES THEM! Did you miss the part where he hugges them and looks at them fondly and they love him?#you want the twin with shit parents that would leave them and never look back? THATS TOMMY!
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the fact mostly everybody is upset with the style of the new trailer and im just like YIPPEE
#i feel so out of place rn#i thought it looked nice#a little goofy with some characters but it is NOT as cartoony as most people claim#'its overwatch style!1111!!!' im gonna to skin you alive#somebody was upset that varric was in it but not fenris and im like bro#i want him in it too but BFFR#why would they NOT use varric lol?#the introductions and shit were kind of goofy and stuff but omg#these mfers are acting like thats the ENTIRE game#i was trying to avoid leaks for the game but tbh#unless theyve changed the art style since the leaked screenshots it doesnt look the same to me#AND THERES BIG FUCKING TEXT AT THE BOTTOM THAT SAYS 'GAME ENGINE FOOTAGE. NOT ALL IMAGES APPEAR IN GAME'#maybe i really do like all the games in a series that everybody else hates lol#tlou 2. borderlands 3. dragon age inquisiton.#and now probably dragon age the veilguard lol#kwyoz.txt#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age dreadwolf
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Wow the Artemis Fowl movie really is bad
#why is mulch NARRATOR?#why are the Fairy People human sized#why is arty ATHLETIC?#anyway heyyy guys my yearly checkin#im so shocked the fandom seems so alive#theres so much fanart#i just queued so much so thereâs that to look forward to :))
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genuinely disappointed by natlan character designs, on top of being colourist/racist to repeatedly exclude darker skin tones on everyone but enemies, it also just doesn't make sense for the region like "immersive storytelling" why the fuck is that twink reflecting 200,000 lumens off his skin when he lives in a region based off south america/africa not only does it break the suspension of disbelief but I also can't see my screen because his skin glare is vaporising my retinas
#i also hate that âoh but people from those places can be pale!â excuse because yeah people can be pale buf not fucking all of them#my bloodline has never left the british isles and my skin tone is darker than all âtanâ characters minus candace#im the pastiest bitch alive you can see all of my veins and my skin isnt as white as genshin characters#bue waffling#genshin impact#natlan#oh and that âpale bc they live in the jungle areaâ excuse for sumeru is bs too#look up native amazonians they're so much more tan than the bleach paper white sumeru characters are#it bugs me because the LED whiteness of them throws me off like they're so pale they look uncanny
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