#look at him he's learning c':
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When this is all over you can just ignore me again.
That's the annoying part about you. You assume how others feel and jump to conclusions without asking. The reason you don't have friends is because you shove them away. Don't say that I can ignore you. We can just talk about the occult like normal.
#look at him he's learning c':#this line hit me like a ton of bricks i needed to hear it tbh#dandadan#okarun#ayase momo#okamomo#gif
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The more I think about the last minutes the more I’m sure Crowley was saying goodbye from the minute Aziraphale told him he’d said yes to Heaven. He doesn’t confess his love like he’s hopeful, he confesses it like a eulogy. He doesn’t kiss him to make a beginning, he kisses him to seal the end. He watches him go like it’s the last time.
Crowley knows Heaven. He knows they’ll want to either make Aziraphale just like them, or destroy him. Either way I think he believes he’s seen his angel for the last time.
#‘nothing lasts forever’#‘no I don’t suppose it does’#that look on his face is despair#to be clear I know this won’t end like this#but he doesn’t#he’s spent six thousand years keeping a little space for them both#he doesn’t know what Aziraphale can do without him#(neither does Aziraphale)#(maybe they need to learn)#(maybe he’ll find he has more help than he thinks)#(if Gabriel and Muriel were so ready to leave who else up there is questioning?)#good omens 2#good omens#a/c
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Ryan Guzman’s XMag Interview
#ryan guzman#XMag#look at him#so sexy#so hot 🔥🔥🔥#eddie diaz#911 on abc#omg#isla fisher#greg kinnear#Interesting tidbits to learn#he was going through the divorce with C#back in 2022#so it’s been a long time coming
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#dbtag#silly hours#god#I feel like that's a really clear and consistent thing throughout the entirety of the manga but OTL leave it to Toei!!!!#lays on the floor I wish people were less afraid of letting “good guys” be flawed and selfish and reckless without having to like.#idk vilify them?#like Goku does and always has had a ton of negative qualities about him but what keeps him a protag and what keeps those negatives charming#is that 1) he never promises to be anything Else. If you're upset by his behavior that's a you problem Goku's just doing Goku#He's only upset when Other People get hurt because 2) almost none of those negative qualities contain any malice whatsoever#even as a kid when he was 'i killed that guy' it was like 'i solved a problem why are you mad (gen)' not 'good fucking riddance lol'#and he kept that as an adult too even when he learned more about compassion he's still 'well if you're not gonna stop i have to kill you'#it's never 'fuck off and die' it's always 'listen buddy either you knock it off or i knock you out there is no option c '#and god i love that Goku. I spent so long thinking I hated Goku growing up but I only hated Toei's Goku. Toriyama's Goku is GREAT.#like look if an antagonist is just a hero with the wrong perspective a hero is just a villain with the right one#and the fact that Goku has all of the qualities of a villain with none of the malice or intention makes him SO POWERFUL as a character#Goku doesn't like bystanders getting hurt. That doesn't make him less chaotic and self-centered and simplistic in his worldview.#A hero sacrifices his loved ones to save the world -- a villain sacrifices the world to save his loved ones --#Goku sacrifices himself because you cannot kill him in any way that matters#idskahds anyway here's another essay in the tags for your wednesday evening scroll#the justification the interviewer gave was that the anime was for kids but my beef with that is that Hero Tropes strip chaotic characters#of their emotions. Goku's conflicts are emotional. Goku's power is emotional. Goku's childlikeness keep him authentically emotional.#MORE kids -- ESPECIALLY little boys -- deserve a male protagonist who leans into his emotions to persevere and win.#Super deciding his “angelic state” would kill him makes me want to tear my hair out lmao Goku's EMOTIONS are too strong to hold it.#you could've just asked toriyama about it why'd you decide on the most basic high-stakes shorthand possible OTL#aNYWAY#media analysis#in the tags at least lol
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Do you ever think about Azula after Zuko's banishment and before she was sent on her mission? About the time it was just her and Ozai? Because I do.
Her worst fear is being what Zuko is to their father. It's easy to look at her smirking while she watches Ozai light Zuko’s face on fire and think that she enjoys her brother’s suffering, but from the day she was born, Zuko has been the bad example. The scapegoat. The failure she exists to surpass. Where he is disrespectful, she will be obedient. Where he is weak, she will be strong. She will make Ozai proud. She will be perfect. She has to be. Because if she isn’t -
well, in that moment she sees that for herself. Iroh looks away, but she doesn’t. This eleven-year-old child watches the whole gory scene that her experienced general uncle can’t stomach, because this is a lesson for her as well, that’s why Father had her be here, and so she must not let herself tremble or cry or flinch or scream. Zuko is. That means she can’t. Instead she will do the exact opposite, smile with a princess’s proper posture.
Then Zuko is banished. He will most likely never return - most likely die young. He isn’t around to be the foil under her jewel anymore, making her shine brighter simply by contrast. (Or to play with her or comb her hair. But it isn’t useful or becoming to miss those moments. She isn’t a child anymore; her childhood was burned through like Zuko’s skin.) All Ozai’s attention is on her. All her people’s hope in the next generation of royalty rests in her. If she doesn’t hold her shoulders back and keep her head high, she will collapse under the weight of her nation’s future. Zuko got what he deserved. Just as whatever happens to her, she deserves it too.
How many nightmares does she have? How many times does she flinch or shake when her father touch her? Or force herself not to? How many times does she smell burning hair and flesh and hear her brother’s agony when she spoke her own opinion in a war meeting? How much does she secretly grieve him, and scold herself for it?
#look all i'm saying is azula has to have ptsd from that day too#on top of the c-ptsd that comes free with being raised by ozai#if she was in her right mind in 'into the inferno' i doubt that she would challenge zuko to agni kai#we all know that she would and does duel him with firebending while sane#(you know sane with c-ptsd)#but i don't think azula 'kept trying to bring zuko home no matter what he did to her in season two' of the fire nation#would specifically frame it as an agni kai#she just understandably has learned extremely shitty ways of showing it#she definitely has love for him#i mean in ‘crossroads of destiny’#she could have just taken him prisoner but she swayed him to return to her side willingly#she just wants her loved ones to chose her and they never do#at least not for long before a betrayal#i have too many feelings about this flamethrower child and this is just an attempt to articulate some of them#princess azula#azula#ozai#fire lord ozai#fire nation royal family#fire family
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You know, sometimes you just play an otome and go "that's my son" and then he's the mom of the group. It just happens like that sometimes.
#charade maniacs#keito ebana#i just think hes neat! and im horrified for when i play his route and learn things glossed over in another route#but like also hey i love him sooooo much and i got really sad when i looked at a site for the rec walkthrough order#and then a brief overview of The Guys themselves and#the person writing it was like listen i love the artist of the game but why did they give him poop hair#and i just :c thats mean :c it could also just be chocolate ice cream :c why ya gotta be so mean#they literally gave a lower route rating BECAUSE they didnt like his hair#and i get it cause appearances do affect my opinions on the characters but not actually the route overall#so i uh so haha i uh jokingly put possible otome spam in my header info thing here#and i thought no way will i actually do that#then i remembered my mom son and was like oh damn gotta draw him... wait -
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I know j!dream uses dresses and that kind of clothes bc of the thing he has with j!sam on the bird house and in one of the good endings were he escape we see him still using them so is it that this was a from of dressing and expression he already had from before all j!sam madness or he find a way to reclaim it as something for himself now?
yeah--the clothing tends to be something he views positively in the birdhouse, honestly. (does conditioning play a part? yes. but a lot of that is um, how do you say,,, self-designed? i guess? wearing pretty clothes by his own volition encourages sam to treat him better which encourages dream to wear more pretty clothing etc.) it's not all dresses/skirts, obviously--j!dream tends to be the one that assumes that j!sam wants him to dress fem more than the other way around (j!sam has wanted this man carnally for two years while wearing a prison jumpsuit in various states of being beat up and/or looking like a drowned rat. kind of safe to say that this man's standards, as long as it's dream, are not particularly high.)--but a lot of the clothing no matter what specific gender presentation is umm somewhat revealing, when he's in the birdhouse
a lot of this from j!dream's pov is about like, power. getting sam to be attracted to him is the greatest power that he has in their dynamic, something he had tried for in the prison and didn't achieve until mayfair. getting sam to stare is something that makes him feel safer. and there's a big part where he's trying to combat how he felt in the prison, alone and in pain and wondering when the hell sam would next come back to make the stupid dispensers stop. he felt abandoned and alone and unwanted and undesirable, by himself at the back of the cell with nothing but sam's torture machine and his own tired, pain-addled thoughts to keep him company. in comparison, the power to make sam stay through his body is another kind of high.
i kind of write j!dream to be a little bit ambivalent about his gender and expression--pre-prison, he would've focused more on practicality and survival, which meant that the way he looked was thrown mostly to the wayside. between the mask and the armor, the main aspects of self-expression boiled down to expressing himself as someone untouchable. in some ways, the big ass closet and its many different outfits and j!duo's whole...thing were the first time he really dressed for practicality of a...different sort, and he does have a measure of fun with it (when sam isn't choosing for him, anyway.)
for him, whether it's during birdhouse or after, he definitely likes feeling attractive and desired by others, whether that be sam or others, and while a big part of that is the super messy cocktail of emotions and conditioning that ends up happening surrounding sex in birdhouse, that stuff also isn't all that easy to untangle just because he's out of that environment, either. with the exception of a few more extreme cases (ff!sam. is a strange man.) j!dream never really internalizes the clothing as something that sam forces on him as much as choices he makes himself to seduce sam into treating him better, if that makes sense, so he'll continue to approach clothing and how he chooses it as ways to shape other people's perceptions of himself for his own safety and survival for,,, a long time.
so yeah, even post-birdhouse he'll still probably dress to look Attractive in a way that didn't matter to him the same way pre-prison, both as a self-comfort (this is something that keeps him safe) and as a means of appeasing other people (in his own head). that being said, there are some changes post-birdhouse in his wardrobe eventually; he'll start dressing more comfortable with time (a lot of his clothing wasn't really designed to be warm, and as such he was quite often pretty chilly in the birdhouse, which sam kept a little on the cooler side), and if he's actually going outdoors more then he'll have to dress a little more practically under armor, etcetera.
#birdhouse AU#mayfair AU#my asks !!#j!dream tends to tailor his clothing to what seems to work best for his situation#to him choosing to wear a dress that makes sam look at him is much better than a drab prison uniform that's forced on him#etc etc whatever#the difference is especially highlighted by c!dream who kind of dresses like shit as much as possible in deliberate contrast with j!dream#and also just gets beat up more because he's never learned to shut up ever
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"You are bleeding, when were you planning on doing something about it?!"
"I don't know, oh lord of Dor Caranthir, when I was in private perhaps? It was a careless mistake, it's shameful"
"You humans are so precious of the most trifling things, you fester so rapidly as well! You are a soldier and you were hurt, now sit down so I may stitch the wound"
"...is this not the work of the women?"
"Unless you personally wish for one of the women to attend you, I am the most skilled in needles here"
Just me having feelings over Haleth taking on the roles of soldier and chief while Caranthir acts as defender and embroiderer
#they are so reversal of gender roles#fight me#i will die on this hill#silmarillion#the silmarillion#feanorians#silm#halenthir#haleth#caranthir#my writing#had this snippet in my mind for a while#it's a 'scenes I would put in a silm adaptation if I could'#i need them to be a mutual growth#learning from each other#i need haleth to be caranthir hope#that is then broken by ulfang#leading to him just following c&c without much thinking#haleth getting the strenght to become the leader her people need#because caranthir never looks down on her as a woman#(just as a human and he's about to fuck around and find out on that one)#parted but leaving them irreparably changed as a result#also haleth tops
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me when people hate on aos trek:
#starlight fandom#starlight trek#LOOK I KNOW THEY AREN’T GOOD MOVIES THEY WERE IF MARVEL HIT STAR TREK WITH A BASEBALL BAT BEHIND A CLUB#BUT AOS GOT ME INTO STAR TREK IN THE FIRST PLACE OKAY IT HAS A PLACE IN MY HEART FOREVER#AND IT’S NOT AOS!JIM’S FAULT THAT THEY WROTE HIM BAD I ACTUALLY THINK ITS REAL INTERESTING#TO SEE A VERSION OF JIM KIRK THAT’S TRAUMATIZED AND FUCKED UP AND DIDN’T HAVE A FATHER AND YET HE STILL ENDS UP COMPASSIONATE#HE STILL ENDS UP A LEADER AND KIND#like fr tho that’s a fascinating concept#how much things may be different and how Spock!prime broke the timeline by melding with aos!kirk#and Kirk still ends up kind and loving and beloved anyway!!!!!#like I’m sorry they didn’t execute well until beyond and honestly I ignore stid entirely but it’s such a cool concept to me#and Karl urban as bones was so. SO. SO GOOD. he was perfect and deranged in the best way#Quinto-Spock I can take or leave but I do love me a bitchy Vulcan and he did have that#it’s okay to not like aos I don’t blame anyone for not liking it but I am so fond of it folks I truly am#and I’m not just saying that b/c the fic I’m writing rn for comfort and therapy reasons is projecting my current issues on aos!kirk#he’s just really to project onto and he looks like he’d benefit from ketamine treatment too and learning how to have hobbies w/o stress#anyway like I said I don’t blame anyone for disliking it or erasing it from their fandom memory#but it got me into Star Trek and I’m grateful and if ppl weren’t cowards aos!kirk would be so fucking fascinating in a feral way
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aight aight aight
been obsessed with Baldur's Gate 3 for the past couple months, time to churn out some of all the art I day dream about. Starting with one of my Tavs, Xarmir <:
#Baldur's gate 3#tav#bg3 tav#oc: xarmir#gotta remember to upload stuff <:#have much much planned I wanna show with him#so this is a bundle of chaos#came to chase halsin#somehow picked astarion up on the way#may be the voice of reason for the party#but the party quickly learns he makes worst possible choices for himself#so they gotta look after his dumb ass#did i mod the game#maybe c:
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So, fun fact one of my lovely AO3 commenters brought to my attention. Big Mama doesn't actually use a cloaking broach. She can literally just shapeshift into a human form whenever.
proof from wiki:
soooo....maybe that trait could be inherited? And if it could, Maybe Raph would inherit that trait instead of just the extra strength (which he already has a lot of canonically so he really doesn't need).
B/c that could be hilarious. Raph randomly waking up to find himself in a short, little human-ish looking form and just starts yelling about how he shrunk. (also the idea that he wouldn't fully have control of it at first would add to the shenanigans. ie. the image of tiny-form Raph trying to figure out how to reach the snacks he hid in the top cupboard would be hilarious. Leo would film it to save for later lol)
(that would also bring up the question, what would that form look like? B/c i doubt he'd look like his original human form since this would be a trait he would have inherited pre-mutation and his original human form is heavily based off Mama's spider form. Maybe it would look more like Big Mama's human form? hmm, so many possibilities.)
idk let me know what you think.
#tmnt#rottmnt#family web au#i'm actually really leaning towards this#b/c i do feel like Raph is kinda neglected as far as spider traits go.#but giving him a second very different form for him to accidentally shift in and out of#would be funny#and give him something in this au other than red eyes and angst#while the twins are trying to figure out what to do with extra limbs#and mikey's learning to web knit#Raph would be trying to figure out how this switching even happens#and trying to control it#like one time they're about to do a mission or something#and he's like ''all right team lets go''#*immediately switches forms on accident*#''damn it.''#cannot figure out how to switch back and has to do the mission looking like a small lost child
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what’s a TikTok that you still come back to, a year later, two years later, three? I think the honest answer is “none.” Because like so many other things in our culture, those videos are designed to be thrown away. They can’t hurt you, but they can’t move you. They’ll never challenge you, and they’ll never inspire you. All they’re meant to do is help you pass the seconds that make up your life, a finite and precious resource.
#in classic freddie fashion he throws in a few snarky lines about adults sleeping with stuffed animals and likens therapy to opiates#and a good editor would have had him cut those#but if you can look past those personal sticking points of his that kind of lose the enormity of his otherwise very good point#then its a solid read#ive been on the same journey of learning to live with oneself that he describes#this dude man#every time i unsubscribe i find myself crawling back because he does make salient points mixed in with some shit that really sticks in my c#my craw#and from i have gathered he feels the same way about my work which is why he invited me onto a podcast w him
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Your springs are reacting--
-- Your heart is pounding
#MUN SPEAKING 🌸 ᴬ ʷᵉᵃᵛᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ᵗᵃˡᵉˢ; ᴾᵃⁱⁿᵗᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ˢᵗᵃʳˢ#Or in other words “How it started” vs “How it's going” :D#I'm still so happy I found such a PERFECT faceclaim for him for the start-- the post-game FC though...#might change... miiiiiiight... he can stay for now. But wow look at me learning photoshop and making my own icons fhusldfg#I almost hit my head against the wall multiple times but c': I got there!!#Maybe should have made a different border for in-game/beginning “P” but eehhhhh...#lowkey spoilers oops AVERT YOUR EYES or don't I don't care LMAO
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many many many thoughts about shadowbringers and lightwardens and sin-eaters. a little thing i've been working on while i go through the expansion..........
#my doodles#c: nai naalfa#we just lost y'shtola and now thanks to a certain bringer of chaos have her back again.#anyway. i will finish this probably this week and then i already have an idea for a next doodle.#it's not as....... er dramatic or complicated as this. but fuck man shadowbringers really inspires me.#i have so many ideas!!!!!#danwtrail is going to make me draw hours after hours waiting for queue to pop#anyway anyway!!! this is a doodle/work inspired by y'shtola not recognizing us when we meet her again.#i can see where the game is going with this. 3 more lightwardens to defeat and already our friend says we're full of Light..........#may explain why emet-selch is content just watching it unfold. but on the other hand why would he help us get shtola back?#pushing us to our doom probably???? idk i can't read the fucking dude.#he was making the weirdest faces again when discussing shtola. he looked almost sheepish????#it reminds me of the expression dogs make when they look at you sideways LKFLDSJFMLDSKJFDF#anyway wtf i'm yapping about Him'(tm) in a work not even related to him. please sen#send help#oh another thing forcing myself to learn how to draw hands by only drawing pieces where i'm forced to draw hands. is it working? idk
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Any episode of Person Of Interest can make you cry if you think hard enough about it
#john reese#harold finch#person of interest#thinking about how 'John Warren' has the cover story closest to Reese's actual one#when did Joh trust Harold enough to tell him the truth? or when did Harold know there was enough trust he could tell Reese what he knew#or how in Prisoner's Dilemma John threatens Harold with a gun because he's so scared to hurt him#or how John leaves in Shadow Box not even spending the time to dry Bear and then not coming home for a while#just think for a moment about how excited Bear got at hearing John's voice over the earbud- and then when John finally returned!!#John talking to Shaw outside Cole's parents' house & 'they didn't need to take their memory of him. Even the CIA wouldn't stoop that low'#''in our line of work we walk in the dark. doesn't mean we have to walk in it alone''#Fusco watching out for Carter by looking into Beecher both with and without her asking#(not that he was right but that he did it)#in case we couldn't tell I'm obsessed with John Reese#and the way HAROLD AND CARTER were immediately breaking rules to get Reese out a jail when he was willing to go down for it all#if you can't tell I'm kinda on a POI kick tonight- but I'm also scheduling/queueing some stuff for later#don't think about how shaw was going to become a doctor but then got kicked out because she couldn't empathize well enough#and then became a killer instead!#or how we learn root (in an episode that was expected to center around finch) had a tragic backstory but leaves it behind b/c John solves i#or how Lionel only ever wanted his son safe and Shaw realized that but then couldn't save him as we all expected in the crossing#and another one#The season 4 episode where we see that John believed he was closer to Carter than he actually was! (Terra Incognita 4.20)
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In my world early c!tubbo had like the qsmp tubbo hair, the blonde and brown, but c!niki helped him dye it.
#schlatt told him it looked unprofessional so he stopped dying it#sometimes he wants to learn to do it himself to rebel against schlatt#c!tubbo#l’manburg posting#c!niki#brynn posts#character headcannons
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