#long insanity

[trifargo]

metaphor(a) elections AU

this is some indo elections/pemilu nonsense. literally Do Not Read this dawg. not indonesian? scroll away and pretend this do not exist...

a write up on what actually happens in my AU, or if you want to call it... the series of drawings of me murdering capres 01...??? i don't originally want to write this, and prefer to leave the interpretations be to whoever enjoys indogov pemilu to a deeper extend (i even allow expansions)

but now that there are obscure ideas entering my head, and how probably this AU is flexible enough to the political climate... may as well write it i guess LOL...

i have a dumb brain juice, if you see present and past tense mixed wrongly, that's on that. i don't give a damn about this insanity i'm upon to write

as the name says, this AU is built upon on a metaphor - the phrase "pembunuhan karakter" (lit. character assassination - defamation). while most of the AU here is about ABW, it's pretty much applicable to every other politicians (or even citizens!) that went through defamation. it just happens to be A Lot about him due to the 8945945 goofy ahhh slanders he's getting (he even has his own meme). wdym guy is being considered both as a baptized christian and extremely religious arabic lackey LOL

the reason why i decided to write this is due to how i'm assigning some rhythm songs (read: literally only arcaea and phigros, as these are the ones i play the most ATM (i swear, i have played more rhythm games other than those)), which is... these are obscure stuffs!!! so i'm writing it.

each main act (read: what i have drawn) gets a rhythm song as the "main theme". as of now (hopefully the only thing i WANT and WILL write here), there are 4 songs for it. so... 4 acts, i guess.

ACT 1: the murder (attempts) [marenol - leaf] (TW: self harm, drug abuse, gore)

"if you can't kill them, kill their reputation, kill their name, kill their character." - prabowo on the slanders about "rigging the elections" he received

the kroco (troops) of the big boss (the president) got ABW after an attempt to fight the big boss with ganjar, and is now attempting to murder him (don't ask me how come he's kidnapped, make it up yourself!!!). but for whatever reason, he doesn't die. can't be killed, even.

now, while you probably already know why, i want to put a quick write up about the AU's weapons to "murder" and some other mechanics. there are 3 kinds of weapon:

red colored: has funky, metaphoric shape, mainly red colored, glows. this weapon, while could make you bleed and leaves physical injuries that are much, MUCH HARDER to recover and dissappear, will not kill you - the most fatal blow will only send you into a coma. this weapon is manifested by yourself. didn't thought what precisely manifests it though, due to my reluctance on dabbling deeper into pemilu '24 fandom

white colored: pretty much is like the red colored ones. the only difference is on the appearance and ownership. it shapes like regular, normal inanimate objects, all-white colored, and doesn't glow. these are lent by someone, AKA not made manifest by yourself. consider it like the "fake form" of the red colored weapons. originally, this is meant to symbolize how jokowi throws the blame that should have been directed to him to someone else, and how he used his "subordinates" to mess someone up. but everyone can do that now, i guess.

normal/real-life colored: exactly the same with the real-life counterpart: WILL KILL YOU PHYSICALLY. just your daily life, non-magical objects.

can you recover from the coma/get the injury marks away? how long does it last? the answer is, yes. you can recover from it. coma lasts until you're recovered. someone in coma/injuries can be recovered nearly completely by the help of their peers. how their peers will support you to recover from your coma, and how their peers can convince the people that they can wake up - clearing your name from the defamation. and you have to believe that you can wake up from the coma too, deep in your coma slumber - your peers' support could be useless if you don't believe you can make it.

as for the song - by context, marenol is an antidepressant that, while is powerful at not making you depressed anymore and all happy, has a side effect: making your dreams a death nightmare. you'll dream about dying in various ways.

well... that doesn't sound really paralel-able with this section of the AU, other than, uh, multiple deaths that don't actually kill you. but hey, song vibes very well, so what can i say. the fact that guy just letting the slanders be in the name of free speech prooobably can be attributed to the depression-free aspect of the medicine.

ACT 2: crossroad/persimpangan jalan [disorder - hyun, yuri]

"when you have a character made out of your identity - your own true reflection - no one can kill that character, as it is the true reflection of the real persona in you." half-assed translation of anies' response on the massive defamation done to him

OKAY. so i got A LOT of questions and misconceptions on one thing about this AU: "is ABW immortal? can you make him "dead" due to the supreme court outcome?" the answer is no!!! 😭

first, to notice, all the weapons here are red or white. no real-life colored ones. so he (or anyone) won't die by these. second, as of why these weapons doesn't seem to affect him at all:

depends on how often have you been through this. the more often you go through it, the more you can mitigate and get used to it ("alah bisa karena terbiasa")

the quote above: he believes strongly that the defamation won't tarnish his name. yes, you can be "immune" from the coma effects of these weapons, by believing in yourself, that the defamation done to you will not affect you, and push through. and... peer support too, i guess. so, say, if ABW one day gives up on believing so, then these weapon will send him into a coma. simple.

now that he's alive and nothing can really be done... the boss and his higher subordinates will have to do something else!

the moment the two stars overlapped, I disappeared

while the big boss and ABW actually used to work together (trivia: anies was part of jokowi's 2014 TKN), he probably don't want ABW anymore (re: his short 2-year ministry of education and culture tenure -> "mentri buangan"), and directs all the blames for his program issues to him instead.

after swallowing the pain towards the path I must not take

contradictive, as the path ABW took now is the path a lot of people think he should take - the path to oppose the government. but still, it's painful to go through, according to whatever the hell that guy's going up against to do his jakarta governor programs (see: E1 circuit, reclamation AGAINST LUHUT???)

when I lose myself and wander

now that the elections over... dunno, but it seems he still wants to attempt the presidential race again. he'd need something to keep his political momentum, though. he has some choices he can attempt, but what would it be?

i would be looking for you who would be out of existence, forever

according to some rumors (tempo mag?), prabowo offers a ministry position, or whatever it is to him. a crossroad is presented at ABW. which road will he take: accepting the offer and be part of the future government, probably a dream to be with the big boss again (that's probably impossible to reach now - or refuse it and stay as an opposition (or maybe gelandangan politik, who knows)?

ACT 3A: route if he accepts the offer [desive - misomyl]

"the light is in your hands. hasn't it always been like that?" - desive's tagline

but what if he doesn't believe so, or has given up?

this is insane (everything about this AU is, though), but i have an animatic of this route with this song in my mind. clock ticking as he waits for his next round of murder attempt and goes through it (0:00 - 0:35) , injury time/interval to offer the position (0:36 - 1:28), accepts it and goes through medication to heal it (1:29 - 1:52), and finally be reborn - but as an anomaly* to his fans, who sees him as the supposed "symbol" of change (1:53 - end). some even speculates, maybe as his successor, even (funny! but not impossible either! some say he's close to prabski and just a malu-malu kucing kind of guy!)

*also i don't actually know precisely the story of the character attributed to this song yet (ayu), but apparently, she's someone who is meant to eat anomalies in her world? what if he joins the rezime to eat the anomalies from the inside

ACT 3B: route if he refuses the offer [logos - polysha, miyo takashiro]

"whispers of sorrow leaked into the clear water and dissolved. having lost many clue, its arcane code... is still unresolved?" - logos lyric

for whoever looking for someone other than mf ABW in this AU, they're here!!!1!

he gets kicked out from the torture room because well, there's nothing left can be done. useless, for now. "let him be, no one would trust him with such godly amount of injuries." the big boss said. they landed somewhere outside the boss HQ, where he found his silly amin peers that tried to rescue him, imin and tom. he gets his injuries temporarily healed up (will still need to go to the hospital to recover from the blood loss).

but then, ABW asks something to these 2: he wants to rescue someone else that's stuck in the HQ - ganjar. enter the gama gang.

when they fought the big boss, they lost, got stabbed by some kind of long massive sword. they fell to a blood pool made from the blood of everyone else who were sent into a coma before. they fell to different places however, and for whatever reason, only interested in beating ABW's ass?

tip tap dripping the drops keep on drawing the ripples tic tac flowing the time only that one echoed in while emptiness

stubborn wish, but they do it anyway. so they reentered the room again to go to the big blood pool area to find ganjar. and surprise, they find him with mahfud and whoever-is-the-thomas-of-gama in the deeper areas of the pool. a flood, even. and some trashes and debris around. it's meant for 1) how the demak flood is blamed into him when he's not in his tenure anymore*, and 2) how the MK responsed to the amin/gama indictment's evidences as "we're not your trashbin (due to the evidence given being weak)".

*there could be more, but... i'm not sure. i don't feel like metaphoring more of his slanders into the AU, given how undertalked his slanders/scandals are (U-20, wadas) and ending up making some people feel that he's actually "running away" from being blamed, aka he does have faults in it. unlike ABW who is, ya rabbi, can you stop talking about him FOR ONE SECOND? so i digress. do whatever you will, though.

run away from the dazzling dawn walk to west while stumbling on the way, I met you all alone your face was depressed, and ...about to cry

mahfud didn't precisely know how to wake nor heal ganjar up, because well... he seems to be someone who has the least issues and conflicts with any of these people. maybe other than the ma'ruf VP issue in 2019, idk. thus, at this point, the only person that knows exactly how to save him is... well, fellow defamation victim, anies himself. so he gave some pep talk/affirmation words to wake him up from his coma. not sure about the methods bc again, didn't think deep enough into it.

and... yippee, he woke up! now they gotta escape because... whoopsie, the guards found them. "why are you here bro, GET OUT OF HERE NO ONE WANTS YOU IN DA YARD!!!!" so they ran, yet... bam. they got hit by them. they manage to get out though, at least. just, with injuries now...

aftermath

in this AU, gama gang's story ends the same in both routes. ganjar and mahfud later part ways, as they realize that this is all they can do the most. except ganjar is probably planning to invade the big boss' smaller HQs with his red bull gang (PTUN).

amin, on the other side, ends differently. in this route, ABW woke up and found himself in a hospital, bed rested, with tom next to him (he has mostly healed from the injuries, quite minor). he wondered where imin is.

and speak of the devil, imin came in to visit, but his injuries are 100% healed instead, doesn't seem to be someone suffering from being hit by a massive hammer. in their convo, they found out that when everyone was hit by the hammer and got kicked out, imin was brought to the big boss' place instead, and was offered a position, in which he accepts. so he's all healthy and on the govern's side now. they also decide this is where they part ways. as imin leaves, he told the two that they can let him know, if they want to join the government someday. he can help arrange it. ABW and tom just sat there with unreadable expression.

stupid ass long write up, hope you don't read this insanity at all. but that's all there is to the series of images. feel free to use this for whatever you want, consider i orphan this for real. claim it as yours, even... couldn't care less

[catmask]

when u go to write a mentally ill person in ur story you are presented two options. the first option is to write your mental illness realistically as you actually experience it with all the ups and downs and people who are like you will resonate with it and feel seen. except every person who reads instagram infographics on mental health that uses the phrase narcicisst for anyone who does anything that crosses them and unironically call themself a dark empath will call you scary and tell you that youre demonizing mentally ill people

the second option is to lie and write inspiration porn for those people to get hard to

[chaiaurchaandni]

does throwing a stone at a tank

make a child a terrorist?

is terrorism about resisting oppression? is terrorism about demanding your birthright to live safely and peacefully in your homeland? is terrorism about hating the killers of your family, your friends and your people?

accusations of terrorism are often weaponized against those fighting for liberation and sovereignty and dignity. the french settlers called the algerians terrorists. the indian government calls the kashmiris terrorists. the pakistani army calls pashtun activists terrorists. the turkish government calls the kurds terrorists. apartheid south africa called nelson mandela a terrorist. americans called the vietcong and the black panthers terrorists. the israelis call the palestinians terrorists. all oppressive regimes are connected. all oppressed people are connected. injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere.

[milkywayes]

you were born to do this

happy N7 Day!

[find prints here!]

[basshole-astard]

PSA: i keep seeing posts about staying cool in extreme heat that include advice like "gatorade is bad actually!" and "don't drink fruit juice it'll just dehydrate you!" and neither of these are true!

regarding fruit juice: there's apparently a misconception that Any Sugar At All will dehydrate you, and that's simply not true. yes, sugar will make you pee more when consumed in large amounts, but 1) the natural sugar in fruits won't do this to you 2) great news! a lot of fruit juices exist without any added sugar in them! 3) honestly even having a glass of the fruit juice with added sugar won't completely dehydrate you as long as you're also drinking water throughout the day. if its hot you deserve a cold treat of a drink!!! can't go wrong with fruit juice!!!

regarding gatorade: maybe this isn't an every day drink, but guess what: if it's 110F/40C or hotter outside, and you don't have AC, or you're moving around a lot outside of the AC, and you're sweating buckets: that's when you drink a gatorade.

gatorade exists to replenish all the electrolytes (salt) and glucose (sugar) that you sweat out. YES it is meant for athletes to drink during intensive work outs and not necessarily for people who aren't doing that kind of exercise. BUT GUESS WHAT! when you're sweating buckets because you had to walk to the bus in extreme heat, that's intensive exercise. please feel free to drink a gatorade after that! that's its intended use case!!!!

no: neither of these drinks should be a total replacement for water. but drinking a lot of water and then treating yourself to a fruit juice with lunch is a good idea!!! drinking a gatorade becuase you just had to walk for 20 minutes in the heat is a good idea!!!

Please Stop Spreading Misinformation About Drinks!!! It's fine if you drink things that aren't water!!!! Yes you should probably always be drinking water but drinking something else As Well isn't going to hurt you!!!! okay!!!! its fine!!!!!!

honestly so long as you are consistently getting Any (non-alcoholic) fluids in you, you're doing great!!!!!! okay!!!! i love you stay safe <3

[incredubious]

MODERN AU ACESAN !!!! first impressions with a guy who barely passes the No Shoes No Shirt No Service rule

[madscientistenthusiast]

Personally I think that Azula should have been redeemed simply so that she can become Zuko's horrible little advisor who whispers evil little plans to him so that he can do the exact opposite

[eazy-peazy54]

EVERY. DAMN. PASSCODE. FOR THISISNOTAWEBSITEDOTCOM.COM:

Will update when i find more!! (updates VERY frequently)

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Which religion is right

[doctorsiren]

I wonder what younger me would think of who I am now

[kcrra]

it makes me literally sick to think about alicent's relationship to her children. like. they are all she has. she loves them more than anything and hates them just as much. each of them is a shackle around her neck. they are her babies even though she was a baby herself, forced to be their mother. she'll pick up a knife for them. they are her living prison. everything she ever does is for them. their very existence makes her sick. she understands them and yet doesn't know them at all. they are her future. they stole her past.

she was 15 years old tethered to a rotting body of a man entirely against her will, watching each of her children invade her body as a result of martial rape. how were they ever supposed to have a normal relationship!!!!!!!

[erlie]

Helluva Love Affair

Playlist that kept me inspired.

Head canons regarding the comic under the cut

I imagine Fizz had very little privacy during his time with Mammon. I imagine him sharing a dorm room with several other clowns, because Mammon is cheap. That's why he is excited about having his own room.

I think Fizz also is not used to being touched with consent. Fans grabbing him, Mammon's staff touching without asking. Just a lot of unwanted hands on him.

Despite being very famous and looking like Fizz had it all, I think Mammon took majority of his earnings and he had very little to use for himself. And that he was in severe debt to Mammon over the prosthetics.

Because Ozzie refers to Fizz as business partner, I imagine Fizz has much bigger role in Ozzie's company just than an MC. I think he is actually the manager of Ozzie's, handling events, special nights, performers etc. He knows how to put up a party!

The "Valentine's Day Gang Bang Night" outfit was definitely just for Ozzie. Fizz got tired of waiting and wanted to well and truly seduce Ozzie.

[fanaticalthings]

Bruce coming home one day to find Robin Jason clinging onto a chandelier with Dick below him cheering him on.

Bruce: Jason what are you doing?

Jason: Dick said that you missed his antics after he moved out and so he’s teaching me how to be a better son

Dick: After this we’re going to drive the Batmobile into the bay :D

Jason: We’re going to what? I mean yeah! Right into the water.

Jason trying to whisper to Dick: Dick I can’t swim though

This just further fuels the chaotic dynamic of Dick and Jason during a time where Dick was still going through his teenage angst and was absolutely not a benevolent role model LMAO

I mentioned it in this post, but it's just so funny to me to imagine a Jason who grew up with an absolutely WILD Dick Grayson as an older brother, while the younger batkids grew up with a more mellowed out and mature (arguable but when measured against the other kids, he wins by a landslide) Dick Grayson.

Robin!Jason era:

Dick: You wanna go out and get high?

Jason: I can't, I have homework.

Dick, sputtering: HOMEWORK?

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Dick, about to do an elaborate (and totally not dangerous) acrobatic move in the manor: Watch this, littlewing

Jason: You shouldn't do that, it'll make Bruce upset.

Dick, on the brink of angry tears: Why are you like this.

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Jason, dejected: Listen, I know you don't approve of me because you think I'm not good enough as Robin, but-

Dick: Not good enough as Robin? I don't care about that, I just think you're a little bitch

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Dick taking Jason out on a hangout for the first time: OK, looks like I got my work cut out for me. Take out a notepad and write everything down. I will NOT have my successor embarrass me like this. So what you wanna do to piss off Bruce-

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[Years later, Jason returning to Gotham with the fury of a thousand suns and the chaos to match it]: I'm gonna make your life a living HELL, Bruce

Dick, older and relatively more chilled out: Okayyyyy, maybe let's just– calm down a lil, haha, no need for the theatrics

Jason, betrayed, observing a Dick Grayson who is teaching his new younger siblings to behave and be mature: Dick, what the FUCK

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Present!Dick, mentoring Tim: Make sure not to be too impulsive, don't wanna raise Bruce's blood pressure

Red Hood!Jason spying on them from afar: Who even ARE you??

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Jason: So you teach me ALL of that, only to turn into the ONE thing you despised so greatly all those years ago

Dick, sweating: Well-

Jason: I'm ASHAMED. How can you be worthy of being called my PREDECESSOR?

[lesbiannieism]

i need 7+ seasons of dead boy detectives specifically to see the long-term payoff of charles putting a jar of bees in his bag

[daeyumi]

made a fake boxart for my zelda au 🌟💫

[guinevereslancelot]

first base is wound tending second base is hand touching

[tardxsblues]

Because you and Mr. Fell don't ever talk to each other. We talk all the time. We've been talking for millions of years. Bla-bla-bla-bla-bla-bla-bla-bla-bla. I say something brilliant, and he says something unintentionally funny back. It's great. You never say what you're really thinking.