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i have never needed a comfort fic more in my life but IVE READ THEM ALL. so WTF AM I SUUPSOED TO DO?
#this is a cry for help#literally not functioning rn#im gonna explode#i need a hug#honestly i have no idea what i’m doing#i need a fix it fic#never needed something more in my life i stg#comfort fic#someone help please
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Emergency Commissions
One of my checks was a couple of days late last week, and the more lucrative of my 2 proper jobs has given me only one day of work this week (seems to be system issue?? I'm waiting for a reply from my higher up, there seems to be a queue of sorts) I have no idea when I'm going to get my check this week, either. Although it's supposed to come in on Tuesdays, I have heard from coworkers it is likely to be delayed again. On top of all of this, I have had wifi issues for a week, and I work from home.
I was already going to have to do some commissions to make rent this month before the reduced work hours and wifi issues. I have to pay rent on Saturday, and I do not get a grace period. I cannot emphasize how screwed me, and both of my disabled roommates are if my check doesn't come in on time, which is apparently not likely to happen.
I am setting this goal for $600 which is how much I am going to need for rent if my check does not go through in time. I will update this post accordingly, and turn off rbs if I get my check before rent is due, but tbh if i thought that was happening I wouldn't be making this post.
Anyone who help with this can contact me at my art blog @theartistrans for art like you see above. There may be a bit of a wait because I have 2 jobs and this, but I will mail you the piece if you pay the shipping also.
Dm me for proof or more details. More details are also in my tags.
$C V PP Kofi
#for those wondering i am the main provider for a 3 person household bc im the least disabled of the 3 of us#with one of us going thru the courts for diability for over a year now literally unable to work#and the other still working on recovering enough mental functionality to hold down a job after years of severe life-threatening health shit#we are growing our own food to reduce costs and are harvesting cucumber rn and tomatoes squash eggplant okra and peppers soon#we are working so hard to get by
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ok yeah actually i need to like stop being awake i feel like garbage
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I've seen videos of asian small clawed otters doing this but didn't know my kids did it too! Weird water break make out session time i guess!
#they did it several times but i only got it on camera a little bit#fascinating! social bonding thing i assume? literally no functional purpose to this#the water is Right There#ferrets#baby: robin#baby: sparrow#im posting them so much rn but theyre being very cute today so i shan't apologize#sipsipsipKISSKISSKISSsipsip shake head sipsipKISSKISS
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Ok but imagine if there was ever a scenario where a Zim antic that resulted in the death of just ONE of the two Almighty Tallests- Rather than the Florpus double kill or them both surviving ala “Backseat Drivers”
#invader zim#iz plothooks#iz#almighty tallest#tallest red#tallest purple#I literally don’t know if either of them could function long term on their own#scarlet rambles about things#no like this is so much to me rn
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happy miwi season to these cuties :3
#byler#miwi#stranger things#gay#byler endgame#mike wheeler is a boykisser#byler nation#byler s5#byler is real#mike wheeler is not straight#mike wheeler#will byers#miwi is so cute i'm gonna die#screaming rn they're so cute#anyways#happy october#byler is my favorite thing ever i literally can't function without them#but i also can't function because of them#anyway#say happy miwi season or else
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#okay sorry for venting but i’ve been processing that session for months#like im the one who fucked up that session because i couldnt make myself say anything and actually naming any problem i have#felt like im begging to have a bunch of excuses#and god that paychologist really made me feel like i imagined all of that for attention and now im back here again and im once again#realizing my brain is just fucked up and what do i do now because if i went to a session now#i would be in the same situation where i can’t say anything that actually bothers me#so i guess im in deep shit forever or at least until i stop having some fucking mental block or whatever#im just fucking tired bro…….#she told me everyone is a little bit autsitic and that’s it WHAT#bro if i had little enough symptoms of whatever that i could do stuff by myself anyway i wouldnt fucking be ghere paying 200zł for the most#ruining hours of my life thank you so much.#instead i have to use everyone in my life as a crutch because i literally just can’t function without help IUOUOUGHHH#god im so sorry okay im gone im just really going through it rn#vent
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its a rule of fandom that any black companion in a video game is going to inspire posts dripping with white guilt explaining that theyre underdeveloped and that thats why its totally not racist when everyone ignores them
#not wanting to clog tags but there are literally 6 egregious examples i have in mind rn as i write this#sometimes they even ARE underdeveloped! its still never proportionate to how few shits the fandom gives about them!#still kinda laughing over how often companion reaction posts will tag x//6-88 and then. like. not actually include him in the post#like its clearly a mass tag function and the op just forgor him when writing the actual post
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I was watching let's plays and reaching conclusions
#slay the princess#revolutionary girl utena#rgu#the owl house#toh#currently obsessed with this game#can't verbalise thoughts properly#i forgot how to spell exist#autocorrect saving my life rn#it's midnight and i didn't sleep last night sorry#i saw 'ch III the thorn' and was like lmao like in the owl house and then it really went that way#dunno if i love or hate when i can tell where things are going bc i saw similar shit somewhere else#toh gets officially forgiven for the 'masked man 2.0'#and then i connect the dots that they're in this situation for stabbing each other#like literally#and multidimensionally#doomed by narrative written by a force trying to destroy them and the functionality of the world#there's more and it's deeper i'm too sleep deprived#prise the autocorrect for making me sound coherent#i Hope#mist was here
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you know what is kind of slaying about s2 for me so far. it’s like, so grim but also so farcical. idk if any of you read as i lay dying by william faulkner in high school so this may not land but basically its this southern gothic novel about a very poor family in 1920s mississippi who is trying to transport their dead matriarch’s corpse to her hometown for burial. and its obviously like emotionally stirring and dark and morbid and full of existential questions but also everyone in it is wildly incompetent and selfish and makes the worst possible decisions and by the time they get to where they’re going the corpse is in horrible shape and then the whack job son sets a barn on fire and the husband spends the money the daughter was going to use on a secret abortion on dentures and rocks up with a brand new wife. like if you take a step back and look at it ITS A FUCKING FARCE ITS A CLOWNSHOW and to me yj s2 is also giving horrific clownshow and you dont know whether to laugh or weep. like, okay, did i almost cry when tai confronts shauna and shauna is so devastated she can’t even speak? yes. is it also BEYOND absurd that tai is staging an intervention to burn shauna’s emotional support frozen corpse and lottie is standing there saying “i think it’s healthy actually” and NONE OF THEM EVEN KNOW SHAUNA IS EATING HER? yes.
#yellowjackets#yellowjackets spoilers#the fact that tai seeing the makeup is what set this off is actually so funny to me#sorry if this mmakes no sense i literally have 0.00005 functioning braincells rn
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“i think we’re already falling…”
SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU CORNY MOTHERFUCKERS I CANR CRY ANYMORE TODAY SUOT
#EXCUSE MY TYPOS I LITERALLY CANT FUNCTION RN#bumbleby#blake belladonna#rwby#yang xiao long#rwby volume 9#rwby v9#rwby spoilers#rwby v9 spoilers#rwby volume 9 spoilers
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I hate the idea of low vs high functioning labels bc most of the time my autism is "teehee i'm a oddball savant" (/hyp i'm very good at math but not genius level) but sometimes it's "i am literally doing everything i know how to convey what i am experiencing but nothing is getting through to you no matter how hard i try *proceeds to instantly devolve into crying, screaming, hitting myself, throwing myself on the floor*"
#please note that the hitting myself and such is not voluntary! and not purposeful!#it is just a really unfortunate stim that i do when incredibly upset#text#not giving further context rn bc i am emotionally exhausted literally beyond words#actually autistic#actuallyautistic#asd#actually asd#autism spectrum disorder#autism#autistic#functioning labels
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Please Help!!
i really hesitate to make this post bc it's the end of the year and everyone is strapped for money but the past several months have just been slowly getting more and more overwhelming for the things we need to fix.
We've been driving around in a car with the back windows we can't even roll up (one is held up by duct tape and the other is now slipped off the track that we can't even pull it up at this point) and trying to save up money to fix the windows, and a small oil leak.
Two months ago we had to turn off the water to the kitchen sink bc underneath is rusted through and it needs replaced. We're doing dishes in the bathtub with a hair catcher because we can't use the dishwasher.
A few days ago, one of the back tires went flat because the wall has rotted and we have no spare. I need to go to work, but bc of my disability, I have a job that only has me work maybe twice a month. I get *maybe* 200$ a month and I don't currently have government assistance. It's been impossible for us to save anything to fix anything and it keeps snowballing. At this point we are worried how to even get food.
I'm stressed. My wife is stressed. If anyone could spare even a couple dollars so we can replace the back two tires on the car so I could go to work, I would be eternally grateful.
Reblogs are deeply appreciated.
paypal.me/kabegami
#im really sorry to have to make this post but im genuinely at my wits end#i cant afford (physically) to get another job to save money even tho i want to#please only donate if you can afford it obviously#the car is the biggest issue rn but the sink is really wearing on our mental health#the literal broken window of the house is like the least of a priority bc theres just. so much rn.#2/3 of the sinks in the house aren't functioning and one of them we have to park a radiator in front of in the winter#two years ago the furnace died and the pipes burst and completely eradicated all savings we had#we just. need a little break. just a little help#donation post#signal boost#please please just reblog if nothing else
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it’s like. i love being trans. and also if there was a loving god he wouldn’t do this to me
#usually my mental illness is emotional Nothingness. when i take wellbutrin i can feel again!#and when the wellbutrin loses efficacy i keep the feeling but lose the good ones so i just unlock Regular Depression. which fucking Sucks#and a couple weeks ago i ran out of t gel and it is a controlled substance so they wouldn’t give me my refill until the full 60 days were up#which meant i had to be off t for like a week. and i was so so hopeful that it wouldn’t do anything to me.#but it restarted my cycle so i’m bleeding rn. and it is so fucking awful#it Hurts and it feels Humiliating and Wrong#cramps and stomach issues And dysphoria and bleeding. nothing more evil to do to me right now#and it’s worse cause i was done with that. i literally GOT RID OF IT. I PUT THE WORK IN. I WAS FREE.#but i couldn’t have my medicine and now i no longer control my own body. horrifying. so horrifying#wore a kind of ill fitting binder today too and it kickstarted Other dysphoria on the drive home so. messed up rn.#i just want to be able to live my life man. i want to have a body that looks and functions like me#and can feel things and do things#and doesn’t subject me to hurt in multiple multiple ways. that would be really cool.#genuinely it does not fucking matter if god loves me. cause if this is what i go through when he loves me#then i don’t want his fucking love.#i hope god kills himself actually#i want to wake up and just be able to put a shirt on and leave the house. can you imagine a fucking world#gonna try nd sleep for like five minutes and then go to dinner with my mom. i can be okay. i can be stronger than my struggles#i just need to be really fucking angry with god.#great time to be reading paradise lost#valentine notes
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sorry i can't hang out rn the two men from that 4 year old show kissed and i literally cannot think about anything else. yeah gonna be all month
#good omens#gomens#crowzira#deleted messenger haven't talked to any of my irls in a week#lowkey hate how nice it is to get a break tbh like oh my goddd im in the mental illness zone do NOT talk to meeee#it feels mean but also I've spent basically every second since September hanging out with#1 - 10 people near constantly. i need some downtime. although by downtime i did not#imagine stopping all human functions and just becoming a vessel for an engless loop of g0mens thoughts#not even true i CAN talk to ppl but only if it's someone that knows how ill i am or if it's#about g0mens. otherwise leave me alone#like i can literally only talk in terminally online tumblr terms rn i can barely remember hungarian#MY ASS LITERALLY GOT FACTORY RESET TO MY TERMINALLY ONLINE SELF😭😭#not true coz back when i used to be this online i still talked to irls. mostly to get them to watch whatever i was watching but still#im gonna hang out with some tumblr mutuals who are just as ill as me soon. so that's something#idk how the fabric of budapest can handle that much mental illness in one room but whatever#ineffable husbands#i misspelled it.
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#mood rn#but in a positive way#why does it feel like the wee hours it's literally not even 9pm#idk what's going on rn but I was reading dcwt today and now I'm gonna enjoy some light kip thorne#feel like I'm floating away from society but also somehow reconnecting with my inherent interests in a more positive light#this week has involved major win for team rene the car who was not functional at all earlier this week and now is completely fine#does anyone wanna play risk or have a karaoke night or possibly plan a trip along the coast of the Black Sea or to Baffin island#so many possibilities too little time and money#thank the laurd
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