#literally not even kidding you it was because I was dreaming abt the girl from the otherside
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literally got like 3 hours of sleep because I forgot I had to wake up early this morning until like 11:30 last night and then had fitful dreams. explodes
#I would just call in to work like oh I'm sick sorry#but I have work Tomorrow#and I don't want to miss that work#so here we are#I literally kept waking up every hour and then finally at 3:30 I couldn't fall back asleep đ#literally not even kidding you it was because I was dreaming abt the girl from the otherside#stories that are Literally haunting me#I need to like. watch a youtube video to cleanse my psyche and calm down#because currently I am Consumed by Thinking About It#anyway. 7 hour work day ahead đ#plus 2.5 hour in total commute.......#idk how I just went to school consistently on no sleep as a teenager this is terrible#ghost posts#text
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notes from december performance post-previews that i somehow just wrote up last night in august 2023 whattt how did that happennn:
the way jack replies to âyouâre seeing stars alrightâ feels way more in response to crutchieâs attitude- and when he talks abt his dad getting stomped on itâs not just a context reveal. itâs jack telling crutchie heâs self-aware, he understands his shit place in the world and his desire to change it. just that itâs nice to dream. ow
âtime for dreamingâs doneâ isnât said with a smile. btw. if u even care
jack stealing finchâs mirror gets me every time
katherine looks back at jack at his âim crushed!â with a little smile
i get that the only reason buttons helps with a lot of the tricks is because heâs the DC but that doesnât make it any less sweet⌠heâs always with splasher lmao
jack is quite uncomfortable with the nuns, he doesnât look at any of them
never ever over spalsherâs little head tilt after his big flip
oscar grabs raceâs collar on âi guess he didnât take care of me!â
morris goes to hit crutchie again after pushing him to the ground before jack stops him
love when race bounces on his toes when he thinks he says something funny
morris blows his cig smoke into daveyâs face when heâs grabbing him the extra paper
henry imitates les with finch as his davey, hobbling up to weasel down on his knees
jack rolls his eyes after telling davey âitâs just businessâ after shaking lesâs hand. like can u believe this guy lmao
âmine taught me not to starveâ looking at davey like âwtf is wrong with youâ LMAO. like jackâs irked with davey actually judging for something so ingrained into jackâs life fr
âHEY!! who was that guy >:(!â
medda checks on jackâs hair and he giggles mid sentence :) like âmooom in front of my friends??â
kaths look of Disgust when jack goes âi admire smart girlsâ is soooo done. sheâs finished w this mf
katherine stays on the set as it shifts into WWKâs scene, staring at jackâs drawing, totally absorbed. i just think itâs fun how when davey sees jackâs backdrop heâs stunned in the same way kath is at her portrait. anyway
jack goes toward finch during the âour union is hereby formed to watch each otherâs backsâ after leaving ike and finch sweeeeerves away from him. finch only comes on board when davey does actually
when jackâs on the wagon with the âwhat if the delanceys come out swingingâ etc he does a small laugh when the newsies all yell their response like heâs surprised !!
katherine is positioned right above the worldâs door as if sheâs. inside. ofc initially we read it as her just observing from above but itâs her literal building too.
âspecs, you take queens.â âthank you!â
buttons gives kath a friendly wave and race offers his water cup when katherine comes into jacobiâs. walks right past the water even as race keeps his hand out lmfao
tommy lifts elmer into his arms after kath says theyâd make front page
âthis is not some little vaudeville im reviewingâ felt more significant
âgive those kids and me the brand new century and watch what happensâ is a Plea.
welliguessitdependsonhowyoulookatitifyoulookandseebrooklynthentheyârewithushaha! then race guns toward davey to yell at him
davey is not afraid to yell when his nerves get shot â> when the scabs boutta get they shit rocked
âthem? or them.â OSCAR WAVES LMFAOOO
piggyback for les from racer
fight time
-morris has it OUT for racer in the pre-cop half. literally think he gets smacked with the bat TWICE. heâs on the ground, watches splasher get smacked from the ground, and BOLTS UP and races over to him shoving past morris. insane
-jack only swings on the rope to make a clear path for davey and les actually bc that action is the only reason they get to that half of the stage
-finch and romeo teammates for LIFE. they fought like the whole thing together fr. only pair that stuck out to me for the whole length of it (and then of course they watch crutchie get taken from the audience ough)
-nah jack Is a good fighter thru this itâs just the seize the day moment w the delanceys that heâs shit at btw
-davey doesnât fight literally at all the whole time :/ câmon. uncanonizing this in my mind
-SPECS KICKS ASS !! heâs got a bat and everything!! fuck yeah!!
shut up jack wipes at his eye during santa fe at âguy can catch a breakâ
^guy who lets out a sigh of relief when the post card is still in his pocket. fuck off
act twooo
kath goes to racer abt where jack mightâve gone and heâs abt to answer before albert pipes up
race flicking daveyâs hat to the side>
^also they keep chatting thru tap sequences i love it
kath holding daveyâs hand while they talk in the corner during table movement
crutchie holds his side when he singsâŚ
^the only part crutchie gets teary at is when he starts talking abt the boys/family :,)
âand a little something extra, just on account of im gonna miss you so-â sounds like medda broke off bc her voice got watery đĽ˛
âevery newsieâwho could walkâwas out there selling papesâ OW the rephrasing of that line
as soon as jack turns his backdrop around to show the strike painting davey walks away soooo fast to turn away
WWH reprise is such an argument. âWEâRE ALREADY WINNING!!â yell davey yell!!
^jack makes the most fuming, boiling angry face after âyâknow why a snake starts to rattle đ?â
davey initiates the spit shake when jack offers his hand
kath is Mortified watching snyder expose jackâs refuge history AND SHES SO MAD when pulitzer gets between her and jack omfg
âbe glad youâre alive, kidâ is spoken and cruel asf but wbk
morrisâs laugh kills me everytime itâs so fucked in the head. goddamn
jack doesnât let davey touch him when he enters the rally like he doesnât want davey to look like he knew abt the betrayal beforehandâŚ.
scope runs RIGHT up to jack after spot pushes him and goes to yell at him LMAO⌠lucky has to drag her away
âis that really what itâs like in there? rats everywhere, and vermin?â is taken as judgement and not concern and jack fuckin jumps on it LMAO
the actual motion of disgust jack makes at âyou just double crossed us to your father- your⌠father.â dead every time he literally flinches
âi just didnât tell you everything!!â is said at the opposite side of the stage as jack and looking down and away. idk why sheâs the only katherine that has ever played this line as guilty but iâm always so glad for it
âiâm not stupid.â âno-â âi know girls like you⌠donât wind up with guys.. like me.â heathers voice: i will never shut up abooout this
jack seems very afraid of the word love?? during kathâs entire piece of STBI he stays away from her⌠and she def thinks sheâs fucked up for a sec fr
wah this song is so tender :( they hold each other very softly
âhey! um⌠itâs good to have ya back.â
clariceâs spot also has a moment with race beside just letting the kids into the cellar together..<3 ik lillieâs has more tho
there is something so personal abt davey jacobs saying âbleeeed âeeeemâ while looking dead into jackâs eyes
daveyâs reckless hug once jackâs made the deal with pulitzer⌠every timeeee
FINCH CRUTCHIE HUG!! first to get to him and holds him the longest before race and jack come along :)
ânew yorkâs got us. and weâ a family.â is said as such a statement of fact like crutchie just ends any argument right there. he just knows jack so fucking well.
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#literally watched the brawl like 5 times at .75 speed LMFOAOO#i care abt it so much . cannot believe i havenât done a fight fic yet itâs cruel#newsies#newsies uk#uksies#analysis#but mostly for the sillies#fizz freaks#i miss my analysis posts ok i was on such a high in london#rizz.analysis
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Hiiiii and also KDKSJXJSJXJSKZKX- baby post was something i never knew i needed dosjdjsx pls i need more headcanons abt bby Bronwyn D. Crown
Im laughing cuz buggy litrally just cloned himself cuz i was wondering whose paternal genes will the bby take after but then its a mini fem buggy lmao
Also the cross guilds reaction to the baby is so cute esp daz aaaaa ofcours the man who used to dream being a superhero is soft inside
And both croc n mihawk fainting dksjdisod
Plsss i need to know wat theyre and crossguild is like when taking care of the baby djsjjsdjsj pls let her be super smart like her dads aaaa
The domesticity is â¤ď¸
So honestly while Winni le DOES definitely take after Buggy the most, she's not quite a CLONE per se. Her hair is a dark, almost black, blue, and her nose is a little less RED red and more pink-red. Everything else though? Carbon copy from birth.
As far as genes go, they never really push for the testing bc it's redundant, though Croc is almost positive it's Mihawk - while he did fully head to toe transition via Iva, the likelihood of it being him is really really infintisimally slim. At the end of the day, it doesn't matter, really. Winnie is their baby and they all love her to pieces.
Daz absolutely is her biggest fan, barring her parents and in a literal sense. He's wrapped around her little finger and as she grows, she KNOWS it. He'll play with her, and if anyone laughs or makes a remark, he can and will stare into their soul while unflinchingly stating he is simply doing his duties to the highest degree - what are they doing with this doubtless free time? He has some recommendations-
Tbf though the number of people who would laugh about it leave fairly quickly, leaving a veritable LEGION of men, women and others who are ready to ride or die for this kid.
You know those tiktok videos of animals meeting the new baby for the first time? That with Ritchie. That would be so cute. So silly. Just. Ritchie being a big baby and just all worship eyes at this new baby because '!!!!! Small human!!!!! Like cap!!!!!! Weird smell!!!!!!! Must lick!!!!!!!'.
He keeps sneaking into her nursery to lay beside the crib or just snuffle her in her sleep. They wind up setting traps. He keeps evading them. Nobody can figure out how. Mihawk proposes that he's simply so No Thoughts Head Empty that he evades the traps on pure luck and ditzy fortune.
Alvida is definitely searching high and low for "my awesome aunt got me this-" type of things, then getting matching outfits, baby sunglasses, etc, just READY for dress up and lil self care. She's also the type to carry on full conversations with Winnie as a baby without baby talk. Just meeting babbles with "girl, he said WHAT? No, hold up, tell auntie everything-" or "baby girl, you will not believe what tea I got today-"
Cabaji dreams of teaching her to ride her first unicycle. Will settle for rollerblades. Very protective, but also liable to lose the baby somehow in a market and then explode.
Mohji shares his love for animals with her and is so smug when Winnie grows up and continues on with a constant love and adoration for animals.
Galdino gets her into art, and she continues on with that, even on well into her adult years.
As for intelligence, she definitely winds up as smart as her parents - she goes on to study zoology and animal psychology, becoming a veterinarian and then later revamping the entirety of the veterinary science field in the Grandline, then later in some of the other Seas.
She also works with her parents' business as well tbf, though she focuses more on the vigilante side of it - popping amoral smugglers, sinking slavers, the works. She also may or may not have planted a few bombs in some marine bases when she went to do the animal checks for the base, depending on their history, regard, and the state of their animals. She's got her own moral compass, one which she follows like her own northern star.
All in all, there's a lot of domestic silliness that Winnie brings about.
#buggy the clown#Winnie D. Clown (oc)#one piece oc#teehee#i maaaay have gotten too into it whoopsies~#cross guild polycule
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toma headcanons because im crazy (cw for stuff on his route + some nsfw):
he smoked in highschool:
in his concept art, he's shown with a cigarette in his mouth (in fact thats one of the only things that was changed from his final design lol). i headcanon that while he was in highschool and very emotionally silly over the heroine / his feelings towards her, he'd kind of avoid her and hang around the "wrong crowds", eventually getting into smoking. he used it as stress relief but its also had the opposite effect bc heroine would KILL him if he ever smoked.. so ? he just kind of sat there feeling guilty and depressed (as toma tends to do).
anyways he quit cold turkey at one point because he got caught by shin. shin was PISSED. he made toma swear that he'd quit immediately otherwise he'd tell the heroine what he was doing (tbh the only threat that would actually work; especially when hes still a teenager and less hateful towards shin). i think he lectured him sooo hard and called him an idiot 5 morbillion times
i feel like i need to clarify that toma was probably the lamest rebellious kid out there. like yeah he smoked but he was doing it bc it was a group expectation, not because he really wanted to.
not entirely inexperienced:
going back to toma in highschool; its canon that he dated a bunch of girls who asked him out, though i don't think he ever got really far with them. i think he's kissed like one girl out of obligation / because he felt like he needed to keep up the act or at least Try to get over the heroine; though i think he probably broke up with that girl soon after. i doubt that any girl he ever dated wouldnt notice his goo goo eyes for the heroine LOL so maybe they knew what they were getting into.
soo i dont think heroine is his first kiss (tho i do think she's his first in other aspects)
sexuality in general:
i think toma is honest to god super repressed in terms of his own sexuality and that's where most of his issues come from. this man does not see ANY (LITERALLY ANY. even nonsexual) of his desires as being normal. that's why he really was so okay with just being onii-chan... it was a safe space for him where he could live in his "wholesome ideals" of a relationship. i feel like most of his talk abt "im a man!!! im a man i could take advantage of you!!" was out of legitimate fear that his sexual side was some beast that he had to keep caged (haha) and that he might hurt the very person he cares abt most in the world. so w that in mind i really can't see this guy being super overtly horny LOL. cage ending aside while i think hes a freak in the sheets or whatever he would be so shy and demure about it all... ahhh heroine... u can't just look at me like that... kyaaa... hes the kind of guy to freeze like a deer in headlights when anything romantic or sexual happens (i like it... but i shouldn't... but i should pull away.. but i don't want to....)
i think hes a soft dom w service top tendencies tee be aich... though id love to go down on him (Who said that ?! )
he totally has a maid fetish imo. it's basically canon so like... that being said it's funny as fuck that he's like Tch... I don't want you to be a maid for other people... you'll just be a maid for me đ (in his bad end). like cmon man.
silly:
- i like to imagine that toma learned how to drive purely because he wanted to be able to help shin and the heroine out ... he is the reliable older brother chauffeur of your dreams. I also like to think that he really sucked ass at first though and he got pulled over for running a stop sign once.
- this is just me but i hc him with Poland syndrome đđ
#toma amnesia#headcanons#im crazy#will add more later but these are the ones i was thinking about lol
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Quick post debunking those half-baked opinions I'm seeing on tiktok and Twitter using just Journal 3:
1. "Mabel was selfish/mean/ungrateful/ an awful person etc" let alone the fact she's a 13 yr old girl and also regularly risked her life for him... The point is that they grew and learned. They made mistakes and apologized for it, and they forgave. They moved on. (Something Stan and Ford could never do -- a contrast)
2. "Stanford just used Fiddleford and was the sole reason for the falling out" Ford obviously cared a lot about Fiddleford, but the fact was that they didn't trust each other as much as they should've, and Ford was being manipulated 24/7 (add on sleep deprivation, mind manipulation, etc.) That's the point of the "TRUST NO ONE" message being debunked - there are things you can't do on your own, and you need someone you trust to fall back on. But they didn't have that. (Second pic is of Fiddleford talking to young Blind Ivan, and it's implied this is where he got the memory gun idea, due to his traumatic experience striking a cord in Fiddleford.)
3. "Ford is a bad person, used Stan, etc, all that shit." Ford fucked up. Literally everyone knows that. But after seeing who Stan was, who he really was, Ford was forced to confront the fact that his image of his brother was warped from years and years of being on his own, running for his life, living in constant paranoia, being manipulated into trusting no one but a dream demon, and yes, his ego. He admits it himself. And Stan isn't a perfect person, but the image (in the beginning) of him is inaccurate in the Journal, because it's written from Ford's pov. He hasn't had to look from someone else's POV in years, so he sees Stan's actions as selfish and unreasonable. But later on, he realizes it. He's been living like he's simply better than others due to his intelligence, criticizing everything Stan does, but in the end, he realizes he was wrong, and the brother he loved has been there the whole time, risking his life readily and daily just for a chance to protect his family, giving up everything for them. He realizes he was unjust. And it's not an excuse -- but a reason, one that shouldn't be dumbed down to "Oh he's a bad person". And he recognizes that Stanley has every right to deny his dream after Ford belittled Stan's.
He kept films of when they were kids, and stayed by Stan's side constantly while his memory was returning. Stan is important to him, he was simply in an awful situation that caused him to act awful. Stan is Ford's hero.
4. "Ford abandoned Fiddleford/Fiddleford got a bad ending". Be so fr, even disregarding the credits scene where Fiddleford is with his son, and the scene where Fiddleford says he can start forgiving instead of forgetting what Ford did and put him through, there are full pages of this guy's ramblings abt him. And he remembers such minute details about his friend, such as the rubix cube. He went out of his way to help rebuild Fiddleford's life.
Bonus number 5: "The road trip episode wasn't logical to put into the second season because they were trying to be protected from Bill. " that was explained too! Though it was only in the Journal so I get it yk? But Ford's aim was the protect the kids in case he made a mistake.
Anyways that's all for now, just a bunch of things I noticed ppl forgot or didnt know while reading Journal 3.
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CASEY NATION RISE 7, 9, 17, 20, 23, 25
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7. Whatâs one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?
i used to think that she didnt care much about the art of actually acting and cinema and stuff and for her it was more about just being famous and it didnt matter how. i think that was partially because although i knew i wanted her to lust for fame and money the acting dream was kind of just randomly decided on. i thought i could easily swap it out with modelling or singing or something and it wouldnt make much difference. but the more time ive spent with casey, the more i see her as a true lover of movies and art....which i think leads in well to her endgame job being a script editor rather than an actor. her true talents lie behind the screen even if she herself doesnt see it...
9. Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?
whats a girl to do - cristina
a post canon (after nell dies) caseys life anthem:)
17. What is the worst thing you have put your OC through story-wise?
well i was going to blame it entirely on you that nell dies and i had no say in that but i suppose i did come up with her emotional reaction to that myself, which causes me a lot of slow damage pain. SO I GUESS THAT..the fact she pushes michelle away after it happens is really depressing to me because thats literally her only friend left and only possible pillar of support, but she pushes her away because she hates everything and shes mad shes not nell and shes mad at her family and wants to explode. I think she'd be marginally less suicidal if she stayed friends with her.....
I guess also pulling from alternate realities the one where she dies is pretty fucked up. and very painful. and nell doesnt even make it to her to cradle her in her arms. SAD
20. Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?
yyessss. at least when he and nell start getting lowkey. no. highkey #serious. early in their setup he wouldnt gaf if nell was married to a businesswoman in russia.but when they start ummmm [redacted] then hes like waittt. lol waittttttt lol wait. lol. WAITTT. gets a little annoyed when theyre at the doom patrol warehouse party and jayna from the wonder twins tries to get ladybugs number. THATS MY BODYGUARD..GET YOUR OWN. it manifests in that he'll get clingy to nell and mean and passive aggressive (or just aggressive) towards the person pissing him off. will be petty and spiteful (sees some poor scared nervous young lesbian trying to say hi to nell so he slides in and nuzzles up to her shoulder in public to let that sstupid kid know to go away)
idk why he does this. if you asked him if he liked nell he would say And what has she done to MAKE me like her
23. What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express?
lol GRIEF. little casey has never experienced a death before nell! not even a pet death. she has no idea how to process those feelings or cope with them in the slightest. she goes like catatonic immediately after the fact bcuz shes so completely shocked and wasnt prepared for it at all (lowkey thought ladybug was too awesomeand strong to ever get got. stupidd)
on the complete flip side, also .....l-l-l-l-l-l-l--l-l-l-l-l-l...LOVE. or at least feeling a smidge of serious romantic attraction to someone. in canon end she never gets to deal with that bcuz she only realizes it after nell died and then promptly buried everything related to nell deep inside a hole. but in nyc nell simply has an epic near death experience where hes hospitalized and thats when casey is like fuuuuuuuuuck that scared me. DO I LIKE HER? she acts a bit pathetic and tsundere abt it which is endearing to me personally. maybe scares nell a bit. its cute to me though <3
25. What is your favorite thing about your OC?
shes not a good person </3 shes selfish and mean and doesnt care about other people </3 bent on revenge and hating </3 genuinely not a good guy </3 i love everything negative about casey the most
i also think secretary characters are sexy.
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all 26 of my drs
soo as my bio says I have 26 drs!! and today I will be talking about each of them
in all honesty I thought it was a bit of a stretch to shift to that many, but who cares? the universe is unlimited so if I wanna shift to 3, 26, or even 100 I should be allowed to (and so should you!!)
anywaysss lets get into it
Anime drs
MHA - this is literally my MAIN DR. its the first ever dr I thought of shifting to and one of my favorites. I can't wait to shift there omg
MHA (fantasy au) - this isn't one of my top favs but it is def a cool one that I would enjoy fs
AOT (modern college au) - this dr is gonna be so fun I just know it
Haikyuu - volleyball is one of my FAVORITE sports so I already know this is gonna be exciting (I also had a haikyuu obsession ever since 2019 quarantine-)
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Fame drs
singer - I always wanted to be a famous singer so this made inner 9 year old me SCREAM. I live and breathe music. all kinds of it, too. my playlist will go from SZA to Bone Thugs n Harmony to Billie Ellish and then to Deftones real quick
youtuber - this is another career that 9 year old me wanted. I've always looked up to YouTubers so I knew I would have a trip shifting to where I was one too
street racer - okay Im gonna be so honest and tell y'all rn I don't know jack shit abt cars- all I know is that I wanna have a hot pink car and blast flo milli while dusting a bunch of men in races (hot girl shit I fear-)
90s r&b singer - I love the 90s. the music, the fashion, all of it. absolutely amazing. that's it
band dr - I would love to be the lead singer of a famous ass band. I haven't decided if I was gonna join an existing one or make my own yet but one of the options will be happening
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TV shows/Movies
hogwarts - when I first got into shifting a LOT of people were shifting to Hogwarts and honestly I understand why. it looks so fun there man
alice in wonderland - this is one of my FAVORITE movies. I love the weirdness of it all and its just so creative and calming for me. (I intend on scripting I live in a cute little cottage on a hill with my two headed cow because I have a major obsession with cows)
diary of a wimpy kid - I got one name for you. and that name is rodrick mf heffley. judge me I do not care but that man is FINE (he probably smells tho but I intend on scripting he isn't cause who tf wants a smelly man??). i also like the idea of being in loded diper
twilight - I've had an obsession with vampires and werewolves (ESPECIALLY werewolves) since I was in 4th grade so this move series and dr is right up my alley (I'm team Jacob btw even tho he's hella childish)
the breakfast club - the first time I watched this movie I was like "I'm officially shifting there". I love coming of age movies especially older ones like this so I didn't hesitate to add it to my list
riverdale - this series was kinda interesting tbh. I heard it got really wacky after the 3rd season though but I guess I'll find that out when I rewatch it (or when I shift idk). SPEAKING OF RIVERDALE- I had two dreams about shifting there and it was so crazy. like the first one was when I was in the diner with the characters and I was looking for my s/o, but I woke up before I could find him. and then the second dream I don't remember but I had the sensation I kissed someone???? so I'm pretty sure I found him LMFAO-
spiderman (itsv-atsv) - absolutely NO words for this one. I've had an obsession with this one ever since it came out. and I almost screamed in the movie theater when the producers hit us with that "to be continued" bs. also hobie brown <33
descendents - I was into every single original Disney channel movie that was released and this was one of them. AND I could be the daughter of Tiana like??? sign me up fr
monster high - these are literally THE monster it girls. it would be a crime to not shift there
total drama - this was the first reality tv show I ever watched and I was so here for it. they got real creative with the drama too
victorious - I LOVE arts. acting, painting, music, dance, you name it. if I could go to a school like this in my cr I would've already been there (oh wait I technically can)
power rangers - SPECIFICALLY the 2017 film. I don't feel like we got a backstory on half of the characters and its so disappointing but oh MAN when my boy DACRE got on that screen I almost hollered. this movie served so hard and it deserved a sequel badly.
stranger things - this was another obsession of mine and I couldn't have it any other way. its gonna be terrifying but badass (like nancy wheeler when she had that damn shotgun)
mid90s - this was a decision I made last week because I had JUST watched the movie and it was my obsession for a little bit too. I experienced a little home sickness (more like a lot of homesickness because I was SAD SAD)
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other drs I thought of shifting to
demon slayer - this seemed pretty fun, but I heard that later down the plot it got boring and sucked pretty bad so I wasn't sure
kpop - I'm not 100% a kpop fan but I LOVE krnb so I was just thinking of making music like that but its still in the works a bit
avatar - I thought it would be cool, but I wasn't in love with the idea like I thought id be. maybe if I shifted to the first avatar I'd like it but idk yet
farm life - like I mentioned earlier I really love cows and thought a farm would be cool, but I kinda fell out of love with the idea so this most likely won't go all the way through
anastasia - this is one of the drs I most likely will still be shifting to because I just love classic Disney movies (and Dimitri was fine..)
ready player one - in all honesty, I completely forgot I intended on shifting there but its a fun ass concept
pitch perfect - okay but this movie was funny as hell plus singing so why not?
tinkerbell - this entire series was my Roman empire. they were my FAV when I was little and still are
10 things I hate about you - early 2000 movies are my favorite so when I watched this, I wanted to shift there asap
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okay and I think those are all my drs!! this might be a little over 26 too but oh well LMFAO-
i really enjoyed making this and I hope y'all enjoyed reading it <3
stay tuned for more drs because i am always thinking of new ones to go to!!
#shifting motivation#desired reality#black shifters#quantum jumping#shifting community#shiftblr#shifttok#shifting blog#reality shifting
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can you say more about the movie you based the hey cupid chapter off? bc it seems insane đđ if this is too personal feel free to ignore!!!
OH HAPPILY! this movie makes me actually crazy i cant believe its real. its just cliche after cliche
so basically the mc is a cool loner guy who "doesnt do prom" (already shoot me) and there's this girl that wants to go with him. but because hes so cool and different, when she asks him he says no! SHOCKER!
AND THEN! HE GOES TO PROM ANYWAY! SHOCKER!
at prom loner mc tries to work up the courage to ask this literal random girl we've never seen before to dance, even though he "doesnt do dancing". love interest asks him to dance, he says no. love interest catches him dancing with rando girl: cue the dramatic running out of the room. theres a prolonged scene of their shoes and you just wait in agony bc you know someones gonna step on a toe, and whoop there it was.
uhhh then love interest meets the girl from the subplot (mc best friend cheats on his girlfriend. she slaps him. thats abt it) and then the two girls decide to blow off prom and have a sleep over. cue the unbearable montage of a teenage boy not knowing what girls do in their free time. at some point they go to burn the other girls prom dress which is when it gets horror movie-y.
and then, kid you not, could not explain how we get here, but suddenly its a coked out dream sequence. we see the mc doing coke in the bathroom and then he goes and i guess rehashes all of these random nights to his friend blah blah blah he realizes he loves the main girl, goes to her house, big confession, kiss with swooping music and boom movie over
#sorry i gave you literally a beat by beat analysis#but theres just so much going on#i cant skip anything#fun fact im an extra in the prom scenes and filming that was so awkward#no one was pretending to dance and there were like 7 people max#so the scenes at prom are absolutely painful#but hey im in the credits#i dont talk to this friend anymore#he actually ruined my life#so i dont feel bad dogging on him lmao#mollys asks
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Season 6, episode 4 thoughts
Immediate flash of the American flag mohawk. I haveâŚno words
Demetri looking at EliâŚthatâs his bf with the American flag mohawk
I am actually so glad for more Hawk and Demetri moments. Like so so glad.
No thoughts about Johnny wearing LaRussoâs last name on his jacket. Absolutely none. Nope
Okay, I know they want unbiased opinion but also who knows their students better than them?? Like Mike Barnes shouldnât get to choose but he should get to have an opinion
Mike Barnes you literally donât know them
WHY ARE THEY CATCHING CHICKENS??? AND HES TAKING NOTES ON IT WITH CHECK MARKS
Please stop. I donât think any of these kids are farm kids
âNo one ever catches the chicken.â BECAUSE THAT IS NOT A REASONABLE THING TO EXPECT FROM PEOPLE
Devon isnât unreasonably upset. Also girl dad to Devon Johnny is actually nice to see, I love them.
I literally forgot Yasmine was Demetriâs girlfriend. More such cases of asking, âDoes this female character have hobbies? Whatâs she majoring in college? Whereâs she going to college?â And even, âWhere is Sam going to college? Whatâs her dream school?â Because weâve so far only focused on Miguel going to Stanford
âKeep an eye on Devon today.â I literally love u Johnny
Why are they playing flag football
âShit!â âSorry buddy.â I love their friendship
Johnny literally knows your students better than you. Also Devonâs frustration is so visceral. Oona OâBrien is such a good actress
Mike is like rightfully upset but you shouldnât take your frustration out on actual teenagers.
You should not lean back when you have a bloody nose-
Why is there alpha talk rn
âI suppose itâs better than being a cream puff.â Crazy thing to say
WHY DID HE SAY IT AGAIN
Oh the red and blue of it all in this scene
I LOVE JOHNNY BEING A MENTOR TO DEVON !!!
âWeâve wanted MIT ever since we were kids.â Another case of Demetri clinging to the old version of his best friend now that his best friend has come back. Much to explore. Perhaps in fic?
Oh. Demetri went after Eli without knowing. Oh.
HE WASNT LYING ABT IT BEING LAXATIVES???
Oh. Best friend fight. Oh
I hope they rip it in half
NOOOOO. âI donât want to go to Barcelona with you anyways.â
THE KICK GODDAMN
DAMN. GOD. DAMN.
That stare. Why does he always stare at Demetri like that. Goddamn
DEVON DID IT???
âYou just had to Eagle Fang your way to what you wanted.â Divorce pt 2 but alsoâŚitâs interesting he saw Mikeâs fight with Johnny as a bad thing when Mike seemed to realize that he had more of a connection with Johnny than he thought
#Alex yaps#I realized this is less my thoughts and more me just live-blogging I apologize#cobra kai season 6 spoilers#ck season 6 spoilers#ck spoilers
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just thinking of anthropologyrry and his girl at the fnaf movie opening night. he would buy tickets way beforehand because hes waited YEARS for this moment. harry would get so excited and nerdy and she lowkey just finds it so hot because dorky men (duh) and throughout the movie hes just so enthralled and you can tell its nostalgic for him and hes so cute without knowingđ and they get home and hes talking her ear off and recapping all the lore (because OF COURSE heâs brought it up before plenty) but she absolutely adores it and listens attentively and even finds it sexy because seeing him talking about something that passionately just makes her want to give him the best head of his lifeđđ (sorry but as a fnaf and anthropologyrry girlie this is one of my dreams)
stop bc Iâve been thinking abt this too like itâs so cute when ppl have something theyâre really nerdy about, especially if itâs something they liked as a kid and fnaf is that for anthrorry and she finds it so fucking precious đĽš
like she teases him about the dolls he has of the animatronics (or as he insists theyâre called, âcollectiblesâ) but she scoures the internet until she finds a limited edition one he doesnât have and gets it for him as a gift bc she loves the way he literally jumps up from the couch when he opens it, his eyes lighting up and, âNo. No, no, no. Thereâs no way. Thereâs no fucking way Iâm actually holding this right now. Babe, what the fuck?â
And she purses her lips to keep from smiling, waving his reaction off casually as she jokes about the toy. âThat stupid thing? Found it lying on the floor of the Goodwill toy aisle.â
âBullshit. Iâve been looking for this one for months now and have gotten nothing.â Harry inspects the figurine with all the poise and care in the world, as it if were made of diamonds instead plastic. His words come out stunned and awed, his eyes twinkling with childlike wonder. âGod, itâs practically in mint condition. Looks like I took it right out of the original box.â
âAnd it comes with all the little switchable parts, too.â
âWhat?!â
Harry then proceeds to massacre the gift box with his bare hands until he finds what she had promised: extra sets of limbs and heads, contorted into different positions and expressions, which can be mixed, matched, and attached onto the main body of the collectible. Finding the figurine on its own is rare enough, but being able to get all the other pieces along with it is essentially unheard of. Y/N had probably sold her soul for this.
Harry cradles the present in his palms like a newborn deer, pupils wide and lids unblinking. âThis isâŚthe best day of my life.â
Y/N raises her eyebrow at him expectantly. âWhat about the day we met?â
âSecond best day of my life.â Harry corrects swiftly, tinkering away excitedly with all the accessories that accompany his present. âPronounced it wrong.â
âThatâs what I thought. And you forgot something, by the way.â
His fingers suddenly freeze mid-action, his head snapping towards his girlfriend sharply. âWhat?â
âBottom of the box.â
He slowly peels his intense gaze from her smug face, peeking into the package gingerly one more time. A strangled squeak escapes his throat. âHoly shit, is thatâ? It canât be.â
âIt is.â
âYouâre fucking with me.â
âIâm not.â
âAn endoskeleton model?â
âMmhm.â
âIâve always wanted one of these!â
âI know.â
âIâm gonna pass out.â
âI know.â
âI love you.â
âI know.â
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Following on from the Bumbleby ship reblog, what's your brutally honest opinion on Nuts and Dolts?
iâm sure i was probably asked abt them during the ask game i was doing back then but iâll dive into them again now that weâre in v9 and i think the trigger has been pulled on that relationshipâs entire purpose
i LOVE nnd,,,,,,,,,, like love love them so much,,,,,,,, i think that they are like an upside down dark heartbreaking version of your childhood crush who moves away but who you always think abt and who, no matter how old you get, youâll always wonder if you two couldâve given it a real shot
ruby being this young kid who has powers immeasurable but who never expected to have to use them meeting a girl who was created SPECIFICALLY to be what people want ruby to be is just like,,,,,,,, tragically heartwarming when you consider how lost ruby is after the fall of beacon and how much of that is tied into penny, this paragon of goodness and strength and protection being rendered useless by the very people ruby fears
so like, that loss weighs on ruby and guides much of her narrative for the next few seasons, turning her into a fixer and defender and protector because she saw goodness get literally ripped apart and what else can she do but try to stop it again
when they reunite in v7 rubyâs genuine shock is so so so depressing to look back on because at that point sheâd faced so much more and learned so much about herself that i donât think she has grasped even now in v9 so seeing this person who defined so much of what and who sheâs become is such a relief for her
so you get the wonderful little breather that is v7 and ruby is connecting with penny again and realizing that maybe good never DOES leave this world no matter how much evil tries to get rid of it
that is, until penny is given everything sheâs ever wanted and had it immediately ripped away. i know that pennyâs second death is incredibly controversial in the fandom but i donât think people are quite understanding why it had to happen the way it did because their feelings for penny as a character are too strong
penny was given humanity and happiness and her literal dream by this being outside of the realm of understanding and still, STILL, that isnât enough. she dies in the most heartbreaking way because it was her choice but also,,,,, was it really? was any of this anyoneâs choice?
so now rubyâs fallen and lost everything and if penny couldnât even survive being everything sheâs ever wanted and staying at rubyâs side⌠then whatâs the point of hope?
i think penny is rubyâs hope, but i donât think ruby understands that penny can BE that hope even if she didnât get a happy ending. i think sheâs meant to inspire ruby and show her that even if we lose a million good, pure, innocent things in life, weâll always have a million and one reasons to keep fighting
and thatâs what i think nnd is truly about
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ok i have. i have more disgaea thoughts. my girl fuka what did they do to you
ok so the thing abt d4 is that overall its story is quite fun, it's peak disgaea because it is wacky in a way where its absurdly exaggerated literal events are used to represent emotional conflicts ie a character's dad shutting himself away in his lab for her entire childhood who reveals it was to fulfill her dream of taking over the world by developing machines that she can command to take over the world as an allegory for a dad doing his best to provide for his kids at the expense of being there for his kids so they grow up without feeling like he loves them, and it legitimately is the only story i think really intertwines serious and batshit to make "WE HAVE TO POWER THE MECH WITH LOVE SO IT CAN STOP THE MOON FROM CRASHING TO EARTH, QUICK, PRAY TO YOUR PARTNER BECAUSE WHILE YOU HAVE NO FAITH IN GOD YOU HAVE FAITH IN HIM!" instead of in d1 having the story be wacky with occasional stops to tell a standard story with normal emotional stakes and etna is there to tell jokes, or from d5 onwards basically just being standard fantasy stories with normal emotional stakes but theres wacky backgrounds.
the actual main story of d4 is all bangers, there are a lot of great heels to keep the story interesting and although they all come around to val in the end they don't all become his bff which avoids the d7 problem of "you made a new guy up just so we would have anyone to fight and nobody we do recruit puts up an interesting struggle and therefore none of us have an interesting reason we're still here beyond inertia". i do wish artina got to do more stuff i think she's way too fun a character who is way too important in the story to be relegated to third wheel as often as she is, but to fix that i would just give her most of axel's stuff. she becomes president and then is absent for the moon episode on intel that she'll meet "someone she doesn't wanna see" and then when she radios in for the roll call you have a little joke about flonne being that person.
usually i really like flonne being a straightforward heel in her adult appearances. shes the whitest woman in existence and shes very nasty when she thinks she's doing the right thing, which is always. i support women's wrongs and her stealing billions from the netherworld(which celestia already exploits in a lot of ways/sometimes just decides to destroy) to fuck around with by forcing an underling who actively does not want to do it to shake down random civilians and public infrastructure, all to fund her stupid ass mech shaped like her who's powered by prayer? thats horrible! shes so nasty! it's really funny and them being forced to deal with That being their only way to keep fenrich from having the most important thing in his life(after val) fucking exploded leads to one of the reasons they should have won that fucking noncanon gayest ships tournament FUCK those community bitches.
HOWEVER. the fuka dlc is so bad. or let me rephrase: the fuka dlc is transcendantly good until the ending at which point it becomes the worst thing that happens in disgaea 4.
bc ok ok ok. so fuka is dead. that's her story, after a childhood of being neglected by her always busy dad she breaks into his lab and finds his evil scientist lair full of mutant constructs, one of whom kills her. she doesn't accept that she's dead because she's only 14 and her life hasn't even started yet and on top of that she's been sent to hell despite being a normal ass 14 year old whos biggest crime is being a teenager. so she deals with it by denying it and deluding herself into believing that this is all a dream and someday she'll wake up in a happy life she's just starting and she won't have to confront the terrible fate she met with. so the solution is obvious, right?
after the main story resolves and fuka has a group of friends and caretakers who love her and she's patched things up with her dad, fuka needs to accept that she's dead. disgaea uses a reincarnation system as a core part of the series mythology and gameplay. reincarnation is good and necessary. fuka, eventually, needs to let go, and stop haunting the world she did get cheated out of a life in.
so in the dlc, her friends and family help her. val puts her through the toughest puzzle course he can because he's her teacher and he wants her to prove that she's strong and resourceful and capable, and she does! she passes all his tests and he gives her his formal blessing. then her secondary father figure, her bio dad, finally delivers on his promise to help her take over the world, they like. rent out a city and give her a bunch of crazy machines to go wild on with the power she's worked so hard for and the allies she's found so much support in, including her little sister who she only recently got to meet and connect with during the main story and her surrogate reluctant little brother, The Grim Reaper, who is the one guiding her through the mechanics of reincarnation in the first place as a sign of his own personal growth that he's now mature enough to handle this difficult case.
and it works! fuka accepts it! she accepts, sadly, that she's dead, and she should move on. she'll lose this life, which is sad! they're all sad about it! but it's okay. and then-- it's an ending, right?
it's going to be an ending, you think. disgaea has a bunch of specific endings. there's one for completing a single optional stage in d1. it would make perfect sense narratively and gameplay wise to have an ending with fuka reincarnating, then just. introduce a bill to resummon fuka from an alternate dimension or time travel shenanigans or literally whatever other funny joake you can think of this is a comedy series and doing it this way doesn't undercut the emotional part While Its Happening. because if that happened itd be Bad.
enter flonne. because it is not an ending. flonne barrels through the fourth wall at the last second and, dead vfucking serious, CONDEMNS FUKA TO ETERNAL HELL WITH NO CHANCE OF REINCARNATION because she "tried to take over the world" by fighting in a stage consisting of like three blocks her dad set up for her where no civilians were even present. also bc shes the ruler of heaven this is the character who condemned her to hell originally when she was FOURTEEN because when she was six she wanted to take over the world.
which is a baller heel move and i would be so so so so into it IF she was a boss fight. if they had to defeat her before she was forced to reluctantly give fuka her very well-deserved reincarnation. but, uh, nope, last minute twist, Moving On Is Bad Actually and fuka is still condemned to eternal hell. fuck you. sure its technically a sentence that lets her spend time with her besties forever but like. at what cost. flonne only works as a heel if the other characters clash with her instead of valvatorez and emizel of all fucking people being like Woof so glad we don't have to say goodbye, i guess our entire characters and the things we find important and the reasons we were doing this do not matter and all that shit about caring about fuka and wanting her to find peace was Bullshit. have fun being 14 for the rest of your life, Dumbass!
â literally what its like to be 14 years old
#c.paradisi#like disgaeas done gameplay concessions to have characters come back Just Because#when the narrative demands that they leave but they dont wanna steal your units#you can just give em back afterwards!!! video games are all fake anyway!!!!#give her some new lines if youre so worried about consistency but otherwise just make up something funny. we will laugh#it is SO much worse to turn the climax of an otherwise really compelling arc totally impotent#flonne as a character is so insane though. i cant stress enough: shes always like this#just like auuuugh. fuka my girl. you deserved so much better#emizel has a line in d5 where hes lamenting that he still cant get fuka to accept things#and its like. facedown on floor. :(#literally every other character has dialogue that reflects how they were at the end of their game. even him! but not her#fittingly she never gets to move on
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well i⌠finished act 5 act 2. gonna have to rewatch cascade a bunch of times and probably read the act summary on the wiki but i have officially reached the end of the act
still enjoying it a lot but itâs getting harder and harder to read. summing up a rant i gave my friend, iâm not super in love with the sense of predestined futility - or more accurately, i donât feel that the narrative has properly addressed that yet and justified why i should be reading about these characters who were like 100x doomed from the start.
there are so many characters and so much happening that nothing is lingered upon, which is nice pacing-wise but not so nice emotional-impact-wise. i also think the âeverybody dies a bajillion times and itâs fine until all of a sudden itâs notâ thing works against it in a sense, especially when the narrative doesnât stop to mourn anyone whoâs actually dead, bc by the time you realize hey wait maybe like. vriska or dad or feferi/nepeta/equius etc are dead for real itâs been like 200+ pages and youâre like well ok. what do i do here exactly.
and i know that thatâs an intentional choice hussie made for how he wanted to craft his narrative - im wishing for things that he deliberately chose not to give. im not trying to say that these choices are flaws in his writing, just that as an audience member i tend to prefer the tlt method of dealing with death, where one main character dies and then the entire next book is about another ripping herself apart because of it.
im not giving up by any means, or even saying that this is whatâs dominating my reading experience. like i said im still enjoying myself and appreciate most of the creative decisions that hussie is making. it can just feel very draining i suppose, watching these characters iâve come to care about - almost all of whom are literal children - fighting so hard so futilely, and so far, imo the narrative hasnât paid that off. however, with that out of the way, here are (some of, bc this shit was long as hell) my thoughts on the act, more or less in order:
i have literally no interest in johnkat. probably partially bc my friend is so into davekat that ive been conditioned to just wait for that to happen but also bc they have no chemistry. sorry to any johnkat shippers out there but idc itâs boring
i have slightly more but still negligible interest in john/vriska. probably bc i⌠donât really care about john. sorry to any john stans out there but idc heâs boring
karkat and terezi sharing a keyboard to argue my beloved
rose my beloved. but also. sweetie :/
vriska my beloved. but also. SWEETIE :/
kanaya my beloved. youâre doing great no notes
oh yeah dave and terezi manipulated the stock market. still donât 100% understand that but whatever good for them
yeah ok the dream bubbles. christ. like ok i GET it but theyâre still annoying
i love jadeâs dynamic with karkat she really goes from âteehee im just a silly little girl hahaâ to âim going to eviscerate this motherfuckerâ
bec prototyping himself was genuinely such a good reveal
is it just me or is john's power like. way lamer than the other kids' lmao. like it's still cool, def better than nothing, but come on
not too much to say abt the exiles but i love them
also with all the fucking timeline bullshit that's going on i literally can't wait to reach the end and reread with the uhsc mod that lets you follow a specific person's timeline. i canNOT keep track of what's happening when for who
it is literally so funny that vriska has been the cause of jade's narcolepsy this entire time. like wow girl you really took the opportunity to be a massive dick to her huh
LET'S BE SANTA
frogs. ok sure. why not.
fuck doc scratch all my homies hate doc scratch. i will say though. he is a fantastic character.
holy shit eridan and gamzee snapping and killing like everyone. that was buckwild what the fuck. not gonna lie idc that equius is dead, and nepeta, feferi, and tavros were never my faves. but got damn it sucks that they're dead. (ostensibly. still not one thousand percent convinced)
sad karkat :(
murderous kanaya :D
WV "DRIVING" AHHHH
oh god the ancestors. sorry but i simply do not care about that shit. like i know that they're actually relevant but. :/
also i don't like the trope of chains of events being echoed across generations. like damn get your own plot. also it ties into that determinism and futility that i'm grappling with
i will say though. mindfang mentally thanking redglare for taking her arm because then her battle against his honorable tyranny because it made it "a fair fight"? hot. i'm brave enough to say it.
aradia is cool as fuck. i wish we got more of her/her personality
aradia's ancestor is also cool as fuck. sucks that literally nothing she did to resist her fate worked or mattered
the scratch stuff is genuinely interesting narratively/in terms of a plot device. again it still sucks that the beta kids aren't actually going to get to win the game themselves. like i assume they'll be talking to/guiding the alpha kids but like. god it's so unfairrr i bet there'll be angst about this
rose going grimdark is so fun. also LMAO john trying to chat with her in that flash game portion
TEREZI god i love her. sucks that she killed vriska tho bc i love her and also i ship them. oh well murder is not necessarily a roadblock to them getting together. troll romance sure is weird. i have hope in my heart.
vriska isn't dead forever bc no she isnt <3
the betty crocker shit. is funny. and also stupid as hell.
SAD KARKAT :((
ok i guess the stuff about karkat's ancestor and the history of the troll race is kinda interesting. whatever.
everyone's in love/hate with gamzee all of a sudden?? literally why. troll romance sure is FUCKING confusing
that was a pretty anticlimactic climax to the gamzee situation, gotta say
cascade was confusing as fuck i don't have thoughts on it yet
so yeah that's it! if you're still reading, why? let me know what your thoughts on act 5 act 2 were when you read it, or your thoughts on my thoughts lol. just pls no spoilers for anything past cascade!!
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A very informal esssay/rant abt a book quote that slowly turns into an identity crisis (vv long to buckle up folks). Ik most of yâall wonât read this, but for the few that do fully read this, just gimmie some feedback on how to better process my thoughts and put them into actual wiring, instead of weird rants.
If you could see the sun - Ann Liang
* In page of the novel If You Could See The Sun 60, Liang states â it wasnât until I stepped into Beijing International Airport, suddenly surrounded by people who looked like me,suddenly both seen and blended in,that I felt the weight of tension right as it lifted off my shouldersâ(Liang 60).
We* Centered around Aliceâs(the mc of the book) feelings of entering a Chinese Airport for the first time in years, Liang described Aliceâs feeling as relived,seen, and that she felt a sense of belonging. This, greatly contrasts the way I feel whenever I enter a predominately Indian populated place (Iâm an Indian). The feeling of belonging that Alice feels is also felt by me, during Indian events held here in the US. So perhaps I too identify with Aliceâs feelings. However, the circumstances are different as she is ACTUALLY in China within an Airport filled with people who identify with Chinese culture more than American culture. While this observation may seem obvious, it is vital in comparison to Indian cultural events held in the US. This is because even though many attendees of these events are born in India, they live in the United States, forcing them to integrate American culture in daily lives. Or the children of these immigrants, who are legally American and just visit India. As a brown girl growing up in a predominantly white community, American culture IS integrated in my life. Which makes events for my Indian heritage less estranged from myself because I sense familiarity within many things. For example, most adults and children can understand and speak English, thus subconsciously westernizing these events. This mix of cultures allows me to feel âseen and blended inâ.
* On the flip side of the coin, we have Aliceâs true setting,The International Airport of Beijing. Alice seeing all these other people at the airport is supposedly comforting for her. Earlier on in the novel Alice makes commentary about the snide slightly racist remarks that people donât think you hear in the United States. Her being in an Airport filled with people who look and speak like her gives her a sense of representation. I, on the other hand, feel as though those snide comments are accepted and are within my identity. Essentially, it doesnât bother me anymore. I have understood and came to terms with ( hopefully) that I will never be a pretty white girl that is rich and has everything. That stupid dream is so unrealistic it is laughable. Yet we(I) continue dreaming. So the main reason why Alice feels the way she does in the airport clearly differs with me personally grappling with the issue.
* If one were to place me in Aliceâs situation- an international airport in which I am surrounded my people the same race as me how would I feel? For starters, I have previously established that I would not feel seen or represented. Even when brown people get represented in media, something about the character feels off no matter what. Either they are too culturally attached, or they never acknowledge it what so ever. Finding that perfect balance of cultures within immigrant kids lives is difficult, and in my opinion, hasnât really been found yet. Or when true Indian media gets American attention, which isnât often, itâs essentially memed to the point of no end (looking at u Naatu Naatu). This feeling of dispresentation (not a word, but means inaccurate representation) makes me feel odd while amongst âtrueâ Indians. Say what one will, but we all know that I will never be a true Indian. As an ABCD itâs literally in the acronym to be confused as a desi when in reality you are simply an American. Iâm aware that no matter how hard I try ( if I even try at all) I wonât be a real Indian. I will always have the American accent, I will always think of America as the place I belong in, as my home. (Even though the people here think that it isnât). Itâs like and endless cycle of never having one true place, no one true culture, even though your technically fully Indian. Even though Alice did stay in America for a while, it didnât consume her identity. Probably because she used to live in China, then moved to the US. For her, the United States is like an extended 2 part episode in a season of the show. My identity as a âfakeâ Indian makes me uncomfortable with true Indians, because I believe they have achieved something I cannot. (Although I know itâs just a mental block). But do I even want to be a âtrueâIndian? Whatâs so great about it? Sure I get the approval of other âtrueâ Indians, but then Iâll lose the approval i have of the Americans. This is why once again, writing immigrant characters is so hard.
* To further showcase the impact that my American upbringing has one me. I previously mentioned the snide comments that people always make. These are more often than not, based off of stereotypes. Although not intended, I see these stereotypes within myself and others.Even though we all try to be fair and lovely, it doesnât work. So whenever I see âtrueâ Indians, for some reason I feel a sense of supremacy, as though Iâm better than them for being more âwhitewashedâ. This is all due to my American upbringing once again. Often times I feel a sense of wanting to be more culturally aware and active, but I only feel that way when itâs âcoolâ or funny to be a minority. All of that just to feel special, seen, and heard.
* To sum up all these nonsensical words and writings into 3 simple words, to signify how I would feel in the airport that Alice was standing in would be:
* Melancholy ( or am I just sad all the time)
* Longing ( but is it)
* Supremacy( but not really)
Thx for actually reading all of this btw ilysm
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Kinda nonhuman because mental illness bc when I was NOT properly socialized as a kid BECAUSE EVERYBODY HATED ME FOR NO REASON???
I was literally the sweetest kid in that school you little motherfuckers
I liked to draw and eat walls, what was wrong with me?
Did they know something abt me that I don't yet?
Even today I dreamed and one of the girls from that school appeared with her mother, bitches
Kinda nonhuman because mental illness, kinda nonhuman because not being properly socialized as a kid, kinda nonhuman because queer, kinda nonhuman because angry at humanity, kinda nonhuman because longing for the unconditional love of a pet and itâs master, and kinda nonhuman because secret sixth thing.
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1.10 commentary
from the earth to the starbucks
steve franks kelly kulchak james roday dule hill
The "right chair at the right time" star discovery was reflecting the kid shawn trying to get gus to go ahead of him
You couldn't have her carrying a bushel of carrots to hide that the actress was pregnant
Named for tom blaire, & this episode aired after his bday "Your present is on tv, friday at 10
"When you don't get the dialogue, it's usually referencing my friends"
six foot high painting of a blonde shirtless surfer that he wants that he is not going to get
My mom just notivced a random lobster on the table. I wish you could see how cute she is
Michael Zinberg
He eats ice because shawn is adhd, not because JRr claims this, eating ice is historically a sign of sexual frustration, It sets in here that shawn is not going to be getting lucky tonight, I did that assuming everyone knew that that's what that means KK & DH: I've never heard that
walking around stanley park
DH: I had a telescope KK: What did you look at? DH: Stars ...
How drunk should he be?
"special feature's not rated! I didn't want to scar anybody!" Dude you say hard ass in the show, you can say hard bottomed here
KK: I just like that he carries [his handcuffs] wherever he goes
Canonballs
Seriously? someone calling Dule already?
Improv: I'll never see you again
"All of that engagement stuff was just to get tim (lassiter) right to the floor"
Donut?
SF: I pay attention to One Credit: theme song my steve franks. *doesn't care abt "created by"*
Let the eyes leave the body
"Literally half a page of nutshelling, I can't stop writing it"
KK hates the fist bumping?
The fish!!! "First of all who did not put this in the show?" We had to cut out some important stuff to get the fish scene in
kkarlton, but the second one is silent
JRr: *high fives Juliet's shrug* & Maggie Lawson was able to continue acting, even after she laughed
Sneezes?
Oof these poor surfers at 2 degrees celcius
SF: genius dream JRr: Clem DH, acting &listening to the scene: this guy's an idiot
Network: Shawn... follows gus around? tat's a little creepy SF: No no no
not thursday
a minute & a half of the parking lot XD
crab fountain
Best location ever
JRr: the jackal has arrived
KK: Space run where your feet are hitting your ass. Sorry, butt. SF: Bottom. KK: We did it again SF: Sorry Paul (his nephew)
SF: My high school days when it took eight to twelve months to ask a girl out
the run XD
She's just gaslighting relaying the entire case
The seed for this show was "shawn goes int othe planetarium & for some reason narrates it"
*none of them are real constellations*
space capsule trash can
DH commented on the run & they kept it in the show
couldn't touch the telescope *giant storm trooper leg*
simon toque & this nice jumpsuit
WOULD have been funny to make him walk around like the micheline man, in an astronaut suit
Santa barbara with mountains & snow in the background!?!? (pretend it is water
That guy who fell, I love it
NIIIiiIICE
I forgot lassiter did golf
SF: I was in that suit.
I had to check the timers on the crab spray
JRr: Fact: we shot this at 6:00 in the morning & it was COLD & later that day neither of us could remember we shot it. DH: We just zoned out
No shot of the sign that sold the joke :(
With the roots & the dirt
Congrats to Hill's brother for getting engaged
"it's been fifteen years!"
Jack's wife, first AD!
It was supposed to be that she picked up a knife in the restaurant, but they couldn't do that :(
DH: Gus takes everyone on the same date
XD headbuts
Receive my ass cap award???
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