#literally a fucking month and a half
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What if...
Moon completely accepts the insanity, the sadistic nature, and bloodthirstiness of the retched virus? He relishes in maniacally guarding their home while maiming every unwanted guest that enters the forbidden areas he and Sun’s claimed over time, that much is true. If that was the case though... how did he end up like this?
Ayooo! i finally FINALLY made part 2 of this snippet! I’m tempted to continue the story I’ve kept planning so far should you guys want it! :D please enjoy!
Here’s Sun’s Version, the beginning!
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When you first met Moon after forgetting your belongings one unnerving evening. You expected a lot of mishaps to arise like Chica’s munching escapades, or STAFF bots entering the weirdest areas of the plex. What you’ve never expected was the Lunar animatronic hunched over numerous wrecked robot parts, spasming heavily over the gruesome scene while clutching his wire-exposed spasming arm. From the cryptic warnings your uncle has reminded you of, the jester had every opportunity to throw you out for intruding the facility afterhours, especially when you were caught looking. Yet, instead of enacting the heinous deeds that were described to you... the glitching bot merely guided you out the front doors with only a calm wave, items returned, and that unreadable default smile.
You knew then and there that you had to know more about this msyterious character.
You remember the earful you had gotten from your Uncle the day after. It was brutal. Though you were a tad guilty and apologetic to the old man, your curiosity was far greater just from the reminder of that evening. In fact, it was the sole reason why you started visiting the daycare more frequently ever since. At first, the Moon-like automation was courteous, but wary. Sun moreso. Then that apprehension quickly melted away once they realized you’ve never bared any ill-will since speaking to them. Moon was especially forthcoming towards creating a bond at that point for some unexplained reason. And while you had theories, it didn’t bother you more than the worried glances your Uncle would give you at the mention of the attendant.
Goodness did he want to tell you everything. The unsolved murders both robotic and human, the faulty machinery they’d manipulate to spend more time with you, even the intentional spastic sparks that would shoot out of Moon all the time as a failsafe to talk to you. But the biggest and most troublesome aspect that your stoic Uncle would battle with was the lunar bot’s skilled evasions to getting caught and or decommissioned by the man himself.
Every piece of security footage, any type of recording depicting the attendant in anyway, or written notes your relative would make and stash away would usually end up getting destroyed; sometimes marked off as false information by the higher ups. All of that was Moon’s doing. Sun is the more dangerous, violent, and volatile of the caretaker AI while his counterpart prepared alibis and well-timed distractions, making the sunny jester open to whatever plan he’d receive in their coding to appear inviting and innocent to the public according to Moon’s plan. They made an efficiently menacing team, much to your Uncle’s chagrin.
It quickly became clear that things would be increasingly difficult since your arrival at the Pizza Plex. The wily night-themed animatronic had definitely caught on to your familial relation to the Janitor, taking any advantage to heighten your Uncle’s personal hell. This was especially true when you ended up being romantically pursued by the celestial duo themselves. Improvised dances, mutual petnames and long-lasting hugs were part of his own personal torture, and your own unaware bliss.
The moment... the absolute moment that your Uncle discovered he had truly lost you to the Daycare Attendant, was a seemingly normal night when he finished cleaning the last of the security rooms. He always made sure to find you before completely leaving the premises so as to carpool back to your respective homes, totally not to drag you away from the murder crazy jester. Not at all. Doing so also meant going to the daycare much to his exhaustion. It wasn’t a secret among the rest of the employees that you spend all of your free time there. That night though, things were different. The daycare was dark when the perimeter was brightly lit up. Wandering in, your Uncle fished out his flashlight, taking cautious step after cautious step through the cushioning and calling your name with absolute caution and vigilance. He would even flash his light in every direction when he came across the security desk, with every monitor and screen having been deactivated. An obvious omen. Ducking underneath the bridge led him the display forever seared into his mind. You were peacefully sleeping among pillows and a glowing star-clad lap. Surrounding you... or rather towering over you, was the ominous Moon animatronic. he jerkingly etched huge tears into the fabric of the foam padding. Whether it was due to the glitch, or the flashlight in your Uncle’s hand, the man wasn’t so sure. The sparks flying out of the bot flew out of different parts of the animatronic... it was probably the main reason you ultimately came to the daycare this late at night. Moon’s face though... was less than inviting when he glanced into those hostile eyes.
Seeing that made your Uncle reluctantly stay away within a nearby security room and watch over you through the security cameras for the rest of that night until you woke up hours later. The crazed machine was not helping matters when glaring at the every mounted camera in the Daycare’s vicinity. It wasn’t because he was scared of the lunar nightguard. Not really. No, the real reason he did it was because of the jester’s resolve... it was possessive. Dangerously so. If he hadn’t had years of dealing with their heinous acts to the point of gathering a psychological profile for each alter, he would’ve thought Moon was... protecting you. But that’s impossible! It can’t be true.
Can it?
Safe to say... That question was enough incentive to help your Uncle to stay awake that night... and every evening after that.
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AAAHHHHHHH! I missed you guys SO MUCH! Many things were happening in my hectic life that I had to go away for... yeesh, over a month??? Now that the stress has died down, I’m more than ready to get back into creating that sweet Sun and Moon content again. I’ll start with this and finishing up that Sun’s confession comic. I’ll see you guys until then! Love y’all!
#Yoooooo#literally a fucking month and a half#I even missed mermay???#You're kidding me D:#well get ready#Imma make so much doodles not that I have the motivation thanks to the trailer.#you know the one :]#madamesinsdoodles#fnaf moon#moon fnaf#sun and moon fnaf#moon x y/n#moon x reader#fnaf daycare attendant#darcare attendant#fnaf the daycare attendant#fnaf sb#security breach#fnaf security breach#moony
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team fortress 2 finally getting rid of the bots after 5 years
work on the team fortress 2 comic continuing after 7+ years
half life 3 development looking more likely than ever with legitimate code, file, and voicework leaks referencing a new non-VR single-player game from valve featuring a HEV suit wearing protagonist and Xen creatures and concepts
shoutout to the valve fan that found the genie lamp. you a real one
#liz blogs#valve#team fortress 2#tf2#half life#half life 3#what did i say. what did i fucking say.#once again the impossible becomes commonplace#valve exists as a company to walk into the gaming industry. slap their dicks on the table. and yell THIS IS HOW ITS DONE#and the gaming industry has never been in a more sorry state than it is now. maybe second only to the 80s i think. something something ET#in b4 its called Half Life Xen as all the files reference ''hlx''. hl3 fakeout. but its another half life game.#half life 3 has been ''made'' multiple times in various states but its never been up to standards. whatever this project is though sounds l#like its very far in development. maybe they didnt give up this time#ive never been closer in my life to actually saying half life 3 confirmed. its not confirmed but its looking really good for once#crazy year to be a valve fan i'll tell you what#its only the actual objective most anticipated game of all time. no biggie#edit - added a link for the comic news for those who dont know. and the bot bans havent been announced in one place anywhere#but you can literally just look it up on youtube or twitter. valve has been mass-banning bots for the last month. fixtf2 worked
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ingo’s a rubix cube kid and Emmet was a tetris kid
#spenxer lou art#lou is an artist#submas#submas emmet#submas ingo#subway bosses#subway boss emmet#subway boss ingo#subway master emmet#subway master ingo#I played tetris for like an hour and a half last night. shit has ruined me#Emmet I am cursing you with tetris. I literalyl sent a message to my friend today and I was likehmmm. how do I fill the holes in these lett#do you know how difficult it when your thoughts start turning to blocks slotting into place whenever you aren't paying attention to things#it's a problem when they're invading your dreams#I'm fucked dude. I miss playing pool.#anyways. emmet had a really bad time when he was in his tetris phase. he literally was eat sleep tetris#every single thought he had was about tetris#could not pay attention to teh shit he needed to. did not eat unless reminded. shit was fucked#it ended and he was freed. the next time he got reminded he was stuck for a month and vowed to never touch it again#he tries his best to stay away from it#vaugely gestures. I'm going back to playing tetris
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avoidance is my fucking doom man, i know i should go to class but i fucking cant get myself to
#i have. so many absences it's ridiculous to go right now i know it will be worse if i dont go i have to go#ive been just tossing and turning for like 2 hours with some freakign heart palpitations cause im so fucking scared#i was supposed to go last week and i didnt do it then either and every time i feel worse but i cant make myself go#AAAAAAAAA Im gonna die here i know i just have to force myself but i dont want to i want to stay at home which will fix nothing and#make everything worse in the long run#im aware of thsi but i still cant get myself to go idk what to do in this situation i feel horrible augh#i have so many absences I literally went once at the start of the semester and it's been what. 2 and a half months almost 3#i didnt do much for the class and i didnt go to class idk what to do.. theres literally no other way than to force myself to go#i KNOW I'll instantly feel better if i just stay home. i knowww i knowwww but its not going to help anything#i feel like shit and so ashamed and i just really dont want to go through this#FUUCK#im just#completely in panic mode rn. idk if i wont just try to go tomorrow idk if this is a bad decision im still just putting it off#im just totally by myself and cant even talk to anyone to calm down uauauhcgchdhd#im feeling pretty pathetic rn i should be able to do thisss i should be able to do this by myself#this is like self inflicted psychological horror and it's like every other day for me for many years now ouughh
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Important Announcement:
January 1st, 2025, I will no longer share ANY posts that are Palestinian Fundraisers. I will block if you ask me to donate or share. Sorry.
#reasoning is this: as someone in a place of privilege i am feeling despair and hopelessness each and every time i open up my tumblr#and see another cry for help#it's gotten to a point where this feels like a chore and get angrier and angrier at people asking me for humanity#and that's not ok from me#so I'm doing this any longer#I've been asking throughout the past 5 months for people to stop asking me specifically for help#they are not listening and i am clearly an asshole (dont) so I'm stopping on tumblr#i get so many fucking follows every single day on every single platform from people in gaza wanting me to give them money#i understand why but literally over half of my followers on bluesky are palestinians who are not gonna care about anything else i post#and i am not ok with that personally#im sorry im not selfless like others#once again: please ask literally ANYONE else
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Apparently the official ones are fey centaur. That's why they're small, they're elf/pony instead of human/horse. They're strong and perceptive survivalist fey! I refuse to believe I need to explain what a centaur is, or the appeal. These had an 84% smash rate last time, and the only thing thats changed is being 6-7 feet (1.8-2.1 m) tall depending on species. They even have enough supernatural strength that they count as if they were a full sized horse for carrying capacity and such. So riding them is still on the table, it's just easier to reach the human half.
#centaur#I keep remembering my friends singing “there's no cock like horse cock. send your asshole into shock!”#I literally hadn't heard the song until just now. I just heard them sing it enough to know it.#well a few months ago now thanks to working ahead. I had the PC races as a backup in case my queue ran dry.#I was half convinced it was an inside joke from the other half of our two friend groups merging.#I mean. It kinda was. but is also apparently an actual song not just something they came up with while fucking around in halo.#5e#dnd5e#D&D 5e#dnd#smash or pass
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tell me why i can hear another tenants fucking music from my flat. HE DOESNT EVEN LIVE IN MY BUILDING. HE LIVES IN A COMPLETELY SEPARATE BUILDING ON THE SECOND FLOOR AND I CAN HEAR HIS MUSIC FROM MY FLAT. MY FLAT WHICH IS IN A DIFFERENT SEPARATE BUILDING.
#and staff just say ‘oh we can’t do anything bc its not 11pm yet.’#ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS.#i am autistic person who has just spent a full 12hrs in extremely overstimulating public spaces#i am exhausted and i have had to wake up at ass o’clock in the fucking morning#every day for the past like week and a half and will be expected to do so for the forseeable future#i am extremely sensitive to noise and have no ability to zone things out#like everything is always at the same volume for me#all the fucking time no matter what#and they say like oh well in the community there wouldnt be anything to be done so we cant do anything here#BUT WE ARENT IN THE COMMUNITY. ARE WE. WE ARE AT A SUPPORTED LIVING ACCOMMODATION WHERE I HAVE BEEN PLACED#BY MY LOCAL AUTHORITY WHO ARE PAYING TWENTY THREE GRAND A YEAR#AND I AM PAYING FIVE HUNDRED A MONTH#IN ORDER TO RECIEVE SUPPORT FOR MY DISABILITIES. A BIG ONE BEING MY FUCKING AUTISM.#YOU KNOW. THE ONE WHICH IS BEING DIRECTLY IMPACTED BY THE BEHAVIOUR OF ANOTHER TENANT.#WHEN I AM BEING PUSHED TO MY LIMIT ALREADY. LIKE IDK FEELS KINDA CRAZY THAT THIS ISNT SOMETHING THAT CAN BE SORTED.#i fucking hate men there is just literally no fucking respect or consideration like its genuinely disgusting and so fucking infuriating#and like he says that staff (women. btw) are being too naggy about it. but never fucking stops to consider that maybe.#maybe people wouldnt have to ‘nag’ you about it IF YOU JUST. DIDNT DO THE THING THAT IS ACTIVELY CAUSING OTHER PEOPLE STRESS.#IDK FUCKING WILD IDEA JUST THOUGHT OF IT.#literally die i want everyone involved to die like I CANNOT DO THISSSSSSSSSSSS
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a different ending
#ghost roxas au#doodles#sora#roxas#kingdom hearts#had the idea for an alternate version of this scene for the au in my head for fucking months#literally wrote out like half of it#going through some artblock lately but this helped a bit
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It's abt 2 hours away from 2024 from where i am...
Let me use this time to thank all of you for being part of my 2023, you made it better than the horrible mess that it was. Thank you for sticking with me even tho the last 4ish months have been so busy for me and made me inactive.
I wish more opportunities come to you.
Special thanks to the people I screamed with in 2023, you were all loud enough to blast my demons away :> @frosty-tian @honeycrashed @feisaru
And for the rest of you that made my days lighter and helped me hold on for another day... you were all real ones and i wish we can get closer this 2024:
@toomanybirdy @churro-on-a-unicycle @corvidayays @marmolao @d34dbr4in @voetballers @jellyavi @lazitoelgato @eky-13 @arugan @nanairomelette @queen-jass-blog @hunternugget @garbage--account @lovesealss @pxnky-prxmise @hsohangout @otakufimi @oicuperp @henry-old-hollywood @kapane-luyeshu @zakuryoishi @raimon-eldritch-chronicles @nawemichi @sceptile11 @redpandawrites-123 @lyionly-wants-to-die
#new year#the fact that i couldnt hold the conversation long enough to stay in conversation w yall 😭#im sorry for leaving all of you on read#-> i will try to do better this coming months (that i hope i wont be busy or burnt out)#the things i promised yall woukd come along. thanks for your patience 😭😭#i literally have “connect w ppl better” as a new years resolution 😭😭#-> first time making one in like half a decade and it's just that one thing in the list#if i miss someone i will kms#not fandom lore#it's so fucking noisy where im rn ay
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SHIT i forgot to say this, so now i feel bad for making two posts about sick things in a row, but MY HAIR IS GROWING BACK bitchessss 😍
lmao, so before I started chemo, I had my hair cut to a crewcut type of style. So my hair was about 2 centimeters long. And then when it started falling out, I never shaved it to actually be bald. I just started shedding. All over my pillow. It was so annoying. So one night, I just pulled it all out (and no, it didn't hurt - imagine pulling a clump of hair from a husky dog during shedding season) and I dumped it on my bathroom floor (my mom cleaned it up the next day because I felt too sick lol). However there were a few strands that were, for whatever reason, fall-out resistant. I didn't pull those strands out (because pulling those out would've actually hurt), so I'm not technically bald. Do a google image search of "Eleanor bald Good Place" and you'll see what I mean lol. Anyway so I have a few strands of hair just like Eleanor's, which at this point are all about 5 centimeters long. But new hair is also growing, but it's just a stubble. So, check out this faaaabulous illustration of what my hair literally looks like in the mirror right now lmao:
It looks JUST as dorkish as my drawing lmao. Makes me laugh every time.
Anyway lol, I hope you all were as intrigued about these hair anecdotes as I hoped you would be, because honestly I'm fascinated by how all of this has happened.
#lmao so i am relieved about this whole thing because it means my eyebrows are growing back!#the story of how my eyebrows fell out is weird#it didn't happen during chemo#they thinned out a *tiny* bit during chemo but they were still going strong#until two months AFTER i was DONE with chemo!#imagine me sitting here waiting for things to start growing back only for my eyebrows to fall OUT lol#they were just GONE one morning#(not the entire eyebrow fell out btw. just half of the eyebrow. the half closest to my nose. i call them the 'inside corners' lol)#i don't care about my hair but the inside corners of my eyebrows falling out was super unexpected at that point so it actually upset me#so i started drawing them back on lol#(I did that a lot when i used to cosplay so i'm pretty decent at it)#anyway i noticed a couple days ago that the inside corners are actually starting to grow back now!!!#so yay!!!#but lmfaooo it's not time to celebrate yet#because literally as of two days ago#the OUTSIDE corners of my eyebrows have disappeared#it happened the same exact way. one morning i woke up and they were just gonezo lol#(luckily if i had to choose i'd definitely prefer to keep the inside corners than the outside ones. so this isn't terrible. i'm okay lol)#i told this to my mom#and she was like 'oh so basically your eyebrows broke in half'#alskhg;lasdhglk#anyway so that was really interesting#it's almost like the old eyebrow hairs had to fall out for the new eyebrow hairs to start growing?#and they're doing it one half of an eyebrow at a time???#fucking wild man like#everyone knows chemo makes hair fall out#but nobody knows the absolutely wacko details#sick posting#personal
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currently at That Point which occurs once every few months where one briefly begins pacing around the house teary eyed contemplating selling their own organs or becoming an online scammer or getting on anxiety meds so you can bear the risk taking required to be a hitman or so on and so forth.... why must everything so Expensive... Surely all would be healed in life if only I had one big plate of lasagna and a simple loan of $40,000 ... auoughhh....
#And then you just eventually shrug and go 'welp. nothing i can do i guess' and sad cartoon music plays as you shuffle back to your room#It's just hard with my specific physical and mental issues since it's like.. I couldn't really handle most jobs. I can't handle school. I'm#100% aromantic and asexual so I'll never get married so I can't get money that way. I have too much issues with social cues#+ too nervous temperament + too low energy to put effort into lying and having a fake relationship just for money. so on and so forth etc.#Really I should have just been born into a middle class family. Which I guess everyone says. but ESPECIALLY considering my#chronic conditions kind of hampering my ability to function 'normally' or be Independent in a regular way. I'm always going to be#in some way sort of beholden to the whims of people around me who I must depend on. so... well of course they might as well have been rich#lol like that would have been better for me of course.#AAANyway... Just thinking about another stupid fucking climate change summer... months keep going by so fast.. soon it will be so again#And it's like such SMALL things would make drastic improvements for me. Literally if I just had a place with central AC#then like 75% of my issues with summer would vanish instantly. literally. But instead it's like.. having a cheap hot apartment + only#half functional dinky window ac + my illnesses that make me heat sensitive + living in a part of the country that keeps getting hotter +#inability to leave the house much meaning I can't just go spend time in a cooler place etc. all factors which combine together to make#it just utterly miserable for MONTHS and mentally draining. And literally ALL I would need to fix that is just...#have a place with central AC that works.. (or move to a colder country/area but that also takes money. Or just not have illnesses#that make me heat sensitive. but that I can't control). etc. etc. I guess it's just the nature of the constant background frustration of#being part of The Masses under our current manifestation of unmitigated capitalism. Such minor details would make such huge#quality of life improvements and yet will remain ever out of reach. ONE little thing could change your whole life but you can't even have#that. so many 'If only' scenarios. etc. And of course obviously I am incredibly thankful just to have anywhere to live at all. food to eat#. any sort of stability whatsoever no matter how fragile it feels/is. But that still doesn't make it not frustrating occasionally to look#around and see how relatively little would have to change in order for you to be a decent percentage more comfortable and yet#how still far away even those ''small'' seeming goals are. etc. etc.#Seriously think I've been traumatized by the summer or something somehow lol like thinking about it being warm weather eventually#makes me nauseous with panic. It's just SOOO much labor. micromanaging windows and fans and blocking every ounce of light#and not being able to cook (cant even afford a single degree of temp increase due to the stove) for months and barely being able#to sleep for months and the claustrophobia of days on end crawling out of your skin because it doesnt even get cool enough at#night to offer relief so you're just always feeling trapped.. hgrhh...#It starts getting hot here sometimes in May but mostly June then lasts through October now.. thats like half the year almost.. ARghhH#anyway... If any extremely rich person reading this would like to buy me an air conditioned house in exchange for multiple years worth#of art (I will paint murals on all of your grand dining halls and make all the custom sculptures you could ever want etc) then.. hewwo :'3c
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Day After Day | 日复一日
25k | T | Weilan | Case Fic, Undercover Married, Grief
Shen Wei swallows. “And this is why you asked me to—” he makes a vague gesture that means go undercover as your husband “—pretend with you.” Zhao Yunlan comes to a stop, eyes on Shen Wei. “That’s why the cover is a married couple. The reason I’m asking you is because there are no other options for people to go undercover with.” Shen Wei scoffs to give himself an excuse to look away. “You certainly know how to flatter someone, Zhao Yunlan.” Or: Four Haixingren disappear for two months after a stay at a romantic mountain retreat. Shen Wei and Zhao Yunlan book a weekend there to find out what happened.
it's finally here!!! my beloved fic for the 520 day guardian reverse exchange! this was written for trobadora, who gave me the most delicious set of ideas to fit into a story. it was so fun.
i have no idea how to describe this fic, frankly - this is, hands down, the most complex and most heartwrenching and most incredible thing i've ever written in my entire life.
here is a list of some things in it: a kiss, a mystery, a change of heart. old chinese people, dark energy world-building, lesbians, big-time character parallels, forgery of documents, rainstorms, rowboats, lollipop symbolism, [redacted], bedsharing, grading, the stupidest undercover name ever. zhao yunlan described with so many light metaphors. shen wei being the most shen wei i could make him.
read Day After Day | 日复一日 on ao3 here!
#guardian#weilan#zhao yunlan#shen wei#zhen hun#镇魂#banner post#520 day reverse exchange#man this fic is just so. its so. guys. i can't even say. this is SO personal and also SO a product of these exact two months of my life#truly this is just MY personal ideal weilan casefic that i lucked into being able to write as a gift fic#i remember talking to d in mid-april coming up w/ the case premise and they were like 'wow this will be complex to write' (paraphrased)#and i was like 'wow yeah ahaha. i love the idea though. maybe i'll just write one part' HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. haha. hah.#now that its done the last month and a half lowkey feels like a fever dream. the total count of hours i was literally sitting and writing i#a frankly alarming number when considering it happened in the context of a month#god this was SO FUCKING FUN though. i got to think SOOOOOOOO much about 1) including so much chinese stuff from my childhood in here#and 2) making references to chinese chengyu that i learned over the last four months of nonstop watching cdramas#and 3) soooooooooooooooo much additional meaning in the names of everybody and everything possible haha#anyway. mwah THANK YOU I LOVE YOU to everybody who is being so fucking niceys to me about this fic. i love you!! you are making me so happy#520 day fic 2024#<- if you want to see cut scenes from this / earlier versions of this fic. they are in this tag#my fic
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you've gotta be fucking kidding me. i am one of like two people (not exaggerating) wanting to take this course (which is only offered AS WANTED). and I reached out about it specifically to ask if it would be offered like hey. I specifically want to take this class and I can do anything BUT after 11 on T R. and they said they'd take that into consideration. and that it'd probably be 11 M W. fine. cool
IT'S SCHEDULED FOR 11 T R
#quil's unholy underworld#literally the worst possible fucking time#great. now I have to potentially rearrange half my fucking schedule. less than a month before classes start#listen. i know the world doesn't revolve around me#but like. i am not an insignificant factor here#like I am 25-50% of the students interested#dude. i was already in a pissy mood#this interrupts half my schedule#>:(((((((
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I'm like 500$ short on rent
There's no grace period, I'll start getting hit with late fees by tomorrow. I can't make partial payments I have to pay the full amount. I have 2 weeks, maybe less I'll be more and more short the longer I'm late.
I cant possibly catch up on my own. I might get evicted. I just got a new job. What am I going to do.
#vent#financial issues#im already practically starving myself to save money literally only spending money for gas to get to work and rationing food#I've lost 20 pounds this month trying to save money for rent because i was out of a job for the first half of the month#now im screwed fuck landlords
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Hahaha I can't eat at all today and I keep feeling like I'm going to throw up, why is my body this
#i'm gonna be real with yall#we're nearly at the point of me writing my gp and telling him that look#i haven't managed more than about 2-3 cups of food a day#and none of it can be meat-based or wheat based or dairy based so what keeps happening is i'm literally fucking starving#i don't know how to get to a point where i can eat and my nutritional levels are all low enough already before this started that#my doc wanted me on vitamin supplements which i haven't been able to source yet#so now that we're like a month into me being completely alienated from food i'm starting to have some real problems#cannot describe the level of fatigue and cognitive decline that's been happening for me and that's not including the physical decline#i've literally been huddled in the bathroom for like half an hour because i can't get my stomach to settle and i want to scream
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Manga readers don't know what's gonna happen. Anime watchers dont know, I don't know. Fuck, does the studio even know at this point?? Does Asagirir know??? For sure what they're gonna do with our hearts???? How can this manga that started as one author wanting to make dead literary masters into hot guys become such a sense of dread and conflict and excitement all at the same time for me 😭
It's the bungou experience guys. Also preview coming out this evening, prepare the tissues and funeral music✌️
#fuck this is the last week#can't believe i was alive to experience what a rollercoaster of two and a half months could give me#absolute pain and misery#the last ep was literal chills#so fucking good#bungou stray dogs#bsd#bsd anime#bsd manga#bungou stray dogs season five#bsd season 5#bsd season five#IT'S TIME FOR TWILIGHT FAREWELL AHHHHHHHHH#bsd dazai#bsd chuuya#i miss them#*just saw them shoot one of them last week :>
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