#literally a fucking month and a half
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pangur-and-grim · 3 years ago
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I didn't want to talk about it until the whole horrible thing was over, but Wednesday slipped out an open door last week and (with the help of a motion-activated camera on the porch) we finally got him back last night!
he’s acting so sweet and cuddly today, it’s clear how happy he is to be home and safe inside.
#god though the day it happened was so scary#I've never physically exerted myself to the point where I thought I might fall over before#but we thought he might be hiding under a car so I walked around the neighbourhood  from 8pm to 11:30pm checking under cars#which was sometime a bending/squatting motion if the car was high enough off the ground#and sometimes involved actually lying on the ground if it was a fancy low-rise car#I very quickly grew to loathe the low-rise car#but yeah I still getting back into shape after the 6 month book contract so doing 3 and half hours straight of adrenaline-fuelled squats was#very inadvisable. for three days afterward I had a hard time bending my legs bc of the muscle pain#but like literally did not notice the exertion while it was happening bc I was in 'oh fuck we need to find this cat' mode#we ended up plastering the neighbourhood in signs and pestering all our neighbours#which lead to several texted sightings that let us know he wasnt straying far from the house#so we set up a raccoon trap on the porch that DID NOT WORK#like he kept getting inside and eating all the food without tripping the trap?#so we'd adjust the sensitivity and the same thing would happen 💀 shitty trap#on night 5 we set up a motion activated camera so that we could make sure it was him eating the food#and holy shit. the stress of seeing him on the camera and not being able to open the door and grab him bc we knew he'd run and not come back#we literally WATCHED HIM ON THE CAM enter the trap and eat all the food without triggering it#and then he sat on the steps and groomed his face for 8 minutes straight while we whispered about what to do#eventually when he left the porch and started walking off we decided we could open the door without scaring him#(bc he was far enough away)#and so my housemate did that and started calling his name and opening cans of wet food to make the Good Food Sound#and holy shit. it worked#when we heard him meow back it was such a relief#they were such horrible distressed meows that we thought something had happened to injure him#but I think he was just vocalizing the emotions of being lost for 5 days and finally hearing his owner's voice#it took a few more minutes of coaxing for him to actually enter the house#he was a stray before my housemate took him in so the fear instinct is STRONG#but now today he's been cuddling up to us and letting us hold him for way longer than normal#and like I'm trying not to anthromorphise. but he's clearly so so happy to be back home and with the people he knows
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crescentfool · 3 years ago
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what if we held hands in the hallway.... and became boyfriends... unless...?
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tianhai03 · 2 years ago
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hey everyone sorry for the silence, i was trying very hard to catch up with school work that i didnt manage to hand in on time. anyway i made a full body 3d model of my oc lucifer for a digital sculpting assignment :)
i posted a lot of the making process of this on twitter and i’ve also compiled everything into a moment that you can find here! go take a look if youre interested in watching me and lucifer suffer <3
(and also bonus dmc5 render looking pic of him bc a friend asked me to do it as a joke. my son is a dmc5 character now)
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daydreaming-cheese-weasel · 3 years ago
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the marching band off season be like i miss it so much im deeply depressed im finally free wow i really don’t have friends outside of band omg how is band camp in 7 months i am screaming and crying in agony i actually have free time now i don’t want the seniors to leave i met my best friends here these people will be in my wedding i have ptsd from my band director yelling i hope the new freshman aren’t annoying i still want to punch that judge in the nose why can’t i remember work from the show i would give my kidney to be on the band bus right now i am scrolling through my camera roll in tears i wonder what the show theme is gonna be in my nightmares im stuck at attention in basics block i want a comp cheeseburger right now school is so boring without practice i need to start working up my endurance now why god did it have to end
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skrunksthatwunk · 2 years ago
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tojoctober day 11: bite!!
it's saejima getting mauled by boog, a real plot event from yakuza 5 /j
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our-reality · 2 years ago
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me when i actually finish an art piece for once in my life . anyways i desperately needed to update ruby's design and my icon so i did both at the same time babey 💯💯💯💯
close up under the cut!!!!!
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sexuallyactivepopes · 2 years ago
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actually there ARE nazis in ukraine and anyone still denying that on account of it being “russian propaganda” is an antisemitic/anti-romani racist piece of shit and can genuinely get fucked in the most exquisitely painful way
like hundreds of soldiers will outright post videos of themselves on tiktok wearing the totenkopf and the black sun and the fucking BANDERA FLAG and “leftists” will Pretend Not To See It and i genuinely h8 all of you
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kiddokori · 3 years ago
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I’m thinking abt skyward sword and. Zelda was away from her loftwing that whole time. She didn’t get to visit home the way Link did she was away from her loftwing that whole time. That must of been torture with how connected they are oh my god they were separated that entire time. I’m not ok this is gonna be stuck in my head now
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inksplit · 3 years ago
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mayoiayasep · 2 years ago
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anw here's how the mayoi 7 mysteries tour can still win-
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gcsly · 3 years ago
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IT WAS A PASSAGE OF TIME. IT WAS CLARITY.
joypendants // 📸 Stephanie Lecocq // Hilary Mantel // Cavetown // Rainer Maria Rilke // Donna Tartt // 📸 Dan Istitene // Anne Sexton // Mahmoud Darwish // Federico García Lorca // Danusha Laméris // James Patterson // 📸 Mario Renzi // Mary Oliver // Natalie Wee // Mary Oliver // Richard Siken // Rainer Maria Rilke // Gabriela Mistral // 📸 Dan Istitene // Sylvia Plath // Louise Gluck // 📸 Mario Renzi
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charcubed · 3 years ago
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What do you think about dean and jack? Was he a bad parent?
Hello Anon!
What I think about Dean and Jack is that I am currently in progress of writing thousands of words on that topic (as part of the Chuck won meta) lmao
But! But
For you, I will try to address this specific bit here anyway. No idea if I'll do justice to the topic divorced from discussion of the wider frameworks but whatever.
Was Dean a bad parent to Jack? Depends on when/what you're talking about. It's complicated. Was Dean a bad parent in the end, when it counted most? Yes, but here's the thing: that's not an indictment of Dean, or something to cite as a failure of his that happened in a vacuum. To see it as such is to miss the big picture, and the big picture is the reason for it.
He is a man pushed and molded and manipulated and strong-armed into emulating his father, for the sake of a story. Over the course of years, he resists it repeatedly, including in relation to Jack; in particular, he drops the gun in "Moriah"; and then, he's forced into metaphorically picking the gun back up again when his very freedom and thus his sense of self is thrown into question.
The entire thing is a test, and it keeps happening. It's a spiral. It's about the tension of Dean always, his entire life, avoiding becoming John... which, unbeknownst to him, is the very thing Chuck needed and wanted him be, and so he pushes him into it by design.
Take a look at some big instances:
S13's grief arc is a parallel to the original Winchester family drama: Your child is cursed, and he is the reason the love of your life is dead. John loses Mary indirectly because of Sam, and becomes a shell from grief, and a horrible father as a result. Dean loses Cas because of Jack–and loses Mary, to drive the layers home–and becomes a shell from grief. What resets these events is that Cas returns, allowing Dean to become a true parent to Jack. He's able to tell Jack he's not a monster. They become a family... but that family is fractured because the origins of this intergenerational trauma cycle–Lucifer and Michael–coming back into play. (That's a whole thing of its own, but it relates to this topic.)
End of S14: Your child is cursed, partially because he sacrificed himself to save you, having (unfortunately) learned from your example. Sacrifices and deals are never without cost, and this is the result. You lose your mother again. Metaphorically, you lose the love of your life, who you blame for this happening because he kept secrets from you (as Mary kept secrets from John). Your kid's a threat to you and everyone you love, and a threat to the whole world... and still, at the very last moment, even with God in his ear, Dean doesn't kill him. Still, Dean resists becoming the worst parts of his father. Witnessing this, Chuck is in disbelief.
What changes after this is the amount of pressure placed on Dean, and the type of pressure, and it's by design.
Dean's suddenly realizes he's been trapped his entire life, and everything he's ever experienced or ascribed to himself has been called into question. For the first time in years, he's spiraling backwards, regressing and wondering who he even is. He is certain of nothing. The identity he's built for himself, that he's FOUGHT to form, that diverges from John in the most important ways, is no longer something he can fall back on. Because he's learned of Chuck's control, he loses the very thing that helped him defy that control in the ways that counted most: he loses the certainty in his personhood. Cas tells him, "What about all of this is real? We are," but Dean isn't ready to hear it yet. He's lost himself.
Season 15 is the struggle of him trying to regain his sense of self, after having had it ripped away. That struggle is what holds him back, and also the fear of never regaining himself fully is what keeps him holding Jack at arm's length. He does not yet realize that he is and has everything inside himself he needs, because he can simply refuse to play Chuck's games.
Notice this, too: by halfway through the season, Dean's re-centering himself. He rediscovers core parts of his personality and identity in 15x07. He regains hope in 15x08, and though Sam loses his in the next episode, Dean fixes his relationship with Cas and is open and honest. He's on the path to healing and purpose. And then, immediately afterwards, this healing is halted through cosmic machinations, and his son is dangled in front of his face as a weapon as he's told that's the sole key to his freedom.
It becomes a lifeline. He cannot let Jack back into his heart–he cannot forgive him again, he cannot allow himself to tell him he's not a monster again, though he's done it before–because if he does that here, now he'll still be wondering... Who am I? Will I ever truly be free?
If you feel like an empty shell, how can you parent a child? If you don't know who you are, how do you know what part is real and what part is controlled by someone else?
Simultaneously... Jack, his son, is a Winchester: he seeks his father's approval. He decides to take on the burdens of his parents again. He feels he has no choice. He needs to be told that that isn't his job, which is the only way to break this cycle. But Dean, unmoored from his sense of self, is unequipped right now to teach him that.
It just gets worse as Chuck tightens the noose. But when Dean's at the very edge, spiraling out of control, the most desperate he's ever been... his family brings him back from it. Sam reminds of who he is, when Dean's so unmoored he has him at gunpoint. Cas gives him an immeasurable gift in his confession speech, telling him "this is who you are, and who you are is made of love." Dean then loses Cas and is devastated by grief again, but it's a grief filled with so much love that he can look at Chuck and tell him with confidence "that's not who I am." He's re-centered. He can think clearly. He is made of love; he can live as such.
But the problem, and the ultimate tragedy? It's too late for Jack. From the moment Jack absorbs Adam's rib in 15x17 to complete the ritual, the wheels of his death are set in motion.
He's been sacrificed, according to Chuck's framework and plans.
Dean thinks they win, and in the end, he just wants his son to come home. But Jack's already gone. And it's a loss in every sense.
You cannot divorce the way this narrative goes from the fact that Chuck's frameworks and machinations are the reasons Dean loses his sense of self. And Dean losing himself is the reason he is not able to be that good parent just in time for one last victory.
And Chuck's frameworks are also the network's frameworks... art imitates life, and life imitates art... etc. etc. wait for the meta lmfao
TL;DR:
Was Dean a bad parent in the end? Sure. But the tragedy is he was forced into it, in all ways, because he wasn't given the space to be or allowed to be anything else.
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astral-catastrophe · 2 years ago
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question of the day
am i experiencing a symptom of anxiety? adhd? a horrid combination of the two? neither??
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the-kipsabian · 2 years ago
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i dont want christmas time to come cause i dont wanna spend time with the family or spend money or answer twenty questions about my life and my tattoo that ive had for half a year at that point and my trips and all these things havent told my mom about andandand
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ghostzzy · 2 years ago
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realizing things. etc etc
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fiddleabout · 4 years ago
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there’s something about Weiss that screams queer to me, but idk how to describe it
it’s probably the [clenches fist] repression. 
or maybe also:
the way she expressed interest in one generically attractive and safe dude one time and when that didn’t work out she’d rather go to the dance alone than with any other guy (queer)
that the only person she’s ever been flustered over was a goddamn amazon of a woman, even if she tried and failed to disguise it as admiration (queer)
the way she dove headfirst after like two-ish months at beacon into being all-in on the found family that was her team (queer)
“i’m not perfect.  yet.” and the intense need to be perfect in every controllable facet of her life as if to make up for some deeply ingrained failure that’s fundamental to who she is, y’know, kinda like this (queer) 
the fact that she is clearly desperately starved for physical contact always and all she wants is to hug her people constantly (queer)
she’s just like.  hands down the queerest character on the show.  maybe not the gayest but definitely the queerest, in the queer-as-in-fuck-you, queer-as-in-i-love-you, queer-as-in-i-want-a-dyke-for-president way; the missed childhood living in fear, experiencing emotional milestones late, feeling what it is to have a family for the first time as a college-aged teenager way.  like i say flippantly that i headcanon weiss exclusively as a lesbian but honestly i just headcanon weiss as deeply queer and almost any queer identity works for her because she’s just so heavily coded as specifically queer, intentionally or otherwise. 
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