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#becky lynch#finn balor#wwe#this picture killed me#literally 2 of my favourite people#judgement day#i need them to team up like right now
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Immensely lacking in sleep and accidentally called Tim Tintin instead. So immediately the brainworms set in
Also bonus Miku WIP I'm working on!
#This is so messy and rushed#Like literally I just cleaned up the sketch#The speed at which I drew this also probably explains why it lowkey looks nothing like him avebabbsnabsb#But we won't think too hard#I want to do a more detailed version later because guys I love Tintin so much#Tintin and Scooby Doo were two of my absolute favourite pieces of media when I was younger#And I still adore them with my whole heart#Spend a little longer on the Tintin style version#I was worried it'd look too much like damn fallout#But crisis avoided I think#I will be doing more if the people want#(I'm people. I do want)#Tim Drake#Red Robin#Tintin#My art#But more like my doodles#It's 2:20am I should sleep agsbabbsaan
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*hears Witness refer to themselves as the First Knife*
*eyes Bel*
*slowly backs away*
Welcome to my twisted mind.
Jokes aside, I also saw that ofc! It was also called that in the campaign by the dissenters:
I really enjoy that this got confirmed (either way!). There's been so much speculation on it. I've personally been on and off on the theory that the Witness is the first knife or just a manifestation of it or maybe that the first knife is just a concept, and if the Witness is trying to embody it or not. And so on. It's been really cool speculating and theorycrafting!
But now we know! Well... sort of, still. The Witness certainly believes itself to be the first knife, but is it truly? What does that mean? Does it even matter?
There's a ship you can get for finishing one of the sidequests: The First Knife. It has really cool lore of Mara and Ikora discussing the first knife and its meaning. I'll shorten the lore tab to just their dialogue so it's easier to copy and have at hand:
Mara: "When I first encountered the Witness, I heard it proclaim to me, 'We are the first knife.' It was as if that title held power. Meaning." Ikora: "The apocryphal texts we dug up on the moon, the ones Eris translated, mentioned the knife as a concept." Mara: "And even if we consider that unveiled text as dogmatic propaganda, there may be truth behind the allegory. The knife becomes the metaphor of a concept. A power. A knife that winnows, cutting things into a defined shape." Ikora: "A power that winnowed living beings into Taken. A power Oryx wielded." Mara: "You're wondering if the knife is a title, or a power. Did Oryx wield the power of the Witness like a knife?" Ikora: "The Witness is a manipulator. It distorts the truth to bend the wills of its supplicants. The allegorical fantasy told to us by the Witness paints itself as a monolithic cosmic force. But perhaps that's a shadow cast by the truth." Mara: "A knife is a tool, wielded by another's hand." Ikora: "If the Witness is the knife, as it asserts, then what wields it?" Mara: "The Witness is not a being. It is the culmination of a bleak ethos willed into existence by the nihilistic desires of its creators. Is their will the hand on the knife? Or is there something else?" Ikora: "I don't know."
This about summarises my thoughts on it, the ones I've always had. I'm not sure if there's any other information, maybe in the raid or the raid's lore book, but for now I'll focus on just this.
Mara says what I've always also agreed with: Unveiling is an allegory, but it has shreds of truth. The problem is that we don't know which parts are truth. We could speculate on that to no end. Ikora agrees as well and also asserts what I believe is the confirmation that the Witness wrote it, by calling it the "allegorical fantasy told to us by the Witness." Or at least this is what the characters believe to be true; Ikora also notes how even that could be a part of that truth among the allegories.
They consider it as a possible power, but they also consider it through the concept of it being a knife: a knife is wielded. Is the Witness being wielded by something else? Is it a knife because the species that made the Witness is the hand? Or is there something different? The conclusion is that neither of them know.
The problem, I think, we'll always have here in regards to the Winnower and anything above the Witness is that it will be hard to tell unless this hypothetical other being actually appears. The Witness may believe that it is the knife of the Winnower, but that could just be its interpretation of its own purpose. Essentially, the Witness may hold a religious belief about its place in the universe that simply isn't true, or believe in a being that isn't real. Just because the Witness says "We are the first knife [of the Winnower (?)]," doesn't mean that is the actual truth. It could be! But we simply don't know, and we won't know, until the Winnower appears (if it ever does; even if it is real, it may still not ever appear in person, in lore or the game).
Even if there's any other information, unless that information is from a reputable source (something that isn't the Witness itself or the Witness-aligned factions telling us a story), it will be hard to tell what's the truth. I really like that! I also really like that the first knife is still discussed also as a concept, not just something that the Witness believes it is. At the end of the day, this title represents something and it's the concept of winnowing, cutting things off.
But I do also like that "the first knife" has been addressed and explained. The Witness believes it is the first knife, and depending on more unfathomable cosmic forces, it may or may not really be that thing as something tangible and powerful, or even just as a title. Does the title matter? It does only because it matters to the Witness. At least for now. Until something actually shows up and presents itself as the wielder of the first knife, we will not know for certain.
Currently waiting to see when I can get the raid clear and the raid lore book, maybe for more information!
#destiny 2#destiny 2 spoilers#the final shape#the final shape spoilers#witness#winnower#ask#what a time to be alive. i didn't think they'd go too in-depth with this#but they gave us a treat#they gave ME a treat#also happy for all the unveiling references. they're so good.#so much about people constantly saying 'the writers forgot/retconned unveiling!' bro that is not how that works#i truly hope unveiling forever remains a mystery. at least parts of it#i hope they tease us with it forever. unveiling has become more and more of a fave over time for me#the more complications the story adds to it the better it becomes#give me my religious insanity in space. literally my favourite thing in the world
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There are four main types of Batfam fans in regard to how people interpret Bruce Wayne as a dad (/Joking. This is mostly satire and should not be taken seriously):
Fans that think Bruce is emotionally constipated and isn't the best at being a parent but still tries (Differs per person). Don't necessarily think he's absuive but thinks he can be toxic or have unhealthy expectations for the Robins. Can smell the Oldest Daughter Syndrome coming from Dick and have Family Line (By Conan Gray) as their top song on their Dick inspired playlist and Daddy Issues (By The Neighbourhood) for Jason.
Fans that choose to believe Bruce goes to therapy in their own canon. Love B:WFA. Thinks the comic can be cheesy at times and so find a balance between B:WFA Bruce and Please Go To Therapy BruceTM as their middle ground. He struggles. They advocate that Bruce is not a bad parent, he just has bad writers that seem to forget Bruce wouldn't hurt kids, especially not his own. Love the humane moments and scenes he has in BTAS and the early JL cartoons. He may not be perfect but he's not literally abusive. Whores for Bruce being able to admit when he is wrong and for Jason and Bruce reconciling. I recommend Grow As We Go by Ben Platt for this one.
A mix between the first two. Was fine-ish when Dick was younger. Didn't help him in the healthiest way but eh. Still emotionally constipated but that happened more so after Dick left and Jason died. Started getting better when Tim came back but was still closed off. Should probably go to therapy with the kids so they can drag his ass about all the things he's done that have actually affected them negatively. Understands his mistakes and is also able to admit when he's wrong, eventually. It's not easy but he starts to do better and learns to be more emotionally available. Still has to get chewed out by Alfred sometimes but definitely better than he used to be and it shows. Reconciliation is slow and gradual but progress is made for everyone involved.
The one's I personally avoid for my own sanity and wellbeing:
Think Bruce is a complete bastard and abuser. Want him to choke. Hate any and all interpretations of him. Some of which will refuse to understand how anyone could have a different interpretation. Will point out comics where, in all fairness, he is a dick but forget that characterisation can significantly differ from one series to the next, as comic characters are constantly passed around to different writers and have been for decades. Not to mention movies, shows, etc.
#Bruce Wayne#Batman#Batfam#Batdad#I'm not tagging everyone in the Batfam I can't be assed#Sorry there's like 500#Bruce has a child for every mental disorder he has#Dick is his ADHD. Jason is his C-PTSD. Tim is his Anxiety. Cass is his OCD. Damian is his Autism.#Like bro the therapist is RIGHT there#You have the money just GO#I am a mix of 2 and 3 tbh but more so 2 because he is my comfort fictional father figure. I already have a shit dad irl#I'm not dealing with it in my favourite media too#Type 4 fans scare me I lowkey see so many people like that and I'm like. If the block button wasn't free. I'd be in debt by now#I get that you saw Tom Kings work. So did I. I hate that fuck. But I personally prefer the scene of him in JL with Ace on the swings#Or the one with him playing with shape block toys with a baby whilst Supes and WW handle the questioning#Or when he hugs literally any of his kids#Or the one of him and Jason watching a movie and eating popcorn when Jason's ill. And they have the picture of them posing#Or when he cried in Flashpoint over the letter his dad left him because the little boy in him needed that#Plus any time Bruce and Clark interact as Best Friends. The Golden Age comics where they were basically Dick's gay dads 💀#But yeah. I could make a poll from this tbh.#This is a generalisation on purpose genuinely do not take it seriously#If I see ANY disclosure. It's delete and block on sight#Bruh I'm still recovering from the notes of my Fallout 4 John Hancock in a Drag Race outfit crossover post#I know it sounds like I'm being paranoid but that's because I am. You have not seen the things I have seen in my notes#You do not know of the wars I have fought of over ghoul dicks and high heels#I have seen things I can never burn from my vision. Read things I will never have the mercy of forgetting#Over silly little shitposts. Lmao. Anyway. Here. Have some food.
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on this late night i am thinking incredibly hard about how, when faced with a choice between preventing a new friend from harm + clearing up a misunderstanding and choosing the path that would potentially find him a cure for his catatonic friend, zack recalled marlene's words of saying that aerith liked cloud, and of course she did, because he (zack) wasn't there. hadn't been there for a long time
and after recalling these words and grasping at the ribbon tied around his hand, zack ultimately decides that by taking the right-hand path he can, with some luck, fulfill two of his own desires - 1) potentially seeing his friend cloud healed and healthily awake again, and 2) making sure that aerith will be able to be happy when she wakes if he succeeds the first part. he has not and will not let go of his adoration and love for her, but if cloud is seemingly what makes her happy in this bizarre world he's found himself in, he'll choose that option in a heartbeat, because her happiness means the world to him even if it means accepting that he's not the focus of it anymore. he just loves her so much . oh i'm in pain. zack fair the man that you are
#shout out 2 younger me who stayed up late on a school night finishing crisis core and then sobbed all over my psp#zerith is my favourite ship for both those characters and the doomed aspect is part of the delicious spice. it does cause immense pain#but its worth it#anyway people who try to shove zack aside or trivialise his impact for the sake of their ship can catch these mf hands#the most painful part of the stuff pre-remake trilogy had to be that both of them died before aerith had a chance to learn the truth#but in AC they're there... together..... i hope part 3 can give us even just one scene where they meet . and talk. and clear things up#they're both gold hearted sweethearts they deserve that much#i guess what i mean is. i want the 'deleted scene' from the lifestream that happens between forgotten capital and AC#the start of the gongaga section in rebirth + the entire ending battle gauntlet gives me hope#ff7 rebirth spoilers#ff7 rebirth#the amount of love i have in my heart for zack fair and his pure heart literally bursting with love for everyone and everything#O U G H#editing the tags to add: this is not a clerith post. this is a Zack Fair Most Perfect Man On Gaia post
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PLEASEE POST A NEW CHAPTER OF THE SUGAR DADDY FIC I AM ON MY HANDS AND KNEES 😭😭😭😭😭
Updating All These Nights tonight and then Sugar is next to be updated, promise promise.
#ask#sugar daddy fic#i have been in a writing rut that is known#so i needed to work out some more canon stuff to get the voices back yk? hence updating the other fic first#but also i still feel like the last chapter fell off hard cos i got like no comments#which i know is like 'who cares' but i think i majority switched the style (like for myself) last chapter and i really like it but#if people didnt respond to it#im a little stumped on where to go#(again not in the story but style-wise)#people do not respond to long chapters? people dont respond to the dennis chapters? too much time wasted on sex? idk im#yeah like just a little lost on what people enjoy in the story and what i should gut/cut down on i guess#cos last chapter is hands down my favourite ive written#content wise its close to 6..#but style-wise i know its so fucking long but i thought it flowed really well and god i love exploring dennis' weird relationship with sex#but to me like only 4 people finished that chapter#to clarify. in my head there are literally only max 10 people who read this thing#and 2 of them are my random friends who arent in this fandom and just want to read what im writing#and neither of them bothered with a 27k chapter.. lol#so im stumped trying to pace the writing and rework how i thought it would go#cos i dont know what people enjoy in the fic!!! and seemingly did not respond to in what i thought was the best chapter so far.. lmfao#sorry you caught me on 30hrs awake and way too much coffee
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i haven't been able to write in days but i have a new oc to play dolls with my friends because i got possessed and started watching game of thrones
#that is all your honour no further comments#her form is already half-filled like i can't write but Boy do i want to engage in the art of creating#also can i share my game of thrones opinions#there are too many povs per episode snd it distracts from Every Single Storyline#each episode should have like 2 povs Max because it's hard to get invested wuth so much getting thrown at you at the same time#also the acting performances are the best part of the show. everything else is... okay#also also. why were people so obsessed with jon snow he's literally just some guy (i know the twist don't even @ me)#^ this too with daenerys except she's not just some guy she's just annoying lol. and her plot is white saviour-y which 🤢#literally catelyn and tywin are my favourite Only because they have given the most compelling performances#but i digress.#pia.txt
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living proof that opera gx fanboys and twitter are the two worst things in the world /j
(no but seriously though why are these two groups so fuckin aggressive and snappy about nothing. also these guys have gotta have some trash music taste if they're complaining about jetpack joyride's theme out of spite. if you hate it so much go make your own damn playlist without it then aaaaahggh)
#jetpack joyride#twitter sucks#a majority of the things twitter users complain about could literally be solved by 1. ignoring it and 2. MAKING YOUR OWN PLAYLIST!!!!!#like on god if you're so upset that your favourite game wasn't on a company's music playlist then go make your own. it's so easy.#i def think touhou should have been on there because i love touhou but am i complaining about it? no! i'm super happy that one of my-#-favourite special interests made it on there! and if it wasn't on there? ok! that's fine! i'll just make my own playlist! problem solved!#people do not have to bend to YOUR will and put what YOU want on a playlist. not everything revolves around YOU. these are opera's picks-#-not yours. like goddamn.#also living proof that twitter users will hate on literally anything out of spite as soon as it gets more attention.... sigh#it is too early in the morning for this twitter brainrot ragebait shit i'm gonna go brush my teeth
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#the comments on that post saying he’s in love#or that they’re a perfect couple#or that he’s finally found happiness with someone#u what#this is the bad place i swear#am i being a serial monogamist shipper or am i just struggling to understand the preference#of a ship that’s had literally 4 scenes together and have known eachother for 3 weeks#over the ship who have been best friends for 6 years. coparents saved eachother’s lives#codependency and established trust and love#a history#a slow burn over a fast burn#girlies they are not in love after 2 episodes 1 kiss and 1 failed date. i promise#no hate to people who do ship them or multi shippers#do whatever makes you happy#but i’m seeing a lot of hate directed at people who DONT ship them. a lot of -phobic words#chat is it homo/biphobic to have a favourite fictional ship#also i know this has been discoursed a lot but#the amount of putting him on a pedestal as this perfect queer elder who can do no wrong#the perfect introduction to queerness (huh??)#it sits weirdly with me#especially because it suggests eddie is not good enough. not suitable#not worthy of being a first queer love#have i ever ranted so much in my life#yes. but out loud alone in my flat
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Hey Jackie.
Wash your hands
#ask#askblog#oc#jackie verumie#jack jackson#my favourite thing about this ask is how utterly incomprehensible it is to people outside of my friend group#i keep this blog relatively spoiler free but style test 2 kinda just gave away literally everything about jackie#listen theyre my hyperfix oc their arc is allowed to be spoiled or i'd literally combust#also i can't wait for someone to dig this up in 3 years when i have a larger audience of strangers and be like “O H”#though by then the hand washing joke still wont make sense LMAO#that's a LONG con joke#shhhh it's fine this blog is niche right now i'm not concerned about incomprehensibility yet#sorry to the 10% of my followers who do not know anything about these characters LMAO
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i have so many strong feelings abt kaveh i need hyv to release him from their basement already
#while i do absolutely love haikaveh i'm just#very interested in him as a character because#1. he just like me fr (except i'm not as smart)#2. HES JUST SO INTERESTING i want to study him and his brain under a microscope#from the leaks (like before sumeru release)#he was just so fascinating to me bc he's literally named 'kavi' but he took up architecture#although i'm assuming that kaveh as a name means something else entirely i like to hold on to the idea that he wants to#subvert people's expectations of him#i also love the contrast between him and haitham (in a non shipping way) SO much because they're two sides of the same coin#nahida's voiceline for him may be one of my favourite voicelines in genshin because based on what we've seen of him#(in the current story + haitham story leaks)#he's very emotion-driven and opinionated (at least when it comes to haitham? idk)#and also extremely smart even if he makes mistakes/gets scammed sometimes#like even haitham cannot take that away from him#and just idk goodnight i love kaveh if hyv doesn't release him in the patch after dehya i may have to commit a crime#zzz#kaveh#genshin impact
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genuinely think i would make a killing on youtube doing wardrobe organisation/clear outs
#it's legit one of my favourite pastimes i do it every 6-8 weeks and it calms me so much#i also love watching them but only from like 2-3 people bc the vast majority of people do them Wrong#first of all you need to take all your clothes out and go through them one by one as you put them back in#how are you gonna decide if you want to keep something if you can't see it properly???#how are you going to make sure something is hung or folded neatly if you don't actually take it out and fix it??????#and then there's the people who take all the clothes out and sKIP showing them being reorganised???????#is that not the point of the video??????????????#the one i'm watching rn the girl is putting her clothes on hangers and laYING THEM ON THE FLOOR NEXT TO HER???????#instead of hanging them up????????????? madness#anyway i have literally cleaned out and organised friends and family's wardrobes for them before i enjoy it that much#and i'm getting my own new wardrobes soon with way more space and i truly Cannot Wait to organise it#ciara things
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Hi Rachel,
How do you find songs for your character/story playlists?
ok so I have an extremely limited music taste because I’m resistant to change and new music makes me uncomfortable <3 (DESPITE MY WISHES) so I only listen to a roster of ~10 artists that I’ve collected in my pocket like lil shiny rocks over the last ~10 years. (I really wish I could listen to new music just casually but I need to invest my entire life into an artist lol—the difference is for songs everyone hears frequently on the radio or songs I used to listen to at my job when I was 16 which you’ll find in a lot of my Spotify playlists). The reason why is majorly autism but also I buy all my music and don’t stream haha (unless it’s for the Spotify playlists, see above), so it’s an investment!
My ~~artists:
Nothing But Thieves
The Strokes
Surf Curse
Current Joys
Daughter
Greyson Chance
Jeff Buckley
Julia Jacklin
Marika Hackman
Sarah Kinsley
Billie Eilish
Near Tears
Other artists I’m not as invested in now but that teenage me was so invested in that they also appear in playlists:
Ed Sheeran (chokehold on 13-yr-old Rachel)
Katy Perry (I actually… should buy her recent music)
Paramore (was going to put paramore up top because I own most of their discography haha but haven’t kept up with the new albums!)
Whitney
So when I make a playlist, I queue up iTunes and just go through the same 600 songs I’ve been listening to for the last ~10 years LMAO and go like “oh this is relevant!��� and add it to the playlist.
What’s fun is seeing how those same songs hold different meanings for different characters as time goes on!
#asks#this reminds me to put more olivia rodrigo on the Spotify playlists#my 24 yr old brother is apparently obsessed with sour???? he is the main character#anyway if I decide someone is My Favourite I’m in it for life lol#they can just take my money every time new music is released etc#also very curious if most people buy or stream music!!!#I feel kind of ancient buying music now!!!! but I listen to it so often that it makes most sense that way!#I’m so jealous of people who can hit shuffle on a playlist and just enjoy the music#I want that to be me!!! you’re living my dream!!!!!#alas my brain says no we must be 100% or not at all#can you imagine what it’s like to be my family tho#they’ve been listening to the same songs on repeat for literally ten years HAHAHAHAHA#I’ve been listening to the same album every day 5x a day for 2 months straight#this is Rachelcore!!!#and NOOO ONE suspected I was autistic lmaooo#happy autism acceptance month baybeeee!!
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hey Sam I just wanted to pop in and ask how are you feeling? It’s always good to check on people❤️
could be worse but i'm doing better by locking myself up in my room and watching movies and low key critique them. just giving myself something to do when i'm not cleaning. and so far i've been watching animated movies of my childhood since youtube surprisingly still has the full movies uploaded and ironically there's a lot of snow white here tho she's not my fave disney princess. i loved 3 of these direct to video snow white movies and can't wait for that disney live action of snow white to get thoughts about that one
#this all started cuz i was watching scream last night and remembered that the little mermaid is on disney plus rn so i quickly switched#its not my favourite but i did like ariel and eric's chemistry on screen#but dear god was the cgi distracting with how off it looked#theres more i nitpick but i dont think people wanna hear it#but yeah the snow white live action has been on my radar since tiktok puts it between all my thrist edits#and it kills the vibe cuz i just wanna simp for rhea ripley and astarion and buggy the clown and all my other babes in peace but nooooooo#i gotta go and get cheesed at some kid who doesnt even like snow white and completely missed the mark on what her story is about#but yeah so far 2/3 snow white movies i watched today literally fixed/changed the whole issue people have with the kiss#so i dont get why disney had to change it to princess on pirates of the carribean when they couldve done something similar to the dtv ones#ask#answered#anon#random
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had the primal urge of watchinga bunch of movies i loved so i was a lil distracted today
#EXTREMELY MESSY ALERT#HEGHAGRHSGS#not gonna tag this properly#i watched httyd 1 and 2 if you were wondering#and the owls of gahoole movie :)#ommjiiigosh that movie is literally my favourite movie ever of all time oh my goossh#ive never read the book series but that movie has such a special place in my heart#(i am nostalgic)#i only watched it cuz httyd 3 wasnt on stan or netflix :(#but this is a great alternative#how do i 3xplain to people that my favourite movie is a movie about owls#and owls that kill each other and are turned into slaves#urm.#so the only stuff i drew today were just a bunch of owls in different pos3s#BIRDS !!!!!! <3<3<3<3<3#ouugugh i love bird s and moths and ou7gfjdjrhdkkftg#i think owls are my favourite animal cuz of the movie#not even kidding#i would watch it over and over again#my mom watching me watch the same movie again and aga8n just because i love the silly little birds#not even joking this movie had such an impact on me#LIKE OWL CITY IS DEFINITELY MY FAVOURITE ARTIST CUZ OF IT#and fireflies is such a vibe but whatevs that doesnt matter#not even sure if anyone is gonna know about this movie because it wasnt very popular if i remember i mean nobody in my school that i asked-#ever knew so#shrug#watch the owls of gahoole on stan its such a good movie#i realiy should read the books but i have no id3a where to find them#OK RANT OVER GO HOME#UPDATE JUST WATCHED SPIRIT STALLION OF THE CIMMARON AS WELL
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Sin City Theme Song
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#sin city#soundtrack#marv#Youtube#so let them argue. all my kids are growin up. learning the hard lessons and finally a group...a pack?......a murder😈 of adults.#adults who now grasp mortality and limitations. amazingly i took on the children they were only 10 and 11 and had been quite abused.#I have taken them as my own children from that day forward. they deserved no less in this verdant world. it has never been a chore to me.#If you believe in fate I was sent to them So that we could talk through that abuse and trauma. I'm quite experienced in this area lol.#i have served as the peacekeeper ever since. If it's 1 thing I can do it's talk. And when the grandchildren came along i got to be the only~#grandfather that they ever knew. My grandchildren are very good at talking through their problems. At least the ones that I raised#im so proud of them. they are unfortunately wrapped up in their parents drama. but they are being logical and their assessment?#they are shaking their heads like me. then artemesia of course because she feels she has had it worse than anyone she has to jump in d' ring#me and my grandaughter Literally said in concert It's not a competition. so artemesia has retired to her room hurling insults at me.#She goes from 0 to gay slur in less than 60 seconds#im immune to these missiles of hers. again the grandkids shake their heads. They don't judge me and I have no fear of disclosure#It still hurts my feelings that she thinks it hurts my feelings If you catch my meaning. my kids and grandkids are well versed in my past#For some reason it bounces off of me like superman. in a few hours she will want something and come slivering back like a snake#and i will act like nothing at all happened. i already forgive you my slinky little serpentine viper. you are always my favourite vice.#but the whole manor is jumping tonight.#which marv has everything under control.#itts always about money. its the biggest stressor we have at the manor. we constantly and consistantly struggle every day of every week.#i diary blog about it which artemesia hates. she dont like people knowing we use the food bank and we barely stay afloat.#my cancer treatments and meds are a big drain on us. artemesia has gone without her meds at times and missed appts so i can get mine.#many times our appts conflict i have cancelled a few treatment days or rescheduled theres times i can do that with no loss to me.#but its all expensive. all i have is disability and they cut that back two months ago. i get less now and i bet drumpf is going to get me 2#im not complaining. weve always had to struggle but its worth it. my grandkids like money and i did spoil them to my limits but they arent~#moneycentric. which im damn thankful for. i made some good humans. not perfect no far from it and that is beautiful too.#there is fun and warmth and valor and honor in the struggle. it bonds us beyond material comforts. there is so much love to be found!!#it teaches us there is so much more to life than counting beans. Certainly you must have some beans to properly exist in bean world#But like thorin in the dragon's lair you can't let the gold lust possess you.
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